#dont ask me what this pose is idk either

[tiffycat]

Just a silly guy

[dizzybizz]

hai here is a sketch dump with too many fandoms :) sorry about the ungodly amount of men here i have been going through it and by it i mean gay

ok wait i ran out of tags??? it wont let me tag them all😭😭😭 im gonna have to be sparing with them uhh i guess i will have to ramble under the cut then cus i like rambling in my tags but i cant with this one 😭

(ok im back from the ramble: it is way too long.... proceed forward if you want to see some guy just absolutely talk nonsense for entirely too long)

no cus i swear i have tried tagging more stuff than this before and never hit the limit but whatever

hello i really use this like a fkn blog huh

i just wanted to provide some thoughts on the harper and rosé one first bc its important to me 😌 cus i was thinking abt harper and how in my head and heart of hearts she would be the kid who thought you get pregnant from kissing and i dont think she ever really grew out of that belief. <- this ended up spawning the idea of harper being a sex-repulsed ace and i will die on this hill actually. fight me or die, you die either way actually nvm

this is just a buncha blorbos i dont know what to tell you really. sketch pages like these always end up so weird for me bc for some reason my brain always wants the characters in them to interact in some way. whether that be talking or just reacting to what the other is doing... its something i cant stop with, its so stupid and silly and i hate it and i love it. where else would i see kabru slowly losing his mind with how loud phoenix wright is in court????

I THOUGHT I HAD GOTTEN OFF THE RAILS WITH THAT BUT THEN THE NEXT PAGE HAPPENED. and all i could do was laugh and ask "what the fuck am i drawing??? HOW DID WE GET HERE? WHY IS THISTLE HERE WITH LEOPIKA HELP" LIKE that page started with the big leopika and then i was like "man i miss thistle lemme draw him real quick" but the curse struck and now hes being homophobic so </3

i rlly like how the nic(k) page turned out ... i just have a lot of nicks i like drawing idk.. the lil guy is an oc,,, one day his ref sheet will be finished and itll be awesome but not for now, sorry baby, no can do. im weirdly happy with how the hands turned out for all of them tho?? so thats a W

yotasuke, murai, nick (youll never know which one im referring to. .. jkjk its hoult i love the pose there ehehhe), nic and the entire last page r my favs. i like em all but those rlly get me yknow- the olly too ofc but ive already posted him, dont mind him being here, hes part of the set. AND OVER ALL IVE BEEN HAVING SO FUN WITH SHADING BLACK AND JUST LEAVING SPOTS BLANK ITS SO ?`????

WHY IS THIS SO LONG PLS DONT READ ALL THIS THIS IS STRAIGHT UP EMBARRASSING AGHSDFGSDHJSGD im all like "yeah i dont like talking about myself or whatever" but as soon as i get to my process or blorbos or smth the floodgates fucking break open, not even burst man.

also dont mind how i havent even acknowledged pingas twink pokemon counterpart. hes just here for shits and giggles i dont know the guy like at all, i watched a handful of eps of horizons and that was it RIP

[not-lucky]

dont ask me shit about what they're wearing idk either

based on some fortnite guys posing

if youre seeing this it means i didnt delete it after 4 nanoseconds iguess

[hazshit-hotel-hater]

Earlier today I thought about sending you this ask, but I thought "the focus here is to talk about HH, not HB" but then, you answered an ask about Stolas, so I came to ask my "ask" (in quotes because it's not an ask, but rather a design comparison because I like it, yayyy)

Stolas is an owl right? So if you'll excuse me, here are two owls, my oc's, one from "Star Fox" the other from "Swat Kats" and now that I stop to think, I should have taken Stellar as a reference because she is a female, but honestly I don't even know if she's an owl so screw it, let's get to the comparison:

(sorry for the background in the first photo, I was too lazy to take a photo of just her) can you see how chubby they are? and Stolas is so thin that it hurts? I don't understand that, Viv at least knows how to make thin people with big waists, but she didn't even do that here, and let's face it, owls are chubby and don't have a damn neck (similar to a human's when humanized) and Stolas does!! It's the same thing that irritates me about Vox (the TV, I don't know if that's how his name is spelled) he has a TV head!! Why does he have a neck?!?!

and other!!! you can see the difference between Yanter (first photo) and Carlie (second photo) but you can see that they are both owls, but remember what I said about Stellar? So, you can't tell the difference between she and Stolas, I'm not saying in terms of appearance, I'm saying in terms of species, every species has something similar, but if Stellar is really an owl, what is the similarity between her and Stolas, which is not the same similarity between another character (a blue one, I think she's Stellar's cousin) WHO IS NOT EVEN AN OWL!! BECAUSE IF YOU DO THIS, VIV, YOU DO YOUR AUDIENCE HAVE NO IDEA WHAT STELLAR IS!!! SHE IS AN OWL? A PEACOCK?? TELL ME!

