#dont look to hard at the one word descriptions i didnt know what to do for that

[leonardalphachurch]

i put TOO much effort into this the other ones i do im gonna not try so hard for but. is poly blue team cmon i GOTTA put all the effort in.

i guess this is like an everyone lives au lol i dont REALLY have anything cemented for them. just play in the space with me

(link to original meme)

[beddybites]

Do yiu have any tips on like how to attract more attention 😭 it's been a good while and it's a huge struggle of keeping motivation and not so amazing art so it's hard to sure my characters and their stories bc one thing a can say in confidence is I am a good writer I'd like to think, people tell me I have and oddly good but cryptic way of writing that keeps people enthralled, but my biggest struggle is getting them interested in the first place 😭

hi there!! i admittedly dont really know much about the world of writing and how to gain more attention there, but i can try to give tips and see what applies & sticks!

start off short & simple and build it up over time

if you start off with something big and complicated there will be more pressure to keep things big and complicated. theres nothing wrong with short and simple and mixing it up here & there (ie with art: if you only post full pieces with extravagant rendering people will keep expecting it. mix it up a bit. i try posting a variety of sketches and doodles and more detailed things— sometimes some things do better than others and thats ok!

it is 100% okay to repost/reblog your own work

if you ever see me spamming my blog with the same posts, its so i have it back on peoples feeds and on my main profile and its easier for people to find. its also likely that some ppl missed the post, and reblogging/reposting gives them the opportunity to see it!!

something something “its cringe and egotistical” WRONG!!!!!!!!!! its completely normal for creators to repost their content and it may help a lot!!

short & sweet descriptons

when you post, avoid giant paragraphs of text, especially if you’re including art in the post. people will be distracted and will see a giant post and just scroll past it

speaking of descriptions, try using trendy words and notable names

its kinda like hashtagging. if you look at my posts you’ll typically see how i will drop people’s full names + include the word “art” or “doodle” … this is because it will more likely show up on someones feed if said person looks up the same words.

ie: googling “muichiro tokito art” -> insert my post popping up because it has “muichiro tokito art” written out in the description

i admittedly have trouble providing tips as someone who doesnt rlly understand how i got noticed to begin with haha. something something imposter syndrome or whatever they call it these days… so im not really sure if anything above helps, but this is stuff i typically try to keep in mind when i post with the intent of trying to get people to see it

more importantly—

i know this is cheesy and this is easier said than done (i have this habit too a lot of the time) but numbers does not equal ur worth or talent. i know it isnt motivating and it can be so heartbreaking): but even if ur stuff doesnt get a lot of notoriety please know it doesnt define your value . this may sound like gibberish as it is 5 am as im posting this but truly… never give up on ur work!!! i promise u someone out there loves it

im more well known for my deaging & fluff content and to this day im rlly shocked it blew up the way it did. i really made it for myself. i came up with a whole alias and didnt plan on posting it anywhere bc i was so scared ppl would hate it and harass me or nobody would gaf. but eventually i was just like Man. if this thing helps me then maybe it can help someone out there too. and it helped provide ppl some joy & wonder and whimsy & made them feel seen and truly thats all i could ever want…

its difficult and its hard but i promise u… be patient and kind to yourself. it can definitely be hard sharing things around and getting that exposure you need but there are ways for sure. some journeys are faster than others and thats ok!

again sorry if this is all gibberish its super late ): but i hope this could help in some way shape or form

[matthewmurdockswife]

Hello!! Could you please do one where Tony Stark is the readers dad and he finds her SH?? Thank you!

Iron brusies x tony stark (platonic)

Tw: self harm, depictive description of cutting, anxiety attack, hitting,

a/n : guys im always here to talk feel free to talk to me about anything at anytime good or bad my messages are and will always be open you can even send me a anonymous message in the req box if thats what you need to do Talk to me or a friend theres always someone there for you if you look hard enough I promise

I never felt like enough, which is unexpected when you’re constantly put out into the media and are being portrayed as “the happiest person alive” everyone wants my life many envy my family and my life style but not very many people understand it, and I mean truly understand it. Underneath the media personality I had to put on as an avengers daughter and a future avenger hid many scars.

It started a few years ago on accident I was shaving my legs when I accidentally sliced myself. But my reaction wasnt the same as it used to be, instead of being upset I was relieved. It felt like an escape and from that moment foward it felt impossible to stop

“ hey kiddo” My dad walked over to me while I leant against the kitchen island “hey” I remained looking at my phone my voice was faltering and was sure to give me away I didnt need my dad knowing about how I felt. If I ever wanted to be an avenger I cant have problems like this I cant let anyone see me weak.

He had stopped his movements, looking at me he reached out to touch my shoulder in an attempt to comfort me he always seemed to know something was up. without looking I pushed off the island without a glance or a word. I couldnt let him see me break. No one can see me break.

Everything felt out of control, my world was spiralling and so I went to the one thing that put me in control. My razor blades. I took the elevator up to the secluded floor I knew what I was doing in order for me to not get caught I had to think smart. I had this memorized, never say where your going, never go to that floor with another avenger and never use your own room.

I told friday the floor number remaining as composed as possible the cracks in my voice a dead giveaway “ mrs stark are you alright your blood pressure and heart rate have dramatically increased” taking a deep breath I reply to the ai “im fine fri” using an irritated tone in an attempt to conceal how im crumbling apart “ are you sure mrs stark? I can contact your father if needed” fridays tone questioning and concerned “im fine friday im just not feeling well” And I darted out of the elevator the moment the doors where opened

I opened the drawer containg the one thing I needed my razor as I smashed it against the floor over and over again until the metal blades broke free and I grabbed one and pushed it into my leg letting the metal drag across my skin. The blood dripping down my leg.

my hands shook and my body trembled one more I told myself each time. one more and ill be okay one more I kept repeating it over and over again in my head like a melody, a mantra like a prayer for help

my hands shook I felt my mind scream a blood curdling scream when I heard the thing I dreaded most. a knock on the door “hey kiddo you alright friday said you felt sick do you need anything can I come in”

i was panicking i thought i had this covered i thought i could be smooth about this i thiught i coukd do this and no one would know the thought of my father finding out about me about what i am what i do what ive become is enough to start sending me into a anxiety attack “ im about to have a shower” my voice was faulty and a dead give away and i covered my mouth trying to stop the broken sobs from escaping my lips anymore then they already had .” dont lie to me friday said your heart reate was through the rough whats going on kiddo” I let a sob escape my mouth but quickly covered it I heard a sigh and then a click

the door had been opened it was my greatest nightmare my breathing quicked as I lunged full force at the door trying to keep my dad out but he had had the advantage he was standing I was flipped onto my stomach as he pushed open the door once again

“ why are you on the floor kiddo c’mon stand up” he reached under my bicep as attempt to help lift me up “ NO” I screamed ripping my arm from his grasp looking up face stained in tears my dad’s expression written of pure shock guilt washed over me my emotions reaching an all time new high

I felt that drowning feeling begin again in my chest and then in my stomach and the voices in my brain began chanting on how I had messed this up, how it was all over, how I was worthless.Any negative comment anyones made on me being thrown at me by my own mind I scrambled to sit up against the tub holding my legs to my chest gasling hard for air. I was having an anxiety attack in front kd my dad who sat there eyes wide motiomless and wearing a shocked expression he came to sit down next tk me stroking my back while I sobbed wildy he pulled me into his chest while I fought against him throwing weak haphazard punches and his shoulder screaming kicking and crying to be let go off but he knly held me tighter and stroked my hair gently shishing me quieting my cries as he had done when i was younger to console me .

only then did I relax into his embrace

only then did I allow myself to be vulnerable

only then did he notice the multitudeof faded and fresh marks on my legs including the ones I had just freshly reopened

only then was I honest and opened up about the past two years of hell I went through

only then did I begin to see my dad differently as someone who understood what I had gone through because he had gone through it himself. I gained a new appreciation for my father that day, I’ve never been better and I owe it all to him

A/n

girlie im so sorry i didnt even see this lol sorry It took me so long to get around to. anywho sorry if this wasnt what you meant also sorry if this is bad its like 1 am my eyes are burning 🤭 love you guys never be scared to reach out for help, and always drink your water <3 bye loves

[theramblingvoid]

Different anon. If i am the blog you and another have been vaguing about, ive opened up my own anon asks so if a direct approach is too awkward, there's that.

If ive been radicalized, i didnt notice. In all honestly i just dont think anyone should be dying and ive never understood war. Ive been called naive before and i doubt ive changed much since, so im willing to listen, and i hate arguing.

Whatever's going on feels too complicated to put into an ask or even a post and i feel like my words always fall short of my intent to begin with (or end up in the opposite direction). Im not even sure if i should send this so im going to end it here

Hello anon! It's perfectly alright that you sent this and I respect you a lot for doing so. I am admittedly extremely sleep deprived right now, so my words and thoughts might be a little jumbled, so I'll do my best.

Long post ahead, but I think it's very worth it.

The main couple of issues I've seen with the posts you've reblogged (if you are the same person) is that, first of all, they either minimize or blatantly ignore the death toll and suffering in Palestine, and secondly, they tend to link human rights activism (a separate thing from political support) as well as political support of Palestine to having antisemetic motivations 100% of the time (for example, that post claiming that scrolling down on "any" blog that speaks up in support will reveal antisemetism). This is harmful because of the leaps in logic that the posts are designed to make you overlook. It makes a false equivalency between caring about human rights of a population and a stance in favour of a terrorist group working from their country, and then claims that is the same as a hatred of a cultural/religious group that is much more expansive and varied than just the country of Israel. The aim is to have readers accept these jumps so that they stop believing anyone cares out of true empathy, and start associating people speaking out against the killing with antisemetic bigotry.

