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metalhoops · 1 year ago
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9 people you want to know better
tagged by @hellion-child. Thanks so much for tagging me ❤️
Last song: Gotterdammerung- Zeal & Ardor. It's been a long day and sometimes my brain just needs very loud music to chill out, counterintuitive as it might seem.
Currently watching: Like most of Tumblr, I just finished watching Good Omens season 2. I'm also watching the latest season of What We Do in the Shadows.
Currently reading: I just finished reading 'Our Share of Night' / 'Nuestra Parte de Noche ' by Mariana Enriquez. I would recommend it if you're looking for a tome of a horror novel that gets under your skin. It's not necessarily scary but it is haunting. Plus most of the main characters are LGBT+.
Like Lovecraftian Gods, cults, kids on bikes in the 80s, haunted houses, generational trauma, a capitalism hit peace, or a story where the characters become horrible people in order to do what they think is right only for them to become the thing they fear? Then this book is for you.
Current obsession: If I'm honest I don't have much time for my obsessions. I'm currently juggling a master's degree, placement and part-time work. So free time to exist is hard to come by.
I feel like it's obvious if I tell you I love reading or writing.
If I do have spare time I enjoy art, which you might not know from my Tumblr because I don't really do fan art. I'm not that good at digital art. I tend to do ink, Berserk-like stuff because hyper-focusing on tiny details or repetitive crosshatching also scratches an itch in my brain. I also really enjoy painting flower/ nature with a palette knife.
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@glygriffe  @afewproblems @strangersteddierthings @life-love-musicaltheatre @luvgods @starrystevie @scoops-stevie @loveinhawkins
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somnimagus · 1 year ago
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My page for @sheikahzine; about Impaz's duty to her village, empty of people and full of memories.
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housecow · 2 days ago
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Have your family or friends made any comments about you gaining so much weight? I mean, your weight gain is crazy. Also, I would like to ask, how has your life changed since you started gaining weight?
no comments—my family and friends are all wonderful, amazing people and would never comment on that sort of thing, lol!!!
it hasn’t changed too much…? i mean. i don’t fit into any of my old clothes and certain things are harder now, but i haven’t reached a tipping point yet 🤭
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sketchypeppers · 10 months ago
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extra ordinary
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canisalbus · 1 year ago
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Hey quick question,
What do you think is an acceptable amount of asks to post in a day?
They've become my primary way of delivering you art ramblings and oc lore and such, but I'm constantly worried I'm flooding people's dashboards with them.
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amanitacurses · 4 months ago
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more linkshipping? hmm... little odd as an experiment, but what about spirit and sacred? (hopefully i got the names right djzngdiddb)
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You got the names right!
Spirit proceeded to have the midlife crises ever (and also bit anyone who tried to take it off)
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obscuremantisman · 5 months ago
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this is regarding my romantic headcanons post about eyeless jack have these doodles as a treat while my mind is, in fact, being haunted by him once again.
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gummywormqueen · 2 years ago
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guess who’s clown ass made a baby for their fave crk ship ever + some designs for older licorice and dark choco <33
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crazylittlejester · 2 months ago
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opinion on trans girl warriors. she has invaded my brain so i want her to be in urs too
I love the idea of her!! Though I’m a bit biased towards trans guy Warriors, you will never see me hating on a good trans headcanon. I fully support hitting the blorbos with the transgenderification beam in any way
i can’t make memes cos my phone is broken but:
you with trans fem Wars 🤝 me with trans masc Wars
EITHER WAY, HW LINK IS DEFINITELY NOT CIS
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wellfine · 5 months ago
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Hey I found ur art uncredited on tik Tok
https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMreQSnaw/
They said they "found it on Reddit" so they just decided to steal it and post it ig?? Ugh!!
Wow, that's a whole other repost to the one I thought it was going to be, lol. It's been reposted to TikTok once before, and I'm also not surprised this person got it from Reddit, where I doubt I was credited either.
