#dont expect any more stories from me tho...

[sapphicflower-ao3]

what are ur personal favorite fics? i can be a bit picky and have a hard time finding fics but i love ur writing and i feel like we might have similar tastes based on that :3

i'm sorry it took me like a week to get to this!! i wanted to compile my faves and write notes for each of them... and i went overboard LOL. but thanks so much omg, i'm flattered that you would trust my taste based on my writing!

these are all bkdk obviously :)

i. 'In Case of Fire' - passengerside

post-canon // complete // 11K // E

an absolute MASTERPIECE!!! this author has become a recent favourite of mine, i love the way they incorporate little details into their work and make the mundane so beautiful.

highly recommend all of their other works, especially 'Pacemaker'! so freaking beautiful and fun and the lead up to the confession was a genuine holding-my-breath moment

ii. 'Sun Hands' - yesthisisnarumi

snowboarding AU // complete // 5K // T

i've re-read this one so many times it's SOOOOO good! so fun and so classically bkdk it's insane. everybody say thank you OP for giving us the rival olympic champions to lovers story we needed

iii. 'all that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing' - maxisnotokay

UA compliant // complete // 11K // T

i dont usually read a lot of whump but this was brilliant, im a sucker for this specific trope and for LOVE CONFESSIONS YEASS!!! obvi it has a happy ending bc i wouldnt have it any other way. a good length too :)

iv. 'Spinnin' On Our Feet' - sage_and_cinnamon

High School AU // ongoing // 47K // M

UNDERRATED AS FUCK and my favourite ongoing fic right now. i usually dont read jock x nerd AUs but this fic is so brilliantly funny and charming and heartwarming and it blew all my expectations out of the water and then some. i've been following it for ages and it's been on hiatus for a good while, but it updated recently and when i tell you it was the best day of my freaking life...

v. 'In Perfect Rhythm' - chalk

Band AU // complete // 50K // E

yes how surprising, a band AU fic in my faves list. anyway shut up, chalk is literally godlike in their writing and this fic was SO FUN and scratched all the itches. nothing gets me going more than awkwardly endearing izuku n rockstar katsuki

vi. 'Last Days of War' - antisora

Pacific Rim AU // complete // 44K // M

GENUINELY ONE OF HUMANITY'S BEST PIECES OF LITERATURE???? fuck. i never have the proper words for this fic, but it is SO gripping and the worldbuilding is so tight and their relationship development is so good and the CLIMAX OF THIS HAS BEEN MORE EPIC THAN HALF THE BLOCKBUSTERS I'VE SEEN. i beg you to read this even if you have never watched Pacific Rim. or maybe go watch the movie and get EDUCATED and then read this! i'm begging you, dear reader!!

vii. 'Ingenium' - crandberrycrush

Astronauts AU // complete // 85K // E

guys i love sci-fi sorry lol. this one is another brilliant fic. OP put so much blood, sweat and tears into research and it shows, it is just very intelligent and the plot itself is HEART RACING and GUTTING and THRILLING. there's a lot of POVs and it really fleshes it out, tho ofc bkdk is the main thing. happy ending obvi! it is the space/astronaut drama that i love and adore, just BKDKified now!

viii. 'The Magic in a Mirror' - totallyrottentomatoes

Magic/Circus AU // complete // 80K // E

oh how surprising, a totallyrottentomaoes fic in my faves list. anyone who knows me knows that i rec this fic all the time. it's one of my all time favourites, if not my favourite of all time lol, and it's really because of the writing and the imagery and the characterisation and the relationships b/w all the characters. it's all just so well done and MAGICAL. no joke, if i could print and bind a fic into a book, it would be this one. no notes. perfection. caters to my tastes so specifically. i could go on about this fic forever but i'll shut up for now

also highly recommend 'The Distance Between Suns' by this author - it's a high fantasy epic with TIGHT AS FUCK worldbuilding, brilliantly written, the romance is BEAUTIFULLY WRITTEN, the payoffs are amazing, etc... this deserves to be published and revered

ix. 'Battle of the Bands' - roadtripwithlucifer

Band AU // complete // 168K // E

look i know i always rec this fic, i just can't help that it's like my favourite thing ever. roadtripwithlucifer and totallyrottentomatoes my BELOVEDS. the humour in this fic is so fucking yummy and brilliant, the writing is gorgeous in typical roadtrip fashion, the stakes are gripping, the climax is thrilling, the romance n yearning is INTENSE, the sex is hot as hell, the ending is so satisfying, just..... the whole package.

and while you're here, read other roadtripwithlucifer works like 'Nothing Else Fills' if you feel like destroying your heart :) an angsty and beautifully written time-travel-to-save-my-kacchan-gone-wrong war AU fic. i love OP's works but her more recent fics (eg. after battle of the bands) have had some of her best writing. i adore it when you can feel how an author has poured their soul into their work, you can always feel it in a roadtripwithlucifer work and it's just the cherry on top

x. 'Scar Tissue' - Loriqod

canon-compliant // complete // 18K // E

loriqod is another author with a characterisation that i fuck with so hard... this one was so full of that Yearning and Tension that i so vibe with. bonus points to the plots focus on bkdk's scars like yes pls more of that <3

anyway i might make a part 2 some other time, these are just the ones i grabbed from my public bookmarks. i have a lot of private ones and some of them i forgot to make public oops

hope u find smth u enjoy!

[st-pop]

SWAP AU!!

Details:

Reiju:

Everything from sanji’s 2nd backstory is the same until the part where reiju helps him escape to the orbit

Rather than Sanji escaping to the orbit for freedom, little sanji, realizing that reiju is also ‘emprisoned’ in a way chose to make reiju leave instead to ‘be free from judges rule’

in the end reiju escaped germa instead of sanji, with the promise that she would come back to save him

(Im pretty sure that reiju had her humanity but still was unable to not follow whatever judge said, dont come after me if this isnt right, im surviving off of spoilers since im on skypiea 🫶)

Reiju, on the orbit didn’t really do much other than decide to work on the ship until they reached land

But then, oh no! The cook pirates attack! Reiju’s fine though because of her Germa abilities, she did save the captain of the cook pirates however and bring him to land..wonder how that will play out later in the story

Anyways, once on land she starts to go in hiding because while on the orbit she finds a newspaper detailing how germa/judge is looking for her

Overtime she ends up working for an anonymous assassination network (since killing was what she had been practically raised to do) called ‘Baroque works’ as Poison Tulip, as Mr. 1’s partner. (Ms.Doublefinger is forced to be Bon Clay/Mr 2’s partner dispite him not wanting/needing a partner :’))

She meets the SwitchAU! crew (which was only Ace, Nojiko, and Kuina at the time) when she had been attempting to assassinate kuina as she was on Baroque Works’s ‘hit-list’ (For more context, a few years back when Baroque Works had attempted to recruit Kuina, like Zoro in the OG universe, she beat up one of the millions and (coincidentally) the Mushi-Mushi line the millions had on that directly connected to Crocodile’s office had turned on. Kuina (unknowing of the Mushi-Mushi line) said something like ‘After a while, crocodile!’ As a catchy goodbye (knowing nothing about Mr.0’s identity) completely unaware of the fact she gave the actual Crocodile a bloody heart attack and got herself on Baroque Works’s top hitlist and for the past few years she’s had to deal with baroque works assassins)

Before Kuina and Reiju can actually begun fighting, Nojiko throws a tangerine (picked up from onland) to reiju saying ‘You look like you havent gotten to eat in days’, Reiju expects this to be something to keep her off her guard, or perhaps a taunt but quickly sees the rest the crew, (Kuina waiting patiently for her to eat and Ace flashing her a grin before telling her they have more food in the back if she needs any) and realizes that they’re genuine.

This reminds her of Sanji and shes explains that originally she was to kill the swordswoman however now shes changed her mind and has decided that she’d like to join the crew.

Nojiko and Kuina are suspicious but after seeing their captain’s grin they realize that anything they say wont be much use so they just sorta accept it

And thats how in this au reiju joined the SwitchAu! Crew!,

Kuina:

Ok so for kuina i’ve always liked the idea that her story would exactly be like Zoro’s, so that what im going to do here

the only different is that Zoro died young instead when he was training, kuina took up the 3 sword style technique to commemorate him

Ik that this isn’t really for kuina but i just have to put this here, in this AU tashigi is a dude who looks identical to Zoro (tashigi was so important to Zoro’s story in the OG timeline so i feel its only right to do the same for kuina. Tashigi’s personality, glasses and morals are all still the same tho ^^

Ok this is it for now, i’ll edit this later and slowly add the rest of the AU’s Backstories when i’ve got the time 🫶

[freakinator]

I'm so interested, but I don't know where to start watching UU. I'm so confused. Could you please advise me how to watch it properly?

