#downloaded tiktok so I could make this bc idk how to make videos

[1ntr0v3rted]

Yoooo bro I’m back with my unwanted opinions LMAO

so me being me and being a wannabe critic or a wannabe explainer or whatever I looked up drama of some of my favorite people when I was little (still tbh)

I was the kid that was on the iPad 24/7 YouTube and Roblox Minecraft etc raised me than my own parents

I watched denisdaily and flamingo (flamingo later on in my life) I just didn’t watch anyone else but maybe Brent Rivera (ur stupid automatically bro idk what I saw in u)

Denis was rlly popular and stood out to me for his Roblox videos I subbed to him before he got all popular and #1 like maybe when he started his YouTubeish and I would watch him everyday I saw every single office he had even his bedroom with his roommate Sandra and Sandra’s boyfriend I rlly thought they were cool people I was really into sir meows a lot and having a character like that for a YouTube

My iPad was like child locked or smth like my dad would have to put his password in for me to download smth so his account was on there

Id beg and beg to like get Roblox and play it and become like Denis I truly looked up to him (I’m saying looked like I still don’t)

Apparently people r mad bc he took a mental health break and he had the pals situation plus the scam robux thing

But tbh the pals situation wasn’t Denis’ fault corl went haywire and so like he was gone and they all dispatched from each-other now u barley ever see Denis talking to sketch, Alex, or sub

Denis has a growing audience and rn children just know jokes like we have YouTube shorts we have TikTok and instagram which kids these days have like dude they know the jokes that are being said. There’s specific moderations u can put on ur kids device to make it only kid things and yes Denis might still pop up but he’s still pretty family friendly he’s just being himself like he is with his friends

I always wished like Denis and flamingo could meet and now they’re like literal lovers man (IK u see it bro don’t say otherwise they joke so much about being together) which also with apparently like homophobic allegations towards them both I think of it as just flirting with ur guys bro but my opinion doesn’t matter for what they have going on

Denis took a mental health break which is completely reasonable he couldn’t be with friends he just couldn’t go to YouTube anymore and have that motivation he’s on his own schedule bc he’s a person too

Now we’re onto flamingo who not everyone likes (u do he’s the #1 Roblox youtuber) and he had AlbertStuff which he said some pretty yk reasonably bad things and said some racist things and got attacked but he legit regrets who he was so he made flamingo and was family friendly with his still agressive type jokes but they’re not bad at all they’re funny and annoying and it’s great man

Also I wanna point out u guys r kinda acting like everyone who has a rep needs to be perfect like nah we all problematic (I am too bro dw)

Albert acts like AlbertStuff never happened that’s how much guilt and regret he has for that YouTube channel

And yes people like flamingo and Denis have changed to more and more PG-13 content but that’s also bc everyone else has become more PG-13 AKA THEIR OWN AUDIENCE

I grew up with them and it feels more funny and lively that they’re kinda growing up with me that’s what makes them rlly special to me (gonna cry/j)

It’s the same with the Barbie movie everyone was mad about it saying it was inappropriate for children (I don’t see it tbh) but it’s PG-13 just don’t bring ur kid?

What I’m saying is is that flamingos past is not who he is today and neither is Denis.

But the people who to this day r problematic and haven’t apologized and have ruined a community needa go

(I’m looking at you inquisitormaster lmao)

Thank you for reading my unpopular opinions !! (Don’t come for me or else I will show up as a frog and curse you)

[kuiinncedes]

This tag rant got way too long oops lmao

[snickerdoodlles]

📘 more please and thank you

always happy to provide ❤

i call this one tiktok fic, and it's an offshoot of nothing new. this is a screenshot from the notes doc for that fic (i'm the yellow points, @jemmo are the reg ones):

and then the thought of Pat and Pran's dad sending each other songs and eventually all sorts of dad jokes & architecture/engineering & probably finishing memes was borne and then it...spiraled...

so, first things first: big huge kudos to the actor who played Pran's dad. yall. i love Pran's dad. the actor really went "my character may not have a name, but he has big heart eyes for his wife!!!!" he didn't have to give us that, but he did, and i love him for it.

at some point, Pat's going to get him onto tiktok to watch something, and then Pran's dad is going to make a video that pretty much sums up into ":D i love my wife!! :D" and it goes viral. he's going to get a decent following of people being like "omg, he's so wholesome!!" and then he'll post something with Pat in it, and that's when the story idea REALLY takes off