... sorry.. I got stressed.. I guess.. that's all I have to say... sorry, I just wanted to say that because I feel a little need to show that my designs are better than Viv's (even if that's not very difficult) sorry for the inconvenience, bye bye

SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO RESPOND TO THIS!!! These designs are awesome!! I love seeing bird characters so much; actually gives me a few design ideas lmao

I have no idea what bird Stella is either but if I had to design her I’d probably make her an albino cockatiel. I actually have a LOT of ideas on how to fix Stella but just for a quick birdie ref

Aint they cute? :3

I do plan on eventually redesigning Stolas and getting rid of that god awful neck. I don’t understand why Vivzie is allergic to fat people, I don’t think she’s realised the joy of having fat/chubby characters or even muscular ones. Husk, Velvette, Charlie, and Vox are all designs that I personally think are amplified when made chubbier or muscular and when I see them in the show I literally do a double take like *little skinny man runs past my screen* who is that did you guys see that

For the neck on Vox though, I don’t get… how?? His neck works in the show?? I know for my version of Vox his neck moves kind of like this

But uh.

Yeah none of that here. I guess you could say it’s attached at the bottom, because it is!

but also poses like this dont make sense, his neck is show behind his head but its not.

Idk, It’s a small nitpick but it’s something that bothers me too. I’m still working on some of the things for Vox like his joints and such, but Vivzie seems to put in substantially less effort than anything either of us have done

Anyway keep up the designs they look really good!!!

[reckoning1187]

The writer’s block has struck again, so if I can’t write knifecrow, I must draw it!

Don’t ask me what they’re doing… I have no idea. Tbh this was a hand study that turned into an excuse to draw knifecrow because we don’t have enough knifecrow art and fics in the world. The pose is… there. It exists. Credit me if you’re going to use my art, and preferably ask my permission first.

Daud: *scooping Corvo’s hair out of his face* “You never cut your voiddamn hair. It’s always in your eyes, moron.”

Corvo: *flustered* “What? My hair is just fine?!?”

Daud: *sigh*

DONT ASK ME WHY THEY ARENT WEARING CLOTHES! CUZ— CUZ IDK EITHER!!!!

[witchesofvaliant]

Hi! I've been for a while on Poppy's server, I dont interact much with people, im just starting as a witch and im struggling with autism. I never had issues with them, I feel safe and listened there. As an autistic individual I disagree with you about how its an unsafe server or maybe not accepting for neurodivigent people. I also seen you saying things about Poppys server being homophobic or creating channels for them separately

Idk its just not true that they are treated differently

There are many incorrect statements about this server and its just... There is so much hurtful things.

Im not supporting Poppy, idk, shes nice but i dont really even know who she is. Im just there because im there. And know her by name. Im not a follower or whatever you call it.. well. Yeah. Its. Please stop doing that. Its just harmful

Hello anon and thank you for the message!

I'm glad you feel safe and listened to, and I hope you continue to find places that are safe and comfortable for you to be in! My great hope is that the server does become safe and pleasant for everyone, going forward, but from what I experienced, as I shared, it wasn't safe for me, nor for others, as this post from @wayfind-er shows other asks related to the server where people have shared their experiences as well. That said, I did not say they were not accepting of neurodivergent/LGBT+ people, I don't believe they're homophobic, either. And it is fact, they created separate channels at one point for neurodivergency and LGBT+ members. I stated some uncomfortable and off attitudes about these subjects, citing experiences, not a perspective declaring them all as hateful towards these groups and I don't believe they are so, I'm aware many if not all are part of one of those groups or both. Myself and some other members in the server at the time simply disagreed and were made highly uncomfortable with the way some behaved towards either group and that is stated in my writeup on that here. If you take a look at my blog my only interaction on this matter has been that post, or other asks that other people have posed on the situation, as I am not in favor of ignoring anyone who comes to me to share their experience, and I did invite anyone to reach out to me about their opinions and experiences. Finally, my intention isn't to cause harm, it's to state the harm I've seen that was done to me and others in the server, and to give a message of caution and hopefully a wave of change for the better for those who are involved with that server. I don't want to cause harm, I have never intended to do so, and I wish all, including you and the server the best and hopefully a more positive and kind future.

[akirameta84]

Okay I just had this random ass thought I want to share with you. Mainly because it makes me smile and sometimes that's all you need.

