#draft dumps incoming

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i am going to be posting some drafts I have sitting in my computer because I don't know when I'm going to be able to upload again (new work schedule that has me working six days a week but I want to get some stuff out) plus it all silly, brain rot stuff that I don't think I would put in an actual fic

[happylandfill23]

sometimes i look through my drafts and i genuinely cover my mouth with my hand like girl you did NOT just say that

[littleeyesofpallas]

Koyoi, Tsuma ga[今宵、妻が。]

Tonight My Wife will...

[sundogsandrainbows]

Hi, I'm sorry to write to you out of the blue, but Of Elves and Humans was the first DA longfic that got me hooked back in 2011 when I, as a dumb teen, happened to pick up DAO. Ever since then, the DA universe has been a constant fixation of mine and my admiration for you as a writer as well as someone who isn’t afraid to call out the franchise's flaws has never wavered. Now that Bioware decided to take a massive shit on everything pre-DAV and their oldest fans specifically, I'm really devastated and feel like a fool for having been so invested in DA and its lore for those past 13 years. It’s incredibly encouraging, however, to see you keep on keeping on. "So since they spat in my face like this I ignore this atrocity of a game even exists" is where I hope to be at soon, too. Thank you.

(First of all apologies for the late reply, I put it in my drafts when i was too tired to complete it, and then my adhd brain forgot it existed due to being distracted by new shinies 😂☠)

But aww omg i cannot believe i was the gateway drug into dragon age, or rather the old version of my story on FFN was. I am so very honored <3 And nonnie, I feel you. I am invested in DA as a series since DA:O's release in 2009, like I bought it on a whim for XBox because I liked Mass Effect 1 sm. So that is 15 yrs of my life i spent loving and discussing a thing while still being critical of the thing, but now i feel so very protective of the world, lore and its characters that "New Bioware" has decided to take a massive dump of shit on, and not only the games but the old fans I feel are treated with disdain too and do not matter to them any longer.

Long, subjective rant about current bioware aka the shambling corpse of its former self and talent incoming. Spoilers for Veilguard bc i don't give a fuck to avoid them :D You (general you, not you in particular dearest nonny <3) should use your time better than to play this shit anyhow 😂

It feels like calculated malice of new Bioware to apply the scorched earth tactics to offscreen destroy everything that old fans and fans of the other games in general held dear, and was supposed to suck out the enjoyment of DAO, DA2 and DAI. Like it is obvious they plan to create a sequel on DA's scorched bones, but jfc, you can do so story-wise without spitting everyone loving what old bioware has built in the face after dropkicking them. But to me that is part of the problem, since if i remember correctly and i wish i could find the bit... they praised Veilguard as "The best Dragon Age game ever", with the most interesting companions and best most improved combat system, comparing it to the other three games in a near smug fashion. There is marketing and there is putting the other games down to prop up your most favorite and only child mattering and they were definitely doing the latter. And don't get me started on the whole "Who is Zevran" debacle or we are gonna here all day.

Bottom line is new/current devs and writer do not give a shit about and very possibly have never played any other game than Inquisition, and you cannot tell me otherwise. And since a lot of devs/writer have left since the start of this project that would become this abysmal game, I also have the impression that there is a lot of underlying resentment toward what these former colleagues have created and so they piss on it in order to make it fully theirs now. Like dogs marking their territory, and well that did not work out, imo. At all.

Ever since they announced respecting our past choices by ignoring them (????) it was clear to me that I would not play Veilguard but just watch a playthrough and all spoilers and then move on. And everything i saw before release was shocking... like i was flabbergasted at how baaaad the dialogue was, which as a writer myself is super important to me in my story. There was no subtext, characters just blurt out everything they think and feel, like a lifeless doll you squeeze and words tumbling out and just as natural. It is stilted, awkward and 80% of it exists for info dump or info dumb rather as they keep repeating the same shit they just told you a few seconds ago as if you as the player are braindead. Here is a good example of what i mean.

Jfc, who edited this crap? There is so much superfluous dialogue that adds nothing to a scene but annoyance for the player and says nothing at all. Just pure senseless yapping in the most cringy way. Why was no one there to trim this nonsense as you should as a writer/editor? Hell, they really disregarded every simple and basic writing rule (everything is told never SHOWN for example especially in dialogue) which really made me question their competence in what they were doing and thus the quality of the upcoming game but i still held out hope for it to not be that bad.

