#dont do this its bad for your liver

[savetheghost]

sometimes. sometimes you get your favorite wine. which is basically just alcoholic grape juice. sometimes you get it. and you. you drink the bottle. sometimes thats just how that is.

[toytulini]

Disclaimer im just processing some thoughts im not cancelling the show

have almost thoughts about how i find the like....narrative on here that if you have chronic "zebra" conditions youd want a doctor like House and wouldnt sue for malpractice bc at least youd have a doctor that cares about whats wrong with you but lets take it one step further. so often he does NOT give a shit about the patient and actively endangers them frequently with his god damn heoric era of medicine approach? non zero amount of times he gets a diagnosis but it comes too late, or he gets a diagnosis after their first wrong 3 guesses of the episode shut down the patients kidneys and they either have to get a transplant or they are just, doomed due to other preexisting conditions etc? idk. i know ppl are almost certainly exaggerating and just letting off steam about the very real failures of our current medical systems and the ableism baked in and All That Shit. i just think its weird how ppl romanticize House who STILL, FREQUENTLY, MULTIPLE EPISODES will actively dismiss shit in the exact way that is a problem in our current system, especially when hes being Forced Against His Will To See Clinic Parients, he loves to be dismissive as fuck of symptoms and if he was a real doctor i think he'd be fucking 50/50 on cases he Notices Something To Dig Into vs cases he dismisses as an Anxious Hysterical Woman Who Wants Attention, the only reason he's Right so frequently in his snap judgements is cos it reinforces the narrative. its like a crime drama that has the mastermind serial killer masterfully using "loopholes" and lawyering up all sneaky and dodging Justice and if only our poor little cop protags were allowed to do A TEENY BIT of Justified Police Brutality, they could Save Lives!

and like sometimes in the show they will have a patient die despite his efforts to narratively punish him. not to mention, i think its been at least mildly brought up and glossed over how much they absolutely do not think about insurance costs for these ppl for the insane amount of tests that find nothing and Wrong Medications To Force A Diagnosis they use? i think it was brought up once in the episode following a day in the life of cuddy where she had to fight a lawsuit bc a guys insurance like didnt cover his thumb being reattached but chase reattached it anyway while in surgery cos it was The Right Thing To Do and the guy didnt have the money to cover it and the insurance wouldnt pay unless he sued the hospital or whatever. thats like the only time its come up. whereas like frequently the doctor I go to for osteopathic manipulation tries to check in with me and make sure im covered by insurance etc and that im not going to go broke or get buried in medical debt seeing her.

idk. just some Thoughts. not a defense of our current system and all the flaws it enables and enforces etc. his approach to medicine is really reminiscent to me of what I know of the Heroic Era Of Medicine which i dont...love? and hes framed on here as being an asshole but would kill for his patients to get them a diagnosis etc. but hes definitely extremely paternalistic to patients ? and despite some good clippable lines about ableism and being against eugenics, it honestly feels like his stance on that is kind of a toss up.

[possiblytracker]

me (only sober one in the conversation but tired out of my mind and equally lacking a filter): i thibk my.friends are mad at me

one of the five absolutely shitfaced 15-17 year old cousins also sitting round the campfire at the family gathering, taking it in turns to drink straight out a huge bottle of costco margarita mix where the adults are pretending not to see at 11pm on a sunday night: bruhhh have you tried going into the woods and hitting things with a big stick til you feel better

another absolutely shitfaced 15-17 year old cousin: i wish someone would hit ME with a big stick til I feel better :(

[depressedzelda]

kind of thinking maybe I am finally reaping some of the many consequences of loving to drink so much as my liver pretty much started swelling up and hurting halfway through today umm <3 that coupled with the general mental confusion that I can no longer tell if it's normal or not + the complete lack of appetite I almost always have. ok maybe these things are related

[shimp-heaven]

Uh oh blood don't work good

[thursdayglrl]

re: drugs also... inform yourself and be mindful of dosage. one person's "chilling on a weekday" dose may be a "too high to function" dose for you if you don't have a tolerance/are just more sensitive. being too high does not feel good. also be careful of drug interactions especially if you are on prescription medication already. some things don't interact at all, some will trash your liver, some might make the effects of the drug stronger, some might just make you have seizures or go into a coma. like do a cursory google search first

[ghostr0tz]

Hi! Hello, just another local Vox in the neighborhood that wanted to say he loved the disability. Headcanons, questions and thoughts on if Vox would suffer from either Cluster-B either BPD or NPD and/or Fibromyalgia. As a liver of both of these, they certainly suck, but they do add to my experience as a Vox. Also Gosh it sucks that side blogs can't ask questions. Thank you and have a good Day!