I'm just copy-pasting mine and jemmo's latest rant about this one under the readmore because it makes me smile and tbh i wouldnt be able to properly summarize this one anyways, so please enjoy 😂❤

thecookiemonster77

someone sent another 📓 request and I’m trying to remember the silly notes we had over Pat and Pran’s dad getting into tiktok so they could be all 😍 over their partners

except then I started thinking about Pat being 😍 and little has been accomplished since

jemmo

omg YEASSSSS I remember that tiktok rant and about how both dissaya and pran would shake their heads and bond over their ridiculous partners being the cutest dumbasses gotta love them

thecookiemonster77

I remember so little of the tiktok thing ajdjdjjd like???? vaguely recall it started from Pat sending Pran’s dad ridiculous videos I think??????? I want to say it began bc Pran’s dad was like “my sons mortified I know what tiktok is so I’m here to embarrass him terribly” and ramble on about ?????SOMETHING fuck if ik what. but he keeps going and keeps rambling about how much he loves his wife and sons bc ofc he does, he’s just filled with love!!! and then one of them takes off and whelp, Pran’s never escaping now. Pat why are you laughing this is terri—WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU HAVE ONE TOO

i think that’s how it went at least idk

I wish I thought to write down the notable tiktoks from this fic tho im drawing a total blank ajsjdj

jemmo

yeahhhhhh it was that it was an extension of pat becoming one of the family and getting close to pran’s dad and them starting out sharing TikTok’s with bad engineering jokes and then pran’s dad download the app and it goes downhill from there. and then he goes viral for being the best husband ever. and then when pran’s dad and pat start doing tiktok trends and dances together and ppl in the comments are like who’s this guy???? pran’s dad is way too giddy to be like ‘he’s my sons boyfriend’ and now ppl are like 10x more invested in this family much to pran’s dismay, except he’s more than happy to find the perfect lighting to do pat justice in videos

thecookiemonster77

RIGHT THANK YOU hndjdjd it’s so fuzzy in my head 😂😂

I remember Pran’s tiktok being about Pat and Pats about him and Pran’s dad being shamelessly embarrassing on main but that’s about it whoops

also Pran swings wildly between giving Pat the most perfect lighting and trying to make him look as ugly as possible (gl dude that ain’t possible)

jemmo

i feel like pran started his tiktok bc pat was getting so many thirst comments and he needed to stake his claim (not that he’d let pat know that) and now he just uses it to capture all the moments of pat being cute or doing nice things for him or just being pat yknow

pran’s tiktok is basically just the biggest flex ever

and pats is a combination of him being whipped for pran and doing stupid shit with his friends

thecookiemonster77

pran couldnt read the comments on his dad or pats videos if he didnt have an account and if hes going to HAVE to get one of these stupid things, hes going to Win

jemmo

oh ofc it’s a competition. and ofc ppl just love him (and all the cute pat moments he captures) so much that he always gets the most views

thecookiemonster77

pran stay winning lmao

one of pran's top tiktoks should just be him 'sleeping' on pat's naked abs

flex of the century

thecookiemonster77

one of pat's is him trying to follow one of prans recipes. sometimes he'll read an instruction and be like "..??? WHELP time for me to google, idk why my boyfriend expects me to know what the fuck a 'double boiler' is but here we are" and "boyfriend's recipe SAYS its mild but thats twelve chilis, so we will be doing only 3 because i am a baby and i dont want to die"

thecookiemonster77

prans comment on the video: thats not what you said last night

pat: me dying because im your baby and me dying because i am a baby are two entirely separate things mr parakul

jemmo

😂😂😂😂😂 I AM LIVING YESSSSSSS

first of all pran’s top tiktoks just consist of him filming pat while he’s still asleep nestled into his side nose pressed against his neck bc ppl need to know pat is his baby

jemmo

and omgggg the cooking one 😂😂 he’d upload a second one that’s just outtakes that consist of him spilling stuff and generally making a mess and being like ‘no oh no pran will kill me if I don’t clean this up’, him nearly burning himself and him calling to pran from off camera or upstairs of whatever like ‘pran plssss help me I don’t get it’ but then you hear pran behind the camera like ‘no you have to do it yourself that’s the challenge’. basically pats about to be super pouty but pran is gonna be so so proud of him when he pulls it off

