#donghun was also so hard to gif

[qteachoice]

Happy 4th Anniversary to 삐딱선 [Savage] by A.C.E

UNDER COVER: THE MAD SQUAD Released October 29th, 2019

[boysplanetrecaps]

Thoughts on Jonghyun, End of a Day, and Donghyun and Sunyoul's Performance

Hi, fam. In this post, I’m going to talk a bit more about the song End of a Day by Jonghyun, and what it means in the context of Sunyoul and Donghun’s performance on MNET’s Build Up. Along the way I’m going to be hitting some pretty serious topics, so don’t feel obligated to read this one if you’re not able to. It’s pretty sad. TW: suicide, mental health issues

This is Jonghyun.

He loved music from the time he was a child, and was scouted by SM Entertainment when he was only 15. He debuted as a member of SHINee in 2008, when he was 18. He was handsome, charismatic, and talented, with a unique and strong singing voice and great stage presence. He wasn’t just a singer and dancer and leader -- he also wrote songs for SHINee (Juliette), EXO (Playboy), bandmate Taemin (Pretty Boy, Already), and Lee Hi (Breathe). He was a gentle, sweet man, who stood up for social justice issues, including LGBT rights. He also was suffering, as we can tell after the fact, from mental health issues. 

A lot of what he was feeling comes through in his songs Breathe and End of a Day. 

Here’s a selection of lyrics from Breathe:

Take a deep breath Until both sides of your heart get numb Until it hurts a little Let out your breath even more Until you feel like there’s nothing left inside It’s alright if you run out of breath No one will blame you It’s okay to make mistakes sometimes Because anyone can do so Although comforting by saying it’s alright Are just words

Someone’s breath. That heavy breath How can I see through that? Though I can’t understand your breath It’s alright I’ll hold you You really did a good job

Here’s a selection of lyrics from End of a Day, which people say was inspired by his dog:

Your small shoulders, your small hands Become my cozy blanket at the end of a tiring day You did a good job today, you worked so hard I hope my shoulders and my thick hands Will become cozy comfort For the end of your tiring day as well I want to naturally sync my breathing with yours

Like water in a bathtub that wraps around you With no space left I want to warmly hold you without any space left At the end of my day, filled with awkward mistakes You, my prize, are waiting for me

I can’t cry all I want or even laugh all I want At the end of a tiring day but still, if I’m next to you Like a child, I can whine and then laugh Till I run out of breath I’m not used to seeing myself like this

You did a good job today, you worked so hard You are my pride

This preoccupation with wanting to do a good job, with wanting others to recognize that he did a good job, comes back in the worst possible place. 

In December of 2017, Jonghyun lost his life to suicide. It was something he obviously had been planning for a few days at the very least. In his note, he said he was “broken from the inside,” that his depression was “devouring” him. He spoke of wanting someone, anyone, to notice how much pain he was in, or to give him a reason to live, or just meet him where he was and empathize with him. He also spoke of feeling like he was going against the world, and ended the note by saying:

“It wasn‘t my path to become world-famous. That’s why they say it‘s hard to go against the world and to become famous. Why did I choose this path? It’s quite funny now that I think about it. It‘s a miracle that I endured through it all this time. What more can I say. Just tell me “good job.” You did great. Tell me I suffered enough. Even though you can’t laugh right now, just don‘t send me off blaming me. Good job. You suffered a great deal. Good-bye.”

To whom was he speaking, when he said “Good job. You suffered a great deal”? I think he was talking to himself. He was saying to himself what he wished someone would say to him, the same thing he said to himself in the lyrics of the songs he wrote. Good job. You did well. 수고했어 Sugohaesseo.

And that’s why this whole segment with Donghyun and Sunyoul on Build Up completely broke my heart.  

We already saw Donghyun’s reaction to being selected as Top Tier in the first round of performances. He almost broke down, saying he’d never been chosen in first place for anything before. His overwhelming desire for praise and recognition made the judges a little uncomfortable. But even when he’s top tier, he and Sunyoul still feel like that. When they have to choose someone to sing to when they’re singing Jonghyun’s song, they need to sing to themselves. They have to tell themselves Good job. You did well. 수고했어 Sugohaesseo.

When they lose the 2 vs 2 rival battle to the other team, after laying all their vulnerabilities on the line, Sunyoul thanks the the judges for the praise, saying he was “hungry” for those words. They told him he did a good job. But Donghyun, who got mixed results from the judges, takes it really, really hard. Sunyoul tries to comfort him by saying the magic words: Good job. You did well. 수고했어 Sugohaesseo. But the words fall into a bottomless pit in Donghyun’s heart. Did he do well? He didn’t do well enough to beat the other team. There is no good enough to fill that pit. 