honestly the best advice i can give you is to just search unstable universe and click on any of the playlists (i recommend diya's since it tends to be the most up-to-date one), if you wanna watch just one pov then feel free to do so but be warned youd be missing a part of the experience by doing so mainly through missing context/part of the story for certain scenes (although tbf that pretty much goes for any lets play but if you dont mind that aspect then go right ahead)

a few warnings before you get started tho:

its a huge time investestment, all but the first 4 episodes are more than 3 hours long with most of them either halfway through or nearing 4 hours

some vids are uploaded later than they actually take place on the timeline, i have a guide here if you wanna know at least from what i can tell the actual order is

theres a few supplementary materials (can be found in the extras part of the sheet i linked, not complete yet cause theres some vids i havent linked yet and im still on the lookout for more since some vids get added retroactively in addition to the ones uploaded explicitly for uu), you dont need to watch them to enjoy the story but theyre a cool bonus

if you wanna watch only one pov heres a guide on each of the povs specialties before doing so

general:

they all shift in style as the eps go on, nothing jarring but if you dont like more scripted storylines you may find the later eps a bit lacking

plot themes get used and reused a lot, for example spoke often goes on quests to destroy important landmarks, parrot often goes on scavenger hunts/get imprisoned/some combination of the two, and wemmbu often does things related to civilizations/kingdoms/factions

certain editing styles also get copied from each other, parrot and wemmbu in particular like to do this with each other

themes and styles can also switch around sometimes which can affect future eps on some level

certain exploits and mechanics dont work as intended so dont bother replicating how certain mechanics work according to actual mc cause chances are youll be disappointed by the results (unless youre into that sorta thing i suppose lol)

the main povs tend to stick to the same set of ppl, most likely due to scheduling reasons, so dont expect a whole lot of crossover casting (tho obv there would still be some esp if theyve got a pre-established role already)

spoke:

redacts some important events from his eps but may recount them later on depending on how the story plays out tho not in detail

not a lot of pvp in his pov and when there is chances are hes trying to run away or someone else is handling it (mainly mapicc)

doesnt upload nearly as consistently as the other two, consequently his shift in style is more obvious comparatively but so is his character development

thematically his eps tend to be about personal growth of some kind

lorewise his eps tend to focus more on server meta, for example his pov is the only one where there is clear confirmation of the server being unstable codewise, his pov is the only one where just how large of a problem duping on the server is can actually be seen and felt, and so far his pov is the only one that shows who ash is and what his goals are. basically if spoke introduces some kind of threat in his ep, chances are it'll be a threat to the server meta and youd have to think of the bigger picture in order to grasp how dangerous they actually are

his pov is also the only one you get the full picture of what a soggy little rat he actually is since in both parrot and wemmbus povs spoke is seen as a serverwide threat, directly for parrot and theoretically for wemmbu

if you like ls s4 zam and/or ls s2 spoke then youll most likely like him as well lol

has a small reoccuring cast and tends to stick to one person when going on quests while also taking note of another one

you will feel the ghost of jamatoP haunting this kid wherever he goes even if he never directly references him

parrot:

tends to get dragged along plot points, not in the sense that he doesnt have agency cause he very much does but more like he takes it upon himself to clean up other ppls messes if that makes sense

tries not to get into pvp but he still does get into them quite often, usually tries to run away but when he doesnt/cant he doesnt really have the best fighting techniques

his character development tends toward introspection which leads to a lot of "quiet" and assumptive character development, you gotta use a lot of psychological analysis when watching a parrot episode basically

thematically his eps tend to be about the willingness to get in danger in pursuit of something (whether it be for something greater, knowledge, or the safety of the other players on the server whether it be their life or memories) vs the predictable and stagnant comfort of safety

lorewise the threats he faces are ones that focuses on the actual players themselves, if one is introduced on his episode then chances are that they specifically target and affect players. an interesting example of this is zam, seen as a threat but never actually treated like an actual problem to be solved unlike the other threats he faces and it just so happens that zam is in a really interesting place antagonism-wise when it comes to wemmbu but is otherwise not a huge threat to unaffiliated players not even parrot who he apparently has beef with

has a large reoccuring cast who come in and out of his life, each of whom are important the same way cogs are important to a machine (applies to parrot himself as well). wifies sticks by him no matter what tho

wemmbu:

literally only one episode of his so far does not heavily feature or center around zam and its the one that takes place before they meet, if you do not like seeing/hearing about zam every 10 minutes or so do not watch wemmbus eps or you Will get pissed off

gets into fights quite often and is the best at pvp among the three main povs but isnt the best in terms of the server at large (hes somewhere more along the lines of average)

his character development is. rocky. and cyclical. be prepared to see him spiral and get better and spiral again over and over again basically lol

thematically his eps tend to be about princezam. i wish i was joking. but besides that, theyre also about retaliatory safety, morality, and sacrificing everything just to try and accomplish a singular goal

lorewise he causes a lot of ripple effects that affect the other two povs to a level that neither of them have ever affected him like for example him terrorizing spoke and parrot is what drove them to their current paths (anti-exploit exploiter for spoke and player protector for parrot)

has. A reoccuring cast. most of them are enemies and/or dont matter to him a whole lot personally tho... that doesnt mean he doesnt have friendly relations or allies of any kind, just that the only two you Really need to take note of are eggchan and princezam

i think thats p much all i can say about uu in terms of how to get into it but if youve got any questions of some kind feel free to ask :D

[ask-the-cat-cafe]

Question for the artist!:

I'm thinking of starting up an ask-blog for a character of mine. Would you recommend it? Pros and cons of a project like that?

(I just really like your blog and value your opinion on the subject <3 also hope you're doing well!)

Ok- so lemme answer this the best i can haha- im bad w questions like this 😅🥲

Ok so starting an ask blog is certainly a good way to get your ideas out their! It lets people ask all the questions you wabt abt your character! If ur starting writing-blog where you right instead of draw, then it may be different but idk 😶

I like it so i do recommend it!

Some pros and cons uhh

Pros!

•its fun!!

•you may get more ideas for your character from asks

•uhhh im not good with pros- there's a lot more but y'know-

Cons (im better w these! Doesn't mean that ask blogs suck to make- i jist think abt these more lmao)

• you can get art/writers block soooo easily, so if you have a high drive and good schedule you'll be fine!

•some people in your ask box are gonna be... Weirder than expected

•some ppl dont read ur blog before asking

•its hard (for me atleast) to pick and choose between certain asks, but you will have to!

Uh also if you are thinking abt starting a blog, especially one that you're thinking of making into a big story thing like mine, then make sure you link them together! Either like how i did mine or something else, make sure you do it!!

Also make sure you take breaks, stretch yo back, and find a good schedule!!

Take care of urself with ur blog:) i hope it goes well!

Soo uhhhh yeah if you have any other questions plz ask!!

Im not the best at answering tho haha

[lover-of-mine]

Lady Whistledown.. Gossip Girl. Yep, we have been talking about the same people!! I honestly was just coming to say the same thing. The BT HQ is on fire. I saw you said you were getting shade about if we were all real. Today is the best example of yes we are. GG is the cool one, but I'm clearly the dramatic one. If anyone goes back, they will see that I mentioned multiple times what they wanted that Henren scene to be. Basically, Hen tells the audience shhhhh, we like this guy. If I'm being really honest, it would have been more kind if they never aired because it was one of the last ideas they had...

So let's step into Narnia.. They ended the season thinking BT were each other's people, they finally found safe space, they were comfort. Then Lou ditches them, Oliver ignores them, and that little hope they had for Hen, giving her mother Hen approval is snatched. They are battling back and forth with having to acknowledge this relationship is completely undefined. Every opportunity they had at the medal ceremony to somehow make Tommy a part of the family is gone. They had Maddie and Athena there, nothing. They wanted Tommy at the table with Chris and Eddie, nothing. (Dont let them fool you they wanted Chris and him to interact to show dad vibes). Now they really have to settle into the fact that at best they are fuck buddies and Tommy can't keep up with Buck. Expect them to romanticize or make the idea cool BT content.

Now we leave Narnia

Also, expect some shade is brewing for Hen. Apparently, she wasn't supporting her queer elder. Did you fall over when you felt my eye roll? Its honestlybaffling to me how quick they are to turn on an OG character for this man. It's like Stockholm Syndrome was invented for this moment.

Lastly, weird thing. They aren't sure what to do with Ryan's workout story. This may seem weird, but they kind of cling to Tommy is husky, and Buck is just as "husky." So there is a weird gumbo of where they are trying to land on how they view their bodies. Like they don't want Oliver working out with Ryan and them pulling the S Sex (6) interview scene, you know. I can't tell if they are going to land on body shaming yet. Maybe they are just terrified both will bulk up for a shirtless scene like we expected that season. Also the fact they think it makes Tommy seem older.

Anyways... It's definitely a dumpster fire over there.

Hello my love.

This is... Damn. Honestly, yeah, this scene is a nail in the coffin. It makes him somehow even less likable. It doesn't do Tommy, or bt for that matter, any favors. The relationship is not that serious, Tommy does not care for approval, Hen clearly does not trust him. It crushed so many narratives in 36 seconds it's kinda impressive.

There's so much going on here I don't even know where to start. Considering how they are treating real life wlw people, I have been fully ready for them to turn on Hen and even Aisha since I saw the clip, so I'm already expecting that.

The Ryan thing tho. The obsession with Ryan makes me want to fistfight people. If bt is so perfect and real and endgame, then why the fuck does anything Ryan does matter? And bodyshame the dude? Have they seen him? The dude looks like he stepped out from a catalog. I feel like my brain is melting. The mental gymnastics involved here, man. Crazy. I am happy it's a dumpster fire tho. I feel vindicated.

[yan-randomfandom]

Hello! Call me Yan (any prns), and I'm honestly here to satisfy my cravings as a writer 😔

♪ REQUEST STATUS: OPEN—Although please understand if I was unable to answer yours!