Hello!!! Thank you that means a lot that people like my silly headcanons.

I very much think Vox is cluster-b coded, but my original post was getting so long I felt too bad to add other things...... (rambles under the cut)

I said in the notes that I felt like Vox felt BPD coded but I can DEFINITELY see him having NPD as well.

He displays a lot of grandiosity and self-importance, making WALLS against his true self and his public image, or whatever kind of person he needs to be for any given scenario.

MASSIVE superiority complex. Hes got so much shit under HIS name. HIS products. HIS show. HIS company. Its all Vox.

I feel like that complex completely warps once Vox actually considers you as your own Person and not some sort of consumer to sell something to though...

I could see the break in Alastor and his relationship being a Bad Result of Vox absorbing Alastor into his grandiosity delusions and Alastor reacting badly to it. And maybe The Vee's being a Positive Result of the same thing.

Extremely fragile image of himself that is prone to fracturing with criticism. Vulnerable to those he cares about (good or bad) and takes things very personal easily as we see in Stayed Gone....

Very Copedendant to people he lets in

Hatred for Alastor being vocalized so much and so publicly due to his NPD self-importance and need for approval and attention. Unable to understand why nobody cares as much as he does about Alastor being back.

Under the lens of Vox having BPD it is so clear that Alastor was in the position of being his Favorite Person:

Vox mimicking Alastor in SEVERAL ways

Obsessing over him for years, and even their relationship break could very easily be seen as Vox splitting on Alastor? or at least to me

His immediate fixation on Alastor again once realizing hes just walking around....

I feel like Valentino and Vox fuel each other's BPD and Vox and Velvette both could have NPD together,,

His obsession over Alastor feel like a man who has yet to get over his favorite person........

Interesting to think about Alastor being his First person he obsessed over and depended on which is why hes such a touchy subject and so personal.

ALSO Vox with Fibromyalgia is VERY real and definitely can see it. Vox is some sort of chronic pain is very based i think. I just KNOWWW his legs are bad but so is literally all of his body and hes SOOOO tired of it but theres things and work to do.

I dont think hed let himself have a lot of Bad Days to nurse his pain too much unless its Genuinely unbearable or hes being physically pulled away from his desk.

Thank you for the ask i loved writing these!!

[cogbreath]

if i live i gotta make life changes let me be honest with u guys ive not been drinking alcohol meant for humans consumption ive been drinking dilluted cleaning alcohol because i really do need substances to ease my pains in life but i cant drive no license and i ran out of the shared weed supply me and my mom use and im really too shy to confide in her like "yeah so basically i cwnt live without drugs" which IS stupid because she is a former addict herself she would understand and not be mad at me but tbh im a very private person irl i dont like to verbally talk to people about things at all because it causes me a lot of struggle and distress to and irl im not really a verbal person. im not NONVERBAL entirely but i genuinely do struggle with speaking as an act so yeah. its a lot of shit. anyway cuz of all that i resorted to drinking dilluted fucking chemicals sbout it. fuckigng stupid i promise you guys if i survive this i wont do it again or if i do out of desperation it wil be because i tried rlly elly hard not to but needed an escape. idk if u guys entirely understand these sorts of circumstances i feel like the wider tumblr userbase isnt intimate with this kind of thing but i also know you guys generally want to be good ppl and i understand your lack of familiarity with this topic doesnt mean u hate me. nd we all have been taught awful things about drug use and addicts. pls kno that when shit like this happens it's not cuz we r selfish or stupid or anything like that its because we are fuckin desperate and whatever it is in our life be it mental illness physical illness etc, is hurting us to make us resort to this shit. yes it was a stupid act i i feel bad as fuck right now for what ive done to myself and my body and i worry also that if i survive it , that it migut fuck up my future, cuz the liver damage may jeapordize my ability to transition. and idk maybe this is sxary for you guys too maybe you feel uncomfortable hearing about it at all but honestly i dotn have anyone else you guys mean a lot to me and im including you guys because i care about you and i feel you care about me.

[swimmingclassicrockpizzawombat]

TW: suicide and violence.

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Is there an effective way to commit unalive that's not overdosing on opioids? (I obviously don't have fentanyl)

Everyone has given up on me. Not even therapists could do shit.

