#dont even get me FUCKING started on snow okay

[anxsity]

i love listening to sleeping at last bc you either get the most beautiful melody you've ever heard in your life or you get your spine ripped out through your mouth and then fed into a paper shredder

[tr4v1e]

Double trouble.

Note: I DIDNT COME UP WITH THIS- IT WAS REQUESTED PLEASE DONT GET MAD AT ME.. 😭 lol literally thought of team rocket after naming this part “Double trouble.”

PART TWO COMING SOON DONT HATE ME—

characters: Lottie Matthews x Travis Martinez x fem!reader.

summary: threesome with lottie and Travis while everyone fell asleep in the cabin :3

warning: swearing? , smut MDI.. MINORS GET OUT—

“just like that baby, your nearly there.” Lottie huffs, gently thrusting two fingers inside your clit. All you could do was nod stupidly, feeling the urge to cum then and there. “fuuckk I’m going- I’m gonna cum..” she whines, throwing her head back against the headboard of the bed. Before everything around her started to blur.. everything feeling fizzy.. fake even.

..and just like that, Y/N woke up.

It’s not like her to have a dream.. especially like that.

it was all just a dream, she looked under the blankets, realising there was a wet spot from under her panties. She quickly covers it and changes, getting ready for the chores to survive the wilderness, like always.

Lottie has been during the same wilderness retreat, meanwhile talking to Travis more often. Natalie has been ignoring the two of them, helping out with other stuff before her and Travis going off to try find more food, it’s been unsuccessful.

Y/N walks outside in the snow, the snow storm was lifted for the meantime. She walks to the lake, grabbing any loose sticks from the fire to try last them a night or two.

Maybe an hour passes and she manages to get going back to the cabin carrying wood in her arms enough to last around three days. Until she hears it.. it heard like someone, a loud moan coming from the direction of the plane.. Y/N climbs up the steep parts of the snow, her eyes meeting the parts of the plane. The noises get louder.

Y/N peeps her head through the plane door before quickly looking away, her cheeks flush red..

Travis was being seen fucking the shit out of Lottie fucking Matthews.

Lottie had half her clothes back on, or at least the top of it. Her hands were held behind her back while Travis was thrusting fast into her.

The noises were ungodly.. like nothing she’s never heard before, it was only making her wet herself. Y/N quickly grabbed her backpack, putting the sticks in them before going to run back to the cabin.. until suddenly, someone grabs her by the back of the shirt, pulling her into the plane.

Y/N falls back before being greeted by a pissed off Travis and Lottie, both annoyed but still curious on why Y/N was there.

until, travis spoke. “Explain yourself.. fucking pervert.” He scowls at you, his pants were now zipped up but you could tell that he was rock hard.

Lottie finally spoke. “Travis, give her room to speak. I’m sure she has a good explanation of watching us..” the tall brown haired girl spoke soft. Travis managed to calm down, he nods.

Lottie looks at her with soft eyes, she wasn’t fully dressed. Your eyes meeting her dripping cunt before quickly snapping your gaze away from it.. cheeks still flushed. They both probably knew you were just as wet.

“I just- I was.. I didn’t know- .. I’m sorry.” Y/N mumbles, turning her head away from the two as she sits up.

“Look- I will go back to the cabin. And I’ll pretend this never happened.. okay?-“

Lottie leans forward. Her eyes furrowed at you, travis wouldn’t stop glaring at you, all he saw was a perv watching them fuck.

Travis and Lottie look at each other, before nodding.

“There could be.. another way.” Travis speaks, the tone of his voice was hard. (Like his dic lol- )

Y/N looks up at them confused for a moment, before realising the hint. Her eyes widening.

“Y-you don’t mean..?-“

“Oh, but we do mean.. the wilderness needs to be pleased, and like people say.. the more the merrier.” Lottie interrupts Y/N talking.

it was true some people said that.. but not in that way- Y/N looks up at them nervous, before swallowing up her dignity and agreeing for what they have planned.

“fine.. for the wilderness.” she mumbles, standing up and then walking with them back into the spot Y/N caught Lottie and Travis fucking.

this was going to be one hell of a fucking ride..

[lemmetreatya]

Southern Reiner not being used to the cold at all. Every time the temperature drops below 59, he stocks up on milk and bread and salts the driveway and you can't even step outside for a minute without him going "baby, where's your gloves? You're gonna freeze!"

FINALLY GETTING GRACED WITH A SOUTHERN REINER ANON DO YOU KNOW HOW MICH SCREAMING IM DOING RN?! TOP 3 FAVE CONCEPTS OF THIS MAN UFFUFUFF

Okay but big man would genuinely be so concerned for your health and well being due to colder seasons and itd be so amusing seeing him fuss around you (not like he dont do that anyways) but to suddenly see big burly reiner, who usually isn’t fretful of anything, suddenly worried and apprehensive just makes you swoooon with laughter!! 🤭🤭

Rubbing your eyes of sleep, you stand by the front door of your farmhouse to watch your husband frantically shovelling snow salt onto the drive way.

It was much earlier than he was supposed to rise today, considering it was your turn to give all the animals their feed, but he seemed to be up for a different agenda.

With your hands now on your hips, you squeeze your face at him.

“Reiner, what in the world’s you doing out here at fuck-o’clock in the morning?”

Suddenly hearing your voice, Reiner looks up in panic before dropping his shovel and extending his hand out towards you.

“Baby, no! Get back inside!”

“Why?!” You exclaim.

You stick your head out the door further to check your surroundings. If snow was going to fall, it would have done so in the night. However, all that was on the ground was a thin layer of frosty morning dew.

With a flail of his arms, Reiner continues to talk at you from the bottom of the drive way.

“I’m serious, get back in! It’s way too cold for yer to be out at this time, you’ll freeze!”

Deciding to play with him, you briefly close your eyes and take a deep breath of the outside air. The action only makes Reiner panic more.

Once you breathe out a whaft of warm air that creates a steam of white come out of your mouth, you shrug.

“Welp, it don’t feel too cold to me! My lungs are still warm.” You joke.

“Oi, stop that, you’ll catch a nasty bug!” Bundled in his wooly scarf, hat and gloves, Reiner makes a beeline towards you.

To play with him even more, you step outside the door and stand just on the welcome mat. Still in your sleepwear of silk gown, slippers and hair bonnet, you amusingly start to peel off the shoulders to your gown.

“But the weather feels fiiiiine to me!” You coo.

By this point, Reiner knows you were playing with him so when he reaches you, he has a half grumpy, half tired grin on his face.

“You play way too goddamn much.” He grumbles.

Seeing he wasn’t mad, you playfully turn around to shake your ass in his face, but he puts a stop to it by landing a large palmed slap-and-grab to the bouncy flesh.

Inside, now!” He muses.