Iterator Saiki, Kuusuke is the oldest member of their local group and is only a Sliverist because he's CURIOUS (and if the members of his local group wants to die and escape the Cycle, especially as their Cans slowly but surely break down, it would be a good idea to know instead of them spending centuries slowly but surely rotting away), and poor Saiki keeps being bothered by various Slug Cats (his friends without psychic powers) and other members of his local group (the Psykickers). Akechi is the only Scug he intended to have because he's oddly good at doing maintenance. How did he end up with a colony.

i love this but i pose you with another variation:

kuusuke pulls a five pebbles while sharing a water supply with kusuo. he was jealous that this iterator who was supposed to be his YOUNGER brother was such a newer and better model (unlike LttM who was actually the older one), and that all the ancients were moving to kusuo's superstructure...and so kusuo collapses. the water was used up to find a solution (oversimplified but i dont feel like rambling about the complexities of what the iterators were built for and what the sliverists were trying to do for my followers who dont know rain world, sorry) just like pebbles, but it was also out of spite. kuusuke...didnt think the newest generation of iterator could suffer from lack of water so easily, either

kusuo wants to get rid of all the scugs that keep bothering him, but hes too weak to do anything (which he hates because he used to be a GOD in comparison to these animals), and theyve even been helping him. one of them even saved him from death to begin with, sent by a friend whos distraught over what kuusuke did to him (one of the psychickers as another iterator. idk which of his friends would be the hunter scug)

...and he company isnt that bad, he supposes...he was awfully lonely

as much as i adore and am writing the fic with saiki being a scug, iterator saiki is also super fun to think about, and i love your idea, and his friends being scugs who harass him like 5P and his scugs in rain world is perfect.

ty for the ask, im very happy you shared it with ne. it made me smile too :] sorry for derailing your concept, though 😓

[maddestmewmew]

4, 8, 14, 18!!! for the art ask meme

ask game

OHH GOSH I DONT…KNOW? my artstyle is kind of super inconsistent like. these all look super different to me i might be insane but. i cant quite place what DEFINES each of these pieces as Mine..idk if anyone else can sense a pattern help me out :p

I HAVE MASSIVE TROUBLE PICKING FAVORITES…in my head everything is either Like or Dont Like but theres Little variation on How Much i like or dislike something..i dont have a favorite i think >_>

THIS QUESTION IS SO AMBIGUOUS IT BOTHERS ME. what do you mean by this…uhh possible answers of 1. i really like drawing armpits 2. i really like drawing big dramatic expressions 3. i really like drawing peoples ocs doing cool poses

honestly 1. boredom 2. i have ideas i need to show off and writing is boring. i dont think im good at art and it doesnt make me happy its just 1. something to do and 2. a way to get creative

[emperornero]

Salve!! 2, 15, and 23 for the artist asks? (no pressure if you've already answered/don't have an answer for any of those)

HII like the previous ask post i will put this under the cut

1. most recent drawing of slimer because i like how i drew his head and the flowers 2. artfight attack on crowbugz 3. redraw of that one shot from the pizza tower game intro with nero where i tried to stay true to the artstyle 4. japhet from the game off i finished after a year of drawing the sketch 5. reference image of all forms of my sona ray. a bit outdated but i like it still i will add some old art i still like to the end of this post as an additional set of images. i feel like sharing them

i always start drawing with the head. i know i should work with this body first to plan out the pose but i canttt im so used to doing it like this

ALWAYS i need background noise. i usually play one song on repeat until i finish some part of the drawing. idk what that says about me. i dont really watch shows like stuff split into episodes i prefer movies. ive see re-animator at least 6 times at this point by just making it play in the corner while i draw a furry. awesome experience. yesterday i rewatched videodrome while designing a new character

ok and now . the old art . because i just remembered i still have it on this disc and you cant find it anywhere now that my deviantart is down but theres still some nice stuff here. gives you perspective on how i used to draw 2+ years ago

i have no memory of making these tbh but 2 3 and 5 are not my characters so they were either commissions or gifts

[chilei-the-hotsauce]

ALL the artist ask game questions. ALL OF THEM-

omg yes hold up

1. uuh krita, fire alpaca (i used to use fire alpaca but not after getting csp)

2. left? i think? i can draw all directions (-ish) (it wont be good but i can)

3. none?? idk bro i have bad memory (or maybe i suppress them idk)

4. anything from canon media. like i love you boo but why. also clothes and poses

5. i post very little of my art actually lmao whoops. very busy lately but might start posting art again if i remember

6. my hyperfixation at the time. or well, me. also art tutorials i see on pinterest, though that's a bit more conscious i think

7. SCULPTING TRADITIONAL PAINTING GRAFFITI all so cool amazing wow

8. there's so many that i cant even remember jesus christ-

9. everything is keysmashes. i do not name my layers. i am satan

10. mm i actually like drawing shirts i think?

11. music. fun fact i listened to paranoia on loop for over a week. thats what brain rot does to a man

12. uuuh hhand

13. i really dont know. every thing is my thing. every creator is admirable in their own way. love everyone. commit crime

14. death? eldritch horrors? blood? rot and corruption? yeag the good shit

15. my room. at school also because im studying animation and game design

16. making. sprite sheets. for 2d game.