I am making a plan and am like idk brainstorming. I dont want to just attempt again, I want to succeed in smth for once.

I know hanging yourself is almost as bad as holding your breath. Your survival instincts kick in and in the case of hanging it takes at least 7 minutes.

Same thing with that it's really hard to break your neck unless you do it from a greater height and the rope might break.

Jumping from a great height is risky (although this might be a good option) unless you fall from like, thousands of feet. You risk just getting injured and ending up paralysed. Plus, you have go snesk into a tall building

Cutting your veins is statistically not very effective as you have to find a specific artery.

Shooting yourself: idk the chances of missing a significant portion of your brain are high so its recommended you use 2 guns on each side even then you can risk brain damage and I only have one gun, thats kinda old.

Cutting open your throat: is that even physicslly possible? Do I wanns try?

Overdosing: maybe? But you have to do the math and get the right dosage and medication otherwise your stomach will get it out. You just live with a fucked up liver.

Stepping in front of a vehicle makes me think you are more likely to get injured if anything

Falling from the stairs same thing

Crashing a car would be hard not to get noticed and be succesful.

Will delete soon bc I dont plan to tell anyone the when.

Also none of you know where I live so you can't call the cops and have me arrested smh.

[spooniestrong]

Is this normal? I had my first Occupational therapy ever. My therapist asked me about sleep and i admitted i have a hard time falling asleep.

She said "if you start a routine you can fix your circadian rhythm"

I said its been since i was a kid and she immediately started saying "yes it tends to be hard especially if you didnt have a routine as a kid"

I explained that wasn't the case i just don't get tired at night. I have insomnia. (On top of chronic pain, scoliosis and chronic fatigue).

She then went to say i shouldn't nap during the day so im tired at night and to get up at the same time everyday so no matter how much sleep i do or dont get i will be tired in the evening.

I struggle as is with bad brain fog and fatigue to the point i have days i struggle to be awake at all.

But now i feel im not trying hard enough. All the usual suggestions for sleep hygiene dont work for me and when i brought up i was on prescription one point for sleep she said she doesnt like those especially since im young and should save my liver.

I take a bunch of medication everyday.

She kept talking about how she's used to working with frail elderly ladies and that I'm young.

I feel like maybe i need to just work harder and grow up. Im young. I should be strong and independent. My fiance helps bathe me because my finger locks sometimes and i tend to scratch my head till it bleeds. But she said i need to be independent there too.

Maybe I'm not as sick as i thought and need to work harder. I didn't think my age (23) would mean I should need less help and be independent

No, that's not normal. 🩵🥄 You know your body and limitations best, and if your therapist isn't understanding that, you need a new one. (Her behavior and statements are classic medical ableism.)

Elderly and disabled people have quite different needs; if she doesn't know that, she shouldn't have the job she does. (My background is in geriatrics.)

There's nothing wrong with you needing help or accommodations. You are not the problem. *💙&🥄s*

[miothejelly]

want to give your dogs a nice treat, but not sure whats healthy for them? heres a guide to fruits for dogs and what kind of ones are okay or should be avoided!

i love feeding my doggies off cuttings of my meals, especially the ends off fruits that i wont eat, but its good to know the effects of what you're putting in your dogs body. so heres some reaserch ive done, and the kinds of things i give my doggies.

as much as dogs technically dont have a need to eat fruit, they do have some good properties for doggie health. alot of dog food contains fruit because it gives alot of extra nutrients!

definitely NOT dogs safe :

- avacado causes vomiting and diarrhoea even in small amounts

- cherries can cause disruption to oxygen flow, even just a single fruit, and cause poisoning

- grapes or rasins are one of the worst things you can give a dog. they cause liver failure and poisoning so easily

- tomatoes are a risky game. the ripe red fruit is some what okay for dogs but its best to avoid them as a whole as they can be toxic. there are dog safe tomatoe treat alternative!

good in small amounts :

- bananas are full of vitamins, though high in sugar so good in small amounts

- cantaloupe is great for hydration, especially in the summer, though abit sugary

- cranberries are the same as cantaloupe, good hydration, abit sugary

- mangos are vitamin heavy though abit sugary for already chunky doggos. remember to remove the pit

- oranges are great, especially the peel of the fruit, though many dogs dont enjoy citrus at all and might be a little rough on the digestive system in large amounts

- peaches are high in vitamins and great in small chunks. too much can cause the same effects as cherries, so leave them as a nice little treat

- pears are super good. avoid tinned pears, only use the fresh fruit, and cut away the pit and seeds. but very good vitamins and potassium!

