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Isn’t It Lovely All Alone | 2

PART TWO

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Yuta x Reader (Some Doyoung x Reader) 

Genre: Angst, CollegeAU (HockeyPlayer!Yuta) 

Warning: MATURE/DARK CONTENT. Mentions of drunk driving, death, swearing, cheating, (by NO means do I condone cheating, this is a story based around fictional events so please in the real world don’t do this.) Mental Health. SMUT. 

WC: 3.5k (I know its shorter than part one by a lot but I didn’t want to drag it out too much.) 

Accompanying Story: As Long as I’m Here

A/N: You do not have to read the accompanying story, this can be read as a standalone, however if you do want to read it, I’d suggest reading it before this one. PLEASE let me know what you think, feedback is very much appreciated! 

Please excuse the grammar, I read over it but things may have slipped through. 

I’d also like to thank both my best friends for helping me with this story without their feedback it would not have made it here. So thank you guys! 

Part One. Part Two.

You hadn’t seen Yuta for three weeks; you hadn’t seen any of them for three weeks. Doyoung stopped calling and texting you. You went to your classes and hoped you wouldn’t run into anyone. But luck wasn’t on the side of people who did terrible things, and you had done some terrible things in the past month. 

Doyoung was standing across from you in the empty hallway, both of you froze as you looked at each other. You looked away first, the hatred in his eyes was so lively, you could feel it fill the space around the two of you and you knew you deserved it. You were about to walk away when he scoffed. 

“You know I don’t know what I did to deserve this, but it must have been something really fucking bad.” Your eyes closed as they began to sting. 

“You don’t deserve this Doyoung.” You said softly, “you didn’t do anything to deserve this.” 

Doyoung was in front of you in a second, his frame backing you into a wall. 

“Look at me then.” He said, as his arms caged you in. You kept your eyes closed and turned your head away from him. His hand grabbed your chin lightly tilting your face up to his. 

“Look at me.” He said softly, you opened your eyes, latching on to his. His eyes were full of anger, such a contrast to his actions. Every thought in your head about how much of a monster you were amplified in your head as you took in his face. He looked exhausted; his skin was pale, dark circles under his eyes. You did that to him, tears gathered in the corners of your eyes and you blinked to keep them at bay, but a few slipped through. 

“Why are you crying?” He asked and pushed away from the wall. His hands fisting at his side, his anger amplifying as he looked at you. “What the fuck are you crying about?” 

You couldn’t move, you couldn’t speak, and you couldn’t stop the tears. You didn’t have a right to cry but looking at him and seeing what you did to him there wasn’t anything else you could do. 

“Fuck you.” With that, he walked away from you, and you broke down. 

--- 

Yuta hadn’t left the hotel in three weeks. He hadn’t gone to hockey practice, he hadn’t gone to classes, he hadn’t gone back home. He lived in the robes that the hotel provided and stayed in the four walls. Johnny called him, so had a few of the other boys but he ignored everyone. What was the point? He didn’t deserve them. 

Leaning his head onto the back of his couch, he ignored the ringing again it was Johnny. He blinked at the ceiling; he knew he couldn’t live here forever he also knew that he’d have to see all of them again at some point. The semester would end, he’d need to grab his stuff from the house, but he chose not to think about it. That was for later. 

The ringing stopped only to start up again, and again, and again. On the fifth call, Yuta sighed grabbing the phone off the couch beside him. He stared at Johnny's name for a second before taping the green icon on the screen. 

“Yuta?” Johnny’s voice was quiet, soft. 

“Yeah.” 

“Where are you?” He asked concern in his voice. Yuta shut his eyes and sighed. He didn’t want that concern, his gut twisted with guilt again. 

“Somewhere.” He replied 

“Yuta come home. You can’t drop everything; we’ll figure it out just come home.” Yuta shook his head even though Johnny couldn’t see him. 

“I can’t.” He hung up. Home, Yuta laughed to himself. He couldn’t go there, he couldn’t face Doyoung. He couldn’t look at his friends. He couldn’t risk seeing you, because even though he’d done everything wrong and even though he knew he didn’t deserve anything his mind was still calling to you. He still wanted to hear your voice, your smile was still in his head, the way you looked at him and made him feel it all haunted him. It all made it worse for him. He ran his hand through his hair, How could he go back there? 

His phone rang again he grabbed it again even though he assumed it would be Johnny again. His breathing stopped as he looked at the caller ID. Taeyong.  

--- 

You stopped going to your classes. Your room was the best place to stay. You were curled up in your bed scrolling through your contacts you realized you never got Yuta’s number. You existed the app and went to Instagram, searching up Yuta’s name you stared at the blacked-out profile. Sighing you shoved the phone under your pillow and closed your eyes. 

You were startled awake by loud banging, quickly sitting up in your bed you took in your surroundings. Your eyes narrowed in at the door of your room, the loud banging continued shaking your door. Grabbing your phone, you checked the time; eleven fifteen pm. Rushing out of your bed you made your way to the door, looking through the peephole you saw Doyoung. 

Quickly you unlocked the door he stumbled back as you did. 

He was drunk. His eyes were red, he smiled at you before he shook his head. 

“No, no.” He said to himself and pushed past you into your room. You closed the door sighing and watched him as he made his way over to your desk, he opened the top drawer and grabbed the box of condoms he had put there. 

“I think I’ll just take these.” He staggered as he stepped away from the desk and tripped on the leg of your chair. In a second you were by him grabbing him to make sure he didn’t fall. He shoved out of your grasp. 

“No, don’t touch me.” 

You muttered an apology and stepped away from him holding your hands together at your back as you pressed yourself against the wall again. He was breathing heavily as he looked around your room. The condom box was crushed in his hand. 

“Sorry,” he scoffed. “You’re not sorry. If you were you would’ve actually talked to me when I tried...” he trailed off at the end, bringing the condom box closer to his face he picked at the broken cardboard. You could tell he’d started to cry from the way his shoulders shook, all you could do was stand and stare again. 

“Why’d you do it?” he asked. You opened your mouth to say something, but before you could reply he had his hands on you, pulling you to him shaking his head adamantly. 

“Don’t answer that. I won’t care j-just tell me do you have feelings for him?” You froze in his grasp, his hands moved to your face softly tilting it up to look at him, “please. Just say you don’t.” Your heart broke as he begged, his tears streaming down his face. 

“I-I can’t.” You replied as tears began to stream down your cheeks. He closed his eyes and leaned his head back. He took large breaths to control his breathing still holding you against him. You both stayed like that for a couple of minutes until he let you go. 

Dropping the box onto your bed.

“Keep them.” He muttered and left. 

You stared at the closed door as you cried, for the hundredth time this week you broke down into sobs. 

--- 

Yuta stood in his room, coming home didn’t change much, he still didn’t go to class or hockey and he stayed in his room, in fact it just made it harder for him to eat anything but he accepted it. Johnny and Taeyong would knock on his door to try to get him to come out but he hated every time they looked at him. They looked at him with worry, he wanted to puke every time from the guilt that would punch into him.  

“Yuta?” Johnny’s voice came from the other side of the door followed by a knock. Yuta walked over to the bed and sat down turning his head to the floor. 

“Come in,” he said quietly. Johnny lightly pushed open the door and stepped into the room. Yuta didn’t look up at him. “You have to come to practice man. The coach is pissed at you.” Yuta only shrugged in reply before falling back into his bed as Johnny sat down next to him. 

“What about classes man. You gotta finish them and graduate.” Yuta didn’t reply to that just turned over away from him. Johnny sighed and hit Yuta’s side. 

“What the fuck man!” Yuta exclaimed grabbing at his hip where Johnny punched him. 

“Stop fucking running man, stop and face what you did. You aren’t alone you still have us, no one is saying what you did was okay but no one is abandoning you, you're running away from us.” 

--- 

The last person you expected to see at your door at nine am was Yuta, but here he stood in front of you. His hands pushed into his pockets his head hung low, and his eyes not meeting yours. You didn’t breathe as you let him into your room, no words were exchanged. He moved past you looking around your room. 

“Look Y/N/,” He started his voice soft, “I- we, I came to say that we can’t-” 

“I know.” You cut him. It hurt; your heart twisted in your chest as he finally looked at you. You missed him; you use to wonder what you liked about him. You’d say you barely knew him but as you looked at him it made sense; you like him. Yuta the man that was so broken and yet still managed to smile. The boy who was so misguided and tortured by events that he had no fault in, that he looked for a reason to make the world hate him constantly. The boy who hides all the time, and was so alone, and now you were. You did know Yuta.

You realized a long time ago that you wanted to be there for him, something drew you to him and that was that it couldn’t be helped. But what could be helped was the way you went about it, the steps you took could have been helped. So, as you stared at him, eyes stinging, you took him in. Because you agreed, there was no us, there was just him and you.  

“Fuck,” he said leaning his head back and looking up at your ceiling. “I have to leave.” 

Slowly you started to go back to your classes, you realized that since you transferred here this semester all of your friends were Doyoung’s friends and you actually didn’t have anyone here. You called your mother every day, she only knew that you and Doyoung had broken up you didn’t tell her the details of why just leaving it at it was your fault.  

After your business ethics class, you made your way to the cafeteria, you looked around as you got in line to buy something to eat. The cafeteria wasn’t as packed as it usually was, but the hockey team was there, at their table you caught Yuta’s eye as you stared, he quickly looked away. It hurt. You slowly moved your eyes away from him and caught Johnny’s he gave you a sad smile before replying to whatever Taeyong had said from his left. Doyoung was on the other side of the table, you bit your lip as he laughed with his friends. You were glad to see that he was doing better. It had been two weeks since Yuta came to your room, two weeks since you last spoke to Doyoung too. 

