#emotional agony

[whataqueerpix]

I feel a legitimate sense of dread-

W h a t

What the hell Rat?? Lux?? WINSWEEP??

AAAAAAAAAAAAAÆ

[bluebunnyears-08]

Keep Your Head Up!

Sonic reminiscences about his friends.

(

I decided to do one based on Sonic.

Sonic suffering, of course.

That's it ^v^

)

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They looked like them.

They sounded like them.

Most of them even had the same mannerisms as them.

But they weren't them.

They didn't act like them.

They didn't talk like them.

They didn't feel like them.

Amy Rose, once the sweetest and cutest friend to have now was either cold, and lacked compassion. Her once warm and cheery green eyes now blank and empty or filled with suspicion and feral anger.

No more adorable strength, no more cheerfulness, nothing but brute force and stoic brutality.

Rouge, once the alluring jewel thief. He didn't spend much time around her, the bat preferred to keep to herself. But he noticed how she now lead resistance's or groups, nothing like the lone bat thief she once was.

And while he wasn't as bothered with that, he still found it hard to accept and get used to.

Knuckles, once a powerful fighter and dependent friend, was now either crazy or selfishly greedy. His steady blue eyes gleamed with unstable intent.

He even missed him at this point.

Shadow wasn't doing so well either. While he stayed his stoic self, the hero saw some cracks slip through, ones that Shadow obviously hoped nobody would notice, how his eyes held so much pain and sadness, how he was more aggressive than usual, how his voice would barely shake when talking about home.

But the blue urchin didn't say anything, never commented on it. He didn't think Shadow would accept it anyway with how mad he is at him.

Then there was...him. The fox who always stuck by his side, who was once just a little kid who followed him around, who was always tinkering away on inventions a happy smile on his face, who was the greatest friend, greatest brother, anyone could ask for.

Most of his variants were the same, but not exactly. Mangey was nothing but a feral animal, unable to even speak, only talking with grunts and growls and Sails, while being the closest to resemble him, didn't have...it just wasn't the same.

But then there was Nine, the most different from him. The metal tailed fox was blunt and cold, barely smiled, worked alone, was always alone. Once bright and curious baby blues were now cold and pained icy blue (please dont look at me like that). Once fluffy and bright fur was now limp and pale. His ears were longer than his too, ending with darkened tips at the end.

He noticed how Nine's metal tails wrapped around his organic ones, making an illusion of one tail. He felt his ears droop at the sight.

The most painful thing was how...isolated and...and scared this kid was. When he first met them, they attacked him because he called them his name he broke into their lab. 

And he felt a harsh pang in his chest at how much they hated his name at how lonely this kit is.

He couldn't bear the sight of it.

So he tried to make sure he was there for Nine. Giving him compliments and encouragement, cheering him on, letting the fox lean on him for support, everything he used to do for him.

But it still hurt so so much...sucked.

All of this still sucked so much.

He sometimes wished he would wake up and all of this would be over. Just a nightmare.

But that never happened, he was still here, still in the now broken world he once lived in and protected.

Sometimes he felt a wetness in his eyes a little down, but he held his head high.

All of this will work out in the end, he just has to keep going, just has to keep staying positive. 

Just keep going.

Just.

Stay.

Positive.

[yes-asil]

(Don't attack)

> Attack the only person left

[lotus-pear]

fuck studio bones for not including chuuya’s “no witty commentary” line and dazai’s slow and almost mournful reply. dazai doesn’t jest about his victory or flaunt it in front of nikolai like he does with other villains. he lets him mourn.

dazai knows what it’s like to lose the only person that looked past your violent and cruel exterior and into your true essence. your heart. dazai knows what it’s like to lose the only person that ever understood you. and that’s why he digresses and tells chuuya to leave quietly by his side.

[moonshynecybin]

have you seen this vale watching marc video???!!!

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGeKkBQuD/

it's making me insane for some reason. i need to know what's going on inside vale's head in that moment

vale looks like he’s gonna throw up 10/10

[icecappen]

Just the two of us

[chronologically-challenged]

Inconsolable over saapfrin internally going on about their cheeks hurting from how much they've been keeping up a smile, how they HAVE to keep this fixed grin, and then as Loop, the Universe went "Oh? You don't want to smile anymore? That's okay. I'll Just Take Your Mouth."