- pineapple helps break down proteins and is super good! avoid the skin, and similarly to pears, non fresh fruit pineapples are too high in sugar, its best to use it fresh!

- raspberries are an antitoxin that have anti-inflamitory properties! though in large amounts over about 8 ounces can be toxic.

- strawberries are great for helping whitening dogs teath and for overall oral health, though in moderation with how much sugar they have

the best ones :

- apples (removing the core and seeds) are high in vitamin A, C and fibre!

- blueberries are a huge antitoxin and promote cell reproduction even in large amounts!

- cucumbers are amazing treats, great amount of vitamins with little to no calories or fats. hugely recommended for chunkier dogs or diabetic pups that need a less sugary treat

- pumpkin in pure form is a great antitoxin that helps dogs with diarrhoea or upset stomachs! if you're getting canned pumpkin, make sure it has no added ingredients!

- watermelon, like cucumber, is great for hydration. remove the rine and seeds first, and you're good to go. lots of vitamins and potassium in a low calorie way!

low calories and sugar, specific for overweight doggos or diabetic pups :

- apples

- blueberries

- cucumber

- raspberries

- watermelon

good fruit for sick or old dogs that need some extra body help :

- apples (high in vitamins, low in calories)

- blueberries (antitoxin and cell regrowth)

- pineapple (helps digestion)

- pumpkin (antitoxin, helps cure stomach bugs, diarrhoea and constipation)

- raspberries (anti-inflammatory, helps with joints)

- strawberries (white teeth, oral health)

not every dog likes every fruit, its good to try it. if a fruit is high sugar, that doesnt mean its bad for you, bad in large amounts but a great treat that packs some good vitamins for your dogs!

i feed my dogs lots of fruits, as treats, as a nice summer cool down, to fix a stomach bug, or just because i have some left over!

fruit is great for your dogs, aslong as you know whats good and whats not, its always best to google the food before you give it to them. its safe to be mindful of what you put in your dogs body the same way we are mindful about what goes into ours!

[sincerely-sofie]

The finishing of this fanfic has left me with some pretty mixed emotions. On the one hand, I dont want it to end. It's such an incredible piece of work and even though I finally committed to reading it a few weeks ago, it already feels like such a significant part of my life. On the other hand, I'm a little glad that it's over. FAR from the sense it was bad (I'll steal your liver if thats how you interpret it) but moreso in the sense that it was like a good crying session. It's something that a lot of us (or I assume a lot of us) typically want to avoid even though we know its good for us, and satisfying after the fact. It's like catharsis in a way. Endings aren't always a great feeling in the moment, but it's something that we can look back on with a fondness.

I'm so glad I found this work. I'm being completely serious when I say that this fanfic, and the other content you make, has changed my life for the better. Its helped me reconnect with that love I have for creativity after nearly a decade of not making anything even though I wanted to. It's helped pulled me out of a few ruts of depression. It's helped me realize that I'm not actually emotionally stunted (per my own conclusions) and be more willing to cry instead of burying those feelings. In the past I would just, kill these kinda thoughts before they got far because of how much I wanted to avoid crying. Much less actually writing them down, or express them to someone else. But now, I've been crying the whole time I write this, and for the first time in, I think ever, I'm okay with that. I know we don't actually know each other, but you've genuinely helped me become a better person with the things you make. Thank you so much for everything you've done Sofie. hey look! I got your name right!

But enough about me. I feel like it's getting indulgent at this point. (I've gotten dehydrated with how much ive cried writing this and from what I can tell, you cry a lot more than I do. So go drink some water first, and then) I wanna hear your thoughts. What are your thoughts and feelings about your work being finished? Do you have plans to take a break from creative endevors for a while, or are you gonna keep going? Are you going to be expanding more on this and other au's, different fanworks or move into something completely your own? Whatever the case may be, I'm excited to see what more you are going to come up with!

From the bottom of my heart, and on behalf of everyone else, Thank you for everything.

It's so surreal to have posted that final chapter. I finished the first draft almost 100 days ago exactly, and I spent a number of days after completing it kind of adrift. I'd go to my computer every morning like I had during the month prior and sit down, ready to write, only to remember that I was actually supposed to be taking a break before I made the final edits.  It didn't click in my head that I had actually done it… until a couple weeks later when it hit me like a truck that I had an entire completed manuscript sitting in my Google Docs. I think I was making myself lunch at that moment, and I had to bolt to lie down on the floor and put my legs up against the wall because I was ready to pass out at the realization. 

