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#trying to practice lightning and perspective WOOAH#my art#my artstyle#the arcana game#the arcana#quaestor valdemar#art#digital art#fanart#artists on tumblr#the arcana valdemar#valdemart#valdemar the arcana#HHHHHHHHHHHHH#due to outside influences#they have dimples now
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Pretty fucked up that timmy forgets the only positive influences in his life after his 18 birthday when you think about it
#like he losses the only family that loves him and friends and allies that respect him#outside of aj and chester he doesn't have a lot of good influences in his life#trixie could probably be his friend after she gets over the whole popularity thing but still#losing that muc of your memories is going to affect yoyr personality#if they were replaced he's probably going to think he was alone for most of his life with occasionally seeing some friends#and some good moments (him making frinds with chip and maybe might remember mark depends)#umm does Shirley count? doubt he would remember him unless he goes to his shop often#i doubt his relationship with his parents would improve hed probably move out not to long after he turns 18#i think the memory wipe would affect certain aspects of his personality too#like his interest in the arts would probably lesson due to the feeling of something being missing or just#straight up depression#i feel like he wouldn't persue a creative field due to multiple of reasons and settle for something more practical but will always have tha#what if oh timmy forgetting and losing himself is something so tragic#especially if he still miserable or in a bad place#imagine the angst#timmy turner
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Is there a more specific term than "agnostic" for me cause I feel like that implies "I believe in a deity/deities/spiritual relationship, I just don't exactly know which one or how"
My belief is less "I don't know" and more "I think there's the possibility of something out there it's just that it's none of my business." Like if we found out Zeus, Jesus Christ, and Ra are actually best buddies and go to trivia every Thursday and that the Rapture was supposed to happen 50 years ago and got cancelled or some shit and it's like..I answer phone calls at a front desk man idk what you want me to do with that info
#this probably is just 'agnostic' Id just like to feel special <3#I make minimum wage and you want me to worry about if there's a heaven or hell???#bro I don't care about purgatory I'm on the phone with my health insurance#It is flat out None Of My Business what's going on outside of this physical plane and I do not plan on changing that#It's the same way I feel about ghosts#Were my childhood homes haunted? Probably!#Am I gonna fuck around and find out? Absolutely fucking not!#What they get up to is none of my business. I'm gonna keep acting like they aren't there unless they need help and make it obvious#and even then I'm not doing more shit than like opening a window#I'm not gonna fuck around and accidentally anger some higher power or ghost cause I'm scared of uncertainty#I've got an exam due today like idk man what freaky shit higher powers do is their business I'm not tryna intrude on shit#Im also into the idea that the belief in a higher power creates them#Like even if there's no physical manifestation they've influenced your train of thought so much they might as well be#ex christian#religious trauma
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just watched the finale of keith ballard's echo playthrough (;_;) and when i saw this quote again from the epilogue something hit me:
yeah uh i'm really starting to accept the "sam was the one who made the decision/fueled chase's drive to make the echo documentary" theory as canon at this point because this is Just Chase
#tho it's still interesting to me that chase only really got into journalism in the first place because jenna mentioned it on a whim#i know that also just plays into chase's whole identity crisis and not knowing what to do with himself but#i don't think chase would've chosen it if it wasn't due to sam's influence#he never really seems to have an interest in the medium outside of like. having a video editing hobby as a kid#man.#leo.txt#chase hunter#samuel ayers#echo vn#echo project
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My contribution to the Amatsuki mini-bang!
I did my best to do justice to @ryxkenkxgami's lovely fic about Bonten being trapped in a time loop reliving those days up until Byakuroku and Ginshu's fun little incident. HAD to include the imagery of Bonten desperately trying to shed the skin of "Hiwa."
check out their ao3 here! and the fic here!
it's been so long since A. I posted art and B. I actually considered a digital piece done but here we are!! Personally I wanted to include both the Past!Ginshu and the Fused!Ginshu, but there was no way i could've done that in a timely manner so i just zoomed in on Bonten.
