#emily arrow music

[bodhi-ryuchai]

Black Arrows to the Sun...)))->

Have any you ever heard the term multidisciplinary artist? I definitely have but I have yet to meet an indivudual in person. Alice Karveli a.k.a. Black Arrows personifies how a multidisciplinary artists operates. I’m planning Ambient Communion III compilation (in which I plan to finally put out this coming Winter 2025). It will feature some male and female experimental artist who music uses…

[stone-stars]

[ID: A doodle of a person with glasses and short hair (me), crying with watery eyes. Music notes float in the air around them, and an arrow points to them labeled "Emily Axford + Brian Murphy's fault.]

they weren't lying. that naddpod sure can music.

[darkmasterofcupcakes]

The Sera headcanon for Charlie's "gay/bi awakening" were because of her being among the "tall mommy" type of characters alongside Lilith and Carmilla.

Headcanon time (CWF Human AU) :

Fencing and martial arts are both thing very loved in the community, honor duels being a thing for many both lower and upper classes, which they monetize by having these duels happens in sports events and other things, they also try to keep it without deadly weapons.

Music and arts in general are loved in the town, and bring a lot of cash, though there's a lot of tensions between the parts of the population.

Lucia (Lute's original name) is the daughter of Agatha, who was a fierce supporter of the catholic angle of the opposition to the "communist scums" in the cold war with family in the military in Francoist Spain (since in CWF she likely would have been more affiliated with Spain), though Lucia learned Spanish dialects outside of the Castillan one thanks to Agatha's friends and their children in America, as these friends of Agatha came from the various Spanish-speaking American nations.

Lucia learned to take a chill pill from hanging out with Adam and her army-buddies during her military service.

Adam is kind of the town's golden boy, excellent military service, musically gifted and doing rock concerts but also more "prim and proper" gigs, referring to the angel side, which allowed a lot of the youth to enjoy rock since Adam wasn't seen as a thug.

On a personal level however, his life is a mess.

Lute got her nickname from Adam, who gave it due to her proficiency with the guitar while mocking her more old-fashioned background and attitude.

Lute hate Lucifer because he and his sins are low-key oligarchs of the town, doing stuff from "weird but not really harmful" to "the only reason why you're not in prison is that I can't find proofs".When it was discovered that Lute was pregnant, Agatha kicked her out, and Adam gave her shelter for a few weeks whole convincing Sera, who had a much more spacious residence, to take her in.

Sera, who secretly was pregnant with Emily, took pity and took Lute in, but Lute, who refused to be "some charity case", became kind of her secretary.

Lute hate Lilith, beside because of bias from Adam and jealousy of appearance, because it was during a meeting with the Morningstars then she gave birth to Vaggie, and Lilith and Sera helped with the birth since there was no time to call a doctor.

Lute hated feeling so vulnerable before Lilith of all people.

Adam here help out Lute monetarily, officially because Lute lacking monetary issues mean they can hang out more, unofficially, it's that+wanting to help for with Vaggie.

Adam is the music teacher, specifically guitar.

Despite knowing Adam is her granddaughter's father, because he and Eve were still technically married, Agatha see Lute as a home-wrecking slut

Despite being on the bad side of the town, Lucifer still held his classist beliefs, hence why he sent Charlie to Sera's Academy.

Charlie befriended Emily when they were 6, and properly met Vaggie when they were 14, once Charlie had her growth spurt, which coincided with when she started drifting away a bit from Lute, they were still tight, but Vaggie was softer and also more flexible ideologically, compared to the very much right-wing Lute who, beside her love of hanging out with her friends and relationship with Adam, was still mostly Agatha's precious daughter mentally.

Lute discovered Vaggie was gay due to seeing Vaggie and Emily kissing when the two girls were 14, since they wanted to know what it felt like and were the only ones with whom the other girl could feel comfortable enough trying to discover without breaking the friendship if they didn't had feelings, they're not close friends, but they have known each other too long not to be comfortable.

Lute is as straight as an arrow, but she have many gay and bi friends, and she didn't want to alienate her daughter, so she was supportive, that support on the matter being key to why Vaggie didn't stopped liking the more physical/combat things and didn't actively tried to distance herself from her mother.

I think Adam and Vaggie are quite awkward with each other here.

What's Sera and Emily's relationship like?

Beside Adam, Lucifer, Lute and Lilith (unless Lucifer doesn't tell her because it's too private), who know that Emily is actually Sera's daughter?

Okay, this is a lot to go over, so it's probably going to take me a while to fully respond to this...I'm also not going in order, just commenting on things as my brain decides to focus on them.

Lucia as Lute's birth name is honestly a really good pick, though I do imagine she was often called "Lucy" when she was young, something she dropped as an adult...which ended up helping a lot with avoiding confusion when she started having to associate with Lucifer, who's nickname was "Luci".

They do call an ambulance when Lute is giving birth to Vaggie, just because they do know that both Lute and the baby will need to be looked over by an actual doctor - especially with Vaggie still being born a few weeks early here - but because Lute's labor progresses very fast for a first pregnancy/delivery, and the nearest hospital is a fair distance away....Lilith and Sera know they've got to actually deliver the baby. With Lute remaining stubborn and refusing to fully accept she was in labor despite all the clear signs, insisting that there was no way the baby was coming now - she's still got six weeks left and she's done everything right, so she shouldn't be in labor already. It's not until the baby starts crowning, and particularly when Lilith using a compact mirror to basically make Lute have to see that, yes, she is having her baby right now, that she accepts what's happening and stops trying to fight against it.

Lute is both thankful for Sera giving her a place to stay, but also frustrated at needing the help. She insists she’s only staying until she has the baby and has saved up enough for an apartment for the two of them. But that takes some time, even with Adam sending her money to help. Partly because Lute hates accepting the money from Adam (or anyone) since she doesn’t like to feel like she’s a “charity case”. So she and Vaggie live with Sera and Emily until Vaggie’s just over two years old.

Congratulations, Agatha - you basically share the opinion of a seven year old. Though Cain doesn't think of Lute as a slut...at least when he's that young. But he does blame her (and Vaggie) for his parents splitting up, since he knew the basics of where babies came from when he met Lute during the time she lived with Adam after her mother kicked her out and cut her off; and when he found out Lute being there meant he was getting a new brother or sister...he basically just went like, "Okay, so this lady's having a baby with my dad, and that's why him and my mom don't live together anymore." As you can probably guess, he wasn't thrilled about Lute living in his dad's place, even if it was just temporary.

Adam and Vaggie's relationship is definitely a bit awkward here, since in this version of events, he does want to be more involved in her life from an earlier age (or at least be able to be open about the fact that he's her father) but Lute, partially because she did somewhat internalize some of the insults her mother threw at her when she found out she was pregnant, refuses to let him do either, not wanting to risk feeling judged and thought of as a slut who slept with and got knocked up by her friend pretty much as soon as he wasn't living with his wife anymore. His wife who had given birth to his sons, the eldest of whom was only about six and the youngest wasn't even a year old, so she also had the issue of feeling like she'd be judged for "taking the boys' father from them." But Adam does still spend time with Vaggie occasionally, usually when Lute had something she needed to do and wasn't able to find anyone else to watch Vaggie for a few hours.

Vaggie does eventually learn Adam is her father....thanks to a drunk Cain blurting it out during his 21st birthday party, which Vaggie was invited to due in part to the fact that Abel and Seth were allowed to each invite one of their own friends, and Seth chose Vaggie, since the two of them were actually friends. Even if they mostly just talked via texts and video chat once Vaggie started going to the academy.

Bonus: Lute teaching at the academy was a big part of why Vaggie was able to attend - children of the staff get free tuition, though they do still have to pay for things like uniforms. The promise that her daughter would be able to attend the school, which was considered pretty prestigious, is what convinced Lute to take the job when Sera offered it to her, despite initially refusing because taking a job offered by her "friend" felt too much like charity for her liking.