This feels pretty similar. For me, The Present is a Gift— the main fanfic, at least— was finished in mid-January. But the process of uploading it and agonizing over what people thought of every passing update wouldn't be formally done until about 3 months later. It still hasn't clicked in my head that I won't be posting a new update once Tuesday rolls around. 

On the subject of taking a break— I've actually been taking a break, at least partway! I've barely written anything after I finished TPiaG's first draft, and I haven't drawn much “serious” art, for lack of a better word, since I started my blog. I've still been making things, yes, but scattered oneshots and sketchy pieces without solid lineart are not my typical fare. I'm usually a lot more “exact” with what I make— words fail me here— I hope I'm not being too vague! I might take a brief break as I finish up the winter semester, but that would be less a break from creating and more of an “OH MY WORD I NEED TO FOCUS ON NOTHING BUT PASSING THESE COURSES” kinda thing. 

TPiaG (along with its derivative AUs) is still very much a living project to me— there's a lot more stories the characters have in them, even if I struggle to envision a full-on sequel. I'm absolutely going to answer the asks relating to it that I've received over the months along with any I continue to receive, and if I get any ideas for comics or oneshots here and there, I'll make them. As for what's officially next up on the Sincerely Sofie menu, I'm planning to make a visual novel that's a lot more meaty than the last one I made. I'm not sure if it will be original or based on TPiaG— but a visual novel is the medium I'm planning on! 

I'm so overwhelmed by your kindness. I truly don't have any words. This project started off as something private to help distract me from a depressive episode and to process trauma, and it's become so much more. I'm so glad it was able to help you. Catharsis was the keyword for TPiaG— I wanted it to uproot difficult emotions and help people start to heal from them, but I never dreamed it would really help anyone but myself. So to hear it was able to provide you with that is unbelievably meaningful to me. 

I gave myself the goal somewhat recently to let myself cry whenever the urge strikes me. I used to go months without crying, and whenever I did shed tears, it was alone in my room while muffling the few sounds I accidentally let slip. I'm a natural crybaby, but I had schooled myself into thinking for a number of reasons that it was bad to cry— that it was selfish, or attention-seeking, or weak— so I've been trying to reclaim my teary-eyed identity. It's been difficult, but it's so freeing to let myself feel things fully. All of this is to say: let the tears fall. I've helped more people by crying than my stoicism ever did. 

Thanks again. I can't properly word my gratitude, but know that it's overwhelming :,>

[pleafyistired]

rtumblr's eating flesh capability and their own flesh

im bored, part 1? some character i dont have much info so i dont write about them/too long next part

fluffy:

eating flesh: Good of course, drink blood, currently crying and eating a blue popping alien liver as i type this. can distinct blood flavour which to me imply sensitive taste buds

flesh: i. VERY dubious i mean they come out of rtcler which is already dubious as Fuck but also their list of father is Concerning. not even talking about the strings they have which they can control which imply nerves???? really fucked if you think about it. and i dont think they look so tasty and i dont think getting the meat is even worth it.

copper:

eating flesh: go to cat on wiki /hj ok but also since i hc them to have at least some copper (material) in them so... do you know copper cant be dissolve in hydrochloric acid? so chances are they can carry around a more concentrated amount of acid to dissolve meat... though more dubious meat probably would give them a stomach ache

flesh: cat. but also copper. (fun fact i tasted cat meat before. its a normal thing in my country. doesnt taste bad could be worse but just. eh. i dont like it that much.)

Void:

eating flesh: I mean. theyre the Void they probably can eat anything

flesh: are you Sure youre not going to die trying to eat the Void?

Aamit:

eating flesh: i feel like if they eat the wrong peanut butter they will explode. so i think his stomach sucks. the only thing they eat is coffee and spite

flesh: very good! if you like the coffee. though otherwise good meat and eatable. probably up there in the most eatable guys in rtumblr

Rtcler:

eating flesh: he doesnt have much info about his eating habbits but i think hes a cannibal kinda guy! i mean how bad can it possibly be! he doesnt have any strongs opinion he just eat any flesh

flesh: i Mean i Think hes human...? but also he gave birth to fluffy..? require further investigation and stalking. though he looks Tasty so maybe you can eat him. ...he said he has milk? so... bonus drink if you can milk him before slaughtering him for flesh idk. or just duplicate his cells and milk him. milk that white twink ass

