#emokyoshi

[yourfavessexualityshouldvebeen]

light yagami should've been gay

[Id: a photo of Light Yagami from Death Note against the gay man flag]

Light Yagami from Death Note should’ve been gay!

[that-was-anticlimactic]

(friendships) fuck uh aang & yue, ice

hello :) ooooooo okay okay okay

pushing the yue with pots (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome) agenda because i can so yue has pots in thus :)

modern au: one day after school, yue misses the bus (she’s a junior and only has her permit because her parents are nervous to let her drive because they are overprotective) because she was talking to a teacher about a test she needs to make up

so she thinks home isn’t too far away, i can walk home--it’s like a ten minute walk which is a terrible idea but yue doesn’t want to call her mom and ask her to pick her up or bother any of her friends (even tho they’d all help her in an instance)

what she forgot about, tho, is that it’s winter and there’s this semi-steep hill she has to walk up to get home (if she doesn’t go that way, it adds another fifteen minutes) and she takes a deep breath and starts walking

but she gets fatigued really quickly and suddenly there’s a patch of ice and she slips and falls. luckily, she doesn’t fall down the hill, but she falls and she’s so tired and out of breath and she’s dizzy and feels close to passing out even tho she knows she probably won’t and also it’s cold and she’s holding herself up which means her hand in on the ice but she can’t get herself up--

and then she hears a familiar voice call her name and it’s aang and he’s running up the hill, jumping over / avoiding any patches of ice he sees and he doesn’t ask questions or berate her for walking up the hill, he just slowly helps her up.

when she’s up, he offers his arm and she holds onto him the rest of the way up and to her house and he doesn’t mention it--he just chats with her. i mean, he asks if she’s okay (obviously), but he never brings it up because he doesn’t want to embarrass her or make her feel bad

and this is like the first real conversation yue ever had with aang since she only ever really speaks to him when he’s with katara or sokka or suki and she can’t help but think he is the purest kid ever??? and even when they reach her house, she invites him in for hot chocolate and he ends up staying for dinner and afterwards because aang manages to charm her parents and because yue wants him to stay

and then they become great friends and it all happened because yue slipped on ice

send me a character / a platonic friendship / a romantic relationship + a word and i’ll give you a headcanon

[theolddivorcedzukka]

mm you have adhd. you are highly sarcastic & use this as a cover. you are also impulsive and it feels like you're constantly making mistakes that you can't take back. it makes you feel like you ruin everything, even though people reassure you you don't. also you're bi

[azuzula]

hm. idk if youve seen it but doctor who

british alien man (also a woman too?) kidnaps people (usually women?) to time travel in blue phonebox. david tennant. superwholock.

[nonbinarychaoticstupid]

you want to fistfight the universe but you would also go out of your way to apologise for kicking an atom

JNKSCIJDKDS I MEAN. YOU' RE NOT WRONG

[autistic-yuri]

💸

Ooo it’s tempting to say no because of the milf Ozai posting but I will, because your tales are amazing

[magicofthepen]

💡☀️⭐ for knock the ice from my bones? (haven't read anything else you've written unfortunately)

send me questions about my fic! 

thank you for sending these!!

💡- What was the motivation behind the story?

ooh Backstory Time: so this is my first Gallifrey fic! (okay, All These Restless Ghosts is also my first Gallifrey fic, because that was the first one I finished and posted, but the first Gallifrey writing I ever did was for the fic that ended up becoming knock the ice from my bones.) 

I wanted to write a character study about Romana and relationships post-Etra Prime, continuing through the Gallifrey audios, but I hadn’t written fic in years and didn’t have a good understanding of the scope of such a project. so I ended up with about 3k of a post-TAE, pre-Gallifrey audios Romana character study before stopping. plus maybe an additional 15k of headcanons and notes and ramblings about Romana and her personal relationships. (fun fact: the og Romana Headcanon Doc ended up being the basis of a lot of my other fics, although many of the headcanons evolved over time.)

this was in summer 2019, for reference. so I set that fic idea aside to work on All These Restless Ghosts/Eye of the Storm/So Cold It Burns/the original Echoes Between Us. but I liked the idea of reworking the Apocalypse Element/Neverland/Zagreus stuff that I’d written into a character study just focusing on that time period. so that idea ended up on my long list of Stuff To Write Eventually.

skip ahead to summer 2020, when it landed on my list of Active Projects. but while the original idea was to focus on Romana’s struggles with forming relationships, I realized that identity should really be the main theme of this fic. (aka Romana struggling to figure out who she is after Etra Prime, as she’s constantly having who she’s not thrown in her face.) I re-outlined it and drafted the new version - which meant lots of new scenes, but also lots of fleshing out scenes that I’d already written, which were pretty sketch-like in the 3k version. (actually, if anyone’s interested, it might be fun to post a “before and after” comparison of a scene?)

that draft is pretty close to the final version - although the “italics” bits were the big thing I added later. I felt like it needed something to better tie the individual scenes into one cohesive character analysis…hence the “there was once” refrain, which shifts as Romana’s sense of identity is destabilized more and more, and shifts again to “there is” when she manages to claim a sense of identity at last. (one of the tricky bits of this fic for me was wanting to tell a story that had some sort of conclusion, while also knowing that the effect of Etra Prime on Romana’s sense of self lasts far longer than the scope of this fic. so I basically asked myself ‘how does she get from where’s she at post-TAE to where she’s at in Weapon of Choice?’ and went from there.)

