#em babbles

[thegirlwiththeninjaturtletattoos]

I know the bay turtles are different from the guys in most iterations I was wondering. I don’t know if your doing a love triangle fic because lol drama is fun /aff but I was wondering do you prefer Leo over raph in that iteration or is just fir drama?

YES NONNIE I WOULD LOVE TO TALK ABOUT THIS

*cracks nuckles*

You are totally right in that the Bay boyz (hehe) are very different than most other iterations, and that is something I love so much about them. I love that they gave more playfulness to Leo and Donnie, that typically only Mikey gets because, well, it's Mikey.

I love Bayverse Leo because of the burden that he shoulders, and I love writing him as more teasing and playful because he deserves to be. He's needed to be so responsible for everything his entire life; responsible for his brother's lives, responsible for NYC (in his view), and responsible for his father. And it gets to him. He deserves some sweet, soft moments where he can have fun and fall in love.

I love Bayverse Raph because of his wall that he puts up, blocking out the world so he doesn't get hurt. All he wants is acceptance, love; but the fear of rejection is so strong that he'd rather hide behind his muscles than give anyone a chance. He does everything he can to be intimidating, scary; but deep down he's screaming for someone to see past all that and reach out. Raph wants so badly to fall in love, but that fear; that fear that keeps him up at night, that's stained his hands with blood- it haunts him.

It's the difference between want vs need. What you deserve, and what is destined.

Plus...

..I mean...c'mon. *sighs dreamily*

But yes, I do love drama. And the love triangle idea between two incredibly strong personalities, who would both respect and disrespect each other has me rolling on the floor writing it.

So to answer your question completely, I love the Bayverse versions of Raph and Leo pretty equally. In most other iterations, Raph is always my favorite. I relate to him most (the wall) and I'm a sucker for a brooding bad boy. But Leo, *sigh* Leo and his angst got to me.

Writing ERHIT has been so fun because it gave me the opportunity to showcase the jealousy and anger that these two are known for, but in a different way. I love giving Raph more angst and making Leo feel happy and carefree...for a bit.

But thank you so much for asking!! It made my morning to get this!!

I could talk about ERHIT allll dayyyy lol

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God OK OK! Fiona and Cake only has two eps out and it's already so good? It's like a more grounded yet still surreal Bee and Puppycat (at least in the first ep). Background references are scattered everywhere and I love it. The art style is the same as Obsidian but they're playing around with texture more which is great.

They got mother fucking Donald Glover back!!

Fiona is very relatable in the worst way possible. What with the inability to keep a job and the constant wish for escapism. We get to witness Finn's absolute dog shit coping mechanism of adventuring til he drops like he talked about in Obsidian. And Simon continues to literally never be happy, slowly losing the mind he only recently regained.

Even if the rest of the show trips and falls this setup alone is just so fun and I can't wait for more!

[thegirlwiththeninjaturtletattoos]

Something really fucked up happened at work last week and I’m to the point where all I can do not to fall apart is read long fics and sip mulled cider/ eat charcuterie on my couch -

I’m still working on erhit and kinktober so sorry if you’ve been waiting! I’m alive! I’m just going through it right now and writing is hard.

Much love -

Tats 💚

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Everybody stfu new Madoka trailer just dropped!!!

As always, it looks so good. Shaft might save most of the cleanup for blue rays but everything in this trailer looks so clean. The insanely over-complicated environments and structures are as they should be The new outfits are quite nice, I'm very curious about Sayaka's bandages (with a cute bow tying it all together)

I was a bit confused about who was talking on the phone but judging by this new image on the official Twitter account (I'm never calling it the other thing)

It seems there is OG Homura (with the Madoka ribbons that she's seen wearing at the end of the show) and the smug Devil Homura. I'm not sure how OG Homu got here but if the conflict is between these two fighting over Madoka that would be quite interesting.

As always I'm looking forward to more main series Madoka, whether it's contentious as Rebellion or not will be known soon enough.