Sera and Emily have a pretty good relationship for Emily's childhood....but there starts to be some tension as Emily starts getting into her teenage years. Mostly because she starts to question how honest her "sister's" been with her for her whole life, particularly because Sera refuses to let her see any pictures of their parents, or really answer any of her questions about what they were like before they died. And Emily isn't stupid by any means, so all of that felt weird to her. And the feeling that Sera was keeping something from her caused Emily to start becoming more distant from her...while she tried figuring out the answers for herself.

A few other members of the staff at the Academy know Emily is actually Sera's daughter, but they swore to keep it secret. Outside of them, nobody knows the truth besides those you listed...and obviously the doctors who delivered Emily, and technically the people who filed her birth certificate.

[possum-quesadilla]

Whoop. Oops. I got too excited to write the next chapter…

Chapter 5 of Lonely Remnants, “Now you remember where you came from, Now you remember where you’re going, You’ve got to keep it flowing” is here!

I promise I’ll work on the next chapter of Time’s Arrow after this besties.

PLEASE READ THE WARNINGS BEFORE PROCEEDING. THIS CHAPTER IS PARTICULARLY ROUGH.

Here are the extras!

- The lyrics for this chapter’s title are from “Spiral of Ants” by Lemon Demon! I’m sure the meaning is obvious, especially by the end of the chapter. :)

- “The lights were off within, and she could hear a faint, familiar humming resounding throughout.” - The Shoggoth doesn’t need to turn the lights on because it can see in the dark better than in the light.

- “It had changed into some sort of D.A.R.E. hoodie that used to be Lawrence’s, the left sleeve having yet to be tied off.” - I wonder why Lawrence has a D.A.R.E. hoodie?

- “She jolted in surprise when a tail swished anxiously behind the Shoggoth. It was long and thin, reaching down to his ankles, covered in black fur with a large tuft at the end.” - based on a medieval unicorn’s tail! Mostly for funsies with the design. And, y’know, thematic reasons. Like all the other features. ;)

- Car games - thank you to my mutuals in the discord server for the help picking them this time!! <33

- “ “What type of name would you like?” Barbara asked, glancing back at the demon. “Masculine? Feminine? Something ambiguous?” The demon blinked at her, furrowing his brows. “… huh?” ” - the Shoggoth has no concept of gender, hence why it uses it/its pronouns right now! (Eventually, it will shift to it/they.)

- “It seemed them pulling in past the sign that welcomed them to the town of ‘Hatchet Springs’ made something click in it’s mind.” - The name of the town is a mixture of two of my favorite fictional towns, both of which are thematically relevant! Hatchetfield from the Hatchetfield trilogy and Possum Springs from “Night in the Woods”.

- “ “… it looks so dorky.” The Shoggoth shrinked in on itself a bit, and the preteen held her hands up. “In a good way! I would totally not suspect you’re a demon. You fly under the radar.” ” - the Shoggoth really, really cares what Lydia things.

- “It kept insisting in a hissed whisper that someone was following them, but every time Lydia looked where the demon had indicated, there was nobody there.” - It wasn’t Juno! :)

- Collette - The last name has a specific thematic purpose beyond being a reference to Justin Collette!

- Thank you again to my homies for helping with the math on the poster!! Math is hard!!

- “Hair long and wild, unstyled and dyed with streaks of purple.” - Juno never taught him how to brush his hair or care for it, hence why it was wild here and when he first came to the haunted house. Emily and Charles taught him how to properly care for it!

- “Hhh- th-that explains the bits.” - The Shoggoth noticed a difference between the body and the way people referred to Lawrence, but just went along with it. It’s starting to understand what it all means here. (Imagine discovering transphobia for the first time…)

- “Lydia caught sight of dark green scales on his nose, glistening in the sunlight.” - Hmm! Weird. Perhaps thematic. (Definitely.)

- “Barbara and Adam exchanged a Look, and the Shoggoth let out a soft whimper.” - The Shoggoth understood the Look this time.

- “He ha-… has a heart condition.” - Adam was trying not to give away that Lawrence was dead, since it seemed like Juno didn’t know. Also, I will probably make a post about Lawrence’s first date with the Maitlands where he first brought up his heart condition!

- “Lydia strained to hear them, reaching up to adjust her hearing aid- ” - Hearing aids don’t actually work like that. You can’t just turn it up to hear better at a distance. Lydia was just a wee bit desperate and confused.

Tag list: @raineisinkless @c0zmo-writes @musical-fiend @katslitterbox

(Want to be tagged in future updates for CorpseJuice / LoopJuice? Let me know!)

[lovable-chica]

Pollie🦜

Bio

-Age: 16

-Accent: Spanish and British

-Voice Headcanon: Frida(From Hilda)

-Condition: ADHD and Teething Disorder

-Likes: Sodor, Engines, Trees, Her Jungle, Friends and Family, Pizza, Sugar Cookies, Cheering People Up, Someone having a better day

Dislikes: Dark Jessy, Anna The Wolf,Jessy.EXE, Brats, Bird Seed, Bird Poop, Someone have a bad day, Peanuts

🧡❤️About Her🪶

-Pollie is the only parrot on the island despite having a family and the younger and more active twin then her sister

-She’s can also be a bit short-tempered like Abby and starts having a tantrum and swears like a banshee much to everyone’s shocked or concerned

-She Suffers from Teething Disorder or Teething Problems that makes her have a hard time keeping her mouth close sometimes when she isn’t talking or anything, and has a hard time keeping her swear words to herself when someone is bullying her so she uses violence to get them to stop

-Is a Fan of Talking Tom and Friends and finds the show very funny and entertaining, her favorite episode is “The Famous Monster”(Mine Two)

-Holds A Grudge against Jessy’s Exe Friend Anna the Wolf like Abby and Amber, even Dark Jessy

-She secretly has wings that can magically turn walls into her favorite colors, also besties with Pastel Jessy

❤️Close With: Pastel Jessy(This Is @jessythebunny’s myself version oc), Rosie, Molly, Emily, Marion, Hannah, Henrietta, Percy, Amber(Oc), Abby(Oc), Suzi(Oc),Sweetstar(Oc), Rosepuff(Oc), Thomas, Edward, Henry, Glynn, Alice(C1 Engine), Toad, Ryan, Luna(Oc),

🧡Goods Friends with: Gator, Samson, Harvey, Arthur, Neville, Murdoch, Millie, Oliver, Duck, The Scottish Twins, @jessythebunny’s oc Jenny, Green Arrow, Rebecca, BoCo

RosePuff

Bio

-Age: 15

-Accent: Valley Girl and a bit British

-Voice Headcanon: Millie Mouse

-Condition: PTSD

-Likes: Candy Fish, Cake, Sugar, Cookies, Puppies and Bunnies, Hot Chocolate, Art, Pokies, Sushi, Her Room, Her Tablet, Friends and Family

-Dislikes: Smelly Garbage, Diesel 10, Someone yelling at her, Nuts, Grown Men that are rude, Enemies, Badness, Liars, Getting Seasick

🌸About Her🎀

-The Only Pegasus on Sodor

-Works With Arthur at the fishing village and also lives there with him

-Is Best Friends with Sweetstar, they both meet when they were both 6

-got abuse by her mother when she was 5 after her father died in an unknown accident, I’ll make a video of where her mother comes back

-That is the reason why she had PTSD, Arthur helps her to let go of the past and forget about it

-Rosepuff looks up to Arthur as a brother figure and secretly likes him, and pretty much gets flustered when he spoons on her on the bed(I ship her with him ok?)