[i-cant-sing]

GUYS OMGGGGGG MY CRUSH AND I ARE NOW IN THE SAME ROTATION🥰🥰🥰 (but only for 3 more days before I go to the next department for my new rotation 😭😭😭)

BUT BUT BUT TODAY WAS SO CUTE OmGG

Okay so basically, I was taking stuff out of my locker inside the clinic, ready to do a patient, and i looked to my side and I saw HIM, but I was like "I'm gonna pretend I didn't see him, because he's also getting ready to do a patient so like what time do we have to talk about- also wanna see if he actually cares about me or did he just forget me"

And I was wearing my gloves and he had started wearing his like 2 mins later and the he turned to me and said "hey, you're Snow, right?"

And I said "yes" before going on to my patient, cause I was busy, but on the inside I was like "OMGGGG HE REMEMBERS MEEEE🥰😭🥰😭🥰😭" EVEN THOUGH I WAS WEARING MY GLASSES AND NO MAKEUP AND MASKS AND WHOLE DIFFERENT PERSON (not even my sharp eye liner😭😭 but imma wear it every day now that he's around🥰🥰🥰)

And then we both were the last ones to finish our patients, I got done with mine earlier than him and then I had a test today, so I went up to him and was like "heyy, are you free? Can you help me with this test?" And he was sooo sweet and nice about it, like he was going "dont worry, you'll do great! You're gonna be fine😄" and I was like 🥺🥺 on the outside but on the inside I was like 🥰🥰🥰🥰 and he was even like "ohh, if you need help with anything else, let me know. Anytime, whenever😃"

AND THEN when I was done with my test and I was returning to the clinic to get my stuff, he stopped me- STOPPED ME, and asked how it went. LIKE HE DIDNT HAVE TO DO THAT AT ALL BUT HE CARESSS😭😭😭🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 So, when I said, yeah it went okay, be said "see? I told you, you'd be fine!😄👍" AND IM JUST SCREAMING BECAUSE YES I WANT HIS APPROVAL AND PRAISE, FUCK IT IMMA STUDY FOR REAL NOW😭😭😭😭😭

He looked so fine today too, and I swear, he's like much nicer and cuter in person than on texts...

(God, either make him mine, or let me move on from him ASAP)

[that-one-weeb-buts-its-the-main]

Blood Upon the Snow part 3

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reader: female

notes: RAHH PART THREE WHO TF IS LIVIING AT THIS POINT IN THIS STORY???? Also, I had a whole nother "good ending" written out but you dont get that :) I might right like an after math chapter, @fangirlingatstuff @majestichugs

Warnings: damn, death, i had reader rip a head off a body...god damn? Blood warning, Sad warning

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"Come on!" Flint rushed everyone out the cells, the leafmen gathering quickly together, holding lovers, brothers, sisters, and friends in relief, "Listen!"

Leafmen took attention quickly; "We don't have time, and there's alot of us," Flint commented, "Princess Y/n is alive!"

They looked amongst each other in relief, "She wants everyone to make there way into Wraithwood, we'll grab stragglers along the way-"

"No way!" A woman argued, "We're not leaving Moonhaven!"

"These are our people! We're sworn to protect them!" A man spoke up, "We won't let them stay this way!"

There was an uproar as Flint gulped, "L.Listen!" He ordered, the commotion stopping.

"I get it," He told the, "I do, trust me....but if we do this- we- we have to do this smart,"

"The armory and forgery will have weapons." Someone told.

"We can start there," Flint told.

"Come on," Dagda led the kids into the empty kitchen, he setting on of the little girls down as they grouped up, he kneeled down, "We're okay? All of us?"

They nodded, "See nothing to be scared of-"

Relaxation turned into fear as the kids screamed; "Jael look out!"

He turned his back; a large form bigger than the door frame behind him; axe in hand.

"Oh...shite..." He gulped.

"Don't just stand there move!" Dagda shouted as the axe came down he pushing Jael to the ground.

Dagda and Jael scrambled to there feet as they backed up, "Run North!" Dagda ordered the kids, "To Wraithwood!"

The kids stood in shock, all gathered around and scared, "Listen to him go now!" Jael ordered.

"Come on!" Coral snapped, she helping pull the kids out the back door in haste.

"Can we take this thing?!" Jael argued, the thing roaring at them in response.

"We have to!" Dagda argued back.

The axe swung and they back up, it rushing Dagda, heavy swings; one hit could end it all, there was no use in attempting to block such a hit, and avoidance was all he could do, he tripping over a stool, just for the axe to come down besides his head.

"Hey! Fuck face!"

The thing turned around, Jael holding a large kitchen knife in his hand, he gulping as it picked up its axe with ease from besides Dagda's head, it marching towards him.

"Get your father and the others!" Jael ordered, backing up towards the back steps and to the door, "Come on!"

Jael was quick to make it out the back door, the thing following him. Dagda sat there panting to catch his breath; he standing up to look for a weapon, a large kitchen knife similar to the one Jael had grabbed and rushed off to find his father and the other royals in the only reasonable place; the throne room.

Flint and the leafmen had made it to the amrory, they had taken any gaurds out along the way. Everyone grabbing what little there was left, some left to large daggers and cracked swords.

The plan quickly talked about and discuss; what leafmen where there would spilt in two; one team to storm the throne room; the other half to start making there way to civilians in support.

"Princess Y/n in the throne room- we take out people along the way and storm the throne room! Your target is The Mother of the Fungus! The Queen of the woven in-between!" Flint announced, "We'll need her head- break her neck and spine connection and we'll kill her for good."

Y/n sat at sword point with a glare on her face.

"Split Queen Tara's head open," She ordered the woman with the drink tap.

The guards who had dragged the dead bodies in went over to Tara , cutting her connection to the others and dragged her over.

Y/n didn't even look at Tara; she holding eye contact with the woman above her, a smirk growing on Y/n's face, "What the hell are you smirking at?"

"Too pussy to do things yourself again?" Y/n snarked, the woman growling.

"Do you not see what I'm capable of!" The Mother argued, throwing her sword to the side, picking Y/n up by her neck; if Y/n wouldn't shut up; she'd shut her up; and for good this time, Y/n choked, a hand punching at the woman's wrist to let her go.

"Let her go!" Tara shouted, "Don't! Don't hurt her!"

The Mother too enraged by some bratty comments didn't realize Y/n had held her sword loosely in her hidden hand.

"I. I.!" Y/n choked out pushing on the womans face, trying to get free.

"What? No comment now!?" She laughed.

Y/n's hand gripped on the sword as the woman degrade her, "All this for what!? A boy!?" She laughed, "You're a pathetic excuse for a woman!"

With a quick movement Y/n drove the sword through the Mother's side, she dropping Y/n as Y/n pushed the sword further into her rotted gut, "You bitch!-"

Y/n walked her, grabbing her by the hair as she pulled the sword out. Y/n kicking her in the back of her knee, causing her to drop and tossing her to the ground, she growled as she got up to swing at Y/n.

Y/n grabbed the womans arm tossing it to the side,

"Fucking kill-"

Y/n was quick to reach for the woman's hair, pulling it hard causing her words to be cut off and a grunt of pain to replace words.