17. i usually have a tea nearby but i always forget it. i kinda drink it halfway when it's still warm, then forget about it and then when i go back for it it's cold so i just chug it all and go get a new one

18. uuh i'd say like? 10? im very gentle and loving with my stuff uwu

19. no. i do not. ok but maybe like. cloth idk.

20. hands. idk bro i drew them so much at one point out of spite i just kinda got good at it and now i just wing it and it looks good and doesnt require much thought. and if it requires thought it's in a funky position but then i just wrangle my own hands a little, inspect it, and then continue to draw

21. lineless, painting-esque, thick lines, realistic, sketchy... yeah good shit

22. nah man i just go straight for the laptop

23. uuh sometimes

24. im satan i dont use references often. but when i do? yeah i think

25. i havent been told so idk

26. i. dont really intend anything on purpose? so when someone interprets something wild i just kinda go "yeaah sure! idk either!"

27. Dno. straight for the art. might doodle thine truly if im not in a hurry

28. nah, but i'd like to! i've made art for two 2D games in the past year and now there's a 3D one in the making. im charged with making the 3D model for our main villain thing and boy is it pain

29. bold of you to assume anything doesnt inspire me artistically (he doesnt know)

30. thats a great question i have no idea 👍

[matrixwhore]

How do you think the show would’ve been different if Lestat made Lily and Louis vampires?

hmm is this in lieu of claudia or annie? I personally cant see Lily not leaving. she was too obsevant to stay in my opinion. she picked up on things like loustats attraction to one another right away and read between the lines. “you’re his destiny louis” reads that way to me as well as her trying to keep the peace and make her money you know? She was aware that she was in between them as a buffer. im sure louis isnt the only john she’s dealt with hiding/denying what they really want and coming to a swer to fill that need in whatever way—in louis case being able to just talk freely making him more palatable to her, but still.

i like to think she would have got that power and left like claudia wanted and she would have been able to bc she presented as an adult in a way claudia couldnt. maybe louis and her would have caught up to each other later. i actually think if lestat presented her with the option she would have said yes and he wouldnt need to make the choice dubcon. tho idk if that can be avoided since it seems they cant help but be violent about presenting the option. i think the reality would have been a traumatic adjustment as it is for all of them, but i think she would have endured quite well. now if it was forced on her i think she would leave sooner rather than later after she learned what she could from them. but she wouldnt have been stuck with them and just like louis letting claudia leave, he would have let miss lily leave. and shes not dependent on either of them for survival the same way claudia is. also i dont think lestat would force her to stay bc as an adult woman she really does pose the threat he’s irrationally afraid of in claudia. not that it would change louis’ stance he gay. but i digress.

i think she would have to leave eventually bc irt to lestat, sharing louis with her would have put lily in danger. thats why he killed her so swiftly. no, louis cant even have someone he pays to confide in over him. he has to come to lestat yk? and the fact that lily had to be there for the first night to lure louis in all the way would begin to eat at him. like “why did it take her for you to give me a chance, you’re in love with her” type thing.

i think their mess is something she wouldn’t wanna put up with anyways she’s seen it all. swer are in a position where men tell them the worst of things about the relationships they’re sneaking around and cheating on and to have to be eternally stuck in between that shit for free? hell nah. in my head canon if she gets turned she leaves bc the alternative is her death and i wanna know she out there using vampirism to her full advantage and here in the modern age in a nice condo after a long successful career as a top model. maybe she would have been a refuge louis ran to. he would go back to lestat but just that possibility is why she died in the first place. the way she connects to louis in ways lestat doesnt. her blackness being a key component. i dont know that her undead life would automatically be easy. she is a black woman so all the things that come with that would still be true, but she’s a swer. i feel like she would be resourceful in a way say ……Grace!…might not be able to bc of how her circumstances are different. miss lily didnt have a choice but to be resourceful. Grace grew up affluent and taken care of you know it would be different. thats not a dig at grace just an observation. and that’s not to make it absolute that Grace wouldnt figure it out. i just see her being more dependent for a lot longer and that would pose an issue…you did not ask me about grace lmao moving on.

i think lets say she got away and annie still happened and claudia still was roped into this. louis is forthcoming with her in ways lestat isnt (he has his reasons. dont come at me i know). so i think if she’s asking about other vampires and the only other one louis knows is miss lily he would tell her about her. claudia would fixate on her. she would go looking for her. a mother a companion who understands her in a way she cant be understood at home. one who knows loustat and what it is to be in between them. i think she would go out and find her. and i can see lily being receptive to that. i think this would alter the tragedy of claudia’s story the most. so idk if annie would be needed for that long. she might actually have seen that incinerator a lot sooner. bc claudia would be with lily and i think louis would have been good to at least know where she is. lestat might not have needed to die but then it would just be loustat to face all their issues and idk if lestat would see a reason to adjust and change if he was never plotted agaisnt and left to feed off rats in the junkyard after having his throat slit. that would change the trajectory of the whole last half of iwtv. hmm yeah soo many things would be different. what would get him to paris to meet armand? (no loumand 🥺)i think eventually theyd end up meeting sure there isnt many vamps. then how would loumaniel/armaniel come to be?? it could still happen [i say desperately] but yeah so many things would change now that i really think about it.

