#eighteen (crazy)
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seeing people my age go out and do shit while im rotting in my bed su!cidal and cant make eye contact
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"Old friend... I miss you so much. I'm so sorry."
#genesis rhapsodos#crisis core#final fantasy vii#ff7#dirge of cerberus#angeal hewley#buster sword#aerith's church#post doc Genesis#post doc#ff7doc#ff7dc#yes my heart was *breaking* the entire time I was working on this oh my GOD#if it wasn't clear a recently woken Genesis has stumbled across Aerith's church#and found good ol' buster inside#and he gets very very emotional about Angeal#many regrets#many laments#one day I'll write the damn fic that goes with this#but for now#enjoy the pain#(also crazy realisation but this is my FIRST TIME EVER drawing post-DoC Genesis)#what the hell#it's been like EIGHTEEN YEARS WHAT#also#banorawhite#I FINISHED IT DKFJASDJASK
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i love being randomly reminded that they are in love for real and have been together for 15 years, i go genuinely insane over that being an actual fact, not a tumblr theory lmao
it's such a crazy thing to think about, right? because like... in the early years (for me 2009-2012), i think it's easier to see their affection in a really transparent way-- they were so young, they had smaller followings, they were living together and doing all these silly creative things and you can just so brightly see how endeared they were to each other. it's actually really heartwarming (and a little bittersweet) to see the kind of stuff up back from that era, like amazingdan and the blindfolded cat game... all their tweets, like.
and then after 2012-- setting aside the other stressors they've addressed that undeniably contributed to how they behaved then-- they started getting like, crazy youtube popular. obviously a slower process-- they were still doing BBC and shit to cover bills-- but there was TATINOF and all their red carpet events, collabs upon collabs, a shit ton of really popular merch? DAPG drops, like, peak fame as you hit 2016 and shit.
and i think that's what shocks me so much, i guess, when reflecting on it. because early days, yeah, they were so gone for each other and you can really tell. imo once you hit interactive introverts & dan has his whole rebrand, his youtube content begins shifting, phil starts changing things up-- there i think my brain has been able to comprehend their love for each other, and especially once you hit hiatus and on i mean... i'm like ceo of laying awake at night thinking about the hiatus years. everything was a love confession then.
but it's during their most popular years where it really jarrs me to remember like, oh yeah. phan was real. they loved each other. they were romantic together. and it's so crazy because it's like... they were online personas by then, they were busy they were doing all these things, and they hadn't get gotten the level of relaxation and confidence they seem to have with their content nowadays and definitely had in the beginning, right? it was this unsteady place. and they were in love.
it's also like... look, i'm five days shy of turning nineteen so i'm not exactly qualified to wax poetic about being in your twenties. but like shit, those are transformative years. and they were crazy public and doing all these bigshot things. and they were in love. and when i look back and see them laughing at each other, eyes meeting for a second, then a jumpcut, i'm like- oh yeah. all this craziness in their lives, a goddamn whirlwind, but they were just. in love. like... fuck, man. they won rpf
#astra.meta#dan and phil#phan#this is like kind of nothing i'm just repeating myself but it's like crazy to me. like it's crazy to think about#also i don't try to think about this too much but being eighteen and realizing dan was my age when they met...#like THAT'S fucking crazy. holy shit you are so young when you are eighteen#they were so fucking young in the beginning. God damn.
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What has four legs in the morning, two legs in the afternoon, and three legs at night?