Similarly to a lot of conservative talking points, these posts also tend to fixate on terminology and technicalities to either minimize an issue, or make it look like something it often isn't. For example, a large number of the posts get quite angry about the current events being called a genocide and claim that it's been definitively proven not to be, but that is blatant misinformation. There is disagreement as to whether Israel's actions qualify as genocide or if ethnic cleansing or a variety of other terms might apply, but it has never to my knowledge been proven in court not to be. They have very proveably been systematically driving Palestinians from their homes in a pattern moving south, hitting civilian targets such as hospitals and refugee camps, and using many other tactics typical of genocide, but in order to be officially named that there has to be intent to wipe out a culture or group and intent is hard to prove. If you'd like more information on where the debate stands, you can find it in a fairly readable format here. (Apologize for using Wikipedia as a source, I am quite tired.) All that aside, though: treating what this mass killing is called as more important than the fact that it is happening is a distraction tactic and an overall weak defense against how horrific the scope of what's being done to Palestine is.

I know this post is getting long, but if you don't mind bearing with me for one more moment I can share some of the news I've seen that the people who focus on tearing down activists are overlooking. I have spent a good chunk of time collecting info from credible sources like CNN, the United Nations, Amnesty International, and Doctors Without Borders, and I highly recommend reading a few of these articles all the way through. (They are very easy reads and shouldn't contain anything descriptive enough to be triggering, based on a quick scan by me.)

- 47.3% of Gaza's population is under 18 (this source also contains a lot of useful information on the ongoing effects of oppression in Palestine prior to this year) (keep in mind that it was written in 2023 so the death toll numbers are no longer relevant)

- Israel is a top 20 global military power with an estimated 670,000 active military personnel. The total population of the Gaza strip in 2022 was only an estimated 2,375,259, with no official military.

- the UN states 34,622 Palestinian people have been killed in Gaza since October 7th, including 7,797 children, 4,959 women, 1,924 elderly, and 10,006 men. This does not include an estimated 10,000 not recovered from the rubble. Only just over 1200 Israeli people have been killed in the same time period, the majority on October 7th.

- Israel has been unlawfully attacking residential buildings in areas they promoted as safe for civilians to evacuate to

- Air strikes by Israel on refugee camps

- Israel has banned Gaza residents from collecting rainwater

- Israel has used drones that play recordings of babies crying and people screaming for help to lure out and kill people who come to investigate

- Israel is blocking humanitarian aid shipments containing essential food, medical equipment, and generators from entering Palestine

- Israel targets journalists who try to document and broadcast what is going on

Antisemetism is an undeniable fact that is ongoing in the world around us and is causing active harm. There are no doubt people using this conflict as an excuse to further their own bigotry, and the people suffering from that have every right to speak on it and point out ways it might fly under the radar. When they do it by minimizing the gravity of the tragedy Palestinians are experiencing right now, though, and by implying dissent against a brutal colonizing government is the same as antisemetism, they are only making the issue worse by attaching the struggles of real individual Jewish people worldwide to the defense of sickening acts against humanity by Israel.

I hope this has been informative and kind as it was intended to be, and I hope you can leave better equipped to spot the differences between honest spreading of awareness and veiled bigotry, and decide which approaches to the situation you would rather show support for. Thank you again for opening yourself up to discussion like this. I think it's a deeply valuable and necessary tool against the Internet's current decent into echo chambers.

[raisethestake]

Tech x reader (NSFW) pt. 1/2

Excuse some of the crude language, I dont picture a relationship with Tech being overly romanticised so it felt weird to have especially eloquent and descriptive words for some reason 😂

Mostly fluff, gets more NSFW the further down you read. Enjoy!

(pt. 2 in development)

· I am a retired bounty hunter who gets employed by the Republic as a reconnaissance contact

· I was born on Ord Mantell

· I am quite paranoid, which makes me a great scout as I am always on the lookout.

· I am covered in piercings and tattoos

· Tech is also covered in tattoos

[reference 👇]

Meeting

· I work in 79's when I'm not on missions. This is where I was briefly acquainted with the Batch.

· I then got put on a mission with them about a month later.

· He is fascinated by my creative knowledge and wisdom. It is different than his own knowledge and while he's actually quite good when he joins me to paint sometimes, he struggles with conceptual ideas and prefers cold, hard facts.

· Me and Tech really hit it off with intellectual debates. I learnt stuff from him and he liked it when I asked for advice, but he also learnt about social and moral concepts from me.

· I am a trained night owl because I work in a bar, but i also enjoy the mornings, soaking in the peacefulness of either sides of the day.

· We are always the last 2 to go to bed, working in silence or having hushed conversations in the cockpit.

· Tech started to look forward to this undisturbed time with me.

· everyone noticed that I was Tech's new favorite person.

Flustered

· he was sat in the corner in 79's one night looking a litle distracted. I asked Hunter and Crosshair what was up when they were getting drinks. Hunter wasnt sure, but Crosshair said

· "he's hung up on someone and doesnt quite know what to do with himself."

· Hunter looked incredulous "who??"

· Crosshair's gaze went straight from Tech to me. I responded with a snort.

· he'd gotten onto Tech's data pad and seen mission reports filed by me. It looked like he was researching me, analysing my speech and thought process to be able to talk to me better.

· they asked me what i was going to do. I made a 'fuck it' face and finished my shift half an hour later.

· i came out with shots and offered one to Tech. "Come one mopey, we gonna dance?"

· as he stood up and shotted, "theres just something i gotta do first" and I took his chin and met his lips to mine.

· he got very flustered and started babbling about something in a low mumble. I took his hand and led him to the dancefloor.

· his dancing was a little awkward and self-conscious, but he was glad it was jazz so he didnt have to let loose to blend in. He was watching me intently the whole time. Me peppering him with kisses and him beginning to reciprocate, letting go of my hands to pull my waist in close. My arms thrown around his neck, we danced in an embrace.

· as we were around the boys all the time, we didnt get ample time to ourselves.

· Tech is NOT a morning person. He will stay asleep as long as time allows and is very grumpy. He will snap at people before he has his coffee.

· The boys warned me after we'd already slept together. I enjoy quiet in the morning anyway so I hadn't disturbed him.

· Morning Tech started to appear less often as having someone wake him up with neck kisses put him in a much better mood.

· we soon worked out that his main kink was love bites. It turned him on to see them during the day and know I was his.

· Tech is a madman. He clutters, scribbles on his walls, accidentally stays up late and tattoos himself.

· I slot into this well. While not as hardcore, I also tattoo myself and I am easy with the clutter. I am not the most tidy person but I like that I never feel guilty for it because he's worse than me.

· We are the lords of parallel play. We can sit in silence for hours. Tech tinkers, I do creative things, sometimes we sit and tattoo each other.

Good Morning

· we were on the Marauder after the rest of the boys woke up early to pick up parts in the city.

· I got up to make caff. Tech came in as I sipped and looked out the window.

· he made a cup and came to stand just behind me. I took his arm and wrapped it around my waist. He relaxed into it and rested his cheek on my head.

· I kissed his hand and he melted. He kissed my temple and made his way down to my neck, his hand moving to my hip. He stretched to set down his caff and squeezed my hips.

· i set my mug down and reached behind my head to stroke his hair. He pulled my pelvis into his as he added little licks down my neck and nibbled my ear.

· i turned around and our lips met. He towered over me as we backed against the wall.

· we jacked each other off at the same time until he lifted me up to curl my legs around his head and sat me on him.

· he began respectfully, but adapted as I encouraged him to go harder.

· i ended up turning round and he took me from behind. One hand reaching to rub my clit and biting my neck.

· he finished just after me.

· i had to brace against the wall to keep myself standing - weak in the knees. Tech twisted around and leaned his back against the wall. We looked at each other panting and chuckled before he took my hand and turned me around, sinking down to bring me ino his lap, where he held me and we kissed and talked.

· Tech is a sex GOD. I've had it good from bounty hunters, but never like him. He learnt everything about the female body when we got together to ensure I had the best time.

[bonesandthebees]

okay first of all i love the title anyways lets go!

i should potentially reread the prequel bjt yolo

title sic infit means so it begins thats neat i like it

im never going to shut up about the way you describe things like this is a dude resding a book but every word is written with such care that its so much more

ooh a ferronnière fancy i am googling so hard rn

the announcement from the snippets! i am very excited about this bit

i think that if wilbur isnt told about it that means it probably has something to do with him in some way. but i do think that even though he thinks phil would be told that he might mot have been its probably a pretty big thing i would think. if it was nothing wilbur would know i think so yeah i would assume that even if it doesnt directly pertain to wilbur that it will be something that will impact him

ah his choice on the heir? yes

i like the break you chose it fits

tnt duo!

i feel like its gonna be some curveball idk im like so skeptical that it would be that easy i also didnt read the summary oops anyways but ywah i feel like a secret third option gets named heir or something like tommy because you said we dont meet him this chapter but will next and yeah idk i dont ever expect things to go how people think they will

phil wasnt told

its definitely going to be a curveball

i dont think its the announcement they think it will be i truly think if it is related to the heir hes going to bring in a third option or just announce that a third option is the heir

something is happening tonight lets see it

how gay are ponk and sam on a scale of 7-10?

NEW VISITORS. TOMMY!

willum hehe

I WAS RIGHT (potentially)

i am so excited for this fic oh my god its going to be so good i can just tell

this pendant means so much its his family and his power and his status and its interesting

YOU HAVE PINTEREST BOARDS I WANT TO SEE THEM

OMG AND THE PLAYLIST FOR THIS FIC oooooooh i like the vibes

anyways im sooooo excited for this fic i think its going to be a fun one!