Magical John:

eating flesh: plaunt!! good at eating flesh!! moldy ones too!!! rotten meat!!!! he slay people and steal their dead body's meat to eat!! he can eat rtsans bones if he want to!!!! can he be evil and do that please

flesh: ew vegetables /j he does have meat! but also his cells is like a hybrid between plant and animal cells... Schrodinger vegan meat.... ...he also have "milk" which is just. his blood- so if you want his "milkies" then instead of milking the nipples like rtcler (i hate my job actually /lh) you can cut him up! other than that hes eatable and since hes plant also you get fiber!!! finally... we can shit now... and he grows back too so you can eat and drink even More :)

[shuquoteunquote]

Shu on internet safety, assumptions, goals and more!

🔗: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I-neemAni9Y

3:07:36

(context: Shu talks about means of communication with other livers)

👟: you know we have other means of communication apart from public Twitter

you never know what goes on behind the scenes

💬: damn ok, secrets

👟: obviously there are stuff we can't talk (about)

but like apart from that, sometimes we see Twitter and chat and be like "oh lmao they're so wrong"

there's nothing bad about it

💬: monka

👟: (laughs) it's interesting to see the guesses though!

💬: what do you do when they're so right

👟: I'll just be like, oh they're right

💬: you're looking through the replies?

👟: well, once in a while you see me reply to those, right? Or like quote retweet them?

I don't, like, ignore it

and sometimes it just pops up in my For you page

(laughs) why are you monka-ing? It's a public platform, I'll see it sometimes.

💬: Yeah, but all the replies?

👟: What do you mean, why does it matter tho?

Like at that moment, there's a chance that I see your reply regardless.

But that percentage is like, it depends but like

If anything, you shouldn't be worried if I perceive you, but what the others perceive you.

IMO, on the internet. This is just general internet safety.

3:10:30

👟: I think you shouldn't assume.

If you're public, it's like the same thing as like putting a billboard up of your tweet. And everyone drives by.

💬: thank god I don't use Twitter then lmao

👟: I mean, chat too. Sometimes some people post stuff and I'm just like "oop, not reading that!" (laughs)

But yeah in general,

if you post stuff that's like, against the rules, you could pretty much guarantee that I'm not gonna read it. Out loud, or react to it.

…

yeah, there's a reason why I don't use TTS

💬: pls dont do this to us

👟: well, it's just general internet safety

if anything, I'm making sure y'all are aware, yknow?

(Shu explains what TTS is, which is mainly used by Twitch streamers)

3:12:38

💬: you make us afraid of the internet

👟: Well, it shouldn't be like 'afraid'

its just that, make sure you're safe, yknow

(Shu talks about how some smart devices for homes can be a way for other people to hack into their system)

3:13:43

👟: If I'm being kinda honest, there's other things that are probably more security-flawed with your security that you should be more concerned about

Just saying.

(Shu goes on to talk about passwords)

3:30:46

(context: Chat asked whether Shu has any goals he wants to accomplish by the end of the year)

💬: do your debut goals first maybe?

👟: you know, the thing about that is

when you debut, right? You put goals of things that you want to do. And it's cool to be able to do some of those goals

But also it's sort of sometimes out of your control if you could do some of these goals, yknow?

👟: And I only really had goals on there because I think everybody else had goals.

You know sometimes when you have a goal,

like let's say you're about to bungee jump and then you stand on the bungee jumping board and then you think its a bad idea and then you just dont do it?

Or like, you change your goal from bungee jumping to skydiving instead because you think that's cooler?

I mean, I can't get into details obviously

But I think the goals, sometimes, it's good to have them just so they're like, there

But things change, people change, and all that stuff.

💬: but have you tried hard enough?

👟: That's the thing

People think that some people are lazy when things are just out of their control sometimes

and people get criticized that they're not doing enough work when they don't understand the full picture

Just something to think about.

💬: who, imma slap them

👟: Well, no it's not like a bad entity if anything

it's just the fact that

wherever you go, right? You expect some things come unexpected and that's just life.

But then, unless you really know what's going on, all you could do is assume.

And then, some people tend to assume

that they're not doing enough work, they're not trying hard enough, they're not diligent enough

and they're lazy, yknow?

And sometimes it's not even they're fault that things happen or they're not able to do some things.

3:35:19

👟: I heard this from a YT short recently actually,

"Laziness is just a really bad word to disregard everything that a person is going through. There's no such thing as true laziness unless you fully understand the person's circumstance."

