#eighteen (crazy)

[raevampx]

seeing people my age go out and do shit while im rotting in my bed su!cidal and cant make eye contact

[feathercreates]

"Old friend... I miss you so much. I'm so sorry."

[astradyke]

i love being randomly reminded that they are in love for real and have been together for 15 years, i go genuinely insane over that being an actual fact, not a tumblr theory lmao

it's such a crazy thing to think about, right? because like... in the early years (for me 2009-2012), i think it's easier to see their affection in a really transparent way-- they were so young, they had smaller followings, they were living together and doing all these silly creative things and you can just so brightly see how endeared they were to each other. it's actually really heartwarming (and a little bittersweet) to see the kind of stuff up back from that era, like amazingdan and the blindfolded cat game... all their tweets, like.

and then after 2012-- setting aside the other stressors they've addressed that undeniably contributed to how they behaved then-- they started getting like, crazy youtube popular. obviously a slower process-- they were still doing BBC and shit to cover bills-- but there was TATINOF and all their red carpet events, collabs upon collabs, a shit ton of really popular merch? DAPG drops, like, peak fame as you hit 2016 and shit.

and i think that's what shocks me so much, i guess, when reflecting on it. because early days, yeah, they were so gone for each other and you can really tell. imo once you hit interactive introverts & dan has his whole rebrand, his youtube content begins shifting, phil starts changing things up-- there i think my brain has been able to comprehend their love for each other, and especially once you hit hiatus and on i mean... i'm like ceo of laying awake at night thinking about the hiatus years. everything was a love confession then.

but it's during their most popular years where it really jarrs me to remember like, oh yeah. phan was real. they loved each other. they were romantic together. and it's so crazy because it's like... they were online personas by then, they were busy they were doing all these things, and they hadn't get gotten the level of relaxation and confidence they seem to have with their content nowadays and definitely had in the beginning, right? it was this unsteady place. and they were in love.

it's also like... look, i'm five days shy of turning nineteen so i'm not exactly qualified to wax poetic about being in your twenties. but like shit, those are transformative years. and they were crazy public and doing all these bigshot things. and they were in love. and when i look back and see them laughing at each other, eyes meeting for a second, then a jumpcut, i'm like- oh yeah. all this craziness in their lives, a goddamn whirlwind, but they were just. in love. like... fuck, man. they won rpf

[emby-m]

What has four legs in the morning, two legs in the afternoon, and three legs at night?

(an exploration of andreas over the course of 25 years, plus quotes)

[nintendoggender]

I AM GONNA MAKE IT, THROUGH THIS YEAR IF IT KILLS ME

[triglycercule]

at the beach so we pullin out the mtt beach headcanons GO

horror buys one of those cheap diving kits with goggles and flippers and always ALWAYS challenges killer to races

killer always accepts because he thinks he can beat horror (he loses EVERY time. horror's just too fast with those damn flippers)

dust goes up to random people's beach chairs when they're away and sits in them and then when they come back he sees how long he can gaslight them into thinking that was his chair from the start

while horror is napping killer and dust will fill up his skull with sand. he doesn't wake up until they're like 75% done

dust likes to fully submerge himself in the water and then pop up and jump scare killer (killer always gets scared no matter how much dust does it)

dust tried to scare horror with this prank but then he was pushed underwater and forced to eat the wet watery sand by horror

dust and horror don't play around with sand around killer's chest because his soul is near that area and killer VISCERALLY hates sand on his soul

killer can mix his eye goop with sand and it creates a toxic determination sand bomb that will literally knock a bitch out

dust will still wear papyrus's scarf even while underwater and then complain about how wet it is

killer will see a boat in the distance and bet that he can swim there with dust and horror. dust and horror end up losing a LOT of money once the boat comes back to shore with killer on board

horror doesn't eat his popsicles like a normal person. he waits for them to melt and then licks the melted juice and dust and killer shit on him SEVERELY for this

dust is such a heavy sleeper that horror and killer had enough time to build a sand grave for him and host a fake funeral service before he woke up. then they pretended he was actually dead when he woke up (it took all of horror's willpower not to laugh)

whenever one of those airplanes with posters attached fly over the beach dust always shoots a bunch of bones at the poster to poke holes in them

killer would build a giant dick and threaten kids to come over and look at his sculpture with his knife. then when the kid sees it killer orders them to tell their parents all about "the long schlong". he doesn't even kill the kids it's just to freak them and the parents out

dust doesn't help out while the set up the tents/chairs. horror has to do all the work and killer tries to help but then just ends up breaking something. but dust helps carry all the bags and chairs to and from the beach and car :3

killer brings horror as far out as he can in the water and then tells him to look underwater (connected to the first headcanon where horror has goggles) and then it turns out that killer took off his shorts and is flashing the fish. horror bursts out laughing underwater and almost drowns and then killer has to save him butt naked while trying to hold onto his shorts

when they finally wash off all the sand at the showers by the beach horror is the only one to really wash off the sand. dust doesn't wanna subject papyrus's scarf to anymore water (hc 8) and killer doesn't trust the shitty water pressure to get all the sand out of his joints

at the end of it they went to this nice seafood place and watched the beach while eating peacefully. and then on the ride home horror and killer slept like rocks (dust had to drive)