As much as you hated your life, you were glad to see that Doyoung, was getting his back. He deserved it.

 Doyoung looked up at you, as you watched him, his eyes narrowing at you before he quickly looked away. His laughter was gone. 

You frowned and got out of line. That was the last time you went to the cafeteria. 

--- 

Doyoung was drunk again and the boys couldn’t find him. Ten had called saying he ran out of the house. Everyone was out looking for him. Even Yuta. 

Yuta felt miserable as the time ticked on, they’d been looking for about an hour already. The night air was getting hella cold, clouds were gathering in front of him every time he breathed. Yuta didn’t know why but he remembered something Doyoung had said earlier this semester about a winter festival, he seemed excited, Yuta remembered him saying if it went well that Doyoung would have a surprise for them. He didn’t know if he’d be right, but he left his feet to carry him towards the fairgrounds. 

He looked around not seeing Doyoung, realizing he was probably wrong he started to make his way to a different place. 

“Yuta.” 

Yuta snapped his head to his left, Doyoung was leaning against a tree his legs sprawled out in front of him. He was laughing. Yuta furrowed his eyebrows and made his way over to him, pushing his hands into his pockets as he did. 

“You know this is the first place I brought her in this city.” Doyoung laughed again, “She said if it impressed her enough, she’d transfer. I guess I impressed her because she moved to be with me, well until she fucked you and then I wondered maybe I should have never asked her to come to see the winter festival.” 

Doyoung closed his eyes after he finished speaking a sad smile still on his face. Yuta looked down at him, speechless. He was like this a lot, words not being on his side often. 

“You know I hate myself; she couldn’t tell me she didn’t like you. She couldn’t say it, she couldn’t even lie. Now I feel guilty like I’m getting in your way.” Yuta shook his head moving closer to Doyoung. But Doyoung began to get up. “But you two deserve each other, fuck you and fuck her!Shitty people should be together.” Doyoung stood up straight only stumbling slightly, “I hope I never have to see you again after you graduate.” 

Yuta’s head ached as he walked home behind Doyoung, he’d texted everyone to go home that he’d found him and would bring him home. He watched Doyoung as the younger boy stumbled slowly in front of him, but he didn’t reach out to help him. He knew Doyoung enough to know that wouldn’t actually help. So, he walked behind him in silence to Doyoung’s house. He waited at the end of the driveway as Ten opened the door and pulled Doyoung into the house. Yuta only walked away when the door closed, his head hung low as he let his feet take him home, but he didn’t end up at home. 

He ended up on campus right in front of your door. His hand knocked before he could think, and seconds later you pulled open the door. Your eyes were wide as you stared at him, he didn’t say anything just moved towards you taking your face in his hands. His lips connected with yours kissing you roughly, aggressively like he would never get the chance again. 

“Yuta,” You mumbled pulling your lips away from him. He rested his forehead against yours, his eyes closed. 

“I don’t know why I’m here. But I – I have to-” He cut himself off by kissing you again, stealing your breath. You kissed him back, his hands pulling at your clothes as he kicked the door closed and pushed you towards your bed. Laying you down onto your back he climbed over you, your shirt and bra gone.

His mouth connected with your jaw, leaving open–mouthed kisses down your throat towards your chest. 

“We can’t after this.” He mumbled as he took your nipple into his mouth, his head was hazy with lust as you whined when he lightly pulled at you. Sucking you into his mouth before letting you go with a wet pop. 

“But today, today I can’t stop.” He sounded desperate as he moved down your stomach, nibbling at your skin, you moaned as you moved your hands into his hair. His eyes moving to you as you pulled at the strands lightly. His heart was beating in his chest threatening to explode as he watched your eyes tighten shut as he moved your leggings and underwear down your legs. 

“Do you have a condom?” He asked you.

“Yeah, I’m on the pill though.” He nodded as he sat up onto his knees pulling his shirt off. He looked down at you taking you in, your hair was fanned over your pillow, your lips were swollen, and your eyes were filled with desire that mirrored his own. “But we can still use one if you want.” 

Yuta shook his head and dove back down connecting his mouth to yours as his hand made its way between your legs. He groaned when his fingers connected with your slit feeling how wet you were. He moved his tongue into your mouth as his finger connected with your clit, rubbing slow circles on you he let himself enjoy the way you bucked your hips up into his hand. He smiled into the kiss as he moved his hand lower dipping a finger into you before slowly moving it in and out. You twisted your head to the side, taking your lips away from his. 

He let you, taking the chance to look down at you as you closed your eyes your face contorting with pleasure. Yuta groaned when you clenched around his fingers softly moaning his name, he pressed a kiss into the side of your jaw, right by your ear as you arched off the bed towards him. 

He began to rub your clit with his thumb again as he pushed another finger into you, random words spilled out of you, but Yuta didn’t mind as you climaxed around his fingers. He memorized the way your face tightened with pleasure, the way your lips parted letting breathy moans slip past. His dick was painfully hard as he pulled his fingers out of you. You slowly opened your eyes, he stared down at you before moving to the side of you to take off his pants, you sat up moving over him your hand going to his dick, but he caught your wrist. 

“No.” That was all he said, and he moved back over you, connected his lips to yours again, the kiss was slower he wanted to take his time, but he didn’t know if he could. 

You whined under him, your hand going to his erection taking it in your hand and rubbing the tip. Yuta groaned letting his head fall into the crook of your neck as you lined him up with youself. 

“Please.” You didn’t need to beg him twice; he pressed a kiss to your shoulder as he pushed into you. Moaning into your skin at how tight you were. He stilled for a few seconds allowing you to adjust to him before he began to move. His hand weaved into the hair at the top of your head holding your head as he reconnected his lips to yours. With each thrust he came closer to his own climax, your moans muffled against his lips were driving him crazy as the room filled with the sound of his skin against yours. 

You moaned loudly pulling your lips away from his again as you came for a second time clenching around him. Yuta closed his eyes letting his forehead drop against yours as the sensation become too much for him he thrust a few more times drawing out your orgasm as he finally hit his. He slumped into you as he breathed heavily. 

“I like you.” You said holding him tightly against you. His heart clenched at your words. 

“I know.” He replied and pulled out of you, moving your hands off him. I like you too. 

He had liked you when he didn’t know a thing about you, and he liked you now after knowing how caring and kind you were, after realizing that he wanted to know everything about you even the smallest things. But he couldn’t. 

“We ca-” You cut him off as he got off the bed and grabbed for his clothes 

“I know.” His heart hurt as he got off the bed and pulled on his clothes. He didn’t look down at you as you stayed in the bed and pulled the covers over yourself. 

“Goodbye Y/N.” 

He walked out the door. Tucking his hands back into his pockets. He didn’t feel guilty this time, but he knew that this was all he’d get. 

Because people who fuck over girls and let them die, people who let their friends suffer from their choices. People like me don’t deserve anything other than being alone. 

A/N: I hope you guys liked it, please let me know your thoughts on the story as a whole, let me know what you think or any opinions you have! If you have any constructive criticism on the short story please don’t hesitate to tell me. It’ll help me to make my future works better. The next work that accompanies this will be Doyoung’s, so please look forward to that!

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Aria at Award Shows

Iconic Outfits

2020 AAAs NCT Daesang Award  

Peoples’ jaws dropped when they saw Aria sidle up alongside the other 23 boys, strolling out like she owned the building. The heels gave her enough height to be nearly level with Renjun - something she wouldn’t let the boy forget - her hair dyed back to a natural black like it had been during NCT2020 promotions. It was rare that Aria didn’t look slightly apprehensive about stepping out onto a red carpet, but the confidence was rolling off her in waves. As she walked, the slit in the dress seemed to keep on going, trailing up her leg and changing the otherwise classy dress into something that left the innocent bystanders in the first row suffering from a high chance of a heart attack.

tldr; Aria’s hot and people are Noticing.

2019 Show Champion NCT 127 ‘Superhuman’ 

NCT’s second win with Superhuman left a huge divide in nctzens; a rift between those who were ot21 stans and ot22 stans (sans and plus Aria). Up until then, there had been rumors around whether Aria was to leave NCT now that there was a new girl group supposedly debuting under SM. Their management team had refrained from publishing a response - but that only lead fans to create their own speculations and theories. This outfit played perfectly into the growing rumor; with the large circular pendant on Aria’s bracelet having two chrysanthemums etched into the gold. The flower symbolized happy endings and goodbyes, with nctzens taking this as the proof that Aria was truly set to leave NCT in the coming months. 

tldr; nctzens need to learn how to Chill.

2017 M! Countdown NCT 127 ‘Cherry Bomb’

Unfortunately, this era was the cause of a lot of strife for Arizens; the stylists either hit it out of the park and Aria was drop dead stunning - or she ended up looking a little like a bratz doll a toddler had gotten their hands on. Unfortunately for Aria, their first win with ‘Cherry Bomb’ left pictures of her in a plastic, obviously dyed blue skirt and cherry pink hair to match immortalized on the internet forever. 

tldr; arizens hoped that her stylist got fired after this era. the plastic skirt wasn't the worst thing they'd done.

Other Iconic Outfits

Seating Arrangements

Depending on the venue, idols are normally sat on straight rows of chairs and benches, or at round tables. Given the choice, Aria would always prefer to sit at one of the tables, as not only does it give her a chance to not have to worry about her legs being seen while being covered by the tablecloth - if there is one - but it lets her keep everyone sitting near her in her direct line of vision. 

However, should she have to sit in one of the main rows, she’ll normally end up squished beside one of three boys - Donghyuck, Yuta and/or Renjun. Should one of those three be unaviliable, Doyoung and Jeno are usually quick enough to fill in the empty space. 