"Sad excuse for a woman?" Y/n asked, "Me? Would you Look at yourself,"

The Mother tried to pull off Y/n's hand, yet it didn't work, Y/n's glare down at the woman was nothing but full of anger, Y/n looked at the sword in her hand, and then back down at the woman.

"You know," Y/n spoke, "Before this, before this experience, I would of just tried to sympathize with you, tried to have empathy- try and help you and your people even,"

She tossed the sword off the the side, it sliding across the room; "I have no more... no more empathy, or sympathy, I don't even have rage."

Y/n forced her to lay along the step, "You think I would- after all look- my kingdom? My people? Have just been taken over- you killed my people, my family-"

Y/n pulled her hair again; her mouth opened and out came pain, Y/n forced her jaw down, kneeling down to force the woman to bite the stone step.

"Y/n...Y/n what are you doing?" Tara questioned, the grip on her arms tighter as the guards watched in fear.

"Now, Now I'm just fucking annoyed." Y/n snapped, hand on the back of the woman's head in support, leaning her weight, keeping the woman down, it doubled a balance as she raised up her free foor.

And hard came down Y/n's foot on the back of her head, a distinctive crack heard.

Tara was dropped, and the crashing of glasses shattering as they hit the floor was heard.

Dagda turned the corner, as did the other leafmen charging behind Flint, ready to turn into the mall hall and rush past the doors into the throne room. There was only a nod between the leafmen with Flint and Dagda, and just like that they were following Dagda's lead into the throne room; The doors slammed opened, two guards, backing up the first thing in sight, fear on there face, Dagda following the line of sight.

The room was filled with silence; and then they heard it.

Crack.

It was loud, and distinct.

Another crack and a grunt of exhaustion.

Finally the loudest once, and the twist that came with it, distinctive from the blunt crack, another one, and then a pulling crack; like the sound of cracking your neck after a hard day of work and finally consist heavy breathing of exhaustion.

Y/n kicked the body off the steps, she turned her head just enough to see the guards fleeing.

Y/n holding the Mother's head in her hand; she gripping the hair, "Your queen! Is dead!" She shouted.

They were quick to get down on their knees with their heads touching the ground. Y/n turned back towards the other who had the tap in her hand, she on her knees as well.

"Y/n?"

She turned her head quickly to see Dagda, her expression lightening at the sight of him, but her attention changed, and Dagda's eyes followed, Flint on his knees, he quick to bow with his head touching the ground for her, she looked at her grasp, blood dripping onto her shoes and onto the steps below, with it in hand she walked forward.

She stopping infront of Flint, "Revive my people, as you did me,"

"Yes my Queen," he answered hastily raising to his feet.

"Help him," She ordered the men and women behind him.

Yet they were still- "Now!" She demanded and they rushed along with her order.

Dagda was quiet as he looked up at her, and she only glanced his way, before walking away.

"Y/n-" He tried to stop her, "Y/n stop!"

Yet she only continued forward, walking past the guards still on their knees and out into the open, past the grand double doors.

What a beautiful thing it was; people of this kind; this army...all collected at the bottom of the stairs. They all like her; rotted from the inside out; eyes missing and replaced with the beautiful bloom of fungi, heads re-constructed by the maze of colors, throats slit and covered just as hers had been, all intwined, all together.

And it was snowing...

She lifted the head up to the crowd, shouts and war cries of praise filled her ears, before she chucked the thing down the stairs, allowing it to hit the steps and roll into the crowd, her hand covered in blood.

Looking back, Y/n saw Tara, not moved from her spot but turned her way; an unplaced look on her face, as the children ran into the throne room from up the stairs. Queen's thankful filled cries as The Nothern Kingdom Royals could only cry in despair of there now missing son. Mandrake hunched over his slowly waking sister, thankful she would be okay. Other soldiers over an awake Finn, they'd squeeze the life out of him he just got back, others trying to attend to Nod and Ronin.

Then there was Dagda.

"Goodbye," She nodded to him, turning around-

"Was it a lie!" He shouted to her.

She paused, "Did you really love me the way I loved you!"

Y/n glanced back towards him, before turning herself back towards him; "I've loved nothing more than you,"

"Then where are you going!?" He questioned, "Why are you going!?"

"Six sets of seven days," Y/n answered, "The rot and fungi that is now mine will spread with snow, all things natures given; I take all those things back from the living, they will be with me, you will see it travel, in packs, in trios, in duos, a deer and a wolf, or a fawn and a hawk, no matter the land of orgin two will be together, nothing will be alone,"

"Except you," Dagda commented.

Y/n was silent, "let me come with you," Dagda pleaded.

"I won't take a child away from a Father." Y/n told, "I am...already taking a child away from two..."

Y/n curtsied to him, a hand extended out in her bow, "Until I see you again. Prince of Wraithwood; holder of my heart, my soul, and my mind."

She turned and walked away, she walking her way down the steps, bloody foot prints being left behind in the ever building snow.

She could feel her heart ache, and her head hurt, her eyes starting to water as she reached the end of the stairs, a sob stuck in her throat as her people parted for her.

She could hear a cry of sadness from behind her as it echoed in the quiet every growing dusk, Tara calling out for her in pleads to whoever was holding her broken form, it had finally set in.

Flint had caught up to her, "I want you as my right hand," she told him.

He bowed his head, "of course my queen."

"Are they alright?"

"Everyone will be alright." He answered.

"Good."

Dagda walked out the doors, standing at the top of the steps he watched Y/n and the army marching behind her. A hand coming up to his shoulder. He looked over his father beside him- he could only hug him, Mandrake rubbed the back of his sons head: the past had been repeated...again.

Love doesn't coquer all.

[bomberqueen17]

great great great

It's all going great, it is. I'm frazzled for no real reason. But it's going.

Wednesday it snowed and the contractors showed up later than they meant to; it was almost 9 when the van pulled in to the neighbor's driveway and I opened my front door and said "over here man" and the guy was like "ah whoops there's the house number" and we laughed.

Description and photos behind the cut, this got long, but anyway this is why I dont' have a chapter ready to go this week either >.>

The demolition crew was two guys, a white dude about five feet five named Andrew with a piercing voice and impeccable manners, and a taller quiet Black dude named Dave. They put plastic sheeting over the doors out of the kitchen and proceeded to just wreak mayhem in there. The "installer", who I assume is kind of a project lead from the way everyone talked about him, wasn't present, he was tying up loose ends on a previous job. ("We had a third party doing vinyl and they just walked out and didn't finish it," Andrew told Dave. "I thought we didn't use third parties," Dave mused. "Yeah," Andrew said, "well that's why we don't." I loved how sharp Andrew's voice was because I could eavesdrop even over all the crashing noises.)

Andrew never swore in my presence but again, piercing voice, so I heard him explain to Dave, "I fucked myself over on these jobs tho, one of the early ones for this company I had extra time and they were like keep yourself busy somehow so we can pay ya, and I was like okay and I went through and I pulled all the staples and left the place so clean and nice, and now they expect me to do that every time. But it means I always get the job, the installers request me, because I'm gonna pull all the staples." I have no idea what was stapled, but I do believe him, because Dave was like "okay okay I'll pull the staples" and then I never saw any staples.