- 🪿

thank you!! the original title was just 'under the rose' but it felt off to me (partly bc I have a fic already titled under the brine and I thought it would be too similar) so I wanted to make it slightly different but still hold the same meaning. eli helped me brainstorm different words to add to it and then they suggested hanging and I was like ooo ok yeah we're gonna go with that, and I'm very happy with it now

the prequel is very fun if you want some more context + rainduo being cute kids

lol yeah figured sic infit was fitting as a first chapter title

tyyy I always struggle with finding my 'voice' in the first chapter of a new long form fic, because I need to figure out how I'm going to describe things and what word choice I'll lean towards so this chapter had a lot of me experimenting with different descriptions. i'm so glad you like them though!

ty ty I always have fun (read: struggle) with choosing the line breaks for my fics because I want them to hold at least some kind of meaning/connection to the story but also look nice. I experimented with a few unicode flowers and the order to put them in before I decided on the break I have now and I think it looks exactly how I wanted it

curveball :)))

sam and ponk are like a 9 because ponk isn't the king and even though sam keeps saying it's fine they know they gotta show some decorum in public

the pendant gets talked about more in the prequel, but yes it shows wilbur's status as being the son of the consil. it's representative of the role that has defined his entire life at the palace so it holds a lot of meaning to him

usually I have no problem sharing my pinterest boards for fics, but I actually don't have a public board for this one I just realized. the only board I have for it is a private one so it can be as messy and disorganized as I want and mostly just be used to hold references. I might make a public one though and if I do I'll share it with you all! for now though all you get is this one screenshot of part of it (yes there are so many screenshots from game of thrones on it because the costume design for that show is literally amazing)

the playlist is also a lot of fun I am trying so hard to find exactly the right vibes for it

thank you so much I'm so glad you're excited for this!! i'm so excited to share it with you all after so long :D

[fuck-off-im-ace]

I saw your tags about French book ideas 👀 i’m currently at a level where I’m just looking at graphic novels to read (I think I’ve got dialogue down but prose? Uhhhh) but if you had book recs that are above that level I can tuck them away for the future

Hi @sofflepoffle! I’m always super happy to have the opportunity to talk about french litterature, so i made you a little list, from easier reads to harder things!

Pierre Bottero - Le chant du Troll (French writer) This is my favorite writer of all times, and he writes children’s books. He’s incredible, his writing is so poetic and deep and well developped, with beautiful characters and a nice storyline. This one is a graphic novel, i usually dont suggest to start with this one because the story is 1000x more emotionnal if you already know about the world and who the kid is, but my mother read it out of the blue and she cried so i’d say it still hits? 

Hergé - Tintin (Writer from Belgium) You’re probably already familiar with the Tintin series, they’re honestly good as a learning tool. I would suggest Le secret de la licorne, On a marché sur la lune, or Les 7 boules de crystal.

Antoine de Saint-Exupéry - Le petit prince (French writer) Pretty well known, its easy to read, cute and wholesome overall, would recommend trying it!

Pierre Bottero - La quête d’Ewilan (French writer) He got a few book series, but they all connect with each other, so this is a good place to start but you could start from somewhere else! Easy read, since it’s a children’s book.

Jocelyn Boisvert - Mort et déterré (Writer from Québec) YA book, so pretty easy to follow! Cute story of a teenager who dies, but somehow doesnt fully dies? He becomes some kind of zombie creature, and then just chill as a zombie with his bestie, trying to do things he never got to do in his life. 

Jocelyne Saucier - Il pleuvait des oiseaux (Writer from Québec) I have to say, i didnt read it, but my friend recommended it to me, and he says its a good and easy read! They also made it into a movie, if you wanna try that.

Patrick Senécal - Any book of him, really (Writer from Québec) This writer is kind of our own Stephen King (kinda more gross and less good, no offense to the dude), so if its your kind of thing you could check it out, pretty easy read!

Michel Folco - Dieu et nous seuls pouvons (French writer) Comedic story of a family of excecutioners living in the XVIIe century. There is some torture and lots of killing of course, so avoid if its not your thing, but over all pretty good book!

Jean Barbe - Comment devenir un monstre (Writer from Québec) Very good book, heavy read because its a quite serious book. Very good tho!

Domique Fortier - Du bon usage des étoiles (Writer from Québec) Historical fiction, i liked the suspense and the description of the territory, a very captivating read! 

Véronique Grenier - Hiroshimoi (Writer from Québec) Fun fact, this writer was my philosophy teacher in college! She’s a poet and a writer, so this book is kinda halfway between both? It’s a love story, or rather a break up story, but written in form of a poem. It’s kinda hard to read, because she plays a lot on sounds, creates new words by mixing two together, so hard to read, but also pretty short sentences. 

Boris Vian - L’Écume des jours (French writer) A personnal favorite of mine, its an absurd tragedy, putting it on the top of the list because of the “absurd” quality of it. A lot of things do not make sense, like rooms that change shape depending on the music playing. 

I didnt want to into too much of a big rant, so just putting those i can think of quickly, but if you want more ideas, like more easy read or more medium reads or whatever you can always hit me up! I would also suggest reading something you’re already familiar with? You might be already doing that, but if not, for me its what helped the most. I literally just took books i read in french, found them in english, and then tried reading that. I hope this helps, hit me up if you need anything else!

[innocencelives]

talking to myself: An Idiosyncratic Life & A True Tinfoil Hat

i do still fall into spaces where its-maybe i made it up? maybe my moms right?-but im able to recognize, how heavily i was gaslit, how my mothers perspective-representative of the entire family-poisons my everyday world. i think about, what would she think of my messy place? what condescending, devaluing thing would she tell me about it? i start arguing with her, or worse-i start bonding with her. but shes not there. just her spirit, like a demonic infestation from several states away, its a curse to know shes breathing, and that her perspective still persists unchallenged in her world. but its hard to doubt it, when i ask myself, when i realize, a portion of the sexual abuse that happened later in my life, is as clear as day, as solid as concrete.

i do doubt the severity of it all. perhaps i dont doubt it, im in disbelief about it. im still, still, years and years later, still shocked by it. i still cant believe this pretty picture was tainted the whole time. but these two realities never merged, thats whats frustrating. they exist as separate states of mind, i vacillate between one and the other, unable to integrate the two into a cohesive life story.

black and white thinking i guess? the true reality, the one where i suffered more than anyone should, the one where one foundational trauma was expounded upon and multiplied until it was all i knew, until it eclipsed everything. the original trauma could be considered unbelievable, improbable sure-but knowing it is true, it makes all the gaslighting true.

things like psychiatrists convinced by my mom to medicate a psychosis that didnt exist. truly medically sedated, blamed by everyone, disbelieved and shunned by everyone i trusted, therapists and psychiatrists trying to convincing me i made it up, therapists who are seeing my father who raped me at the same time as they were seeing me, collaborating with my parents to deny my abuse. collaborating with my parents to GASLIGHT me. THAT is unbelievable, shocking, like a fucking movie. a conspiracy! a fucking tinfoil hat conspiracy of a life.

i mean. am i supposed to not have doubts? how could i, how could i just trust myself outright when my father admitted what he did, a few years before he seemed to genuinely say he didnt know what i was talking about. sometimes i feel like im in the wrong timeline. i wasnt supposed to understand what happened, i was supposed to continue to believe that was normal. maybe i could have lived a decent life. instead i chose to hold on to my truth, steadfast, stubborn and unwavering, clinging to memories that left me decrepit and crippled.

why would i do such a thing? of course i wanted to forget, to put it back, to close pandoras box and move on. but you see there was an indescribable feeling, that i try to explain to people to no avail. in 10th grade, when i opened it, i was triggered just by the word “boy” by the word “abuse”. but these triggers were freeing, like they released me from a burden. they hurt, so, so, so badly. i remember vividly, in chemistry class, there was a page of this big textbook, 581 or something, that had a picture of a sad little boy. every time i was in that class, i would flip to that page, look at it, and become lost in grief and melancholy.

that idiosyncratic symptom has followed me a decade later. just like in middle school i will sometimes read vivid, disturbing descriptions of war crimes such as the holocaust, unit 431, serial killers, serial rapists, pictures and all. this isnt morbid curiosity, no, this is a form of self harm. a futile attempt to understand the inexplainable nature of incestous abuse. a crime that so denies everything we hold dear about this earth that there is a genuine historical record of people disbelieving its entire existence. not just instances, freud himself believed this phenomenon of people coming to him about their abuse must be a kind of common fantasy.

i think part of the reason its been so many years and ive never recovered is that ive never gotten anything remotely close to closure. and i probably never will. they will continue to live their lives unaffected by the abuse, and i will continue to suffer from it-until the day we both die. nothing can be resolved, no book can be closed, nothing can be put behind me. feels like i walk around town with a knife in my back.

i know ill never know peace, but i can find contentment.

i can never be unburdened, but the burden can be accepted.

if i am haunted, then i will live as a person haunted

if i am burdened, i will live a life with my burden beside me.

if my life is half-lived, it is still a life after all.

[hext00ns]

2 17 57 94 for the writing thing >:)

2) talk about a notable time a narrative or character has looked you dead in the eyes and said “fuck your plan, heres what were actually doing”

My GOD this happens to practically every fucking thing i write like bro im not writing this story the characters are i have no fucking control over them or what’s happening fr like twice TWICE i was writing a short ship one shot and they DIDNT actually get together in the end like i wanted them to this happened to both Wrightworth and Shawn/Lassiter and im like guys,,, pls,,,,,,,,

17) what is your favorite like you’ve ever written

Oh god this is so hard well theres this one from an unposted wip i did. I just really like the phrasing a lot

“So where do I come into all of this?” Drake finally asked.