...While I do consider this a finished piece I might come back to it because i still really like my initial concept, even if it was 100% biting off more than i could chew
#i CANNOT. look at this anymore. it's The Curse (constantly finding things to Fix)#but i'm still proud of it!!#initially i was just going to do Some colored lineart to make certain things pop outside of the generally monochrome theme i was going for#buuuut i may. have gone a bit overboard#thanks again to ryxkenkxgami!!! it was a joy to work with you!!#even as things got hectic due to real life getting in the way (thanks for being patient with me)#amatsuki#amatsuki bang#bonten#body horror#(maybe i was listening to mili's between two worlds while drawing this. maybe that influenced the final result lmao)
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I kinda like but dislike that Rumiko and Sunrise (and fans) have never even mentioned that miko (priestesses) are virgins. And that their shinto ability to tend holy places comes from being unmarried virgins. In modern day I guess it is not really required but I kind of wish more people analyzed Kikyo, the dark priestess, Kaede and Kagome in that light.
Personally I think that due to the era Kagome would not be allowed to remain a miko after getting married and having a child. She would still be one of course due to her spiritual ability, but I think she would no longer be allowed to remain in that societal role.
Kagome is so spunky though that I see her rebelling against it. I think Kagome's strength in being outspoken is another great contrast between her and Kikyo. While Kikyo was confined by society and was only freed from expectation when she became an impure monster. Kagome was outspoken and loud to where she didn't have much of a societal role and yet remained 'spiritually pure.'
There is a huge theme of 'societal expectation' in Kagome, Inuyasha, and Kikyo that I think being a miko is a part of.
Personally I'm torn on Kagome loudly choosing to get married and have a child VS remaining a Miko and Kagome choosing to attempt to do both.
More thematic headcannons in the tag below..
#i think due to translation issues miroku is a monk but not a priest#inuyasha#kagome#kikyo#Here I am analyzing way too much into a series that probably didn't think that much about this all#And yet.. I feel like there is meaning between Sota saying Kagome got married and Rumiko never drawing them kissing#i think cannonly kikyo and kagome are not the same person.. but i think kikyo would view that they are.. maybe#the strides against misogyny in shinto japan is very interesting to look at because it is so different from western misogyny#i saw that post going around talking about periods in the feudal era and im like.. bro women were ostracized in a hut outside the village#i didn't comment on the post but i did think about and analyze it#on how the dirtyness of being a woman is the same as the dirty blood of a hanyo or the dirty blood of the burakumin class#personally i think inu's class is similar to half japanese (the original hanyo written in gegege kitaro was confirmed to be based off of it#and rumiko could not have taken the coined term 'hanyo' without being aware of the influence#but i also don't think rumiko was thinking that much about the relation between the two#personally if it were me though i'd theme inu on the spiritual dirtiness of his blood rather than him being a half race#((((((related but i also headcannoned inuyasha as a bastard . a literal one#((and i also headcannon that hte name 'inuyasha' was not his birth name. it was a name given to him by the villiagers he stole from--#-- as a child/teen and he decided to reclaim the insult because he was what means 'dog monster' much more than the name his mom gave him))#i think it's strongly implied even that Inuyasha is a bastard.. i never see anyone analyze that.#to analyze that even if inuyasha was born a human he would still be hated for existing :''''DDD#my posts that i made
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YOU MAKE THAT POST AND DON'T SHARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON EVERYONE'S OPINION ON SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG???