He was done by about 3:30 pm, to his own surprise. "Thought we'd need another half day, especially with the late start I got, on the road for an hour like that," he said (he was commuting up from the snow belt, and while our area had gotten three inches, they'd gotten over a foot down there, and nobody was handling it well on the roads.) "I didn't work slow, but I took my time, but everything came off so clean I'm all set here and it's done."

[image description: My kitchen before work started. Yellow linoleum floor in poor condition, brown wood cabinets, white and yellow linoleum countertops on a little L-shaped area, and a half-wall dividing the room partially so it's a tiny kitchen and a tiny dinette.]

[image: the work in progress, from the other door of the kitchen. The half-wall of the leg of the L is still visible as framing. The linoleum is gone, peeled back to wooden subflooring. The plaster walls are gone, down to the bare studs. The electric fixtures are hanging from the ceiling. in the foreground, Andrew is leaning on a four-foot stepladder, on his phone; in the background, Dave is in a fluorescent yellow hoodie on his knees on the floor scraping up the remnants of the linoleum underlayment.]

There is not a scrap of insulation in those walls. I asked Andrew and he laughed and was like "usually there isn't, in houses like this one".

When he left the half-wall frame was gone, and all of it was hauled out to a dump trailer in the driveway, neatly stowed, and the room was immaculate.

[image: an empty room with bare wall studs. The new windows are white frames. You can see the sink pipe, and the drainpipe vent going up toward the roof, jogged around the window. You can also see, under the bay window, the reinforced framing in the wall to support the original, much smaller picture window that used to be there.]

So that was day one. Day two, The Installer showed up. A fiftysomething moustachioed man named Jim, with the soft-spoken sort of mumbly variant of the local dialect that Dude's dad spoke too-- I had forgotten, Hap (yes dude's dad's name was really Hap) died twenty years ago now, but I did know him-- he did this kind of work, too-- anyway, Jim was more reserved than Andrew, but I made a point of greeting him, and made a point of mildly swearing fairly early in the conversation in like a funny way. A little later another guy showed up, a younger guy named Chad, and Jim explained later that Chad was finished with his project and looking to fill some time so he'd come to help and Jim was glad of the help. Chad set to work demolishing the last half-wall that was supposed to come out-- Andrew hadn't because Jim wanted to put in some bracing beforehand, since the wall's load-bearing and they're going to put in reinforcements to support it a little later.

I came out to look, and apologized for being nosy, and Chad laughed and said "it's your house!" and then mimed hitting the wall with the sledgehammer again and said "Bam!" quietly, like showing that he understood that it was fun to do/watch, and I proceeded to watch in delight as he carefully demolished the plaster wall and carefully removed the light switches and thermostat wiring from the remains.

Jim laughed at me and Chad, and after that has been much warmer to me. i've been well-trained to stand out of the way, and have come to watch them do various things.

[Image: Clean new 2x4s arranged into a temporary brace from ceiling to floor, with a stepladder threaded through it, extending along a space about two feet into the room from where the half-wall was just demolished, to hold the load of the rest of the house. The light switches are dangling and the heat vent poking up out of the floor is just a hole.]

Unfortunately they needed me to clear out a section of the basement where I'd deemed it safe to store things, because there need to be reinforcements put in under the pillars and beam that are replacing the load-bearing wall. I worked on that, and they came and helped me move a table. The heat vent has to be moved, and Jim thought there was going to have to be some whole thing with concrete but midway through the day he had called someone to confirm and they were like what are you talking about and he was delighted to discover he was reading an earlier version of the proposal, and the final contract had said that he could just reinforce a floor joist and meet code that way, rather than having to demolish part of my basement floor to pour a new concrete footing for a new jack post for a pillar to support the corner of the kitchen. He explained this to me with wonderful clarity, and pointed out other places where the original builders of the house had used this same doubled floor joist reinforcement.

Meanwhile the company hauled away the dump trailer with all the demolition debris, and then showed up with a flatbed with all the drywall and insulation for my project, which they put into my garage-- which coincidentally I'd just cleaned out because we'd just had the garage door replaced (on Tuesday, that finally happened, which is great because that was the last possible day it could have happened ha ha no that didn't stress me out at all why do you ask), so anyway it was great to have a good spot to put all that. They even moved the snowblower so it'd be easy to get to, before they filled up the space with the drywall.

Today (Friday) Jim's back by himself, cutting out the old heat vent and extending it to the other side of the room, where it will come up through the kickplate of one of the cabinets. This means that cabinet will be warm and also whoever sits at the table built in to the window will have warm toes, so I approve. Probably Chita is going to want to sit there so we're going to have to figure out how to make room for that, LOL.

Tomorrow Dude's mom is leaving to travel for Christmas, and we're going to go over to her house to house-sit. I think Jim won't have any more questions for me by then, or so I hope-- I'm going to give him my number anyway, and review with him that he's got the house key and everything he needs.

We are living in the living room like gremlins, and have to move sideways through the space because it's so crammed. It was all fine and good until we forgot we'd need to put the stove in there too, and now it's a struggle. And the microwave can't be on the same circuit with the fridge, so if I want to microwave something I have to use an extension cord going into the kitchen. So I can't microwave my lunches. And even still sometimes it trips the circuit breaker. Me having pre-prepared a bunch of food to microwave is now kind of a bummer, because the damn circuit breaker tripping is so annoying and slightly scary.

[image: Haunted-house-looking-ass-shit-- the thermostat is taped to the temporary bracing with painter's tape, and the light switches controlling the pale yellow light that's illuminating the scene are just dangling from their wires into the dark room.]

Today Jim's working on that heat vent and then figures he can get the floor underlayment in. He's cautiously optimistic that the project can be done before Christmas-- they said it would be six weeks, with the kitchen "roughly usable" after three, and he explained it more to me yesterday as he was about to leave.

So once he has the underlayment in, then Monday and Tuesday ("mondee-chusdee", in his accent) the electricians can come, and "chusdee-wensdee" the plumber can come. (He'll mark out the locations of all the cabinets and heights of the counters in painter's tape, he said, so the electricians can work confidently to place the outlets and fixtures.) The plumber will move the stove gas line and the refrigerator water line (Jim was so casually contemptuous of the way the installers had plumbed the waterline for our fridge when we bought it last year. "We'll do it right," he said, "with a water box and a shutoff up behind the fridge so you can work on it from there, we won't use a little plastic hose." He sniffed. "We'll repair this." The installers had used one of those lil sharkbite things I think, to put a little T into the waterline so a plastic tube could thread up through the floor to the fridge. "These things are-- well they're easy for a homeowner to install," Jim said not unkindly, "but they're, well, they're kind of trash."), and will bring the sink standpipe up to code-- it's not bad but it's very 1950-- and then after that, Jim can come back-- but he's got some vacation coming up, he's going to Florida to see his mom, so his colleague Max who's out sick this week ("I told him we didn't need to share whatever he's got, he's a giving guy but it's okay to keep that to himself") will be taking over but it should be pretty seamless-- anyway he explained the master-carpentering things he's gotta do, including building the cabinets and such, which'll take a while. The cabinets get built-in, and then the flooring is installed afterward to butt up against them (the flooring doesn't go under the cabinets because they're not movable, but it does go under the appliances since those are movable), and once the cabinets are in he can get the final measurements to the countertop people, who then take seven-ten days to manufacture the countertop to spec. So that's the delay, he explained-- the appliances can come in and get hooked up, and then you have your stove and your fridge and you can kind of use your kitchen. But the countertop people have this delay before they can install, and that's always where the project feels like it's dragging and people get frustrated, but it's unavoidable. He was delighted to be told that we won't be in the house at that point, we're gonna be house-sitting and won't be breathing down his neck about it. And if we do have to move back in here before the countertops we'll know what's up anyway.