Hooter paused for a moment, clearly taken off of whatever bush he was attempting to pummel into the ground.

Then theres this one from How Sweet That Taste of Certainty that makes me want to explode when i think about it

Shadow looked from the weapon then to Sonic, who had gone to sit where Shadow had just been. Blue legs hanging off the side of the old, wood and metal shingles. The last few lights of day cascaded a halo of color around Sonic’s form. Shadow was never religious, but even he could take note of the feeling churning in the pit of his very being at the sight.

Those two were the first to come to mind lol but im sure i have a favorite like from just about everything gftrdfgrth

57) what is the last thing that made you google for a fic you were reading?

Uuhhhhhhhhh ill be so real i ignore everything i dont understand and keep reading if i dont know a word or thing i either use context clues or just say fuck it lmaoo but ig there was this one time i was reading SUPER old psych fan fics and one was a crossover of a vampire show id never heard of so i googled the show out of curiosity

94) do you prefer dialogue or description?

God i love both like maybe that’s cliche but like both are SO FUN my biggest issue is i get so into writing one for a scene i completely forget to even THINK about the other its prob my biggest writing weakness that i personally see where i need to focus on mixing the two to make a good full scene

SEND ME ASKS PLS

[expfcultragreen]

I accidentally stuck my tongue so far into my cheek that it turned into a rude gesture 🤷

Like where's the lie, they do think exactly that, i nailed their sentiments exactly and now someone thinks i share them? All like "im here to patrol whether you count as a lefty or not", not like "what did you mean by that" just like "my interpretation is x, here is your sentence". I really wanted this kid to message back so i could find out more about his ideas of community like approximately what kind of organizing he's done RL and, if any, whether it was with anyone over 25. Because like, something i find endlessly interesting about "the left" or qiltbag culture, is there are sharp generational divides in what makes someone feel unwelcome in these communities or "thrown under the bus," and ironically this way of bringing an issue to someone is patternisticaly how people younger than myself in any network ive been in, have alienated the people older than myself. So rather than responding glibly to this kid with some brush-off about like "this isnt it, learn to parse content more astutely or you'll be branded a narcissistic disruptor" i really wanted to get some dialogue going.

Like I'd tell myself to work on clarity but there's literally no accounting for how people read stuff/whether they choose to pay attention to the part of my blog description that says dont even bother reading this blog. So all i can do is clarify if/when someone brings something up. And no one ever likes that, because being asked to look at the other person's pov is just filed as gaslighting when the person with a (tone-policing, hello) criticism already doesnt trust you.

Intersectionally speaking its insane to read "wellness check survivor" and be like "anyway im here to hold you accountable for calling yourself a lefty--using my own standards which are very important and objective"

Like this is so fascinating, what is this kid THINKING, like what kind of egotrip is it exactly? Youthful inexperience?

Jsyk wellness check survivor is code for "i am so controversial the pigs nearly murdered me and they may try again" so like i am clearly madpridecore and hard acab/kcsw-wave, and if youre positioning yourself as the arbiter of who gets to be a lefty, you should probably know that bossing the-crazy-people-who-are-targeted-by-police-violence around and telling us what our words mean, is actually really unconsciously fashy and your whole ass is hanging out right about now

But apparently we cant have anything approaching a fruitful private exchange about it because what i said seems to have been ignored. Like, you could have just paid attention to any of the cues in my header and not wasted your time messaging me. The gender neutral fairy emoji alone screams "i am not going to respond to you in a way that you find productive 💚"

I can actually read and can actually apply intersectional leftism, being very old (accident) and experienced (i racked up life experience like it was my career, its gotta count for something), so when i got this message i was just like "oh he's autistic ...meaning, he didnt happen to understand my tone from how i worded it and he found what i said pointlessly inflammatory because he cant imagine the audience aside from himself and doesnt understand the intention of my words within that broad context of unknown audience,,,,,, i will simply explain myself to him and apologise for the upset, rather than going out of my way to point out what a stupid jackass he is" ...directly anyway 😏 it was my first instinct but then my reading comprehension kicked in and i saw clearly through the haze of my triggered emos that it just wouldnt be appropriate, considering the information ive been given about the person who triggered me. Is this funny to you yet? Its funny to me....

[worstdisastermaster]

The books and the shows aren't the same thing and?? That's okay?? It doesn't have to be??

Some of the artists haven't even seen the show yet, and maybe won't 🤷‍♀️ I know I've seen like. The 1st episode and that's it lol. And I really enjoyed it and I think it's really fun

But people tend to separate book fandoms from in screen fandoms, to an extent, at least, bc there ARE differences, and THATS OKAY

They are very connected but they are not the same and I don't understand why people find that so hard to accept?? Like. Genuinely I'm so confused lol

Like if someone was being disrespectful, or trying to whitewash Leah or something horrid then like. Defend her!!! (Do try to be polite tho bc people can and often do change, and they know what they have been taught until they learn more- like for example, a few years ago I had no idea ab anything lgtbq and I peob would have gotten myself canceled bc I had. No idea. Ab any of it. And despite having best intentions in heart i totally would have offended someone, and that would have crushed me, because *i didnt know*. I never would have hurt anyone on purpose, i just didnt realize what COULD hurt others on that specific topic, much less why. But now I identify with it and am learning new things ab jt every day and etc. And that's a super touchy topic for a lot of people and for good reason too! Just try to be kind first, then if they are jerks u can be a jerk back lol. Just give peopke a chnace to get better- and then PLEASE dont hold the past against them ubless they very clearly havent changed mk please please please let people grow and change and get better dont crush them before they can) anti Leah trash is. That. Trash

But why would you attack book Annabeth, just for existing? She was my childhood, and I identified a lot with her as I grew up. And guess what! I also identified with Hazel, and I do so even more now! No matter what race she will be casted as, I'm still going to imagine BOOK Hazel the way I always did. Doesn't mean I won't adore her actress, or appreciate art of the girl playing her role! But would you call me racist for drawing her as African American if her actress, was, say, Asian American? Or drawing Leo as Latino instead of Somoan? Because to me, u less I am being a jerk about it, all I'm doing is drawing the book instead of the show. Idk I'm too sleep deprived to put my thoughts into coherent words lol

I love the posts, where it's like, book Annabeth and show Annabeth holding hands. Those posts are my favorite, both because they are freaking adorable, but also. Because it's equal

They are different aspects of the same person

And

Thats

Okay

You know???

I quite literally grew up reading pjo. I read it at least once every year since I learned HOW to read, *partially on pjo*, until late middle school. I was raised on book Annabeth.

Show Annabeth is new and exciting and adorable and I'm so happy for it and I am very excited for all the people being introduced to it!!!!!!!! However, when I'm writing book pjo, I'm not swaping it out for show scenes, bc they are, in fact, different. Which, again, NOT A BAD THING. And you know what? When people from the show fandom write their scenes, they aren't going to be thinking ab the book scenes, and THATS OKAY TOO!!! And I could care less how my readers saw my characters when the read the story. I write them the way I imagine them, but it's their job as the reader to say 'no, actually :P' and swap out the appearance for one they liked better.

I did that plenty often as a kid, and i donf regeret it.

Which, ironically enough, was why my book Percy was blond until ab 6th grads XD I mixed up Luke and Percy's hair description ONCE and just. Never questioned it, though all the rereads, or looking at the covers of the books 💀 you can imagine my shock when I joined the fandom and found out Percy had black hair, instead of sandy hair like, you know, S A N D, like poseidon!!! And now show Percy is blond XD

That just proves people can imagine things how they want and jts okay- especially bc maybe, in an au, they're rifht!!! (Au being show Percy to me)

Anyways I lost my train of thought and it's almost 12 here lolll I hope I didn't say anything ill be embarrassed by come tomorrow~

Good night world :3

Hi guys, wanted to discuss something going on for a while now. What the hell is wrong with pjotwt? Like...whats wrong with this people? Do you see what they say? What they are even trying to do?

First of all, let me start by speaking about the cast. They are all wonderful children, Leah especially! She is doing an amazing job as Annabeth. But book Annabeth still exists yk? She is and she is literally white. It is not racist. But denying about a character being white in the books, even spreading hate like this...is racist. There are people out there related with Annabeth for years. People love her, every version, maybe book more maybe even the movie. How can you disrespect her like this? And most importantly, how can they attack an artist like this, with an art being so beautiful. What they are trying to do is not protecting Leah, it is spreading hate. It is awful. Making this fandom toxic, so so much.

Them trying to erase book Annabeth because she is white, trying to cover her by painting on her, shaming artists, calling people that loves her racist...What do we do about this in pjo fandom? This fandom used to be so beautiful, but now. This people are not part of the fandom in my eyes, because real fans, would respect every version of the characters, love them with their anything, even flaws. They would protect this characters because they love them, so much. And not to mention this characters are the ones Rick wrote 20 years ago, they were with us for so long.

What do tumblr think about this I wonder? Since pjo fandom is pretty active here :3

[babieken]

Your description of the majority of men reactors 💀 Oh yes, catling benson is one of those I enjoy as well! I wasn't sure if you were referring to them because I still haven't watched their last video, but I had the feeling something was going on. I'm glad she's being transparent about how she feels.

I think reactors often happen to have particularly excited or dramatic reactions and get/feel pressured to have the same reaction to everything they watch, also to avoid toxic fans comments... I'm sorry (not sorry) but I blame young new kpop fans for this, especially those coming from twitter, where these reactors seem to find most (if not all) rude (or worse) comments. Of course not all of them are like this, I know and see so many that are not, they are respectful and behave in a more human and chill way, but there's a big portion that does, sadly.