At the end of the day I appreciate the heads up but there's nothing I can really do about it. The most helpful thing anyone can do is to leave comments on the reposts to provide credit,* because if artists ever try and comment then we pretty invariably get attacked. Don't be mean or aggressive, that just builds their animosity towards the artists, but I do think people respond positively to outside pressure to do the right thing 🤷
*Remember to make sure there's enough context - eg. something like "art by @ landegart on Twitter" is more searchable/useful than "artist is Landeg" to someone on TikTok who has no idea who I am haha
#this comic has been reposted A Lot and I appreciate people keeping me in the loop but it's just wearing me down#I can't do much about it and I'd rather just ignore it rather than spend time thinking about it#especially when people get into arguments with them on my behalf and now suddenly I'M the one catching heat#like it's been reposted a couple of times to twitter too and when people tell them to credit me-#-the reposters call *me* a bitch like. I'm not even there any more you're arguing with the wall#anyway. it makes me happy to see people politely but firmly crediting artists in the comments section :) thank you!#also it's kind of interesting that the conversation has become entirely about credit. when I don't want it reposted WITH credit either#I just don't want my art reposted to sites like reddit or tiktok at all. if I wanted it there I'd share it there myself#and the fact that I don't says a lot about what kind of communities those places have fostered#there's a reason like zero artists use reddit to share their own work even though it's a pretty big platform#anyway that part isn't @ you at all anon thank you for your message & keeping me informed#it's more just how the conversation has gradually shifted from 'reposting is bad' to 'reposting without credit is bad'#i understand that it's because we can't stop people from reposting so it's basically the most we can ask for. but still#and make sure you guys aren't following reposters here on Tumblr. even a lot of the ones who say they get permission just lie lol
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dollfaceksj · 1 year ago
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I DO LOVE THE ANGST!! I think the right amount if perfect!!
Can #8 be Jungkook genuinely realizing he was rude and knocked down a few pegs yunno?
I seriously want to Make HIM the one wrapped around her little finger. Yunno? She fell first but he fell harder? Cuz he’s so goddamn cocky and big headed 🤪🤪🤪 love your Drabble series!
lets see wot i can do 😁😁
warnings: angst (mentions of sa) …sorry for putting y’all thru that! don’t hunt me down with fire torches and pitch forks for the ending!!!! can’t wait to see how it goes!!
taste of a poison paradise | jjk (m) #8
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it’s been a few days since the clubbing incident and you haven’t been responding to anyone
you’d gotten a text from an unknown number that introduced themselves as yoongi and said that he got your number from taehyung to ask where you were
and why you had left so suddenly
you’ve been in bed all weekend, looking a mess
you weren’t responding to anyone and tae had started begging to just let him know that you were safe
and you texted him that you were home and just wanted to be alone
and now you’re by yourself
why
and how
did you ever let that punk get to you like this
get serious!!!
his words should mean nothing to you!!!
and you put him in his place!!
you definitely made your feelings towards him CLEAR
but you’ll also never forget the way he looked at you
instant regret settled on his features
toward the end of your harsh rant, his teeth were anxiously nibbling in his bottom lip you were surprised he didn’t end up bleeding
seeing him so stressed and anxious was so different to his usual stoic and cocky self
not to mention–
knock knock knock knock knock
who the fawk is knocking at your door at 9pm on a sunday
man
what’s going on
you slowly get up and make your way to your front door, cracking it open and peeking with one eye
“you had me worried, y/n.” taehyung’s voice is lathered in genuineness
you sigh and open the door for him, allowing him to pull you into a tight hug
“what happened? i assumed the worst happened to you in that club. one minute you were dancing with yoongi and then you were gone and i don’t hear from you at all.”
he sways with you from left to right, soothingly rubbing your back
you blink back your tears and just inhale his familiar scent
he smells like musk and cookies
you love his scent
:(
“you didn’t get–” he pauses, “like no one tried to–” he pauses again, “like did someone–”
huh
oh
okay
you realize he’s trying to ask you if you’d gotten sexually harassed or assaulted
“no, tae. nothing of the sort.” you pull back and look up at him, rubbing his chest
he visibly relaxes and brings his hand up to your face, rubbing out the scrunch between your brows
“then what happened, babe?”
you quietly sigh and shake your head in dismissal. “nothing. i felt sick. went home. been in bed for 2 days.”