After Jonghyun died, Lee Hi sang a song as a memorial performance at an end of the year award ceremony. She sang Breathe, the song he wrote for her, the song that was a wail of his pain, and she couldn’t quite make it through it, falling silent for almost a whole verse.

I found an article about that, and when I scrolled down a little, the very next article was about netizens attacking f(x)'s Sulli for something she did that they didn’t like. An article about an idol who felt pushed to take his life because he was never good enough for the public, followed by an article about another idol being attacked by the public -- an idol who also lost her life in the same way not too long later. 

Where does this end? I don’t know. 

Am I feeding this machine, by being a fan of this industry that chews people up and spits them out? Am I being too heartless to the people on this show by pointing out when their singing is pitchy, or nasal, or out of tempo? Should I just say 수고했어 sugohaesseo, you did well? The words that they all want to hear? The words that Jonghyun said in his note that he wanted to hear? The words he wrote to himself to soothe himself at the end -- his last thoughts on this earth?

수고했어.  

수고했어. 

At the end of Our Page, the song that the surviving members of SHINee wrote to honor Jonghyun, you can hear Onew saying  수고했어 in a soft voice. Did that reach Jonghyun, wherever he is? Does it reach anyone? 

Jonghyun, 수고했어. You did well.

Sulli, 수고했어. You did well.

Hara, 수고했어. You did well.

Moonbin, 수고했어. You did well.

And while they’re still here to hear it, I want to say it to everyone on this show, too. Donghyun, 수고했어. Sunyoul, 수고했어. 

And you, dear reader. You also. You are doing well. You don’t owe anyone anything. You don’t have to be productive or useful or what other people want you to be. Be kind, be open, be happy. You are doing well. 수고했어. 

Click here to go on to the next recap Click here to go back to the Build Up main post

[possession1981-moving]

DONGHUN Changer Jacket Behind

[sehyune]

byeongkwan   —   changer, part change version.

[spacequokka]

A.C.E Kinks & Turn Ons

When I should be writing, I find myself reading birth charts like they’re the Bible. Except I don’t remember them when I’m writing. Nor do I remember what I thought when I read them. Here’s a Choice shit post.

Donghun || Venus: Aries, Mars: Cancer || Kink: Breeding, low-key dom vibes

When he’s comfortable with you, expect some upfront flirting. He has an innocent, childish sort of charm to him since he’s fun-loving and energetic. Doesn’t like games or beating around the bush. Likes to lead the relationship. Might have on-and-off relationships as he’s prone to falling in love with love itself. For him, sex is tied up with emotional need so you won’t catch him settling for casual stuff. Getting to a point where you trust him fully with your body is what he strives for. Like most with Cancer in Mars, the possibility of making a baby excites him.

Sehyoon || Venus: Aries, Mars: Leo || Kink: Risky sex

Pretty much like Donghan in being straightforward, but a little softer in his approach. He’s a baby, be nice. Sensual yet stubborn. It’d take a lot to get him to change his mind about pursuing you. He enjoys the chase and falling in love. He’s easy to arouse and I see him not wanting to wait until you got home to take care of his needs. Right here, right now. High key competitive, so expect a bet that he can make you scream. But you don’t wanna get caught, right?

Junhee || Venus: Cancer, Mars: Taurus || Kink: Mommy/Daddy, Someone older

Okay, listen, hear me out first. This man just wants to be someone’s little and I’ll die on this fucking hill. We Cancer in Venus folk just wanna be loved and protected with lots of snuggles and kisses. Let. Him. Be. Smol. He cares more about the intimacy and quality time than the physical aspects and I respect that. It’s about being cared for and feeling secure. Tell me a good mommy or daddy wouldn’t be perfect for him? On the other hand, I can see him wanting to provide this for someone else, too. So he’d likely switch roles from time to time to meet his partner’s needs while taking care of his own. His chart also mentions being attracted to someone older than him and while I’m not saying he’s submissive, I am saying he’s smol in every way possible. Yes, this pot is calling the kettle black. Sue me.

Byeongkwan || Venus: Cancer, Mars: Cancer || Turn-on: Confusing me

We got another Venus in Cancer, y’all. Again with the snuggles and soft smol-ness. Give him lots, pls. The only difference I see between him and Jun is his protective aura is a little stronger. He’s smol but feisty. Like Donghun, there’s some breeding kink potential with hints of dom if he’s in the mood.

