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[corruptlabyrinth]

i put blood sweat an tears into this baby

and the ass shine, shines in the dark

[infamous-if]

CH3 [140K WORDS] UPDATE + A LESSON

Hi guys! sorry for the delay there was a reason for it

I fucked up my files and lost all the work I did over the few months for the chapter 2 rewrite...like all of it, im really bummed out about it. and like an idiot ive been playtesting the wrong, unfinished outdated chapter 2 lol

im ngl I did have a pretty long cry earlier which is why I took a while...and im crying now writing this lol

I know it's a wip and these things happen but I worked really hard on 200k+ words of chapter 2 to see it improved and to see it all gone and fucked up really really sucks. I value infamous really highly and am pretty hard on myself so when I dont feel like I deliver what I want to deliver it's really hard for me to move on from that. I was really excited to have this all out at once and now I feel completely disheartened. I know I just have to pick myself up and just get back to work and rewrite chapter 2 but right now im just really upset

anyway, sorry to kill the mood this is probably the worst vibe killer ever lmao I hope everyone is excited! I said I was going to release chapter 3 for band tier and thats what im doing. You'll play the prologue + chapter 1 but will have to input some variable stuff for chapter 3. I hope having chapter 3 can make up for the loss of chapter 2

Chapter 3 is 140K words.

What to expect:

perform the first week and see the outcome

quality time with ROs

drama

angst

there is an explicit scene with an RO (it's skippable) so be mindful of that !

forgot to mention that I am completely rehauling the stats (again) as well due to the new flavor text options in chapter 1 because I feel like the stats still dont encompass the broad range now that there's different canonical types of MCs but yeah not like it matters rn since you'll just input it in aha!

I find chapter 3 to be the most lighthearted of all chapters for me so I hope you guys like it. if there's any inconsistencies (there might be due to lack of chapter 2 context or whatnot), errors, passages missing etc etc.

ill be around to fix any bugs and stuff but I think im going to take a day or two to refresh because im really fucking sad lol

hope you guys enjoy it!

available for band tier

[fipindustries]

ok, ive read a few reviews, i have marinated on the story a little. i think i can put together a more thorough review of the apocalypse of herschel schoen.

ill rip the band aid right off, i dont think i enjoyed it very much. it is dense, and it is morose, and it is very sad and tragic. It takes effort to read and your reward for those efforts are pages upon pages of a sad family coming apart and self destroying, with a hefty serving of deranged theological disquisitions. all written on an ornate portentous, reiterative style that eventually wears off its welcome.

@thecurioustale claimed that for him this book dignifies and humanizes herschel. that hile it presents us someone with severe mental issues and deliriums, it puts things from his perspectiv, it makes us empathize with him. this story had no such effect on me. in fact quite the opposite: i found that the more i understood herschel the more i disliked this guy, for one simple reason. he is gurion mccabe.

there have been many comments drawing parallels between nostalgebraists previous stories and other famous works of fiction. people have said that floornight is his evangelion, that northern caves is his house of leaves, that almost nowhere is his homestuck.

well, the apocalypse of herschel schoen is very much nostalgebraist's The Instructions. a text written and compiled in-universe as a sort of testament/conversion book/biography about a jewish kid with mental issues and his own delirious interpretation of judaism who tries to ennact by force his beliefs upon the world. the only diference is that herschel is a lot more realistically pathetic and less threatning than gurion. but he IS gurion.

he is how harry james evan verres potter comes off to anyone who doesnt like hpmor. he is a self important, arrogant, sanctimounious, deranged little shit with all the makings of a cult leader. and he ends up sacrificing all of humanity to the AI overlords, for all this i had a hard time enjoying the time i spend following him around.

beyond that i get the impression this book is made of a lot of different ideas rob wanted to explore and play around with but all these ideas dont necesarily cohere thematically (the vague anacronistic feeling of it all, the shared narration between herschel and miriam, whatever was going on with miriam's own strange ideology, the meditations on AI risk, the numerous inconsistencies in the narrative and the plot, the entire chapter of SHE OF HIGH MIND). these are all cool ideas on their own but the whole feels less than the sum of its parts. there are a lot more questions than answers in this book and by the end of it i was left with the vague and dissapointed impression that most of these questions dont really have answers and are there just to look cool.

but really i cant call any of these things flaws necesarily, i know they are here by design and they were indeed done masterfully. im sure there is a lot to get out of this book if you are into that sort of thing, and i could even see myself getting into all this if one key element wasnt missing that i personally really need in my stories and that is "human conection".

there is a thing that happens in this genre of stories, stories like RA or Fine structure or Unsong, or Worm or homestuck or even almost nowhere. there is only so much you can dial things up to eleven before i stop caring, before i lose all emotional investment on the story. is just talking about great cosmic inhuman things and i read stories for human drama. as i read chapter 21 i couldnt help but wonder what happened to frederick, (who was an continues to be my favourite character in the whole story, oh how i wish this could have been an entire book only about his conversations with herschel, those were far and above my favourite sections) would we get to see one final conversation between him and herschel or was their sad encounter with damian all we get? what happened to ruth and her plan to presumably bomb the eggert labs? will mirian be happy with vincent? but no, by all means herschel, keep talking to that ant.

no to be fair, this book had me hooked all through out the first half, up until herschel takes the train to manhattan. and the entire reveal in chapter 21 was riveting and i couldnt stop reading this thing once i got there. i want to insist, this book is indeed masterful, and if i complain is simply because of how it didnt manage to dance to MY taste.

overall i could have done with more scenes of herschel at school. herschel interacting with other students, with the teachers, with madeline, with frederick, sweet satanic brilliant frederick.

(complete tangent but frederick is so fascinating. i love how he doesnt mind any of herschel strange beliefs or his childish behavior or his cringe inducing moments, all he cares about is that he got them all on raven, and as far as frederick is concerned that is all that matters to him. i love how patient he is, how he knows that herschel finds the machines abominable but he doesnt mind, he appreciate he weird new perspective herschel brings into his conversations, i love how frederick clearly is very weird in his own way because of how he doesnt mind interacting with a clearly younger kid when that could be social suicide in high school, how he doesnt mind that his mom is a wanted criminal, herschel is his friend and he understand him whent he talks to him and he got them all on raven. ultimatly i loved him because his conversations with herchel reminds so so so much to my conversations with @ericvilas hen he sits down to patiently explain quantum mechanics to me, ok tangent over)

strange fascinating story hat i cant say i enjoyed but i AM glad i read. 8/10

[cweek]

hi tumblr user cweek, i love your art, your shapes are so fun and dynamic and your characterizations are very charming! anyway i’m writing this thing and i would like your advice on how to write tweek’s mannerisms… how do you do it in text? have you read fics that make you say “yess this is it?” or is it just you against the world… anything helps, really :^(

thank youuu this is very kind but unfortunately idk how much i can help i dont read fics and seeing as im an artist i only write scripts for comics... very different from actual writing... it also allows you to cheat his dialogue cuz you can play with the formatting and really exaggerate the text which is what i do + theres a visual to look at already so its more expressive yk.