💬: Too real

👟: Yea, it is real

That's what I'm saying

But it would be cool to do some things yknow?

Some things I wanna do

There's a lot of opportunities too

It's just (that) some stuff are more plausible than others.

Some stuff, its like I'm more willing to do given the circumstances than others

👟: Or my priorities changed, what I want to do changes, yknow?

My initial goals for doing such things is not always the thing that you want to do, continue doing later down the line, yknow?

All that stuff

Kinda deep (laughs)

And that was sort of why

the other time I was talking about like

what you expect from a streamer when they first start off

and then how they realize what they initially wanted to do isn't really truly the thing that they enjoy

and they change their streaming style later

but then, to the general public, there's a lot of people who assume that a certain streamer does these kind of things

and then they don't do it anymore

then people are like, "no, why aren't you doing this anymore?"

All that stuff

And then people assume. Like I said earlier, people assume these days. And they're so wrong and it's like "lmao you're wrong"

(laughs) people say stuff.

Some people are more vocal about the stuff they do behind the scenes

Others are less vocal, others prefer to speak, complain.

All that kind of stuff

But yknow, it's the internet.

And to be safe on the internet, I do want to let you all know

Stuff we post, stuff anyone posts, stuff you post- take it with a grain of salt.

(proceeds to talk about Luca's bubble butt, then Doppio's viewers drop in ww)

[musigrusi]

Aight this is Pt.2 of my list, enjoy

Part 1

Farah

HABIBI MY SISTERRRR

Will cook Couscous all day every day for her istg

Inshallah may your days be forever blessed and your plans always sucessful

Mashallah

The rEAL kind of Tea Time with pine nuts and everything, fight me

Will probs bicker about different pronounciations, 10/10 tho

I will make use of all the bomb/arab jokes I have been told and rate em with her. Will also make use of my new bomb skills I learned from Soap lol.

Throwing shoe contests

Alex

I feel like he would be the kind to speak arabic with that horrible western accent

Will defo tag team with Farah to make fun of him

Will also console him when he feels bullied

"You're doing great baby, it aint your fault you are linguistically challenged. DW we still love you"

That kind of shit

Will teach him niche curse words and tell him it's a compliment

Will watch from afar how he gets decked by Farah lol

He has a crush on Farah, say what you want. And I will bully him relentlessly about it.

I will, however, be his wingman and tell him all the things she likes/dislikes. Will teach him how to cook and season AND, most importantly, how to evade the flying shoe™

Laswell

MOTHER

I wanna be adopted by her and her wife

Will chase her with adoption papers until they are signed

That is all

Thank you for comming to my TED Talk

Valeria

The love hate of siblings, but make it two sisters.

Don't touch my stuff or I will eat your liver

But also don't touch her or I will eat your liver

Will throw chanclas at her for no reason

I can see her make my blood boil by teasing and annoying me

But I would give that vibe back tenfold

Will start a new rumor abt her and Alejandro every week

Will make and execute plans to lock her and him in a room and shit like that.

Gift her a cool shirt and wait until she wears it comfortably as her PJs before telling her that it's Alejandro's

Will send video footage of her sleeping in it and then her finding out to Alejandro and all of Los Vaqueros

Roach

I don't have too much to go off of him but the mother instincts are tingling

Teach me ASL, this is not a request, thank you

I *will* mother him just as badly as Gaz and Rodolfo, if not more.

Can't handle spice? Blasphemy, but I shall make you a serving with minimal spice.

König

Strap in, this is gonna be a long one

Listen up you Austrian Fuck

Honestly, I feel kinda bad for him because,

If he speaks English, I would have a meltdown over his pronounciation

If he spoke German, I would have a laugh flash over his dialect.

There is no way he could evade my bullying

Constant bickering over whose pronounciation is correct.

Listen you fuckwhipe, it's "Brätzel" with a nice and short ä NOT "BREEEEETZEL" OR WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU CALL IT.

This would all be in good humor

Not

Will bond over mutual hate of English and American"bread" listen, i dont know what bread ever did to offend you so much to lead you down such a dark path of mutilating its recepie but pls come back to the light

Cook off, because I like Austrian dishes and I will bribe him with Maultaschen, Röschti and Fondue.

Will have him speak French for comedy (have you ever heard an Austrian speak French? You are missing out on A-tier commedy my friend)

Mutual agreed silence

The germanic awkwardness is not felt between us.