“but why didn’t you answer my texts? or yoongi’s? we were seriously worried, y/n.”
sigh
“i’m sorry.” you flick his forehead and it allows you to escape his embrace
he follows you to your living room and jumps onto your couch
“don’t jump on my furniture!!!!”
he ignores you and reaches for your remote before turning the tv on.
“you got any snacks?” he asks you, feet up on the table
annoying little fuck
you kick his feet off your table. “not for you.”
he whines loudly but then sits up right and glances at you. “so, we wanna go on a camping trip and we’re wondering… if you’d wanna join?”
you look at him as you sit down next to him, snatching the remote out of his hand. “and who is we?”
he chuckles, “i don’t have a whole lot of friends, y/n.”
“taehyung, you literally say ‘hey, what’s up’ about 30 times a minute when we’re walking on campus.”
“acquaintances aren’t friends!”
well, he’s right
hmm
well
but … he is tae’s friend
“so, your usual friend group?”
“yep.”
ughhh you want to ask him directly
“i’d be the only woman there?”
he shrugs his shoulders. “does that bother you? if it does, you can ask one of your own friends to tag along. like eunbi.”
record scratch
should you ask eunbi?
the chance of that man [horror music] coming with you is low, he’s a homebody
and you don’t wanna ask tae if he’s coming because that would be weird
he’d ask you why you’re interested in that FUCKBOY joining you or not
it’s best not to ask eunbi at all
just to avoid drama
right?
“when do y’all wanna go?”
he looks like he’s contemplating something for a moment before responding with, “next week friday right after class since everyone only has morning classes.”
okay makes sense
“okay and how do y’all wanna go?”
all the others have graduated but most of you don’t have vehicles
“by train. seokjin is the only one that’ll go by car because he actually has one. and then we’ll have a car there for if we need to buy something or for emergencies.”
oh
they’ve thought this through
hm
“i hate bugs, though.”
he chuckles, “i will protect you.”
“make that yoongi and we have a deal.”
he laughs loudly, “okay then, yoongi will protect you.”
“will i be sharing my tent with him?” you quip while batting your eyelashes at him innocently
“calm it down, you minx.”
you both laugh for a few more moments, talking more about the place and camping itself
“so, you in?” tae asks with all the stars present in his eyes
how can you say no to that?
hmmm
you could use some time to relax
“alright, sure.”
and that’s how you find yourself fidgeting with the handle of your suitcase that next friday
standing in front of the train
taehyung, yoongi, jimin and hoseok are loading their suitcases onto the train
2 female friends of hoseok and taehyung have joined, by the names of hyunjoo and isabella
seeing another foreigner like isabella here already made it easy to get along with her
hyunjoo is also really sweet but she’s rather quiet
joon joined seokjin in the car so he didn’t have to drive that long on his own
you’ve got the biggest suitcase of everyone so you’re being helped last
jerks.
the guys are busy with hyunjoo and isabella’s baggage now
you rub your face, collecting some of the sweat that had started forming on your skin
you didn’t think it was going to be this hot tbh?
hoseok said something about there being like a bathhouse 20 mins away from where you will be camping so
sweat shouldn’t be that big of a problem, you’ll just make sure to visit that bathhouse daily
you also brought like extra sleeping bags because you wanna bury yourself basically
you know you’ll be freezing at night like always
what else did you pack?
just as you mindlessly reach for your suitcase again, you’re met with air
your hand continues to grab at air
until you realize
your suitcase is gone
wait
YOUR SUITCASE IS GONE
WHAT THE HELL
you turn around and see someone with your suitcase in hand
but
tae,, yoongi, jimin and hoseok are … all the way over there?
oh
ah
right
okay
your penny has just dropped and so did your heart. STRAIGHT into your ass.
why
is
he
here
???
