#endoflifes

[writermemoir]

A collection of poems about life. Experiences we have all experienced. Soul stirring words to make you think about your life and loves.

[solarpunkpresentspodcast]

This week, Christina De La Rocha writes about endings. Appropriate for the end of the year, but a heavy topic nonetheless. How can we work towards better endings, for ourselves and for others? What can we do to support people through the ends of their existences? How can we begin to think through this thorny moral issue?

[this-will-be-what-kills-me]

Today the exhaustion felt like it had seeped into my bones and even to have my eyes open was fighting the greatest war. I did the things I had to do and inbetween I lay in bed and prayed for sleep to take me under, just for a little while.

I wonder if the exhaustion is linked to the sadness. That wasn’t in the self help books or on the Google results when I researched what to expect when your mum is dying. I read all about the changes in breathing, the change in skin tone, changes in eating and drinking and sleeping habits. Change, change, change. I close my eyes and wish it would all stay the same. Even in this moment where she’s the worst she’s ever been and I feel like I’m made up of 50% worry and 50% grief, she’s here.

I’ve poured my heart out on these very notes pages more times than I can count… screamed about my hurt from the rooftops. I cried about everything and now none of it seems worth it. In all that time, I never once doubted my strength or ability to carry mountains on my back. I thought that’s what I was doing. But this has taken me down, day by day, minute by minute. I feel this physically slice through my heart 700 times a day and my legs go so weak that I have to sit down and I never know which will be the time I don’t make it back up again.

I just downloaded The Carpenters because she listened to it when I was growing up and I know even now that it will take me years to press play. But if life is all about those little threads and invisible strings then mum, I want spider strength to tie me to you forever and ever and ever. I want to see your face in real life, I want your smiles and your sarcasm and your sharp tongue to be the reality instead of the waking up in the middle of the night with your sadness haunting my dreams. I want it all to be over so badly that I’ll never stop feeling guilty for wishing time to move faster when you have so little of it left. And if we had a thousand or a million seconds to go, I know it would never be enough.

How am I supposed to ever fall in love or buy a house or get married or have a child without you being a part of it. Who do I call when I can’t call ‘mama’ from my phone. How am I supposed to go on living when you’re not here? Up to now, it’s been 18 months of grieving for someone who still takes breaths. Not once in those 18 months have I felt true joy or happiness, not once have I laughed without thinking of all the jokes you’re going to miss. And mum, I am so, so scared. I’m so terrified that I feel sick so often, I cry when I’m on my own for more than 5 minutes, I never put my phone down when I can help it. TV lost its interest a long time ago, songs that I loved became reminders of the biggest loss I’ll ever know. I’m scared because I know what’s coming and I know that I’ll never be ready. All of this I guess is just to say, that if this pain is the price for getting to love you extra these past 18 months, if this pain is punishment for all those years of conflict, if I have no choice other than to sit here and take it then I want you to know that I’d hurt and bleed and cry for you a billion times over. If there was any way on this earth that I could help you to stay then I’d have already found it. And I love you, I love you, I love you. You are a part of me forever ❤️

[lily1903]

Mình chỉ mới trải qua điều thứ 3 nhưng mình gần như đã ngộ cả 4 điều này. Cuộc đời này không có thứ gì quan trọng hơn những người mà bạn yêu thương và yêu thương bạn. Tất cả những thứ nằm ngoài vòng tròn đó đều không quan trọng và đến khi bạn đi đến điều cuối cùng thì tất cả đều trở nên vô nghĩa. Dù bạn có sống trọn vẹn cho cuộc đời bạn hay bạn sống với nhiều tiếc nuối thì đến cuối cùng tất cả cũng đều là trần về trần, thổ về thổ. Nên là tranh giành, níu kéo, khổ đau cũng chẳng để làm gì, còn vui thì cùng đi tiếp, hết vui rồi thì bạn cứ đi đường của bạn, mình qua cầu của mình.

[eyetcsuffolk]

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[fouluniversitywolftrash]

Running to commit a murder, one day i was riding my bike, looking around i saw her, she was running around the neighborhood, she worn her headphones, drops of sweating on her chins, her hair on her shoulders was waving like the sea, then she stopped , i went to her and i asked her for an address about my home, i was lost so she offered that she will take me on a walk to my home, honestly i was impressed but she told me that, she finished her labs and she was on way to her place, when we arrived i asked her for giving me her number and she didn’t mind, i was happy, i told her i’ll arrange my schedule then i’ll call her back. She was so pretty and cute. Next day at the morning i call her, i invite her to take a dinner together, she told me that will be casual date, i said okay, i took her to a fabulous restaurant, there was a musicians playing hotel california, the plates and food was amazing and expensive, we spent a good time together and it ended by. A kiss on my chins, so next day she sent me a msg that she had a good time and she was happy and wanted to go out with me again but she would to go another restaurant more cheaper than the first one, so i took her to watch a football match, she was a fan of Chicago, and i got to tickets for the game, we spent a good time together that day ended with a kiss on my chins, then i tried to call her several time but she didn’t answer, after 3 days, she called me and she was sorry her father entered to hospital and she was there with him and she wouldn’t to get me in her problems now, i told her that if i can’t stand with you in your problems so who can do this, she told me father will be ok, he returned to home and i am on my way to home so let we meet up tonight, i agreed, she sent me her home location, on my way this time i went to flower shop, i got roses, lili’s and wild flowers to give to her. I booked for us a table in a fancy restaurant, when i arrived to her place i rang the bill, she opened, she was the most beautiful women, i never met. I got shock, i gave her the flowers, she liked them, i told her lets go but she told me that no please i cooked for you, it was amazing, it never ever someone cooked for me, she made a pasta with red sauce, steak and she poured some red wine with lighting candles, she played a music, so we danced after we finished eating, and in the end of the music she gave me a deep kiss with a tongue and i felt some pain in my back, i looked at the mirror she stepped me in my back, i saw i knife in my back, she told me that all of is Mostafa Abu Hagar.