The 'tism will also be happy, 10/10

Will force it to cuddle

Horrible Schlager and Après-Ski playlists playing on enless loop just to piss him off

Will use increasingly cringey pet names on him

Mausi/Müüsli, Schatzi/Schätzeli, Schnuggeli, Gaggibolle, Pupser, Zuckerschnute, Zimtschnecke/Schnäggli, (Creme)Schnittchen, Spatzi/Späzzli, Schnuggelpupser, Hasi/Hääsli, Bärchen, Entchen

Listen I have an endless list not only in German, but Swiss German too, which is infinitely more cringe fight me

I would not be above using French and Italian terms of endearment either because, do you know how sappy they are? You'll get a stroke just hearing them

Mon bijou, Amore, mon chéri, Caro, mon âme, Tesoro, Chouchou, mon coeur *insert gagging*

Can't rlly curse him out in my dialect since there's a 85% chance he'd understand it all, but also

He could not curse me out in his dialect bc there's an 90% chance I'd understand it all lmao.

Can and will constantly complain that he is TOO DAMN BIG and promptly abuse him for whatever one can use a large strong man for.

Will compliment on said strength and revel in his subsequent shyness over the compliment.

I could see myself be overly agressive with compliments for the sole benefit of turning him beat red or very quiet.

I love Nietsche and Kafka, two german speaking authors that the majority of german speakers hate with a burning passion. Naturally, if he were bed ridden with injury or sickness, I'd read him works of the two to him.

I am such a kind and compassionate friend, am I not?

Anyways that is all lol enjoy

[iris-jaxx665]

Re: weight loss

At the justifiable risk of offense, because no one needs to be commenting on anyone else's body... I've been worried that including your weight and temp with your potd posts was related to weight loss.

Worried because that kind of monitoring can so very easily lead to other very destructive and maladaptive behaviors.

Your body is yours to do with what you want, but I'm hoping I can reassure you that unless there's some underlying medical condition that's making your weight dangerous, you seem absolutely fine. Even if you gain more weight, having fat on your body is not inherently unhealthy.

The whole weight loss industry... I could rant for hours. And hours more about how the medical industry supports it. How BMI is an inherently problematic metric, made worse by being decontextualized and applied in ways it was not designed for. How calory counting and the whole concept of specific calories per day is just whole cloth made up with no medical basis. I could just rant for days, but this isn't the time or place...

So if I may ask, from a genuine place of concern, does this come from a body image issue? Some sort of dysmorphia? Or maybe some outside influence leading you to believe you need to be thinner?

I've seen so many friends be devoured by weight loss. You seem like such a wonderful person and weight loss disorders cause such unnecessary pain and struggle. No one deserves to live under that kind of stress...

no offense taken, i asked for open discussion with the hope and plan to receive it.

including the weight and temp checks with my potd posts isnt weight loss related, though i understand the thought process there, its fertility related, as im cycle tracking and the basal body temp is supposed to be linked to fertility cues.

i spent a fair number of years deeply anorexic, and im always fighting not to resort to the measures i once took to take control of my body, as thats a large part of what it was for me as well as body image and dismorphia issues. ive been in remission and healing from those issues since recovering from my first pregnancy in 2015. and its been difficult.

currently this weight loss has medical impetus. i went to a cunt doctor in may for curiosity concerning my fertility, and He had me do about 20 blood tests. one of those tests showed that my cholesterol was insanely high, dangerously high. the doctors suggestion was lose some weight, be more active, cut out fats. so im trying to do so safely.

its also in part that i am unhappy with my appearance, just slightly. i know having some fat is healthy and better for my body than having none, i just feel that i have a little more than i would like. i feel lethargic about half the week, i cant walk for more than 30 minutes or so (in part because of my bad knee, which im also working on), and im unsure of what strain my weight may put on my bad lungs and my fragile heart.

i could rant just as long about the medical industry, bmi and weight, as it all concerns to women and how its fucked, but my foster father had a heart attack recently with 100% blockage (dumb bastard drove himself to the hospital) and that as well as his many cancers, my foster mothers heart/ liver/ kidney failures. its all scared me rather harshly about my own health.

thank you for your concern, currently i just want to lose a little fat and gain some muscle, so i can keep up with my Owner on long walks and hikes, so i can keep up with my future kids (if i can have them) for as long as they want me to, so i can have enough strength in my body to hold my grandkids one day. because i dont as yet feel that i could if i got the chance.