Donghyuck would always be her first choice, was it not for the boy’s incessant energy that sometimes left her nerves fried before their performance. Most days she adored the company - adored him and his efforts to get her mind off their impending songs with various games and ways to pass the time (they're not allowed play footsie anymore though, because Aria stomped on his foot with her heel once) - but other days she just needed someone to hold her hand and say nothing. That’s where Yuta and Renjun come in.

As Aria’s found out over the years, for all the man’s tactile affection and loud displays of love, Yuta’s highly perceptive to when she needs some silent comfort. Now, she’s not sure if he’s that perceptive to everyone or just her - but either way she’s not complaining. 

With Dream, Renjun is the one she’ll sit with and doodle on the white napkins that are laid out on the table for lord knows what reason. After being bored out of their minds for their first few award shows, Renjun had snuck two black ballpoint pens into the venue in the inside of his red suit jacket. The drawings had become somewhat a tradition, and the best doodle normally is uploaded to bubble shortly after the show has ended. 

All in all, Aria’s normally quite content to sit in the centre of the large group of boys - split over several rows or tables, boisterous and bubbly with energy. The only real downside to it all is the lack of blankets available to protect her modesty once she is seated. 

Most venues split the idols fairly evenly between the boy and girl groups - with blankets being allocated especially for the seating of girl groups. This meant, unfortunately, that when NCT files into their seats and sits down, there is rarely something in the close vicinity that Aria can borrow quickly without causing a fuss.

Sometimes she gets lucky - other female idols might spot her and are normally kind enough to hand over one of their cushions or blankets, content to share with their neighboring member. Occasionally though, Aria has no such luck and is left to either pull down her dress multiple times per minute to cover the prickly feeling over the tops of her legs when she felt like eyes were boring into her, or wait for some kind of break so she could go find a spare covering.

Aria supposed after the third time something like that had happened, her members were getting fed up with it all. 

At first it was their plan B: should some type of cover-up not be available in their immediate vicinity, Johnny or Lucas or Jaehyun - once, even Dejun - or another member who ran hot near-constantly would shrug off their jacket and fold it over Aria’s legs, pulling it up and then lifting her hands to place them in her lap to hold their jacket there. 

Eventually it became their plan A however, now commonplace for Aria to go looking for the member who was wearing multiple layers and who wouldn’t suffer from the loss of their outermost one.  

Iconic Moments 

Twitter: [180821] and people rly say nct doesn’t care abt aria :/

Red carpets were always something to dread, in Aria’s eyes.

The cameras flashing bright enough to blind you, and the knowledge that if she stumbled or - god forbid - fell it would be immortalized forever on Koreaboo’s newest blog post. 

However the worst bit, was always the footwear. High, stiletto heels that left her teetering around on nothing more than her tippy-toes, precariously balanced as she made her way up and down stairs, over carpet and tiled flooring alike. 

Aria was used to wearing heels, but the one’s she performed in were usually fitted with various types of ankle support and a thick heel to give her balance. Wobbling around on a heel the same width of a piece of uncooked spaghetti was not something she’d willingly choose. 

Not to mention the blisters. 

Designer shoes were gifted to the company on a regular basis - shipped over just in time for Aria to slip into the pair before stepping out of the van into the sea of bright flashes and reporters. It always seemed like designers were too pre-occupied with making a shoe look good rather than making them actually wearable. 

The first time Aria had been gifted a set of heels - early 2018 - she made the mistake of assuming that they would be in similar comfort as her performance heels. 

Two hours later and with a wad of bloody tissue stuffed into the back of them, Aria had learnt her lesson. 

From then on, it was commonplace for Aria to bandage her heels before she went out to shows - not quite as heavily as she normally would for a performance, but just enough to stop the skin splitting under the constant abrasion. 

She’d only been caught out badly once - but it was all caught on camera by a fan sitting close by, and spread over twitter like wildfire. 

Aria had limped her way back over to where NCT 127 was sitting, lips pressed together in a tight line and hands clenched in the tight material of the leather trousers she had been given to wear. The trousers stopped a few inches above her ankles, so the red mess of her heels was clearly visible as she hobbled over and sat down with a thud onto the seat. 

Donghyuck placed a hand on Aria’s shoulder, leaning in so that he could see her face behind the curtain of hair that she had let fall to hide her tear-filled eyes from him. 

“Riri?” Donghyuck whispered to her, thumb beginning to rub soothing circles into her arm. “Hey, Riri? What’s going on?” 

Aria only shook her head, gesturing to the pair of torturous heels on her feet.

Donghyuck inhaled sharply when he saw the blood trailing up her leg and soaking into the back of the heel. He turned to his side to elbow Doyoung, grabbing his attention.

“Hyung. Hyung.” He hissed, Doyoung turning around with an over-exaggerated sigh. 

“No, Hyuck, I told you I’m not going to-” Doyoung cut himself off upon seeing Aria’s pain-filled face. “Aria? What’s wrong? What’s happened?” 

Donghyuck slid off his seat onto the ground despite Aria’s protests that the floor wasn’t clean, get up, and explained what had happened to his hyung. Sliding her heel off as slowly as he could to not pull at the skin more, he muttered apologizes to Aria as she inhaled a shaky breath before exhaling it on a small, wet cry. 

“Hyung, did you bring anything for Taeyong-hyung’s shoulder that we could use?” 

“Yeah, yeah I did give me two seconds.” Doyoung bent into the small bag that he had tucked underneath the seat, pulling out a length of bandage that was stowed away in the outermost pocket. 

Donghyuck took it from Doyoung’s hands with a small ‘thank you’, moving to kneel back down in front of Aria and taking her ankle back into his lap.

“Hyuck, no I got it, c’mon the ground isn’t clean-” 

He silenced her with a look. Aria settled back into her chair - defeated - and Donghyuck wrapped the bandage around her heel as quickly but as painlessly as he could manage. 

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Maybe Aria should have been paying more attention to the camera that was slowly panning around the idols, projecting their faces up onto a large screen beside the stage, but she was too engrossed in the current group’s performance. 

“그렇다고 네 맘이 작다는 게 아냐,” Swaying gently side to side and mouthing along to the lyrics, Aria was happy enough to smile along to the song and move her hands in a small mimickery of the choreography she’d taught herself off the group’s dance practice video she’d watched only a few dozen times. 

It wasn’t until Mark poked her in the side that Aria broke out from her own little bubble, twisting her head to look back at him and then up at the screen when he pointed. 

There, her face, staring back at her from the big screen was enough to make her mouth drop open a little bit and her eyes widen. She clapped a hand to her mouth before turning to hide her face in Jaehyun’s shoulder, shaking with embarassed laughter. 

Aria could hear Taeyong’s teasing laugh in return, before a hand came and ruffled the hair on top of her head, that she swatted away.

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Aria knew she was there.��

She knew that she was sitting right there and that she was in one of those really skimpy dresses stylists loved to put girls in because apparently female idols don’t deserve modesty and Aria knew that she had a blanket for once and she should share it but oh my god.

It was Chungha.

Aria was going to pass out. 

Taking side glances every few seconds only confirmed the fact that Chungha was pulling down her dress to cover as much of her legs as possible, tucking her ankles together and underneath the seat.

Ok.

Ok, she could do this. 

Aria took a steeling breath, before shifting on her seat to face Chungha on more of a diagonal. She lifted her hand before lowering it slighly, looking away. 

Should she- no ok she’s doing this. 

Without giving herself time to talk herself out of it, Aria moved to rest her hand on Chungha’s arm. The older woman jerked slightly - startled - and Aria was quick to apologize. 

There was no audio in the video uploaded - the original poster having been too far away to capture much - but the two women talked for a moment before Chungha pointed to the blanket and then herself.

Aria nodded emphatically, and Chungha’s face crumpled into something fond, bowing her head in thanks before they unfolded the blanket another time and Chungha scooted an inch closer to Aria so they’d both fit. 

Chungha sent Aria another grateful smile before refocusing on the performances - apparently not noticing, or perhaps choosing not to comment on the rather obvious red tinge that the younger idol’s cheeks had taken on.

[vvsminhyung]

𝐍𝐂𝐓 𝐀𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐊𝐀𝐊𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐄 ;

; NCT U. transferee niyong famous agad sa first day.

shotaro. cutie pie. 1/2 soft boi, 1/2 hardcore tiktoker. sa kanyang mo natutunan mag renegade. laging tambay sa sulok ng classroom. yung cellphone nakasandal sa bintana tapos tiktok app open. minsan na siyang na-confiscate dahil kitang-kita sa cctv yung pagsayaw niya. “ba’t sina jeno at jisung hindi nac-confiscate?”

sungchan. junior star ng soccer team with his yuta senpai. ugaling hindi matalino, pero at least madiskarte. “it’s better to cheat than to repeat.” wise words from him. akala mo based from experience. supposed to be nice boy, pero hindi mo na alam ngayon. napabarkada bigla kay chenle e’. masamang impluwensiya ‘yon.

