#existenialism

[bodhi-ryuchai]

Black Arrows to the Sun...)))->

Have any you ever heard the term multidisciplinary artist? I definitely have but I have yet to meet an indivudual in person. Alice Karveli a.k.a. Black Arrows personifies how a multidisciplinary artists operates. I’m planning Ambient Communion III compilation (in which I plan to finally put out this coming Winter 2025). It will feature some male and female experimental artist who music uses…

[teacuppaola]

Changes and Updates

I quit my old job as a teacher assistant and moved in with my boyfriend! He decided to buy a house closer to his job to save him the trip of an hour and sum every morning. This meant I had to quit my pre-school teacher and find a new job in that area. I was really sad about leaving (and sobbed on my last day) but it was a blessing in disguise that I did or else I would've never left. I loved those children as if they were my own and I hope they grow up safe and to be wonderful people (even the ones that gave me gray hair omgggg). So glad I did though because the people I worked with also quit and went to better, less toxic jobs (so happy for them!!!)

After the move, I took a break and began doing things that made me happy: draw, read, and travel (went to epcot, DC, Italy, and France). Sadly though, after about a month, I ran out of money (the Italy and France tripped drained my savings so quick !!!! wish I never went tbh :(). I had no time to figure out what job I wanted but I applied to the ones that I knew would hire me on the spot: preschool positions. The first one I went to was run-down and the teachers looked very scary so even though I got the job, I ghosted them heheeh. I had another interview with a pre-school that I was so close to skipping out on but my boyfriend pushed me to do it anyway. It was so pretty and had so little kids!!!! I'm so glad went through with it as I've been there for exactly 1 year !!! I became great friends with my co-workers! From my co-workers, I began hosting trivia as she started first and then trained me (I sucked at so bad at first but now I'm so good!! ehehe) and I love my house!!! It is also good pay compared to other pre-schools. Even though I love it, I don't want to stay as student loans have started again, and I will eventually need a higher-paying job (an office job that pays at least $20/hr) to pay it off. I currently have 19,300K in student loans and can hopefully move it to 19K by the end of 2024 with the help of the SAVE program. I also an 11K car loan on top of that :,(.

My sister also moved away to Japan. She officially moved in August to be an English teacher but because I'm a shopaholic, I going to have to visit her in 2024. My goal is to save up enough money to visit her as I have always wanted to live in Japan. very jealous but I love my boyfriend and where I am at in life and would never want to ruin it. But maybe someday, I will!!! We'll see.

[smudgekip]

How do i find out what i want in life? How do i know where i want to live and what i want to do?

[thepastawall]

Yall ever just scream into the void and not even get an echo

[plainescape]

recently got back into some old flash games that I used to play

[queseraphita]

The demon lord has gained emotions,

he will now kill for you!

[renegade-skywalker]

you ever eat something so simple it momentarily changes your life? just now I put some dijon mustard on a pretzel and it was so good for a second I thought I saw god, cleared my sinuses and cleansed my soul

[missmeganlee]

For the first time in I don't even know how long I am not going back to school in September and it feels so extremely weird for me

[doctorslippery]

Someone asked "What generation are you?

...and I had to stare into space as I thought about how I felt.

The Lost Generation maybe...then, realized that that would make me like 120 years old or something like that.

I sipped my coffee as my mind lost focus and I drifted for a bit on the wave of ennui that came for me.

[goslingwosling]

Rethinking his life choices

[beepbeepkazoo]

going to miku expo and realizing ive officially lived every single one of 14 year old mes dream

[lonely-ghost-girl]

just watched Nomadland again Thoroughly depressed now 😀

[neohunter1884]

[pastelpinksoda]

[choobelette]

the mind was not made to be satisfied. we are happiest when in a state of eternal yearning. feeling things is the purpose of living

[harostar]

Behind the cut because SPOILERS JUST SPOILERS that is all.

Barbie Movie really went:

-here’s a ton of jokes about some of the terrible canceled/discontinued ideas we’ve had over the decades

-Ken is both the villain and sympathetic, because he’s every lost young man with no sense of self that gets lured in by the promises of the manosphere. Toxic Masculinity and Patriarchy don’t make him any happier, just force him to play a role that isn’t him until Barbie defeats him and then encourages him to have his own journey of self-discovery because he’s “Kenough”. 

-The real world is Barbie becoming uncomfortable and aware of threats all around her, while it makes Ken first confident and then arrogant

-The ghost of Ruth Handler is here to guide us, and also to VETO ideas about Barbie and Ken ending up together.

-Barbie’s person is the Mom, not the daughter. Because that doll represented their happy times together, and she’s stressed about work and her daughter becoming an edgy teenager that has discovered Baby’s First Social Justice (bonus using it to bully people and just throwing out buzz words!)

-Pregnant Midge makes everyone deeply, deeply uncomfortable

-Skipper got out once and did something horrible to children in Florida

-Allan hates Ken and just wants to escape. 

-Barbieland, a utopia of Girlbosses living their perfect life every day, is not actually perfect or necessarily all-good, because it’s still not equal but hey the Barbies realize this and are working to let the Kens have “as much rights as women do in the real world” (LOL)

-DEPRESSION BARBIE. EXISTENIAL DREAD BARBIE. 

-Narrator: Margot Robbie is not the person to cast for this point (about being ugly)

-Random old woman at the bus stop just rendering Barbie speechless, because “you’re so beautiful”. 

-HER NAME IS BARBARA HANDLER AND SHE IS HERE FOR HER GYNO APPOINTMENT.