also south park is um. not very serious. so if youre taking your south park fanfiction seriously theres also that. i can only imagine tweek is one tough cookie to write you cant really all caps or anything either lol. but i guess what you do have is the ability to actually describe his behavior instead of writing out every noise he makes

people put a lot of gahs in his speech but ive noticed modern tweek tends to make more of these like. grunts and huffs and snorts so you can utilize that. its very frequent in tfbw if you want a reference but keep in mind theyre video game quotes that are supposed to be short and quippy so hes a lot more noisy there. if you actually pay attention to the way he talks in txc and pid he rarely makes any of those sounds? idk its very inconsistent but id say it depends on his mood and the situation hes in. paranoid tweek screams and yelps and growls while tweek at the end of txc is completely calm and speaks without any hitches. tweek in tfbw might be a bit agitated bc of craig + having to improv and fight + everything else that happens in that game. so maybe thats why he grunts so much lol and when he does it usually goes at the start or the end of his sentences he just makes a quick noise... id say its fine to include in his dialogue when its something simple like acks and nghs. an ack goes a long way...

then theres the light stuttering (or whatever you call it) and the stops that i briefly talked about the other day. my advice is to Not include those actually unless you want to bring attention to it. tweeks voice acting really makes his character what it is and sometimes you just cant transcribe it i think trying to be accurate to these miniscule details will only ruin the flow of his speech and (again) make him sound like jimmy. going back to my point of describing things instead you can probably just mention when hes struggling to get his words out or something

this kind of turned into tweeks speech analysis which is probably not what you needed sorry! im not a writer and i dont know how writing him into an actual story would go i just make him say funny things sometimes. also im not trey or matt so i might be completely off the mark but these are just some of my observations. ummm. well i hope this is at least Something

[powerfulnoises]

this is gonna be annoying... hold on,

thaaats the image button...

okay found it sweet

kk, my buddies in my company (cough cough angel cough cough) said i should do this, not like i rlly wanted to but shrug, whatever.

names Powerful Noises! Sing Along?, yes the punctuation is part of it, you can just call me "noises" or "pn/pin", i dont really mind that much.

my pronouns are he/they/it, im a former j corp resident, dya need my full address? i work on the LCM info gathering bus usually, but i switch between two places pretty often, i like long walks (and just generally standing) on the beach... kidding about that last one of course but, yeah that's pretty much it

i'll be nice at you if you're nice at me, so that's pretty much it.

//haiiii thank u for looking at my blorbo's rp/ask blog

//names Moonlight/Blackjack, main account is @moonlightzipfile, this is blorbo central

//this character has established lore and a bus, however they are partly a selfship character besides that, so they're pretty wobbly and inconsistent in terms of "lore" they'd know on this blog, point being they'd recognise main bus people.

//he is heavily based on Noisemaster from Cucumber Quest, please read cucumber quest I love Cucumber Quest so much...

//most art done on the blog will probably be by @centibunny / @itzme-thefaust , as is the icon, they're wonderful and you should support them, actually <3

//this blog will also just sometimes have in character reblogs to it, you can block those if you don't want to see them but I think it's fun myself so...

\\blog tags:

#making some noises: text post tag

#artblaster: art tag

#radio call-in: ask tag

#rewind scratch: general reblog catch all

#powerful blogging: only random reblogs, no other OC interactions and stuff

#letsgogambling: mod tag

//blah blah rules stuff:

Don't be weird

Like seriously, I'm just not gonna answer if you're weird, no explicit nsfw Besides like, Jokes, don't be mean to me the blog owner, etc

if your character is from The N Corp Inquisition, The Tingtang Gang, or The Middle, noises will not interact with them positively besides Very Specific Circumstances, please don't try and push that

Don't Misgender My Character I Will Block You

Noises is inherently multiship, but also please talk about it with me first, I doubt this'll happen but this is a precaution.

Reiterating, don't be weird.

That's pretty much it, if I need to provide IDs for my posts due to the bold text I am happy to do so, just inform me (I don't use a screen reader so I don't know what is and isn't needed)

Also something something reference:

Credit to @centibunny as was previously said

[anglsenthvnsent]

✰ stray kids doing ur makeup!

warnings: some lighthearted jokes, emojis used, cursing. established relationships! don’t wish for too much with these boys. inconsistent use of correct spelling.

my bestie gave me this prompt when we were texting 🤭 hope u guys enjoyy

-✰ chan

he’s so giggly with it the entire time. u ask him and he’s like “u want me to? 😀” he asks u in between laughs “is this product right?” and when u don’t help him, he gets whiny bc he at least wants to make ur makeup look good!

-✰ minho

a menace most times, but a soft expression appears on his face when u ask him. he gets that lazy, soft smirk, his eyes squinty with an obvious twinkle in them. somehow, instead of purposefully messing up, he tries his best, actually doing a good job! (he secretly memorized the order of ur products from watching u get ready <3)

-✰ changbin

“awwwww~ u want binnie to do ur makeup huh?? u want ur sweet cute talented bf to do it?” kick him out. take it back 😭 but honestly, he wouldn’t do terrible… he’s just not very coordinated with his hands. application of foundation and blush are so patchy. PLEASE DONT LET HIM NEAR UR EYES

-✰ hyunjin

he wants to be good. like i have said, he loves that aesthetically pleasing, pinterest type relationship shit. once u tell him how to blend, he gets pretty good. downside, doesn’t want to do anything except foundation, concealer and blush. says he’ll “mess it up” 😑

-✰ han

no mirrors involved. he’s gonna, quote on quote, “blow ur mind”. ends up using every single product, continuously confused about which each of them are. not like he gets his makeup done every single day 🤨

-✰ felix

u would expect him to be the best… surprise, he also has no hand coordination!!! he might build pcs, but that has nothing on makeup application. does powders before foundations, wants to do ur eyeshadow, and if he doesn’t like a color he will just cover it up with another one. help him.

-✰ seungmin

okay… hear me out… he’s actually really good at eyeliner. but that’s all he’s good at LMAOO. u tell him that u do ur eye makeup first, and he spends 45 minutes doing the wings, always reaching back with a q-tip to fix it. once he’s done tho, he tells u it’s too hard 😐 this lil bitch

-✰ jeongin

gets all shy and blushy. he feels like this is the boyfriend duty out of boyfriend duties. bUt, once he starts, he realizes how hard it is and starts to mess around. “ya! i don’t care if it’s wrong! u asked for this-“

masterlist!

taglist: @strawberrimarchi

[wake-me-up-inside-imagines]

hi !! i really love your work !! i know you already covered it in the alphabet, but can i have some comfort headcanons/one shot with leo (gn!reader). uni is kicking my ass and having adhd is not helping. would be great if you could write this, but dont worry if you dont feel like it. thanks !!