🩷Close with: Arthur, Ryan, Sweetstar(Oc), Edward, Rebecca, Rosie, Nia, Emily, Oliver and Toad, Thomas, Percy, Amber(Oc), Suzi(Oc), Abby(Oc), Henry

❤️Good Friends with: James, Molly, Neville, Harvey, Darla(Oc), Donald and Douglas, Duck, Luna(Oc), Murdoch, Whiff

Sweetstar

Bio

-Age: 15-16

-Voice Headcanon: Melody Mouse

-Condition: Autism and ADHD

-Likes: Engines, Angel-Cake, Stars, Magic, Flying, Princesses, Cheesy Music, Her Flower Crown, Being A Little Pure Cutie

-Dislikes: Liars, Bullies, People who are sad, Simps, Diesel

✨About Her⭐️

-Sweestar and Lime are the only Alicorns on Sodor

-She sometimes has a hobby of being a bean when trying to get out of trouble

-Best Friends with Rosepuff and Percy

-She never knew her parents so she’s current living with her young-adult aunt and uncle

-She knows that Mia has a crush on Murdoch so they both have a turn on crushing on him, mostly Sweetstar becomes very shy, embarrassed, timid and flustered around him because she can’t admire how handsome he is, and Murdoch is secretly doesn’t mind it

-Everyone loves her fluffy hair and sleeps on it(I’ve seen this line on two TTTE Refs, ok)

💙Close with: Percy, Thomas, Rosepuff(Oc), Pollie(Oc), Suzi(Oc), Rosie, Murdoch, Harvey, Molly, Arthur, Amber(Oc), Hannah, Isobella

🩵Good Friends with: Henry, James, Toby, Flynn, Belle, Millie, Henrietta, Oliver and Toad, Duck, Donald and Douglas

Amber

Bio

-Age: 14

-Voice Headcanon: Helena Albright

-Condition: PTSD

-Likes: Makeup, Thomas, Percy, Being A Beautiful Husky, Her Phone, Friends and Family, Helping Others(Even in Engine Form), Being Sassy, Sodor, The Northern Lights, Pop Music

-Dislikes: Taking About Her Past, The Lost of Her Parents, Her Enemies

🪽About Her🐾

-at 11, Amber and Suzi wakes up one morning to see that they’re parents didn’t wake her up, she then goes downstairs to find the clock said 10:20 am this confused them and went into their parents bedroom to find them dead and covered in blood, both girls broke down in tears to find them laying there lifeless, Amber didn’t know the hospital number at the time so she and Suzi hesitated and got they’re things and left, Amber checked her phone for a place that her mother once told her, and she found the place she and her sister wanted to go, Sodor! The Girls sleep in a mail train for 4 days until they arrived on Sodor, The First Engine They meet was Rosie and told her everything that happened which shocked the Pink Engine, she later introduced them to Thomas and had been living on Sodor Since.(Sorry if Amber and Suzi’s backstory sounds rushed)

-Lives with Her Mom’s Sister who is Amber’s Single Aunt and Older Adoptive Sister Abby

-Swears A Little then Abby, and suffers from PTSD from her parents deaths

-Sometimes sleeps with Thomas at Tidmouth Sheds

🩵Close with: Thomas, Percy, Rosie, Molly, Rebecca, Emily, Suzi(Oc and Sister), Sweetstar(Oc), Abby(Oc and Older Sister), Neville, Donald and Douglas, Oliver and Toad, Duck, Skiff, @jessythebunny’s oc Marina, BoCo

🩵Good Friends with: Arthur, Bertie, Terence, Trevor, Edward, James, Toby, Henry, Gordon, Stepney, Hannah

Suzi

-Age: 14

-Voice Headcanon: Ellila-Jean Wood

-Condition: Ophidiophobia and PTSD

-Likes: Percy, The Northern Lights, Engines, Cake, Pizza, Fries, Bluebells, Friends and Family

-Dislikes: Ghosts(Expected Ghost Jessy), Seeing Diesel 10 with Percy

🐾About Her⭐️

-She Strongly Dislikes seeing Diesel 10 with Percy and starts chasing him with a bat and Abby in the background is like “What the hell?���

-They only diesels that Suzi like are BoCo, Bear, Mavis, Derek, and Daisy, because they are friendly then the rude ones

-Best Friends with Cartoon Jessy and Finds her funny and cute like Percy

-Often Does Pranks along with Bill and Ben

-Likes to Pick Bluebells with Stepney and See The Northern Lights

-Sees Stepney, Percy and BoCo as her Big Brothers

💜Close with: Percy, BoCo, Bear, Rosie, Thomas, Amber(Oc), Abby(Oc), Sweetstar(Oc), Bill and Ben, Luna(Oc), Molly, Edward, Rebecca, Cartoon Jessy, Ghost Jessy

💜Good Friends with: Mavis, Daisy, Toby, Hannah, Henrietta, Carly, Nia, Gator

Abby

-Age: 15-16

-Voice Headcanon: Indica Watson

-Condition: ADHD and Neurodevelopmental Disorders

-Likes: Duck, Rock Music, Swearing, Donald and Douglas, Oliver and Toad, Her Friends and Family, Cookies, Popcorn, Pizza, Movies, being in her room

-Dislikes: Oliver getting jealous of her being flirty with Duck, Thinking Oliver will try to kill her for flirting with Duck, Being Yelled at, not being good enough

💟About Her💟

-Is Amber and Suzi’s Older Sister, and Duck’s Close Friend

-Will Sometimes Flirt with Duck that makes him nosebleeds like crazy(@jessythebunny Abby likes Oliver Two and don’t let his jealousy get the better of him)

-Calls Duck “Duckie”

-Likes Seeing Duck blush when she kisses him, and cuddles him for fun

-She has strong Scottish accent and swears a lot, and very proud of it

-Her Catchphrase is “SCOTLAND FOREVER”

-She and Hannah like to caused trouble together and always gets away with it

💜Close with: Donald and Douglas, Duck, Toad, Oliver, Percy, Thomas, Rosie, BoCo, Bill and Ben, Bear, Mavis, Edward, James, Dark Jessy, Cartoon Jessy

💜Good Friends with: Murdoch, Molly, Rebecca, Gator, Arthur, Neville, Old Slow Coach, Toby, Henrietta, Hannah, Big Mickey, Cranky, Carly

[czolgosz]

i went to a used book sale today... procured:

railroad color history: new york central railroad (brian solomon & mike schafer) — i'm not actually that into trains but it appealed to me.

the complete guide to the soviet union (jennifer louis & victor louis) — travel guide from 1980

an anthology including the big sleep (raymond chandler), "the undignified melodrama of the bone of contention" (dorothy l. sayers), "the arrow of god" (leslie charteris), "i can find my way out" (ngaio marsh), instead of evidence (rex stout), "rift in the loot" (stuart palmer & craig rice), "the man who explained miracles" (john dickson carr), & rebecca (daphne du maurier) (i already have this one..) — it's volume 2 of something (a treasury of great mysteries) which annoys me but whatever

an anthology including "godmother tea" (selena anderson), "the apartment" (t. c. boyle), "a faithful but melancholy account of several barbarities lately committed" (jason brown), "sibling rivalry" (michael byers), "the nanny" (emma cline), "halloween" (mariah crotty), "something street" (carolyn ferrell), "this is pleasure" (mary gaitskill), "in the event" (meng jin), "the children" (andrea lee), "rubberdust" (sarah thankam mathews), "it's not you" (elizabeth mccracken), "liberté" (scott nandelson), "howl palace" (leigh newman), "the nine-tailed fox explains" (jane pek), "the hands of dirty children" (alejandro puyana), "octopus vii" (anna reeser), "enlightenment" (william pei shih), "kennedy" (kevin wilson), & "the special world" (tiphanie yanique) — i guess they're all short stories published in 2020 by usamerican/canadian authors

an anthology including the death of ivan ilyich (leo tolstoy) (i have already read this one..), the beast in the jungle (henry james), heart of darkness (joseph conrad), seven who were hanged (leonid andreyev), abel sánchez (miguel de unamuno), the pastoral symphony (andré gide), mario and the magician (thomas mann), the old man (william faulkner), the stranger (albert camus), & agostino (alberto moravia)

the ambassadors (henry james)

the world book desk reference set: book of nations — it's from 1983 so this is kind of a history book...