☀️ - Was there symbolism/motifs you worked in?

the “there was once” sections (the storytelling motif)! these snippets of stories Romana tells herself about who she is, the story changing each time, until all of these contradictory, not right ideas are racing together in her head and is she any of these people? who even is she anymore? 

the “there was once” language is meant to evoke parables with simple characters and themes because Romana’s trying so hard to tell herself this nice, neat story…..but the effects of trauma are so much more complicated than that, and so the simple story never sticks. 

leaning on the language of storytelling was also important to me because telling herself a story about herself is something we actually hear Romana doing in the aftermath of Etra Prime. and I know the fanfic is a Fun Joke thing, but I also wanted to explore it (indirectly, the fic never explicitly references it, but the implications are there) as a kind of coping mechanism. 

If the Daleks never existed, who would she be? A young student who took to the stars and decided the whole universe was worth knowing? An experienced traveler who said that staying behind was worthwhile, too? A bold politician who believed that where you're from might be just as important as where you’re going? What would people mean, when they said Madam President, daughter of Heartshaven, Romana?

If she is destined to be the villain of this story, would she be the hero in a different one?

The walls of the presidential suite trap sound. If she screams, no one can hear. If she paces into the hours of the morning, feet wearing the same tired tracks on her rugs, no one will know.

If she tells herself a story, one where she made the right choices, where she didn’t fail, wasn’t trapped, never disappointed anyone who believed in her — if she tells herself a pretty lie because sometimes it’s the only thing keeping her breathing, who will ever care?

⭐ - What’s a scene/paragraph you’re proud of?

whoops I already posted an excerpt…and this is already so long so I’m going to go with a short-ish moment - the one time I let Romana have the catharsis of an emotional breakdown (and also the tragedy of the only person she can let herself cry around is her robot dog). 

A metallic whirring cuts through her thoughts, and she flinches, eyes darting to exits and potential weapons before a part of her remembers that sound.

“Mistress?”

“K9?”

Twenty years. He’s still here.

K9 rolls out onto the carpets of her sitting room and cheerfully explains how the interim president had his circuits maintained and found his databanks of knowledge useful at times for dealing with a minor crisis. She doesn’t speak for a full microspan.

Then she lets herself stumble, fall to her knees to reach out one hand to the robot dog who was her only companion for so many years. There is something bubbling in her throat that she can’t name, something she hasn’t let herself feel in so long. She presses a hand to his cool metal exterior and blinks and blinks.

“Mistress? Is something wrong?”

She shakes her head, but her eyes are burning and her chest is tight and she buries her face in her arms.

“I missed you,” she whispers, her voice breaking at last, “I missed you.” And here in her old rooms, next to the only old friend she has left, she cries for the first time since Etra Prime.

[zukkas]

uhhh zukka maiko ozai/eternal hellfire

zukka:

maiko:

ozai/eternal hellfire:

[rolandtowen]

happy birthday <3 you have completed another rotation around the sun

Thank you! Here's to many more rotations

[vxmpire-cxsh]

💰

all your content, but especially shitposts

[iotaqizm]

⭐ you're one of my spn mutuals and seeing destiel on the dash is always funny. i have no idea what you're talking about but i hope your poor little meow meows have a nice time being gay in hell

:D i can assure you they are

[that-was-anticlimactic]

if we are doing disability headcanons >:) :

katara with dyspraxia

yue w chronic fatigue. everyone! is! exhausting!

azula with bpd & adhd

autistic ty lee

sokka has synesthesia and oh my god aang!! fish do not taste like blue shut UP they smell like waterbending

nOT ME GETTING THIS PREPARED TO POST AND THEN FORGETTING ABOUT IT I--jeg siger undskyld (i apologize in danish lol)

ooooh... katara with dyspraxia... oh wow... this wins. i will now forever hc katara with dyspraxia. it's just. that's so good and idk it just fits her so well??? like. your MIND !

yue with chronic fatigue rights !!! i love it <3

aZULA WITH BPD SO TRUE !!! and adhd ??? i love that. so true. exactly that... now i'm thinking about azula with undiagnosed adhd because of her dad and status. and she had to push any odd behaviors of her deep down and lock them up and never think about or mention them. and it's only until sokka or jet or someone is talking about having adhd and azula is like "wait--" like ahhhh and undiagnosed bpd too... someone diagnose this poor child...

autistic ty lee... i love it... i feel like i keep repeating myself but these are bangers...

yES HOLY TRASH YES !!! sokka with synesthesia... i love it so very much. please,,, i am CACKLING at the "fish do not taste blue shut..." that's amazing and would be a conversation they have iuhghuiohu

these are AMAZING ! thank you for sending them to me and i am so sorry for the delay in telling you how much i love them.

[theolddivorcedzukka]

mint choc chip ice cream is going to HELL

YOU’RE SICK AND TWISTED DIE

[azuzula]

🍓!!

my BELOVED!!! absolutely one of my favs even tho we barely interact outside of rbing and etc 💔 i adore seeing ur posts!!

[wokeleftistmob]

[additional id: luz is wearing a bracelet with the bi flag colors. /end id]

anyway if you bitches start idiotic ship wars in 2021 I’m flat out punching you in the face — hope this helps!

[autistic-yuri]

<3

A city on fire. You wake up in the middle of the night, and look across the bay to see the neighboring city is on fire. There’s distant wails of fire trucks, and you want to tear your eyes away from the destruction, but you can’t. Thousands of homes being destroyed, and you don’t know what the hell to do.