#existenialism

[r00k-io]

Nihilism is great because you realise that Nothing matters!

Buy that shit! Run that red light! Be mean to that guy!

Treat yourself to a hot bath or try to slit your throat Who cares? In a thousand years your bones will be fertilizer or if you're lucky, fossilised to be turned into air pollutants,

We exist briefly, noones going to care how many likes or followers you had

We are all so fucking irrelevant!

There is no greater consequence after we die, there is no such thing as karma, We are already dead and we were never alive in the first place!

We are insignificant microorganisms that the microscope of time has just chosen to focus on for a bit

Live your life because soon you start to realise that noone cares if you do

[bodhi-ryuchai]

Black Arrows to the Sun...)))->

Have any you ever heard the term multidisciplinary artist? I definitely have but I have yet to meet an indivudual in person. Alice Karveli a.k.a. Black Arrows personifies how a multidisciplinary artists operates. I’m planning Ambient Communion III compilation (in which I plan to finally put out this coming Winter 2025). It will feature some male and female experimental artist who music uses…

[teacuppaola]

Changes and Updates

I quit my old job as a teacher assistant and moved in with my boyfriend! He decided to buy a house closer to his job to save him the trip of an hour and sum every morning. This meant I had to quit my pre-school teacher and find a new job in that area. I was really sad about leaving (and sobbed on my last day) but it was a blessing in disguise that I did or else I would've never left. I loved those children as if they were my own and I hope they grow up safe and to be wonderful people (even the ones that gave me gray hair omgggg). So glad I did though because the people I worked with also quit and went to better, less toxic jobs (so happy for them!!!)

After the move, I took a break and began doing things that made me happy: draw, read, and travel (went to epcot, DC, Italy, and France). Sadly though, after about a month, I ran out of money (the Italy and France tripped drained my savings so quick !!!! wish I never went tbh :(). I had no time to figure out what job I wanted but I applied to the ones that I knew would hire me on the spot: preschool positions. The first one I went to was run-down and the teachers looked very scary so even though I got the job, I ghosted them heheeh. I had another interview with a pre-school that I was so close to skipping out on but my boyfriend pushed me to do it anyway. It was so pretty and had so little kids!!!! I'm so glad went through with it as I've been there for exactly 1 year !!! I became great friends with my co-workers! From my co-workers, I began hosting trivia as she started first and then trained me (I sucked at so bad at first but now I'm so good!! ehehe) and I love my house!!! It is also good pay compared to other pre-schools. Even though I love it, I don't want to stay as student loans have started again, and I will eventually need a higher-paying job (an office job that pays at least $20/hr) to pay it off. I currently have 19,300K in student loans and can hopefully move it to 19K by the end of 2024 with the help of the SAVE program. I also an 11K car loan on top of that :,(.

My sister also moved away to Japan. She officially moved in August to be an English teacher but because I'm a shopaholic, I going to have to visit her in 2024. My goal is to save up enough money to visit her as I have always wanted to live in Japan. very jealous but I love my boyfriend and where I am at in life and would never want to ruin it. But maybe someday, I will!!! We'll see.

[smudgekip]

How do i find out what i want in life? How do i know where i want to live and what i want to do?

[thepastawall]

Yall ever just scream into the void and not even get an echo

[plainescape]

recently got back into some old flash games that I used to play

[queseraphita]

The demon lord has gained emotions,

he will now kill for you!

[renegade-skywalker]

you ever eat something so simple it momentarily changes your life? just now I put some dijon mustard on a pretzel and it was so good for a second I thought I saw god, cleared my sinuses and cleansed my soul

[missmeganlee]

For the first time in I don't even know how long I am not going back to school in September and it feels so extremely weird for me

[doctorslippery]

Someone asked "What generation are you?

...and I had to stare into space as I thought about how I felt.

The Lost Generation maybe...then, realized that that would make me like 120 years old or something like that.

I sipped my coffee as my mind lost focus and I drifted for a bit on the wave of ennui that came for me.

[goslingwosling]

Rethinking his life choices

[beepbeepkazoo]

going to miku expo and realizing ive officially lived every single one of 14 year old mes dream

[lonely-ghost-girl]

just watched Nomadland again Thoroughly depressed now 😀

[neohunter1884]

[pastelpinksoda]

[choobelette]

the mind was not made to be satisfied. we are happiest when in a state of eternal yearning. feeling things is the purpose of living