I'm so excited we finally got more news AHHHHHHH!!! See you all again in Winter 2024 (which is the theatrical release in Japan)

[21st-centuryliability]

When will this stop? Will it ever stop? Of all the things I’ve been through you’re the one that’s still bothering me, the one that my OCD has hold of. It’s been 3 and half years since I walked away because it got too much trying to hold the weight of your mental health and well being while mine got continuously pushed aside. I did nothing but try to help you, I cared about you way more than I should’ve and got nothing but abuse in return, abuse that you’ll never fully take responsibility and accountability for. You admitted and acknowledged on multiple occasions that you were aware of what you were doing and how you were treating and always went on about how it needed to change and how you were sorry and loved me but shitty cycle continued even when I told you if things didn’t change I’d have to walk away because I couldn’t keep going through it. I know you had mental health problems and problems going in your life but none of that was an excuse to treat me the way you did because most if not all of what you did was out of pure jealousy.

We met through Tom, he helped me massively in figuring out and coming to terms with my OCD and if not for him I wouldn’t be where am now being able to understand to extent what’s going on in my brain. You’re jealousy and spite ruined that for me, for a good while I couldn’t even look at him without seeing you. I know you said you had OCD too and you’d say it was Tom’s fault it was bad but I know that was your way of indirectly blaming me …and yes I know you blamed me completely for it when I cut you off! How were you able to sit there and easily blame me when we ended up in that situation because of your crappy behaviour? How could you blame me for your OCD when you knew I had OCD too? I never once blamed you for anything, never once treated you how you treated me, I did nothing but care for you and help you while my own mental health and well being was pushed aside and forgotten about and for the love of god please explain to me why you think you had the right to drag Tom into the middle of it and then moan when I asked to talk to him privately? You had no right, you were never the victim in any of this, it was your fault things went the way they did and you know that because I wasn’t the first person you treated that way I was the third not to mention you tried it again with two other people luckily the person after me saw straight through your crap but the last person I’m aware unfortunately didn’t not escape unharmed.

I made the tweets I made after I cut you off because despite walking away and blocking you on everything you still didn’t stop and you tried to make out like I was the bad guy. I had also realized after cutting you off and stepping back that you had orchestrated things on your twitter to make it look like we were in a relationship when we were most definitely not and were never gonna be, especially when I was in a relationship that ended briefly a few weeks before I walked away from you. You continued to spout crap and act like you were hard done by and the victim and at first I was just trying to clear myself and clear up the crap you had spouted but then you kept bitching about me, getting other people who didn’t even know me to send me messages to stop being the horrible when I was doing nothing but state the truth because you didn’t know when to stop. I know what you said, I know you said I was disgusting and a bully so what does that make you? Something I said might have been harsh and little over the top but you didn’t know when to stop and I got more and more upset. Even more so when despite all the shut you put me through, going as far as to convince me to put my job at risk so I could take you to meet Tom because you had made it seem like I was the only way you could meet him, you got exactly what you wanted despite having put me through shit for six months. Not only did you meet him but you gave him a letter about your twisted ‘I’m the victim’ version of what happened knowing that you were seeing him before me and I bet it made your day when the rest his tour got canceled because of covid and I ended up not being able to see him after everything that happened. Yes I got angry and made a few tweets but you can’t blame when you treated me like shit for 6 months, still got what you wanted and I had to miss out. Seeing Tom that night would’ve given me some kind of closure knowing that he would’ve known what actually happened and that he didn’t think of me any differently because of you! You went on about how Tom wouldn’t want to be involved in it and wouldn’t want to see it but it didn’t stop you messaging him seconds after I cut you off or giving him that letter did it? Yes I wanted to talk to him privately because I felt at that point he was my only option and he was the only that might’ve been able to make you sense but I’ve since realized that that’s exactly what you would’ve wanted. You were a hypocritical abusive awful person and you only acted the way you did to my tweets after I cut you off because you knew they were true and I was right.

My OCD was ok and it was managed but recently (probably since giving birth to my son) it’s gotten really bad again, I still have the same issues as back then but you’ve also become issue. Everyday, sometimes multiple times a day I have to carry out a ‘check’ on all your social medias even though I’ve blocked them and I can’t see anything just incase I suddenly can see and you’ve said something that could hurt me although it’s been 3 and half’s years and I probably don’t even cross your mind. I keep doing these checks and I know I’ll end up seeing something that will upset or trigger something in me. When I finally cut you off I saved as much of our conversations as I could incase you’d say something that wasn’t true and I’d need to prove it. I recently read through most of them (believe me I wish I hadn’t) and despite the evidence of your crappy behavior being right there in front of me, the voice in my head still made me believe that I had done something wrong at some point, that I maybe shouldn’t have said certain things but I know that I’m not responsible for your reactions.