[enbyfication]

oh wow, you cut your own hair? i have a trans friend who cuts his own hair as well and idk what they do but its simply gorgeous to look at; wavy but short and smooth. im sure your hair also looks amazing and hopefully, it'll kick dysphoria's ass! you pose an interesting predicament but what if i wanted to rest my head on your knee? or use my own hands to just rub against your legs or even thighs...depends on how tall you are. just moving my hands up and down to massage you and let you know that im appreciative. you'd at least have to let me do something with my hands, right? it wouldn't be fair that i would be the only one enjoying myself from it... unless you're getting pleasure out of me cleaning your fingers and watching me do that. okay, that thought is kinda hot but i'm only cleaning them because they're dirty, okay? and the sink is too far away without you having to get up and leave so this will have to do for now. you know what i mean, right? that's the only reason im doing it - dont you think of cupping my face in one of your hands or scratching my chin either. dont ask why, those arent like sweet spots or anything!

aa sorry if this is too much, i got a little bit "motivated" to respond right before i go to sleep.

ah, no!! i buzzed it aka i took an electric shaver to it - slightly longer on the top n rlly short on the back and sides. was super easy hehe & took no skill at all, no way I cld ever cut my own hair. that's so impressive though!! unfortunately im in a top spot bc id love long hair but my hair grows up n out into curls instead of down so it looks v masc no matter what i do:/ i am like sisyphus cutting and growing out my hair tryna achieve androgyny. the short is keeping dysphoria at bay for the moment though:)

and no, no, of course I understand. my fingers are dirty and you're helping me clean them, as best you can, and I'm so grateful for that. and if you want to hold my fingers, my wrists with your hands so you can better clean then, well that makes sense too! but of course I'd have to watch, to make sure you were doing it right. because at the end of the day, I could always get up and clean them myself. so you've gotta keep me there. and I've gotta keep an eye on you to make sure you're really giving me all your attention

[alazyparallelworld]

sending an ask to engage with what you were saying was a random impulse but im happy to see you respond and give it thought, definitely wouldnt mind sending more since this is an interesting topic :3 glad you dont mind... it can be weird being a detached observer of somebody elses life specifically if they are uncomfortable with the idea of it. i think the reason i jump to using the word "oversharing" is that talking a lot generally has a negative connotation for me because i have negative experiences with talking a lot and being ignored. i guess one of my main insecurities? so maybe i dont have the same type of accidental charisma because im too obviously desperate/curating myself too much, idk. marketing myself as a persona isnt necessarily a good goal to have so maybe sharing myself in more private spaces is for the best (not like i dont compulsively share to anyone who will listen anyway)

also being the way that i am i dont appreciate the observers/audience i DO have enough because im constantly looking for evidence of it. kind of a never enough situation. i definitely think i just have to let it go & if it happens it happens. actually, i do have a decent chance of gaining a following over my art, and when i got more interactions i swear it was when i drew more, so i guess that is part of whats happening with you. art drawing people into somebodys persona or something? i wonder if part of it is just like, when scrolling the dash peoples attention is caught more by images so it makes somebody more likely to get invested. but i think your art has a lot of personality and its what personally made me interested in following your blog so i guess the art is just like, one piece of the whole of a "persona"

diving into the pure psychological sense… going to put the entirety under a read more.

leans back, in the "contemplating therapist" pose and aura. This is a distinct position for anyone familiar.

forgive - me - in the event of bad perspective. entirely: i am not a medical professional, and if these woes are Distorting your life into an unhappiness (ability to function, socialize, that ilk) on a regular basis, either from the 'expected' of bi-weekly to the 'constant' of daily - internet guidance should be an appetizer, at best…!! while a peer's view is quite different from a, "Went to college for half-decade for this particularity" employee, they are both helpful -

but I don't mean. "Go to a therapist," because: i minimized my daily-distortion of BPD (fond Bitch Personality Disorder) thru worksheets, pamphlets, scientific texts. this conversation between us is 'improper' text, ""Uneducated"" but it is not without merit. I just don't want the existence of only two options - "[symptom of mental disorder] reddit" or "therapist that specializes in [mental disorder]" in an analogy. There are a plethora of ways to better yourself - "so maybe sharing myself in more private spaces is for the best" cannot be the single possibility. i believe in you - broaden yourself, and do not hastily imprison yourself to Any distraught for the easy answer, "better in the long run"

what you desire is evident. That is a crucial first step, and your life is measured in the thousands of footprints. Time is here for you - there is no real clock, rather, you know where your satisfaction is in space. Be proud of self-awareness, of identifying desire, these are inch forwards.