I MEAN IT'S SUCH A NICHE FUCKING TOPIC LMAO I DIDN'T THINK ANYONE WOULD CARE
but anyway here's the Egregiously Simplified version of Everyone Is Forced To Play Ten Routes Of Shadow The Hedgehog And Has To Give Their Opinion Afterwards
#snap chats#i already hear someone going 'the fuck you mean mine is number one shadow the hedgehog defender' YOU WILL LISTEN TO ME#at first i do think he'd be like 'what the fuck' but then going through all of shadows routes. or at least ten to get the final story#and seeing the constant betrayal and inability to trust others he faced yet still ultimately persevering due to his promise to maria#i think bro would be moved.. just a little.. would he think shadow a bit headassed for that considering what the humans did to him#Of Course but also its evident that shadows clearly taking things into his own hands now- as righteous of a mission as it is#despite the persistent attempted influence by everyone around him. shadows a complicated TRAGEDY he'd be moved#mine's artsy like that..... gotta go before i get shot ive said insane things before but this one'll take the cake me thinks#im not explaining everyone else mine's just felt like the one i NEEDED to explain lest i look more insane than usual#06 daigo's purely a Shadow Angst enjoyer. he understands shadow and he's wallowing in the misery of his backstory#majima's weird to categorize cause he definitely can be like Lmao The Fuck and/or just play the game chaotically#and then the aspects of identity come in and on the outside he'll be like 'bro its not that deep' but on the inside its like#Damn He Just Like Me Fr. i think. idk i dont study majima leave me alone im not making ANOTHER One Chara Exclusive category#i said i wouldnt explain anyone else and here i am explaining shut UP im gonna go eat#im not looking at this anymore bye#FORCING myself to leave cause i really will just end up typing essays on bitches perceiving shadow LMAOO
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I'm getting the hyperfixation feeling but specifically for vampires. Like my brain is tingling about vampires specifically, and idk why
#i think it's because I'm consuming a lot of vampire posts.#when we were a child we were deathly afraid of but also morbidly fascinated with vampires.#primarily due to the fact that we had a dream a vampire stole our mother and then tried to turn us after we fake bit him#and it wasn't even a sexy vampire it was one of those bald nosferatu lookking ones. unfortunately. anyways it fuelled our vampire fear#which is ironic bc qs a child we were convinced we were a lycanthrope of sorts. i am being serious#we were convinced one day we'd grow fur and turn into a cheetah#the realization that we would not was ultimately very disappointing#anyways i know in some media vampires and werewolves have beef#which is odd?#bc we had never consumed any vampire media that would lead us to the conclusion that as a ''werecheetah'' we should fear vampires.#we just developed that fear all on our own. no outside influence needed#just pure instinct babey!#anyways now they fascinate us and we love them#we have a copy of bram stoker's dracula somewhere. still need to read that
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anyway the cool thing about depressive states is that you dont realize that youve never been despressed before until they happen. this is what i meant when i said im 100% neurotypical im not even depressed or anything
#[lore texts]#except for right now but thats unrelated and due to outside influences so it doesnt count
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x rambles in the tags about my art struggles, nothing new to see :0
#ive been having some real big art thoughts and feels about my art process - some good... some confusing#im more mentally organized today than i was last week...but its still really confusing and idk where im going from here :0#all i know is that 1) im going through a very very slow process of my art evolving + my process changing - since earlier this year#2) i have not let myself slow down and appreciate the art of creating like i used to - due to many factors: mainly fear of losing relevancy#3) and i feel that im taking my art too seriously for something that is suppose to be enjoyable & satisfying#4) also im influenced very easily but outside sources (which isnt technically good nor bad)#and thats it. thats all i have to report :3 lol#anyways. its a REAL CONFUSING art time for me rn but just sketching privately and not finishing my wips seem to be doing something good atm#sometimes i fear ill end up stuck in this frustrating period & that this is it from now on..but thats silly & this isnt my first rodeo :0
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Dragon guys (and Hau) chillin at a cafe
Hau has a dragon type on his team but he doesn't quite count as a dragon guy because of that, does he?
I could have had Raihan there but I don't have one recruited on this test playthrough. I should find one in a dungeon sometime.
The zekrom, poipole and drampa sprites were made by some really awesome people in a pokemon mystery dungeon rom hacking server on discord. Gotta mention them in the rom hack credits :D
I took a picture after I recruited Drayton.
It took super long to get him. I could have messed with the spawn rates and recruit rates for the sake of having him during this test playthrough but I would have forgotten to change them back
After a long time I just made use of an exclusive move I gave the creature you see in the picture that just recruits stuff instantly lol
#and by the way it was a certain reblog on one of my posts that gave me a sudden urge to take a pic of Drayton next to a Drampa and so i did#i'm not immune to being given tasks by the brain goblins due to outside influences#this was fun :D
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anyway i am thinking about mikey again you guys. mikey and the lack of agency in his own life. mikey the invincible, the "strong", who in the end was the weakest one of all. mikey who was cursed by a force he couldn't hope to fight, punished for a crime that wasn't even his own, with no choice but to fall into darkness and rely on others again and again to be saved... despite the fact that all he ever wanted was to be the one to protect them. i am thinking about him.