You acted liked I didn’t care and that hated you but I cared about way more than I ever should have. If I didn’t care I wouldn’t have been about to leave work to get a train to find you, despite not knowing where you actually lived, the first time you threatened to take your life and I couldn’t get hold of you for two hours. I wouldn’t have spent most days and nights talking you through panic attacks and whenever you threatened to harm yourself or your life. I wouldn’t have made my absolute best effort to try and get time off work to take you to see Tom so you could meet him if I didn’t care. You did then and probably still would know blame everything that happened on your mental health. You said the night where you sent 100s of messages over the space of an hour and left angry terrifying voicemails trying to call me was you having a crisis but I know it was because I was with one of my longtime friends and not at home messaging you especially when you would have a crisis almost every night and it was always worse if I was with one of my friends. Did you know on that night while you were sending all the messages and nasty voicemails I was sat there staring at my phone shaking and terrified? There was only one other time I had felt that way and that was when my father was arrested for second time when I was a kid.

There’s so much more I could add into this but it would never otherwise. I know you do have problems to deal with and I never tried to tell you didn’t or make you feel like you didn’t, I never once ignored you or tried to direct the attention back on myself. You had my complete full attention and it was never enough. You wanted both mine and Tom’s attention but you didn’t want me to having anything with Tom, you wouldn’t have been happy until you had isolated me from my friends, my job, Tom, everything until you had me to yourself.

I never wanted things to go the way they did, I hope you have gotten the help you need and you’re doing better, I just wish it wasn’t at my expense. You post about mental health matters but you never cared about mine, it only matters when it’s yours. I’ve tried getting therapy a few months after this all happened but not a lot of places we’re taking new patients because the country was in lockdown and I just got sent it circles not to mention I wasn’t able to see my friends or my boyfriend for the first couple months after this happened so I’ve never really dealt or processed any of this. I’m also aware that I probably need to go back of my medication that I stopped taking last year when trying to get pregnant and also the pregnancy hormones that still haven’t fully left my body aren’t helping either.

I just wish I could back and stop past me from ever starting a conversation with you then none of this would’ve happened, things with Tom wouldn’t have been ruined for so long and maybe my OCD wouldn’t be as bad as it is right now and given that the compulsions and intrusive thoughts are bringing me to a certain point again I need to get help. Not to mention my other mental health issues and chronic illnesses.

[thegirlwiththeninjaturtletattoos]

Me n @ninnosaurus 🤝🏼

shout out to mutuals that have fucked up sleep schedule it's like we live in the same timezone

[thegirlwiththeninjaturtletattoos]

as a girl with a ninja turtle tattoo, I MUST ask- do you really have a ninja turtle tattoo👁👁 and if so, handshakes you in solidarity

Yooooo! Twinsies!

I have a sleeve(unfinished), actually!

Hold on, lemme *shuffling noises*

My artist is Dave Sedano at Cobra Classic Tattoo, who is also a HUGE tmnt fan and a sweet heart

We’ll finish the sleeve at some point lol

Now I’m curious, what’s yours nonnie???

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The eclipse was pretty rad. The slow closing of the curtain and then BAM it went back to being bright as hell again. Eclipses are kind of creepy cause everything gets so quiet, like birds and bugs just stopped existing for a bit.

[brionysea]

this is my new favourite thing

[thegirlwiththeninjaturtletattoos]

Anytime, mi casa es su casa

so embarrassing when i forget im checking someone's blog and i start scrolling through and liking and reblogging shit as if it's just my dash. it feels like wandering into someone else's apartment and not noticing and making myself lunch

[ri-afan]

Soulmate au - first words on skin

“Woah, hey, you probably shouldn’t be doing that.”

“…Are you my conscience?”

Person 1 is a vigilante helping someone with a probable concussion after an attack of some kind.

Person 2 is a person who’s had many a philosophical debate on whether or not the words on their skin made them reckless or if they were reckless all on their own.