Anyway. "Six weeks is a kinda CYA," he said, "yanno? We wanna leave space for problems. But this is a pretty straightforward job and I don't think we'll have problems." His goal is to have his end of the work done in time for the countertop people not to have to spread their seven-ten day lag out over Christmas and make it even longer. "If I can avoid that, they can get their install done before Christmas, and we can be done," he said. "That'd be pretty great."

So there's that scoop. I ought to be finding this relaxing, as all I've had to do is be like, available, and I've mostly had my days to myself, but I have found it so stressful to listen to all the crashing and such I haven't really gotten much done. Oh well, it's okay.

I am doing a little mini sewalong with some Discord buddies of a Sew Liberated blouse pattern. So I'll have photos of that at some point. I did manage to get the fabric cut even with my house torn up, which is a considerable achievement.

[suffarustuffaru]

hiii i made another rezero spotify playlist again.

so this goes through subarus Entire character arc from arc 1 all the way roughly to arc 8!! gonna put notes under the cut.

theres a few repeat songs from my other playlists, mainly from the emilia playlist and the other subaru playlist i made, but i keep it to a minimum!! these songs are important okay.

i use several rezero songs because. well a lot of official rezero songs are from subaru's pov if you look at the lyrics + play in certain crucial moments. and also theyre bops and this is my playlist so i do what i want HAH

also in general i wanted to choose a blend of. more depressing songs. but also more upbeat ones. and a mixture of both of those. subaru has a rollercoaster of an arc hah i had to get a specific Tone here.

the first three songs are the intro songs!! the ones that summarize subarus entire character <3 okay also i know "the whole being dead thing" is an absolutely hilarious choice for a subaru playlist. even in just the song title alone. but LMAO i stand by that choice. 1000%.

"waving through a window" is like. just a bit pre-arc 1, then "connect" is the arc 1 to arc 2 transition

"relive" and "peace and love on the planet earth" mark memory snow and the end of arc 2 overall. "all i've ever known" is in this section because of remsuba growing close together. "ceilings" and "same boat" are in this section because i think they kind of fit the specific kind of Yearning subaru has. just in the sense that rbd undos time hes spent with the others; he loves them, but do they love him back? he knows them, but they dont know him. that sort of thing. i had to acknowledge it ;-;;;

"wrecking ball" (yes i know its a very fitting song title aljsldf) to "mr loverman" are arc 3!! also yes i know theres a lot of songs from the show crazy ex-girlfriend in this section but like. hear me out okay those songs fit. i think it's easy to tell what theyre referring to with the song titles alone also alksdjfljksfd

(and yes "what is this feeling?" is referencing subaru and julius's unfortunate first meeting. i couldnt resist.)

"realize" (this is specifically the cover that subarus va did!!) to "hopes and dreams" is arc 4. "look whos inside again" and "this is me trying" can be seen as references to subaru's first trial also.

"haven't you noticed (i'm a star" to "fightsong" are the transition from arc 4 to arc 5. and yes i had to include the song "boy bi".

"theater D" to "zero to hero" is the rest of arc 5. and yes theater D is an extremely good song okay it deserves to be in this playlist twice. the second time just represents sirius fucking shit up <3 "i see stars" is supposed to represent subaru's heroic speech to the entire city!! "immortals" is also in reference to subaru learning reinhard can Also die and come back.

"soldier, poet, king" is the transition into arc 6. you can also see the "soldier, poet, king" as julius, subaru, and emilia.

"demons" to "soap" is the rest of arc 6 <3 and if you so desire it you can see "at my back" and "what else can i do?" as julisuba (platonic or otherwise) songs.

"collusion" and "malachite's theme" are the transition into arc 7-8 and the rest of the songs that follow after are the rest of arc 7-8!! "run boy run" marks the start of the child subaru arc yes.

"your reality" is the finale song... i know it's like a pretty calming choice for a subaru playlist aljsdlf but i feel like the lyrics are fitting for the entirety of his character arc and the possible direction it might take yes!!

[jrueships]

..... the art kinda gagged me im ngl... i was bracing myself for like... purposefully silly or accidental..... not. not this. Mona lisa

Today I saw art of Jarred Vanderbilt getting fucked by D’Lo on ao3 so that was fun

IF YOUDU DONT TLINK THAT SHJIT RN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[gutta-percha]

dream:

we had bought a leopard. specifically a snow leopard. this was months previous so wed had it for a while, wed taken it on holiday before and it had been well behaved. now were on a different holiday, and it starts acting strange and occasionally aggressive towards me and my dog. i keep having to, like, stand my ground and 'out-growl' it. eventually it wont even let me touch it. i come to the conclusion that its injured about its paws and genitals and thats why it has suddenly become aggressive. i realise that im not cut out to keep a wild animal as a pet (how did we even purchase it? is this fucking legal?) i go back to the hotel (which is also my house) and try to find my mum. i break down and tell her that we shouldnt have bought it and that we need to call animal control to sedate it and take it somewhere professional. she seems disappointed, but agrees, but we dont have a phone. i ask her where it is now and she says she put it in my bedroom. i say fuck sake, its going to have trashed everything. i go to the main lobby of the hotel (which is my living room) and theres s bunch of teenagers there gathering for a party. i ask if anyone has a phone i could borrow, its urgent. no one really wants to help. one guy says okay i guess you can use mine but its some kind of modern one and i cant figure it out, so i give it back. two girls take pity on me and leave to get help and im pacing around for half an hour waiting for them but they never return. the house im in isnt the hotel anymore and idk where my mum is. idek if dad knows we have this animal. i try using the landline but realise i cant remember any of the phone numbers i need, so i set off by foot back to the holiday complex. im walking through town, panicking, and realise im completely lost and have no idea where im going and no way to contact anyone. i start praying that this is just a dream and that none of this is real even though it feels so palpable and vivid. i close my eyes and lay/bow down on the ground, begging/praying/willing that this isnt real - then i feel the sensation of my duvet and wake up full of relief.

before this i dreamt about stabbing my dad in the arm with a biro.