Thank you! I'm sorry uni's being a pain, hopefully this provides a nice distraction! I hope things get better, have an awesome day, and I hope you enjoy!

Leo Myers comforting his stressed S/O

Gn! reader

Warnings: Reader's implied to have adhd, reader is stressed

Divider credit goes to @animatedglittergraphics-n-more

It was too much. All of it was too much.

You were trying to get your work done, you really were. But it was hard to focus, especially when you knew you had so much to do. You were doing the best you could, working as much as you could manage to, but the work was still beginning to pile up, creating more and more stress until you felt like you would burst with the pressure. Your focus was getting shittier by the minute, every minor thing distracting you, making it harder and harder for you to pay attention to your already neglected work. 

You were trying, but it wasn’t enough. No matter what you did, you just couldn’t focus. The stress, the work, your grade, it was weighing down on you, dragging you to the bottom of the college ocean.

After a couple more hours of fragmented focus and inconsistent work, you threw your computer down, placed your head in your hands, and groaned loudly. You can’t do this anymore. You need a break. Screw the homework, screw the grade, screw sitting around, praying you’d find the willpower to get through your work, you needed to get up and move. Or take a break. Or do…well, anything. Anything that wasn’t this. 

Quickly, before you could change your mind, you stood up, walking into the wider apartment you shared with your roommate. They were out doing something, so thankfully, you had the place to yourself, free to pace the hardwood floors to your heart's content. It wasn’t much, the space was still cramped, but you were moving, and you weren’t working, so that was something.

Stifling a sigh, you began walking around the apartment, back and forth, back and forth, looking for anything to clear your mind, or distract you enough to get your bearings back. You needed a break, but the work wasn’t going to do itself, and the quicker you could fix your attention span, the faster it would get done. You just needed to clear your head, you just needed to retain your focus, you just needed-

*Knock knock*

Ah. Someone was at your door, but you weren’t expecting anyone. You had cleared the whole day out to get work done, which wasn’t saying much considering how little you had managed to do. Your roommate, maybe? Did they forget their keys again?

Making your way to the door, you twisted the knob, your frustration evident. “Dude, you really need to take your keys with you, this is the third time this mon-“

The door swung open, but to your surprise, it wasn’t your roommate. It was your boyfriend Leo, bags of food hanging from his arms. “…What?”

“Leo? What are you doing here?” You blinked with confusion, stepping aside to let him into your apartment. “I thought you were my roommate. What’s all that?”

Leo stepped inside, giving you a small, understanding smile as he walked toward the nearest table, placing the bag on top of it. “Well, you seemed upset when you texted me earlier that school was kicking your ass, so I thought I’d come over and…I don’t know, try to make you feel better? Unless you’re to busy to chill for a bit, then I can just leave this here and let you work-”

“No, Stay!” You didn’t mean to shout, but your voice came out ten notches too loud, a strange sort of desperation lining your words. Whoops. “I mean, it would be nice if you could stay. I could use a distraction.”

Leo tensed up briefly at the loud noise, but relaxed as your voice softened, a small, sympathetic smile crossing his face. “Yeah, no problem. Honestly, you look like you could use one. Is it the schoolwork?”

“...Yeah, it is.” You sighed, shaking your head in annoyance before walking closer to the table, observing the food Leo had just put down. To your delight, it was from your favorite restaurant, a whole meal packed away in tightly sealed containers. Had Leo really gotten all this for you? “You really got me dinner? All this, just to make me feel better?”

You turned back around to face Leo, who’s smile hadn’t left his face. He looked happy, his feet bouncing up and down underneath him as he shifted around, swaying from foot to foot. “Of course I did! You’ve been working really hard lately, you deserve a treat. Plus, I figured you’d probably only eaten snacks today, so I figured you could use some real food. Give your brain better fuel, you know?”

Almost as if on cue, your stomach growled loudly, the smell reminding it of its emptiness. Leo was right, you had only really eaten a couple of snacks, and even that had been hours ago. You were hungry, hungry for real food. It was fortunate that you now had a whole meal waiting for you, hot, delicious, and best of all, fully prepared. “Wow babe, I don’t…I don’t know what to say. Thank you.”

“Nah, don’t thank me.” Leo shook his head, walking towards the table. He grabbed the packages of food out of the bags, setting them where there was space until there was nothing left to grab. “I’m happy to do this for you. As I said, you deserve a treat, especially after working all day.”

“More like trying to work all day.” You pulled out a chair and sat down, motioning Leo to do the same. You pulled your portion of food closer to yourself, opening the container and letting yourself drown in the delicious smell of your favorite food. Ah, sweet nutrition. “I’ve barely gotten anything done. I have so much to do, but I haven’t been able to focus. It takes me so much time to get even smaller tasks done, and I don’t know how to fix it.”

You dug into your food with frustration, watching as Leo nodded sympathetically across the table. He paused, swallowing a bite of food before reaching out with a shaky hand, curling his fingers around yours softly when his hand was met with one of yours. “I get what you mean. It’s hard to get work done when you know how much you have to do, isn’t it?”

You hummed softly, taking another couple bites of food. You needed this. You were still stressed, but at least the food was giving you more energy. “It’s distracting, is what it is. How am I supposed to focus on something when I have ten other things waiting for me?”

The two of you sat in silence for a moment, munching on your food. Then Leo spoke up again, his voice soft with slight optimism. “I’m sure you’ve gotten more done than you think. It doesn’t usually feel like a lot until I look back and see how much I did in a day. At least, that’s my experience.”

A small, bitter smile twitched at your lip for a second, but you suppressed it, lest your boyfriend think it was aimed at him. “I hope so. Still, it feels like nothing right now, and it’s stressing me out. There’s so much crap to do, and not enough time, not to mention how shit my focus is.”

A thoughtful look crossed Leo’s face. “Anything I can help with? I mean, is there anything confusing you that I might be able to explain?”

You shook your head again. “Not likely. You don’t take the same classes as me, remember?”

Leo grimaced, swallowing another bite of food. “...I know, I just feel bad. I want to help, but I guess there’s not a ton I can do with your class work.”

You smiled. Despite the stress, it was cute how much your boyfriend was trying to help, even if he didn’t know what he was doing. You appreciated his efforts, but was there really much he could do? “...I mean, you could still help, just in a different way.”

“Can I?” Leo’s voice sounded hopeful again, his hand going to push the hair out of his face as he looked back up at you. “How?”

“Well, my focus is shit, so…maybe a distraction would help. If you could stay for a while, that might…I don’t know, refresh me? It would give me a break, at least.”

Leo smiled again, putting his fork down on his box of food. It looked like he was about done, and you were too, except for a couple of bites. “Sure! I can stay. You have anything you want to do in mind?”