[annabananaaxox]

I just finished the second week of uni. It went by really quickly, it's been good. I don't have much work yet so I've been getting back into substack lately.

I made an instagram account specifically for my writing, it's @thatswhytheycallmeanitaa, i hope you follow it. I also hope you follow my substack, you won't regret it.

I'm currently reading Antigone, for uni; it always makes me tear up. I'm writing a lot, in fact I will post an essay on substack tomorrow (hopefully).

Substack is a strange place, just as tumblr or letterboxd are, it's hard to find a community there, plus nobody I know in real life ever uses any of these apps. Most of my Substack followers and subscribers are people I know irl who decided to subscribe to do me a favor, but they never read, like or comment on my posts; it's discouraging.

For all my life I've thought the only possible job I could ever have was to be a writer or artist, now, already in university, I fear people might not want to consume my art; I fear being invisible.

Maybe this is weird, but I'm scared. I've only ever wanted to write, and to have people consume my writing.

Anyways, I'm going crazy but I still love all of you,

Xx, lots of love,

Anna

[calissarowan]

Duman: Ah, another great day of presidenting!

Stella: Is that a word?

Duman: First order of business for tomorrow: make ‘presidenting’ a word!

Stella: We’re doing such a great job as- Huh? Bloom? Ogron? What are you doing here?

Bloom: This is an intervention.

Ogron: As you can tell from the banner we stole from Helia.

Stella: Helia misspelled intervention.

Ogron: Well, no wonder, with Musa yelling at him. How can anyone get anything done with someone always yelling?

Duman: I know, right? That’s why our team is always so unproductive.

Ogron: How dare-!

Bloom: Guys, this presidency thing was fun, but…it’s over. We need you to stop.

Stella: Nope.

Ogron: …Wait, what?

Duman: The electorate voted me in; I’m legally the president; there’s nothing you guys can do about it.

Stella: Now, if you guys will excuse us, we’re gonna go eat waffles for dinner, because that’s just the way we roll.

Bloom: …What do we do now?

Ogron: High treason, obviously.

Bloom: I knew this was a beautiful friendship…

[backseatloversz]

me when i lived in the desert the first eighteen or so years of my life

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

its official !!!

[turtle-loving-enby]

The "girl " who has never taken a selfie bc "she" always hates how she looks to nonbinary goblin person who has so many selfies bc they're finally starting to feel happy as themselves pipeline is so damn real ngl

[your-mom-friend]

i looked it up out of curiosity and i think it's fucking hilarious that the OG 5 members of the straw hat pirates are all like, under 20. they were out conquering the east blue because they couldn't be at the club they were too young

[dipperscavern]

oscar tully fanfic when

GOODNIGHT. i was at first gonna take this as a joke but…………. he served i cannot lie

WAIT THE ACTOR IS 18????!!??? HE LOOKS SO YOUNG WHAT

[uncanny-tranny]

For TST, it's still Thursday now for me at least: I've been on T for 6 years + now, and I've noticed in the past few months that I'm finally in a place with my body (and my mind) where I don't worry that other people can "tell" just by looking at me. And it's so nice to just exist without worrying about whether they "can tell" or not.

Holy shit, six years sounds so long... do you know how much I look forward to being where you are? I know people longer in transition aren't inherently inspiring nor should they be expected to be so, but I still find it really heartwarming and hopeful.

[megumi-fm]

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[whitehartlane]

i would once again like to remind everyone on twitter that phillips and dorrington are EIGHTEEN YEAR OLD centrebacks (dorrington has never played a minute of senior football by the way) and everyone demanding for them to be thrown on is in some insane denial about their capabilities and ability to be the next prime maldini one second after stepping onto a football pitch. can’t believe i’ve got to say this but ange not subbing on 2, once again, EIGHTEEN YEAR OLD centrebacks into a pl game with no proper dm and no proper cb partner is actually not strange. it’s actually a very normal thing to do?