[sowthetide]

GREETINGS AND SALUTATIONS this is teainabowl AND IM BACK WITH MORE NONSENSE AS PROMISED. family crisis almost averted?? i havent slept in 2 days but lmao who cares. (you cant see me rn but i want you to know that im doing a happy little jump skip dance as im writing this)

BECAUSE!!!!! ok. lets talk about genderbending in fandom. i think what usually gives me the ick in those fics is they do nature vs nurture wrong??? like a lot of the time they’ll just change the NATURE of the character and use the different gender as an excuse which. idk idk it runs me the wrong way. BUT QUENN!!! shes very much still theon?? just, nurtured differently. am i making sense? i have been traumatized by some bio-essentialism bs in the past when trying to look into similar fics bc i love gender fuckery PEOPLE JUST DONT GET IT LIKE I DO (or you, appearantly hkdhhfjh i love your story it means so much to me) 

and asoiaf is SUCH a gendered world??? like it has so much untapped potential where even a single characters gender can have SO MUCH IMPACT (can you imagine if joffrey had been a girl?? or if sansa had been a boy???) 

but what originally started my spiel was the realization that jon wouldnt have gone to the nights watch if he was a girl. and. what then?? slightly horrifying tbh, and makes me wonder if one of the other character had been male (read; they had been given more agency and autonomy in their lives) what would have changed???

but back to jon, bc then i immediately thought, ok, lets backtrack a bit, who would jon even BE. bc a lot of jons character revolves around his (lack of) a relationship with catelyn, his siblings mother. but she would have a harder time avoiding him if he was a she, right?? am i making sense???? a girl isnt seen like as much of a threat to her children i thinks?? idk i love cat and jon so much a love picking apart their relationship bc bc bc ARGHhhgg yk? also i like to think of ned being haunted by lyannas carbon copy who happens to be great with swords (would he be permitted to practice swordplay??) idk

ANYWAYS no we come to the part where i tie it up to what you mentioned in your answer. bc as much as JON being a girl might change his relationship with cat, it would be much more fucked up if it were robb, me thinks. (i too am a bit guilty of using robb as an accessory to cat) but but but. are. are you seeing my vision. catelyn stark with her three daughters when ned leaves for the greyjoy rebellion. catelyn whos convinced that the reason her husband wont send his bastard away is because she cant give him any sons. in the books she calls bran her special little boy and. idk the double meaning this would give it. and bran!!! being the heir!!! hiw would that change things??? would the reception to his accident be different?? and speaking of, what about king robert and his obsession with joining his family with neds? i havent talked about how robb (robyn?) would be different in this au but i cant think hed be as pleased as sansa was? his first shown interaction with joff is him trying to curb stomp the fucker lmao. i dont think he would be likely to have a different opinion bc of gender changes. in the books hes often rash and impulsive and prideful, and id want him to keep those traits, but peoples reactions to them would be different?? and so he would shape them in different ways??? am i making sense i feel like im just rambling. this is getting way too long and wayy to incoherent i need to stop. ok bye for now ill be back (threatening)

GO TO BED!!!! GET SOME SLEEP!!!!! But yay! to family crisis averted? Maybe?

Okay. I'm gonna indulge in some haterism for a second cause I've actually poked around the ASOIAF genderbending tag quite a bit. Unfortunately, a lot of those fics? Lame as hell. There's a preponderance of genderbent Jon Snow, which I think is totally cool! Very interesting genderbend to explore because of how much it changes the trajectory of his story. But then the character isn't really written as Jon at all? Maybe I'm just picky about characterization, but oftentimes fem!Jon just becomes this cookie-cutter "strong/feisty" female protag and it's like...

Sorry. I'm being mean. Obviously, there is no singular "correct" take on a given character, as we're all influenced by our own experiences and perceptions. My take on Theon isn't the exact same as yours, or goddcoward's, or Ashen's, or GRRM's. A unique Theon exists in all our heads, each one a bit different from the others.

But! Genderbends are so much more fun when you can see the underpinnings of the character you know, and there are moments where those aspects really shine through. And it's like OH!!! (pointing vigorously) THERE THEY ARE!!!! Otherwise, why not just write an OC, or adopt a minor character with very little canon characterization? (Admittedly, this can become a problem when you start collecting minor characters like Pokemon cards. I am my own evidence of this phenomenon.) If it ain't Jon, then why have it be Jon at all, y'know?

ngl female Joffrey has been rattling around in my brain lately... 👀fem!Joffrey would definitely be betrothed to Robb, which would be a complete and utter shitshow (appreciative/affectionate). Joffrey as a true mini-Cersei has such insane juice to it as a story idea, especially considering that Joffrey never liked Cersei all that much lol... the mother-daughter dynamic would be BONKERS.

Back to Jon though:

First, you're definitely right that fem!Jon wouldn't be seen as much of a threat to her siblings as Jon was. She would probably be married off pretty quickly once she came of age, as high as possible for a woman who was bastard-born. I don't see Catelyn liking her per se, but Catelyn wouldn't have the same misgivings about her as she did about Jon. Since fem!Jon probably wouldn't become the vessel of the wildling/Others plot, she might have an interesting role to play if she went south... to marry Robert's royal bastard Edric Storm, perhaps? I could see Robert "having his Lyanna" by marrying fem!Jon and Edric. But then shit hits the fan with the usual plot of AGOT, and maybe fem!Jon gets taken hostage by the Lannisters in King's Landing? Or gets caught in Renly's shit since she was with Edric at Storm's End? I am NAWTTTT talking myself into writing another fic. Go to hell. I need to finish Sow the Tide first.

fem!Robb (Robyn between myself and goddcoward) is even crazier. Catelyn would NOT be fucking happy to have Ned's spitting image hanging around Winterfell, while all her sons are under 10 and have the Tully look. I could see Catelyn successfully arguing that Jon should be fostered out, perhaps in the Vale (as a favor on the part of Jon Arryn)? Like, oh, Ned, you and Robert became such good friends fostering together in the Vale... that way, Jon is waythefuckoverthere and can't make any allies in the north.

I'd love for Robyn to have some of the same anger and pride, and she'd probably be similar to Catelyn in that she was raised as the heir for a good bit of time before the "real" heir came along years later (Bran+Edmure). Also, Catelyn would absolutely NOT trust Theon around Robyn. Not At All. Kinda fair though? Robyn would also be older than Sansa was in AGOT, so I think she'd be at least a little bit more worldly and pick up on Joffrey's... Joffreyness. Robb/Robyn are still dutiful characters, but I think there would be a lot more immediate friction between her and her betrothed. Double genderbend Throbb is my true love, however (Quobyn my beloved).

I've gotta finally go work on chapter 40 now, so I can't answer everything, but do come back... I'll be here... revolving all of these genderbends around in my head...