You paused, thinking. What could you do? Talking helped, but so could anything else. A game? A movie? Cuddling?  “...You wanna just cuddle and talk? Speaking might help, and I miss you holding me.”

“Sure, let me clear the trash and then we can cuddle wherever you want, ok?” Leo stood up, gently taking his trash over to the nearby trash can. 

You took the opportunity to finish the last couple bites of your food before Leo came back around, his hands reaching out to grab your trash, which you handed to him gladly. You appreciated how much he was doing for you, even when it seemed so little. You were tired, so being able to move around as little as possible, even for a couple moments, was a gift.

Leo finished up, coming back around until he was standing beside you. “Bedroom or couch?”

You took a breath, mustering up the energy to get back on your feet before lurching forward, shuffling out of your chair. “Bedroom please.”

The two of you shuffled your way to your room, hand in hand, Leo’s shoulder brushing up against yours. You stepped into the room, practically collapsing on top of the bed while Leo grabbed your laptop and notebook and set them aside somewhere you couldn’t see them. Out of sight, out of mind. 

As soon as he made sure there was nothing school-related on your bed anymore, Leo flopped down beside you, kicking off his shoes as he did so. A moment of shuffling around later, and he was beside you, wrapping his arms around your mostly limp form. “You doing alright?”

“...About as much as I can be,” you replied, your voice now muffled by Leo’s sweatshirt. You shuffled closer, pressing yourself as close to your boyfriend’s side as you possibly could. He wasn’t the warmest ,but he was soft, so you didn’t care. “Thank you for staying. Locking myself in here just to stare at my screen was driving me nuts. I needed a break.”

Leo’s arms wrapped themselves tighter around you, his lips meeting the top of your head softly. You loved how light his kisses were. “No problem. I’m glad I could give you some peace, even for a little bit. If you don’t mind me asking…how bad’s the workload?”

You paused for a moment, thinking. You tried counting all the assignments you still had left in your head, but it didn’t take long for you to lose track, and you were too tired to try to recount. “Not great. I’ve got a bunch of little assignments to get done, which wouldn’t be so bad if I didn’t also have three bigger assignments taking up my brain space. I’m worried the most about those, but the little stuff is gonna end up adding up, and I just can’t focus on more than one assignment for more than a couple minutes at a time. I keep getting distracted by other stuff, and I feel like…like it’s not even worth trying. I’m not gonna get everything done, so why bother?”

You curled up even further on Leo’s chest, resting your ear against his collarbone as Leo’s chin poked against the top of your head. You hadn’t meant to say so much, you didn’t want to burden your boyfriend with your problems, but the floodgates had been opened, and you could no longer hold yourself back from spilling all the stress that had been boiling over for days. You hoped you weren’t putting him off, but you were too tired to pretend like everything was fine. You were done.

A hand slowly worked its way down your arm, finding one of your own and intertwining the two together. His hold was soft, comforting. Not too firm, but not loose either. “I’m so sorry babe. I’ve been there before, and it sucks. I’m not sure if there’s anything I can do to help with the work itself, but…I’m here for you, ok? I’m here now, and I’ll always be here. If you ever get too stressed, just call or text me, and I’ll be here. I…I love you.” 

Despite your stress, a smile began crawling across your face, pressing deeper into the fabric of Leo’s sweatshirt. “I love you too. Thank you for this. You’re right, there’s not much you can do for my work, but you’re a good stress deflator. Can you keep holding me like this? It feels safe.”

“Of course,” Leo murmured, kissing the top of your head again. His arms tenderly caged you in, keeping you secure, away from the stress that had plagued you for the past few days. One arm briefly left your body to pull your blankets over your body, but swiftly returned, holding you softly to his body once again. “I’ll hold you as long as you want. Anything you wanna talk about to distract you?”

“Mm…how about…your day?” 

Leo’s head nodded from above you. “Ok, I can do that. My day wasn’t all that special until I came here, but I had a couple classes…”

Leo continued on, his voice unnaturally quiet, and you sunk further into his chest, relaxing with every word. His voice was soothing, especially when he was making an effort to be more quiet. You could listen to him talk for hours.

Eventually, your small conversation turned from Leo's day to other topics, switching every so often to match the flow of ideas. As you talked, you could feel your eyelids growing heavier and heavier, the darkness of the room and the softness of Leo’s voice doing nothing to keep you awake. Your lack of sleep was finally catching up to you. You were going to fall asleep soon, right on Leo’s chest, safe in his loving arms. 

Without realizing it, your voice began to trail off, responding less and less to Leo’s comments. You were half unconscious when your boyfriend’s voice rang out again, affection dripping from every word.

“Sleep well baby. I’ll see you in the morning, ok?”

Your only response was to snuggle closer one last time, inhaling the clean scent of your boyfriend’s clothes as you slowly faded. Thumbs rubbed soft circles on your back, sending you further and further into sleep. Your work could wait. Your classes could wait. Right now, you just wanted to sleep, soaking in the affection your boyfriend was giving you in your last moments of consciousness.

At last, you faded, darkness enveloping your form. You couldn’t wait until you woke up, safe in Leo’s arms. Morning cuddles were the best, after all. 

You smiled, and then you were out.

I hope you enjoyed!

[employee052]

ozzies long-ass TSP ramble

For context, a few days ago i was in a thinky mood when i watched this video on Valve catwalks. it mentioned death of the author, and while ive heard of it, I didnt understand what it meant until after the video explained it. So i got thinking. the following was a series of messages I sent to my friends on a discord server im in (with the exception of the last part bc i just thought of it now even tho im sick) that i compiled for yall into sections so its easier to read. these are just my thoughts and could be totally wrong, i just wanted to share aksjdh :P (plus this is my second time im posting this so there might be some inconsistencies)

(ramble under the cut so yall dont get a massive wave of text on your dash)

"smth smth death of the author smth smth reviews smth smth interpretations smth smth skip button"

like idk if this was obvious to everyone else n im just finally getting it or not, but the skip button ending being about the narrator seeing the negative reviews causing him to create the button in order to appease them, which said reviews ended up making him believe he was being preachy and obnoxious and unfunny, but as a result, he ends up believing it and trying to appease those interpretations rather than be more confident of his dialogue and what it means to him(whatever he may believe) and ending up dying at the end bc of it being a kind of literal version a death of an author of sorts

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im just thinking about how timekeeper/settings person/432/whatever is really only interested in the player, but not stanley himself. and if the narrator ends up dying (or decaying at least in my interpretation) during the skip button, could the same be said about stanley as a character as well?

like we never see stanleys model as us, we dont see his feet when we look down, and the only time we see him in game is either as a hand during the bucket escape pod ending, the mariella endings, and the not stanley ending. and the last two are cutscenes. for all we know, stanley could have died at some point during the skip button after the narrator did and we would never know bc we cant see him

but since 432's desk being at the end of the epilogue which happens post skip button ending, i would have said that was the first time we ever see him interact with the game internally rather than asking for the time. but i do remember someone suggesting that the timekeeper was the one who removed the door in the skip button in order to kill the narrator off and get stanley/the player away from him in order to talk more

with that thought in mind, that would mean TK had to kill stanley and the narrator off in order to be able to lead the game, push beyond the barriers of a narrator and character and just talk to the player, one on one

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it makes me wonder if what the curator said in the museum ending holds more weight

like, she talks to the player as well. both she and TK talk to the player themselves instead of stanley the character. and when she says "When every path you can walk has been created for you long in advance, death becomes meaningless, making life the same. Do you see now? Do you see that Stanley was already dead from the moment he hit start?"

stanley's function is a character in the narrators story, a literary device to propel the game forward. the narrator makes the race track, and stanley drives. without the narrator where would stanley go or do, without stanley who would move the story along?