thecookiemonster77

u know that thing where ohm nuzzle's nanon's shoulder/arm before flopping against him? thats approximately 60% of prans tiktok ajdhfjh

pat feeding pran his creation tho and when pran smiles pats like "WE HAVE ACHIEVED A DIMPLE THIS IS DIMPLE APPROVED"

jemmo

Ok but why do I also kinda want pran’s tiktok to be him retelling all the dumb cheesy shit pat says and doing an impression of him. like he doesnt get it on camera so he’s like ‘today me and my boyfriend were playing mario kart and when I beat him he said *pat cheesy voice* it’s ok bc im the fastest at running laps in your heart 🥰🥰’

pat watches them and is like ‘hey i do not sound that pouty’, then pran’s goes ‘you’re doing it rn dumbass’

jemmo

also pat rating everything he does on a pran dimple scale is now canon. he has a notebook that documents all dimple types, and probably a tiktok about it too

thecookiemonster77

okay but then Pran starts doing “my boyfriend vs my impression of him” videos and those RLY take off 😂🥺

jemmo

omg yessssssss. and pat can’t even complain bc they’re ridiculously accurate and adorable and he gets to see pran act like a dumbass it’s a win win really

thecookiemonster77

and when he points this out Pran will destroy him sexually, which makes it an even BIGGER win win

jemmo

Basically no matter what pat will always be winning bc no matter what he does pran’s gonna eat it up

thecookiemonster77

and whatever pran does he'll love

no way to lose!!!

jemmo

also pran definitely posts him singing his songs on tiktok and pat always duets them and sings along badly but thats not gonna stop him from being pran’s number 1 fan

thecookiemonster77

YEAH

i was actually thinking about those tiktoks where people will take like, cat sounds and then compose a song around them

pran would do those sorts of tiktoks and RULE at them

jemmo

omg yessssssss it’s just pran flexing his composition skills

And yes he might be using cat noises but the song is still gonna be about pat, don’t underestimate his obsession

thecookiemonster77

ofc its about pat pran has a theme he needs to stick to

hjfjhdfjhfjhfjhf wait oh my god

pat's little 'aow' sounds

pran makes a compilation of those and then does the trend thingy where he makes a song out of them

"there you go, i wrote a song where the lyrics weren't about my boyfriend"

jemmo

all the comments not having a clue what the noise is but pran being all smug like if I can’t write the song about him the song can just be him

thecookiemonster77

EVERYTHING is about him, and pran cant wait to rub everyone's face in it 😂

[bonus tiktok silly (read tags)]

[[ask me about the fic im not writing]]

[steponmepinkjun]