WHAT DO I WRITE?

x reader, my beloved i dont use y/n tho

Yandere. There are times I won't write yandere, but it's my blog's main trait.

Please read at your own risk. There will be warnings at the start of the chap!

Headcanons, one shots, and drabbles

Mostly SFW — Sexual themes are mild at most. I do not write smut.

My account is multifandom. I am in multiple fandoms, so expect my content to be different every once in a while!

☕support me on kofi!

MASTERLIST... LIST

PART I: Masterlist

Keep reading if u wanna request!

SO, YOU'RE AN ANON

You can name yourself as an anon! It's a nickname of sorts

Feel free to use a name even if it's taken! This is because I hop around fandoms, so anons may come and go, plus it's definitely an easier way to find your request (in tags) 😺

Think of your same-name-anons as like,, wow, u have the same name as me! siblings frfr??

FANDOMS?

I lurk in many fandoms. Not about to list them all, though 😭 Mostly I write about my current obsession! Almost always it's my blog theme :O

Please don't hesitate to ask from wherever fandom you are! There's no harm in trying! :) Except BNHA. Preferably, no anime. (With the exception of Dandadan)

Better yet, feel free to list down your fandoms in the comments! Anything that you would want to see yandere content in! Just so I can browse and maybe write for!!

LIMITS?

No problematic shipping requests.

Unfortunately, I don't do OCs (':

If the character is 18-, they can be aged up if you'd like, but strictly no NSFW, or in certain circumstances, romance. They're gonna be platonic.

I don't do intense gore. While I do have yandere content, I'm on the sorta wholesome side? Define 'wholesome' ... Implied scenarios are more likely😩

I write non-yandere stories too tho!

Minors, please stay safe. Don't go meddling around with adult spaces!

Sadly, I'm lacking in knowledge of other popular media, so if you happen to request one of those, I might not reply. Instead, I'll be keeping your ask until one day I check that media out.

Doesn't matter if the character is well known or not! Cuz I WILL attempt to learn about your request!

Except real life people. I can do actors with their characters, but never peeps' government names.

Part 2s are my weakness. I'm sorry. Doesn't mean you should try asking me tho!

WHY IS MY REQUEST TAKING SO LONG?

...college

If it's something I've never posted about yet, then it's either I'm not in the fandom, or I'm just clueless.

But other than that... sometimes I take days— weeks— months? to truly click with an idea.

I want to enjoy whatever I'm writing, so I take a break until an idea comes up.

And there's also the fact that I'm working on multiple things at once 😭😭 I tend to focus on easier ones first!!

Also I usually think of ideas at night c:

Worst case scenario: I truly have zero idea for your request, I'm so sorry 😔

NOTES ABOUT ME!

Yandere is my guilty pleasure, I fear🤕

HOWEVER, I do not, and won't ever, condone the behavior I will portray in my writing. Please don't misunderstand, don't romanticize. They are purely fiction and for entertainment.

I regularly change my theme (profile, colors, banner, etc.) just so you know.

This account is for everyone,, we're all just trying to find content of our favorite character fr— so please don't hesitate to request :)

As I close my eyes to sleep, that's when I start imagining scenarios for my writing!

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[iangallagherisadeadman]

shameless hot takes

i kind of dig the way lip ended up as a failure. i know a lot of people hate what the show did to him, how he never lived up to his potential (the same way they do it to rory gilmore) but like. that happens. lifes just like that. sometimes people who have had everything to live with grandiosity end up ruining everything up, and lips life was HARD and it SUCKED so him failing its kind of expectable i think. and its not like lips life ended, mans not even 30 and hes not just smart hes a genius, he will end up turning the table and coming straight to the top, i believe so.

frank doesn't love his children. i know people like to think frank was somewhat nice sometimes and that he was troubled but he loved the gallaghers his own way but i dont think he really did. he didnt even knew them. he was just too selfish and a narcissist and not even once a "act of love" was genuine or didnt have a gain for him or was somewhat for his benefit or interest.

of all plots, i believe gay jesus was the worst. i tried to remeber every other plot of the show and dont get me wrong the frank and his buddy pal mickey oshea SUCKED and i love ian hes my favorite character but what the fuck was that. the idea is really nice but it took so long to convey this arc of mania of him and it just was really badly written and executed and later it doesn't have importance to the plot. no surprise cameron monaghan wanted to skip shameless after that.

gallavich is not a healthy goal relationship. i mean yeah, they do love each other and they are good to each other, and i will excuse them for all the shit they did as teenagers cause they seemed to forgive each other and grow from it and i dont think they knew best but as adults they dont fucking communicate and mick broke ians leg like common. also most of time ian just seems to regret having married mick is really frustrating. i genuinely dont understand how that happened cause gallavich was all the writes had to milk and serve for the last seasons and they still fucked it up.

debbie is a rapist. she just is. just like sheila is too, i believe, and frank, and mandy, and jody, and estefania (i dont think jimmysteve is tho). they practiced nonconsensual sex and thats rape, end of story. i know the deborah debate is kind of hot ground and everybody has a different opinion about it cause she was young and didnt have the proper sex ed. but she did it not once, but twice AFTER facing consequences and getting to educate herself about what she did and why that was wrong, and i believe she would do it again if she had the motivation like she did on those circumstances. not saying matty or derick were cool guys, fuck them, matty wanted to go out with an underage girl when he met debbie and he kept going out with her after knowing she was much younger than he first thought and derick know that having sex can lead to having a baby and he and his family should have tried to be better to franny, but still they didnt deserved to by lied and abused by deb.

the gallaghers house should be debbie and carl's to decide what to do. the house is in fionas name, that much is true, but it is clear they kept contact with fiona at the begging of season 10 as she calls debbie to know about freddie and at that hall of fame episode too, so that much wouldn't be a problem. also, as fiona left, she left debbie in charge of the house's finances, and i believe the responsibility of what to do with the house is left with debbie too. i dont think fiona would be thrilled with the wouse being sold but she moved on and if her siblings are up to moving on too i dont think she would be opposed to it. that said, she would let the house deed on debbies hand i believe. taking up the fact that debbie is a mom with a little child and no other place to live, the fact she doesnt want to sell the house is comprehensible and i dont think any other gallagher can say its not, even more so lip. they tried to make the decision voting, letting the majority determinate what to do, but i dont think thats fair since lip could very easily get a house to himself and ian and mickey too, they had the money. now, about carl, is simply cause he paid for the house, therefore he should had a say on it. season 6, when the house was going to be sold, no other Gallagher than fiona was really trying to make to money to buy it. when she couldnt, carl saved the day and gave the money, and fiona was reluctant but she had no other option than to accept it, otherwise they would lose the house. even though the house is in fionas name like she likes to make it very clear, it is carls, and if he wanted to he could have put it in someone elses name, not lip cause he's in debt cause of the credit cards he has gotten to pay college, but he could have made it ians or anyone elses. he didnt cause he respects family and he respects fiona. since the house is his, and he also didnt really had any other place like debbie, they both should make the decision together.

fiona fucking sucks. i know a lot of people hates her and a lot loves her, and theres people in here that knows shes middle ground just like basically everybody on the show, which is called SHAMELESS for a reason. and i can agree with everybody. my point here is that she did nice things and stupid things and i dont hate her or love her for them, nor do i think all is forgiven because of her trauma or that shes number one worst character of the show. i think she sucks, think that she was wrong for all the liam shit, that she is an agent of chaos, that she was a bad girlfriend for all of her boyfriends just like they were bad for her (except mike he rocks), i think she make some of them worst really; i understand her desire to grown and be someone but i think it was risky to put the gallaghers house on the line so she could open the laundry (even more so cause i dont really consider it hers but carls), i understand how at some point she wanted to grow and take care of herself and be less of an parent in her sibling's life cause if she took care of herself since she was nine i think her siblings could try and take care of each other and their own ass a little so she could start living but the way she didnt really helped ian, the way she shut down debbie and was sad when debbie shuted her down, the way she left carl to his white boy fase without as much as trying and the way she said to them put VERONICA and KEVIN first at their emergency call before her was insane and she should be dragged for it idc. she was always mean to her siblings romantic interests too and that really bugs me cause mandy put lip in college and mickey cared for ian.

lip fucking sucks. most people here think the similarity between lip and frank starts and finishes on alcoholism and appearance but i think its more than that, i think both of them are narcissistic motherfuckers. i cant think of a single time lip put effort in anything for any other reason than to satisfy himself. it is the most evident when you think about his relationships SPECIALLY tami and fred, but if you think about his desire to be a father, the way he treated fiona when she was down, the whole sierra fiasco and how he treated her sons daddy, the karen ian thing; he even said that he helps his alcoholic friends because he thinks that if they cant do it then certainly lip himself won't be able to do it. i cant hold ian to the same parameters, i only think deb fiona and carl are really there for each other but ian gets a pass cause hes just selfish to some extent. he is bipolar and shit went down when he was still a child; still, joining the army and sending no news was a dick move and when he was good and on his meds and working as an EMT i think he wasnt really there for his family, tho he cared for mandy. cant really say much cause most of the time he was out of himself or in jail.