Anyway. I'm all for reacting to a limited number of groups, if I were ever to do such thing, I would react to my favorites and occasionally others. However, I also realize that for many this is or becomes a job, and so the wider the public the better... About authenticity, for me it's quite fundamental otherwise I just feel like I'm wasting my time...

My fav reactors are (apart from the two i've already mentioned), the safe cave (they're also been pretty transparent with subscribers over time, took breaks when needed and made clear how and what they react to, definitely my number 1) and Lktv (he does bang his head lmao but I enjoy his reactions, he does comment a lot most of the time.)

Recently I saw a few reactions from millennial men and katriinka, a vocal coach. They seem good, at least from what I saw. I knew i forgot something 🤡 choreography! Idk why is so hard to find good dancers reactions... there's jeff avenue, there was a time he used to explain even more stuff and it was 👌👌👌 Musa is too much for me 💀 too much... I also find it exaggerated, also because it's like a standard for him to react that way. And when there's an important message behind he doesn't seem to catch it? I haven't watched all his videos, but some made me mad lol so I was like, "okay, enough, thank u next".

Exactly! Like it’s to be expected for someone who’s reacting to kpop for the first time to be blown away by pretty much everything bc kpop is just on a different level than western music videos, but after a while it becomes the norm and u have to start being real… otherwise whats the point?

Yeah i also think that toxic stans are a huge part of the problem but i think its time for ppl to stop tiptoeing around and trying to fit their content into a mold just to avoid toxic stans bc all that does is give them more power. (Obv its easy for me to sit here and say this but idk i feel like we need to just do our own thing until these toxic stans learn that the world doesn’t revolve around them and their faves)

Oooh ive seen kaia’s vids on search but i dont think ive ever checked any of them out! I’ll definitely give them a shot! And I actually watched lktv’s reaction to beautiful liar and as far as enthusiasm goes they were pretty decent but one thing that kind of gave me the ick was the random korean words they threw around (and the korean greeting) idk it just gave me koreaboo vibes kdkdkdk

I remember there was this one vocal coach reacts who had really long hair and he was pretty real. Like he clearly wasnt doing it to appease kpopies. Their main reaction content wasnt even kpop but i havent seen them around (tho i didnt look them up either) in ages. Yeah… im sorry jeff avenue’s reactions are boring too.

[vngelgyu]

anorgasmia pt.2

this fic contains 18+ content. minors do not read or interact.

☆ pairing - female!reader x Seonghwa

☆ warnings - rough sex, creampie(twice), momentary fingering, pet name, finger sucking, unprotected sex(plz dont do this), cockwarming, momentary grinding.

☆ word count - 2.1k

☆ genre - smut

☆ description - pt.2 of Anorgasmia, they have sex lmao

☆ authors note - there may be a few discrepancies between this one and the first one but idk, i got carried away and ended up adding more to it.

☆ tags - @yunhoflrtz

It had been about 2 weeks since you and Seonghwas first sexual encounter and those 2 weeks were full of almost daily orgasms, caused by his mouth and fingers.

he had yet to even do so much as grind on you and you weren’t sure why because you told him that he could do whatever he wanted to you before your first sexual encounter. despite that, he hadn’t done much other than helping you out sexually. you had both confessed your love to each other but your relationship didn’t change at all. no hugs, no kisses. just him and you co-existing in your shared apartment.

you were laying on your bed with your upper body hanging upside down off the side of it, when there was a knock on your door. you told him to come in and he did so and sat next to you. “we need to talk y/n”, he said while waiting for you to sit up. once you were properly sitting next to him, he said “do you remember how i told you that i love you?”. you nodded and looked at a picture frame that was on the other side of your room.

“i need you to look at me please.” he said while waiting for you to turn to look at him, but you didn’t and he sighed lightly in frustration. “i really wish you would listen to me. its important, so please don’t make me force you to look at me y/n.” you slowly turned to look at him, slightly turned on by the slight edge in his voice.

“good girl, now, i was wondering if you would be my girlfriend.” he asked you with a hopeful gleam in his eyes.

you didn’t respond, you just stared at him as you weren’t expecting him to ask you out, in fact, it was the last thing on your mind considering you had given up on any hope that your relationship would move to the next level. you couldn’t believe that someone as handsome as Seonghwa would want to be with you. he had confessed to you but you thought that maybe it was a spur of the moment thing. “y/n?” he called your name but you just continued to stare at him. you weren’t really sure what to say so you just settled for nodding your head, but that wasn’t enough for him and he said “use your words y/n”.

you took a deep breath and opened your mouth but your words refused to come out, so Seonghwa started slowly counting and you had a feeling that you should respond before he got to 3, so you quickly said “yes”. and he smiled and hugged you gently.

but now you had questions swarming around your head. “why did you wait so long to ask me? i thought you didn’t want me anymore.” you asked him, looking away from him again.

“i was nervous to be honest. I’ve wanted nothing more than to hold you, kiss you, make love to you, and take you on dates for the last few years and when you told me you loved me, i felt relieved but really nervous too.” he said while looking at the mess of clothes and crumpled papers on your floor.

“you want to make love to me..?” you asked shyly. Seonghwa looked up at you, surprised that you thought he didnt want to, and said “of course i do, its all i think about when i touch you.”

now you were staring at the mess on the floor while your face heated up at embarrassment from the words that left his mouth. “then why didn’t you before?” you asked him while pouting.

he grabbed your face and turned it so that you were looking at him and kept his grip on your chin while saying “because baby, i wanted to wait until after i asked you to be mine. i know that you said i could do whatever i wanted to you but i wanted it to be special. it was really hard holding myself back these few weeks, but now that you belong to me..” he trailed off, his voice getting lower in octave as he slowly pushed you down onto your bed so that you were laying on your back with him hovering over you, hips between your thighs. “i dont have to hold back anymore, i can touch you, kiss you, lick you, and fuck you as much as i want.. that is what you want isnt it?” he finished. you whispered out a simple "please" and seonghwa began pressing his jean covered bulge against you and let out sigh at the feeling of finally being pressed against you after all these years of wanting you.

seonghwa continued to grind his bulge against you while sucking on your neck and leaving hickies. you moaned quietly and wrapped your arms around him, sliding your hands under his shirt and rubbing his smooth back. seonghwa sat up and pulled his shirt off and you did the same and resumed the position you were in before. your hands roamed his upper body as he ground his bulge against you with more force and sucked on the sensitive spot behind your ear, marking you.

needing to feel more of you, he sat up once again and pulled your shorts and panties down your legs while you unclasped your bra and threw it across your room. seonghwa pulled his jeans and boxers off and you gasped at the sight of his dick. just looking at it, you didn’t know if it would fit. he was definitely the biggest you'd ever had. he snapped you out of your thoughts by saying “roll over onto your belly baby” and you obeyed his command. he grabbed a pillow and tapped your hip, motioning for you lift them and he slid the pillow under your pelvis so prop you up better a little.

he pressed his cock against your ass and ground against it slowly while kissing the skin of your upper back and caressing your side, using his other arm to prop himself up. you could feel his nose gently brushing against your back as he whispered “you’re so beautiful.” against your skin and then sat back up before spreading your legs and pressing the tip of his cock against your slit, rubbing against it and reveling in the way it glided between your lips, coating the tip with your wetness, before lining himself up with your entrance and slowly and carefully sliding into you. he let out a groan as your warm and wet walls sqeezed around him. if he didnt have as much willpower as he did, the slight contraction of your walls would have had him cumming inside you already.

you whined as he stretched you open. you could feel his dick deep inside of you and you would probably be able to see the bulge in your stomach if you were laying on your back. he hadn’t even started moving yet and your legs were trembling from the pleasure. you had never had that big of a dick inside of you before. you gripped the sheets of your bed as you got used to the way he was completely filling you, not only length wise, but with his girth as well.

seonghwa started moving slowly, thrusting deep inside of you while letting out a string of curse words and moans. he had been waiting to be deep inside you for so long and you felt better than he could have ever imagined. despite being big, you were taking all of him so well that he couldnt help but want to make you take more of him. he was torn between wanting to be gentle and passionate since it was your first time together, and absolutely ruining you, making you drool as tears fell from your eyes while he fucked you endlessly and pumped you full of his cum, load after load, just completely making a mess of you.

seonghwa pushed those thoughts from his head, deciding not to break you just yet (unless you asked for it) and thrusted into you faster but not putting a bunch of force into the thrusts. seonghwa then asked “baby, can i cum inside of you and make you mine?” and you moaned out “yes”, before saying "more, please". while he obviously felt amazing, you needed more.

it was as if you had read his mind and with no further thought, his hands found themselves on your round ass and began roughly squeezing while separating to see the way he disappeared inside of you with every thrust. he began pulling out almost completely so that he could see the way your creamy slick coated his shaft before snapping back into you. after a few thrusts, his hands moved to your waist, squeezing tightly as he fucked into you with a quick rhythm, hitting deep inside you before pulling out to do it again and again.

your moans got louder and you felt your climax coming. your legs were trembling and you tried to let seonghwa know but the words wouldnt come out. lucky for you, he could tell you were close by the way your body tensed and how you subconsciously kept trying to pull away from him due to the sensitivity inside you. seonghwa tightened his hold on your hips and slammed himself into you and with a final hard thrust into you, you came, clenching around him, which caused seonghwa to follow in your lead and he pumped you full of his cum. he moaned about how good you were for finishing around him and collapsed on your back for a few minutes before sitting up and slowly pulling out of you. he spread your lips and watched as his cum leaked out of you before gathering what was dripping down your folds with 2 fingers before plunging them inside of you.

you whined as your body tried to jerk away from him but seonghwa wasnt having that and said "shhh its okay, im not quite done with you yet but you can take more cant you? you took my cock so well that i cant help but want to give you more of it."