Well shit, it was even worse. In all regards. Especially the writing that cringed this writer into a new dimension with its incoherent incompetence. Jfc. they got paid for that? I'm convinced the majority of fandom writer can do much better, even unpaid. Hell my cat just by walking over the keyboard can manage a better draft and script...💀

But I digress. That is a rant for another time. Point is, nonny, despite my defiant words, I struggled too for days after i got to know the full extent of Bioware's spiteful fuckery to even look at anything da related, in my case my Alistair/Mahariel longfic. I was really down for a few days, ngl. Then again, there is nothing better than spite fueling my creativity to prove "i can write better" soooo in the end and with the help of the much better first version of DA4 in the artbook, I was able to exorcise the demons and feverdream-mindfuck of mediocrity sold to me as a turd with gold-glitter that is this game.

I have successfully now rejected its existence, filled the void with the version that should have been from the artbook and vowed to give no fucks what bioware is doing or saying and infinitely more fucks when writing my own version of thedas and the version of DA4 that should be. REWRITES BBY hell yeah. So OEAH:R is just the beginning of a verse-wise rewrite. But if you need a pick me up, nonny, you are very much welcome to take a trip down memory lane to Dragon 9:30 and see how much this iteration of the story differs from my first one back in the days. Because in this house of mine, we grow and learn as writers, unlike bioware where writer ego reigns surpreme (oh boy and does it ever show in VG) aka eating their own turds and tell themselves it is the finest chocolate 💀

There is still a lot of good about DA out there, but we have to accept it does not come from Bioware any longer. Instead it came, comes and will come from the fans and creators of art and texts and words defying their bullshit with their love and respect for the world, its lore and characters. Also very unlike Bioware.

As we should <3

[uncreative-cryptid]

Valerian Info Dump

most of this is draft stuff so do not mind it too much

anyways fun fact did you know many metals found in your blood are also found in space so therefore you are made of star stuff my friend

Basics

Valerian is an unusual freelance mercenary, who is known to work often with escorting researchers to various areas. Despite his unusually eccentric attitude, many will notate his expansive knowledge on the many minerals of Solaris-3.

Gender Male (He/They)

Birthplace New Federation

Affiliation Jinzhou

Attribute Spectro

Forte Circuit

[ Node 1 ] Resonance Skill: Man Made

- When 'Shards' are full, Valerian's Resonance skill is replaced with Man Made. Casting Man Made will consume all 'Shards' and enter the Fortified Aura state.

Fortified Aura

The character in the Fortified Aura state has greatly increased resistance to all DMG. When Valerian is in this state: - Basic Attacks: Launches coordinated attacks, dealing Spectro DMG up to 20% of Valerian's Max HP every 4 seconds. - Dodge Counters: Increases Spectro DMG by 19%. - Use Basic Attack within 4s after a successful Counterattack to cast Suncatcher, dealing Spectro DMG, considered as Basic Attack damage. Valerian does not recover 'Shards' in this state.

Shards

Valerian can hold up to 120 shards. When Resonance Skill hits a target, recover Shards. When Intro Skill hits a target, recover Shards.

[ Node 2 ] Inherent Skill

Damage of Resonance Liberation: Blood of the Ruby Aura increased by 20%.

[ Node 3 ] Inherent Skill

Resonance Skill Metal Bond increases healing bonus by 20%.

An Aura of Flame — Normal Attack Basic Attack

Valerian fires up to 5 consecutive shots, dealing Spectro DMG.

Heavy Attack

Valerian enters the aiming state for a more powerful shot. The aimed shot fired after charging finishes deals Spectro DMG.

Mid-Air Attack

Valerian consumes STA to perform consecutive shots at the target in mid-air, dealing Spectro DMG.

Dodge Counter

Use Basic Attack after a successful Dodge to attack the target, dealing Spectro DMG

[ Node 2 ]

Healing bonus 1.80%

[ Node 3 ]

Healing bonus 4.20%

Song of the Aqua Aura — Resonance Skill

Attack the enemy and deal Spectro DMG, triggers Metal Bond to all characters on team.