[rockinjohnny]

Life

[lauriewoodward]

Hospice Call

“It’s time to call Hospice,” she says. “Claudia isn’t eating.” “But…” The words die on my lips Desiccated and dry. I listen to The voice on the line. Waiting for A digital caress To unclench my heart. And help me Do the right thing For love. About Laurie: The author of Forests Secrets and Finding Joy as well as The Pharaoh’s Cry,  Portal Rift, Persistence of Memory, Kidnapped Smile,…

[digitalcreationsllc]

Over 20,000 Vulnerable Microsoft Exchange Servers Exposed to Attacks

Over 30,000 servers have reached the end-of-life stage, with many still vulnerable to critical security issues. Some of these vulnerabilities can lead to remote code execution.

[treabi7]

I am at the point in life where every decision has to be super calculated

[cristian-calistru]

With excitement, I am thrilled to announce that I have been selected to exhibit a graphic work at the 20th National Art Biennial "Lascăr Vorel." This is a moment of great significance for me, and I can't wait to share this wonderful news with all of you!

The "Lascăr Vorel" Biennial is a benchmark event in the Romanian art world, and this year, we have the privilege of having the art historian and philosopher, Erwin Kessler, as the jury president. This gives me confidence that my artwork has potential and truly deserved to be selected for display in this prestigious setting.

Exhibition Dates: October 31, 2023 - January 9, 2024

Location: Piatra-Neamț Museum of Arts, 1 Piața Libertății Street, Piatra Neamț, Romania

The opening reception will take place on October 30th at 5:00 PM, and I warmly invite you to join. It will be a special moment to not only explore my artwork but also to discover the creations of other talented artists who will be present at the exhibition.

[getnotesonlife]

Highway 50 across Nevada has been called “The Loneliest Road in America.” It crosses five valleys and mountain ranges between Utah and California and gives the illusion of roads that go off into the distance that will never end.

Life is like that too. When most people look into the future, they see a road of life that seems like it will never end, but when I drove across Highway 50 I discovered that the longest “infinite” road was only about 20 miles. Many people’s daily commutes are longer than that – hardly an unfathomable distance.

The point is that like the warning “Objects In Mirror Are Closer Than They Appear” in that what we PERCEIVE as being a long way away is quickly zooming up to us. While you may think that you have plenty of time in life - like traversing Highway 50 - your road is going to end much sooner than you see or think and when the road ends…then what?

Well it won’t be at a truck stop restaurant, resort hotel, or another mountain pass followed by another valley across another stretch of Route 50. The fact is that the great road trip of life will come to a dead end and there will be no turning back. The question you need to come to grips with is what will you do then and where will you be when your life road-trip is over?

The Bible says that “… people are destined to die…and after that to face judgment,” In life, we are all destined to come to the end of the road of life. Google maps doesn’t have the answer, but the Bible’s God Provisioning System does. It says that your path to heaven was paved 2,000 years ago on a Cross via a Crossroad located on Calvary. Jesus told us the answer when he said,

“Very truly I tell you, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be judged but has crossed over from death to life.” John 5:24

When the road you are on ends, where will it take you?

God Bless Your Day Jesus Loves You

[get-notes-on-life]

Highway 50 across Nevada has been called “The Loneliest Road in America.” It crosses five valleys and mountain ranges between Utah and California and gives the illusion of roads that go off into the distance that will never end.

Life is like that too. When most people look into the future, they see a road of life that seems like it will never end, but when I drove across Highway 50 I discovered that the longest “infinite” road was only about 20 miles. Many people’s daily commutes are longer than that – hardly an unfathomable distance.

The point is that like the warning “Objects In Mirror Are Closer Than They Appear” in that what we PERCEIVE as being a long way away is quickly zooming up to us. While you may think that you have plenty of time in life - like traversing Highway 50 - your road is going to end much sooner than you see or think and when the road ends…then what?

Well it won’t be at a truck stop restaurant, resort hotel, or another mountain pass followed by another valley across another stretch of Route 50. The fact is that the great road trip of life will come to a dead end and there will be no turning back. The question you need to come to grips with is what will you do then and where will you be when your life road-trip is over?

The Bible says that “… people are destined to die…and after that to face judgment,” In life, we are all destined to come to the end of the road of life. Google maps doesn’t have the answer, but the Bible’s God Provisioning System does. It says that your path to heaven was paved 2,000 years ago on a Cross via a Crossroad located on Calvary. Jesus told us the answer when he said,

“Very truly I tell you, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be judged but has crossed over from death to life.” John 5:24

When the road you are on ends, where will it take you?

God Bless Your Day Jesus Loves You

[bumps]

Hospice

[jimfostercoc]

In "Life, Death & Bialys: A Father/Son Baking Story," author Dylan Schaffer writes a unique memoir about how he struggled to reach closure with his dying father Flip after being estranged since he and his siblings were left alone with their mother decades earlier. This discussion with the author took place on a 2006 episode of "Conversations On The Coast with Jim Foster" originating in San Francisco, California. Photo: dylanschaffer.com