(an exploration of andreas over the course of 25 years, plus quotes)
#pentiment#pentiment fanart#andreas maler#pentiment spoilers#em art#so this is an old quote reference book i picked off the free stuff table at my museum job#so i figured id do something with it#act i is v standard but andreas is genuinely sketching out his life and keeps erasing all hed done up to that point#act ii is a man destroying his own sketches because it wasnt the life he wanted to live and sees burning it as the only way to truly end it#act iii is a man who has so thoroughly destroyed his foundation that he essentially is able to start new#but hell never be free of the plague of the labyrinth#the eighteen years of mind eroding loneliness and untreated mental health issues and lack of faith#even if he returns to normal... no he doesnt#he can be happy but he'll never be not-mad-as-in-crazy again#the paper is 'clear' but the graphite never really leaves the weave of the paper
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I AM GONNA MAKE IT, THROUGH THIS YEAR IF IT KILLS ME
#yapping#feeling so much joy tonight. maybe i am loved#crazy#im eighteen. im almost eighteen. i fucking made it#i have so many. emotions#mostly good ones actually
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at the beach so we pullin out the mtt beach headcanons GO
horror buys one of those cheap diving kits with goggles and flippers and always ALWAYS challenges killer to races
killer always accepts because he thinks he can beat horror (he loses EVERY time. horror's just too fast with those damn flippers)
dust goes up to random people's beach chairs when they're away and sits in them and then when they come back he sees how long he can gaslight them into thinking that was his chair from the start
while horror is napping killer and dust will fill up his skull with sand. he doesn't wake up until they're like 75% done
dust likes to fully submerge himself in the water and then pop up and jump scare killer (killer always gets scared no matter how much dust does it)
dust tried to scare horror with this prank but then he was pushed underwater and forced to eat the wet watery sand by horror
dust and horror don't play around with sand around killer's chest because his soul is near that area and killer VISCERALLY hates sand on his soul
killer can mix his eye goop with sand and it creates a toxic determination sand bomb that will literally knock a bitch out
dust will still wear papyrus's scarf even while underwater and then complain about how wet it is
killer will see a boat in the distance and bet that he can swim there with dust and horror. dust and horror end up losing a LOT of money once the boat comes back to shore with killer on board
horror doesn't eat his popsicles like a normal person. he waits for them to melt and then licks the melted juice and dust and killer shit on him SEVERELY for this
dust is such a heavy sleeper that horror and killer had enough time to build a sand grave for him and host a fake funeral service before he woke up. then they pretended he was actually dead when he woke up (it took all of horror's willpower not to laugh)
whenever one of those airplanes with posters attached fly over the beach dust always shoots a bunch of bones at the poster to poke holes in them
killer would build a giant dick and threaten kids to come over and look at his sculpture with his knife. then when the kid sees it killer orders them to tell their parents all about "the long schlong". he doesn't even kill the kids it's just to freak them and the parents out
dust doesn't help out while the set up the tents/chairs. horror has to do all the work and killer tries to help but then just ends up breaking something. but dust helps carry all the bags and chairs to and from the beach and car :3
killer brings horror as far out as he can in the water and then tells him to look underwater (connected to the first headcanon where horror has goggles) and then it turns out that killer took off his shorts and is flashing the fish. horror bursts out laughing underwater and almost drowns and then killer has to save him butt naked while trying to hold onto his shorts
when they finally wash off all the sand at the showers by the beach horror is the only one to really wash off the sand. dust doesn't wanna subject papyrus's scarf to anymore water (hc 8) and killer doesn't trust the shitty water pressure to get all the sand out of his joints
at the end of it they went to this nice seafood place and watched the beach while eating peacefully. and then on the ride home horror and killer slept like rocks (dust had to drive)
#killer sans#horror sans#dust sans#murder time trio#mttpoly#mtt poly#youd never suspect it but this is mtt poly#dude i was cackling to myself thinking these up#time 2 elaborate in tags: hcs 1-2 flippers make you HELLA fast. also horror's tall so it helps with his kicks#hc 3 when the people call for the lifeguard to get dust off their chairs he teleports away and the lifeguard thinks they're crazy#hc 4 if horror doesn't wake up they put him by the shore and bet on how many waves it takes for horror to wake up#hc 5 after dust did it around 45 times the surprise wore off for killer. but he kept acting scared because he liked seeing dust laugh#hc 9 i was actually considering just making dust wear his normal clothes to the beach#but then i thought it would be funnier if he wore one of those full body swimsuits#hc 11 is bc horror can't eat solid food that well. dust and killer are fully aware of this but they still shit on him (bc theyre the mtt)#hcs 14 and 16 are a bit more out there in occness but i do still think it's in the realm of possibility for things killer would do#a whopping EIGHTEEN hcs that i came up with in 30 minutes. mtt brainrot is real
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Duman: Ah, another great day of presidenting!