"Can you see? Can you see how much they need one another? No, perhaps not. Sometimes these things cannot be seen."

and yet, hes dead, just like the curator said. because no matter what, he's never going to be able to truly make his own decisions. the confusion ending lays out how all the endings are scripted despite what the narrator believes and acts, its all predetermined.

and in a sense, the narrators dead too. no matter what stanley tries to do to change the story, or the narrator changes to the game in order for stanley to react to, its been planned long in advance for the eventuality. every word, every event. and with stanley's deaths, it ends up just bringing them back to the beginning again, "What exactly did the Narrator think he was going to accomplish?" if they always come back to the same preplanned paths, to the illusion of free will, it doesnt matter regardless. death doesnt become a statement, it becomes an inconvenience.

"But listen to me, you can still save these two. You can stop the program before they both fail. Push escape, and press quit. There's no other way to beat this game. As long as you move forward, you'll be walking someone else's path. Stop now, and it'll be your only true choice."

The only way to save both Stanley and The Narrator is by not letting the story play out to begin with. To beat the game, which means to let the game end after you win.

and yet,

the end is never the end is never the end is never the end is never the end is never the end is neve-

In a game where there is no ending that stops the game in its entirety, where everything will keep on happening again and again and the end is never the end, the only way to beat it is to make a choice as yourself the player, not stanley the character.

because he doesnt get a choice, the narrator doesnt get a choice. they think they do, but they dont. the only way to beat the game is to not play it. (which makes sense given that there are achievements involving not playing the game in both the 2013 HD remaster and 2022 Ultra Deluxe)

both Stanley and The Narrator are two sides of the same coin that make up The Stanley Parable, and the only way to use the coin is to give it away.

maybe thats why the true ending of the game with credits and stuff like that, is the Not Stanley Ending.

You the player have successfully broken the fourth wall from the outside in, even though that ending was planned like all the others (ie, the game allowing you to disconect the phone), you break the illusion of being stanley the character, which the game ends up booting you out of stanley as it cant handle the "narrative contradiction".

maybe thats why the escape pod ending has the sign that reads "both the player and the narrator must be present in order to leave". its not stanley, its the player, us.

maybe thats why that ending is one of the most cruel. the only way to get there is to leave the narrator trapped in the boss' office. there's no way to get him to the escape pod. the end is never the end.

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(this part was the new idea i just had today so this might not make sense i appologize)

going back to the beginning of this ramble about the death of the author and such. perhaps there is a way to get the narrator out.

with thoughts about interpretations and with he idea of the "death of the author", all of us have our own interpretations of the TSP characters. whether its design, or relationship wise, or characterization, or what have you. The Narrator in my head is different from you reading this, and that narrator is different from another persons perspective, and definitely our narrators are different to the one that lives in Davey Wreden's head, or Kevan Brighting, or anyone who has even heard of the stanley parable.

and that's not a bad thing! there can be many similarities to the characters that our interpretations share, some more common than others and some that make no sense at all, but for the most part we all have different interpretations of the characters.

I read a book called Book Simulator (The Reader's guide to not reading) by Chris Yee on stream once. The VOD is gone now. But I discovered the book because I heard the guy writing/the narrator of sorts for the book was written like the Stanley Parable Narrator.

It didnt help that Kevan brighting voiced over the commercial for it too askjdh

but back to the book. this will contain somewhat spoilers for it since it brings up a moment at the end of the book so feel free to stop here if you dont want to be spoiled

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basically, in Book Simulator, Booksi (The book's instructional narrator on how to fake read at the start of the book) is arguing with The Narrator (no not ours, but the general narrator who speaks in the third person), however, its revealed by The Narrator that Booksi has a plan to take over the world by inhabiting more book simulators and distributing them across the world. But, the reader could kill off the booksi that they have in their hands that they are reading, to quote:

"Or was he the original Booksi? Maybe not. Maybe the original Booksi had been vanquished long ago, and the reader was now facing one of the many copies roaming the world. Both Booksi and the Narrator knew the answer to this question, but neither would reveal the truth."

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Taking from Book Simulator the concept of multiple iterations of one character existing in different copies of the media they originate from, maybe in a way that's how the Narrator may die in the stanley parable, forever stuck to repeat the same endings with the illusion of free will, but he lives on somewhat for everyone that has seen or heard of him in any capacity.

this may sound a bit preachy (oh the irony) but bare with me:

The Original Narrator from The Stanley Parable is dead, dead in the sense that he and Stanley are stuck within the game, given the illusion of free choice, and unable to leave nor do anything to try and escape, is also alive in the sense that we the players perception of The Narrator lives on in our minds.

The Narrator from the game might be stuck, but the Narrator i see in my head, the one i designed and draw and think of is perfectly fine and alive as ever.

and the same goes with you and anyone else who has heard of the narrator. their interpretation is still unique and different to them even if it all comes from the same media. he may not be exactly the same as the original, but hes still there. and in a way, hes free.

(man typing this last segment down makes me feel like a gd priest, and/or someone talking abt the barbie movie akjdhkjasdh so sorry if doesnt make sense at all :P)

[podfeels]

Podfeels Adapt8ion Notes: Episode 6

hello, dare again! just as a reminder for how these posts work, stagelights will be covering the notes as a whole, and if i ever have to pitch in it will be with purple text like this! with that said, lets get back into it!

and here we have it, the final one of season/act 1. i dont know if we ever settled on which its called. seasons internally, acts externally :) we never really cleared up that inconsistency but its not a huge deal so shrug emoji. this episode is some of our best work so far, and i think a lot of the changes help sell that even more.

a bit of a call forward to the next chapter where dirk says the same thing. we also used this in the trailer for the sahcon new years showcase.

this change was done to match the art drawn for the background more closely.

that first bit literally makes no sense in audio and there is no way to adapt it so we changed it. then some narration changes. then im pretty sure that last bit was a typo, so that was fixed lmao. yeah. half-hazard is a sarah-ism we nixed to make the actual word (as much as its a charming sarah-ism, i dont think it was intentionally included by choice by her, just put in by virtue of her writing it) and grub-naking was definitely a typo i think. as for the b's or 8's thing. yeah. that was hell to figure out and we eventually gave up on it after multiple attempts to find ANY way to make it work.