now, your path forks - "can i transfigure that want, into something 'healthier," "is there a healthier route to that want," and how exciting is that…! how to min-max pain and pleasure, that is the basis of all species. and if the decision solidifies further into, "i have to go home, i have to let this all go," that is the first option. there is no shame in release.

that is my thought on. "insecurity," and i hope - even if very inaccurate, maybe Inappropriate, your reaction of 'that's wrong!' strengthens what you know to be true.

[head on desk] That's a heaviness…! not on you. This could've been a very simple answer. I'm strange and chattery, for I don't talk IRL and only online. At least, in length…

ART…! art is eye-catching. It is intrinsic. Of course, my artwork pulls people in (but I captured attention b4 I started, as I only began in winter 2020, blah) for any colorful stimuli it kickstarts the brain. Nervous symptom responses.

(i don't think it provokes the sympathetic nervous system SPECIFICALLY, but i'm not abt to rabbit-hole myself into certainty. sensory is prolly also incorrect, just in a 'less wrong' kind. i'm singling out nervous specifically, as the 'colorful'ness of art prolly agitates the body first into, 'is this a toxic plant' survivalism and NOT the visual aesthetics of being 'pleasing to the brain,' i think that's a secondry concern, aaaand i'm rambling abt special interest SORRY)

word-of-mouth, 'reblogs,' or searches is how people notice the un-art. Fanfic writers. Clever meta. Observations. Diary-ing. to 'appeal,' you have to either - as mentioned previously - change yourself, or redirect your goal - but for less extensive… Journaling via pen-and-paper, or a notes app, is easy in THEORY but difficult in PRACTICE. these don't fulfill the, 'exchange,' because journals and notes are private. However. These are good practices. Writing onto yourself sharpens the ability to communicate, your dialect - there's a difference of 'early' ramblings here to current ones. (admittedly, a, 'there's been developments in psychosis,' is a portion rather than True improvement, but it's not a singularity)

review sites i.e letterboxd and backloggd serve similarity, but are dedicated to movies/video games respectively. And, they center around either criticism, or humor - which isn't what you want… you want your natural self to be attractive. I do think you could find enjoyment outside, and it can be good fun or a learning exercise finding out that You Hate Writing Meta.

[morphringwiselove]

T posing at you. On a different note, how are you doing? Also, do you have any ocs?

*decides to be quirky and A pose at you back*

Physically, I'm not doing well at all. My job is constantly on skeleton crew mode and they love to fucking overwork me in particular. I work at a deli in a well known chain of stores and its a retail / fast food environment and its fucking hell. Can't leave it cause its the highest paying job within walking distance and I dont have a car. My shoulders in particular hurt a shit ton, my arms ache and my hands are shaking from the caffeine still in my system. Mentally not doing too well either but that's just my default.

[ OC Info Dump incoming lolololol i just got really into depth describing her]

I do have OCs! Currently only have one for BTD and her name is Helena. Still deciding on a last name for her, cant exactly decide between Kalypso, Trinidad, or Gumamela (leaning more onto Trinidad tho). I made her to excuse my selfshipping tendencies for Lawrence (i just got a thing for sad blonds) and she evolved from there. I liked Lawrence's lore and the concept of the River, and Helena evolved to explore a 'what if' that Gatobob answered.

Can't remember it exactly but essentially if Lawrence gets too attached to someone and kills them on accident, he would poison himself and try to prevent their soul from passing and forcefully revive them, effectively making them "immortal" and an "unnatural being" like him. That and they're a lot more influenced by him bc he has their thread or some shit like that lol (kinda like the moirai! hence the heavy greek refs)

If Lawrence represents Decay, then I want Helena represents Growth. I want their eventual relationship to be really toxic and horrible, initially on his side (which yeah no shit, with the stalking and kidnapping thing), and eventually with her being just as bad, if not worse; A relapse of bad behavior on her end. I also want to throw a reference to like the ouroboros but idk if the relationship kinda works as that.