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you reach for the handle of your suitcase to snatch it out of his grasp
but he doesn’t let you as he pulls it out of your reach
“just let me help you.” jungkook’s voice reaches your ears but he doesn’t even look at you as he continues to carry your suitcase and loading it into the train
he sounds
different
that usual confidence and arrogance he carries himself with is gone
it’s kinda like the same jungkook you’ve always known and not the jungkook you’ve had the displeasure of interacting with these past few weeks
is this his way of being apologetic?
narcissism at it’s finest
everyone starts filing into the train but yoongi is waiting by the door
you walk up to him and he motions for you to get in first
you sigh quietly and smile at him as you walk onto the train
he follows right behind you and places his hand on your back as you walk further into the train
you see jungkook all the way at the front, all the way at the left against the window, wearing his headset but the only two seats that are free are the ones .. right … in front of him
you’ve pretended jk isn’t here pretty well until you make it all the way to your seat and make eye contact with him
he glances at you, teeth sunk into his bottom lip
just as he parts his lips to say something to you
you take your seat right in front of him and yoongi sits down right next to you, directly facing jungkook
ur right across from him
like… your feet and knees are almost touching each other
the look on jungkook’s face had softened for that split second with an apologetic glint in his eyes
but ur not gonna let him mess with your head, not on this 3 hour trip
yoongi leans over to you and whispers these next few words into your ears, “i haven’t seen you since that club, how you been?”
your shoulder gently jerks at his breath hitting your neck and yoongi chuckles at that
you can’t help it
you try not to you really try not to
you glance at jungkook and he’s staring straight at you
the way he’s staring straight at you, teeth anxiously nibbling and picking at his lip rings, showers your entire body in lava
you quickly avert your gaze and you turn your head to say, “i just felt sick. must’ve been the alcohol,” to yoongi
he nods and pulls out his phone. he connects his earbuds to it and offers you one of the earbuds
omg
wait why is this so cute
you feel like ur back in high school
a small smile creeps on your lips as you accept it and put it into your own ear
you notice jungkook’s leg bouncing up and down in anxiety
you drop your head onto yoongi’s shoulder and throw your leg over the other before closing your eyes
just act like he’s not right in front of you
you’re just here with friends
and your head is on yoongi’s shoulder
plus he’s sharing his music with you!!!
that’s a big thing!!!!!!!!
and you allow yourself to zone out <3
you stir and realize you’re being woken up by a soft hand shaking your knee
you hear your name quietly being called
you open your eyes and see big black eyes staring down at you
“we’re here.” jungkook’s soft voice reaches you like liquid gold being ladled into your ears by angels
you blink a couple times and realize you’re still wearing yoongi’s earbud
you look to your side and notice yoongi is gone
“he went to the restroom,” jungkook replies quietly
you don’t respond as you collect yourself and slowly gather your stuff
jungkook quietly does the same but is constantly glancing at you
when you move to step out of the seating area, he gently taps your shoulder
you look over your shoulder at him, still not a single word on your lips for him
“can we talk?” he asks quietly, dropping his hand after catching your attention
uh uhh.. ur not gonna let him ruin your trip
you are NOT
you cried for 2 days in your fucking bed over a geeky junior. ur never allowing that again
“what is there left to talk about?” the words leave you in a harsh tone and if anyone was around that didn’t know the situation, they’d paint you out as the villain
but they don’t get it
they don’t know what it was like when he tore you down
“i think we should talk about the misunderstand–”
“misunderstanding?” you echo in disbelief before letting out a humorless chuckle.
you continue, “there is no misunderstanding, jungkook. i think i made myself pretty fucking clear that night. and so did you.”
he doesn’t give up, though. “please?”
you sigh quietly and glance up at him, all the painful words he said to you still clouding your mind
attention-seeking
tryhard
no one likes that about you
does he even deserve to talk it out?
to be continued
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azuneekun · 8 months ago
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i come check ur blog everytime my friends slander shane to my face. its a type of shane palette cleanser. ur the only mf who gets me
Im glad you can feel some sort of sanctuary in my blog bcz shane fans r always going through the fucking trenches in this fandom
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tojiscrack · 2 months ago
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the dancing scene in the most recent chapter of liar, liar, MEGUMI BLUSHING FOR THE SECOND TIME AS HIS HANDS COLLIDE WITH HER WAIST, i’m crying so much rn. i have NO ONE to speak to about this fic, maybe it’s my period but i can’t get enough of them.
