#eatingdisorderstruggles

[bree-fighting-4-mylife-1979]

I’m literally struggling Enough.... But Anorexia Nervosa took Another one yesterday!!! And what makes it worse I knew her and she was the age I was when they expected me too go to Heaven. I’m NOT saying any names out of respect.... I had been in treatment with her many times . I’m so sorry that Anorexia defeated you Hunny !!! It’s 5 in the morning here in Australia... and its freezing and I’m up early because #anorexianervosa has me by the balls at the moment..... Totally!!! And I have tears running down my sunken cheeks and I’m very scared that I’m going to be next !!! My pulse is very low & irregular, my lips , fingers & toes are so blue.... and I am so tired and weak ..... regardless of that and many other worrying symptoms... I’m up so early to continue the behaviours of someone with a severe , long term #eatingdisorder ☹️. This young women had the World at her feet .... she could have been my Daughter!!!! And I’m severely grieving because My Daughter... the one I tragically lost earlier this year was due TODAY 🥺😭. Please I don’t want Anyone to feel sorry for me because that just not me ... but for those of you who have faith in your lives . Could you please do one thing for me .... Pray for The Angel that took one of our own far too soon .... and for my Daughter. This should be the Happiest time of my life .... becoming a Mama .... instead im slowing fading away ... but I refuse too give up !!! Even though #anorexianervosa has taken over my life ..... I won’t , refuse too give up on the hope that one day I will be able to get the right treatment too start my recovery process... PERMANENTLY!!!! And I refuse to discard the dream of becoming a Mama either even though I’m 40 and it won’t be easy .... but nothing worthy of greatness is EASY!!! #Anorexic #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderskillpeople #eatingdisorderstruggles #loosingachild #loosingachildthepainisunbearable #theeatingdisordercommunitylostoneofourown #only20yearsold #lifewasjustbeginning #lostmybabygirl #20weeks5days #grief #sadness #sorrow #ifeeldefeated #refusetogiveup #fightuntiltheveryend . 🥺😭😇🙏🏼♥️ (at Sydney, Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0tr7kdnnTsXll7kyUtTDcsHYwBHPWiNo34S2s0/?igshid=um1m17u2gn0x

[everythingisgreener-blog]

100 pounds of Self-Hating-Breath-Holding-Unsucessfull-Unhealthy-Moody-Bitchy-Idiotic-Neverfuckinggoodenough-Dustyclaypeoplemoldtotheirbullshitliking-Pathetic-Dreaming-DyingtoLive-DyingtoDie-Heartbeating-Scarredupflesh. with a Stone heart with a core of melting gold - or is that diseased tears?- and veins that pump heated led- and a semi serious smile to cover up any damaged loose ends. 100 pounds of I-Want-To-Fucking-Dissapear, 100 pounds of I-Dont-Want-To-Fucking-Give-Up, 100 pounds of Please-Forgive-Myself. and a 100 pounds of Drug-Fueled-Dreams-and-PTSD-Nightmares. 100 pounds of Lynx-Evergreen in the Raw. 100 pounds of Deception-versus-Reality. oh... will i ever know who looks back from my reflection? will i ever truly enjoy who i see stairing back at me? is that reflection in the mirror alive ... Am i?

[52kcal]

I want to starve and eat more less. But I‘m so weak and have no energy. I‘m so scared of dying. I‘m so scared of destroying myself. I feel how i get weaker and weaker everyday but no one else does I don’t know what to do.

Pls be careful. Stop destroying urself if u can. U deserve a better life. I believe in you.

[xowondererxo]

100% never feel guilty for something you ate! You are human and allowed to eat and fuel your body! As I learnt a little bit of chocolate won’t turn me into a bad person!

[jackiebluzer-blog]

#Revolt Against #DietCulture #nodiet #eatingdisordered #eatingdisorderstruggle #diet #bodypositive https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt4RufInHZ6/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=16pv9yqylhuuy

[mental-elf-ugetme]

Binged so badly this weekend while staying at my parents house :( I will probably try to fast for a few days starting tomorrow to try and undo it all. So sad.

[52kcal]

I‘m turning 18 this month. I started having ED habits when I was 14. Waisted so many years.. and its still counting.

[xowondererxo]

Korean bbq for dinner! This has been a definite fear food for me for a long time and really challenged myself tonight to go out and enjoy it! It was definitely a struggle at times and I could feel the eating disorder trying to take over and putting thoughts in my mind like “how many calories is that” “I’ve eaten too much I’m going to put on so much weight” but instead of listening to those voices I kept enjoying the amazing food and had an amazing night spending time with a friend and eating!

[52kcal]

Hey guys! I will post more again! I‘m trying to lose weight again. And I can do this. I hope y’all doing okay.

[52kcal]

What I do instead of recover: watching ed memes.

[52kcal]

Listen!

I know summer is in 3 days. Maybe u think u are not ready for this. But don‘t be sad. U are beautiful.

[52kcal]

The biggest scam is having an eating disorder but not losing any weight.

[52kcal]

Lmao ooOps

[52kcal]

It‘s fucking wild when u look up „low calorie meals“ and see an article that’s like „12 meals under 500 calories“ like bitch thats my whole calorie limit.

[52kcal]

I binged.

And I just want to die.

[52kcal]

It‘s fucking wild when u look up „low calorie meals“ and see an article that’s like „12 meals under 500 calories“ like bitch thats my whole calorie limit.