[bonefall]

Clan Culture Illustrations

So I've been mentioning this in passing, and I think now is a good time to start collecting info from people who are interested!

I'm seeking artists who want to draw stuff for my Clan Culture series.

I often write very large guides for things like tools, ecology, medicine and treatments, etc, which then get held up by the fact that they're big blocks of text without any fun pictures. I usually collaborate with friends and family, but I could put out more quicker if I had some artists on standby.

If you're an artist who would be interested in illustrating, here's the details;

Everything I make on this blog is tailored towards WC fans, but free for anyone to use and reference for their xenofiction worldbuilding projects. You do not have to be intimately familiar with the Warrior Cats books. This offer's open to anyone above 18.

Fans of Better Bones are preferred, because Clan Culture and BB often intersect. I might ask for help with some BB stuff at some point, too. (for example i have a guide on types of StarClan spirits that needs illustration)

To re-iterate, please only inquire if you're 18+

Price range is 20 - 50 USD and turnaround time can be up to 6 months if you just keep me updated. (I am sorry that I can't offer a higher price for these, but this is coming from my own pocket. In return, this is meant to be low pressure)

Half payment upfront, the rest after completion.

I will never "assign" you a surprise mystery topic (unless you ask for that I guess?), I'll either present you with a list of posts that need illustration (yes this means you get to read stuff early), OR float some ideas that play to your strengths and interests. (for example: if I'm approached by Spider-Enjoyer-9000 who's willing to draw a ridiculous number of spiders, I will draft, write, and research a Clanmew Expansion in the style of Deer and Co or Moths and Butterflies.)

Either way, there's usually a lot of creative freedom here unless I need a specific technical drawing, which I will discuss with you and provide references for. (As an example, if we were talking about a post on declawing, I might ask for you to illustrate the muscles within the paw.)

The nature of Clan Culture means you will probably be asked to draw plants, food, objects, and/or scenery

Still interested?

I'm hoping to make a personal "list" of people I can call on, so send me your commissions info or details in a DM, an ask, a reply to this post, or anything else you'd like. Tell me about stuff you like drawing, topics you're interested in, if you can draw backgrounds, etc

Also, please tell include in that message if you're comfortable with illustrating these particular sensitive topics. These are opt-in only;

Medical Gore (Woundcare, stitching, blood, vomit, urine, parasites and bug bites, etc.)

Reproductive Care (Abortion, birth, pyometria, inducing lactation, possible revamp of the HRT guide including simple surgeries, etc)

Hunting and Butchery (Humane killing of prey, skinning, disembowelment, cutting meat, making sausage and blood pudding, etc)

Funerals and Animal Death (Sad kitties, dead battle cats, scavengers and grave desecration, tombs and burial rituals, concealing decay, etc.)

The end art will always stay tasteful, but I might need to give you references in the form of real images or tutorials that might be upsetting if you're sensitive to these topics-- so it's important to me that I consider those four things "opt-in."

I have plenty of other posts that need illustration, it's just a huge plus if you're able to do these too.

(You should also mention any other specific triggers or phobias you have, so I don't unwittingly come at you with something else upsetting)

"I still have questions!"

Putting a big list of answers beneath the cut;

"Would everything have to be colored?"

Nope, as long as there's pictures to break up the text, you can do sketches, black and white, flat colors, only put color in the header, etc. We'll discuss expectations with the post in front of us, and then agree on price.

I have ONE requirement; it's gotta look good on Tumblr darkmode. Because I use Dark Reader.

"Do you have a Discord?"

I do, I just try to be exclusive with who I give it to! When we're discussing details, we'll probably move over there if you'd like. This is a reason why I only want to work with 18+ artists, I'm not always SFW on main.

"Can we do an entry together about (specific topic)?"

Probably yes, so feel free to ask! The worst that will happen is that I say no, or maybe later. For example, I've got a post on Sweetness Tolerance reserved for my partner (they like to draw sweets), so I would say no if you asked.

Just keep in mind that researching, outlining, and writing is unpaid labor I'm doing completely for free. I have posts mostly done that just need art, and topics I've done some research on. Please only ask for special collaborations from scratch if you're serious 🙏

"Does it have to be digital?"