i don’t want them to go through angst, i just want it all to be fluff fluff fluff y’alllll. someone needs to make a fanclub or SOMETHING because it’s killing me how i have no one to speak to about this 😭😭😭
‘liar, liar’ masterlist here:
ik this message was sent in as early as yesterday, but i’ve been out all day and i’ve finally got the time to respond to it. apologies if i’ve left you waiting ☹️💓
i wanna start off by saying you’re literally the sweetest person to ever grace this planet. as i write this slice of life rom-com, i was hoping for the rom part of this com would take over in that scene, and if it’s got you squealing and giggling, ik my mission’s been accomplished 😇
“i have NO ONE to speak to about this fic” — YOU HAVE ME!!! 😤
message me, send me your theories, comment, like, reblog your thoughts, SPAM ME IF YOU MUST, i encourage all of it 😩 !!! i want to see long and juicy comments. small ones are amazing too, but ofc, the more, the merrier! it’s the best part about writing — and it helps me piece out what you like and don’t like so i can make this ride as enjoyable as ever 😗
you beautiful anon, this is the fan club. it’s a small little family of liars we have rn, but still a family nonetheless. don’t forget that 🥹 it does seem like a wonderful idea to talk about ur theories with each other so i can just spectate and laugh to myself about it all, but if you’re shy, you always have me, the writer, who will always respond to ur silly comments and goofy thoughts 🩷🩷🩷
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carlyraejepsans · 9 months ago
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saw your most recent post about really good fics that contain uncomfortable kinks and i immediately thought "ah, biscia must be reading the mpreg soriel fic" and almost left a reply talking about it but i stopped myself because i realized that would be an insane assumption to make. needless to say i felt so vindicated when i saw you link it in an earlier post.
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like. HELLO?
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HELLO???????
#answered asks#''I fear nothing good ever comes of it when it does'' is straight up SEARED into my brain as the toriel line of all time I've ever read#there's some character interpretations I don't share there. like i said i don't think either of them would cry that easily#and while the different conception (badumtss) of sex/gender in various monsters was interesting#i felt like it didn't quite deal with the ramifications of not strictly binary reproductions on social perception of gender like I could've#eg the part about boss monsters being closer to humans in how it works and thus having a different concept of mom/dad compared to skeletons#was pretty nice. but if you establish that skeletons work like ghosts but distinguish she/he ''for some reason'' even though all of them#can bear kids. and then you make a comment about ''the child possibly growing into a woman considering the shape of the pelvis'' it's like#why??????? why. whywhywhy. why would that be a factor. even hypothesizing a certain physical dimorphism. WHY pick the one tied to pregnancy#the ONE ASPECT that you decided was shared between both ''male'' and ''female'' skeletons#it's also like. objectively an argument that is leveraged to hurt and deny trans people irl so it was just. unbelievably uncomfortable#this is what we mean with mpreg and transphobia btw#not that the concept is inherently transphobic or hurtful to trans people#but that that kind of alternative biological worldbuilding implies an alternative social conception of gender role for the characters#that a lot of authors just. straight up miss. because their view of the world is still very cis/perisexist#BUT!!!!!!!!!!#it was still over all a very good fic. I'd rec it to pll not into that for the initial 2 chapters alone
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thepersonperson · 3 months ago
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MAAAAN THESE SUKUNA ANALYSES... THEY'RE SO GOOD... I've always related to him super hard just on first readings as a trans disabled person who is an ambulatory wheelchair user. I'm incredibly violent and confrontational, too. If I could just fuckin kill the people who dehumanize me constantly, I mean... that kind of power is tempting! The way you read him is so satisfying to my brain, and it definitely makes sense in the text as well. Overall I'm just really happy to see somebody managing to put into words what I subconsciously grasped the first time I watched and read JJK. I was literally internally like "omg omg omg they put it into words!! omg!!!" the entire time I've been reading these posts. I can't wait to see what other analysis posts you've made and if there's other stuff for fandoms I enjoy. Thanks a lot for what you do! People like me appreciate it so much.