[mitski-solos]

finally finished dmmd!! took me like 15 hours but we got there

general thoughts— had way more plot and world building than i expected, thought itd be just pay gorn to be completely honest

fuck mink i skipped thru half his story

did NOT care for koujaku. dont get why ppl like him so much i mean he literally rapes aoba(i dont care that he was in berserk mode or whatever)

ig from the main routes i liked clear(we do NOT talk abt the bad ending) and noiz the most but cant praise them either i honestly didnt feel attached to ANY of these LIs

also fun fact since i brought up clears bad ending…. it was the very first ending i got.. so a very nice first impression indeed!

i liked the twins, virus and trip(ik they arent twins but its easuer to js call them that) in the very beginning, tho i did get a weird vibe from them bc twins ALWAYSSS end up being shady in japanese media! so the ending was no surprise

i think ren and aoba definitely do have the cutest good ending and make the most sense but its crazy how they got selfcest(bc ren used to be a part of aoba), incest(bc he came back to life in sei’s body…) and zoophilia(bc he was a dog for years and still has dog mannerisms (tho i dont think that its zoophilia at all its just fun to joke abt)) all in a single LI like damn were they checking off boxes???😭

first thoughts were “yaoi jesus here i come” and final thoughts were “omg fucking finally im done with this game‼️‼️”

overall it was nowhere near as enjoyable as i thought it would be ngl but it was still plenty fun AND its ok bc aoba is an icon and i think everyone who knows what the word yaoi means should definitely play this game. its a monument of queer history!!/hj

edit: THERES A FCKING SPINOFF???? kms

[ladyowen]

It wasn't time that did it it

☆Joel&Ellie fanfiction, no plot, just a lot of fluff mixed with a dash of angst and hope.

☆TLDR: Ellie has flashbacks from Fedra school and thinks about her relationship with Joel and her friends, they all unite together to give her the best Jackson experience. Joel sings to Ellie and she figures out that they are intertwined in every universe

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Settling into Jackson is proving itself to be much more difficult, than Ellie thought it would be.

Everyone has been sweet and kind to her, especially Joel. So fucking sweet and kind. And that was the fucking problem. Nobody has ever been so..nice to her, not ever. At least not for that long, without wanting something in return.

(Ellie didn't think that she could really count Riley, because the girl didn't have much choice than to be her roommate. And even tho they were bestfriends, Riley had still decided to leave her and fun away to join the Fireflies, even if she came back in the end, which was a mistake. Maybe if she had never returned to say her goodbies, she would still be alive and well. Riley was her first victim.)

And that was the thing, she didn't know what could Joel possibly want from her and honestly, she has been getting more and more anxious thinking about it every day.

The people from QZ that had raised her, did so just so she could join the community in the future and be in the workforce, they didn't waste any of their precious recourses for someone, that wouldn't be a future working prospect.

Marlene wanted to keep her alive just because of her imunity, she had kept her locked inside a room for observation, caring for her as if she was more of a lost puppy than a human being. She wasn't exactly mean to her, but not kind either.

Ellie was pretty sure, that nobody could ever love her for herself alone, without seeing her as the way to the cure, as an asset or for her body.

(She didn't want to think about David, but his words were still carved deep into her mind. The way his hands had grabbed her, his face tensed up in anger, the smell of the fire and how it felt when he...)

That was until Joel came along.

She was just a cargo for him at first, a job that needed to be done so that he could find his brother- and save the humanity. But he didn't leave her, not after Tess's death, not after he had found out that there wasn't any way to make a cure.

Suddenly she wasn't just a job to be done and get over, she felt important and loved for the first time in her whole life. She became important to him for some reason. At least enough that he had saved her, multiple times. Even when he had never said it out loud, or directly to her.

'When i went to pull the trigger, I-I flinched, Still dont know why.

Anyway, the reason im telling you all of this-

I know why you're telling me all this.

Yeah, I reckon you do.

So time heals all wounds, I guess.

It wasn't time that did it.'

(And maybe, maybe she had saved him too.)

Like right now, he was tolerating having her head in his lap, slowly stroking her hair with his rough fingers, while they were watching an old movie and eating popcorn. Not as a special treat, for something that she had managed to do or some accomplishment, but just because. Without any reason behind it.

The main problem was, that she was living for these moments, to be close to him, listening to his stories from the time before the cordyceps outbreak, she didn't want this to ever come to an end.

But nobody had ever kept her for this long yet, and she didn't know what the the price for that was. He never said anything about how she could pay him back, not a single word. He wasn't reminding her of how in debt she was to him every day, or that she wouldn't be alive if it wasn't for him.

It was much easier in the QZ, she didn't have to think about it there, the rules and expectations were set in stone and everyone knew about them. If you fuck it up, you find out and they will swiftly make you forget about ever doing it again.

Not only was that system very effective and worked almost perfectly, at least in her school.

She knew most of the punishments, some were harsher than the others but there were always consequences to her actions and she was definitely one of the most troubled kids.

(It didn't matter than it was mostly because of the constant bullying from teachers and other kids, or that she was truly trying her best but it was never good enough for anyone.)

(Ellie had imagined that joel would say something like that it was because they were assholes and just didn't care enough to truly get inside her little gremlin brain. But she was never brave enough to share that part of her live with him, too scared that by saying it he would think it through and decide that she was truly not worth it.)

Fuck around and find out, that was the unspoken rule that everyone knew there. No exceptions. It didn't matter if it was clearly an accident, or if someone else framed you for it, you still got the consequences.

The almost faded scars, that were all around her upper back and shoulders, were a clear reminder of it for some time now, but it didn't seem to be the same here in Jackson, or at least not with Joel.

There wasn't much time for him to really discipline her on the road, or even in the hospital. But even than he had never even tried to, other than making his annoyance clear to her and trying to frame Tommy to take her away.

(But he came back in the end, and that was more than any adult had done for her before.)

Even when she was really trying to imagine him punishing her, there wasn't reay any punishment that seemed to suit him. At least not the ones that she had went through in the QZ.

He didn't hit her, not even once. It wasn't like she enjoyed being hit, but she was more than used to it from the QZ. She wasn't exactly the strongest and when Riley left, that had made her into guite an easy target for the other kids. She didn't even count the adults, because that was normal. A few slaps here, some kicks there maybe even a whipping if she had crossed the line enough or when they've just felt like it.

But for some reason, he was proving himself to be more overprotective of her, guarding her from any harm that could possibly come across her way. She still didn't really know why, but it seemed like he was even glad for her clumsy and yapping company for some weird reason. Even tho he had never missed the opportunity to tell her how annoying she was or call her a brat, it never seemed to more than just a playful teasing.

"Your head is gonna explode from thinking so hard, kiddo. Your brain is not used to it." Joel was looking directly into her face now, instead of the movie, again with the stupid kind smile plastered on his face. He must have noticed that she was out of it long ago, but just didn't say anything until now.

Which was another thing, that would have gotten at least her fingers snapped by the ruler a few times in the QZ, but here it didn't seem to be such a big deal.

"Fuck off, old man. At least mine doesn't have just hundred years old spiderwebs in it." She was now smirking at him, quickly gaining back her composure. He seemed to be more amused by her words, than offended in any way.

"Little brat, watch the movie." That was just one of his nicknames, that seemingly appeared to come out of nowhere, right after his favorite 'kiddo.' Not that she was complaining in the slightest, even tho it wasn't the nicest one, it was hers.

And she never had anything that was trully hers until now.

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Ellie was listening to Jesse's yapping about the new space movie, something about a big bang and aliens, that he had heard about last night from some new kid in their school, when the topic of punishments suddenly came up for the very first time from Cat.

They were tacked up the unused part of the barn, that now was more of as their secret base, where they were spending most of their time after school or just whenever they needed to get away from the adults.

"Can you even believe it, my mum is so freaking ridiculous, she decided to punish me because of the missed curfew yesterday." Cat was saying, clearly really annoyed by her mum.

And suddenly, Ellie was looking at her, her eyes almost popping out from her skull, scanning her from top to bottom, trying to find some kind of an injury or bruise from the punishment. But there wasn't anything visible, or at least not where she could see it.

No bruises on her face from slapping, no split lip from it either. The girl appeared to be moving just fine and not in pain, so the probability that she was whipped or cut were really slim, unless she was really good at covering it.

Cat didn't seem to notice Ellie's frantic checkup on her, too bussy complaining about her parents. And Jesse seemed to be too bussy explaining how the alien ship worked to care about how- borderline insane- she was looking.

"I wasn't even that late! Just half an hour. She's just so dramatic." There was an overemphasised sigh at the end of the sentence, before the girl threw herself back on the stack of old hay.

Ellie was pretty sure, that her heart was being really close to just jumping out of her chest at that moment, and running far away from there. She could feel the tight knot getting even tighter in her stomach, if that was even possible, before she managed to gather the courage to finally ask.

"How did..how did she punish you?" Ellie asked more quietly than usual, trying to stop her voice from trembeling. On one side, she really didn't want to know, but on the other she felt like she needed to know so she could prepare herself, because Joel would surely be at least similar in this like the other parents in Jackson.

(The fact that she had stayed past her curfew so many times without getting in trouble, didn't even seem to cross her mind, with how much she was focused on thinking about the perfect plan how to help out her friend.)

Her mind was fully running and she was imagining the worst case scenarios, from getting all of her rations taken away, to solitary containment for weeks on end.

She didn't know, how would the taking away rations really work in Jackson, because seemed to be more than plentiful there, but if that was the case, she could share hers.