yet another fiction anthology......... including the general's ring (selma lagerlöf), "mowgli's brothers" (rudyard kipling), "the gift of the magi" (o. henry) (i have already read this one..), "lord mountdrago" (w. somerset maugham), "music on the muscatatuck" (jessamyn west), "the pacing goose" (jessamyn west), "the birds" (daphne du maurier), "the man who lived four thousand years" (alexandre dumas), "the pope's mule" (alphonse daudet), "the story of the late mr. elvesham" (h. g. wells), "the blue cross" (g. k. chesterton), portrait of jennie (robert nathan), "la grande bretèche" (honoré de balzac), "love's conundrum" (anthony hope), "the great stone face" (nathaniel hawthorne), "germelshausen" (friedrich gerstäcker), "i am born" (charles dickens), "the legend of sleepy hollow" (washington irving), "the age of miracles" (melville davisson post), "the long rifle" (stewart edward white), "the fall of the house of usher" (edgar allan poe) (i have already read this one..), the voice of bugle ann (mackinlay kantor), the bridge of san luis rey (thornton wilder), "basquerie" (eleanor mercein kelly), "judith" (a. e. coppard), "a mother in mannville" (marjorie kinnan rawlings), "kerfol" (edith wharton), "the last leaf" (o. henry), "the bloodhound" (arthur train), "what the old man does is always right" (hans christian anderson), the sea of grass (conrad richter), "the sire de malétroit's door" (robert louis stevenson), "the necklace" (guy de maupassant) (i have already read this one..), "by the waters of babylon" (stephen vincent benét), a. v. laider (max beerbohm), "the pillar of fire" (percival wilde), "the strange will" (edmond about), "the hand at the window" (emily brontë) (i have already read this one..), & "national velvet" (enid bagnold) — why are seven of these chapters of novels....? anyway fun fact one of the compilers here also worked on the aforementioned mystery anthology. also anyway Why did i bother to write all that ☹️

fundamental problems of marxism (georgi plekhanov) — book about dialectical/historical materialism which is published here as the first volume of something (marxist library) which is kind of odd to me tbh

one last (thankfully tiny) anthology including le père goriot (honoré de balzac) & eugénie grandet (honoré de balzac)

[wrongcaitlyn]

another ask bc i just can’t stop thinking about talk ur talk (it’s actually insane) but would nico ever host snl and if so then what kind of skits would he do??

oh my god okay so i had to take time to do much thinking abt this bc i wanted to get it right. i consulted my friend and the recent ryan gosling emily blunt im just ken all too well performance.

my answer is

i think that nico himself hasn’t/wont host snl, but he WILL be a musical guest at some point (for promotion purposes)

HOWEVER

apollo definitely has hosted in the past. and he will one day in the future. and nico would make an appearance in that!!!

i feel like it’s just kinda be making fun of their songwriting process and making jokes about ghosts like there would be a lot of people dressed in bedsheets as nico’s “ghosts” etc

to be honest i don’t watch that much snl unless someone i like is on it, so i wouldn’t rlly know what specific kind of skits they would be in, but i would LOVE to know what ideas yall have bc i think anything with the two of them would be absolutely hilarious 😭😭

thank u for the ask!! sorry i wasn’t able to answer this completely i wish i could but i genuinely,,, have no idea

HOWEVER also my friend @wronghuntress came up with a hilarious idea so i’ll just copy and paste our convo right here:

I feel like they’d pull a type thing where they’re like “wouldn’t it be crazy if Will was here?”

“Oh yeah it would that’d be so crazy”

Both look off to the side as if someone is meant to come onstage

Crowd is going wild

Then they turn back like “too bad he’s not anyways what were you saying-“

meanwhile will posts a story to his instagram with a picture of a medical textbook being like "lol imagine if i was on snl couldn't be me!"

“Anyways here’s Leo Valdez-“

*apollo in a wig holding a lighter runs out*

and my daughter kayla - nico walks on with a green wig and a bow and arrow and introduces himself as katniss everdeen

so that’s our shot at an snl skit hope you liked it!!

[jules-has-notes]

Happily Ever After (Princess Academy) — PattyCake Productions music video

Along with their conspiracy of villains, PattyCake had also gathered quite a few Disney princesses over the course of their "Unexpected Musicals". Those young ladies are known for their kindness and strength of character. So what better way to introduce this second original series than by having them help a pessimist find a sunnier outlook on life?

Details:

title: Princess Academy — s.1, ep.1 — Happily Ever After

performers: Ben Ptashinsky (Ted Pessiminsky); Olivia Adkins (Snow White); Brianna Fogden (Cinderella); Anna Ricks (Aurora); Emma Dahlin (Ariel / featured vocals); Tiana Akers (Belle / featured vocals); Maggie Wakim (Jasmine / featured vocals); Ciara de Leon (Pocahontas); Raven Wynn (Mulan); Breauna Horsham-Washington (Tiana / featured vocals); Allee Otwell (Rapunzel); Emily Gorsuch (Merida / featured vocals); Bayley True (Anna); Kristina Conophy (Elsa / featured vocals); Monica Joelle Ortiz (Moana / featured vocals); Lisa Glaze (Melody); Melanie Simpson (reporter); Hannah Laird & Kellie Rhianne (featured vocals)

written & arranged by: Layne Stein & Tony Wakim

screenplay by: James Keaton, Tony Wakim, & Layne Stein

release date: 21 November 2018

My favorite bits:

the last ticker item on the news broadcast making a sneaky reference to "The Disney Showman"

listing off the girls' various sidekicks 🕯️ 🐭 🕯️ 🪲 🦎 🐲 ☃️ 🦀 🐟 🐦

"Is this D23?" 😂

Merida, Moana, and Elsa voicing their dissent to the plan

"Is it too late to be taken out by the girl with the bow and arrow?"

"Who wrote this, Taylor Swift?" "Is she a princess?" …🤔

the lovely harmonies for ♫ "true love's kiss can break the curse" ♫

layering all their voices on the final ♫ "happily ever" ♫

Ted getting "knocked out" by another book so he can wake up

that meet-cute ending

Snow White adorably intruding on the outro

Trivia:

Olivia had been playing Snow White for PattyCake since their very first music video, "Snow Spears".

Anna had originally auditioned to play Ariel in "The Grande Mermaid", but Tony and Layne kept her in mind for Aurora.

Tiana was yet another of Tony's fellow "Beetlejuice Revue" alumni, having played cheerleaders Hip and Hop, and Cleo in the later "Mashup" version. She had also played Belle in the live stage show at Disney World.

Many of the other actresses were cast through an open audition process. (Which was a pretty sure bet, since PattyCake is so close to Disney World.) The final role cast was Monica as Moana.

This video was filmed at The Ballroom at Church Street, which PattyCake had previously used for their "Beauty and the Bieber" video, as well as Fernando Varela's "Phantom Showman" mashup.

During the week before it was released, the guys had some of the cast come into the studio for a few final pickups and ADR sessions to make sure it was as good as possible.

The guitar track was recorded by Ryan Simpson, who played Rick Grimes in PattyCake's "Walking Dead" music video a year and a half earlier.

In addition to playing the reporter, Melanie also served as the production manager for the video shoot.

Layne's family paid a visit to the set while the cast was getting ready so that the girls could meet their favorite princesses.

Because there were so many characters to style at once, Tony called in reinforcements from a few local businesses to provide some of the costume pieces, wigs, and jewelry.

Ben got caught looking over Raven's shoulder in between takes.

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PattyCake released a sing-a-long version of the song portion at the end of the month.

Then they released an adorable blooper reel at the beginning of the year.

[madwomanwithawarehouse]

i try very hard not to care about actors but i am lowkey fascinated with the career of emily bett rickards

like she's in a nickelback music video in 2009 then doesn't do anything until 2012 where she's cast as a "possible recurring role" in the new show Arrow. Her performance as Felicity Smoak in s1e3 & chemistry with the lead actor is so strong & compelling that essentially the entirety of the Arrowverse gets reshaped.

she gains several award nominations for this role and is a fan favorite until she leaves at the end of the 7th season of Arrow (effectively signaling the end of the show well ahead of its actual finale). between arrow, the flash, legends of tomorrow, vixen, & supergirl, she is in over 180 episodes of television as Felicity Smoak. she has never been in a regular tv show as anyone else

she is in one movie that is nominated for an oscar and does a couple of low budget short & indie films where she is probably the most well know actor involved and grabs a few more nominations, but no real recognition. she plays the lead in an extremely weird & creepy play that has an off-Broadway run.

idk if she's just particular about her projects or if the casting directors are sleeping on her but it's so interesting to me

[wiildhearrted]

If you watch NADDPOD and aren't caught up with campaign three, don't look under the cut. There's no spoilers for the series, but there are spoilers for one of the final songs and I wanna SOB.