Oh thank goodnesss you feel this way. Everytime I post always I think of this image.
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Thank you for confirming I'm still at secret esoteric knowledge.
Sukuna is very cathartic for me as a character in that way too. He basically gets to act out where I would restrain myself.
It’s funny that you mention you’re trans. At the risk of tipping the scale to mental illness, I think Sukuna is a very gender character. I find his refusal to introduce himself very relatable. He just kind of lets everyone call him whatever. The only time he ever identifies himself is when not doing so could put in his life in danger.
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That’s it. “I’m the Fallen/Disgraced One”. I don’t believe he ever refers to himself as a man either. He just uses a masculine speaking style.
I also like how he doesn’t seem to care about being associated with feminine things. The marketing leans into this for some reason, pairing him up with Hello Kitty, which I think is great.
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He projects this “I’m too strong to care about gender” aura I’m obsessed with. It might stem from his dehumanization as well. Both himself and other people are not really sure if he’s a curse or a human, so why on earth would he outwardly identify as man? It's not like curses have genders to begin with.
But the moment anyone tries to concretely observe him, like Mahito or Yuji touching his soul, he flips out. That really captures the vibe of “acknowledge my existence, but do not perceive me.” And if you find that relatable you should read Umineko.
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Sukuna is on the border of everything, so he reads like an allegory for multiple minority groups all at once.
He’s masculine in his presentation, but isn’t considered human enough to be called a man. That’s very trans of him.
He’s extremely ablebodied at a glance, but his abnormal features make normal day to day life a constant battle. That’s very invisibly disabled of him.
He may be Japanese by blood, but he’s deemed a monster and pushed out from society for not meeting certain physical features. That’s very biracial of him.
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emry-stars-art · 1 year ago
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I’m wondering (and not sure if this has been talked about yet in a post I simply missed) about how Abram copes with Andrew’s physical affections (or lack thereof) in your lovely royal AU. With the history behind ‘pretty’ that you described for Abram in that last post, I feel like there is so much potential of him expecting to be touched, even before they are courting (but especially during/after), and wondering why Andrew doesn’t—especially once it’s established that he thinks of Abram as ‘pretty’. They are of different station so it would be so easy for Andrew to act entitled to Abram’s body like so many before, especially with Abram in a position where he’s basically serving him in some way. I wonder if it makes him relieved (due to professionalism/personal comfort at the very beginning) or anxious (due to having no ability to tell what is coming for him/later due to doubting if he is really wanted that way if Andrew doesn’t act the same as his point of reference) or a little bit of both for different reasons.
I imagine Andrew to be both a very tactile person and not necessarily so because he is so very aware of boundaries and only crosses them with invitation or purpose. I wonder how that translates here and how his touch plays into how Abram perceives him (and honestly there’s the whole part too where it’s something they have in common, trampled boundaries and bad associations and bone-deep understanding of such) or if they would ever have a conversation about that where Abram wonders about the curtesy of distance and space he is being given.