#ooc#holy shit i wrote one (1) mikey reply and my muse woke up SO hard what HAPPENED????#anyway i do sometimes wish that tr had focused more on trauma as the cause behind mikey's actions rather than an outside force#and i do see other people often echoing similar sentiments; which i think is fair...#but on a personal level the whole ''curse'' idea and the way that mikey never really had a choice in how he turned out#is such a mericore story SFDJDSKSKJSHJ#like... i love exploring that kind of shit. like pahchin said... it's a curse. how do you beat a curse??#it's not as relatable as a story about real life/realistic trauma so maybe it's not as powerful; but it's still so interesting to me#and i suppose the ''real world'' message comes in more with how mikey needs to learn to rely on others.#like it's not like it's SOLELY the work of a curse! because we can see that mikey gets worse and worse with the more traumas and losses he#experiences!#his own ability to fight against the curse's influence and to care at all is affected by his awful life#and while he really can't be blamed for a lot of the shit he does due to that supernatural influence-#what he can be ''blamed'' for - his actual sin - is not relying on other people and trying to shoulder it all alone.#tht's something he DID have control over; but chose not to do. and people died for it.#but is it really fair to blame him when he was just a child?? and he thought that nobody could do anyone for him??#idk these tags have gone on too long so i'll shut up but anyway. mikey tokyorev i love you sm!! <3333333
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I think one of my fav fics had Jason like loving his mom deeply right- but also had him being like , that was not a good place for a child and she made some mistakes but she loved me and I love her ,
Cause like that’s what growing up is.. seeing your parents as humans ya? (Plus it paralleled his relationship with Bruce and stuff v good)
YES! EXACTLY!! everyday I'm.begging dc stans to understand imperfect parents shouldn't equate bad parents.
#ofc i know Catherine made mistakes but for me it's so disheartening to think abt bc I KNOW its so rooted into apathy for drug addicts#you can absolutely feel pain for jason due to his environment while understanding catherine:#a) did not have the resources nor the help to do something abt it due to the corruption in gotham making it impossible for poverty striken#neighbours to better itself. b) she died before she COULD#not to mention the outside influences jason CANONICALLY hated more than any drug. you can also acknowledge all the good sacrifices and love#and effort she made for him. trying to give him something in a system where they're NOTHING.#catherine was jason's batman before bruce#and in addition to that-- im kinda tired with dc stans rejecting any parental figure thats not cutter cookie perfect#you wont fucking get that in dc#asks
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tbh, i honestly think that for all she's facinated by the past and held a measure of suspicion for what alchemax was covering up in that regard, i think as young adults xina, much like miguel (if to a lesser degree), was subsumed into the kind of idealogy that's entrenched into the world of 2099. while they were dating, we don't ever see them fight about the fact he would've been an alchemax employee (to my memory) or even the fact that the apartment he gets is company housing. so i don't personally get the impression this was an overt idealogical conflict between them at this point in their lives, even though Xina’s memorabilia seems to hint at Marxist leanings?
xina holds no loyalty to alchemax certainly (as a young adult or when we're reintroduced to her) and i don't think she'd work as an individual contractor or with people like angela if she didn't have reservations and critiques about these kinds of corporate monopolies and the effect they had upon shaping the future, but i also personally read part of her obsession with twencen stuff as about it being a niche that's secluded from just. how inescapable the influence of corporations is in the world of 2099.
it's not that she idealises the past, but moreso that by virtue of the sheer passage of time it has become removed from the reality of the present, and i think alongside the insights it offers about a reality alchemax would keep hidden, the past is a reprieve.