; NCT 127. seniors w/ bad bitch energy.

taeil. kaklase mong late pa rin kahit malapit lang bahay. suki sa guidance office. got his tardiness slip. chill lang sa klase kahit bungi-bungi na yung card. “peram ballpen.” tapos mamaya, wala na. hindi uso review dito. stock knowledge lang, sapat na.

johnny. 1/3 of the foreign swaggers squad. fashion icon. puro pa-pogi, wala naman binatbat sa recitation. “your style is so baduy.” he says while giving you his judgy eyes. madami nagpapa-picture dito. famous sa instagram, over 1k followers. medyo snob, pero keri naman.

taeyong. doesn’t have the bad bitch energy, but friends with a lot of them. class president. yung mga kaibigan niya, sipsip sa kanya. always with him to make sure hindi nakalista sa noisy. “guys, respeto naman.” ang lagi niyang sinasabi tuwing nagw-walk out yung teacher niyo.

yuta. laging wala dahil sa kanyang division meet. star player niyo sa soccer team. senior yuta, with his junior sungchan. minsan lang dumalo ng klase, pero mataas pa rin ang score. “baka yuta ‘to.” mayabang. tapos laging may dalang soccer ball sa room. minsan na rin siyang nakabasag ng bintana, pero hindi naman pwedeng makick-out at star player nga.

doyoung. literal na bad bitch. attitude. maldita. dinaig ka pa sa katarayan. always with his circle, kahit pagwatak-watakin mo pa yung upuan nila. “penge pulbo.” halos isaksak mo sa baga niya yung johnson’s baby powder mo. manghihingi na nga lang ng pulbo, iirapan ka pa. tama ba ‘yon? 

jaehyun. 2/3 of the foreign swaggers squad. competitive man sa physical education. tamang kalmado lang habang nagkakagulo ang mga kaklase niya. unbothered king. always flexes his new shoes. “it’s the latest air jordan.” hindi nasunod sa uniform regulations. may sariling pormahan.

jungwoo. funny guy. “feeling ko napapanot na sa atin si ser.” minsan sabog, kadalasan wala lang sa wisyo. ginagaya yung accent ng teacher mo. research sa isang window, y8 sa kabilang window. tropa sila ni alt+tab tuwing nasa library kayo. the type of person kapag may nahuling kababalaghan, “uy, ano yan. pornhub?”

; NCT DREAM. boys at the back type of classmate.

mark. 3/3 of foreign swaggers squad. local boy. “support local mga pare.” laging may dalang gitara, tapos jamming sila ng barkada nila sa likod tuwing free time. skusta clee ang kantahan nan. siya ang gitarista, samatalang taga-kanta naman si haechan. yung infamous intro ng mundo by IVOS ang lagi nilang pinapatugtog. 

renjun. isa sa mga matitino, pero kasama sa mga boys at the back. “renjun, pakopya.” ang kadalasan niyang naririnig, pero syempre hindi 'yan napayag. madamot ‘yan magbigay ng sagot e’. leader niyo na laging taga-buhat sa project. kapag may assignment, gawa na agad sa oras ng vacant. 

jeno. cod at ml boi. kaya nasa likod ng klase ‘yan, kasi laging nagc-cellphone. “hoy, yung mid natin putang ina.” mapapamura na lang minsan sa kabobohan ni jisung. matapang ‘yan, hindi tago ang cellphone sa bag. he’s actually an honor student, gamer lang talaga.

haechan. pabibo. dakilang buraot. laging nalapit sa’yo para humingi ng five pesos. “pengeng five.” pangbayad niya daw kasi sa class fund. tambay rin ‘yan sa likuran, taga-bato ng crumpled paper tuwing klase niyo. slight bully. tinataguan ka ng gamit minsan. ibabalik niya lang kapag nakita ka nang pa-iyak. “iyak ka na nan?”

jaemin. that one quiet kid at the back. gwapo ‘yan, escort ng klase. minsan mo ng nakalandian, pero hanggang doon lang. madaming girls ang naghahabol. minsan maharot, kadalasan bobo. airhead. lutang. nalipad ang utak tuwing klase. minsan na siyang nakantahan ni mark ng momay. “lumilipad na naman ang isip mo.”

chenle. rich kid. maingay, walang preno bunganga. “tangina niyo, nandito na si ma’am.” taga-announce ni taeyong ng walang pasok. medyo topakin, pero nanlilibre. future abm student, magaling sa negosyo. may sariling thrift shop account sa instagram, suki ay sina johnny at jaehyun. siya din ang galante na nanlilibre ng cake tuwing teacher’s day. “suhol po ‘to ma’am, baka naman.”

jisung. laging si papel. “penge one whole.” “penge 1/4.” “may 1/2 ka?” “y/n, index card daw.” oo na, source ka nan. katabi mo kasi, kaya lagi kang nakikita na kumuha ng papel sa bag. in exchange, hinahatian ka naman niya ng pagkain tuwing klase. “oh, piattos.” 

; WAYV. seniors na isip-bata.

kun. secretary niyong napaka-organize. cleaners almost everyday kasama si taeyong dahil hindi naman naglilinis yung iba. “di ka titigil?” badtrip kay chenle dahil ginagawang basketball-an yung basurahan. “for three!” chenle shoot a crumpled paper na tumama sa ulo ni kun. “tangina mong bata ka.”

ten. bffs with johnny. artistic. matalino. pala-sagot sa recit. siya yung tipong tambay sa kabilang classroom habang nakikipaglandian tuwing vacant. nagc-cellphone sa klase. patago syempre. laging naka-open instagram. “oh, sinong may gusto ng saging?” ibibigay sa’yo kapag may libre siya mula sa canteen.

winwin. kaklase mong either tulog or tambay sa chalkboard. “si winwin, nagddrawing ng dick oh!” “tanga ka, rabbit ‘yan.” aksaya sa chalk. minsan pang-drawing, kadalasan pamato sa ulo ng mga kaklase. pinapagpag lagi kung saan-saan yung eraser. siya ang dahilan kung bakit laging magabok ang classroom niyo. hindi naman naglilinis. “bakit ganan ka magdrawing ng rabbit, hyung?”

lucas. kaklase mong tambay sa pintuan. watchout niyo. laging may inaabangan sa corridor. “bukas ang canteen?” abangers kung may meeting ang mga teachers. “taeyong, cr lang ako.” pero ang totoo, nasa canteen na siya at doon na naghahasik ng kanyang pagka-patay gutom.

xiaojun. class treasurer niyo. “hoy mga puta, bayad-bayad ng class fund.” kahit siya mismo, hindi pa nagbabayad. laging naiiwan tuwing clearance dahil hindi pipirmahan yung kanya hangga’t hindi pa bayad ang buong klase. “tang ina mo lucas, utang mo mula june pa.” 

hendery. kaklase mong mala-supervisor ang asta. laging nakatayo, hindi makapirmi. akala mo proctor. tuwing seatwork siya madalas naggala-gala sa room, tamang observe lang sa mga sagot ng kanyang kaklase. “paano mo ginawa ‘to?” pero ang totoo, hindi naman talaga siya nakikinig sa explanation mo. pangdistract lang kumbaga.

yangyang. expert sa pagddoktor ng pirma tuwing clearance. “ser, anong hindi kumpleto? eto oh’ may pirma na kayo.” nakakatakot ‘yan pag lumalapit. akala mo laging may masabang balak dahil sa kanyang gilagid. “’ge lang, y/n. tulog ka lang, akong bahala sa’yo.” never trust his words. paggising mo, makikita mo na lang na nakatali yung bag mo sa bag ni jisung. “punyeta ka, yangyang.”

[yourkimjaejin]

Beyond Live - NCT: Resonace [Global Wave]

This post has been a long time coming but so much happened during this concert!

Sometimes I can’t believe I began to stan NCT just this year when it feels like five years already. I just wanna take the chance to thank the boys for their hard work during the holiday. For me, NCT really brightened up my holiday season so thank you

Now that the sappy stuff is over, Enjoy the post AGzen’s ~ Love, Author Izzy

First off let me say, Moxy and Juno were almost about to box SM’s management for their setlist. SM’s original list for AG had SLAP, WTTJ and Breakout. Moxy and Juno were not having it!!

“I thought we promised fans never before seen stages!! We want to perform more of the B-Sides fans never got to see. Unless you’re suddenly gonna announce that AG will be holding a Beyond Live, We’re gonna need this setlist to change, NOW!” ~ Juno

So the compromise the company came up with was this, Two b-sides chosen by fans and one title track that they girls decide on. 

NCT AG’s twitter put up a post asking AGzen’s for their favorite AG b-sides. From that, AG’s twitter put up another tweet. This time it was a poll. The top four AG b-sides were listed. The two songs with the highest votes would be the songs the girls would perform. 

The fans chose and the songs were Circle Game and Give It Up

The general consensus on why the fans chose those songs was they wanted to see the girls flex their vocal talents. AGzens knew that the had dance and rap in the bag. AG’s b-sides truly revealed how much vocal talent lies in AG 

AG, themselves, decided to perform Breakout as their title track song. The girls adore the song and figured it had been awhile since they last performed it

I’ll reveal more about the new performances when we get to their placement in the show itself but for now, let’s move ahead to showday!! ~ Author Izzy

When Taeyong and SM finally announced that he would take a break to heal, SM let Taeyong pick who would fill in for his parts at the Beyond Live

Moxy arrived with the rest of AG and Jisung. On the way there, Moxy got a text from Shotaro while they were on the way to the venue

Noona, when you get here, You need to check in with Channie....I think he’s freaking out a little...

As soon as they parked, Moxy ran inside to find Doyoung pointing her to an empty dressing room. Sungchan was walking in circles, frown lines looking permanently etched on his face

SC - I don’t think I can do this noona. I can’t take Taeyong’s place. What if the fans hate me for this!

M - *Pulls Sungchan down to sit next to her* Channie....You are not taking Taeyong’s place. You’re covering for him so he can finally get some rest and the fans know that. They are gonna be so proud you because I already am *Kisses his cheek*. And so is Taeyong. You are gonna do great, Channie!!!

Moxy hugs him tight causes a smile to bloom on his face

M - Now lets get in one more practice in before the pre-record. I wanna make sure that second verse is flawless ok?

SC - Ok, Noona.

Moxy watched Sungchan run over Boss choreo with Mark and Juno one last time. Sungchan visibly relaxing and finally starting to have fun. Juno kept an eye on her dongsaeng during the recording

AG had a run through of one of their performances after The Boss unit+ Sungchan finished their pre-record

All of the girls had sparkles in their hair and graphic eyeliner around their eyes for makeup. 