I’m like two seconds from passing out bc it’s pretty late here so idk how much sense this ask really makes but I’m having thoughts. I love your AU and your work and hope you have a wonderful day <3
YOU GUYS ALWAYS FIND THE MOST INTRIGUING THINGS TO EXPLORE I LOVE YOU (and your comments/etc, apostrophe-philosophy, are always a joy to read hehe)
(First: find the royal au writing masterpost here 💕)
I’ve been working on/thinking about this ask long enough that I’ve straight up forgotten if this was a thought I had when writing that first post (here) or if you brought it fully to my attention but we can safely assume it’s the latter so thank youuuuu for that truly. I love exploring Abram’s slow inch (and Andrew’s, but he’s had more time to get adjusted) towards finding a healthy relationship with touch 🥲 and oh my GOD don’t let me forget to tell all of you about Abram and gloves
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I wrote a scene/lil collection of scenes about Andrew clearing things up here too because I’ve been wanting to explore Abram’s POV for a while 👀 there are references to canon abuse, so take care. As always, sparknotes version and additions below
I LOVE your points about Andrew, I totally agree that once it’s established and he’s allowed, he’s very much a tactile person, he just needs to get there first 💕
We all know for obvious reasons that it never once crosses the prince’s mind for Abram to be anything more than a professional bodyguard, even if he does find him attractive. He’s very good at courtesy and polite distance. How I imagine this goes down in the timeline is this:
1) Nathaniel shows up at Palmetto and he’s never allowed close to important people. Certainly never allowed close enough to touch. Totally safe there. It doesn’t take him long to understand Day really won’t take advantage of him since he never did in Evermore either, so that’s safe. There’s not much else to worry about for that long stretch of time.
2) Nathaniel/Abram becomes the prince’s guard. There’s probably a little anxiety just because there’s plenty of opportunities for the prince to try something, but as time goes on and Andrew keeps the previously mentioned distance, even acting apathetic (as he does), Abram starts to assume that the prince is straight/doesn’t care. It wasn’t as if every single person in Evermore was trying to get at him. Just the ones that wanted to. Obviously, the prince doesn’t want to. It gets to the point that Abram feels comfortable and doesn’t try to constantly watch his own back when he’s on duty.
Then the prince, perhaps feeling a little bold or hopeful or just wanting to say something so he doesn’t keep feeling like he’ll explode, makes a single comment on Abram’s “pretty face”. Even something that could be brushed off as friendly jest, if he really wanted. But Abram completely freezes up. Andrew, of course, notices. He doesn’t try to ask about it then, but he definitely notices. But he assumes that Abram took it as the genuine compliment it was, and that Abram is entirely uninterested or even wary of those advances. So he makes no more comments, he leaves the entire concept as far away as he can get it.
Now that Abram knows the prince finds him pretty, he’s just waiting for Andrew to be the same as everyone else. He didn’t even directly answer to the nobles in Evermore and they were still so bold - but he’s Andrew’s servant in the most direct way, and Andrew is a prince. Surely the prince is even more entitled to him than they were. (When he realizes this is what’s happening, Andrew tells Abram in no unclear terms exactly what is and isn’t expected of him. It takes longer than that for Abram to shake the anxiety he grew up with, but at least after that he can start repeating the prince’s words to himself when he needs to.)
3) that’s cleared up well enough, but then (much, much later) the prince wants to court him. At first Abram can’t think much beyond “there’s no way this is real” but then the more he thinks about it, the more nervous he gets again. He doesn’t know Palmetto courting traditions, what if he’s expected to do something he isn’t ready for. What if now that he’s accepted the courtship he can’t tell Andrew no anymore. It wouldn’t be fair of him to, he thinks, he shouldn’t have agreed so quickly.
But there’s a time they’re out doing whatever courtship things (maybe another horse ride for funsies idk), Abram’s getting nervous about it again, and when Andrew asks for a kiss or to hold his hand, Abram doesn’t answer. He’s also a little confused when Andrew doesn’t just do it anyway, because he hadn’t said no, but Andrew is watching him in the way that usually means Abram is acting too much like he’s at Evermore again. He tells Abram, “Nothing’s changed. You can say no.” And Abram does immediately - not because he doesn’t want whatever he was offered but because he scared himself. Andrew’s still watching him. “Don’t forget that again,” he says. Abram takes a shaky breath. “Yes, prince.”
But as soon as Abram’s past that anxiety for the second and probably final time? Andrew is still as tactile a person as before and gods know Abram is touch starved to hell and back, he’ll take any kind words or touches he can possibly get and he craves them. Specifically from the prince. Who loves to give them.
I’d love to come back and make a fluff post specifically about that point in the timeline if we can collectively come up with enough ideas for said fluff 🥰 for now thanks again for the ask, swear to GOD we’re gonna get these idiots a happy ending, but I’m having way too much fun in the meantime 😂
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