Chan || Venus: Aquarius, Mars: Aquarius || Turn On: The Pursuit

Congrats! You’ve found yourself a 4D chess player. He wants to be seen as unique and rebellious, “not like the others.” Needs confirmation he’s interesting to you before he takes it further. Once he has that, he turns up the passion. He thrives on adventure and dislikes being restricted or limited, especially when it comes to his sexual expression. Let him be a freak. To him, courting is a game that requires planning and spontaneity to get what he wants. Best part? He’s incredibly patient and isn’t in a hurry to make you crave his touch. Just know that when you do get tired of playing hard to get, you’re getting a guy who’s very imaginative in bed and goes all in. 

[blu-joons]

BEST FRIEND A.C.E. A⇴Z HEADCANON ⇴ Lee Donghun

A ⇴ ATTENTION

When you’re around, Donghun will always have one eye on you. He likes to know where you are, mainly just in case he needs you or you need him, but he won’t be any your face, usually watching just from afar.

B ⇴ BICKER

The two of you don’t mind too much when it comes to bickering with each other, but when it starts to turn a little bit personal, Donghun will halt things. He won’t mind bickering with you but when the two of you start getting annoyed with one another and take it a bit below the belt, he won’t let the two of you do that.

C ⇴ COMFORT

He’s an incredible listener, whenever you have a problem Donghun will always let you vent to him, no questions asked. You offload about everything to Donghun, even when you ask him if he’s sure that he has the time to listen to you, he always makes it and makes sure that you don’t suffer in silence with anything.

D ⇴ DISAGREEMENTS

One of the things that Donghun hates is arguing with you, he much prefers for the two of you to get along. He’ll do whatever he can to prevent an argument from happening when he senses one coming, he’s not the argumentative type at all. No matter how hard you try sometimes to make the argument happen, Donghun won’t back down and he’ll still respond incredibly calm and composed to what you say.

E ⇴ EARLY YEARS

You’d both heard things about one another through friends before you met, which saved a bit of awkwardness when you were getting to know one another. You had a rough idea of what Donghun would be like and he had a rough idea of what you’d be like, but as you got to know each other there were still plenty of surprising things that you found out about one another that your friends hadn’t mentioned to you.

F ⇴ FAMILY

Donghun’s family were very fond of you, mainly because they saw how happy he was whenever he spent time with you. Knowing that Donghun liked being around you and that you brought something positive to his life was all that his family needed to know that you were someone that they would like too. When they first met you, their instincts had proven them right too, as they all got along with you so well.

G ⇴ GETTING TOGETHER

When the two of you got together and hung out, you’d usually go somewhere quiet and relaxed. Neither of you were fussed about anything too loud, especially when Donghun thought that a large gathering of fans would be there too, so instead you decided to focus on chilling whenever you got together.

H ⇴ HABITS

The two of you had a habit of knowing exactly when the other was feeling down, picking up on their moods straight away. You had learnt the signs with one another to know when something wasn’t quite right, and most of all you’d learnt how to tease it from each other so that they’d spill what was on their minds.

I ⇴ INSIDE JOKES

Together, you had plenty of inside jokes together, you laughed to mess around with each other which provided you with plenty of funny moments. Not many people believed that the two of you had as many inside jokes as you did, but after so many years together, you had many years that they stretched over.

J ⇴ JEALOUSY

He was very protective of you and conscious of the people that you hung around with, whilst Donghun would be polite to someone that he didn’t know, he would be observant too. If there was something who particularly rubbed him up the wrong way then Donghun would mention it to you, making sure though that you knew he came from a good place and that he was just guilty of looking out for you.

K ⇴ KICKS

Donghun got a kick out of proving you wrong and being the one in the right. He was surprisingly stubborn when he was with you, especially if was convinced that you were wrong. He also loved it because there was absolutely nothing worse for you than when you realised that you were in fact in the wrong.

L ⇴ LOVE

He loved how he never got bored whenever he spent time with you, there was always something fun and new for the two of you to try. Even if he was just sat in silence with you, Donghun often had a smile on his face as he was with you and not having to worry for a little while. The moment you’d sense that he was beginning to get bored, you’d find something to do that would cheer him back up again.

M ⇴ MEETING

The two of you met through mutual friends at a concert that you were both invited too. You found yourselves standing together as the music played, mostly as you weren’t jumping around as much as your other friends, soon beginning to talk to one another too as you found out about other musical interests you had.

N ⇴ NONSENSE

Although very few people got to see Donghun’s nonsense side, you were one of only a couple that did. You knew how much he loved to guard himself and be conscious, but he never fussed about that once with you.