Metal Bond

All characters on team receive a shield of 200% of Valerian's Max HP and will continuously heal all characters on nearby teams once every (1) second.

[ Node 2 ]

DEF bonus 1.80%

[ Node 3 ]

DEF bonus 4.20%

Blood of the Ruby Aura — Resonance Liberation

Create Diamond Dust Aura, dealing continuous Spectro DMG to all targets nearby continuously once every (3) seconds.

When casting Blood of the Ruby Aura, Valerian will consume 55% of his HP to increase other character's CRIT DMG by 55%

[ Node 2 ]

DEF bonus 1.80%

[ Node 3]

DEF bonus 4.20%

Aura of the Sun — Intro Skill

Attack the target dealing Spectro DMG.

[ Node 2 ]

healing bonus 1.80%

[ Node 3 ]

healing bonus 4.20%

Kaleidoscope — Outro Skill

The incoming resonator gains Kaleidoscope, granting the following effects: Resonator gains a temporary shield that is 10% of Valerian's max HP. Upon being hit, Kaleidoscope will explode, dealing Spectro DMG to nearby enemies. On a successful Dodge or Counter Attack, Kaleidoscope is destroyed and grants the resonator a 10% bonus to Normal Attacks for 5 seconds.

[ Intimacy Levels | Cherished Items | Voice ]

special thanks to @hobbysognodilibri , @unrealistic-ideas-for-writers , @isthissarksouls , and everyone who continues to support my writing and insane rambling of this game , including but not limited to @shatteredsonance for the art , and the anons and lurkers who are supporting from a distance. you guys are the best.

[whinlatter]

Hi! I love your writing think it’s phenomenal work. It’s really such a genuine and intimate depiction of Ginny. I also see you have an appreciation of Dean Thomas. I’d love to know why you think Ginny was attracted to him? What do you think their relationship was like and how did it help them for their next partners? I just think that pairing was really interesting and there’s not enough of them being friends.

❗️ Warning... big Dean & Ginny meta incoming ❗️

Firstly - thank you so so much for reading and enjoying my work (phenomenal!!! I’ll dine out on that all week - can't thank you enough).

Secondly - what great questions! This was such a fun thing to think through. Dean’s a quietly lovely character I have so much time for, despite being very underdeveloped in canon (cutting his arc to exclusively favour Neville’s? Side-eye forever). I'm definitely a paid up member of the Dean Thomas Fan Club.

Anyway….. the questions were so good I wrote this too-long meta on Ginny and Dean before going to bed because I apparently… cannot be stopped?

Why was Ginny attracted to Dean?

I think for this question it’s important to think about the timing of when Ginny and Dean became close and when they got together, and especially what Ginny was looking for during and after her relationship with King of Negging, Michael Corner. There are three weeks between the break-up with Michael and Gin getting together with Dean, so we can assume Ginny and Dean had already become close and maybe a little flirty when she was with Michael (Ginny Weasley likes to give herself a nice four-week breather between boyfriends, usually just in time to watch the early summer weather roll in. I for one respect the work rate and the consistency.)

Ginny is with Michael until late in her fourth year, until they break up after the Quidditch final in early June. Dean has his OWLs until late June (just realised Ginny dumps Michael right before his exams - this is how you get revenge on a Ravenclaw).

The events in the Department of Mysteries take place the day exams finish (cue iconic scene where Harry’s rushing up to the dormitory to grab his Cloak and save his godfather’s life and Seamus and Dean are trying to get him on the sesh, absolutely rate it, excellent from the lads). Ginny’s going out with Dean by the time she gets the train home, probably by the end of June.