this line wasn’t actually changed, but there was a small addition of the characters in question screaming slash begging for their life or what have you as their name is said. spooky. :)

fairly big change, and i think the change from a photo to a video helps sell more in audio form the impact of junes violence here. its some good shit, and also fucking terrifying holy shit i shuddered while listening back to this for writing these notes. shout outs to the writing team for putting this here. abso-fuckin-lutely, the writing goes so hard. also a big shoutout to my friends who put up with my annoying and loose process to come in as cameo voices for the recording!

you know the drill by now.

there are a BUNCH of changes here. first of all we added a lot of new lines here for the ads, because i think that fits better in audio. all of these lines are voiced by guest actors, including sarah herself, which is pretty neat. then theres a new bit of dialogue here from jane. it being a pre-recorded message helps to sort of keep it ambiguous as to whether she’s alive or not, and helps to sell that this is a crisis the world is taking seriously. it also helps bring things in line with future bits of godfeels, as crockercorp has its hands in many pieces of this version of earth c. then janes voice starts to glitch out and we cut to the terezi call, which had a bunch of changes to reflect the whole “phone calls and not text” thing. 

some changes to help bring the fight scene into place more naturally

This entire fight scene does not show the script in the video version, so i had to manually create the screenshot for this for the sake of the comparison, but this screencap does not do this scene justice. this entire bit of narration was cut and replaced with some INCREDIBLE sound design, which i can’t really get into the sound design part because im not a sound designer. but its really fucking good. shout outs to dare for that.

so, a bit of background on this scene. originally our plan was to have an instrumental sludge metal cover of Sweet by Phemiec, the trickster!Jane song. it was gonna be a tense chase sequence like the original text, but dragged out into a cat and mouse between june and dirk with dirk playing with his food a bit and june having to face the reality of what she did while fearing for her life.

however, when it came time for this to be done, the musician i'd planned this with had something else in mind, intending on a Deftones style altmetal sound instead of the sludge metal previously discussed, and then also life events made her incapable of delivering within any reasonable timeframe anyway before we could settle on which route to go down. so that got scrapped, which is tragic because that plan, sludge or alt, would have been absolutely stunning, but also scrapping it allowed us to make it SO. MUCH. BETTER.

we had already settled on "Game over." as a title, a callback to the last time everyone Fucking Died, also formatted like Dirk's text instead of June's, to show his control over this episode. but following from that name, I realized... we could use the song. from [S] Game Over, CARNE VALE. which also adds more flavor to this ult-dirk depiction, i feel. using a Caliborn song over a Dirk scene reminds the listener that Ult-Dirk is, in fact, Caliborn. He's every instance of Dirk, which includes Lil Hal, which includes Arquisprite, which includes Lord English. So using a Caliborn song here actually resonates REALLY HARD, i think.

as for the sound design, thank you for the praise! im very proud of my work here, the vrillyhoo sounds, syncing the swings to the beat of the song, and using the uprising whistle in the song at one point as a sound effect for the vrillyhoo flying through the air after june gets disarmed. the scene and song gave me a lot of material to work with :3

there were actually a ton of suggestions for flourite octet effects from all of our writers (and a few friends of mine who weren't on the team lol), and i cant find them all, but these were the final ones we narrowed down to before chosing

last bit of the original episode had a bunch of cuts for pacing. pacing, yes, but also to keep us tied to our current june. the original writing had it cut to the scene before june showed up, and had her appear. but in order to maintain the inertia from the last scene and to keep our camera focused on our protagonist, we had us just land in the scene at the same time as her. the audio here is literally ripped verbatim from episode 5, and in the scriptlog for this episode it says “episode 5” during this part, which i think is very fun.

there is also a post credits scene involving dirk, with a bit of completely original writing.

i don’t know if theres much to say about this that the text itself doesn’t already make clear. “this is where i get off” is apparently a half life reference though, but i haven’t played half life so idfk. dirk would be the type of nerd to do a reference like this in these circumstances though.

i had a lot of plans for this scene, and felt VERY strongly about it. originally this scene was vetoed by some performers until i recorded it myself as a proof of concept and we discussed was to get them on board. my original draft had gore sfx after he swung his blade (because i love gore sfx), but i think its far stronger to cut off before impact. as for why we're having A Dirkicide, when thats often seen as a bit insensitive these days, is actually to humanize dirk. dirk, in later godfeels updates, comes back as far less of a villain. in early godfeels, he's all intimidating villain all the time, all the way until his death. i wanted to let him share his piece. the text here is some original, some taken from his death in the Meat timeline, and some taken from his death in the Game Over timeline. These callbacks are also included intentionally to make him a bit more sympathetic. While his plan is to spark the epilogues, and he is a monster for his actions there, he IS ultimately motivated by an urge to keep his friends alive. this timeline isn't just a dud for his plans, isn't just a failure of his foresight, but also a repeat of dirk's lowest moment in the comic, when he lets the glitchtide take him after learning all his friends are dead. a moment he remembers and likely still grieves. and now he's having to grieve it all again. this wasn't included to be insensitive to dirk, it was included to make you remember 'wait, shit. yeah. oof. he IS kinda right on all counts about june as of this moment'.

and for a bit of behind the scenes? i've designed two sounds for deaths, Heroic and Just. and this one? it was Heroic. he died in the process of opposing someone who just killed all her friends. i may not agree with that distinction overall, but i think its a fair choice for skaia to make and i included that little meta aspect to once again humanize him a bit more.

also yes i had him quote gman, not just because he's a dweeb, but also to show his position as a Controller Who's Lost Control.

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thank you for coming around to see the adaptational notes for podfeels act 1! thank you again to stagelights for putting all of this together (i never would have found the time to do the bit by bit markdowns like they did), and also thank you to everyone on the team for contributing to this passion project i think we're all very very proud of.

i apologize for the long delay in getting act 2 started, but rest assured that we're still hard at work! i hope youve enjoyed seeing our process a bit, and maybe even learned from it a little!

[joyfulexchristian]

Hi!!

It's very late where I am so this may not be as put together as id like it, however i dont want to forget (like i have the past four times already), but anyways.

I've been noticing a few contradictions in the bible, specifically in the new testament?

For example, just one out of the few that have been bothering me recently (months), Matthew 17:20, and Luke 17:6 both mention something along the lines of "if you have even a mustard seed of faith, if you command x to do whatever it may be, x will do it, because you had faith. However, what about James 1:5-7?

And another one:

Most believers (that I've met at least), say that if you accept Christ, you can't ever back out of it, once you accept him you can't go back on that decision and hes always with you. However, what about Revelation 3:14-17 I believe 0? I've brought it up to my mother and my (multiple) youth pastors (through the years) multiple times but I just get the same things related over and over and nothing actually explained.