even though you were sensitive, you couldnt ignore the pleasure you felt as Seonghwa slowly curled his fingers inside of you, so you said "i-i can take it hwa"

seonghwa pulled his fingers out of you and lined himself up with your entrance again before thrusting into you and then held his messy fingers in front of your mouth before saying "open". you opened your mouth and began sucking on the 2 fingers as soon as they entered your mouth.

seonghwas thrusts sped up as he started fucking you at the same speed as before, but with slightly more force. the moans that slipped out around his fingers came out choked and noisy and that was all you could hear other than the sound of his balls slapping against you with every thrust, which made a loud smacking sound due to the cum that had leaked out of you. you had no idea how seonghwa still had so much energy while you were basically a shakey puddle on your bed despite not doing anything other than laying there.

the tall boy pulled his fingers out of your mouth and moved both hands to your upper back, holding you down as his thrusts increased in force. seonghwa had dreamed of being inside of you for so long that he couldnt find it in himself to be gentle with you, but you werent complaining, your previous partners had never made you feel as good as seonghwa was.

you could feel your second orgasm building and felt tears prick your eyes. your body felt like it was on fire. you could feel everything, the way his cock dragged against your walls, the way his balls smacked against your clit, you could feel his dick twitch and throb inside you, and the way your pebbled nipples rubbed against your bed slightly with every thrust. it was all too much and before you knew it, you were cumming around seonghwas dick, which was still pounding into you, but not as rhythmically because of the vice grip your walls had around him.

you whimpered his name as seonghwa continued and he said "just a little bit more baby" as he moved his hands back to your hips. he pulled your hips up to meet his with each thrust and after a few more minutes of him using you as if you were a doll, you felt him fill you with cum for the second time, but this time he didnt pull out, instead, he carefully layed down on top of you before rolling on his side, bringing your limp body with him so that he was still inside you.

“ill clean you up later, but for now, get some rest" he said quietly and your eyes fluttered closed, letting the exhaustion take over.

[staytinyhoe]

That's What Brats Get

2Chan ( Chan x Changbin x Y/N )

Description: You are sitting in the studio bored while waiting on your two boyfriends to finish up work but they are taking forever and you just want a little bit of attention. Is that so hard to deliver?

Warning: Smut, Little bit of name calling, Reader becomes a little bratty, Oral female receiving, Reader gets tied up with a belt, Reader cries a little bit, Orgasm denial, Male masterbation, Changbin likes to watch

Word Count: 3674

Psa: This is my first ever posting something I written I had this In my drafts for a while I thought why not finish it and post it so here it is. And most of stories I had either dreamed or thought about from the top of my head

It seems like I made a lot of mistakes tonight without even realizing that I did and it's really not my fault if we're being honest. I wasn't trying to act like a brat, it just decided to come out. You see Chan and Changbin were busy preparing for the comeback and i knew that but i also felt very lonely. I didn't want all of their attention, a little bit would have been just fine but they have completely ignored me and I'm so sick of it. Us 3 have been in a poly relationship and have been dating for the past 3 years now and don't get me wrong i love these boys with all my heart and would anything for them but a girl need a little loving too. Me and Changbin was dating first ( well not really) we met at the gym. One day i was working out and these guys decided to be assholes and try to cop a feel on me but luckily Changbin was there to help me out. Well after that we became gym buddies and then we became best buddies. After hanging out at the gym Changbin out of nowhere asked me out on a date and of course I said yes, after going on a couple of dates that's when Chan came along.

Chan and Changbin was really close everytime seen them around changbins house or we would be at the park and Chan would somehow hold his attention. And i kinda had my suspicions that something was going between those two and i can't say that my feelings wasn't hurt when Changbin had told me he and Chan was in a relationship. I mean i kinda figured that out when they was always either hugging or like holding hands when they thought no one was paying attention them. But things turned around when they both announced that they both had feelings for me. i was shocked and didn't know what to do especially about Chan since i didnt know him that well. That's when they told me they were looking for a 3 person join inon the relationship and asked if I wanted to give it a try and if I didn't like then fine and we would remain friends. So I decided to give it a try and started going on dates with both of them or going 1 on 1 and well you can guess the rest.

We were inside of the JYP building chilling in one of the studios that was being used to record Chans Room . After finishing the Vlive with Changbin as a guest they decided to work on the comeback for a bit. I didn't really mind sitting with them and keeping them company. I mean I don't really see them alot because of how tightly packed their schedule is. So spending time with them even if it is in their studio is just fine by me. I'm just happy to be by their side.

“ Channie I know you said give you and Binnie some time but I'm really bored and need something to do'' I say as I give out a little huff, because why don't they understand that I'm bored and need just a little bit of attention. I mean i dont think I'm asking for a lot here. Just a little cuddling or even a quick kiss on the lips and I will be satisfied. I just need a little something to calm me down. “ I know baby but I promise you we are almost done and when we are we can do whatever it is you want to do but you just have to be patient princess” Chan says to me while turning his head slightly to acknowledge me.

“But I don't want to wait any longer!!. I want to do something right now”, I say while giving a little pout and crossing my arms . I was starting to get a little annoyed by now as I have been sitting here scrolling through my phone and playing games to try and pass time and yet it was not working. “ Aww come on y/n don't be like that now Chan just told you to give us a little ti-. I gave out a big sigh cutting Changbin off in the middle of his sentence without thinking twice and that right there was the first mistake of the night. “ No,'' I said I'm tired of waiting around bored. Why can't one of you give me attention?!!” I said jumping up and stomping my feet like a little baby. I know I'm being a bit childish but I want attention and I want it now.

As I was throwing a little fit I failed to realize the look that the two of them shared. it seems as if they came to some sort of agreement without talking but like i said i was too busy not paying attention. “Look princess I don't know what has gotten into you, but I know for a fact that neither me nor Chan like it”. Changbin says as he stands up and Chan turns completely in the chair to watch the scene unfold right in front of him. “So i suggest that you behave yourself right now or we are going to have a problem” Changbin challenges as he steps a little closer to me while crossing his arms making his muscles bulging in his all black shirt.

My 2nd mistake was that I just didn't give up after they told me no the second time but I'm the type of person to stick to what I believe and I believe that I should get attention when I haven't gotten it in a while so with that being said I decided to stand my ground. “No!!'' I say while stepping closer to changbin while maintaining eye contact . Changbin raises his eyebrow at me and then proceeds to turn around and look at Chan who just shrugs his shoulders with a smirk on his face. I clear my throat and they both look back at me. “ I dont think it's fair that you guys have not been paying attention to me right now and I don't like it.”

“Oh really Chan says you don't like how we are acting that's quite hilarious don't you think Bin?.” Chans turns his head to his boyfriend who has been staring at me with a little smirk on his face. He lets out a little laugh, “ I do think it's quite funny Chan baby thinks she can talk to us like this and get what she wants ” he says shaking his head.

“ Well I don't think it's funny and neither should you”. I say rolling my eyes and stomping my feet a little bit to get my point across. “ I want attention and I want it now!!” See here is where my 3rd mistake came in, getting fed up with my attitude Chan finally stands up walking towards me without breaking eye contact. I slowly start to back away but before I can Chan reaches out and grabs my jaw between his fingers and roughly squeezes my cheeks, I let out a little whimper as he looks at me with a little bit of lust disguised as anger in his eye. Chan hates when i get bratty but on the other hand Changbin loves it. “Bin make sure the door is locked we wouldn't want anyone to come in to see us punishing our little brat now would we?”. He says to Changbin without breaking eye contact with me as I try to pull my face away from his hands but to no avail I wasn't able to get out of his strong grip. “ I'm not a brat.” I mumble while watching Changbin from the corner of my eye. I can see him walking over to the door peeking out of it to make sure no one is around and then closing and locking the door. “Oh really?” Chan says, pulling my face closer to his “So you're not acting like a brat?”.

“No I'm not being a brat!”. I say as I try to shake my head. His other hand slowly comes up and I grab onto his wrist as it goes to squeeze my neck just a little bit. “Oh really so you weren't being a brat a couple of minutes ago when you were stomping your feet and huffing and puffing?”. Changbin says as he walks up behind me running his hands up and down my side, as i slowly start to lose my resolve being between these two it's just something about binnies hands running and down my body and his face resting against my neck while Chans hands are around my throat slowly giving little squeezes while he is looking down at me with that predatory gaze of his i just can't help but my lip looking at these men.

I can't help but rub my thighs together and give out little breathy moans as Changbin breath hits my neck. “ I asked you a question, princess were you or were you not acting like a little brat a couple of minutes ago?”. Changbin says while biting down softly on my neck by this time Chan has already let go of my face, I let out a little moan. “ No, I said I wasn't being a brat!”. I answer while rolling my eyes and try pushing Changbins arms off of me but before I could succeed Chan is turning me around to face Changbin who suddenly grabs me by my hair and pulls my head to the side. I quickly try to reach up and grab his wrist but Chan grabs my arms holding them tight behind my back.

“ If i was you i would lose the fucking attuide princess cause right now you are playing a dangerous game and trust believe you would not like the outcome of it. So stop acting like a fucking brat and behave”. Changbin says with a growl. “ Or what?!”. I say while challegening him. He then looks up and Cahn behind me and for a moment everything goes quiet and thats when i realized i had fucked up and there was no going back. “ I see”, Changbin nods his head and steps away while unbuckling his pants. As he snatches off his belt and hands it to Chan who is still behind me, he accepts the belt and ties it around my wrist and starts to lead to the couch in the studio. Chan then turns me around and pushes me down on the couch so now I'm lying on the couch with my hands behind my back.

