#lynxevergreen

[everythingisgreener-blog]

100 pounds of Self-Hating-Breath-Holding-Unsucessfull-Unhealthy-Moody-Bitchy-Idiotic-Neverfuckinggoodenough-Dustyclaypeoplemoldtotheirbullshitliking-Pathetic-Dreaming-DyingtoLive-DyingtoDie-Heartbeating-Scarredupflesh. with a Stone heart with a core of melting gold - or is that diseased tears?- and veins that pump heated led- and a semi serious smile to cover up any damaged loose ends. 100 pounds of I-Want-To-Fucking-Dissapear, 100 pounds of I-Dont-Want-To-Fucking-Give-Up, 100 pounds of Please-Forgive-Myself. and a 100 pounds of Drug-Fueled-Dreams-and-PTSD-Nightmares. 100 pounds of Lynx-Evergreen in the Raw. 100 pounds of Deception-versus-Reality. oh... will i ever know who looks back from my reflection? will i ever truly enjoy who i see stairing back at me? is that reflection in the mirror alive ... Am i?