O ⇴ OBSESSION

Donghun was obsessed with your company, he loved spending time with you, even when you were doing nothing. When he didn’t have you around, he missed your presence, even if you had only just left him.

P ⇴ PRECIOUS MOMENTS

There was no better time for Donghun than when he just got to hang out with you, because he loved feeling as if nothing else mattered. He loved that being with you was so carefree and that he could focus on something other than music for a little while, often giving him just the rare chance to be human for once.

Q ⇴ QUESTIONS

He loved to share his new ideas with you, Donghun would often ask you if you wanted to hear about what he had planned, even if you thought he was talking complete nonsense, you’d always at least humour him.

R ⇴ RANDOM FACTS

Whenever he was up on stage, Donghun always wore a bracelet that you had given him near to when the two of you first met. He loved having it with him when he performed as it felt like he had you with him, and whenever he got nervous, he’d play with the bracelet to remind himself of the advice you always gave him.

S ⇴ SUPPORT

You were the person that Donghun often looked for in the crowd, as much as he loved looking out and seeing the fans singing and staring back at him, he loved having you there the most. It made him smile whenever he saw you, as you were the person in the crowd that he wanted to make sure he impressed the most.

T ⇴ TRIPS

Whenever he had some free time, Donghun loved to take you away as a thank you for all that you did for him when he was busy, it was the least that he could do in his opinion with all that you did for him.

U ⇴ ULTIMATE

Many people often wondered what Donghun did in a past life to secure himself such a great best friend, and he often thought the same.

V ⇴ VISITS

Most of the time the two of you would try and time things like your lunches together so that you could eat together and spend a bit of time together, especially when you hadn’t hung out together for a while.

W ⇴ WISDOM

He loved to pass on his advice to you, Donghun tried his best to understand you so that he could give advice that would be useful for you.

X ⇴ XXXX

The two of you weren’t very affectionate with one another, there would be the odd hug or tickle but that was about as far as it got. It just seemed to be one of those things that never really carried for you both,

Y ⇴ YOU

You were his favourite; you were definitely the go to person in Donghun’s life.

Z ⇴ ZZZ

Quite often he would ask to stay at yours for the night, especially when he wanted the escapism for a while. Donghun loved being at your place when life got busy so that he could give himself a bit of a timeout.

---

Masterlist

[kpop-zone]

Red Velvet reaction to another idol flirting with their crush

Irene

“You know that you’re going to go viral with that resting bitch face of yours, right?”

Sooyoung’s voice ripped Joohyun from her train of thoughts and she looked at the younger member in confusion.

“What?”

She asked, having been too deep in thought to fully understand what Sooyoung had been saying.

“I said that you should pull yourself together and stop stabbing Jisoo with your gaze. We’re in public after all. Someone might take a picture and figure out that you have a crush on Y/N.”

Sooyoung replied and Joohyun gasped loudly.

“That’s not true! None of the things that you’ve just said.”

She shot back, praying that she wouldn’t start blushing to reveal that she was lying. But of course, her body betrayed her. Right after she had closed her mouth, Joohyun could feel how her face suddenly felt incredibly hot, causing Sooyoung to smirk smugly.

“Sure...At least try to make it less obvious.”

The younger member chuckled in amusement before walking away to greet another idol that was only vaguely familiar to Joohyun. Under other circumstances, Joohyun probably wouldn’t have just put up with the mockery of Sooyoung, but today she didn’t feel like starting a discussion with her. Instead, her gaze automatically steered back to Jisoo and you, sitting just a few tables further to the right and looking like you had the time of your lives together. Inwardly, Joohyun cursed the organizer of this award show for putting Blackpink at one table with your group while at the same time also feeling embarrassed for being this jealous. It was ridiculous. The two of you had never even really talked with each other due to Joohyun’s incapability to start conversations with people that she didn’t know. Still, no matter how hard Joohyun tried to be rational, she couldn’t silence her jealous nature. Her eyes automatically wandered back to you and Jisoo over and over again, making her wish that she were brave enough to walk up to you to intervene. But she knew that she would never be. All that she could do was to wait and hope that someday, some organizer would have mercy with her and put her on the same table with you.

Seulgi

“I don’t know how you can stay so calm.”

Yeri looked at Seulgi with an impressed expression, causing Seulgi to tilt her head to the side in confusion.

“Why shouldn’t I be calm?”

She asked and Yeri sighed as if she were disappointed in the older member.