For the 90′s love performance, Hannah was once again rocking her ICONIC black outfit. This time her hair was in a ponytail, certain strands with crimped for volume. AGzens posted a ton of pictures of Hannah’s abs

“How did we not notice Hannah’s abs before!!!”

Aurora was looking every bit of the queen she is during the Work It performance. Her costume was a new short two piece dress with lace on the skirt. Aurora’s hair was down and curled on the ends. 

Aurora rocked her lines as usual. She got real sassy when her rap line came up. 

“Sass master Aurora reporting for duty!!”

During the first mnet, Haechan pointed out that technically this is AG’s first concert and asked Hannah and Aurora how they felt

H: I think we put a a lot of pressure on ourselves to put our best foot forward since this is the first time czennies will see us in a concert setting. 

A: Yeah, I while this is cool we really hope things will open up soon so we can have our own concert

The rest of the members began ‘ooo’ing at Aurora’s comment

Next Stage: Nectar

Hannah was the definition of do it like a dude in this performance. All of her fans were drooling over her.

The next stage was Give It Up by AG. The song has been rearranged to include Hannah. Hannah did a quick change into her costume while Juno, Moxy and Aurora started the stage

They actually performed from the backstage area to the main stage. By the time that got close to the stage doors, Hannah was finished changing. Hannah entered just as her part started. The girls were all wearing skinny jeans, cropped basketball jerseys with black t-shirts underneath and platform vans.

LORD HAVE MERCY!!! DID THESE GIRLS SING THEIR BUTTS OFF!!

MTM (Musical Theater Moxy) came out to play with her best friend Queen Juno. These two vocals were on another level. 

And don’t sleep on Aurora and Hannah, they held their parts down!

The members of AG were strutting like they were filming their own version of Strut by the Cheetah Girls.

And at the end they nailed their final note, harmonies on point and no loss of breath

“Ok I knew AG had pipes....but DAMN THEY HAVE PIPES!!!!”

“Why is literally everyone a main vocal in AG. It’s truly unfair...”

Once the girls finished, Aurora took off her basketball jersey and handed off to Juno. The three older AG members walked off the stage, leaving Aurora. The Dream members joined her. Jaemin handed off her leather jacket to put on for the Ridin’ performance

Next we have the Make A Wish performance........................WITH MOXY COVERING TAEYONG’S PART!!!!

Taeyong had picked her to cover his parts. SM wanted one of the guys members to do it but Taeyong stopped them

Taeyong: Moxy’s got this! Trust me. (And got this she did)

Moxy’s swag level on stage is normally around a 8 or 9. For this MAW performance she somehow turned it up to 15. Moxy went into this performance wanting to make Taeyong proud but also show him that he had nothing to worry about. That the 22 members of NCT could manage with out him

Moxy literally runs off stage to get ready for the All About You performance. Jaehyun tells the fans that Moxy isn’t doing this Mnet because she is getting ready for the next performance

During the All About You performance, If you were watching Mark or Moxy’s face cam, you would have seen the two of them upstairs on the bed messing with each other (That sentence sounds bad doesn’t it??? I promise it was clean fun ok?). 

At one point, Moxy was kneeling behind a seated mark, dancing and hold her camera out in front of them

After All About You, Moxy runs backstage again to change into her dress for Circle Game

After the Without You performance, Juno walked on the stage behind them towards the door Jaehyun used. When Juno appeared on the other side of the door, AG’s performance of Circle Game started. 

The home stage was lit with somber lighting, The girl were all wearing white dresses and were standing on the bottom level of the set, each in front of a microphone. 

The loud, boisterous voice from their last performance were replaced with soft and somber tones. The melodies and harmonies were beautiful. After the first chorus, the girls move the microphone stands out of the way

Once they get to the bridge the girls do some small choreography that they made up themselves an hour before the show started. 

When the girls finished Circle Game, Juno left through the door again to join Taeil, Renjun and Xiaojun for My Everything. 

After Dream performed Go and Deja Vu. You could see how happy Aurora was to perform with all the members of Dream. She even missed Mark messing with her hair and calling her mean mug. 

From there, AG performed Breakout. The stylists for this concert had to carefully plan the girls costumes. The stylist left the prison costumes a went with a more simple costume. Choosing clothes that still Incorporated the bright orange jumpsuits

Moxy’s costume was particularly soft because after Breakout was a performance of Touch for 127. Fans rejoice at the chance to see soft Moxy on stage again. Next is Hannah in her all denim outfit for Bad Alive. 

Lastly, 127 did a performance of Kick It where Moxy covered Taeyong verse two rap

During the fourth mnet, Aurora almost cried like Sungchan when she got her chance to talk to the fans. 

Aurora: AG has been a group for two years and we haven’t been able to tour or do a concert yet. So to be here, performing for the fan’s in front of us and across the world, words can’t describe to feeling. My mom.......S-she took time off of work.....*she sniffles, Hannah and Mark put an arm around her* to see me and my sisters perform live. Eomma, I hope I made you proud tonight. I love you and I’ll see you soon.

Juno joining in on the clownery of Mark’s beginning line from Resonance

Moxy, once again covered Taeyong’s part during the Maw section of Resonance. 

During the surprise live with the maknae line, Haechan was making fun of Moxy literally running around backstage to change costumes. Moxy made to attack him but Haechan ran off

AG revealing that their favorite stage tonight was Nectar!!(I mean whose favorite stage wasn’t Nectar.)

Juno, Moxy and Hannah all saying hello to Aurora’s mom during the surprise live. 

[unmanageable-day]

By your side | 02

previously ➺ 01

Jung Jaehyun received a lot of love-life advises from his friends. They would always stress that with an award-winning face like his, he shouldn't be shy around girls. They would encourage him to go for it. But his nervousness would always win over his confidence. There would be too much 'uhh' and 'uhm' whenever he tried to talk to his crush.

One of the (mostly crazy) advises he remembered the most was from Minhyuk and Naeun, his colleagues whom he only knew for short time but he felt the click with them in no time, and apparently the ones who still maintained their sanity. They would say being friends would be a good start, until he could sense it whether the girl is comfortable with him or not. Apparently, with their hawk eyes, Jaehyun couldn't escape from the fact that they knew how he got the fat crush on Song Yeoreum for a quite long time.

"Dude, really, you should talk to her," Minhyuk tirelessly encouraged him. It was only less than a year they knew each other, and Minhyuk never supported his other friends like he did for Jaehyun. The fact that Jaehyun had been keeping himself invisible from the crush also played a big part why he wanted to help him.

"Or maybe you could ask Doyoung first whether she's seeing anybody right now," Naeun added, then she got glared by the boys with big question mark in their eyes. "I'm talking about that giant guy. Johnny Seo."

Jaehyun made a duck face with his mouth. "But they don't look like they're dating."

Minhyuk nodded in agreement.

"Jaehyun, you've said that more than your iconic line about living in America for 4 years," Naeun snapped. "If you want to say 'that's why I'm here', it should be after you make a move on her."

It was true that Jaehyun had been observing you, Song Yeoreum, ever since he couldn't remember. Even before you crashed the boys night out by sabotaging Jungkook, Jaehyun was already aware of your presence. He would catch you walking around with that big, tall guy. Or sometimes he would see you talking with Doyoung. And the other times you would be seen with Kang Seungyoon, Kim Yeri and Park Sooyoung. Although he wanted to deny it, it was another fact that you were mostly seen with Johnny Seo.

That was particularly why he wouldn't make a move. He was hesitant approaching you would result in nothing but a drama, either between you and the gigantic man, or between you and Jaehyun himself. But he couldn't help but always keeping his eyes on you whenever he can see you, even from a far.

Jaehyun went to cafetaria all by himself, and there he bumped into Doyoung. Being a nice big brother as he was, Doyoung accompanied Jaehyun having his late lunch. Universe actually gave him a chance to get closer to Doyoung to ask about Ms. Summer, which he should embrace this opportunity.

Except Jaehyun sometimes was too focused looking at somewhere else, forgetting the food in front of him.

"Aren't you going to eat?" Doyoung's question was effective to bring Jaehyun back to life.

"Oh, yeah." He made a clinking sound with the spoon and chopsticks due to nervousness. Doyoung lightly chuckled at him. "There is something—not very important—I wanted to ask you," Jaehyun slowly spoke.

"Yeah?" Doyoung sipped his coffee, waiting for the question.

"Are they still ...steady?" He wasn't sure if steady is a right word to start with. He didn't even know for sure whether you were in an official relationship with that guy.

"They? They who?" Doyoung asked.

"Them." Jaehyun locked his eyes on this one direction where you were with your close friends, standing next to a very tall guy in a suite. To Jaehyun, you didn't look like you were with that guy. It didn't look like you have that kind of chemistry with him. It looked like you were just being physically present there, without any interest to the big guy. The little interaction with him didn't look like it had any serious meaning. You and him were more like acquaintances now.

"Ah, Johnny and Summer," Doyoung responded to Jaehyun's sight. "I guess summer has turned into winter."

"Oh, I see.." He took it as a clear hint that you were no longer together.

"You know Johnny and Summer?" asked Doyoung suddenly.

"I've worked with Johnny for a radio program. As for Yeoreum, I think my friend Jungkook brought her once when it was supposed to be a boys night out. In the end Jungkook had to take her home and our night got cancelled." Jaehyun couldn't stop himself from smiling when he was reminded the first time he met you. "I didn't know they were a thing. I mean I saw them together once or twice, but they didn't look like they were dating or something like that."