It makes me think of Nikki. It's definitely her mom's view of her (or what it would be if Camira were still alive.) Y'all I'm so excited for Emily to release this as a single of this song on her spotify so I can share it here in Nikki's music tag.

Child, don't listen to their words You're not a monster, no matter what you've heard You're everything I'd dream you'd be A miracle to me They don't get to tell you what you're worth

Darling, you're native to the night So take these wings I gave you and take flight Don't ever be ashamed Of your claws, your bite, your strength They don't get to tell you who you are

Honey, don't ever change a thing Your fire breath, your many heads, your poison serpent sting Just because they're afraid Doesn't mean that you have strayed They don't even get to have a say

I can not give you their love But I can make you strong and brave, and I can make you tough Their swords and arrows cannot pierce The hide of one so proud, so fierce They don't get to tell you who you are

They tell you you're a prophecy But you're a possibility They don't get to tell you what to be

And let them write their histories Clinging to their legacies You and me know just what we're worth

[hogwartsthenextgeneration]

Dominique Ginevra Weasley

Dominique Ginevra Weasley

Nicknames: Dom, Dommy

Sexuality: Lesbian

Ethnicity: 1/4 English, 1/4 Irish, 1/2 French

DOB: 06/02/2002

Parents: Bill & Fleur

Siblings: Victoire & Louis

Godparents: Camille Fournier & Ginny

Best friends: Roxanne Weasley, James Potter, Fergus McKenzie, Theon Wright, Paul Hargreaves, Emily Hayes

Started Hogwarts: 2013

House: Slytherin

Wand: Dragon Heartstring, Cedar, 10 1/2”

Patronus: Aardvark

Boggart: Claustrophobia

Ex curricular: Slytherin chaser, captain from 6th year

Best subject: transfiguration

Worst subject: history of magic

Hair: Strawberry blonde, shoulder length and wavy

Eye colour: blue

Build: 5ft 9.5”, athletic/ muscular

Favourite music genre: Rock / Metal / Alternative

Favourite artists: Girl in Red, Paramore, Ethel Cain, Rage Against the Machine

Favourite song: Strangers - Ethel Cain

Favourite colour: Indigo

Health: Bipolar disorder, PCOS

Career: Quidditch player (Holyhead Harpies and Applebee Arrows) and then Journalist

Future: Dom marries Marina Fortescue, the Granddaughter of Ice Cream Parlour owner Florian Fortescue age 25 (2027). Dom started going into the ice cream shop (which Marina now owned) every day for 3 weeks until she finally plucked up the courage to ask Marina out. They never wanted kids as they preferred to travel the world and be everyones fun aunties. They live above the Ice Cream Parlour on Diagon Alley.

[warwickroyals]

for the oc ask game: could you do queen anne?

OC ASK GAME -> Not Accepting

Full name: Queen Anne of Sunderland (née Lady Georgina Anne Marie Therese Alice Alexandrine Helena Victoria Sunningdale) what a mouthful!!!! In her defence, she was half-German

Best friend: Her faithful Mistress of Robes, Emily Hanlock, Duchess of Burnhamthorpe, was her nearest and dearest friend

Sexuality: straight as an arrow

Favourite colour: Blush pink was her favourite colour

Relationship status: She was married to her husband George II for over forty years.

Ideal mate: Her husband was her soulmate. Unlike his father and grandfather, George never took a mistress and was devoted to his wife. This is rare for Sunderlandian kings, let me tell you.

Turn-ons: Oh, God, a turn-on for this old-ass lady? She liked a man that was true in his testament to the Lord.

Favorite food: Anne loved her sweets, especially pralines

Crushes: She didn't have any

Favourite music: She enjoyed show tunes quite a bit.

Biggest fear: Following WWI Anne, along with the rest of the family, feared revolutuions above all else. She was threatened by the rise of communism and fascism in the early 20th century. Especially following the Russian Revolution.

Biggest fantasy: She wanted each of her children to marry for love. She wanted a large, happy family which . . . she succeded in one of those two things.

Bad habits: While often portraying herself as a softspoken and caring woman, she could also be meddling and strong-willed. She also had a tendency to spoil her adult sons, which created the worst outcome in her second born, James.

Biggest regret: During WWI she had to renounce her German family, which was very hard for her. It was a huge regret for her as a young princess. Ironically she was zealously anti-German during WWII, so that regret might have worked out for her in the long term as many of these relatives became Nazis.

Best kept secrets: All of her and George's personal letters were destroyed following her death. She did not want the published.

Last thought: Before her death, she was convinced she was the last of a dying breed. She was born in the 1880s and died in the 1970s. She'd lived through the reigns of four kings, including that of her own son. She'd outlived three of her five children and was surrounded by people far younger than her. The new king Louis V was in his twenties. She saw the monarchy quickly modernizing at a rate she couldn't keep up with. The times she longed for no longer existed.

Worst romantic experience: She never really dated or anything of the sort, that would be pretty unconventional. She married George in 1913. Maybe her worst experience was having to adjust to married life and motherhood during the turmoil of the First World War

Biggest insecurity: Being the granddaughter of the deposed King of Hanover, she felt insecure about being just a lady and not a blood princess like many of her cousins, and other descendants of King George III of the United Kingdom. Her mother had lived in exile for many years before marrying Anne's father. It was a very shameful and unstable time for her family.

Weapon of choice: She could be a very determined person and would often persist in things longer than most people.

Role Model: Queen Alexandra was the standard for all modern Queen Consorts at the time. Anne also admired Queen Victoria, a distant cousin.

[darkarfs]

100 Favorite Albums (2023 Edition)

No duplicate entries, only 3 Mike Patton projects, being honest with myself. This was hard and took a good long time. Be kind if you judge.

I've been really listening to music for over 30 years and I still know nothing. The numbers are just there for enumeration, this list is in no order.

The Flatlanders - More a Legend Than a Band

Opeth - Blackwater Park

Propagandhi - Today's Empires, Tomorrow's Ashes

Aphex Twin - Selected Ambient Works, Vol. 2

Alva Noto and Ryuichi Sakamoto - Insen

Black Sabbath - Master of Reality

Gillian Welch - Time the Revelator

Acrania - Fearless

Genghis Tron - Board Up the House

Mr. Bungle - California

Fair To Midland - Arrows and Anchors

Gorguts - Obscura

Harold Budd - Avalon Sutra

Loscil - Plume

Ben Frost - By the Throat

Type O Negative - October Rust

Songs: Ohia - Didn't It Rain

Emeralds - Does It Looks Like I'm Here?