[olli-online]

make a post with all your yj thoughts on characters/plots arc and theories before you start s2 <3

HI I JUST FINISHED IM ......oh wow

okay im not a theories person i couldnt come up with something even if u held a gun to my head 😭😭 and even if i could it would make no sense and sound ridiculous. but okay ill start with characters, lottie and taissa are my favs 100% ESPECIALLY AFTER THAT ENDING WITH LOTTIE ????? oh im so excited to see where this is going in s2 i need to see this shit go to 100 dude and TAISSA??? the whole thing with her sleepwalking is crazyy, when i tell u shes become the main inspo for my new oc. i imagine its gonna be tenfold in s2. the way jackie and laura lee died are both so ?? 💀 im sorry laura lees death just made me laugh and jackies.... this girl just stood infront of propellers of a slow ass plane so ig it makes sense she'd just die in the cold out of spite, also where tf is javi is he just dead now too cause they just didnt show where travis and nat ended up. my thoughts are all over the place but im real excited for s2 i LOVE winter scenes and for them to be fucked up?? ohhhhhh blood on snow <3 im just really excited to see more of lottie her character is really fucking interesting every scene that focuses on her is balls to the wall dude. ALSO VAN HAS BEEN PUT THRU THE WRINGER 😭 she was almost left on the plane to die, got her face ripped off by a wolf, got SET ON FIRE??? i dont understand what was happening there i really dont. also shauna is real cool tbh when she was abt to slit travis' throat that was crazy AND MISTY OH MISTY...shes actually nuts im obsessed with her i need the full script for every episode just so i can see all the stuff from her scenes im dead serious. the way she perfectly helped clean up the murder and put adams head in the damn casket oh shes dangerously smart i fear. nat....like i told river shes just like mandy from shameless to me and that is incredibly near and dear to my heart as a mandy apologist. shes been thru hell and back even before getting on that plane dude its actually so sad :( this is all just ramblings and very long so ill leave it there all in all that was incredible and im hooked i will start s2 tomorrow hopefully AAAA i cant wait

oh wait. one last thing. i actually do have one theory except its just canon and real

this is a trans man

[awsugar]

as a fellow 28 year old still living with her mom, i feel the struggle, my mom goes into my room whenever i leave and moves things around (idk) i'm so sorry you gotta deal w/your dad doing shit like that you, it's fucked up and not okay and i hope you can move into a better situation soon <3

im so sorry. he doesnt do it all the time but he does go in my room sometimes and specifically what happened this time was last week on thursday i had a bug infestation in my room and i had to take everything out. great opportunity to clean my wreck of a bedroom. i got rid of a ton of stuff and organized some things that had needed to be organized for ages. i had a ton of clothes on my floor though and they all need to go through the wash because there were ants and i dont think they were in my clothes like all over or anything because the clothes is not what they were attracted to but like im not putting any of that shit back into my room until i KNOW there are no bugs. so i did a few loads of wash but then i wasnt home at all all weekend, i was at work the rest of the days, and now i have two days off in a row. but basically i wasnt home in order to finish putting everything away that came out of my room. an ongoing problem i have at my dads house is that my bedroom is fucking SMALL and all of my stuff doesnt fit in it even though i want it to. so sometimes there are laundry baskets or other things that are out in the hallway/dining room (we live in a one floor condo). i do have a habit of not taking care of my stuff and letting things sit for a really long time. however, last week on thursday the things that my dad was like really fed up with i took care of. i had a package from my mom and a box of stuff from my bathroom that had been sitting in the dining room for months and i finally took care of it. so the stuff he was tired of looking at wasnt there anymore. i just had a few storage bins that came out of my room on thursday that were in the hallway and i planned on taking care of all that stuff today/tomorrow on my days off. but i came home yesterday and my dad told me that he had gone through both of my storage containers, decided what i needed and what i didnt need, threw away one of the containers, put a bunch of my stuff in a different storage bin that he wants to take to the basement, and then started like interrogating me on whether i needed a few books and a snow globe from my childhood that he had found. and i immediately got sooooo fucking angry!!!!!! because its not his place to go through my shit! and i told him as such i and told him how mad i was and that that wasnt his job and i didnt want him going through my things and we also had this argument again today and he is so fucking stubborn that its not clicking for some reason that im fgoing to be 29 in may (and i am desperate to move out and will be one way or another this year) and i dont deserve to have my dad violate my privacy and belongings by going through them and deciding what HE thinks that i need. and for me yes it is way worse that it is my dad doing this than it would be if it were my mom even though i would still dislike it. and he just says that based on the past that he knew i wasnt going to take care of those things and they woudl just sit there. but the fact is that it was my plan to finish taking care of it all on these two days off and he didnt even give me a WARNING. he didnt say like 'you have two days to take care of this stuff or i am going to do it myself' he just told me that he went through my shit when i got home from work because he assumed that i wouldnt. and no matter how many times i try to tell him how fucked up that is especially because i am a grown adult. he wont listen. and we just start yelling again. and its driving me fucking insane like. this has been the final straw with me living with him even though its been ruining my life since i had to move in here in 2020. sorry for the wall of text but i had to get it off my chest like ugh. i hate this. i wish i could move sooner. and im so so sorry you have to deal with similar shit. and thank you if anyone actually read all this lmfao

[e17omm]

You mentioning writing Salt Snow arc in Snippets makes me wonder what Seele’s up to. For once that she had an arc hahaha. Since she got home kind of early it’d be nice to see how she integrated in St Freya? How she feels about everyone

Could easily set up some stuff for Salt Snow arc since you already changed things actually. No Misteln to kidnap her but maybe she can go to the Sea willingly to tie up some old loose ends

I do need to touch more on Seele at St. Freya. The problem I'm having is that, I'm not sure how to write her. Like the game doesnt show how she is when she meets Kiana and co. Yeah we see that they get along, but that's several chapters later and after a lot of off-screen time. And I dont really plan on changing that. (I still really should at least write Seele's first day at St. Freya High or smth)

OH MY GOD WHILE REREADING BEFORE POSTING I REALISED I HAVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT ROZA AND LILIYA. Okay, fuck. So they're with World Serpent because they got extracted with Cocolia I guess. I need to do something with that... Hey, is anyone up to see Sirin go apeshit on another organization doing child experimentation :D? (Actually that might work really well to antagonize World Serpent even more for Sirin...)

(back to the ask answer)

As for part 1.5. The current plans are: they go to investigate it [Sea of Quanta] because they have the Herrscher of the Void and Seele and the Second Divine Key. Like, why the heck wouldn't they try to understand more about the Sea of Quanta? I've already dropped hints of much bigger threats like (very subtly) Aeons and the imaginary being Mei encountered (which was a backup antagonist incase Sa disappointed me, which she didn't). Of course SS and AE would want to secure their inter-dimensional flanks! Just look at where the Sky People came from!

So that's the intro changed. Not sure if I'll keep the Gray Serpent/Nagazora part if I'm honest? I like it but it doesnt really fit in with the other changes I have to do due to no Misteln.

As for the rest, I dont feel like I have to change much. Maybe change Senti since she's more tied to Fu Hua in Snippets, and of course include Sirin. But Vita and Sa? I don't feel like I need to do any changes.

Except making Sa not be defeated like that. But this remains to be seen based on what part 2 does with Vita. But these are my ideas for part 1.5 of Snippets so far.

Do keep in mind that I am going to finish part 1 before starting part 1.5, so it is still quite far away.