I also remember that Gato has described Lawrence to be a nihilist and I wanted Helena to represent the other side of nihilism (think of that nothing in life matters meme), but with her struggling with it. A memey way of describing it would be like she strives to have a "fuck it we ball" energy when she is in fact, not ballin at all

I also remember that the River can turn "you into a monster" if you constantly deny your death, which is evident in Lawrence becoming the Lich in TPOF, so I want Helena to become a Nymph for Wisteria trees (due to their symbolism! and cause they pretty :D) and for her to look like a Darkwood character once in that form. It works well with the river motif that I wanted these two to have.

That's all I got cooked up for Helena writing-wise atm! I'm still conflicted on how she should look bc she's a self-insert to OC so she looks like me but not; more or less an idealized vers of me. I'm really sorry for the infodump I'm just really happy someone asked :] If it isn't obvious, I really love using symbolism or at least heavy referencing for my OCs. If no idea in the world is truly original anymore, I might as well honor the original and have my own take on it.

I also have 3 OCs outside of BTD! Their names are Danikka Jun "DJ" Milao, Delores Lena and Polaris Helest! These 3 are mainly based off the Ego, the Id, and the Superego (in that order) of myself, at least to the extent that I understand and are influenced by the classes and subjects I took back when I was still in school. Their inception happened bc I would doodle characters to get through my classes and they were the few that I bother giving a name to :)

[m1ckeyb3rry]

Also YESSSS our manifestations pulling through again!! I’m lowk so shocked they’re on the cover I would’ve expected Shidou and Aiku or something but I’m CERTAINLY not complaining….we’re basically guaranteed tabieita crumbs then everyone cheer I can’t wait to get my hands on it

But to reference your replies to Jeirin I saw in passing SHSJSH no YOURE the goat!!! But fear not I will be translating the minute I get my hands on it I’m actually so excited to read it!!!!! I’m still never getting over all the typos I left in the light novels like idk how you got through that I barely understood what I said myself LMAOOO safe to say I WILL be proofreading before sending it in this time

Also if you’re seeing this too Jeirin you’re too sweet AHJJSK ok but fr don’t be shy if either of you ever want something translated just holler I usually end up seeing your posts either in my feed while scrolling or while digging for my own asks LMAOO

Ok but back to our main quest convo

LMAOO Karasu having his team z moment when they were betrayed by kuon except it’s reader /j

SHSHSHS looking forward to the next flashback reunion my eyes definitely aren’t sweating

HAHAHA REAL it’s a core part of who he is wait im laughing zantetsu having his keystone in his glasses but inside of practically like Maxie’s is on the side imagine he chooses a dumbass move and puts it on the nose bridge so he can strike a cool pose pushing his glasses up while he activates the mega evolution process LMAOOOOOOO WAIT otoya zantetsu interaction did happen in epinagi!!!! When karasus team provokes the team saying their faces look weak (i think it might’ve been himizu but Karasu says they might cry first” zantetsu can only think of saying “you wanna square up bro??” As a come back and gets all up in otoyas face (do you remember that one panel where otoyas leaning backwards while zantetsu screams at him because it’s that one LOL) the idiot x idiot chemical reaction always hits too hard Reo and Karasu having to save their asses so real

Imagine Tullia and Karasu treating reader and otoya like noobs LMAOAO I love the idea of reader and otoya progressing together though it’s also funny to think about otoya tweaking over reader getting his dream team in terms of cool vibes

THE BAROUKIN TAG HAS ME GONE NOOOO DONT PULL A BAROU ON US ok anyways this is fr too funny I can’t wait for this arc

I was gonna say I kinda prefer having more megas LMAO just forgot if they ever stayed a canon reason for that restriction but the mega gyarados adds another layer to the ‘scary to everyone else but a puppy dog to reader trope’ and I love it!! Certainly doesn’t need the power buff but the extra aura enhancement would be funny LOL Maybe the keystone thing is like it has to activate/sync with the Pokémon’s specific stone so it can’t do two at once or something? Kinda like it’s still “running/on” while the active pokemon is in mega form maybe but yeah I’m sure you’ll figure something out LMAO

SHSHSH FR like I won’t bash anyone who enjoys it but ME PERSONALLY?? Nuh uh I’ll pass thank you…(also yeah me neither I always get jumpscared by it in the tags HAHA there’s lowk so many floating around though)

LAZYTOWN MENTION SHDBSJDJS WAIT WHY ARE YOU COOKING AGAIN??? This is too funny ego as Robbie rotten too HAHAHA imagine Rin as stingy and is chigiri automatically Stephanie because of the hair LMAOO

Wait also my memory’s blanking again if I don’t have any other ask in your box replying to our other convo lmk I hope that’s not the case because I deleted what I wrote already er

- Karasu anon

BRO i am so glad it wasn’t any of the other more popular characters SKDJFHS tabieita fr cancelling out the itoshis we love that for them my goats fr

AHAH my translation goat i will be relying on you like always!! and trust your translations are better than the ones i see on tik tok so it’s all good