You'd have to have a WILD idea for me to say yes to anything non-digital, but I am a queer of whimsy. If you can whimsify me with an idea, hell yeah.

"Will I be compensated if you need any changes?"

Yes. If I spring anything on you after the details we agree on, I will first ask you, then ask how much that change would cost, and then compensate you for it.

As fair warning though, I am trying to stay within a budget and writing the posts themselves is unpaid work I do (plus occasional helping hands during research stages, I consulted a friend who is an irl wetlands expert for ShadowClan's environment). I can't pay more than what we agree on.

"Can I link my info in the post?"

Yes. "Guest Artist" is going to be named in the opening paragraphs, along with any fundraiser, shop info, carrd, etc, you want there.

"Boosty?"

Yea I got Boosty. Paypal, too.

"I have some other question about pricing"

Feel free to ask, but my hard budget is 20$ - 50$ US. Please only inquire if you're willing to charge within that range.

"What if I'd do it free or I want to do this anonymously?"

I'll donate to a charity of your choice and link to it in the post. If you have no charity preference, I will link to RAINN, Anera, or The Trevor Project.

(Naturally this comes with an anti-ghoul caveat or two. If you try to get me to donate to something like Autism Speaks I will rotate every bone in your body by 45 degrees.)

"I like checklists, can you give me a checklist of info you want in a DM?"

Sure!

Your info; socials, carrd, shop, etc

General interests and strengths. Stuff you'd love to work on, or have insight to. If you like fishing or drawing bugs, I want to know that. If you particularly want to practice flowers, tell me. Be as detailed as you want so I can pair you with a relevant subject!

Your examples

General asking price (or charity)

Which, if any, of the four Opt-In Subjects you're opting in for.

Anything else I should know (triggers, phobias, things you dislike drawing, if schooling or disability means you need a particularly long turnaround time, etc)

[sandflakedraws]

May I prompt... more Floyd and Bitty B interactions? 🫣 Lots of untapped potential in their shared snarkiness...

(Also, hi! I've been a fan of your art for a long time and I've been so happy to see you posting Trolls art recently! You make them so Squish....)

(hello!! glad to have u along for the ride ^^ the Beans are here to stay)

not so much snarky as sentimental with this one, but here u go. this is based on my experience of holding my newborn sister for the first time when i was five

[thegirlwiththeninjaturtletattoos]

If I was a vigilante…they would absolutely hear these bad bois comin a mile away

Sword w cellphone charms

[ficauthor]

I like to think no one really explained Soos' whole deal in the dynamic to Ford so he just assumed that he had to be Stan's illegitimate kid/grandkid he couldn't claim bc of faked death/stolen identity reasons. I like to think he also never mentioned it bc one hes bad at communication and two Soos and Stan seem happy. and well Stan likely explained something to the kid one on one bc Stan is many things but not a deadbeat. Ford in his wisdom just like assumed they didnt use terms like 'dad' or 'grandad' cause it'd reveal Stanley wasnt dead/ or then itd make it so Stanford was responsible legally.

He probably saw Soos' reaction to Stans memory loss as further proof tbh. Like yeah seeing your dad/grandad loose all memory of you would be rough.

I like to think he just did his best to try and bond with his 'nephew' for a few years before accidentally letting slip that he was excited for uncle/nephew bonding time to Soos. Soos wouldn't comment bc hes excited to basically be excepted as family by another Pines.

I keep trying to think of a way the missunderstanding gets cleared but no I dont actually think it does. I think the only thing that'd become clear to him is Stan is Soos' father not grandfather. But not that its emotional and not blood. Bc everyone in that family sees Soos as family. Dipper and Mabel more or less treat Soos like a combo big brother/goofy uncle. And Soos isnt gonna willingly bring up his bio dad, plus everyone in the know about his bio wouldn't just share that. So I think Ford dies fully believing he's blood related to Soos. He wouldn't even reject Soos if he knew the truth I think he comes to love him as family too. I just also think its hilarious the idea that he believes that because he made some insane leaps in logic and no one knew to correct them.

Stan doesn't even know his brother thinks this either. Hes probably like 'wow all this time apart and Sixer still knows me better than anyone. He knows that kid is like a son to me!'

[n0picturespls]

Did the jrwi character names with my friends and-

Blank under cut lol