Given the short turnaround time between relationships, I think it’s likely Ginny and Dean became close during the rest of the school year, where she was able to learn the following things about him (and implicitly compare him with Michael as Michael revealed himself to be, as the great prophet Ronald foresaw, ‘a bit of an idiot’):

Dean Thomas knows right from wrong (and really, really can’t stand Dolores Umbridge). In their first lesson with Umbridge, Dean is by far the person in the class who stands up to Umbridge the most after the trio (he actually comes out swinging a lot more than Ron does). He immediately subs in for Harry when Umbridge refuses to answer any more of Harry’s questions. He defends Lupin and Crouch-as-Moody when Umbridge criticises them (describing Crouch-as-Moody as a maniac but saying ‘we still learned loads’ is extremely funny - Dean's pedagogical expectations are low). Dean is an extremely enthusiastic DA member, he and Ginny often arrive at meetings or take part in dinnertime conversations about the DA together, and I think they likely became mates because they’re passionate about what the DA is trying to do. We know Gin likes a boy with a moral compass, a backbone, and a good sense of outrage in the face of injustice. (I cut this out of a much lengthier first draft of chapter one of Beasts, which had all the DA at the graduation ceremony, but this was their interaction in response to another character acting up: ‘[Ginny] feels an old rush of affection for Dean, a man who always had a good scowl in him when it mattered.’)

Dean’s a sweetheart, even if he’s a bit hopeless. Dean’s a character who is often trying to make people feel better about things and trying to give a bit of comfort – emphasis on trying, because he’s not always good at knowing exactly what to say. I think this is something Ginny would really value – she’s someone who, for all her fire, tries to comfort and support the people around her. I reckon she’s got a soft spot for a man with a heart in the right place and a chronic inability to find the right words to express it. ('“Don’t worry about it, Harry,” Dean muttered, hoisting his schoolbag onto his shoulder. “He’s just . . .” But apparently he was unable to say exactly what Seamus was, and after a slightly awkward pause followed him out of the room.' OotP, 221 - does this not sound like how Harry would try and comfort someone?) 👀

Dean is kind to the underdog. Dean is often seen hanging around with or partnering up with Neville, and in DH, we’ll also see Dean be very kind towards Luna. I think Ginny rates people who are kind to those who are socially awkward and excluded.

Relatedly... Dean loves Remus Lupin. I wrote about this a bit in this short reflection on Remus (and am writing about this at the moment so don’t want to get too spoilery if you’re reading Beasts…), but I have a feeling being Remus Lupin’s biggest fan would be a sure fire way to get a text back from Ginny Weasley.

Dean’s into sports. Like her soulmate, Ginny’s into fellow jocks (I think it's implied that Michael Corner was also on the Ravenclaw Quidditch team – three for three on Quidditch players, Ginevra, if you were on Love Island I’d say you have a type). I think she’d also be amused and endeared by Dean’s die-hard commitment to West Ham - she is Arthur Weasley’s daughter, after all, and she probably enjoys teasing him about how crap football sounds. (That bit in PS/SS where Dean’s yelling ‘send him off, ref!’ – 10/10 excellent Dean content). Also Dean does not seem threatened by Ginny’s Quidditch abilities, but instead just really wants to be on the team with her too, which is a nice change from Michael Corner, the Jack Berger of Hogwarts Quidditch. (Sorry Michael, I know you end up a gold star goodie by DH, but young Mike is a prick to our girl Gin).

Dean is a laugh. Chuckling at Ernie Macmillan in his Apparition classes, mucking about with mice in Transfiguration, getting the giggles because this Lockhart bloke has set a quiz asking students to name his ideal birthday gift: Dean is both fun and funny. That bit in GoF where Dean describes Warrington in Slytherin as a ‘big bloke who looks like a sloth’ – funny.  The bit later in GoF where Dean rinses Harry for rejecting that curly-haired Hufflepuff girl who wants to go to the ball with him – also funny. Ginny Weasley likes a comedian and she also likes an audience. I think that means a big tick in the Dean Thomas column.

Dean's a creative. This is verging on headcanon territory, but I really do love the idea of Ginny finding her way back to writing in the years after Riddle and the diary. I can see her being drawn to someone who also has this gentle, expressive, artistic side to them.

Dean’s not averse to dealing in contraband Firewhiskey. If you’re a fourteen year old popular girl with a rulebreaking streak, the boy who can source you some Firewhiskey for an end of exams party from a cool kid like Harold Dingle is hot property.

Dean… er, really likes Harry. Not Gin's finest criteria for a boyfriend, but I think In GoF, the man draws Harry flying around the Horntail on his Firebolt and draws Cedric, his rival, with his head on fire. It’s not a hugely good look for Ginny, but I reckon Dean really liking Harry probably, in a strange, back-to-front kind of way, is another vote in his favour (Gin, you're messy, and I love you for it).