I NEVER FINISHED MY STORY OMG. ok so i left off at being too proud to tell my friend she was right and kpop fucked hard. the difference between u and me is that i’m too good of a liar. too good. i kept up the “i hate kpop it’s cringe” facade for ALMOST TWO WHOLE YEARS, I SHIT YOU NOT. why? bc my dumb ass, extra ass, dramatic ass self thought “ok if i’m gonna have to deal with the embarrassment of admitting i’m wrong, i better do it in such an extra ass way it’ll knock ur socks off so hard that YOULL be the one embarrassed not me.” the original plan was to learn the entire choreography to bts dope, bc it’s the song that she told me to listen to and inevitably the song that got me into them, but later switched to bts fire bc i saw too many of those “choreo matches w any song” videos, and then her birthday party came up. and here’s the real kicker. her birthday is April Motherfuckin Fools. so it would be So Perfect for me to reveal my kpopism as a birthday present And a april fools prank in one. so i was Set on the Reveal being on april 1st, but the day rolls around and god that choreo is so fucking hard and i am Not a dancer. never have been. so i abandon that and go ykno what… i’ll do it Next Year. BC MY BITCHASS WAS LIKE NO THE MOMENT IS TOO PERFECT TO DO IT ON A NORMAL ASS DAY ITS GONNA BE ON APRIL FOOLS ON HER GODDAMN BIRTHDAY OR NOT AT ALL. a year rolls by, i’ve told most of our friends except her and they’re all in on it, i’d made so many subtle kpop references to her without her realising they were fully intentional and had too many scares where she almost figured me out but i lied my way out of it, and i’d given up on showing off with choreography bc i couldn’t make that shit look good. i’m not a dancer. i am, however, a rapper, and a damn good one, so i inhaled the agust d mixtape and decided i’d just rap the eminem of kpop’s anthem at her face. in korean. and change the lyrics at the end (if u haven’t listened to agust d, the bridge repeats “i’m sorry” a lot) to “i’m sorry i kept this from u for so long” and “i’m sorry i actually ult got7 not bts” (this was like the april after skz debuted ok i was holding onto got7 for dear life knowing full well skz we’re going to convert me smh) and the best part? she never saw it coming. her official present was a cd with a bunch of kpop on it but she thought it was just a personalised mixtape for her so i told her to play the first song out loud and she knew the song Instantly. it has a long intro so she was like “i guess u did listen when i recommended u this song!! i knew you’d like it since u like rap so much!!” and then i started rapping and i shit u not. she started SCREAMING. like the initial reaction was her jaw dropping and then instinctively covering her mouth but when i kept going and she realised i wasn’t fucking around she just fucking screamed like a banshee. at the end during the sorry bit i threw off my jacket to reveal a got7 shirt on the inside and she fell off her chair and started rolling around on the floor. needless to say it was every bit as satisfying as i thought it’d be LMAOOOO afterwards her ass was like “I CANT BELIEVE U HID THIS FROM ME FOR OVER A YEAR” and when i tried to explain my ego couldn’t take the “i told u so” she was like “you know i wouldn’t have made fun of you for it right? i would just be glad you’re not hating on my boys anymore” so basically i’m a big dramatic fool and she was always too good for me.

don’t mind the weird spaces here my ipad is being all fucky wucky w me rn. damn sad to hear ur sideblog experience didn’t go so well, i’d have shown u the cool side of the fandom if i knew 😤😤 leading u thru the cursed halls of kpop stan tumblr like a sketchy tour guide that’s actually 3 small raccoons stacked on top of each other like a trench coat, like “over here we have the fanfic writers that honestly need to publish a book, over here we have the gif makers that are responsible for my entire camera roll, if we take a quick swerve past the death threat anons and the twt fanwar screenshots - mind ur feet bub the 14 year olds were tryna make a grab for ur ankles - ah here’s the holy grail of shitposts, you might be here for hours, to the right we have the weird aussie side of the fandom that projects our childhoods onto chanlix but also all the members as we decide what their life in australia would’ve been like, and down there is a secret trapdoor to the blogs w endless random headcanons that will make you laugh, cry or blush depending on if the author woke up and decided to choose violence today. enjoy your Stay!” but then again i’m not so active on tumblr anymore (ngl you’ve become the highlight of my tumblr experience these days, interaction wise,) so maybe all my Local Hotspots are inactive now. i know a bunch of them are, it’s sad. “i don’t fw stan twitter for the same reason i don’t hang out in meth dens” oop. guess i’m a meth addict. no but i get u i rly do, it’s a hellhole out there, but the fact that things get shared and spread a lot easier than on tumblr and how short most things have to be (therefor keeping up w my adhd attention span without having to resort to the mental torture that is tiktok, with the added bonus of not always needing headphones.) that i just. couldn’t leave if i tried. maybe i should try being active on tumblr again but it’s a dying site in comparison.