Anyways I was just curious on your thoughts about that, I think it's interesting that there would even be question about it, given how often I'm told "the Bible is crystal clear, all you need to do is read it" when reading it frequently leaves me with way more questions than what I started with.

I used to believe that the Christian god guided the hands of the people who wrote the Bible as well as the hands of those who transcribed and translated it. But that belief did not stand up to the inconsistencies in the text. I used my faith to patch the holes, but it eventually spread too thin. It became impossible for me to perpetuate the illusion that the Bible was an inerrant work of a god. So what was it, then? I was at a loss.

Then I started reading Bart D. Ehrman’s book Misquoting Jesus. It gave me a lot of context about how the Bible came to be, including who changed it along the way and why. I recommend looking into Ehrman’s vast body of work. He is a biblical scholar and also an ex-Christian. He has several other books and a podcast also called Misquoting Jesus which is available on YouTube. His work really shows how the Bible is a collection of ancient writings from many authors with different intentions, which explains why it’s so inconsistent not only in theology but also in tone. It is such a relief to put down the task of trying to make the Bible make sense, especially when everyone is screaming at you that “it’s crystal clear” because it’s just not! It’s a complicated ancient text whose original is lost to time and has been copied and translated for thousands of years. With that in mind, it makes sense that you feel this way. Thanks for sending this in! I wish you the best of luck, I know this is a hard thing to contend with.

[sxfterhearts]

🍓 + 🕯️ <33 P.S. I think about your jiung cafe fic often, it’s literally so cute and wholesome, I love it so much :)

hello!!!!

firstly: 🍓 how did i get into writing fanfics? back in the day when i was deep in my exo-l phase i used to run a fanaccount on insta! a few friends got together and we created a fanfic acc where we took requests and wrote short fics/imagines on there hhaahha (think: writing a lot on the notes app, then having to segment ur work into paras so insta would allow u to post. the PAIN we went through) and since then i've ventured on AFF, and on tumblr ofc :) i enjoy tumblr more tho, it's a lot easier to post long text (the bar is low for me.. ig was torture)

second: 🕯️ on a scale of 1-10 how much do i enjoy editing! tbh i dont do much editing of my own work - i mostly just smash it out then read over it once or twice for spelling mistakes or inconsistencies. so i'd say its a mostly painless activity for me - a solid 9?? i dont really do much of it though, cos everything i write is short and manageable (i like it that way!)

thanks for sending in the questions <333333

ALSO THANK YOU FOR LOVING THE CAFE FIC. it was my first fic in literally 3 years. and lowkey based on a true story (i have a legit cafe crush and this cafe is a legit cafe fr) im honoured that its taken up space in your mind hehe :)

[navree]

Hotds biggest mistake i think is breezing through so many years in the first season. The actual war doesnt in context last that long compared to the buildup. Firstly as you said we dont get to know a lot of the characters. Especially on team black. We get to know Rhaenyra and Daemon and then Rhaenys and corlys, who one can argue isnt really team black. Weve got Aegon, Heleana, Aemond, Alicent, Otto and Criston. They really should have put in the time to develop Jace and Luke as characters. And then theres the fact it put holes in the story and makes it inconsistent. Like Rhaenyra going from not wanting to have children to giving birth to her third.

Rhaenyra and Daemon are the only ones who get consistent characterization (can't even really say development because it's not like they grow or change during season one, but they have characters). Rhaenys and Corlys don't really get anything up until about episode five, then a bit in episode seven, then Rhaenys has some stuff in episodes eight and nine (tho not really except agreeing to Rhaenyra's marriage proposals for literally no reason), and then in episode ten they have personality transplants. And of course, Jace and Luke and Baela and Rhaena are set dressing, while Joffrey and Aegon the Younger and Viserys the Younger could be vanished from the Earth entirely and no one in the audience would even notice. Meanwhile, in contrast, we have a lot of information on all of the Greens, they're all not just fully fleshed out characters, but they're characters who change and grow over the course of the season and whose evolution we can chart using the actual text of the narrative in a way that's internally consistent (except for maybe Otto and Larys, tho Larys is just a victim of ableist writing full stop). And again, that's an issue, because it means I don't know why the Hell Rhaenys and Corlys are on Rhaenyra's side at all, and I felt nothing when the inciting incident for this entire awful conflict, Luke's death, happened, and I don't really care how most people in his life are going to feel about it beyond Rhaenyra.

Really, if the show was gonna start as early as it did, which I don't mind due to how they changed up Rhaenyra and Alicent's dynamic, the entire first season should have been a Milly and Emily season. We should have had time to see their friendship, see how Rhaenyra changed as she grew into her role and/or failed to measure up to aspects of it, see how Alicent grew into both queenship and motherhood, seen the relationships develop with people like Harwin and Criston and Larys and Laenor (and for personal reasons I would have liked to see a relationship develop and then devolve between Rhaenyra and Otto, but that's for another time), see how Rhaenyra might start thinking about wanting children beyond just duty, see how other characters react to the changes in these two's circumstances, and especially see more of the fallout of changes to Alicent and Rhaenyra's relationship in Alicent and Rhaenyra. And also see more of Daemon and Laena's courtship and marriage and relationship, for me personally. And then season 2 we get the adults and we get to spend more time with their adult versions, as well as with the second generation, which allows them to be fleshed out better too.

[truc0nfessionz]

wishy washy + unsupported

stream of consciousness on wishy washy -

honestly, K is the first things that comes to mind. shes been so inconsistent in my life for the last year or two. its hurtful because i know i dont deserve that, ive done nothing but be a good friend to her for 15 years and i'm struggling to understand why that's changed. why i'm not worth showing up for. why can she show up for my birthday and give me false hope, only to disappear again and not give a fuck? she can train for a whole half marathon (and i love that for her), but she can't text me ever? after she knew that her lack of efforts put us in this position? i feel like i have to call it. i can't wait any longer on her being wishy washy. i have to cut myself out of the equation because it hurts me too much. i have to come to terms with the fact that i literally don't have a single female friend in the city of austin and my heart breaks over that if i'm truly honest. it's been a long time since i went through a bad friend breakup and i didn't handle it well the last time (granted, i was in high school). and at 31, i have to say this hurts a lot more because we're too grown for this. she of all people knows me and i honestly don't understand why i'm not worth caring about anymore. why i'm not worth reaching out to anymore. i literally have done nothing but love this person beyond their ability and i can never get that time or energy back. i poured it into them because i loved them so dearly and so greatly, and now we're just gonna be people who used to really love each other. i'm so angry and sad i can't really process it. it feels bigger than my heart, bigger than my body. but i don't have a choice. i can't fight for something she gave up on long ago, it wouldn't make any sense to do so. but if i'm honest my heart feels broken. the disbelief is starting to wear off and i'm so fucking sad and angry that she's chosen this. i truly thought this person was my best friend for life and now i have no friends. or like 2 friends but i can never replace her. it would be trying to fit a square peg in a round hole, they could never be a female or my best friend of 15 years, they just couldn't. but i keep telling myself to let it go with love. anyone who really saw me and valued me wouldn't do this to me, and even if it hurts i have to release myself from the situation. the expectation for her to give a fuck about me is obviously way too high for her to meet.