What was their relationship like?

I loved thinking about this question! It’s easier to write about why Ginny and Dean broke up than it is to write why they stayed together so long, and what good stuff they took from the relationship. Dean's easily bashed in Hinny fic in all sorts of different ways, and I don't think it really tallies with the really positive impression we get of him in canon. Ginny and Dean spend a lot of time together over the year - eating most of their meals together, training together, spending all of their Hogsmeade time with each other. I know it’s a teenage relationship, but this is still so much time to spend with one person. It also actually takes them quite a while to breakup, even if they’re ‘rocky’ for much longer. There's something to their relationship that must, on some level, have worked quite well. After all, it would have been a lot easier for Ginny to have dumped Dean if he was a crap boyfriend. It’s much harder to dump someone who is a good partner, but not the right partner for you.  

I think that's the problem for Ginny: Dean was kind of perfect for her in lots of ways - but for the person she would have been if Riddle hadn't happened to her, and if the war hadn't happened. Their relationship was clearly based on a lot of mutual attraction and chemistry (that kiss Ron and Harry saw was intense, lads - there's a reason Harry was threatened by it, after all). I think Dean was proud as hell of Ginny, especially on the Quidditch pitch (he's so excited to tell her he's going to be on the team with her!). I think he would think she's super cool, and I like fics and headcanons about Dean that show him trying to internalise his feelings about his own dad into doing right by his girlfriend, even if that means overshooting and being overly chivalrous and over-protective with Gin. I think one of the reasons Ginny stayed in the relationship so long is because they genuinely got on, had a laugh with each other, and fancied each other, in a way that she would feel conflicted about when she still feels drawn to Harry.

Really I think it's Dean being so great that is the problem for Ginny. If she's with this really great guy and she's still feeling restless and like something's missing, she knows that means she's still not over Harry, and that means she's in trouble. I think it's why Ginny sabotages the relationship, in very understandable ways, and in the end she finds herself getting the ick over little things, and picks a fight to end it rather than come clean about being in love with someone else. (No judgement: again, messy girl representation is important).

Ultimately, I think Harry is perfect for the Ginny that actually exists, and Dean would be a good match for a hypothetical Ginny where there was no Harry, who doesn't have a family in the resistance, who doesn't have all this trauma from what happened with the diary, and who isn't shaped and forged by a childhood at war. Until DH, Dean doesn't seem to know anything about the Weasleys' involvement in the Order. We have no evidence anyone other than Harry, the Weasleys, Dumbledore and Hermione ever knew Ginny was possessed by Riddle, and I don't know that Ginny would volunteer the information to Dean. (The only reason she brings it up to Harry in OotP and again in HBP isn't because she wants emotional support for it - she only brings it up to try and help him. This is not a subject she talks openly about even with the person who knows most about what went down). This lack of knowledge about crucial parts of Ginny's life would mean huge gaps in understanding between them - not gaps that are Dean's fault, but that Ginny doesn't try to get him to bridge. Dean can't meet Ginny where she's at emotionally at the point in the series where they get together, in many ways because he's much closer to a normal teenager than she has been able to be up to that point. At the end of the day, Ginny's always going to want to be with the strange guy racing to the Department of Mysteries to rescue a loved one and fight Death Eaters on a Friday night than a nice normal guy who is planning on drinking his own weight in Firewhiskey to celebrate him finishing his Wizarding GCSEs.

How did it help them for their next partners?

I think Ginny would always speak highly of Dean, appreciate that he made her feel loved and someone a boyfriend should be proud of, and I think she would feel some guilt about what went down. I think, eventually, Dean would acknowledge that he didn’t fully understand Ginny and what she was going through, and that he couldn't have been able to meet her needs in the same way Harry could. (I do think this would take a while, though - on the way out, Dean would be understandably very bitter, even if bitterness would be quickly surpassed by the much more serious escalation in circumstances in the war for an apparent Muggleborn. Thinking about it, Dean Thomas had a terrible 1996. Man got dumped and then within three months was homeless and on the run from a murderous fascist regime trying to do him in. Like, I know this is very much not funny but… if a man I had shared a bedroom with for six years and called a friend publicly scooped my ex from me from under my nose, dumped her a few weeks later for mysterious reasons, and then I had to look at his face everywhere I looked on wanted posters, I would be a lot more mad at Harry Potter than Dean Thomas ends up being).