“their music doesn’t consistently hit for me as much as skz” i’m sorry we can’t be friends anymore. what. what. you don’t dramama ramama ramama hey? you don’t feel a little jealousyyyyyy, naega anin? you don’t shoot out, shoot out, shoot out, or aremdaeun love killa love killa? you can’t be your hero du du du du du du du du du dududu? u disappoint me. literally like everyone i know who likes skz music likes mx music like it’s a rite of Passage. they’re kindred spirits, monsta x music is like skz’s music’s cool but mildly heterosexual older brother. neither of them know what a bad song is it runs in the family. and both their music runs in my VEINS. whenever i describe my music taste they’re always the first two that come to mind, skz being my number 1 bc they are my best boys but mx bc of the Flavour. pls listen to the entire the code album then get back to me 😤🙌 ok but fr ur so right they are 7 of the finest men i ever seen (yes i say 7 bc i’m including wonho cause he deserved better and i’ll die on my ot7 bullshit.) like don’t get me started on them either LOL i LITERALLY downloaded that one insta video of changkyun working out his back n arm muscles w his tattoo showing bc i needed that shit saved for Science. they could do Anything w me like frfr. yes vixx is the bdsm contract group i’m telling ya they wildin. or at least they were. it’s been years since their last comeback idk what they’re doing anymore tbh. and yeah that makes sense, savouring the hyperfixation i feel it, but also i’m so attached to skz that i never let it die. like i hyperfixate on other things and other groups but i will Always go back to skz cause they’re my homeboys. hell, they’re my home. being a predebut stay i’ve spent more time w skz than most of my actual family members at this point. but that’s just me you do u boo xx just know that if ur anything like me ur never letting go once skz it’s been my longest lasting fixation cause they hit like Nothing Else Do. ik i’ve already said that but i cannot stress it enough. they’re really special. i’m gonna stop here before i get all sappy and emotional bc i really love those boys so fucking much and i don’t drop the L bomb often. SIDE NOTE I WOULD LIKE TO SEE UR LIST OF GROUPS RANKED BY THORSt. i need to judge ur Taste. and omg cat&dog is such a guilty pleasure song bc the lyrics make me cringe so much bc while pet play can be fun they be doing it in more of an “i’m an innocent soft dogboy uwu” kinda way that just Does Not Sit Right with me. it comes back to the objectifying of asians that asians themselves don’t help in industries like these and maybe i’m looking too far into it when rly it is just wholesome n cute or maybe they are into some pet play shit idk idc i will bop to the song regardless but i will not acknowledge the lyrics nope.

YOURE RIGHT THO SKZ’S OPENNESS IS IN FACT, A BIG DEAL, i’ll grab them for u if u want but i found these twt threads of skz supporting the lgbt community and i just felt a special kind of happiness man like sure the delusional part of me likes going “haha they’re gay” bc my brain likes to imagine them as my polycule of mlm boyfriends bc sometimes thats what gives me the serotonin to get me thru the day ok don’t judge but also bc it’s nice knowing that yes i’ll never know them personally, but at least i can support them knowing they’d respect my gender identity and my pronouns, they’d respect who i choose to love, and that’s already more than the general public can say so shit, it is special! it’s special that they don’t treat being cishet like the norm - they constantly remove gender from their songs and speech entirely, they don’t assume all stays are female anymore, we don’t talk abt the babygirls incident cause we got babystays in the end outta that ok, and it’s just. so refreshing and important to me bc i can’t get that anywhere else!! like my semi ults are the boyz and while i love them very much and there’s no way all 11 of them are straight i refuse, i do get just a little bit sad whenever they she/her their fandom by default and call them their girlfriends n shit even tho i do still identify as a girl, i’m also genderfluid/nonbinary/transmasc, and i have a very love/hate relationship w my womanhood and rarely use she/her pronouns, cause it’s like, do you not see me? see us? the ones who aren’t cishet women? i mean i know kevin does bc he congratulated a fan who came out as nb but it’s just not the same as the openness we get w skz. like how do i trust cishets i could be supporting them as a queer person when in reality they’d call me a slur. what would i know, behind the screen? so it’s so good that skz go the extra mile to make it a safe space for everyone. this is already long enough i will reply to the second half of that ask in another message… tomorrow cause it’s 1am and i��m tired gn -felix bi anon

I'mma have to start putting these under a readmore so that i don't absolutely make everything who is still following me for some reason go totally fucking insane 😂

NDJDHWJJAHFNAKBSJSBFBHHDBDNAJD YOU HAVE NO IDEA THE FACES I WAS MAKING READING THIS, I WAS FUCKING CACKLING AND GASPING EVERY OTHER SENTENCE SO HARD THAT I SCARED THE CATS NDJWHSHSB the fact that you went "oh you want me to get into kpop? Give me a hot minute, and I'll give you a whole ass private concert for free" biduehsjdbd biiiiiiiiiiitch you're a fucking ICON, I stg I could NEVER 😂 (and not just because I couldn't find a tune if you gave me a printed set of Google maps directions and that I embody the steriotype that white people can't dance, like my sister kept sensing me tiktoks of the whole "dance like a white girl" trend going lmfao look it's you and eventually I was like "sis please this trend has me feeling like being white is a disability and these mothafuckers are being ableist 😭 also I could NEVER be that on beat so yall ain't even doin it right 😭😭😭😭"). Tbh if I told one of my friends (lol what friends, i got jokes) to get into Skz and they showed up at my bday and performed the entirety of I Got It I would simply shower them in money and go "aight everyone else go home, you are no longer needed, you are being laid off, your position has been eliminated, we're downsizing, the company is moving up and you're moving out, you are not qualified for this role any longer, best of luck with future endeavors" 😊