“You are so oblivious, Seulgi, it’s incredible. Taeyang is very obviously flirting with Y/N.”

The maknae replied while pointing at you, standing a few feet down the hallway. Only now Seulgi realized that Taeyang was indeed standing unnecessarily close to you and seemed to be very keen to be on his best behavior. Subconsciously, Seulgi started to observe the two of you for a while and she felt her heart getting heavy when she saw you laughing at something that Taeyang had said.

“I think you should do something.”

Yeri’s voice suddenly appeared very close to Seulgi’s ear, causing her to whip her head to the side in surprise. The maknae’s face was only inches apart from Seulgi’s and her eyes were glistening mischievously. Feeling like she had been caught red-handed, Seulgi quickly looked away to hide the faint blush on her cheeks and cleared her throat.

“Do something? What are you talking about? Y/N can talk with whoever. I have no right to interfere.”

She tried to sound like she meant what she was saying, but to her dismay, Seulgi couldn’t hide that she was bothered by Taeyang’s behavior. Involuntarily, her gaze wandered back to the two of you and she wished that Yeri would have left her in the belief that you were just talking with an old friend.

“Well I’m not saying that you should challenge Taeyang to a duel. Just walk over there and say hi. Make your presence known and leave a lasting impression.”

Yeri winked, causing Seulgi to helplessly look back and forth between you and the personification of the devil on her shoulder next to her. Wouldn’t it be rude if she disturbed you? But on the other hand, saying hi couldn’t harm anybody, right? Still conflicted, Seulgi started to make her way over to you while practicing what to say in her head. When she was only a few steps in front of you though, she still hadn’t been able to from a single coherent sentence that didn’t make her seem like a pathetic stalker and a mixture of nervousness and embarrassment suddenly washed over her. How was she supposed to leave a lasting impression when Taeyang looked like that? This whole plan suddenly felt like a suicide mission, making Seulgi come to an abrupt halt. She had to get away before she would only make a fool of herself. To her dismay, however, she caught your attention right when she wanted to turn around, causing her eyes to widen. You looked at her expectantly, obviously waiting for her to reveal the reason for the disturbance. But Seulgi’s braincells seemed to have already signed off for the day and refused to provide her with a suiting explanation. Embarrassed, Seulgi opened and closed her mouth soundlessly until she couldn’t bear the humiliation anymore and simply waved at you.

“Hi.”

She muttered breathlessly before making a hard turn to the right to run away. In the corner of her eye, Seulgi could see how Yeri facepalmed herself and she felt her cheeks starting to glow. To be fair, she did make a lasting impression. Maybe not the one that she had planned though.

Wendy

“I’m going to go say hi to Y/N.”

Seungwan stated nonchalantly as she stood up, trying to be as unsuspicious as possible.

“Is someone jealous?”

Joohyun giggled before Seungwan had the chance to walk away, causing her cheeks to heat up involuntarily. Apparently her plan to be unsuspicious hadn’t worked that well...

“I’m not jealous...I just want to say hi.”

She mumbled, managing to make her members laugh who were able to detect her bad lie in an instant. Bashfully, Seungwan avoided the mocking looks of her members and quickly fled the scene before they would have the chance to tease her more. Of course, she was jealous. But she couldn’t say that out loud, because then she would have to admit that she for one, had a crush on you and for another, was immature enough to be jealous. And she wasn’t ready to admit either of those things. Therefore, she told herself that she just wanted to say hi to you because she liked you very much...as a friend. Still feeling the watchful gazes of her members, Seungwan quickly made her way over to you, trying not to think about all the mockery that she had to go through later. When she had almost reached your table, you finally looked up from your lively conversation with the idol next to you and met her eyes.

“Wendy!”

Your face lit up as soon as you recognized her, and Seungwan’s heart forgot to beat for a second. It wasn’t fair for someone to have such a mesmerizing smile. How was she supposed to make this seem like a casual conversation if every single cell in her body told her to shower you with compliments? Nevertheless, Seungwan wanted to try her best not to let the effect that you had on her show.

“Oh hey, Y/N. I haven’t even seen you there.”

Seungwan replied, hoping that she had managed to lie better this time.

“Yeah I fade a bit into the background tonight. I have the honor to sit next to Jinah today.”

You snickered jokingly, not knowing that your statement had sparked Seungwan’s jealousy even more.

“If that’s not a reason to be jealous...”

She smiled forced, causing Jinah and you to laugh, oblivious to the hidden meaning of her statement.

“Do you want to sit with us for a while?”