Ultimately, though, I think both would look back on the relationship as a sort of sweet teenage thing, with a lot of warmth and humour to it, probably some sweet confidence-boosting intimacy early on, and a bit of a lesson that you can't make someone be the right person for you. I like to think Ginny and Dean end up mates, in the end, and that she's always rooting for him to find someone great.

[judjira]

heyo it is ur friendly neighborhood joo !

it has been Quite A While since i last posted anything, whether on tumblr or ao3, but worry not! i am not dead yet, and i have no plans on being dead. i've been stuck for a while on writing, but i'll get to that in a bit.

for some reason, now that it's the end of the year, i took a moment to sit down and really just think about things, and i've come to one conclusion.

god, 2024 really sucked for me.

now, i know mindless rants and thought dumps like this aren't why you follow me or anything, but honestly, this is a writing blog, so i'm going to write. if you don't like that, boohoo (jk feel free to stop reading and go send that ask about when im going to update (fic) haha)

a lot of my friends like to say i give main character vibes, and that's not me boasting. genuinely i wonder what it is they see in me that makes them think that. maybe it's the way i tell stories about what happened to me, or how i can manage to keep up a conversation and seem like an extrovert, or just genuinely the way i live my life.

for context, i'm a freelancer doing events and theater, which means i have really, really strange work hours, and even stranger income. i suppose, to someone else, my life seems cool, leaving for work at 11 pm, going to different cities for shows, getting to meet celebrities in the industry and whatnot. and yeah, if i didn't work in this industry, i'd think that's pretty cool too.

but i do work in this industry. and god does it suck so bad. i try a lot to find the reasons why i keep doing my job, and it happens a lot like this:

i do a gig with a lot of hiccups, problems in management, toxic people, underperformance, and i consider quitting. then, something really great happens at the end, and i gaslight myself into ignoring my imposter syndrome and i keep working, waiting for another job.

so it's a lot like someone only giving me food when i'm desperately starving, just enough to keep me going for one day.

do i enjoy it? hell no. is it worth it? somehow, for some reason, at the end of it all, yes.

but the one thing i really don't like about it all is how it's affected my personal relationships. i take all responsibility for the way i act and the way i behave, but i'd be a liar if i said my workplace didn't influence me the way it did.

this year has been so full of ups and downs with my parents, my siblings, my girlfriend, my friends. i feel like, somehow, in gaining independence for myself financially, i somehow realized in the first place what i was so dependent on in my relationships. which sucks.

and to make it full circle, another thing i really don't like about it is how it's taken me away from my favorite hobby, which is writing.

i have missed out on writing for so long that it physically pains me sometimes that i'm away from my laptop and clicky keyboard, unable to pour my heart out onto some weird ass twice fic that barely anyone's gonna read. it might seem shallow to someone else, hell, probably to most people, but damn if writing isn't the one thing i come back to each and every year.

which, i think, brings me to my next point, which is i think i have to apologize for not being so active. i've made a lot of promises that i haven't been able to keep with my fics, and i have so many drafts that haven't seen the light of day. and i don't think it's just you people who read my fics that i have to apologize to, but also myself. i think i took writing too seriously and ended up having it weigh down on me more than it should have.

the whole point of this damn thing is to have fun, and to make sure other people have fun, and i don't think i've been having a lot of fun recently, honestly.

so, yeah. an apology. to you guys. and to myself. i think. im a fuckin weirdo.

but yeah, that's it for this rant. if you made it to the end, congrats! i'll be posting a s'agapo update soon, and i'm also working on the next out of bounds. after that, god knows what i'm updating. i'm gonna stop lying to myself and saying that i have an update plan when in reality i just write whatever's on my mind.

anyway, thanks for reading, and i hope you all have a very happy new year. love ya

[sejanusarchive]

Many people have enabled me (thank you so much guys <3) so draft dump incoming, apologies in advance

[yuyamuya]

vocabs i learned from 알쓸별잡 ep. 7

허물다: remove, get rid of, abolish 사회적으로 이미 주어져 있는 규율이나 관습 등을 없어지게 하다. To make a given rule or custom in a society disappear.