Skeleton Key - Fantastic Spikes Through Balloon

They Might Be Giants - Flood

Cocteau Twins - Heaven or Las Vegas

Between the Buried and Me - Colors

Breeders - Last Splash

Gang Starr - Moment of Truth

Tom Waits - Rain Dogs

Bohren & der Club of Gore - Black Earth

Cryptopsy - None So Vile

Megadeth - Rust In Peace

Vince DiCola and Various Artists - Transformers: the Motion Picture OST

Judas Priest - Painkiller

Gwar - Carnival of Chaos

Mike Patton - Mondo Cane

Pyrrhon - What Passes For Survival

The Bug - London Zoo

Laurie Anderson - Big Science

Talk Talk - Laughing Stock

Venetian Snares - Rossz Csillag Alatt Született

Anaal Nathrakh - Codex Necro

Vangelis - Blade Runner OST

Killing Joke - S/T (2003)

Fiona Apple - The Idler Wheel Is Wiser Than the Driver of the Screw and Whipping Cords Will Serve You More Than Ropes Will Ever Do

Prince - Purple Rain

Brian Eno - Before and After Science

Bark Psychosis - Hex

Finntroll - Ur Jordens Djup

Life Without Buildings - Any Other City

Ephel Duath - The Painter's Palette

Tangerine Dream - Phaedra

Sawako - Hum

The Coup - Party Music

David Sylvain and Holger Czukay - Plight and Premonition

Grouper - Dragging a Dead Deer Up a Hill

Butthole Surfers - Locust Abortion Technician

Sade - Diamond Life

Esquivel - Latin-Esque

Kesha - Rainbow

Tindersticks - Curtains

Emily A. Sprague - Water Memory / Mount Vision

Demdike Stare - Tryptych

Kyle Bobby Dunn - Ways of Meaning

Electric Wizard - Dopethrone

Boards of Canada - Music Has the Right to Children

Pixies - Surfer Rosa

Boris - Pink

The Humble Bee - A Miscellany for the Quiet Hours

Captain Beefheart - Safe as Milk

Dream Theater - Awake

Madvillain - Madvillainy

Dillinger Escape Plan - Miss Machine

Cyndi Lauper - She's So Unusual

Deli Creeps - Dawn of the Deli Creeps

the Mountain Goats - All Hail West Texas

Animals as Leaders - The Joy of Motion

Yellow Magic Orchestra - Solid State Survivor

Taylor Deupree - Faint

Faith No More - Angel Dust

Diablo Swing Orchestra - Pandora's Pinata

Silver Jews - American Water

Sigh - Imaginary Sonicscape

Metallica - Master of Puppets

GAS - S/T

Charles Dodge - Earth's Magnetic Field

Gojira - The Way of All Flesh

Cattle Decapitation - The Anthropocene Extinction

Benoit Pioulard - Precis

Sparks - Angst In My Pants

Stars of the Lid - The Ballasted Orchestra

Daughters - You Won't Get What You Want

Exlimitir - It Weighed Itself In Silver

Defeated Sanity - Passages Into Deformity

The Mars Volta - De-Loused in the Comatorium

Belong - October Language

h hunt - Playing Piano For Dad

Oneohtrix Point Never - Garden of Delete

CRYSTAL - Reflection Overdrive

Sleepytime Gorilla Museum - Of Natural History

Ween - Quebec

Kurt Vile - God Is Saying This To You

Akira Rabelais - Eisoptrophobia

Twine - S/T

[rndyounghowze]

The Young-Howze Theatre Awards 2023 Winners

Our Blessing To You

I don’t just wish you success. I will it upon you like a blessing you never knew you needed. We don’t just want you to do well we want you to be the greatest you’ve ever been and to continue on a journey of ever-growing greatness. We need you to become the artist you’d always dreamed you could be. Your success is our success. When you become a household name we show up in your Google search results. When people interview you they learn you won an award from us. Selfishly we want the best for you and more. Unselfishly, you deserve it. We see you working hard every day working towards your dreams and goals. You put in the 9-5 then the 5-9. You work twice as hard as the average person and people might still look down on your art. We don’t. We think your art is amazing and getting better all the time. If this is what you create now we can’t wait to see what your future holds. More simply put: we are very proud of you. Please keep going.

Solo Awards

"All By Myself” Award For Solo Performer Of The Year

Megan Quick in “And Toto Too”

“Flying Solo” For Solo Show Of The Year

“Book of Sirens” by ProEnglish Theatre

"Campfire Award" For Storyteller of The Year

Daniel Kinch in “Story of the Falling Don”

Mind-Blowing Awards

"Mind-Blowing Stage" For Stage Writing Of The Year

“Monsters of The American Cinema” by Christian St. Croix

“Lavender Men” by Roger Q. Mason

"Mind-Blowing Shortie" For Short Form Writing Of The Year 

“By The Way” by Lisa Rosetta Strum

"Mind-Blowing Devising" For Devised Production Of The Year 

“Posthumous” by Phoenix Tears Productions 

Artists Of The Year

"Extensions" For Movement Artist Of The Year

Lena Adele Wolfe and Clemence Debaig for “Discordance”

"Action" Award For Film Director Of The Year

Olivier Sagne in “Lovena”

"Dress Up" Award For Costume Designer Of The Year

X Hill in “The Cymbeline Project”

"Mix It Up" Award For Sound Designer Of The Year

Leonie Bell in “Arrow Of Time”

"Maestro Award" For Outstanding Musical Composition, Arrangement, Or Orchestration

Maurice Soque Jr. and Brendan A. Bradley for Original Arrangement “Non Player Character”

Director Of The Year

Taylor Reynolds for  “La Race”

Short Form Director Of The Year

Zhailon Levingston and Tracy Conyer Lee for “Fire This Time Festival 22”

Creative Of The Year 

Christian St. Croix 

BIPOC Hero Award

Nataki Garrett 

“Magician” Award For Press Contact Of The Year

Emily Owens

Shows/Festivals Of The Year

Festival Of The Year

Fire This Time Festival 2022

"You Oughta Be In Pictures" For Film Of The Year

“Undine” By Stefanie Janssen and Sjaron Minailo

"Billy Bard" For Digital Shakespeare Production Of The Year

“Rome-Oh No They Didn’t” By Punchline Loading

Show Of The Year

“The Cymbeline Project” OSF Ashland

“La Race” By Bleu Beckford-Burell

"360" Award For VR Show of The Year

“Queerskins” Ark” By Illya Szilak at Quills Fest

"Free Fall” Award For Immersive Production Of The Year

“POV: You Are An AI Achieving Consciousness” By CirqueSaw

"Grace Notes Award" For Musical Production Of The Year

“The Last Five Years” Deaf Austin Theatre and Ground Floor Theatre

"Can You Hear Me Now" For Audio Production Of The Year

“Arrow Of Time” By Allyson Dwyer

Performers Of The Year

"More Than Merely Players" Award For Outstanding Dramatic Performer Of The Year

Krissy Lemon in "The Last Five Years"

Ben Holbrook in "Arrow Of Time"

"Fools These Mortals Be" Award For Outstanding Comedic Performer

Monique "Momo" Holt For “The Cymbeline Project"

Stacey Sargeant in “La Race”

"Capture" Award For VR Performer Of The Year

Brendan A. Bradley in “Non-Player Character”

[stitchpunk1]

Ok so first of all this marvel universe I got is a mix of ones from different shows and movies. Avengers are from cinematic universe while X-men is a mix of 97, evo and movies depending on the character which I’ll mention as I go. Also decided to bench one oc for now cuz it just felt like too much with the family. A lot of these I’m still fleshing out so I’m mentioning them more than anything. Oh and before I forget the Groot I use is the OG Groot and baby Groot is kinda a son/clone they call jr.

Ok starting off with Avengers kids we have Brook the genius daughter of Tony Stark and Bruce Banner. She graduated from college at a very young age and spends her days tinkering in her own personal lab. She has her own suit like Tony but after a traumatic incident can turn into a hulk only it’s extreme fear that causes her to turn. She ends up dating Astra, Peter and Gamoras daughter.

Nessa is the goddess of the group, literally. Her parents are Thor and Loki and she has both parents powers but can’t decide which she wants to specialize in. Nessa is a bit too enthusiastic in battle and can push herself into a battle rage. She dates Kurt and Todd’s daughter, Giselle.

I’m still working on Natasha and Peppers daughter Brie. She can be pretty kickass like Nat but prefers to work behind the scenes and creates a sort of compendium on heroes, villains and different worlds/universes.

Giselle is Nightcrawler and Toads(both from evo but obviously adults now) daughter. She is blue and a bit fuzzy like Kurt but has more amphibious powers and can breath underwater. Giselle is definitely a cottage core kinda girl but when push comes to shove she will not hesitate to fight. She also refuses to hide her looks which does get her into trouble some places.

Honey is Logan and Wades little feral bundle of joy. She can heal like both of her parents and has bone claws. She’s also has a very feral like personality, she can talk and interact with others but she prefers more animal like sounds and behaviors. She can make many sounds from different predators though badger sounds are get most common. She ends up dating Esh, Yondu and Kraglins daughter(the two literally courting each other with their kills).