You asked while pointing at the vacant chair next to you and Seungwan helplessly shifted her weight from one foot to the other. On the one hand, she didn’t want to watch Jinah flirting with you all night. But on the other hand, she also knew that it was pathetic to be jealous. If Jinah wanted to flirt with you, she could. And you were even allowed to flirt back. Therefore, Seungwan quickly shook her head and declined your offer gratefully.

“I would love to, but I have to go back to the others. But maybe we could meet up for a coffee sometime soon?”

She smiled, hoping that her nervousness didn’t show.

“Yeah that would be great! I’ll text you.”

You replied without hesitation, causing Seungwan to grin. Maybe Jinah had the upper hand tonight but she would not go down without a fight.

Joy

Sooyoung couldn’t believe her eyes. The way that Donghun leaned into you was simply outrageous. She had never made a secret out of her interest for you, so how dare he flirt with you. For a while, she observed the two of you from the corner of her eye with her arms crossed and jaw clenched but when Donghun looked a little too confident in his victory, Sooyoung decided to remind him that this was a competition. Abruptly she leaped to her feet and walked over to you, making sure to sway her hips confidently while keeping her gaze fixed on you. It didn’t take long till she had caught Donghun’s and your attention and she smirked to herself.

“Hey, Y/N. Donghun...”

While Sooyoung greeted you with a soft smile, she only gifted Donghun with a cold nod, causing him to look at her in confusion. You, however, didn’t seem to notice the tension between your suitors and reciprocated her smile happily.

“Hey! How are you liking the night so far?”

You asked, trying to start a conversation and Sooyoung gladly took the offer.

“Well there were some complications. But I think everything is taken care of right now.”

She shortly threw a piercing gaze at Donghun who finally seemed to have gotten the hint before devoting all her attention to you. The two of you started to chat like you had known each other all your lives and Sooyoung used this chance to get closer to you while managing to drive Donghun further away. He tried several times to get a foothold in your conversation, but Sooyoung made sure to block all his attempts. She didn’t have a problem with others talking with you, but Donghun had simply taken it too far tonight. She just had to make sure that you still knew that she was interested in you. If you ended up choosing Donghun or any of your other admirers over her, she would accept the defeat. But as long as the fight for your heart wasn’t yet decided, she wouldn’t let her competitors score a hit.

Yeri

“That’s a little close isn’t it?”

Yeri huffed, causing her members to look at her in confusion. When she realized that they couldn’t follow her drift, she nodded her head towards you and Arin.

“She’s so clingy, it must be annoying.”

Yeri rolled her eyes and the other members looked at each other before starting to giggle.

“I don’t think Y/N looks annoyed. Quite the opposite actually.”

Sooyoung smirked and Yeri gasped appalled.

“That’s not true! Y/N is obviously uncomfortable.”

She didn’t know whether she was trying to convince Sooyoung or herself, but when she looked back at you, she felt a pout forming on her lips. You really looked like you were actually enjoying Arin’s attention. Involuntarily, Yeri sighed in frustration while mentally imagining how she walked up to you to wordlessly grab your wrist and pull you away. A small part of herself told her that she should just do it, but most of her brain told her that it would be a horrible idea. It would cause way too much drama and she wasn’t even really sure if you liked her back.

Therefore, she just kept staring at you with a grumpy expression while wondering whether she had a chance against Arin. She was just in the middle of compiling an imaginary pros and cons list when you suddenly looked into her direction and the two of you locked eyes. Startled, Yeri gasped before hastily looking away, but she knew that it was too late. You had definitely noticed that she had been staring at you. For a moment, Yeri weighted her options (1. hiding under the table 2. running away or 3. talking with you), concluding at last that she had to make sure that you knew that she didn’t hate you. Crimson-faced, she made her way over to you while cursing herself for being so embarrassing.

“Hi...”

Yeri awkwardly greeted Arin and you once she was standing in front of you, wishing that she could just evaporate into thin air. Opposing to her expectations, however, you greeted her back friendly and even seemed to be glad that she had finally managed to approach you. Taken by surprise, Yeri simply stared at you for a while before deciding that she had to stop making a fool of herself and to start impressing you instead. What Arin could do, she could do better.

[justkpopfansofficial]

A.c.e reaction on there last days with there s/o before enlistment

Oh I see you want to make a bitch cry! And you would request it right after their letters when everyone is in their feelings 😭... Lol enjoy!