허물다: pull down, throw away, eliminate 심리적으로 이미 주어져 있는 생각이나 믿음 등을 없애다. To get rid of a given thought or belief.

화석: fossil (비유적으로) 변화하거나 발전하지 않고 어떤 상태에서 돌처럼 굳어 버린 것. (figurative) A state of remaining firm in a certain state like a stone without showing any change or progress.

혼잡하다: chaotic, crowded, jammed 여러 가지가 한데 뒤섞여 어지럽고 복잡하다. Many things being mixed up to make a person feel chaotic and complicated.

획일화: uniformity, standardization 모두가 하나와 같아서 다름이 없게 됨. 또는 모두가 하나와 같아서 다름이 없게 함. For everything to become identical without any differences; or to make everything look identical without any differences.

공급하다: supply, provide 요구나 필요에 따라 물건이나 돈 등을 제공하다. To provide things or money in response to demands or needs.

부양하다: support 수입이 없어서 혼자 생활하기 어려운 사람을 돌보다. To take care of someone who cannot live on his/her own because he/she has no income.

기발하다: ingenious, original, novel 놀라울 정도로 재치가 있고 뛰어나다. Witty and surprisingly brilliant.

되새기다 ruminate; meditate 지난 일을 다시 떠올려 곰곰이 생각하다. To recall something past to one's mind and think it over.

못지않다: not inferior, as good as, almost equal 다른 것과 비교했을 때 뒤떨어지거나 못하지 않다. Not falling behind or being inferior when compared with other things.

삭막하다: dreary, bleak 쓸쓸하고 황폐하다. Solitary and desolate.

조율하다: compromise (비유적으로) 여러 입장의 차이에서 생긴 문제를 해결하기 위하여 정도를 조절하다. (figurative) To adjust the degree to resolve an issue arising from differences in position.

담보하다 어떠한 일이 잘못될 때 그 잘못을 대신하기 위해 무엇인가를 내놓다. To present something to make up for a situation in which something has gone wrong.

처연하다: sad, sorrowful 쓸쓸하고 구슬프다. Lonely and mournful.

거론하다: mention, bring up 어떤 것을 이야기의 주제나 문제로 삼아 논의하다. To bring up or mention something as a subject of discussion or an object of criticism.

탁월하다: excellent, distinguished 남보다 훨씬 뛰어나다. Far superior to others.

순전히: genuinely 순수하고 완전하게. Purely and absolutely.

절묘하다: be marvelous, be great 비교할 데가 없을 만큼 아주 놀랍고 신기하다. To be incomparably surprising and amazing.

불길하다: ominous, inauspicious 운이 좋지 않고 나쁜 일이 생길 것 같은 느낌이 있다. Having a feeling that one will be unlucky and something bad will happen.

징조: omen, sign 어떤 일이 일어날 것 같은 분위기나 느낌. A vibe or feeling that makes one think something may happen.

터무니없다: absurd, groundless 황당하고 믿음성이 없어 전혀 근거가 없다. Something having no foundation, as it is ridiculous and lacks credibility.

타파하다: break down, destroy, overthrow 좋지 않은 관습이나 제도를 깨뜨려 버리다. To break and dump bad customs or a bad system.

실마리: clue, lead 일이나 사건을 해결해 나갈 수 있는 시작이 되는 부분. Something with which one starts to resolve a case or problem.

의기소침하다: depressed 자신감이 줄어들고 기운이 없어진 상태이다. Being in the state in which one has lost one's confidence and energy.

지독하다: tenacious, persistent 의지나 마음이 매우 크고 강하다. Having a strong will.

초고: draft 처음 쓴 글. The preliminary version of writing.

[lilworms]

draft dump incoming

[nochiquinn]

this post is probably gonna end up in drafts for a while, bc I'm about to dump a lot of stuff and I'm not putting it behind a cut.

I've talked about the stuff with our property tax, but I don't think I've really laid out what it means. If we cannot pay our property tax, they will evict us from our home. We will be homeless. I've said that part. here's what I haven't laid out.