Stella: Is that a word?
Duman: First order of business for tomorrow: make ‘presidenting’ a word!
Stella: We’re doing such a great job as- Huh? Bloom? Ogron? What are you doing here?
Bloom: This is an intervention.
Ogron: As you can tell from the banner we stole from Helia.
Stella: Helia misspelled intervention.
Ogron: Well, no wonder, with Musa yelling at him. How can anyone get anything done with someone always yelling?
Duman: I know, right? That’s why our team is always so unproductive.
Ogron: How dare-!
Bloom: Guys, this presidency thing was fun, but…it’s over. We need you to stop.
Stella: Nope.
Ogron: …Wait, what?
Duman: The electorate voted me in; I’m legally the president; there’s nothing you guys can do about it.
Stella: Now, if you guys will excuse us, we’re gonna go eat waffles for dinner, because that’s just the way we roll.
Bloom: …What do we do now?
Ogron: High treason, obviously.
Bloom: I knew this was a beautiful friendship…
#They’re gonna out-crazy Stella and Duman#winx club#wizards of the black circle#winx duman#winx ogron#winx stella#winx bloom#president Duman#Part eighteen#we finally got back to Duman!
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me when i lived in the desert the first eighteen or so years of my life
#and then left to become crazy famous and then vanished#eighteen? was luke eighteen??? sorry idk my star wars lore#ryan ross#cowboy posts
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its official !!!
#camera talks#we got the certificate late last night and my mom showed it to me this morning#im totally crying#im so happy#im so proud#god im struggling to put words together honestly this is crazy#i know ive been posting about it a lot sorry but its such a dream ?#if i could go back into time and tell my past self we were going to get to change our name i think he'd cry too#we didnt think we'd get to until we were eighteen at least tbh#i keep tearing up every time i look at the certificate lmao dear lord#this is too much to be happy about at 8:40 in the morning but <33#and i still have to go to work today gah </3#also thank you to everyones super kind words last time i posted about it. yall are so cool and sweet mwah <3#anywayss#we're gonna get a cake lol
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I just finished the second week of uni. It went by really quickly, it's been good. I don't have much work yet so I've been getting back into substack lately.
I made an instagram account specifically for my writing, it's @thatswhytheycallmeanitaa, i hope you follow it. I also hope you follow my substack, you won't regret it.
I'm currently reading Antigone, for uni; it always makes me tear up. I'm writing a lot, in fact I will post an essay on substack tomorrow (hopefully).
Substack is a strange place, just as tumblr or letterboxd are, it's hard to find a community there, plus nobody I know in real life ever uses any of these apps. Most of my Substack followers and subscribers are people I know irl who decided to subscribe to do me a favor, but they never read, like or comment on my posts; it's discouraging.
For all my life I've thought the only possible job I could ever have was to be a writer or artist, now, already in university, I fear people might not want to consume my art; I fear being invisible.
Maybe this is weird, but I'm scared. I've only ever wanted to write, and to have people consume my writing.