[try-set-me-on-fire]

oh superman, oh judge, oh mom and dad

[jinxie-117]

hey so you guys ever think about how master chief nearly inserted the index into the core and pulled the plug on all sentient life in the entire galaxy? you ever think about how he thought it was the right thing right up until cortana told him it wasn't? you ever think about how he stood there realising the fact he nearly killed all the people he would have died to protect? you ever think? you ever think??? you ever think????????

[nyxofdemons]

unable to get behind the idea that fizz "forgave blitz too quickly" or that it was a writing flaw how easily he accepted blitz's version of the story or whatever like. no!!! it makes sense!!!

blitz was his best friend!! of COURSE he wouldn't want to believe that blitz tried to hurt him so badly!! blitz tells him what happened and fizz IMMEDIATELY softens in the way he's looking at him. he doesn't even look mad or like he thinks he's being lied to, like -

LOOK AT HIS FACE HE WANTED TO FORGIVE BLITZ SO BADLY. HE NEVER WANTED TO BELIEVE THAT BLITZ DID THIS TO HIM ON PURPOSE.

even all his little microexpressions in this one scene say SO MUCH

fizz probably spent SO LONG trying to rationalize or explain what happened to him, he probably spent AGES hoping so badly that there was an explanation that DIDN'T involve his best friend hating him so much he tried to kill him as painfully as possible

and to say it feels contrived; i just. fizz CARES!! the same way blitz has always CARED!! they never wanted to stop being in each other's lives - they both suffered a major trauma and were made to believe that the other one hated them, but they were BEST friends and always had been. how could either of them ever not jump at the chance that it was a mistake? how could fizz not cling to the possibility that his best friend might be able to still be his best friend?

[taylorwithluvs]

AMY LEE in MY IMMORTAL by EVANESCENCE (2003)

[echolepzy]

Seeing other people experiencing ISAT for the first time is so fucking funny because like

Oh!!!! I remember how that felt! Yikes! Anyway keep going pal you’re doing great (silent screaming because It Gets Worse and yet nothing can be said without spoiling it)

[queen-of-dogs-01]

So this is what happens when my fav villain from the franchise also becomes the main villain of the fanfic I'm obsessed with. I was gonna share this before chapter 15 came out but apparently @qoldenskies works at lightspeed

Umm I also got shitty close-ups

[raceydays-hopelesshaze]

I think I should be able to kill republicans

[im-an-anthusiast]

Divine Punishment

Prometheus, first punishee of mine

For your ears were deaf to my words divine

I will miss you, ‘till it is time to dine

The pain will blind you, ‘till you grow a spine

I am your mountain, I am your hawk

I am the beak piercing skin, I am chained rock

By sharp reminder, you are made aware-

Though you are bound to me, I am not there

I weave everything, from nothing at all

Deaf to silence, you refuse my call

The pain blinded you, then you grew a spine

Gladly and rightfully, you rebroke mine

My dearest Atlas, my longest captive

Sweet on my tongue, the most addictive

Dead in foreign tracks, the least reactive

My weight will crush you, as long as I live

The sky on your back, the ground beneath you

A pressure far greater, than you were due

I am both, your most omnipresent ache

A punishment, for your torturer’s sake

I waste everything, from nothing at all

Deaf from screaming, you refuse my call

The pressure choked you, then you chose to live

Gladly and rightfully, refused which I give

Sweet Sisyphus, oh, how you have suffered

So sweet, we both were, until I soured

You promised, then realised – and tired

This isn’t the fate, for which you scoured

Do you not love the heights, to which we go?

Aren’t they worth going a little low?

Push me up again, up our little hill

I am it and the boulder, you push still

I ruin everything, from nothing at all

Deaf to pleading, you refuse my call

The cycle trapped you, at last, you broke out

Gladly and rightfully, chose life without

I lose everything, from nothing at all

Doomed by silence, screaming, pleading – it all

For the living out there, buyer beware

If my love doesn’t hurt, it isn’t there

[blake-ritson-love]

Blake Ritson as Morgan Ward in Interview with the Vampire - season 2, episode 1