╬╬══════════════════════════╬╬

✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✧✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦

Byeongkwan

Byeongkwan's last week is spent earnestly expressing his worries and fears about being away from his S/O for so long. This opens the discussion for the other to also share where their head is at so there is complete honesty between them before he leaves. That time bonding over their mutual need to continue to be together without secrets is what he needs to carry him through. The prospect of having someone to help carry the burden between each other expands his love. The last few days will be about making commitments to keep the lines of communication open any time one or the other needs that validation and making solid plans for the future after he is discharged. Byeongkwan will remind his S/O that they will be able to talk often after boot camp, just wait a little longer.

✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✧✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦

✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✧✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦

Donghun

Donghun would constantly be checking on his S/O's state of mind, reassuring them that they will be fine and they will get through it, always being aware of all the minute changes in his lover's mood so he can step in and provide a safety net. He'd take long walks, holding their hand, spending quiet, peaceful moments together looking at the sunset and having long conversations over dinner. Donghun would want to be a pillar of strength to his S/O and comfort them as best he can so they feel secure and ready to endure the time apart. There will be lots of lingering hugs and soothing affirmations right before getting on base.

✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✧✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦

✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✧✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦

Sehyoon

Sehyoon would be the one to act matter of fact about the situation. He would spend the last few days with his S/O going about their lives in normalcy trying to make it seem like this is just another part of life. He's hoping that would be comforting to the person he loves in order to cement the idea that his time enlisted will be just like any other days of the week. He hopes they won't feel just how momentous the separation might actually be by following their usual routine. He doesn't want them to build up their worry and get nervous. Sehyoon tells them to just take it day by day and that they will always be at the forefront of his mind. He will give their hand a squeeze and tell them, "It's going to be okay," as they drop him off at check-in.

✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✧✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦

✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✧✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦

Yuchan

Poor baby Chan wouldn't know how to approach his S/O about his impending enlistment not wanting them to feel any moment of sadness. He would be more clingy, more energetic to make them laugh, but inside he would be a bundle of nerves as each day passes. Once he's gotten his acceptance letter, he would panic and blurt it out, vomiting words that he was so sorry that he was going to leave his S/O alone. He'd spend the last few days wrapped up in his S/O and sharing many tears. Chan is a sensitive baby so he will need to be the one reassured on enlistment day while he's failing to hold back his tears.

✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✧✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦

✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✧✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦

Junhee

Jun would spend all his time cheering his S/O up, making his enlistment a joke. It will be over before they know it and there's no reason to cry. It's whatever, ya know? What's 20 months really? He'd use humor and charm so the last few days together will be filled with laughter and sore cheeks from smiling, silly gag gifts and cute dates exploring places you two never got around to seeing due to his schedule. Jun will only crack on that last night needing to be held as he sobs into his S/O's shoulder. He'll have a hard time leaving his S/O behind when he has to check into base, only letting them go at the very edge of the entrance gate.

✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✧✧ ▬▭▬ ▬▭▬ ✦✧✦

[ithinkilikeit-reactions]

A.C.E “They realise they love you”

A.C.E Masterlist                                    Group Masterlist

Jun/Junhee: 

It’s safe to say that one of the things that attracted you to Jun was his smile. It was just so beautiful and inviting, but little did you know that your smile was equally endearing to him and well, today was just one of those days. 

Your date was simple, a nice lunch date in a little cafe and you were just incredibly smiley and happy. The weather was nice, the coffee was good, the food was even better and well your company was your favorite person ever. It was just a good day. “Today is just such a good day.” You smiled, overcome with happiness. It had been such a long time since you had felt that way. Jun held his fork, just watching your smile stretch over your face and he had to stop himself from completely melting. 

He just knew that he would gladly spend everyday of the rest of his life trying to make you smile, well because he loved it, he loved you. 

Donghun: 

“Please sing for me.” You begged, patting his head as he settled into bed. “Nooo.” He rebuttled and you pouted. Donghun loved teasing you like this, also because you asked him to sing for almost every day. You just thought his voice was absolutely lovely and you wanted him to sing you to sleep every night. 

��Pleassssse sing for me.” You whined again and he let out a deep sigh, shooting you a judging look. You watched as he took a deep breath, starting to hum the melody to your favorite ballad. You smiled, loving that he gave in to you and you felt the need to join. Missing the timing and the first note instantly, Donghun broke out into laughter and reached over to cover your mouth with his hand. “You ask me to sing and join in like that?” He asked with wide eyes, hoolding back even more laughter. 

Donghun was consistantly amazed by you and your humor, you made him laugh and well, he loved you for it.