Joel was always so worried about her not eating enough, so they have plenty of fresh food like eggs and vegetables in their fridge, even some snacks. Maybe she could just sneak in and take a little bit and he probably wouldn't even notice. It wouldn't be the first time, that she would have to steal food for herself or someone else.

Being fast and small- even tho it was mainly from malnutrition- were always one of her biggest advantages. She could sneak almost anywhere without being noticed, and there always was a tiny hiding spot, just big enough for her in the close proximity, somewhere where noone else would even try to fit in.

Or maybe, if it was really bad, she could hide Cat in her room. Or run away with her, maybe not out of Jackson but to somewhere safe. They could take some supplies and hide, just like she did in the QZ. There weren't much good hiding places in Jackson, but surely she could manage to find at least something.

Or maybe they could try-

"She took all of my new fantasy books away!"

Oh.

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The school in Jackson was also very different from what she had been used to.

Nobody was fighting over food during lunch time- mostly because everyone had their lunch prepared and delivered from the dinning room, or their parents had packed them one- but still. Not even one person tried to steal her food, which was weird.

More than weird.

They've had lunches back in the QZ too, but the food there had been entirely different. In Jackson, it almost always was some kind of meat or fish- mostly chicken or any other type of birds, because they were the easiest to take care of- potatoes or bread with vegetables and a piece of fruit, sometimes even something sweet for a dessert.

Where as in the QZ, their lunches had mostly consisted of dried meat of any kind, makeshift hard bread or crackers and sometimes canned vegetables or fruit, but that was only a few times a month if even that.

(Ellie was just really glad that they didn't have to eat rats at that time like she had seen some guys in the QZ cooking and than selling to people. Their food might have been gross and bland but at least it wasn't rats- or at least she had hoped that it wasn't.)

And there weren't daily fights about it like back in the QZ either, nobody was trying to take more than what was his, even tho she saw a few kids traiding a portion of their food, it never seemed forced.

The first few times, that she had gotten her lunch there, she was half expecting someone else to just grab it out of her hands and fight with her for it. But no one did, they didn't even try, she was still very wary about her food tho, gulping it down faster than anyone else, but nobody seemed to be judging her for it, even tho she did notice a few pitying looks here and there, that she didn't feel the need to react to.

But she never ate the meat.

Wasting any kind of food would be more than unimaginable for her just a few months ago, but now she just couldn't force herself to eat it, especially if it was a stew, no matter how hard she tried.

'It was a last resort. You think it doesn't shame me? But what was I supposed to do? Let them starve? These people who put their lives in my hands? Who expect me to keep them safe? Who love me?'

But she wasn't so stupid to tell about it to anyone, wasting anything edible has always been greatly punished in the QZ, she still remembered the one time that she had refused to eat a ration nut bar, because of her alergy to peanuts.

(It wasn't that unusual for people to be allergic to stuff even now, but even that didn't seem to matter that much in the QZ, depending on the guard that was on duty and she had the misfortune to get one that hated her guts that day.)

She had gotten all of her rations, other than water, taken away from her for three days and if it wasn't for Riley, she was pretty sure that that would have killed her already malnourished body at that time.

There was no way in hell that she would risk that happening again, especially because Riley wasn't there to save her ass anymore, by her own fault. How ironic.

At first, she did try to hide it somewhere, dumping it inside of a big flower pot or giving it to the dog, that was almost always roaming around since there was food, but just a week of her trying to get unsuspiciously get rid of it, someone had noticed.

And that someone was Jesse.

"Do you wanna swap with me?" The boy was asking her, suddenly coming almost out of nowhere, while holding up a small plate with a peace of peach fruit pie on it.

"Swap?" Ellie snaps out of it and looks at him, she has been too focused on scanning the room trying find a new hiding spot for the bits of her food that she didn't want- the meat, to notice that he came to her.

Swap was a new word and she didn't know if she liked it yet. Especially not if it had to do with her giving him a portion of her food, or him taking it away from her.

"Yeah you know I give you something you give me something in return. I don't really like sweets and you don't seem to enjoy the meat very much..i don't think the plant is really enjoying it either."

Alright, maybe her meat hiding ritual didn't go as unnoticed as she had originally thought.

"Fine, but just because i feel sorry for you and you really need to build some muscles."

(Jesse had never told her, that she could just ask the cantene lady to make her food vegetarian, he didn't think that it mattered that much, even tho he didn't really enjoy meat either, eating mostly plant based at home. It could be their little secret. And if she had ever asked him about it, he would simply just say that the plant was on its last leg and didn't deserve such suffering- that wasn't a lie either.)

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Ellie knew, that she could never live up to Sarah.

She wasn't as pretty as her, she didn't always have the right words to say and she especially wasn't as smart as her.

She just wasn't enough. She couldn't be enough. Not for him.

Even when he had placed her picture with him right next to Sarah's, it felt like the girl was looking down at her. Because he had never looked at her like he did at his daughter in the photos, not even close. Maybe that was the reason why she had decided to slowly start moving the photo away from Sarah's, hoping that it would go unnoticed and it wouldn't have to be a constant reminder for him that she will never live up to the daughter, that he had lost.

Joel's words were still rooted really deep inside her, digging their tiny thorns into her heart and squeezing tightly around her little heart every time, leaving it to slowly bleed out, everytime that she managed to even borderline dissapoint him, or when she didn't manage to live up to her own standards that she tried to set up for herself.

'Maria told me about Sarah and.

No. Don't say another word.

Im sorry about your daughter Joel, but i've lost people too.

You have no idea what loss is.'

She knew, that he was still deeply hurting because of Sarah's death, but that still didn't make it alright for him to tell her something so ridiculous.

If there was someone who knew everything about loosing people, it was her.

'Everybody i had cared for, had either died or left me.'

Everyone, who had anything to do with her, had died one way or another. Riley got infected because of the stupid need to say goodbye to her- and she had died by her hand-, Tess got infected because of her too- trying to chase a faint dream of finding some form of a cure that wasn't even possible-, and Marlene died... because of her.

Even her own parents hadn't bother to stay around and raise her. Not even her own flesh and blood, the ones who were supposed to be able to love her unconditionally.

Maybe she really was that unlovable.

'Everybody fucking except for you! So don't tell me, that i would be safer with somebody else, because the truth is, I would just be more scared.'

The truth was, that she has been scared her entire life. If not for her own life, than for somebody elses. There wasn't a day that she wasn't worrying about what will happen to her, or her loved ones. And maybe it wasn't noticible, but she was so fucking terrified.

She was so scared of her life in Jackson, scared of loosing her newfound friends again by her fault, like she did with Riley. She was so afraid of screwing up again and watching the people around her die or get hurt because of her.

Because Ellie Williams was a menace, a deadly curse that always managed to destroy everything at least tiny bit worthy around her.

'You're right, you're not my daughter.

And I sure as hell ain't your dad.'

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She has never really been a musical type of person. Sure, she did like to listen to some music during her chores or when she had free time, but it was mostly a way for her to get inspired and gain new ideas for her drawings.

Drawing was her thing, she didn't even know when it started, but she was always sketching something on any little pieces of paper or anything really, that she could find in her free time.

(Sometimes even during school, but miraculously enough that never seemed to get her in trouble in Jackson, since she was more than particular about staying on top of her learning at all times, never slacking no matter what.)

The whole process of drawing had always helped her to get her mind together, to stay calm and collected and forget about everything bad that was happening in the world.

It wasn't really about what she was drawing, but more about the reason why she was drawing it. If someone had opened one of her sketchbooks, they could see her whole life sketched out in front of their eyes, everything that had even mattered to her.

She drew Riley, because she wanted to remember her forever as her bestfriend, not as a mindless infected runner that was trying to torn her apart and especially not as the bleeding gun shot wound on her forehead.

She drew Tess, because she deserved to be remembered for her actions and for the hope in humanity, but mostly because she seemed to be an important part of Joel's life.

She drew her friends- Dina, Jesse and Cat, because they were practically like a second family to her by now, even tho they were usually an annoying pain in her ass.

There were also sketches of animals, from horses to dogs to other livestock. Some drawings of buildings, of the infected or even of food and just nature by itself.

But most importantly, she drew Joel. His drawings were always the most detailed ones, even if it was just a silly sketch of him being on the front porch, holding his favorite cup filled with disgusting bean water, that he seemed to love for some reason.

(Coffee wasn't really easy to get, but Ellie could never see the appeal in it. It was disgusting and bitter, maybe drinkable after adding a lot of milk. But Joel loved it, one time he even traded 2 of his favorite hunting knives for a stupid little bag of coffee beans, but he had banned her from ever mentioning it to anyone.)

Music was Joel's, most importantly his guitar. Ellie still didn't know where he had learned how to play it, but he was really good at it, maybe even better than she was in drawing stuff.

Which was why she couldn't make herself refuse, when he had offered to teach her how to play it one evening.

"Alright kiddo, just put ya little fingers there." Joel was trying to show her how to play the first accord of his favorite song, and she was desperately trying to get it right.

The guitar was gently placed on her lap, while he was standing behind her with his hand on hers, guiding her where to put her fingers to play.

She put her fingers in the right position, exactly how he was showing her, and tried gently stroking the strings with her other hand.

"See! You're a real natural. A few more lectures and you will be better than me." Ellie was fighting to keep the red color from coming onto her cheeks, but she didn't seem to have much success.

"Shut it old man. Agh this is horrible. Now its your turn." And just in a moment, she was turning around showing the guitar gently into his hands, before she sat down on the floor in front of him.