[cosmicalily]

so im easing back into writing after my break, bear with me! have some fic ideas and im gonna keep working on my aces series and also start posting my until the end of time series (super excited about that one hehe)

but i present in the mean time:

my top 10 underrated kpop bsides (in my opinion)

1. novel by skz - ik it's a japanese comeback so it's kind of different, but even so, this song is SO pretty (i listened to it while snow was falling at a christmas market in the city today and WOW that was probably one of my fav music experiences and the entire song literally feels like that situation)

2. brave by twice - honestly i love basically every bside in this album but THIS (and basics, but that's not underrated and definitely should not be bc it's iconic) is one of my favs. something about it just clicks in my brain?? idk go listen to it

3. telepathy by bts - this one is SO CUTE and my mum introduced me to it <3 it's her fav bc it's so sweet and i love love love the rhythm?? like idk again it just is one of those songs that WORKS and the harmonies are so pretty and it's just fun and cute and everything

4. psychic lover/snowy/freaky by itzy (shut up ik it's more than one) - OKAY SO ive always found itzy bsides kind of mid (DONT come at me i love those girls okay but idk i feel like jyp really isn't using their talents well enough like PLS give my girl ryu better rap lines?? WHY ARE THEY JUST TALKIBG HELP SHE CAN HANDLE THEM) but the cheshire mini album ATE (boys like you gets a half point bc i liked the instrumental even tho the lyrics were cringe) and kill my doubt WAS the bside album of itzy (shame that i didn't like the title track anywhere near as much tho) so basically yeah they have a few good recent bsides i adore is what im tryna say

5. rewind by twice - okay so as much as i adore twice i feel like their bsides are either a) SLAPPING INCREDIHLE MWAH or b) what the fuck are you doing here?? like you're lowkey in the wrong place darling!! like can someone explain to me WHY moonlight ended up in the scientist album and NOT taste of like love??? excuse me??? and im seeing that none of this is about rewind but idk anymore i need to do a post where i sort out bsides from different itzy and twice albums into their CORRECT ONES BECAUSE WHY IS WILD WILD WEST IN GUESS WHO AND NOT IN NOT SHY THAT WAS THEIR WHOLE COWBOY CONCEPT STFU

6. love maze by bts

7. blind spot by skz

8. cool (your rainbow) by nmixx

9. girls like us by twice

10. love by stayc

[the-blaze-empress]

For the Ask Game, 1., 2., 7., 19., 21., 41., 44., and 81.,

(hug)

1. do you know how you want the story to end when you start, or are you just stumbling through the figurative wilderness hoping to find a road?

i know where i want to end up definitely, sometimes that can change in specifics a little bit but like. the main themes and shit are always pretty set. the middle can b a bit hazy but also has the main points outlined. sometimes characters just have a few more panic attacks than expected u know how it b <3

2. talk about a notable time a narrative or character has looked you dead in the eyes and said “fuck your plan, here’s what we’re actually doing.”

PHILZA FUCKING MINECRAFT IN TAKE MY ARMS STOP FUCKING PANICKING. his reaction to quackity was WAY worse than i thought it was gonna be that it warranted an ENTIRE EXTRA CHAPTER. yeah so that happened. ALSO PHIL GETTING DISTRACTED BY THE RIBBON VENDOR. KID PLS THERES PLOT THAT NEEDS TO HAPPEN I GET IT THE RIBBONS R SHINY BUT WE GOT THINGS TO ADDRESS HERE. arms!phil very much has a mind of his own

7. tell us about the plot of the first fanfic you ever wrote

oh boy time to revisit the days where i didnt know what fanfic was!! i think technically my first fanfic was. sfge fic. i had a whole canon compliant story about a pair of twins, the daughters of the girl and boy from the snow queen fariytale, one had fire powers and the other water, the water one went to the school for good and the fire one went to the school for evil. they both got into the trial by tale and watched (ohgod what were their names) bane kill the good kid from woods beyond. uh yeah i had fun working out all their gifts and stuff, i had a lot of characters planned n shit i should see if i can find the word docs for that. as per usual the middle of the fic was very. hazy in the middle

19. what are some books or authors that influenced your style the most?

BUN BUNFLORAS @bunfloras!! SUCH a big influence on both what i write and how i write most notably in finally being the one to convert me from past tense to present. oh dear can you see me? for properly introducing me to whump and kidza, both of which i adore reading AND writing. fuckin. whats her name. margaret owen is such a good writer her books are so good i love how well she worldbuilds and embeds it all so well into her stories. go read the merciful crow duology you will thank me.

21. pick a writer to co-write a book with and tell us what you’d write about.

hmmmmmm. i think bun and i could write a good book together i mean we've already cowritten tens of thousands of words sfadsgdh. looks at rune and cam. looks at their rp. looks back at this question. yeah it would be about magic and queer relationships and growth and so much fucking angst

41. what is the weirdest story idea you’ve ever had.

i have no fucking clue. i have had so many story ideas i cannot keep track of them all. good lord. lemme check my google drive. OH I KNOW. that one klance fic i wrote from the perspective of a tree <3

44. any writing advice you want to share?

i feel like saying 'just fucking do it' is cliche. but its the best advice i can give really. write for yourself even if you dont publish it, read things you like and work out what you like about it and see if you can put that in ur own writing. write FOR YOURSELF. dont write for other people it will become a chore and you will regret it. people wont enjoy reading it if ur not enjoying writing it

81. if you could go back in time and give your younger self a piece of writing advice specific to you, what would it be?

god so much. not everything has to be about romance. stop taking on so many projects with deadlines at once. stop tracking how many words u write each day. write what you want to write. its okay to stop enjoying smth ur writing

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I dont want to kill mtself just cause he won i want to kill myself because i dont have family or friends to hug me or a nice place to go do fun things in or a nice warm meal to make or jist anything that feels small and good and. I have being transgwnder and tthe entire country wants me dead. I cant go get my hug i dont have anyone who caress anymore i cut myself hours ago and ive just been alone.

Hey anon, I'm sorry. I know there is nothing I or anyone else can say to truly make it better, especially not through a screen.

I will start with this. I do not hate you or want you dead. I am so fucking proud of you for being brave and discovering who you are. I want you to have good things and people that care about you.

When I was at my bottom my first small and good thing was what the sky looked like as it snowed. My second small and good thing was a podcast. My third small and good thing was petting a dog. Small and good things exist even when everything is horrendous. They exist for free and in places we don't expect them. I hope you're able to find something.

People need people. It's a truth that feels awful when you don't have anyone. Other people also feel lonely and would benefit from having you in their lives. You just haven't found each other yet. And sometimes it's enough to not be completely alone. I was surprised by how much better I felt when I had regular people I interacted with superficially. Even superficial interaction was better than being alone.

The link below is to the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline. They also have information on local crisis centers if you think that's an option you need to utilize. Otherwise, I would look at your local library to see if they run any groups related to things you like. I would try to find resources for food insecurity. I would focus on the problems that you can solve with a little help.

Thank you for believing in me enough to reach out Anon. You're going to be okay, or at least better. Better is a good place to start.