"Ah, you're right." He chuckled. "Yeoreum never stated nor showed their dating issue publicly. On the contrary, Johnny was kind of into PDA and he would always try to show the world they were together. It was funny how they got together despite they were not that compatible."

Jaehyun didn't respond. Doyoung caught him looking at you again. "Are you perhaps interested in Yeoreum?" Doyoung grinned.

Jaehyun's fair skin slowly become reddish as he digested Doyoung's question. "No, I.. it's not.." he stuttered.

Doyoung giggled, feeling satisfied that Jaehyun was so easy to tease. "You are so obvious. I can tell from the way you look at her."

"I'm not..." He still stuttered. "This is how I look at anybody else.," he tried to defend himself while his ears were all red.

"Anyway what I'm trying to say is, it's okay. But take it slow. They broke up not long time ago."

Jaehyun silently continued finishing his meals, with a delighted yet sheepish grin that emphasized his dimples. —※ Despite the smooth break-up you had, you and Johnny still hung out together pretty often. Not the two of you only, obviously. All in all, it was because you and him shared pretty much the same circle of friends. In addition, one day after Wendy's farewell party, he gathered all his courage to go to you.

'Can we still be friends? Is that okay with you?' You smiled. 'Friends are better than being enemies, right?' 'Really? I mean, I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable.' 'Things will become more uncomfortable if you and me avoid each other. Your friends are my friends too. They can't split up themselves for both of us.' Johnny wore his brightest smile, feeling relieved.

It was true, your relationship didn't start from being friends. You barely knew each other before. You were friends with Yeri, Sooyoung, Seulgi, and acquaintance with Ten, Mark and Doyoung. You would say Mark and Yeri were the cupid, and thanks to them, your circle became bigger as you got closer with the other guys.

Many would say that you and Johnny were still often sighted being together. This was the main reason why people (including Jaehyun and Naeun) still wondered whether you were going solo or not. It was all because they ignored that you were also with the other guys. It was just Johnny kept standing or sitting next to you.

It wasn't that you were uncomfortable having him beside you, since you were friends now. But still, you couldn't shake off the weird feelings lingered there. You remembered saying it was nice to be by his side. But now everything felt different. Everything was different.

As for Johnny, frankly speaking, it had been bothering him about you saying you liked being by his side and you can't be there anymore. He wouldn’t deny that he had been regretting his own action breaking up with you. But he wasn’t sure of himself whether to bring your relationship back to life. But still... what if he tried to secure that place by his side for you only? It shouldn't matter although your label now was his friend, should it?

[redlightreflux-blog]

Resistance/protest imagery in NCT’s Limitless MV: graffiti, Muhammad Ali, surveillance, arrest, complicity [analysis pt 1]

Man, so I’ve long thought the Rough version gets misunderstood as a faux-street, too-ugly-to-watch piece of low-res crap without either meaning or storyline. but I believe the MV and lyrics are full of nods to revolution, protest, and “fighting the unjust status quo” – let’s get started.

1. street graffiti as protest speech

What does protest look like? The “civil,” squeaky-clean-legal type can be voting in elections, donating to political parties, and in some countries and U.S. states, mass-assembling in public for “peaceful” demonstrations. Except sometimes people feel disenfranchised by all institutional modes of political participation. Resistance can also be illegal: violence, riots, obstructing traffic, trespassing on private property...and vandalism.

The MV begins with a blurry close-up horizontal pan across a wall of graffiti, and the boys are shown with aerosol spray cans again and again until the end – shaking them, painting with them, chilling with them in the background.

Right away, we’re faced with the puzzle of whether NCT are swaggering revolutionaries...or just angsty, privileged youths defacing public space to “rebel” against their "boring” lives. On one hand, it’s implied by the shabby warehouse littered with cheap goods – pizza boxes, a jumbo cheetos jar, posters taped over un-wallpapered walls- that they’re poor, maybe college students. Yet we see expensive luxury goods that look completely out of place: a glittering chandelier, iMacs, Sony camcorders, guitars, pro lighting kits, Doyoung’s audio mixing panel, the iPhones that they get caught on.

Are NCT 127 a gang that splurges on luxuries? Privileged college students who transplanted dorm items into an abandoned warehouse to film, edit, and produce an indie film? Or maybe they’re a resistance movement using graffiti “writing” as the only alternative media in a censored press, as El Salvador’s FMLN guerilla rebels used graffiti for recruitment, criticism of regime violence against protesters, and commemoration of their fallen from the 70s through the 90s against their brutal (US-backed) right-wing government?

I found NCT’s recurring use of camcorders to be strongly in favor of the (I think) intriguing resistance movement theory...but we’ll get to that later.

Graffiti can be a tool to alleviate boredom or gain fame (or a design career lmao), it can "beautify” urban spaces, and it can serve as gangs’ territory markers. But political graffiti is often the voice of the oppressed in cities where systemic poverty, economic and racial segregation, unemployment, crime, and police brutality ravage communities. In 1989, New York City and Los Angeles each spent over $50 million on graffiti cleanup, and other countries like Peru, Argentina, and Spain are also covered in graffiti that reflect the civil unrest among marginalized indigenous, labor, and student groups.

So is NCT hijacking or co-opting the protest speech of the oppressed? Or are they representing the resistance against injustice in the Limitless MV? I believe they’re consciously paying homage to revolutionaries and activists, as I’ll try to show below, despite the cocky Supreme outfits and sleek, pricey consumer tech.

2. homage to Muhammad Ali: the Greatest (1942-2016)

Who’s that on Mark’s shirt? Called “the Greatest,” the legendary Muhammad Ali was ranked the greatest heavyweight boxer of all time by Ring Magazine and The Associated Press, and the greatest athlete of the 20th century by Sports Illustrated. Ali won gold at the 1960 Olympics at age 18, and is still the world’s only three-time lineal heavyweight champion. He was also a civil rights activist, anti-Vietnam War protester, and a prolific philanthropist.

Muhammad Ali is famous for his 1966 refusal to fight in the then-popular Vietnam War, which he was arrested, stripped of his boxing titles, and charged with draft evasion for – the Supreme Court overturned his conviction in 1971, even though my President hilariously offered to pardon him just days ago. Ali publicly stated:

Today, Ali has a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame, two Academy Award-winning films based on his achievements, and has graced Time Magazine 5x, and Sports Illustrated 37 times. But his activism antagonized wealthy white America long before he became the mainstream icon that he is today.

Muhammad Ali’s protest to a then-popular war cost him 4 of his prime years as an athlete and landed him in jail, so it’s maybe not surprising to learn that the NSA’s “Minaret” program and FBI’s COINTELPRO operations had been illegally spying on him for years. In 1971, an (also illegal lmao) civilian raid on a Pennsylvania FBI office exposed over 1000 FBI records of surveillance, disinformation, and infiltration plans against civil rights and anti-war activists, and most damningly, of their 1969 assassination of 21-year-old Illinois Black Panthers chairman Fred Hampton in our boy Johnny’s hometown, Chicago.

I mention Fred Hampton and the FBI’s COINTELPRO (COunter INTELligence PROgram) because the whole Limitless MV is steeped in this...unsettling, sinister, you’re-under-surveillance discomfort that many civil rights activists felt in their resistance activities through at least the 50s and 60s. In many shots, NCT look like deer frozen in the headlights, caught off guard by the camera.

3. surveillance of activists & revolutionaries

Besides the general feeling of paranoia about being watched, there’s also shots that look straight-up taken without NCT’s consent or knowledge, as if by a secret camera, spy drone, or informant.

Which leads to the question: if NCT are just poseur revolutionaries partying with camcorders and Supreme streetwear in a warehouse, what are they so terrified of? Why do the members look scared out of their minds, as if for their lives? What danger are they constantly on the lookout for? what are they trying to hide?

I actually think this is the most important pattern to catch from the Limitless MV, even more important than the recurring imagery of resistance and protest that I’ve been writing a whole long-ass post about. If NCT fans remember nothing else about this MV, I hope they’ll remember the members’ reactions of fear, defensiveness, and hostility upon suddenly sensing the camera’s presence in each scene. Limitless is an MV with lots of “swagger” and lots of moments where NCT smiles knowingly for the camera, but there’s also these moments where they’re freaked out by the sudden presence of the camera.

Even if you don’t buy the “revolutionaries” theory, it’s still clear that there’s something profoundly, deeply wrong and disturbing going on in much of the VHS camcorder clips.

4. civil disobedience & riots –> arrests

Alright, so I’ve always thought the YouTube thumbnail for the Rough version looked like Taeil, Jaehyun, Doyoung, and Johnny getting arrested or “frisked” by police, and not just showing off their sculpted side profiles lmao. The image of an apprehended person being told to “put your hands up!” or “get on the ground!” or “put your hands up against the wall!” is burned into public consciousness.

Police want to check that the person is unarmed, or unable to reach for a weapon, hence the order to keep palms spread in plain sight.

As you can guess, unpopular peaceful protests are often labeled “riots” and result in arrests, like in the Sir William George “riot” of 1969 in our boy Mark’s own Canada, even if participants only started throwing objects to prevent their forcible removal by armed police upon their arrival.

Several other scenes also struck me as drawing heavily from the imagery of arrested protesters: while I can’t catch the hangul in the background signs (can you?), I get the vibes of police photo lineups and “mugshots” from this shot:

At least, I get that vibe from Doyoung and Taeil on the right. It’s made more discomforting because why the hell is Jaehyun upside down? he looks like he’s being...tortured? and why is Johnny holding him in that position? The boys look like they’re aware they’re being photographed, then catalogued.

In the final few shots, NCT are shown huddled together in poor lighting and throwing sparkler fireworks in arcs that remind me of “armed” protesters throwing rocks, bottles, gas canisters, or molotov cocktails at riot police.