Anyways, I'm going crazy but I still love all of you,
Xx, lots of love,
Anna
#girlblogger#girlblogging#literature#pinterest#alanabananaxox#dakota warren#fashion#studyblr#thought daughter#thoughts#joan didion#sylvia plath#substack writer#writer#writers on tumblr#writerscommunity#dark academia#chaos academia#light academia aesthetic#this is a girlblog#this is girlhood#this is what makes us girls#femcel#noonwalksdiary#im going insane#going crazy#im turning eighteen in a month#adulthood scares me#I just want to write and have people read my work
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The "girl " who has never taken a selfie bc "she" always hates how she looks to nonbinary goblin person who has so many selfies bc they're finally starting to feel happy as themselves pipeline is so damn real ngl
#kai rambles#I just noticed that I have basically no photos of myself from pre-transition#and another thing is that I tend to make mirror selfies when I get gender euphoria or just generally feel happy with the way I look#and the amount of these pictures has been growing and I've been taking them more frequently#i just feel so much happier than just a year or one and a half ago#crazy that life just goes on and suddenly you realize you're happier. you smile. you photos with your friends and you worry about#crushes on girls instead of whether you'll die before you ever reach eighteen#and you finally feel like a regular teenager after 17 damn years#holy crap man#trans#nonbinary#transgender#trans pride#mental health#tw death#tw gender dysphoria
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i looked it up out of curiosity and i think it's fucking hilarious that the OG 5 members of the straw hat pirates are all like, under 20. they were out conquering the east blue because they couldn't be at the club they were too young
#rem rambles#one piece anime#one piece#monkey d. luffy#roronoa zoro#nami one piece#one piece usopp#one piece sanji#like... luffy and usopp are SEVENTEEN#they should've been getting their DRIVER'S LICENSE#Nami is EIGHTEEN#Zoro and Sanji are NINETEEN#Sanji boarded that ship thinking damn this crazy kid's got big ambitions#at least i can join the only other legal adult in making sure he makes good decisions#oh nevermind that bitch is a FUCKING IDIOT#Sanji: how did luffy LIVE this long when THIS fucker was looking out for him#Sanji is simping over Nami mostly because she's the most competent person on the ship
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oscar tully fanfic when
GOODNIGHT. i was at first gonna take this as a joke but…………. he served i cannot lie
WAIT THE ACTOR IS 18????!!??? HE LOOKS SO YOUNG WHAT
#dippys asks#oscar tully#this is so crazy#first off i laughed#second#the actor being eighteen is insane#he looks 12#jeeba leeba
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For TST, it's still Thursday now for me at least: I've been on T for 6 years + now, and I've noticed in the past few months that I'm finally in a place with my body (and my mind) where I don't worry that other people can "tell" just by looking at me. And it's so nice to just exist without worrying about whether they "can tell" or not.
Holy shit, six years sounds so long... do you know how much I look forward to being where you are? I know people longer in transition aren't inherently inspiring nor should they be expected to be so, but I still find it really heartwarming and hopeful.
#ask#anon#transsexual thursday#it's just... nice to know that that can be a future for me too!#because i'm close to 2.5 years now and i find people five years or ten years or EIGHTEEN YEARS (wow) to be... reassuring#it's reassuring to know that not only is that a possibility but that we will always live <3#offtopic but it's crazy how my memory is so shit and yet my t date is so important that i never forget it#i was worried i forgot how long i've been on t lol#anyway anon... i love you (platonic) and you are so so important and it feels like a privilege to hear from you :)!
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#so i accompanied my mom to pick my sis from school today right#and I was in the car and we were on the way home and someone called out my name on the road like super loudly#so I stopped and turned back and it was my childhood friend?? who i last met EIGHTEEN YEARS AGO??? in a different country??#yeah we reconnected a little before the pandemic and we used to chat a lot but#we'd never been in the same place at the same time. so weird#and now. what are the fucking odds.#he's moved to my city and his office is really close to my house so he'd come to check out a co-living space on my street#if i hadn't gone with mom or if he hadn't reached my road by then or if he was just on the opposite side of the street we wouldn't have met#and. it's literally only been hours since he landed here. crazy#eighteen fucking years. and we're practically neighbours now#i mean. for the next sixteen days till i move to another country again aka the place where he and I met#fate is so fucking funny sometimes#megumi in the tags#megumi.fm
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i would once again like to remind everyone on twitter that phillips and dorrington are EIGHTEEN YEAR OLD centrebacks (dorrington has never played a minute of senior football by the way) and everyone demanding for them to be thrown on is in some insane denial about their capabilities and ability to be the next prime maldini one second after stepping onto a football pitch. can’t believe i’ve got to say this but ange not subbing on 2, once again, EIGHTEEN YEAR OLD centrebacks into a pl game with no proper dm and no proper cb partner is actually not strange. it’s actually a very normal thing to do?
#now i do side eye the timeliness of ange’s subs and i think donley and veliz should have more mins than they do currently but#the discourse around these kids is crazy THEY ARE EIGHTEEN 😭😭 am i crazy for understanding why he’s not done it yet???#also this discourse is generally pissing me off bc 99% of the ppl commenting on them have never watched them#i’ve watched alfie since he was in the u18s be so serious brev
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