I think part of the reason I can't deal w Twitter is the exact reason I refuse to leave tumblr, in that I've been on tumblr since 2006 and twt since 2008, and tumblr literally has not changed at all, not even a little, whereas going from the early days of twt where there were no corporate sponsorships or ads and you had to manually copy and paste someone's tweet and @ them to retweet it, to how it is now, like 90% ads and showing me shit from the timelines of people I don't even fuckin follow n whatnot, it's just not enjoyable. Idk how anyone finds anything on twt, it confuses and frustrates me because I am old and have not adapted well to technology changing 😂 But arguably, the skz fanbase doesn't want me on skztwt anyways so like it works for both of us lmfaooo. I am old and cringey, and also still think of twt as stream of consciousness whereas tumblr is your teenage bedroom where you can decorate the walls with anything that interests you. I do really love the nonsensical kpoptwt shitposts tho fhshsbdjjss like it is a very specific flavor of mental instability that I enjoy immensely 😂 OH and also I initially misread part of that and thought you were saying you actually irl do meth and I was like 😳 WHAT DO I SAY TO THAT. HOW DO I HANDLE THIS. Like how do I express like "I wasn't being judgy of people who use substances cause I've been there but I was just being insensitive 😳" And then went back and reread it and was like WHEW, IM JUST AN ILLITERATE FOOL 😂😂😂😂 ejeywhdhrhjwbfbdjshdhdhd I spent like an hour bwign like "IS THE REASON WE GET ALONG BECAUSE THEY'RE ON METH???? WHAT DO I DO WITH THIS INFORMATION??????" hrhehshe I am literally a fuckin idiot it's fine

It's not that I don't fw them, it's more like... Okay so like there is no situation in which I am going to skip a skz song if it comes on shuffle. You will not ever catch me NOT in the mood to listen to Sunshine, if God's Menu comes on we are THROWIN the meager amount of booty meat I got hither and thither, I could be in the happiest mood of my life but if Ex comes on I will stop to SOB. And I'm not like that with most music, so mx just falls into the category of "there is a time and place." Idk why but it just doesn't forcibly grab hold of my heart and ass the way skz always does. I really don't WANT my skz fixation to ever end, but I know that eventually it'll stop giving me dopamine bevause my brain is my worst fucking enemy 🙃 like my arcana fixation is to date the longest running hyperfixation I've ever had, going on almost three years, and I used to not be able to spend every single second of every day thinking about Asra, but now... I just feel nothing when I look at arcana stuff. As you can probz tell by the fact that I hardly post arcana anymore 😂 So I know that eventually all my happiness will end, it always does, I can never stay just as obsessed with something as I was for long. I CANT SHARE THE LIST BECAUSE I DONT *HAVE* TASTE YET 😭 I'm basically just compiling a list of any group someone tells me I should look into, ranked by how strong the kitty purred upon googling pics of them 😂 My mom read my ass to FILTH over txt lmfao she was like "they're not that adorable. Maybe your standard for adorableness has gone down with You Know Who still on hiatus 🤔" bfjwhdhd like MOMMAAAAA THE LIBRARY IS CLOSED 😂 she attacks me any time I even hint at stanning other groups, she is a skz purist and stans skz only, unofficial Momma Stay of All Stays keeping me in check lmfao.