Continuing with X-Men us Cassidy, the adopted daughter of Rouge and Gambit(from the animated series). She’s a mutant with the ability to change to a seal and in her human form has a skin kinda like a selkie. Let’s just say when she was adopted she didn’t have an accent and after a few months the others noticed she developed one just like her parents.

Emily is Pietro and Lances(evo version) daughter who has her grandfather Eric’s(in my au pietro and Wanda are Eric and Charles’s twins)powers. She has an obsession with super costumes and wants to make them.

Hank and Alex Summers have a girl named Francine who looks like Hank. She also does not get along with her uncle Scott(we are a Scott summers hater in this house) but does with her aunt Jean.

Astra may look like her mother Gamora but unfortunately takes way too much after her father Peter. She is a die hard fan of all types of music and any battle is ruined for her unless she has a kick ass song with it. She has slight celestial powers from Ego but they are weak and she is trying to learn to wield them.

Esh is probably one of the more OP of the kids along with her girlfriend. She has her own yaka arrow that she’s very good with. Her family is now part of the guardians instead of the ravages and she forms a team with the other two guardian kids. She LOVES to hunt and takes and opportunity when they go planet side. Once she meets Honey she brings all her kills to her(thank you youndu speciesnfic headcanons lol) so they have to frequently go to earth to avoid rotting carcasses.

Tansy is probably the next cutest thing to Jeff the shark. She looks like Rocket but has various plants growing in her fur. She has a little trick that everyone hates where she sends out a cloud of pollen, usually accompanied by an adorable “allergies!”. She’s learned to be very tech savvy and is her teams little sneak.

[milla-frenchy]

Emily 🥹🥹🥹 I am in love with Birthday present. I fell in love with this fic, and with you, when I read it. The angst was amazing. The way you wrote Javi, them, sent an arrow in my heart, and it's still there.

When you said that you would write a follow-up I was soooo happy 😍😍😍 (yes, I knew it would be angsty, but it suits so well to Javi)

And damn you nailed it ❤️❤️❤️

He rounds into the room chest first, ready to barrel over whichever unfortunate intern stands, however unintentionally, between DEA Agent Javier Pena and something he needs to hopefully get ahead of Escobar, when he’s stopped dead in his tracks. It’s you.  You, with a thoughtful look on your face as you adorably chew your bottom lip while counting the sheets in your hand, surrounded by neat piles of paper covering every available flat surface in the copier room.

And you know, just reading this killed me. I could totally imagine him, "chest first", then stopping dead. Damn. I was already breathless

You wiggle your fingers playfully, beckoning Javier to give over his paper - not knowing you also call for his heart with this enticing gesture.

Aaaaah, Emily. This writing, this is so you. Delicate, beautiful, tender. I could say that you're calling for my heart too, with this 🥹😍

You laugh and the sound chimes in Javier’s ear like a chorus of cathedral bells; he never thought he’d have the honour of drawing such music from you again.

What can I say? This is so beautiful

“Javi?” He’s stopped again, this time not just by your melodic voice, but the song of his shortened name on your lips – his own heart longs to sing back a response in duet.  Turning, he finds you already looking at him, the irises of your knowing eyes swirling with tenderness,  “Thank you for my birthday present.” How did you know?  Javier had been so confident in the stealth of his actions, he’s silence by the revelation that you know he left a gift on your desk two months ago. “I wear them all the time,” you turn your elegant neck slightly to show Javi the silver hair clips, each adorned with a small, delicate bird, tucked prettily behind your ear. He manages to choke out a confession, “I know.” 

And this?!! All this. His shortened name, the confession about the present, him telling her that he knows?!!! I'm dying 😍😍😍

“You’re welcome, baby.” Baby.

jfc. I read it, and of course, of course, I know that you're gonna break my heart soon.

It’s time to put the knife back in and Javier knows it won’t just be his own heart he wounds when he does so.

Ohhhhh fuckkkkkk

“You deserve someone who can be loyal to you.” Javier can physically feel the flow of air that rushes in to fill the space created between the two of you as you shrink away from him.

Oh no... Javi...

He twists the knife, even though it kills him to do so, “I never got the chance to apologize for that. I’m sorry.” You nod, otherwise unmoving - stilled by that old pain you thought you had buried dead threating to crawl up your tightening throat. Javi’s shoulders hunch, drooping with a defeat of his own making, “Thank you for the copies.” “You’re welcome, Agent.” Agent.

Fuck.

Fuck, fuck, fuck. That hurts. Seems like the knife hit my heart too 😭

Javiiiiiiii whyyyyyyyyy 😭😭😭

Oh Emily. I could read 10 chapters of them. I'd love to know more, always more. I don't know if you will, but if you do, I'll be there

Thank you so much for this, I'm so glad you wrote another part ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you for tagging me, I'm honored ❤️🫶

Photocopies

2.2K / Javier Peña x fem!reader

Summary: You catch Javi off guard in the embassy photocopy room.

Warnings: Angst (sorry!), longing, some hurt (no comfort). Previous relationship, mention of past infidelity (or is it??). Mainly Javi's POV. Nicknames as usual (Pretty bird, baby).

A/N: This is a direct follow-up to Birthday Present, taking place S1/S2 Narcos, ~2 months after reader’s birthday; I don't think you need to read it but it gives some context. I'm sorry, there is no HEA for these two dummies yet, this is just another little one shot (not quite ready to commit to writing another long series!), but I hope those of you who remember them from Birthday Present will still enjoy seeing them again 🥹🥰

Dividers by @saradika-graphics / Tagging @milla-frenchy who knows why 🥹😘

Mierda. 

Javier can see the consecutive flashes of the photocopier’s green scan light accompanied by the hum of the machine in repetitive use as he walks down the hall towards the U.S. Embassy’s main floor copier room.  It sounds like whoever’s occupying the photocopier is in the middle of a big job – he sighs with an air of unjustified frustration.  Such would be his luck when he’s already running late for his meeting with the CIA attaché. 

He rounds into the room chest first, ready to barrel over whichever unfortunate intern stands, however unintentionally, between DEA Agent Javier Pena and something he needs to hopefully get ahead of Escobar, when he’s stopped dead in his tracks.

It’s you.  You, with a thoughtful look on your face as you adorably chew your bottom lip while counting the sheets in your hand, surrounded by neat piles of paper covering every available flat surface in the copier room.

Mierda. 

Still preoccupied by your collating project, you haven’t looked up to notice that you’re no longer alone in the small, stifling room – out of consideration or cowardice, but most likely both, Javier loathes to disturb you.  He hasn’t spoken to you in nearly four months - he’ll be damned if the first time he does so causes you inconvenience.  He’s already done so much worse to you. 

Fuck it - those spooks can make do with one copy of his Satellite Repositioning request.  If the CIA needs a second copy so badly, let them come down and make it themselves, he convinces himself.  Javier steps back silently, slowly backing out of the room. 

“How many copies do you need?”

Stunned by the sweet lilt of your voice, Javier remains motionless.  He suspects that you don’t know it’s him, but rather you had felt another person’s presence in the room and your considerate nature simply offered what you intuitively knew was needed.  But to his surprise, your eyes meet his directly when he looks up; he searches them for any sign of distaste or distain now that you recognize him as your intruder, but sees nothing except sincerity.  Your hand is already outstretched, waiting for his form.

He should leave.  Say he changed his mind about needing copies.  Say he got lost in this building that he’s worked in for years.  Say something.

“Don’t want to interrupt you.  I’ll come back.”

You throw an easy, encouraging smile his way and wave your still reaching hand dismissively in graceful sweeps that only serve to remind Javier of how effortlessly charming you are; your voice an enchanting song with its lightness, “I’m going to be forever.  Come on, gimme.”  You wiggle your fingers playfully, beckoning Javier to give over his paper - not knowing you also call for his heart with this enticing gesture.

He can refuse you nothing, though you could never know that, and hands over his single sheet readily, “Just one please.”