“ What are you do-?!”, “Shut the hell up, did I tell you to speak!?. I don't think you understand the position you are in, baby girl, I don't want to hear a word out of you. Do you understand me?”. I shake my head yes, “ Good girl now relax and I'm going to give you the attention you want”. Chan leans down, so we are face to face and his lips are ghosting on top of mine. I try to reach up to kiss him but he pulls away. I give out a little whine and that's when he finally gives in and kisses me. I felt like I was in heaven with how soft his lips were on mine. He lightly bit my lip making me open my mouth just for him to slip his tongue in my mouth. I moan out at the feeling of his tongue in my mouth. The kiss is starting to get hot and heavy as I slowly start to grind up into him. I can feel his cock starting to strain in his pants. “ Look at the little brat, it's like she is in heat with the way she is grinding into you”. Changbin says while letting out a dark seductive chuckle. I moan out hearing his deep voice.

Chan's hands slowly start running up and down my sides until his hands start to zip down the zipper on my jacket he slowly stops and looks at me while raising his eyebrow. “No shirt today. Such a slutty little brat”. He says as his hands run down my skin until they stop at my pants. “Maybe this was her plan the whole time just to get fucked in the studio”. Chandbin says from behind Chan.

I lift my head and see Changbin sitting in one of the chairs with his shirt off. He looks so good that I just moan at the sight of just sitting there with that sexy smirk on his face. I'm seriously going to need him to stop going to the gym cause it's not good for my heart. Chan grabs my face, turning my attention back on him as he plays with the buttons of my pants. “Pay attention to me princess, I need you to lift your hips up”. I slightly lift my hips so he can take off my pants and i shiver just a little bit as the wind hits my skin

Chan hands run and down legs trying to warm me up a little bit as he lifts one of my legs and kisses my calf, while looking up at me. “Where do you want me princess? Do you want me here?” he says while running his fingers on lips. “Or here?”, while his finger ran down my neck and stomach. “Or maybe you want me?”. He says as he presses a finger to clothe core my breath hitches just a little.

“Yes Yes Please!!”I say while arching my back a little hoping he will hurry up and do something but he just lets out a little chuckle and pulls my panties to the side and presses against my clit, rubbing slight circles. My back arches off the couch as i let out a moan, “Please please don't tease!!” I started to beg Chan. “Aww baby is so desperate to get her pussy ate Chan maybe you should give her what she wants.” Changbin says while letting out a little chuckle, “ I would hate for baby to miss out on an amazing orgasm”.

“ I'll be good i promise just please make cum please Chanie!!!”. I moan out as I buck my hips up towards his face. “ Ok ok baby relax i'm going to take care of you”. Chan says, pining my hips to the couch and finally attaching his mouth to my core.

‘ Fuck baby!!!”. Chan mouth is like heaven on earth, it's something you can never get tired of. Just the way his soft lips wrap around my clit and the way his tongue licks up and down making sure to reach places I never knew he could reach. The chan worked his tongue so well that he had you seeing stars instantly. “ Oh my god baby please!!”. I can’t help but rock my cunt up and down his face. “Yea, does it feel good princess? Are you going to come just from Channie fucking you with his tongue? My gosh aren't you such a slut”. I hear Changbin's voice which is very surprising with how loud I am. I just know the people out the door can us in here. Changbin dirty talk is pushing me closer to my orgasm and he knows this from the smirk that is resting on his face. “ Fuck im going to cum please don’t stop!”. “ Yea baby you gonna cum?”. Oh god yes. Can i please cum?”. “ Of course baby go ahead cum for us like the good girl you are”. I should have known something wasn't right the moment he gave me the okay to cum but at this i didn't care i was just happy to be getting the attention i wanted.

My stomach was starting to tighten and everything started to turn white as Chan sucked ever harder on my clit making me come so close cumming it was right there and I could feel. It was like tasting your favorite food in a long time. It was to the point where I could taste it on my tongue and I just couldn't wait to have it. But like I said it was too good to be true because it was at that moment Chan decided to pull away from me before I could cum. He backs up and it takes me a moment to register everything that just happened since I'm still kinda out of it even though I didn't even cum yet. Once I settled down and caught my breath I looked over to see Chan snatching his shirt off and sitting down in the chair next to Changbin. They both have their pants and boxers down to their knees and their hard cocks resting against their stomach pre cum leaking from the tip. I unconsciously lick my lips watching it just drip down the side of their ccoks. “ Look Changbin, I think the baby wants a little taste.” I nodded my head without even knowing it.

“ But why did you stop?”. I ask without taking my eyes off of their cock. It was so thick and long and felt wonderful on my tongue. All I really want to do is just feel both of their cocks on my tongue. “ Did you really think you were going to cum after acting like such a brat today?”. Changbin says while slowly stroking his cock spreading his precum all over his cock as lube. I honestly don't know he lasted so long without touching himself. “ Bad girls don't get to cum baby and you know this' . “But” I start to say but Chan cuts me off.

“But nothing baby this is your punishment now lay there and take it like a good girl you are ''. And that's when I realized what was happening. “Please please no,anything but that please!!”. I begged out as i watch them both stroke their cock as i tried to reach out to them but then i remember my arms was still tied. “Please don't do it, I promise I'll be good!”. “You should've thought about that before acting like a brat,” Chan groans.

The studio started to fill up with their groans and grunts and started to feel really hot and steamy and I couldn't take my eyes off of them. The way that they had their head thrown back, neck on full view and with little sweat beads running down their neck. As their abs start to clench as they are getting close to their orgams. Just the way their veiny hands are stroking their cock and the way the pre cum is dripping down their fingers just does something to me and I can't help but moan out and rub my thighs together. “Oh Fuck!!” I hear Changbin moan out. “ Im so fucking close” “Me too Binne”. Chan says as he grips his cock a little harder “ Please don’t cum!”. I start to cry out as tears start to form in my eyes.

This was one of the punishments I hate the most because of the outcome. They always make sure I cum before them and the only time that they ever cum before me is when I know I won't be cumming at all for the next couple of days. “Please please don’t I promise I'll be good please just don’t cum”. I say practically crying but the pleas fall on deaf ears as they both cum all over their hands and stomach with loud groans. I hang my head down low as the tears finally start falling down my cheeks.

I felt hands start to lift me to sit up and I look up to see Changbin and he starts reaching over me to untie my hands from behind my back. “Aww my poor baby” He says as he cups my face. “ Did you learn your lesson princess?”. “ Yes Binnie i did i promise i won't be a brat anymore that's my good girl come on let's get cleaned up so we can go home and shower”. He says standing up and holding out his hand to help steady me. Chan walks up to me handing me a bottle of water from god knows where. “ Here you go baby”, “Thank you, when we get home can we please watch some cartoons and cuddle”. I say looking up at the both of them chan lets out a chuckle and pulls me into a hug “Of course we can princess”.

Once we finished cleaning up the studio we went home, took shower, and put on our pajamas. Me and Changbin were waiting for Chan to finish in the kitchen so we can start our cuddling sessions so we can sleep. “ Baby I just want you to know that me and Chan love you so much and that we would do anything for you. I'm sorry if you felt like we aren't giving you enough attention but now that we got some time and most of the songs are done we can spend some more time together”? Changbin as he tries to stay awake. I looked over at him and just gave him the biggest i could give and at that moment i felt chan climb in on the other side. “ I love you guys so much”. I say as I doze off surrounded by the warmth of my boyfriends.

We love you too.

[ma-lark-ey]

okay I learned from the first monster post so I’ma just throw one of these bad boys down real fast

Niall Lynch is giving Glenn Close of DnDads fame and that may be a fandom overlap only I have.

Gansey calling Blue Jane will never not be funny

My feeling with Richard Gansey III currently is the same thoughts I had reading They Both Die At The End. By that, I mean; “Yes, I have been told point blank this character is going to die. However, I’m chosing to pretend the author is lying.”

Blue kinda acearo coded.

Blue picking boys is so funny to me. She really said “Fuck Daddy’s Money. Give me that little weirdo in the Coke shirt.”

So if Noah’s put to rest. Is he just around cause he wants to be now? Like. Is he just vibing? Or is he connected to Gansey somehow?

I always forget effervescent is a real word.

oh i love a good murder threat.

“You’re dead you don’t weight anything!” Ronan :(( he’s still part of the group :((( he wants to street race too !!

“that’s not fun thats trouble” youre teenages boys. those are synonyms gansey.

WHAT is the Gray Man.

OH.

Operating theory: Niall Lynch left Ronan with some kind of trinket that is the Greywaren & Ronan knows it IS the Greywaren but not what it DOES which is why the dream shit confuses him. TRUST!

WHAT IS NIALLS WILL. WHAT.

maybe gansey’s awake… ronan the boy that you are

the way Stiefvater describes buildings is absolutely magnificent.

Ronan: oh no yeah Adam’s in my dreams sometiems & he makes fun of my ‘attempts to ocmmunicate.’ reader, dont analyse that too hard imm moving on now. CHAINSAW—

Ronan I would like to go back to Adam in your dreams kiddo whats that about.

oh is that box the greywaren. yeah there’s no way this is ending well.

The Jane thing feels transphobic but also trans as fuck at the same time. i cant explain it. Gansey the enigma you are.

“Raven boys must be prey to propoganda” Blue they’re rich kids ofc they are

Blue the woman that you are 💖💞

Every henrietta description gets more like my hometown and i’m thriving

“how proud he was of it, how wretched it was.” Adam you’re doing amazing

“Boyd” that’s Matt Boyd of aftg fame this name will never be said again but im speaking it into existence.

WIN FOR ADAM FINALLY

every time i think I’m prepared for Adam’s POV he leaves me on the floor strewn about like lego pieces.