"Little brat." Joel was saying with a slight smile on his lips, knowing why she had done it but not daring to say a word about it to embarass her enough, he would save it for a better opportunity.

He sat down on a chair, with the guitar still in his hands, trying to remember all of the words to the song, that he had promised to play to her again, seeing how patient she seemed to be, maybe even a bit excited.

He was never one to play for someone else, but even that had seemed to change when she came around.

With his fingers in the right positions, he slowly started playing the melody, soon adding the words to it, putting the whole song together.

"If i ever were to loose you,

id surely loose myself.

Everything i have found here,

I've not found by myself.

Try and sometimes you will succeed,

to make this man of me.

All my stolen missing parts,

I've no need for anymore.

Cause I believe,

and I believe cause i can see,

our future days.

Days of you and me.

Back when I was feeling broken

I focused on a prayer

You came deep as any ocean

Did something out there hear?

All the complexities and games

No one wins but somehow they still played

All the missing crooked hearts

They may die but in us they live on.

Cause I believe,

and I believe cause i can see,

our future days.

Days of you and me.

When hurricanes and cyclones raged,

When winds turned dirt to dust,

When floods they came, the tides they raised,

Ever closer became us.

And all the promises at sundown,

I meant them like the rest.

All the demons used to come 'round,

I'm grateful now they've left.

So persistent in my ways,

Hey angel, I am here to stay.

No resistance, no alarms,

Please, this is just too good to be gone.

Cause I believe,

and I believe cause i can see,

our future days.

Days of you and me.

You and me,

It's just, you and me."

And with his last words, Ellie truly knew for the first time in her whole life, that she belonges here. Right in that moment, no matter her past or the mistakes that she had done.

There was no place else that she would rather be at that second, than with him there.

She knew, that the future will be harsh and cruel, but nobody could ever take this moment away from her and that was what mattered, because right now, she was his as much as he was hers.

Their souls were forever intertwined together, destined to meet in every universe.

They had truly saved each other, even if they didn't know it yet, they were engraved deeply inside each other's souls.

No mattered what will happen, they were each others missing peace.

Never to be torn apart by death, or any other force.

The two of them were intertwined by thousands of different lifetimes, playing an interchangeable role in every single one.

(Because every single on of us has a little piece of Joel and Ellie hidden deep inside, and through us they live forever, till the end of time itself.)

[raveneira]

I just don't get why Ikemoto is drawing AND writing at the same time..... Like it would've been better if Kodachi stayed and wrote the story, Or Kishimoto continues it (which btw he wants vacation lol). Kodachi/Kishi wrote the better story and they had the vision, on the other hand, Ike's writing is literally a fanfiction lol.

Btw, do you think we still have hope for KawaSara, cuz it's looking too rough now? Don't get me wrong, I still ship it, but Idk what to expect lol....

Yeah, whats worse is its not even Ikemoto's fanfiction, he's literally taking actual fanfic/fan theories and makin em canon, and you cant even say its impossible because in the interview he literally gets off track from answering a question to address complaints he was seeing online to defend himself 😭 so this man DOES look at fandom feedback, so theres no way you can say its totally a coincidence that so many fan theories became canon EXACTLY as they predicted it, theres just no way.

Once or twice you could say that it was a fluke, but this is way more times than one, and the fact that he pretty much confirmed that regardless of fans justified complaints about certain things he will ignore them because 'he likes it that way' so ppl will just have to deal with it.

Meaning having any hope of him taking any of the valid criticism to improve is gone, whatever he likes is what hes gonna do, even if it goes against what even Kishimoto himself wants/wanted because it is HIS story now and Kishimoto has no intention on intervening since hes happy spending time with his family now and isnt ready to let that time go again yet, which is understandable and I hope he takes as long a break as he wants or needs, I just hate that his legacy is being tarnished in the meantime because greedy higher ups WOULDNT let the series die and Kishimoto get a break like he asked for.

The story really did peak under Kishimoto and Kodachi's writing direction, the second the story shifted entirely in IKEMOTOS direction you saw the quality DROP and the story become a directionless convoluted inconsistent mess.

As for if I still have hope for KawaSara...to be honest I dont know anymore, the reveal that Ikemoto is 100% writing and that Kishimoto himself doesnt even know where the story is headed anymore and is just as much a reader as the rest of us, and even if he does give input, he lets Ikemoto have the final say, has gotten me unsure of what to expect anymore.

Under Kishimoto and Kodachi's writing they were pretty strongly hinting at building more on Kawaki and Sarada's relationship, his bond with team 7, to really drive home his betrayal later so that it'd have some real weight and impact from all their build up. So the potential for KawaSara was very high from what they were setting up.

But Ikemoto? yea I dunno what to expect from him, but if where the story direction changed is anything to go by [which Ikemoto confirms was all his doing and its a completely different direction than the one Kishimoto and Kodachi had planned] its safe to say hes tryna push bsa, either that or troll like a mf just to keep those viewers engaged since this manga is tanking more and more every chapter and the biggest supporters are shippers who just wanna see Boruto and Sarada get together for eugenics.

I wont say KawaSara has lost yet or that its hopeless, the ship hasnt been definitively killed off yet, theres still a possibility this is just another NS situation, teasing what the ppl want just to keep em readin till the very end where he finally says alright now for the real endgame once he no longer has anything to lose by pissing off bsa lol

Even if Im unsure about KawaSara at this point in time, Im still fairly confident in BoruSumi even tho alot of ppl have written her off just cuz she doesnt have a hug scene [NH doesnt either anywhere in the manga but NS does] or a reckless attempt at saving the other [according to KK Sarada and Boruto both would've died if not for the other shinobi arriving when they did so she didnt even save him fr so this argument is invalid]

They also downplay her feelings just because shes more reserved and rational than Sarada, which is kinda the point of opposites attracting and balancing eachother out [Minato being the quiet calm level headed one while Kushina is hot headed and loud] whereas Sarada and Boruto are both portrayed as hotheaded rebels apparently, their kinda the same person atp but thats another topic for another day.

Point is KawaSara is up in the air, but BoruSumi shouldnt be counted out yet, lack of screentime and interaction didnt mean jack shit for NaruHina, SaiIno, or ChoKarui, so lets not pretend its the ship killer for BoruSumi.

Lets also not pretend that SS didnt also go through one hell of a rough patch cuz they did, and they still became canon in the end, so again lets not pretend these things are ship killers alright because they aint, the real meat of the story hasnt happened yet, and Kawaki is supposed to be getting more development soon so lets see how that goes and who its with first and judge further from there.

[xxplastic-cubexx]

sorry if you've already mentioned but what (re?)ignited your love of comics/x-men/cherik? curious because there are so many different adaptations of them

i think im gonna speak for a few (or a lot of) people when i say that TL;DR the wolverine x deadpool movie that came out this summer is what pulled me back into comics and i COULD leave it there but i will go into excruciating and unnecessary detail instead because i love an origin story and i love oversharing.

under the cut tho because im nice sometimes (there's also wxdp doodles in here. if you want to see that)

ironically (and probably commonly), growing up i was more of an avengers kid. Kinda. Loosely <- binge watched the cartoons and movies and read copious amounts of comics and fics and i am hoarding fanart in my old dresser as we speak ok 'loosely' is a modest lie.

embarrassingly i remember getting into discus cause of captain america LMAO so yeah needless to say i was a Humble Fan- me joining my school's comic class/club didnt help either (shoutout to my teach from that she was the realest one out there for. A Multitude of reasons). she definitely is was inspires me to even draw still and make comics and i often think bout the tips i learned from her class tbh she was great

back to the movies t and comics tho, i got into em because my brother would offer to take me and that's how we'd hang out (i rarely saw movies in theaters and i even more rarely went anywhere as a teenager. still kinda like that today tbh ooops) and yk. it just snowballed after that.

my brother and i have always liked comics- he just more than me for a while (though he still very much loves comics and As We Know From My Posts we still talk about them whenever i see him To An Exhausting Degree)

durin then i was really into stony and i have a few surviving doodles i made but those are between me and god. and anyone who asks tbh LOL

'snap can you make this related to x-men again this is long' ok so fast forward to This Summer again I Still Don't Really See Movies but my brother offered to take me and this was the first time i'd actually seen an x-men movie in full

as a kid i only remember seeing the 'perfection' scene between erik and raven in first class while i was channel surfing. pretty sure i changed the channel after seeing mystique naked cause i was scared my parents would get mad at me if they caught me watching it LOL

BUT MOVING ON As A Kid i think it's also natural you'll sometimes watch 92 if it's on And I Did though evidently it didn't stick too hard (i do remember really liking beast and gambit though.... still do really): my knowledge of x-men was. INCREDIBLY sparse. like diabolically so so i didnt have too much expectations (aside from the fact i vaguely liked deadpool beforehand).

tbh i dont know why my bro never took me to see any of the x-men movies. it's not like he doesn't Also like x-men (90% sure nightcrawler's his favorite but my brother will be caught dead saying he has absolute favorites like that)- he owns a bitch load of deadpool comics/omnibus sets too (of which ive read over the years and reread this year) but Shrug moving on