I have someplace to go. My parents will take me back in. My depression will skyrocket and I'll lose my only means of making a living due to their substandard rural internet, but I'll have a roof over my head. But my partner can't come with me. While they'd probably gladly also take in my kid, I am not her legal guardian in any sense. Her parents would have to sign over custody so I could make necessary decisions wrt her medical care, school stuff, etc etc. All the parent stuff I can't do.

I am in a polyamorous relationship. My partner is married to someone else. "My kid" is legally and biologically their kid, I am a legally "unofficial" third parent. (We usually introduce me as her godparent.) For this reason, my lack of any legal ties to any of them and their status as a legal nuclear family, any temporary housing they find will not allow me to come with them. I would have to apply on my own, and my employment status doesn't give me great odds. The one place they can possibly go doesn't have room for me, just the three of them.

In extremely plain language, if we lose our house, I lose my partner. If we lose our house, I lose my kid.

My partner is currently not working. We can survive on his wife's income, but just barely. Our plan was to take a little off the top of each of her paychecks, so 4-5 times a month, and use that to pay. We can't do that now. As it stands now we would need around $800 a month to make the payment in time.

I don't know. I just needed to lay out the actual stakes I'm facing, I guess. We have tried so, so hard - my partner has tried so, so hard and we just keep getting knocked down. Not to sound petulant, but it's not fucking fair. and I don't know what to do anymore.

[happylandfill23]

i'm actually so funny sometimes

[trivijoy]

draft dump incoming

[numerowah]

In your swap AU, are the Mario brothers guys who wear princess dresses as their everyday outfits?

HIII ramble incoming

Partially! My swap AU switches the Mario Bros., and their counterparts, with the princesses! [Peach, Daisy, Shokora, and Rosalina] Specifically, Luigi takes Peach's role of the Mushroom Kingdom's ruler, Mario takes Daisy's role as Princess of Sarasaland, while Peach takes Mario's role as main character and Daisy as a secondary hero. I do mix the story up a bit, since here Peach and Daisy are matched with Mario and Luigi respectively, they just don't typically rescue their partner X] Wario swaps with Shokora, specifically True-Form Shokora cause she's the best /lh, and is cursed into a cat form+shadowy blob for a couple thousand years. Since Shokora technically dies, or at least goes to heaven, at the end of her game, I'm still deciding on whether Wario's kingdom is completely forgotten by the time he regains his true form or if he revives it due to still being alive and well.

And Waluigi swaps with Rosalina! Depending on where I take Wario [tbh he probably IS already the most different seeing as I keep Wario around hehee], Waluigi def gets the most changes as a Princess. I change the story of Galaxy a bit for him because i'll admit I'm biased. [still hammering it, but to summarize Peach fights him as like. a midboss with two stages before fighting a main boss on the Observatory, and 'post-game' she requests for a Warp Pipe to be connected from the castle to the Observatory so Waluigi can visit whenever, instead of just every 1000 years.]

To directly answer the question, the Bros. do wear dresses as everyday outfits, but not just for fun or anything X]

once again i am incredibly biased, so right now the stuff I'm fleshing out heavily includes Super Paper Mario, Daisy's brainwashed alter ego is the first post here and my pfp as of rn! I called her Miss D cause duh, Mr. L variant, and it sounds like Misdeed >:]

This is one of the earlier [and unfinished oops] designs for Mario, specifically his coronation dress. I decided against the long gloves since 1. he swaps with Daisy 2. he's in Sarasaland and 3. I just think short gloves fit his character better X]

This is Luigi's coronation dress! Designed after a 1-Up Mushroom cause he's green and rules the Mushroom Kingdom lol. I drew it on a draft of a timeline I made for my AU, since I did map out some events. Mostly cause I dumped angst on Waluigi sorry pal :[ BUT!! Anyway Luigi is the last one to officially be a princess chronologically, maybe a bit ironic seeing as he's the fella who started my whole AU!

I have a couple different ideas for how Mario and Peach meet, and how Daisy and Luigi meet, etc etc, and this is one of them! Finding out your bestie in distress has a cute brother that you have to beat in a tennis match wasn't what Peach was expecting for that day probably X]

[ambernotember]

incoming fanfic rec dump from my drafts :) <3

[inkandichxr]

Incoming draft dump. You've been warned.