I feel like skz really do follow thru on their promise that they're a safe space for stays, it's nice to see that they hold space for anyone and everyone in their fanbase and do it in a really simple and elegant way, I feel. Like they never make it seem like "okay here are the fans and here are the token weirdos that were only recognizing to make a buck off of them" the way a lot of artists make it feel like 😑 like they don't go out of their way to act like it's some revolutionary act to do the bare minimum of not shitting on certain parts of the fandom, if that makes sense. They feel very "yeah, of course we love all our stays, this is a welcoming space for literally anyone, that's how it should be, that should be normal," instead of like "Hi fans we love you 😊 and special shoutout to you ell gee bee tee folk, make sure to buy my rainbow merch after the show!!!" you know? Like, they're the friends who would never make you feel weird or different for some shit, the friends that take the attention off you if something they know ur sensitive about comes up, instead of weirdly snapping at whoever brought the unfomfy thing up which ruins the mood and makes you feel tiwce as bad, yk? They just give off this vibe that they, and the space they create with their music, is just a genuine and chill place to be and hang out and relax and bond. I feel like they'd be the friend group that is so goofy and sweet and silly and accepting and lovely and always makes you feel loved and excited to be alive 🥺 They are all good noodles 🥺🥺🥺

[dameferre]

ok. i would say no one asked for this, but mel @montparnasse blatantly did and enables every step into madness i take but it started getting way too long for a message

and since. y’know. the world is a flaming shitheap i’ve recently found a coping mechanism in tiktok bc i’m lame as hell. & if you, like i was, are a millenial who downloaded the app just to see a bunch of white teenagers and awful str*ight people, i thought i’d provide a starter kit of lgbt creators and creators of colour for people to follow so the tiktok algorythm will get the hint that you don’t wanna see that kinda shit. bc there’s a lot of quality content on tiktok! you just gotta dig a bit

so. here we go. les amis as people i fuckin follow on tiktok bc WHY NOT (under the cut bc it takes up Way too much space on the dash)

combeferre: mistercapehart. a Beautiful black member of the lgbt community and 7th grade teacher with a smile that makes FLOWERS GROW. evidence: a combeferre character study and just like. the best possible teacher/dad vibes need i say more

bahorel: iambeckydee. yes, this was a thirst follow. would you not thirst follow a real-life bahorel? that’s what the fuck i thought. she’s hot, she’s gay, she’s well-spoken, she’s well-dressed, she’s a goddess. evidence: fashion, babey and too hot and body positive for your nonsense

marius: higashipat. curly haired trans icon of my heart. a goddamn gift and a grade-A cutie who deserves the world. just a source of hilarity and joy evidence: marius vibes and more marius vibes and marius being friends with courfeyrac vibes

cosette: killinggf AND fatraco0n for the same damn reasons. they’re both black and some of the most beautiful women ive ever seen in my entire gd life. sources of positivity and light and love but they’re not afraid to call out bullshit. they make life worth living tbh. evidence: killinggf- how bout we just. be nice to people. and actually if i think about cosette and watch this i cry so | fatraco0n- va!lid!da!tion! and the Best energy

eponine: dontacallmeshe. the hot nonbinary lesbian of my dreams. they don’t take shit, always look fucking Amazing, they’re just a fucking icon. evidence: they’re so fuckin valid and marius found dead in miami and did i mention they’re so fuckin valid

feuilly: silly.oldbear. just a stunningly beautiful lgbt girl who’s artistic, and talented, and opinionated, and just all around a delight. idk what more to say evidence: beautiful and taken lmao and the cutest damn shit i’ve ever seen and artful thinkin’ 

jehan: msalwaysdifferent. somehow embodies every interpretation of jehan i’ve ever had. just an all around beautiful human being evidence: the most soothing voice in the world shows you some plants and fashion, babey!

courfeyrac: emoprettyboy. this one was honestly kinda hard bc i wasnt sensing strong courf vibes from Anyone but hear me out. the self-proclaimed ‘hair of tiktok’. bi, poc (asian), former athlete who lives to piss off bigots and make people smile. also makes like four tiktoks a minute bc loves that sweet attention  evidence: vibe until you die, bro and i just like fashion videos this is obvious and some courf vibes

musichetta: rea1le. lbh we get approx. 2 sentences about chetta in the brick so i can make up my own damn interpretations. she’s hot, she’s black, she’s funny, i love her. what more do u want from me evidence: when u sexy and lbh chetta’s a kinsey 5 who happened to find two exceptions to the rule and a literal angel blessing you with common sense

bossuet: okaynkay. just some hot, casually alcoholic, unlucky gay vibes. i dunno what more you could ask for really. evidence: a respectable tactic and Strongest of bossuet vibes

joly: cowgirl.dyke. i had a hard time w/ joly (kaithebug was my first choice but the acct is private) too but she’s gay. she’s adorable. she has the unconventional taste in clothing and weird fucking earrings that are Integral to a joly evidence: draw four, bitch and what a wonderful kind of day

grantaire: jeeshthepeesh. gay white boy with strong meth-head vibes who loves the sound of his own voice and is honestly hilarious evidence: dead inside and grantaire vibes and i watched this video 50 times in abject horror

enjolras wouldn’t have a tiktok lmao and i couldn’t find anyone beautiful and opinionated enough. so.