WAIT YEAH i forgot about that KSLJDHF so basically otoya x zantetsu crossover is already established okay that’s perfect LMAOAO PLEASEEE he would have the mega stone right on the bridge of his glasses and reo makes sm fun of it and he’s just like “nah you don’t understand the vision” meanwhile nagi’s like “yukimiya moment??” nobody understands the meme (including himself tbh) he’s just breaking the fourth wall a bit…okay wait but imagine a double battle and it’s reo and karasu vs otoya and zantetsu ykw the insane thing is like otoya and zantetsu might manage to pull it off KSJHSD like if he throws out abomasnow, otoya picks ninetales, karasu uses garchomp, and reo uses maile…ninetales can take care of mawile easily and it has flash fire like houndour/houndoom so it can tank garchomp’s fire attacks while abomasnow uses blizzard or smth since garchomp is 4x weak to ice HAHAHA wait that’s actually lowkey insane i bet karasu and reo go crying to reader/nagi and they have to whip out gyarados and arcanine to deal with things

otoya and reader are so problematic cousins coded HAHA like in a sense tullia and karasu are kind of like the wise older siblings because they’re a lot more experienced whereas otoya and reader are just up to nonsense CONSISTENTLY also wait that’s so true i always think it’s funny how nagi and reader have opposite-vibe teams but at least arcanine and reuniclus are kinda intimidating/goodra is a pseudo legendary so he’s on the same level in that sense meanwhile otoya truly has NOTHING like my man is seething every time she makes a catch

yeahhh i’m sure i’ll be able to figure smth out!! i’m also lowkey considering whether i want other people to be able to mega evolve their pokémon or not becuase reo has gallade and mawile plus karasu has garchomp and pidgeot and otoya has ampharos and i’m sure there’s more characters so i’ll def have to think if i want it to be smth super rare and exclusive to reader and houndoom or not

LAZYTOWN IS SO PERFECT IT JUST CAME TO ME IN A VISION???? ego gives robbie rotten lowkey HEAVY and kunigami is so sportacus it’s insane…help chigiri as stephanie has me crying though LSDKFJH you’re lowkey right though 😭

yes you did send smth dw i think i answered it already!!

[lqnar]

Mayhaps it is the autism

But

i dont rly ask ppl questions unless i am genuinely wondering or actively remember i should do that for the conversation.

i barely tke pictures of myself or other people like i don’t tell ppl to pose so i’ll have a photo for later? i do photograph children and pets and sometimes food or pretty things. i wish i photographed my friends more but idk it doesnt rly work in my head????????

i don’t watch tv shows or movies or read books w proper storylines because i don’t care/i don’t have the capacity to take it in/i don’t want to get to know new ”people” aka characters, i find it overwhelming to understand plots and relationships and things.

I don’t understand a lot of humor and my way of making jokes is often observational but idk what other people find funny at all. I just say things that sound ridiculous or silly and if ppl react positively then it’s a joke i guess.

I don’t care about celebrities and their relationships or lives. I know a few of them but i don’t???? Care??? And this applies to all famous ppl, it’s not a ”lol i hate pop culture im so special” thing because i barely know respectable people either. I don’t know abt important historical, political, art related, human rights related, or watevr people. I know a few obviously but i don’t learn about them intentionally??? And it’s kind of embarrassing because while it’s cool to be like ”lol kim kardashian whomst” it is NOT cool to know nothing abt current politicians, classical arts ppl or esteemed authors.

if i have nothing to say i will say nothing. I don’t want to say things just for the sake of talking? I don’t go around guessing or saying anecdotes or making small talk or whatever just to take up space in a conversation or meeting.

I don’t understand loving things that arent my special interest. My special interests have mostly been video games so idk but like i can’t imagine loving a tv show? Even though my special interest was a book series when i was 12????? I just go ”how can u care this much” abt it which makes no sense

I don’t understand or care about peer pressure (to some extent, like w substances or following trends or going out or whatevr). Like i don’t really notice it. I would rather just not do things so when ppl are like ”lol everyone should do this!!!!!!” Im like No Thank U. I don’t care about things like ”everyone drinks alcohol so i should do it as well”. Not knowing and trying to figure out what i am supposed to do creates anxiety, i usually avoid such situations if possible. I need to follow my script.

Same thing w identity, social roles and norms. Wtf is a girl. I don’t know how to be a girl and i don’t want to be one. I don’t know how to be a boy and i don’t want to be one. Same w women/men. Same with other identities like religion or sexuality. wtf.

I desperately do not want to be astereotype but idk if thats a need to be special or if it’s autistic dread of following social rules by accident. Like if i put myself in a box i have to stay in that box, and then i have to follow the rules of that box. That makes me so anxious

Idk i cant think of more but it’s just kinda quirky perhabs.