Much Like Most Of The Internet i fell down the rabbit hole that way. i have some doodles i made a couple days after seeing WxDP that i now have an excuse to throw at all of you Look And Perceive

and so. As I Do. i got curious and told myself i'd binge watch all the x-men movies the week before i went back to school And Then I Did ft. My Brother Sometimes and then i said i'd binge watch all of '92 and And I Did That ft. My Brother Sometimes But Less So and now we're here. currently watching Evolution...

once i got to school i realized i lived near a comic shop and started getting into the comics that way (the first ones i got since going down this rabbit hole was Magneto Was Right!, The Resurrection of Magneto, and The Trial of Magneto. if you were curious !!!!! clearly i didnt care too much about context i just needed to see My Guy jelvejlkvj i have no regrets and Evidently ive read more since)

i'm pretty sure what dragged me into cherik specifically was the fact i saw a clip of The Famous ending to 92 where erik's aghast at the notion jean even has to question his love for charles. i think that was what officially had me refocus my lens on them: not a single poolverine thought after that LOL (all the cherik posting i saw on twitter definitely helped too but that was the nail in the coffin for any other interests i had: i was locked into cherik and x-men in general now)

that clip specifically, i was surprised at the fact they- frequently even- have the x-men franchise say erik loves charles and vice versa so bluntly. even if it's not meant to be romantic, i fear im just a fan of how casually the word's thrown around with them two and i got tender bout it all. Then Yk. i just live for the drama. the hilarity even. the sincerity .... they make me sick if i think of them too long so im gonna end it here

before i go tho ironically enough, the first x-men issue i owned was This one (story a this is that while stuck in some wacko dimension charles accidentally gets himself trapped in logan's mind while utilizing his astral projection. if you were curious). pretty sure i got it for free with another comic set i got years ago since our old comic shop loved to do that, but it's poetic aint it. maybe ill doodle something referencing it..

i should probably look into finishing this arc someday im Dummy curious to even know how it started and how it ends.....

[powderseas]

side order is here!!! its real!!! yippee

what do you think of it so far?

ok so im just gonna spit out all my side order thoughts so far

SPOILERS FOR SIDE ORDER AHEAD!!!!!!

EDIT: I ACTUALLY FINISHED THE GAME WOOO (just one run tho lol) im gonna write my thoughts under the previous stuff

OK SO. i think im a little..? dissapointed..? abt sider order?? like im kinda conflicted abt the lore, also i suck BALLS at the game

the thing is i have done 5 runs so far AND COULDNT GET A SINGLE WIN. the most i can do is up to floor 20.... im literally so bad at this game I ONCE DIED 2 TIMES IN AN EASY LEVEL. im newgen guys.

maybe im not fit for rougelike games but like... idk. i feel like me and the fandom as a whole expected so much more from side order. i feel like if the game is gonna make you replay the same stuff over and over again it should atleast have a SOUL CRUSHING LITERARY MASTERPIECE TYPE OF LORE like OE and Alterna

AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW DIRTY THEY DID FOUR???? literally called them an irrelavent loser and then sweeped them aside... THEY DONT EVEN HAVE A PALETTE ICON???? theyre not even a secret boss smh.... agent 4 had so much potential I WILL NEVER FORGIVE NINTENDO FOR THIS. and like sure the parallel canon level kind of includes four but that thing is literally an npc??? like imagine what they couldve done with the story if they had included four in it:

when four is left out from the squidbeak splatoon they try to prove themselves by siding with marina with her project. it makes perfect sense. marina and four are both scared of being seperated by their loved ones. but four gets consumed by their anger and jealousy and goes full order mode LIKE DO YOU GUYS SEE MY VISION!!!! i will be forever mad that we didnt get this.

also why is murch out of all the chracters have a pallete??? why didnt they put in captain 3 or something????? sheldon i kinda understand since hes also kinda a part of the squidbeak splatoon BUT MURCH??? get the fuck out!!!

negative stuff aside tho. i love pearl and marina so much. THIS IS THE PEARLINA GAME GUYS!!!!! pearl literally mentions that marina and her sleep in the SAME BED???? marina is so autistic. my little autism creature. SHE MAKES DINO ARMS IN THE ENDING SCENE AUGHHHHHGHHH MY HEARTTT i love marina so much AND PEARL. SUCH A SILLY GOOBER. acht is so precious too... BUT I CNAT BELIEVE THAT THEY MADE THEM WHITE*??? ACHT IS NOT WHITE NINTENDO. anyways i love eight and her little found family full of lesbians. they are all lesbians your honor. we are raising lesbians in this house.

so yeah. i hope i can finish the run atleast ONCE. but like. idk i havent finished the game but side order jsut makes me feel. sad... and lonely...?? unlike octo expension where you could see more and more people using the metros and the chatrooms between marina and pearl are just AUUGGHHH OE IS A GAME. ABOUT CONNECTIONS OK. it makes me feel warm and happy and even though eight became traumatized i like to think that she healed and in the process met so many important people in her life.

in side order i dont see anything in eight*??? is she traumatized??? is she vibing??? is she happy to help??? I LITERALLY CANT TELL. side order makes me feel so cold and empty like do you guys understand what i mean. and its probably becasue it doesnt even take place in the real world. and the thing is. i understand that side order is supposed to be everything that OE couldnt be. i understand that. both games have their own quirks BUT. i just cant seem to make myself love it unlike any other story mode in splatoon...... im really trying to be not biased here but yeah. these are my opinions for side order

AFTER GAME THOUGHTS

HELLO. so yes i somehow managed to win the game. and honestly. the final boss was pretty fun and everyone was so cute at the end omg... but i still think that side order is a bit underdevloped.... i dont even know if ill try to %100 is cuz playing it makes me SO STRESSFUL im glad i get to finish a run BUT i will definetly not be touching side order atleast for a while.... but despite i had plenty of stuff i didnt like in side order the ending managed to make me forget all that haha

[celestie0]

I’m so sorry that you have to deal with that. It genuinely is a gap in maturity because he’s a person with a life before reader (I know Gojo is fictional but for the sake of this topic I’m going to ask yall to be realistic since IHM touches on a lot of reality). People aren’t just side characters to your story, they’ve existed and will continue to exist whether or not you’re around. That doesn’t devalue anyone or make them gross, that’s just life 😭

You are absolutely right that it is a red flag if someone (that’s interested in relationships and stuff) has not had any prior experience bc that means there’s a reason for it 😭

We still don’t even know WHY they split, people break up over things all the time and sometimes nobody is the villain in the story. We don’t really know all that much about Gojo yet so let’s be patient PLS

Yes we’ve seen that his ex is going to try and get him back but we literally know nothing about where Gojo and Y/N stand at that point. Right now, we know they’re (at least physically) attracted to each other but they’re not at the point where exclusivity is expected. Maybe the ex is trying to wait out their marriage, maybe she actually does just suck but we DONT KNOW ANYTHING YET PLS WAIT 😭

I’m so sorry you’re getting those asks. I get that people are super excited but damn, these are the things that discourage writers from sharing their works or leaving platforms. The worst thing we can do is pressure someone (unless it’s gege) to change their story so that it’ll please you. LET AUTHORS COOK (unless it’s gege) 😤

ILYSM and I’m so sorry about the essay 😞 I got your back and will support any and all decisions you make as an author 🥰 now get behind me 🤺🤺🤺

hiiii makimais bb thx sm for ur sweet words ahhhh i adore u. n you’re one of my readers who understands ihm so much n so it really means a lot 😭💕

thank u sm. yes i think i have always try to write my gojos as their own ppl. i want to develop them outside of just the reader. this is partially bc i adore canon gojo n it’s fun to picture how he would think/feel/act in these alternate universes im putting him in based on what we know of his personality per gege, but also i think that it makes a story more interesting? i have high standards for media i consume, esp when it comes to character devlopment, so there is high chance i will include things in fics that ppl may not like if it means it matches my vision for the character’s growth

and yeahh i think that’s the thing. i understand being antsy over learning things ab the story, but like…we don’t know anything ab ihm gojo (well i know everything ab him actually but yall stay safe tho 😂😂😂) n so the pre emptive hate was kinda shocking

yes pls lemme cook i promise i’m makin a meal over here. truuussstttt. and if it’s not to ur liking, simply leave the restaurant hahah

thanks bb <3 love u tooooo n yes ellie has been feeling a lil fragile lately so i shall get behind u ty

[darkserenity24]

I seen some of your ask saying you've been feeling down about writing. With brewing amnesia, you dont even have to write a story, I just have burning questions that I wanna know

1. Does she win her freedom?

2. She originally didn't want to be a mother - does she end up with guilt because she can't connect to her baby?

3. Does she resent Steve for manipulating her into a situation he knew she didn't want?

4. Did Nat ever tell the team about her talk with the reader and how apprehensive she was?

5. Does the team (except nat) not see anything wrong with what steve is doing?

6. Does the tea affect her during the pregnnacy?

7. Sweet jesus, dont tell me she still takes the tea!?!?

8. Is Steve disappointed or angry if the reader doesn't form a bond with the kid as he expects?

9. Does he try for more kids?

10. Does she go through PPD?

11. Why did Steve take her if she isn't the kind of woman he actually wanted?

12. Does he ever feel guilt for manipulating her into doing what he wants? Deep down, does it eat him up that she doesn't want him on her own, that he has to rely on alien tea to get her to stay?

Hey Anon, these are such great questions! Sorry it took me so long to answer but I hope this helps:

1. Reader will try her best to get away from Steve and almost succeeds... but no.

2. No guilt, just acceptance of what the situation is. She'll certainly take care of her child. Both she and Steve are going to be protective in different ways.