few more tiktokkers i adore but couldn’t fit and can’t be bothered to link (i’ve done enough): thelonliestwolf / griffinmaxwellbrooks / everydaylaw / alluringskull / gookoosh2020 / keatsdidit / alaskan.boii / sybil.kappert /

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life update

i’ve been making a lot of random textposts lately but they’re all kinda vague and complainy so i thought i’d write about stuff i’ve done recently

i dyed my hair tips red finally...and it looks really good like better than green actually. i feel like the dye i used will fade fast but i think it will fade to a coral colour which i don’t hate ^^ ill bleach my bangs soon enough but i need to do the math and figure out the ratio of bleach powder to developer

lately i’ve been using twitter through a separate account from my main and i don’t interact with anybody but i like to read threads and whatever its pretty interesting but...there’s so much drama and even though i’m not even involved im already tired of it. i’m pretty much done with tumblr except for this blog but not using twitter anymore either would be really nice...and i never use ig either. one day the only social media apps ill use are texting apps and im looking forward to that. but also how am i gonna get my daily dose of jhope fr my life is kinda lame rn and he makes me happy

i turned my old old 2012 laptop back on so i could play skyrim and its so slow and combat is really hard bc it lags so much which is really unfortunate...but i don’t want to download skyrim onto my new laptop so ill just have to figure out a way to make it faster. i did disk cleanup and defragmenter and hopefully that helps. i think if i allocate more ram to graphics it might be better (or something like that i dont rly remember but ik ur supposed to do it in bios). anyway the laptop is old as fuck and i only used it for games which i barely even play nowadays...although i want to spend my time playing video games instead of social media. i should try to get back into minecraft bc i literally spent like $40 on it... and ttr (i didnt spend money on it but i made a friend like 2 months ago and havent talked to her since....@ her im sorry...)... and i said i wanted to replay portal 2 right

i actually have a shitton of games i own that ive never played. like fucking fez... apparently that game is really good and ive owned it for like 6 years now and i just never played it

also im trying to write a story. ive had the whole story plotted out for like 3 months but ive only started writing it now and i think i have ~800 words? still on chapter 1 or whatever. writing is really hard bc even starting i felt like “oh this is so cringy wow i’m really writing? a FANTASY story??” but tbh so many ppl write fantasy and its fun seeing people with cool powers doing crazy shit. anyways theres hoes out there writing about the most disgusting shit imaginable so i’m trying to convince myself im not cringe and having a hobby like this is a good thing

im not as terrible at it as i thought maybe bc ive been reading a bit lately but idk how to get the patience for it. i just wish i could mentally transfer my ideas onto the page without having to type..like in that saiki k ep where he uses his powers to transfer the manga writer’s idea onto paper without waiting for him to draw it.

i havent really talked to my friends for a while... i guess in actuality its been like a week and a half which is not as bad as it could be but i miss hanging out with my friends in person

i watched the first ep of s2 of bon voyage where they go to hawaii and it made me miss sri lanka so much. like when they landed and walked off the plane i felt so much nostalgia for the air there and just the whole vibe. sri lanka is obvs not the best place in the world but something abt it just hits different. like its just refreshing. i still like toronto tho

id like to go to hawaii one day. and new zealand too. they both seem like really cool places

oh and i made 2 tiktoks that was just like me restoring old white shoes lol. i’m not done there’s still more to do but making tiktoks is so hard and annoying to edit. it makes me not want to continue restoring my shoes since ik im gonna have to film it...

honestly i dont think ive done much else other than study bio and do the pd course... i feel a bit better bc i wrote so much even tho its only technically like 5 things that are notable but still it makes me feel like ive done something lately.