You take his form and titter to yourself as you diligently set aside the stack you were organizing, careful not to lose your place before laying his paper face down on the glass to copy, “I’ll make you two, just in case.”

Though the sound of the copy machine whirling to life fills the room, the silence between the two people in it somehow rings louder.  Javier looks around awkwardly, his eyes taking in the goliath of paperwork that you were in the middle of taming – should he apologize for interrupting?  No, it would likely ring hollow to your ears; he’s committed worse transgressions for which he still owes you an apology.  But the lump in his throat compels him to engage you; he’s a man starved, ready to beg for any meager scraps of attention you’re willing to throw his way.

“I thought you had a secretary to do all this admin for you – is Renee away?”

You laugh and the sound chimes in Javier’s ear like a chorus of cathedral bells; he never thought he’d have the honour of drawing such music from you again.  “No, she’s here.  But when it’s big booklets for interdepartmental meetings, I just like to do it myself.”

Right - Javier knows this about you.  You take such prodigious care with everything, of everyone.  Any fool at the embassy, and there were many, could see you’re a powerhouse, work ethic and dedication unmatched, and completely deserving of the respect and praise you reap – he’s always been proud of you.

Handing him his two copies and original, you toss Javier another soft smile before turning back to your task.  Whatever this interlude was, whatever grace granted him a few moments of cordiality with you is gone now, and Javier takes the papers from you with a genuine, but melancholy, “Thanks.”  He heads out of the room, feeling somehow happier and yet just as lost as he has been these past few months.

“Javi?”

He’s stopped again, this time not just by your melodic voice, but the song of his shortened name on your lips – his own heart longs to sing back a response in duet.  Turning, he finds you already looking at him, the irises of your knowing eyes swirling with tenderness, 

“Thank you for my birthday present.”

How did you know?  Javier had been so confident in the stealth of his actions, he’s silence by the revelation that you know he left a gift on your desk two months ago.

“I wear them all the time,” you turn your elegant neck slightly to show Javi the silver hair clips, each adorned with a small, delicate bird, tucked prettily behind your ear.

He manages to choke out a confession, “I know.” 

He does know.  Like a lovesick magpie, Javi’s heart would leap every time he caught the flash of silver in your hair at the embassy: during the meetings you expertly lead that he had the privilege of attending, via quick glimpses of you as you hurried towards the breakroom with your colleagues for a much-needed cup of coffee, when he stole longing glances at you from the DEA’s offices down the hall from the windows that ran alongside your desk in Treasury.  Each time you wore them, it gave Javi a surge a pride (and some relief) to know that amidst all the pain he had caused, he could still bring you some joy.

You’re looking at him now, eyes shiny and full of emotion, “I love them – they’re so beautiful.  Thank you for having thought of me.”

Javi’s body carries him across the small room and into your waiting arms of its own accord. All the strength he strains to wield on a daily basis in order to stay away from you evaporating under that tender gaze he thought had been forever lost to him.

He holds you close but not too tight, unable to tear his eyes from the sweetness of your expression.  How could you still look at him with anything other than disappointment, hate?  Despite what he did, you remain good.  Kind.  Feeling.  You wash over him like an inevitable wave and Javi wants more than anything to drown in you again.

“You’re welcome, baby.”

Baby.

Drinking in his soft utterance of the endearment, you earnestly study the man who was once yours.  Javi looks apprehensive and guarded, like he can’t quite settle into the tenderness of this moment – expecting at any second for you to shove him away, curse him.  Your heart aches to witness his anxiety – he’s still the man you knew, believed in: one whose bravado and tough exterior harbours a sensitive and deeply feeling heart, one who never thinks he deserves good things even when he extends himself for the sake of others.  You take Javi’s face into your hands, feeling the flex of his strong jaw beneath your palms as he inhales and swallows deeply at the loving gesture, still convinced this unexpected peace will be ripped from him.

“Do you miss me, Javi?”

How can he possibly answer but truthfully? Even if you weren’t looking at him so tenderly and with such vulnerability, Javi’s never been able to hide from you, lie to you. Insinuate falsities, yes. Mislead, perhaps. But outright lying? Never. How could the moon ever lie to the sun?

“Yes, pretty bird. Every day,” Javi closes his eyes and presses his forehead to yours, sealing in the truth of his words.

He’s being selfish.  It’s selfish to want to pull out the knife that’s lodged permanently in his chest; the one he placed there himself when he broke your heart, to stab and remind him with every breath he takes of what he’s lost.  What he’s broken.

If he could remove the blade for even a moment, then for that moment he can be your Javi again.  The one you trusted to take care of your heart.  The one who was ever grateful that an angel like you saw something in him, something he thought had long been snuffed out by the savagery of the Columbian sicarios and the cruelty of Escobar.  The Javi you had patiently nurtured back to life with your compassion and gentle touch.  The one whose vow of love you never questioned; he hadn't thought himself capable of such devotion, but you had easily unlocked it from within him with your own.

Selfishness wins today.  Javi removes the knife and lets himself be that man again with a tentative press of his lips to yours.  Immediately, he’s overtaken by the honey of your kiss – every brush of your pretty pout reminds him of all his favourite kisses with you: soft, secret kisses in hidden corners at the office; hard and heavy make outs outside the embassy walls away from prying eyes; tender kisses of promises intended to be kept while on dates or just laying in bed; possessive, dangerous kisses used to muffle moans of pleasure not meant for the ears of any other; hungry and urgent kisses heralding toe-curling, earthshattering orgasms; and sweet kisses of affirmation after every declaration of I love you.

Javi kisses you to make up for every single kiss he’s missed since he kissed you last.  He kisses you like he has the forever with you he threw away so cruelly all those month ago.  He tightens his arms around you as you melt into his kiss, momentarily forgetting how to let you go again.  Your soft whimper of surrender into his mouth jolts him back to reality.  He doesn’t have forever with you.  You aren’t his, and you shouldn’t be his.  He’s been warned.

It’s time to put the knife back in and Javier knows it won’t just be his own heart he wounds when he does so.

“Baby, we can’t.”

“Javi…” The way you say his name now has none of the harmony that invited him in earlier; this is a plea.

“Pretty bird, I’m no good for you.  Look at you – you’re perfect and you have everything going for you.  Everything you are is beyond my wildest dreams – you’re destined for the kind of future that has no place in it for a guy like me.  You deserve someone who can give you the best things in life.  You deserve someone better than me.”

You’re shaking your head, ready to argue and Javier thinks, no – he knows you would prevail.  He’s come over to your side of every argument the two of you ever had - won over by your intelligence, your passion, or simply for the joy it brought him to give you anything you wanted.  He has to put a stop to this before your eloquence and kindness can disarm him, so he pushes the knife in further, “You deserve someone who can be loyal to you.”

Javier can physically feel the flow of air that rushes in to fill the space created between the two of you as you shrink away from him.

It’s as if he can see the cinema in your eyes replaying that horrible scene from four months earlier when you caught him bare chested and pants unbuttoned, with a half naked Vanessa on his couch.  And just like that, the ache of his betrayal is renewed and your hurt rolls off your frame in lines so thick Javier thinks he might be able to pluck them out of the air with his fingers.

He twists the knife, even though it kills him to do so, “I never got the chance to apologize for that. I’m sorry.”

You nod, otherwise unmoving - stilled by that old pain you thought you had buried dead threating to crawl up your tightening throat.

Javi’s shoulders hunch, drooping with a defeat of his own making, “Thank you for the copies.”

“You’re welcome, Agent.”

Agent.

And just like that he’s Agent again.  Not baby, Javi, or even Javier.  Just Agent.

This third time he goes to leave the copier room you don’t stop him and Javier is thankful; unable to trust himself should he look back at you, he doesn’t – Agent Pena sets his face to a grim scowl and stalks down the hallway away from the best thing that ever happened to him.  Grateful that you had the forethought to give him an extra copy of his form, Javier discards the top sheet before going into his meeting – it’s completely unusable: the words on the page blotted and blurred from tears he didn’t have the strength to prevent from falling, the ruined, damp paper evidence of his failures.