The pose struck by someone throwing a long-range projectile looks the same no matter what the protest is against: a right-wing government, settler colonialism, locally harmful infrastructure like pipelines or military bases, strike-breaking, austerity, police violence, martial law, a verdict, state corruption, high-profile arrests and convictions, food shortages and unemployment under a left-wing government, an inauguration, etc. Anonymous graffiti artist Banksy even produced this meme-famous piece riffing on this iconic pose:

The images above are from Gaza, the Stonewall Inn in New York City, Paris, and Athens – and there’s plenty more to show from Baltimore, Standing Rock Indian Reservation, and outside of the U.S. too. But back to the act of NCT throwing ~lit~ fireworks into the air: how do we know if they’re punks who are celebrating or protesters who are rioting?

Since there’s never anyone else shown in the MV except NCT, we can’t tell for sure. But I’m inclined to take the maybe-protesting shots along with the maybe-arrested scene and the maybe-police-photo-lineup scene as belonging to one theme that also explains the graffiti, Muhammad Ali / boxing references, and the pervasive fear of being watched: the theme of resistance.

Also, intriguingly, remember how it was Taeil, Johnny, Doyoung, and Jaehyun who were maybe-arrested and maybe-photographed in a police lineup? Earlier, these guys jostle each others’ shoes in a circle, as if sealing a mutual pact with a secret handshake. Later, the same four are shown arrested.

By the way, there’s a couple of secret handshakes in this MV: gang signs? college boys antics? the identification codes of a legit resistance movement? no one knows.

If we believe Limitless to be the (sketchily told) story of NCT’s resistance, we might speculate that TI, JN, DY, and JH took mutually agreed-upon actions that resulted in their arrest and detention. Still, all of NCT lights their sparklers together, and all of NCT throws them into the air. What do you think?

It also makes you curious: what could they have done? Staged a sit-in? a walkout? a strike? a march? a riot? sprayed graffiti and got caught? or maybe, as I’ll half-seriously propose in Pt 2, they organized a forbidden film screening?

4. 🙈🙉🙊 & “monkey see, monkey do”

There’s a couple of old sayings about monkeys, human behavior, and morality. In the above shot, Yuta records as Mark arranges his body into the gold gorilla statue’s crouching position, and we’re shown this footage in the next scene.

That gold gorilla statue...can actually connect us to more meaningful interpretations of the MV. We see Mark bizarrely, weirdly, almost disturbingly, mimicking the position of the primate with great sensitivity to detail – why is it so unsettling? For me, it’s because he looks almost brainwashed or exploited while doing it. Mark is meticulously copying the example of an inanimate object, and he doesn’t laugh or show signs of having fun either. In fact, he looks almost anxious about messing up.

Later on, we see a highly symbolic shot of all nine boys placing their hands over their eyes, covering their sight as if to say, “see no evil.”

There’s no practical reason for all of NCT to cover their eyes indoors, so it’s not literal, it’s a metaphor. In Western culture, the act of deliberately impairing one’s sight evokes the idiom “to turn a blind eye.” That is, when a person knows evil is happening but doesn’t want to fix it, they can pretend the evil doesn’t exist by covering their eyes so they “see no evil.”

By the way, Kim Namjoon recently shared in a Billboard interview that BTS’s Fake Love choreo references the old “three wise monkeys” saying: see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil.

Here, Winwin covers Taeyong’s mouth while they both steadily meet the camera’s gaze. Their stillness and the camera’s smooth zoom in HD, in such contrast from previous low-res scenes that had almost spastically shaky camera motion, emphasizes this setup as another metaphor, instead of a literal action taken by characters within the story of Limitless.

NCT is trying to send us a message in this scene, it seems: that leader Taeyong, and thus maybe all of them, are being silenced for whatever reason and can’t speak the truth. They can look us dead in the eye, but there’s certain things they can’t say out loud –maybe because of the offscreen danger that keeps them living in fear.

I’ll add that I believe the “see no evil” part is meant to evoke the unsettling idea that people, especially youth, are ignoring the present-day evil or injustice in their own countries – the complicity of their willful blindness. The recurring lyrics “wake me u-up” and “open your eyes”( 눈을 떠 봐 오) in the chorus reinforce this association. Back to Mark mimicking the gold gorilla, the old pidgin saying “monkey see, monkey do” refers to the act of learning or mimicry without either knowledge or concern for the consequences.

Is this a critique of youth uncritically adopting the beliefs of their parents and mainstream society without thinking about the systemic injustices they condone and perpetuate? I think the answer depends on the viewer’s interest in politics and comfort with interpreting works that haven’t been explicitly explained by a creator lmao.

conclusion & lyrics.

I think I’ll stop Part 1 here lolol, since there’s still so, so much left. The plan is for Part 2 to introduce the origins of Third World Cinema and the Korean Independent Filmmakers Association (KIFA) as possible influences but, most definitely, amplifiers for the images of resistance used in the MV. Part 2 will address the...uh, limitless cinematic storytelling styles used in the Rough version, and the effects of editing them together into one MV to tell one story.

I also super-duper recommend @seasquared​‘s “Direct Address” essay for a more complete idea of the viewer’s gaze as intruder into NCT’s world – though I sort of interpret the boys’ unpreparedness for the camera’s presence as more of a metaphor for resistance movements’ existential paranoia at being “caught” by the establishment than as a critique of fans’ objectification of idols:

Oh baby it’s you It’s only the beginning, the limitless me || 이제 시작이야 무한의 나 From the start of the East to the end of the West || 동의 처음과 서의 끝 쪽부터 The light gets stronger || 빛은 암흑 속 퍼질 As it spreads through the darkness || 수록 강해져 가 Open your eyes || 눈을 떠 봐 오 My song is getting louder || 점점 커져가 나의 노래가 Did you see? That hot and explosive world? || 봤니 뜨겁고 터질듯한 ���계 Can you hear? We have become one || 들리니 우리는 하나가 돼 Baby I don’t want nobody but you

[trans from colorcodedlyrics.com]

If we choose to interpret “the light” as a revolutionary movement, which my eagerly politics-following ass thinks is a meaningful exercise, the lyrics and MV might suddenly start to paint a story of NCT as underground revolutionaries who meet and fall in love with a new friend, eventually begging the friend to join them in the resistance.

I absolutely love it – Limitless then simultaneously becomes a greasy recruitment message (”baby I don’t want nobody but you 😘”) and a desperate plea for a fellow citizen to join the cause against oppression. (”open your eyes”) But it’s also a passionate love song, and I’m a total hoe for the scorchingly intimate hunger the lyrics convey. The obvious “thirsty, thirsty, f-or love” bit aside, the speaker in the lyrics is urgently seeking intimacy: both a personal connection, and a sense of belonging within something greater than himself.

I need a connection, I want it like crazy I need you I need something to make us feel each other completely I need you

Help me so I can do well Sometimes, I get lost Eventually, we are all connected You know this Like finding a big ocean At the end of a desert Your existence is limitless

Change the heavy world Look how free we are, so free Inside, only you are allowed The one to take my heart, that is you

I think it’s interesting to ask: is Limitless more of a love song that borrows its ferocity from the metaphor of revolution, or a revolutionary manifesto that amplifies its fervor with the universal passion and frustration of youth?

I think it’s similar to asking if the MV is more of an “aesthetics” moodfilm that boosts its own glamor by appropriating the imagery of resistance movements (graffiti writers), activists (Muhammad Ali), and hardships (arrest)...or if the MV is itself a story of resistance against oppression, and only dons the gloss of expensive streetwear to add a spirit of youthful cockiness and anti-establishment swagger to the cause.

But in reality, aren’t things more complex than that? The spirit of any revolution and the passions and frustrations of its youth have always fed and strengthened each other, I think. It feels only honest and hard-hitting that a song about youth-led revolution would also be a hungry, impatient love song.

I hope you enjoyed reading this – I’ll die of joy if you decide you want to comment, discuss, message, or interact with me or other fans in whatever way about any of this!

~ masterlist link ~

[haechanfairie]

things i noticed in 'touch'

pink!!

are those lesbian flag colors???

they got a rope

we back at it again with the ‘nananananana’s

mark looks preppy as heck yes

they all look like they took a day off from going to the country club to bust a move

tug of war is fun

okay taeyong in the all white

i think i have that same exact outfit in pink bsjsskfb

u know,,, as much as i love taeyong’s singing voic will they throw my boys winwin and johnny and yuta a bone please

don't smile like that pls and thank

i like his earrings

what do u want from me?? a fight?? a hug??? i can give both

jaehyun in the blue

i love his chair where can i get one

that room looks really nice

sjdjdksjfj his smile is sweet :(((

e y e s

cool blue sunglasses!!

pouty lips?? pouty lips

y u t a got lines?? my guy?? out here singing more than the chorus or breathing in the bridge?? in front of my salad???

i love his color scheme (i had my blog theme in that scheme for like a day lmao)

his shirt looks silky

his shoes are cute

he looks like a prince ;-;

okay doyoung when they gon stop putting u in high places?? stop putting him in high places!! one of these days he just gon say Fuck It, and Come D o w n

still getting lesbian flag color vibes

f u c k his Smile is like honey bitch and i'm Pooh

rope

mark is on a pile of boxes who put him there

mark is cute and i just wanna,, hug him and give him plushies

they all look like they're having the time of they're lives :''))))) awwwe

all this smiling

mark and jaehyun high five at 0:46

also at 0:46: doyoung being cute as heck

jaehyun slid up into that move y e s king

johnny's room!!

it's nice

winwin!!

haechan, cute, as usual

pulling a yellow rope now

what the hell are you covering behind you with that trash bag-esque material haechan what are you hiding???

okay white rope again

whomst are they pulling at

taeil's h a i r

winwin!!! pt2

oop he his struggling to pull this rope someone help him

troy bolton who??? i only know dong sicheng

lmao we only at 1:05 i'm so sorry

taeyong in a red room now oop

the red light special?????

that white room looks fluffy i wanna touch

taeyong and mark

these color schemes are snatching me so fast please

mark's outfit?? perfection

who did his makeup?? can i Throw Hands with them??

taeyong with the hand over the camera, cool

taeil in a mirror room so he can see his beautiful, powerful, iconic self? mood

apple sponsorship

his s h i r t

his outfit in general tbh ugh i Love it

johnny!! he got,, a line!!

taeil and johnny, just Bros being Bros

the squad: y'all are doing amazing, sweaty

more apple sponsorship???