and on unsupported - shit, this just feels like a continuation of wishy washy. at the end of the day, i don't have the support system i once had. before my 30th birthday i would've told you that i had the most loving partner and best friend in the world. and now, i basically have neither. i feel like i have nothing compared to what it used to be. and i'm happy Ivy and i have had a good month and we're in a good place, but i still fully have terror in my body that "the other shoe" will drop at some point and i'll be fully unsupported again. i don't know if people understand how hard it is to go through this life and feel unsupported. it feels like your'e a ghost walking among humans. where the slightest gust of wind will blow you into oblivion. but at the same time, it feels like you're a walking fortress and you have to try to have such a tough exterior even though what lies inside is weak from fatigue.

i really am broken by this. i am shattered. i have lost so many beautiful people in my life over the years and i don't know if i'll ever get over this one. and its so lonely and isolating because i have so few other friends at all. and i know this will be more painful for me in the short term - because i have no other friends here and she is surrounded by communities of people. but in the end i will heal, i will get stronger and i will be better. and i know it will haunt her all her days to have lost a friend like me.

[automatismoateo]

Forced Bible Readings In Public Schools and the Result No One Talks About. via /r/atheism

Forced Bible Readings In Public Schools and the Result No One Talks About. "Reading the Bible made me an Atheist." - All of us at some point. I live in deep south Texas outside a major city. Kids are inherently anti-establishment in many ways, even here. In some ways, ESPECIALLY the conservative kids. I know, I grew up in a town whose school board challenged the first amendment in the SCOTUS 20 years ago and lost. So many daughters getting knocked up in college, divorced, cheating, etc after leaving home. Even in HS. Teaching the Bible in schools isn't going to create the nation of young Christians they think it is. Kids will do what they always do with books they think are boring and suck and are force fed; look up controversial parts. Next thing you know, elementary school kids are asking why that women was lusting after men with genitals like donkeys or why their older sister needs to be stoned to death because she had a kid outside wedlock. Or if they're going to be put to death because they touched a football at practice. Even those with a few brain cells that barely communicate are going to make a joke out of it. Every classroom will have one of these kids. These passages will spread like wildfire in these school halls and it'll be one big joke. It was like this in my strict Catholic CCE Tuesday night/Sunday morning classes starting as early as I can remember. Boys telling girls they are not permitted to speak because God stated such. And many, many more versions of taking what this book of hate and general ignorance spews. Not to mention a large percentage of these teachers are against teaching religious texts in public schools. I have friends that voted Trump and dont like it. Shit, I got kicked out of AP English in High School because I brought up the latently obvious homosexual theme in Billy Budd. Imagine these blatantly obvious and in your face passages about murder, rape, infanticide, and general shittiness of The Christian God. These teachers are in for a pretty funny interpretation of this silly work of narrow minded, angry, misogynistic and inconsistent goat herder's version of Aesop's Fables. It should go without saying that I am against teaching bible in schools, but I am looking forward to some of these side affects they aren't considering. I know I am going to be teaching my grade school nephew about these passages and encourage him to bring up these passages. It's such an opportunity to create skeptical minds and kids will do a good amount of the work themselves. After all, they're God's words. Edit: imagine a focused campaign on social media highlighting all these passages. It would do so much to undermine them. Submitted November 21, 2024 at 07:50PM by RandomDudeYouKnow (From Reddit https://ift.tt/jsTL0M9)

[nocturnal-phantoms-fandoms]

And also S H R E K 💚

Anything for my lovely Shrutual 💚💚💚

S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon (prompts optional but encouraged)

In a prev ask I mentioned Alphard being gay and having muggle lover(s). I have another/complimentary idea for this one - Alphard was in love with / used to hook up with Lyall Lupin. They are roughly the same age and this could be done as a really nice parallel with wolfstar (kinda how the marauders themselves are the parallel to the golden trio era characters). The homophobia of 40s and 50s where homosexuality was still a crime vs the much more open (but obviously still pretty much homophobic) 70s and 80s. Unrequited love (Lyall married a muggle woman after all) vs required love. Alphard who was too afraid to oppose his pureblood and most likely homophobic family vs Sirius who was a blood traitor and run away. 

In my notes I have this idea written down as “Alphard had a crush on introverted but eccentric ravenclaw. Parallels his nephew’s fascination with the lupin boy” 

(if someone wants to use it as prompt, feel free, I probably wont touch this idea in the nearest future, but pls tag me so I can see it!)

H - What is your favorite source text for fandom stuff (e.g., TV shows, movies, books, anime, Western animation, etc.)?

Im not 100% sure how to answer this one. 

Most fandoms I'm in / used to be are based on TV shows, one's a movie franchise technically a really long inconsistent TV show and one’s a western animation cartoon (In my mind I classify this one as a TV show too bc I generally don't watch cartoons).  

Plus there is HP. Cant say its my fav book or fav source text for fandom stuff bc there are many inconsistencies and plot holes and such (the. hogwarts. express. stations.) But it is the hell I'm in right now. 

R - Which friendship/platonic relationship is your favorite in fandom?

In HP - the golden trio (especially Ron & Harry) (tho i dont spend that much time thinking about non S & non R characters) & obviously the marauders (especially remus & james and sirius & lily)

In MCU - Steve & Natasha <3333 and Steve & Sam

E - Have you added anything cracky/hilarious to your fandom? If so, what?

I named Dwarf Sirius and this is my greatest contribution to crack cursed AUs. I'm also encouraging Cat in her Shrosting (Shrek posting), that itself should count. 

K - What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc?

answered here. im sorry im not doing critical thinking at this hour on a saturday

ask game

[vaerhys]

Among my 3 published works on ao3 (i know, mere crumbs amidst the feasts prepared by others on the site), I also have two new fics in the pipeline that are from different fandoms (MHA and Harry Potter, respectively) that will actually be longer AND i hope better written. The MHA fic is a passion project i have actually had on the back burner for literal YEARS and only now is it being laid to text. The Harry Potter one is more of a satire on the inconsistent magic system and general lackluster exploration of wizarding social norms. Like many I grew up reading harry potter and loved the idea of a magical boarding school, but then upon reaching an age where the texts and author could be reexamined with a more critical lens, it became wildly clear how…bigoted the author and many components of the story she wrote really were. That said, I am of the mind that the fanfic community are the rightful and more creative conservators of potter lore. Also its a no pairings for reader fic! Which I dont see very often, so it will be fun to explore. And an isekai. Sounds busy, I promise it works though lol. MHA details im keeping under my hat for now.