Gansey looks dishevelled in public??? i didnt know he knew how to do that

Ronan using his asshole aura to do good things under the radar ily im so sorry i called you obnoxious.

GAMSEY WAS STUPID ABOUT ADAM??? they’re so Brocedes coded. No one who knows this book series is going to know what brocedes is. trust me on this.

accusing Gansey of dating glendower is the funniest thing Adam has ever done and will ever do. You’re so real Adam. Speak your truth.

THROWING NOAH OUT THE WINDOW IS THE FUNNIEST THING RONAN WILL EVER DO. DEFENSTRATE HIS ASS

Okay that’s the first ten chapters. I’ll be back when I’m at chapter 20

Lark Liveblogs Literature: The Raven Cycle II: The Dream Thieves

What’s the standings??

a) if there’s a singular fact about me, it’s that I am a Noah Czerny enjoyed above all else, and secondly I’m studying Adam Parrish like a bug.

b) Gansey has autism and not even the author herself will convince me otherwise.

c) Ronan Lynch was an obnoxious shit, but he’s slowly gaining brownie points by being less Seth Gordon and more Nico di Angelo about it.

d) Blue Sargent woman of all time. She can do no wrong ever & I’m like 90% sure Adam is secretly gay but like they’re cute.

I don’t know what Noah’s mom’s birthday schnapps have to do with his death, but it’s something. I feel it in my bones.

Ronan’s dream shenans are so goofy to me.

Also Ronan being our prologue POV in this book whereas we had zero ronan pov in book one implies we might get Noah pov and I’m sorry in advance for who I’ll be if I’m write.

I have no idea where this plot is going, which is unusual for me but we’re living with it. I think Glendower might appear this book but also I have a deep feeling he’s not going to show up until book four for reals.

that’s all folks! I’ll be back once i get through some chapters with thoughts.

OH ALSO THIS BOOK TITLE FUCKING EATS. MAGGIE STIEFVATER COOKED WITH THIS ONE Y’ALL.

[nikrangdan]

enhypen x short!reader

pairing: enhypen x short!reader

genre: fluff, comedy

description: how enhypen would react to a short reader!!! this was requested btw i hope u guys like 😁 ive written separate headcanons for sunghoon and jay before but i wrote more here anyways 😏 THERES A COUPLE CUSS WORDS IN HERE

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HEESEUNG:

okay lets get this straight

hes literally the tallest member in enha

and then ur the shortest in ur friend group

POWER COUPLE ⁉️⁉️⁉️

im literally crying bc when u guys are standing facing each other heeseung is just looking straight over ur head LIKE UR NOT EVEN IN HIS LINE OF SIGHT

and THIS is why he always has his arm around ur shoulder or he makes sure ur holding onto his arm or smthn

HE WANTS U TO BE WITH HIM AT ALL TIMES BC SOMETIMES HE CANT SEE U☹️☹️☹️

and when hes practicing he likes to bring u up to dance with him

like he holds ur hands and u just try to 💃🏻🕺🏻💃🏻 with justin bieber playing in the background

“i cant dance heeseung u know this” u stare up at him

“i know just vibe to the music~”

he finds it hilarious so hes giggling the whole time u two do a little jiggy

AND THEN HE GETS ALL SOFT AND TURNS U AROUND TO BACKHUG U AND FACE THE MIRRORS and he watches u guys sway back and forth slowly to the music

he loves the height difference and hes always looking at it in mirrors

JAY:

*takes a deep breath* ... JAYYYYYY‼️‼️

he probably mentioned how short u are a couple times when you first met but i dont think he would be the type to constantly point out ur height and tease u or smthn

BUT!!!!! he loves it

alot of clothes you like are often too big for you and hes like

I Am Here To Rescue You From Distress, My Love

Ur so thankful for him!!!

he loves finding clothes for you

shirts arent a big problem its mostly the pants

AND HE LIKES BUYING U PLATFORM SHOES

he says “u look so good”

Jay ur superman 🔥

idk he just thinks ur so cute

he likes to stare at u like 🥰🥰☺️☺️

❤️_❤️

Jay has such big heart eyes for u AAAAAA

when u two are in the kitchen u arent able to reach the high cupboards

SO HE BOUGHT U A HELLO KITTY STOOL

one time he stood on it and was like “y/n look”

you literally almost broke your neck trying to see him because HE WAS SO HIGH IN THE AIR

so high u were like “u got enough oxygen up there⁉️⁉️”

and then he said “u look like an ant” and he started dying at his own joke

But he never pulled that stool stunt again bc u attacked him viciously🤗🤗🤗

JAKE:

Wait im crying already

everytime i write about jake i have to take a break

hes literally too much for my heart

Okay

HE GIGGLE.....

he GIGGLE!!!!!!!

HE GIGGLES AT EVERYTHING U DO

Hes so obsessed with u its not even funny

he probably loves u more than u love him AND HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE BC HES JAKE SIM

His favorite thing ever is when sit in between his legs and ur back against his chest yknow

when u guys watch movies he feeds u popcorn like that

IM GONNA SAY THIS FOR ALOT OF THEM BUT

Head Pats!!!!!

He pats ur head alot or ruffles ur hair alot

and hes just so gentle with u

Ur like his little baby >_<

HIS BIG JACKETS WAIT

Jakes big fluffy bulky jackets

he wants u to wear them

and he

he zips them up all the way and puts the hoodie over ur head

and he just dies of laughter

Ur standing there like 🧍🏻‍♂️

“its getting hot in here jake”

you tried to flick the hood off but the chunky sleeve mixed with ur short arm was not a good combination so you couldnt even raise your arm

That made jake lose it and he just fell to the floor in tears😭

but seeing him so happy made u 🥰☺️ kinda so its okay

SUNGHOON:

Hello hand holder

i say this whenever write for hoon

but this guy🤝🤝🤝

Get those hands ready yall

mmm okay

he probably calls u shorty whenever he teases u

Rude ass 🙄

ur like “😐” and hes like

“im sorry” *attacks u in a very messy and unmannered hug to the point where u fall back onto the couch and almost break ur leg*

i bet he holds stuff up in the air so u have to jump up and attempt to get it😭 so evil

but he doesnt like seeing u suffer for too long so he gives it to u after like 5 seconds 😁

he teases u alot but when ur out in public hes like Bodyguard Hoon

Hes not letting anything happen to u!!!!

once again HES HOLDING UR HAND AT ALL TIMES

one thing he says he doesnt like but we all know hes lying is when u like to jump on his back and force him to give u a piggyback ride

he just accepts it

one time u fell asleep on his back and he was like

“uh y/n”

silence

yeah he eventually plopped u on the couch which woke u up

SUNOO:

Sunoo thinks ur so adorable 💧_💧

like u two could just be sitting next to eachother watching something

and u have ur legs pulled up to ur chest and ur arms wrapped around them with ur chin on ur knees

you hear him giggling to himself

u look over like ......🤨 “what”

“nothing y/n *giggles again* ur just so cute”

ur like Staaaaawwp and u push his shoulder

and then he pushes u back

AND THEN U START FIGHTING

Play fighting ****

u guys laugh so much 😭😭

sunoo likes to talk about you alot

to everyone

literally everyone

to the boys: “omg y/n fell trying to reach the garlic LMAO”

to his mom: “y/n went up to this guy thinking it was me and pushed him it was so funny”

to his instagram: “how did y/n fit through my neighbors doggy door and why”

PLEASE when u two have arguments for fun

u go jump on the couch so u can be taller than him

and u just stare at eachother before bursting out into laughter

he loves to show u off aaaa “heres y/n” ☺️☺️☺️☺️

JUNGWON:

EXPECT TEASING AT LEAST ONCE A DAY

Please i think id cry if i was friends with jungwon (AND NI-KI)

he play too much 😫 he actually has no chill

“can u reach this y/n? or should i carry you *evil laugh*”

but besides from the teasing he adores u so much

and theres some things you arent able to do

But hes so happy to do it for you!!! he loves feeling like hes doing smthn for u

He always has this proud dad look on his face whenever u literally do ANYTHING

u could literally pick a twig off the ground and jungwon would go 😊 thats my y/n

he likes to massage ur legs when ur just chilling on ur bed or smthn

hes got one hand massaging ur legs and his other hand massaging his own legs

“i’ll make us grow taller y/n!”

“what??? you don’t need to be taller jungwon, i do!!” u snatch the hand hes using to massage his own leg and plant it right back on ur own legs

he starts laughing really hard and u think ur the president of comedy now 🔥🔥

he likes feeling tall when hes with u

but he also likes being babied 🙁🙁

Plz give him head kisses and cheek pinches

NI-KI:

This kid is literally a titan

and hes crazy

picks u up BRIDAL STYLE and starts running around the room like an animal

like WHAT ???????

he says its because you’re the only THING around and he needs the exercise

and this kid is a teaser too😫😫

“y/n can you hand me the cereal up there? oh wait you cant”

you turn around like What the hell did u just say...

yeah he got a smacking that day

NO BUT SOMETIMES HE BE TAKING THE JOKES TOO FAR AND RIGHT AFTER HE SAYS IT HES LIKE

“im just kidding i didnt mean it”

Anyways

ni-ki is also very sweet

he offers piggyback rides and makes u little gifts

one time u got a cramp from being on ur tippy toes too long

he was laughing at first but then he saw ur eyes welling up with tears and he ran to u really fast 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

ALSO WHEN U HOLD HANDS you both always stare bc THE SIZE DIFFERENCE PLLLZZZSSMMMNXX

heres an analogy

ni-ki hands : whale :: y/n hands : seahorse

LITERALLY U CANT EVEN SEE UR HANDS ANYMORE

they just vanish into thin air and u guys think its peak comedy

“whered ur hand go y/n 💀”