‘stay! o h! (stick around!!!)’

haechan and yuta make me soft :((

yuta in the front!!!

winwin killed that move in the back honey i see you

these smiles are really throwing me o f f

winwin coming up to the front, killing it, as per usual

‘b a B Y’

haechan i love u and ur doing amazing

doyoung if you don't S t o p

‘touch me baby’ lmao n o

winwin!!!!!! pt 3 in a soft ass sweater i'm shdbszbfszmxn what a babe

taeyong, in the all white,,, pure

johnny, being cute and lowkey, which i appreciate and love him for

yuta!!!!! swaying!!!!!! living his best life!!!!! a cutie!!!!!!!

listen if doyoung and yuta don't stop with these smiles we gon have a problem

wow haechan and jaehyun together?? does sm want to kill me??

boxes

:(((( jaehyun's smile :((((

haechan's middle part floofed up coma hair is cute

we do not wink in this house

hey can doyoung stop

he disappear behind the curtains

every time he smiles i want to cry

okay silky voice

taeil!! popping out of nowhere to destroy not only my bias list but my life,,

that was a nice lil run

sm is really back at it again with these box room mvs

i heard glass breaking

the all white and jeans outfit?? reminds me of twice iconic

someone is doing little “woo”s in the background vocals and not only is it heavenly but it is also a Mood

taeil y e s vocal king

yuta in the front??? again????

fuck his smile is really powerful

all these adlibs,, wow

jaehyun's blue room is my favorite, it's so calming

ropes, again

is that a haechan adlib???? yes

mark's room is falling apart rip is he good?? did he get down from there??

johnny?? wow that's like,, the third time i've seen him?? sm stop slacking on my boy

taeil and doyoung was really feeling it and living in their Truth and i'm Here for it

haechan killed that hip shimmy thing yes what a legend

johnny in that sweater :(( doing that move as well :(( bitch my heart

feathers!! that looks like so much fun omg

haechan’s one lil earring is swinging for its life

that group circle gang gang

awwe the end screen is cute!!

Anyways that was cute as hell :'). in conclusion:

i am soft for doyoung nct as a whole

i love them all so much

ropes???

this concept stole my entire soul

johnny and winwin were not thrown any bones (they each breathed o n c e)

whoever is on the other side of that rope is strong as hell if 9 healthy young men can’t move that rope in their direction jack shit

the country club will never know what hit them when this squad pulls up

[uayv]

iconic ironic that i'm wishing you a hbd on this platform instead of others we've really come full circle.. anyway happy birthday to the prettiest gorl in the world go wild hope you run into yukhei in a bar and get married to doyoung

i feel like a fangirl that just got a shout out from their idol. thanks queen 💓hope youre staying healthy 

[emo4life]

some of my favorite songs form 2017...

this isnt exactly in any order btw

1. serendipity - bts (jimin)

this...was so beautiful i remember when this came out ! i was so happy and surprised?! also my boy...! the first vocal line member with the intro 😭😭 this song is truly great and the video is so pretty all of it really makes you feel... emotions 

2. eclipse - loona (kim lip)

i’ll never get over this song ! i didnt listen to it till july i think? and everyone always had that one picture of kim lip with the circle of light thing around her head everywhere and would talk about this song and i was like huh ... but when i did listen to it i UNDERSTOOD.  right when shes like..i feel sparks.... wow.. easily one, of if not my favorite song from 2017  the sound is a sound i LOVE and like this is a song for the gays the frequencies are for our ears lmao. the video? beauiful. kim lip dancing solo in that place? revolutionary. her outfit she’s wearing when she’s dancing with her backup dancers the black one piece one ??? fashion icon. her voice was so ..pleasing to me. everything about this was truly 👌🏼 exquisite. 

3. im serious - day6

i didn’t really get into day6 this year 😓 and i know they relased every month and i did listen to more of their songs but something about this one i really loved more than the rest. i don’t have much to say about this other than i really loved this song a lot its a really fun easy going ..kind of song i guess ? the music video was nice too theyre like on the beach ☺️ fun summer times 

4. palette - iu ft g dragon 

this song !!! i heard good things about this when it came out and then iu did gd’s rap in the live stage and i was like wow ....queen. this song ..again ! is so beautiful and it makes me cry ?? fkc 😭 idk it makes me feel better but also sad and gdragons verse is cute to me too when hes like i just turned 30 idk lmao its a very pleasing song really really nice the music video is cute (again lmao) the lyrics are really nice 

5. red flavor - red velvet 

did they perform this first at smtown concert ?i can’t remember but thats where i first saw this and UM ! immediate fav red velvet song (okay well idk if its my fav fav but it’s my fav title track at least) idk its just so ??? fun ??? and people say it sounds like a back to school commercial lmao but 😤 its so happy and like a perfect summer song like i was really happy about this song its so :~) fresh 

6. baby don’t like it - nct 127 

please...the best song. this has everything i wanted....mark..taeyong... haechan doyoung and taeil ! i cannot remember listening to this at all i just remember my life ..i leveled up ! its honestly one of ...if not my fav 😆 nct song listen its not bad at all idk if anyone says it is but im just letting u know... i thought i loved mad city but baby dont like it obliterated that ty & mark duet (?) like its dead and GONE this song and the lyrics are an experience lmao thanks taeyong also um doyoungs angelic lil solo part ? i can hear god 

7. my first and last - nct dream 

hmmm when did i listen to this 🤔 maybe like in may or smth idk i just now i was late because like ? i didn’t really care to listen ...BIG MISTAKE this is such a good song lmao thanks children the choreo is so cool ?? like theyre legends ! 

8. gashina - sunmi 

please!! i was excited for this bc like...wonder queens i love you um i listened to it a little late though i think? and at first i was like..uh...hm BUT i love this song so much sunmi u are my queen also every outfit she wore ? iconic 

9. week - chungha

ahhhhh :”( this is my favorite song of hers it was so ..AGAIN beautiful but really its so calming and soothing...lmao and some ppl were asking for a pop song when this came out i think? but like >:( appreciate this lovely song please ! also just we need chungha to be successful 💫💞😘 also i just wanna mention the why dont you know performance with taeyong....yea

10. dont wanna cry - seventeen

okay kings ! lmao i didn’t expect this from them :o as a title ... i havent stanned seventeen for a long while already and their last couple comebacks/ title tracks i didnt care for ? so i was like not gonna listen to this or smth sdjkhas and i think my friend played it for me or i listened for her smth idk but this !!! also this is so sad 😭 just what i like & seungkwan @ 1:49 (and 2:32) ... the EMOTION ! i was really surprised with this tbh and its such a good song 

11.  signal - twice 

idk how anyone can hear this song and say its bad no offense... it’s so good and the dance is good...queens i listened to this a lot more in the first half of the year then kind of forgot about it rip... but i loved it so much like its so funnnlisten its not their worst title track !!!! its one of their best !!! ..me about all (minus 2..) their title tracks but like...trying to let u know ! 

12. happy - wjsn 

i liked this a lot more than i wish... so i was very... :~) happy. this song is relly good idk what to say...thank u space queenies for branching out and inventing happiness on top of astrology and space. their lil pompoms...they also invented those ...ngl ive read the lyrics multiple times and i think they confuse me. but lmao this is such a good song its really fun also did eveyone see them perform cant get you out of my head....legends

13. spring day - bts 

A SONG. this is one of the most beautiful songs...and that live stage...UM !!!! every time i hear this song or they perform it....wow...... im crying as i type really hm i think at first i kinda was enjoying not today more ? but then the live stage really changed THAT...we dont deserve her also hobi singing in the live versions !!! we’re blessed ...when tae says ..youre my best friend...i felt that 

14. move - taemin

STOP ! when i saw taemin was coming back i was like oh...cool... cool but i didnt watch the mv kJHDSJK BUT WHAT I DID SEE was people were posting him performing...ON THE RUNWAY...I WAS LIKE WHAT THE HELL ?! levels man levels.. anyways so i was watching the clips and WOW ... A SONG the dance versions he released that was really cool and i saw a lot of posts about him talking about the song n stuff that were rlly cool too.... imma stop there ! his little leg kick is iconic 

imma stop here idk what else i enjoyed a ;ot of songs !!

some more to mention

come back home - bts , heyahe - jaewon , 0 mile - nct 127 , also heart attack by chuu which came out...last week ..i think i literally listened to on new years eve and wow i loved it and have been listening on repeat all day since then !. thanks legend 

[corasohn]

Oh my god.... I just realized... We (as in me myself and I) have come full circle. when I got into nct ..... I liked Doyoung from the start. Not only for his singing but specifically for his iconic ooh yeah. plus I looked up their profiles and all that and found out he was a fellow aqua :’) (along with Jaehyun) and then I jumped to Jaehyun for a good amount of time then I switched to Johnny and now here I am. Back at it with Doyoung. This is so funny but interesting???? Like.. I went through all the aquas. lmao :-o