#theres something very interesting to me in xina being willing to engage in subversive acts like helping angela out and being associated w#her. while she also seems like of. isolated? imo? partly due to 90s writing just not offering a wider insight into what relationships#are a big influence on xina outside of miguel but i also like to read xina's isolation as symptomatic of the fact by the time we see her#again she's kind of partially removed herself when she can afford to from spheres of influence alchemax has a monopoly in#like employment.#i honestly wonder if breaking up with miguel and this removing herself from the particular sphere he operated in was something that affecte#her in this space#i think part of what ends up influencing this reading is the fact 2099 really only has the o'haras and occassionally kasey as reoccuring#characters that move between the borders of uptown and downtown and consider#the implications of the fact uptown stands atop the ruins and poverty of downtown#and i think it would be really interesting to see what xina's insight into these kinds of structural issues would be#tunes talks 2099
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which bloodthirster do you the mun relate to the most?
blue eyed loser
#ask#Anonymous#me🤝khax - anxiety cerebral and recently /clearer thinking due to...outside influences (new god / medication)#lmao#KHA'XANZYR (THE ARCHITECT);
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Are we going to think about the implications of most of the shoppers in Black Friday being parents, presumably of fairly young children?
I don’t believe a nuclear bomb was dropped on Hatchetfield at the end. It makes no sense for Russia to target a random small town on an island instead of an actually important (to the mundane world) place. I generally don’t like the accidental nuking of Moscow and WWIII breaking out, because it kinda makes all the characters’ development and accomplishments feel wasted if Wiggly still in a way succeeds in bringing Earth and humanity to ruin, but I digress. The town is not destroyed.
Which gives the ending much more weight to me. It means that everyone has to live with the consequences of their actions. Or… not live, as it were.
Imagine you’re one of the rioters who got a Wiggly and ran, which many did, hence the cult hunting down the last one left in the building. That means we’re talking about 849 people. Imagine triumphantly opening your front door, finally crossing the threshold into the safety of your home with your precious cargo, your beloved child’s dream toy. Except your child never even wanted it. You were so swept up in your desire to make Christmas perfect that you never even bothered to ask them before putting so much time aside to get ahead in that line, time you could have done so much more with. What kind of a parent are you? The adrenaline crashes and the spell breaks and the realization hits you like a hammer to the teeth: it was all for nothing. You’re exhausted and injured. You attacked your fellow human beings like a starving animal. For those moments, you genuinely did not care if anyone else was okay. All your morals just - evaporated. And it was all utterly, miserably pointless. You can lie, downplay it, put all the blame on mob mentality and your sleep deprivation, but you can’t forget. You can never forget.
Imagine you’re one of those rioters' partners or friends, shaken to learn that someone so close to you, who you love and trust and have always believed to be a good person, could be capable of such callousness and violence over something so arbitrary. Imagine the questions that raises. What if they hurt someone again? What if they hurt me? Or, if they themselves aren’t any more evil than I thought… if I’d waited outside that store all night or longer, would I have snapped like that? What damage could I inflict in the right circumstances? I’m a good person, aren’t I? Is every good person just a bad person waiting to happen?
Imagine you’re one of the kids, having to go on knowing your parent, your hero, drew blood in your name. Imagine hearing about the riots on the news and the spike of terror as it registers that your parent could die at any moment, bruised and trampled on a cold floor. And you wouldn’t be there. They come home at last and you rush into their arms. But far from relieved, their eyes are haunted; they’ve stared into hell and seen their reflection.
Imagine you’re one of the kids, waiting for your dad to come home. Things have been rough since he lost his job when the plant closed, and he’s been really stressed and to be honest so have you, but at least you’ll still spend Christmas together, right? Right?
#why believe everyone died when there’s so much ANGST to explore?#always think about the implications#you have to admit burning to death because you became a rioter and then a cultist#due to an eldritch god slowly eroding your free will and humanity until you’re a hollow mindless shadow of your former self#is a horrible way to go#now add a family back home to make it even worse!#ex-plant worker probably wanted the wiggly because he couldn’t afford many nice toys for his kid(s) and just wanted them to have one#in a trying time#so that + financial stress + having waited outside toy zone for ages and such would make him the first to snap#and quick to fall under wiggly’s influence enough to commit unprovoked murder without a second thought#starkid black friday#black friday#black friday meta#black friday spoilers#hatchetfield#hatchetfield series#hatchetverse#the cultists had the biggest holes
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