3. Hell Yeah! If it was up to her, Steve would be in jail.

4. Yes... sort of. At least some of them.

5. Yes, they do, but most are too afraid to cross him or just want him to be happy at any cost.

6. NOPE! But Steve doesn't know that hehehe 😈

7. Unfortunately, yes. Steve will not have it any other way.

8. He would be, but I don't think that will happen. He's gonna be pissed for a totally different reason.

9. Now you know he certainly will. With that big ass house they have? He's trying to fill it up!

10. Possibly, but I don't think that will be explored in depth.

11. She is who he wants, he's just trying to fit her into a version of herself that he feels will be safe. He almost lost her and doesn't want to ever lose her again so he's doing what he thinks is right.

12. Guilt? No, not really. All Steve cares about is that she's safe with him (ironic, right?) and that they should build a family together. But it certainly does eat at him inside that and she doesn't want to be with him. He wouldn't have had to use the tea to alter her state of mind if he didn't feel like that was the only choice to have his "happy" family.

With that being said... Brewing Amnesia part 2 will be released by this upcoming Sunday 😉 (don't quote me on that tho)

[bonjas]

betty la fea: la historia continua episodes 5&6

Well that was a whole lot of...nothing. With how fun episodes 3&4 were, I was so optimistic about the rest of the show, but damn, they stomped out that hope REAL quick. I don't even know where to start lol, I guess at the beginning...

The opening scenes were so jarring? Firstly, this show LOVES cutting scenes in between entire fucking conversations so we get an awkward 5 second betty scene, then it goes straight to the walking through the jail scene that felt like it was supposed to be a dream, but we never got a "waking up to reality" scene, he was just IN JAIL LMAO like?? We went from confession, straight to jail? There wasn't even an ongoing investigation going on into what was happening at ecomoda or anything like that, so he just went to the nearest jail and said "i did a bad thing! guilty!" and into the slammer? IF WE HAD KNOWN WHAT WAS GOING ON AND THERE WERE AUTHORITIES ACTIVELY INVESTIGATING, IT WOULD MAKE SENSE. but nah, these writers hate explaining ANYTHING lmao. literally, it went: armando and mario nervous about betty finding out, betty becoming prez, armando and mario trying to hide the evidence with guttierez, betty finding out from hugo, confronting armando, him still not saying what happened, failing to fix it, then JAIL? PLEASEeeeeee

i'm finding that this show doesn't know what to do with betty. like, at all. with a show being named betty la fea, it sure doesn't look like it. poor betty only gets to look sad, or look mad 24/7. or if she's briefly happy, she then immediately has to get sad and/or mad. we get so little precious betty time as it is, i wish they would give her more to do! seeing her confront mario was cool in the previous episodes, betty always had a spine and defended herself, what happened to that! she just stands there silent and lets everyone make false accusations against her then walks away?!

i'm seeing a lot of "hugo is the villain again!!" ummmm??? hugo is the one actually helping the entire staff by letting them know what's going on and demanding justice??? everyone would lose their pensions if it wasn't for him, and if it was the real world, uh YEAH lawsuit bitch!!! after all the abuse they all took from armando, to learn that on top of that he stole their retirement funds? ELECTRIC CHAIR.

mila...sigh. i already said idk what to think of her character, we literally don't know a thing about her, but drinking and driving? gurl. armando is her father after all and we all know how he was about that shit, but damn. dont like that at all. her saying that shit to marcela was so out of line since she herself cried to marce about her being the only one who cares about her or w/e and the minute marce shows some parenting traits and worries over her she flips out and said now i know why my dad left you?! yeeesh. and she's obviously a TERRIBLE judge of character, wtf was there ever to see in ignacio? ewwwwwwww. that whole story line just fucking sucks. i dont care about him, even if they told us ANYTHING of what the fuck is going on with him, i just dont care. he's so boring and one note, if he takes down all of ecomoda with his pinky, i couldn't care less. the hacking stuff is stupid. "hackeado" is funny though lol. oh ALSO about mila, i totally expected betty to run into her at the jail and she bails her out and they have more of a bonding moment but nope!!! fuck any potential bonding moments i guess, or even sharing the screen together. could have been such a good "i always help the people i love even when they're doing something wrong" moment!! like a foreshadow for mila for when she finds betty's diary and finds out the truth (cuz of course she is)! please i beg, a scrap of foreshadowing!!!

patricia is a stepmom!!!!!!!!!! that made me laugh. and they hate her, omg that's so fucking funny. her sleeping with nicolas again tho, i'm half "why?" and half "i get it" cuz he's the only guy that's ever showed real feelings and respect for her, but it just happened so quick and we didnt really see it develop, they just hit it off again after 20 yrs lol? but the whole "secret tapes" montage was pretty good, that was a highlight for me.

quick fire:

armando's lawyer is still fucking pointless, and still throws herself at him for no fucking reason lmao WHY????

the jail scenes suck, antiquated gay jokes and boring jail tropes. i fast forwarded those scenes, NEXT (if I'm wrong and they're worth watching pls let me know!! I saw Freddy was there and the therapy guy or something?? idk I was so checked out at that point) (edit: I rewatched the episode in its entirety, I was right the jail scenes are pointless! he just ends up leaving after like a fucking day!!!!)

so did nicolas stop working at ecomoda when betty left? did patricia barely get her position in the time betty left? marcela just works full time at ecomoda again, since before or after betty left?? hello??

the timeline still makes no sense, mila was gone 5 yrs, the armando marce kiss was 5 yrs ago, but armando was only president for 2 yrs? but betty left armando that night presumedly, so were they separated for that time until marcela waiting 3 yrs to demand betty be removed as president?????

nothing happened plot wise :( armando went to jail, everyone finds out and has a freak out, hacking and Mario was looking for some shit??? site character shenanigans, armando gets out. nothing happened!! two whole episodes wasted 😔 when you only have 10 episodes, everything needs to be important.

fernando gaitan was a fucking magician cuz i could tell you every single plot point of OG BLF without stuttering. the reboot is a mess yall i'm sorry 😞 i really hope it gets better, cuz now we have a confirmed second season?? bro why

why did Betty fall down the stairs like that?? what was the point? will it be relevant later?

also we just haven't had any good patsy pat and Marce moments :(

please let me eat my words and get better for the last 4 episodes!!!! i beg of you

[louisisalarrie]

Why do I feel like Louis will be ok with these stories of Mexican female conquests circulating? He seems keen to project a het, laddy image so this plays nicely into this narrative for him.

Do I believe it, nope but I think it probably suits him for this to be out there. It doesn’t paint him in a very favourable light but it does imply he likes women. I really hope there’s not more to this though…for lovely Louis’ sake. His fan base is very young, under age impressionable girls. I do not for one minute think L would ever hit on young girls - not what I’m saying - but I hope these stories dont turn out to be from some silly teens…and that there’s absolutely no truth to it which then does make its way into the media. Off the back of an amazing world tour, he doesn’t need rubbish press!

I meaaaaaaan, if it keeps him out of stunting? Sure. I think the most hurtful thing there for him would be about the way they portrayed him as a very uncaring and yucky person.

A lot of his fanbase have grown up with him, so a majority of us are (hopefully) at an age where we can see through this bullshit, but yes. He does have a lot of young fans who are impressionable to his image, that certainly doesn’t portray him in a very nice light sometimes.

A lot of it does come with the territory, with the way he dresses, and stereotypes around sexuality that another lovely anon just inboxed me about, but it’s turned into one hell of a tarnished image over the years. The dad thing particularly doesn’t help, and yep. It’s all just hot fuckboy hetty straight lad at the moment, but so many of us see through that.

The good thing about this though, is that it has been contained within our fandom. The media arent gonna do anything about it, because it’s not true, obviously (I’ll get SC’s face tattooed on my leg if it is, that’s how sure I am). But this only goes so far, when Twitter is a public platform and louis does see this shit. So. He’ll probably roll his eyes and see our responses and know he’s got good people on his side that don’t believe that rubbish, but any bad press that comes out about him to the GP at this time of his career, straight after FITFWT and just before festival season, will be really detrimental for him. It’s a delicate balance.

And I guess we just have to ensure that we’re here as a resource and a guiding light for newer fans, younger fans, and people who need a little assistance to navigate the shit show that is our fandom/fandoms. To shut this down immediately. Because without having a good read on louis, stories like this (but not this bc it’s literally so fake) will indeed form an idea in a new fan’s mind of who louis is straight away. And in a time now where an artist’s values and morals and actions are so heavily watched and considered, and people will cancel/leave artists hung out to dry if they are, or seem to be, shitty people, his image could do with a bit of a makeover. Starting with the end of bbg.

I’m telling you, truly, that ending this shit in a way that paints louis in a positive light and gets GP to sympathise with him, will be the absolute best way to go. But the longer it’s here, it’ll always be a festering reminder of his poor image, and will continue to be used against him as excuses why people think he’s a shit dude.

Speaking of which, he’s left LA prior to Father’s Day… which just warms the cockles of my heart hahahah. a lot of folks are saying it’s another warning selfie tho, but I do expect somewhat of a stunt-ish thing to happen to get the GP involved with him for festival season anyway.

Anyway, thank you for the chats, anon! Lovely to have you here xx