Wow/Sehyoon: 

“I don’t know if I like how this looks.” You mumbled, lifting your brush from the paper. Sehyoon glanced at you and then to your paper, your painting looked absolutely fine to him, beautiful actually. “It looks great.” He commented, putting his own brush down to move closer to you. 

This was something you had grown to enjoy, even if you weren’t professional artists. Painting together had become a way for you both to connect and Sehyoon loved that. He wrapped an arm around and kissed your cheek, looking at your painting again. This might have actually been his favorite of yours. It was bright, beautiful and it looked happy. It was a way he felt about you. “Can I keep this one? Hang it up in my room?” He asked softly, making you blush and you kissed his cheek. “Of course you can.” 

Sehyoon could share this hobby with you, he could be himself, show you how he feels with a means that he was comfortable with. He loved that, Sehyoon loved you.

Byeongkwan: 

You clapped out the beat as he danced, trying your best to help him as he danced without music. Then he messed up, stuttering in his movements and going to stop. “No! Keep going. The show must go on.” You called, motioning for him to pick it up. He continued dancing and stopped the second you were done clapping. 

“You’re a better motivator than our choreographer. He would’ve let me stop.” You laughed at his words, especially because they came choked out. Byeongkwan laid down on the wooden floor next to you and you moved to hover over him. “I’ll take that as a compliment.” You said, smiling down at him. “You’re my little drill sergeant.” Byeongkwan said, reaching up to ruffle your hair as he looked into your eyes.

God, you were just so encouraging. Helping him get back on his feet even if he messed up. That was one of the reasons he had fallen in love with you.

Yuchan/Chan: 

Carefree days, running around having a great day. That’s what today was. Running around an amusement park, chasing you down after you stole his ice cream because you had finished yours already. 

“CoME BACK.” He called as you ran with a smile. “SHOULD’Ve EaTen FAstEr.” You called back only for him to have reached you, wrapping his arms around your waist to stop you. You were getting strange looks but you didn’t care, this was fun and you were having the best time. Chan laughed as he snatched the ice cream back. “You’re slower than you think you are.” He smiled and you sighed. “It was worth a shot to try.” You said, leaning forward and licking his ice cream. He attempted pulling away with a laugh only to get ice cream on his own face. 

Chan loved how hard you could make him laugh and that you didn’t care about what other people thought. You had a laugh he absolutely loved.

A/N: i’ve been gone, a long time. I hope you guys like this. 

[allyreactions]

Allyyyyy I’ve watched ACE’s higher last night

And omg the song is so good???? They’re super talented???

I can’t believe I’ve slept on them so hard

- jeonghan anon

send me anons

hannie anon!!!!!!

"higher" isn't my favorite ACE tt, but it's still really good. the mv is sooo beautiful. every shot, every set, every outfit is just *chefs kiss*

if you wanna stan ACE, I suggest listening to "take me higher". it's one of my favorite summer songs. plus the styling for this era 👀 also, who is your bias? (if you have one). mine is probably Donghun and my wreckers are Jun and Chan

[star-lemonade]

I posted 1.125 times in 2021

355 posts created (32%)

770 posts reblogged (68%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 2.2 posts.

I added 911 tags in 2021

#a.c.e - 318 posts

#stray kids - 191 posts

#astro - 86 posts

#star writing - 64 posts

#ateez - 48 posts

#bang chan - 43 posts

#kpop fanfic - 42 posts

#star asks - 41 posts

#junhee - 40 posts

#donghun - 38 posts

Longest Tag: 78 characters

#realistically it's all of a.c.e but i can't upload so many gifs in one post xd

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

The Altar

Ateez San x Reader

Genre: smut, candy shop au

Cw: smut, San likes it when you say his name

Rating: R

Word count: 5 k

Thanks to @yutasgalaxy​ for giving feedback. I changed a lot since you read it xD

“You should really go there.”

Your friend’s voice still rang in your ears. These words had been said to you so often lately. Your friend had heard good things about it, although you suspected it was first-hand experience. You felt frustrated about the lack of men in your life. It was hard to meet someone new and the few times you had actually met a nice guy, they had not been interested in you. Afterwards you felt the drought in your bed even more than usual. Maybe it was time. Time to go there. The Candy Shop.

See the full post

152 notes • Posted 2021-05-18 20:01:37 GMT

#4

Mirror

Pairing: Stray Kids Felix x Reader

Rating: R

Word count: 2.3 k

Genre: angsty, smut

Warnings: smut, angst, body image issue, very soft dom!reader, pet names (sweetie, baby), praise

Synopsis: Your boyfriend Felix' roommate Chan calls you because Felix had been eating less and acting weird while you had been too busy to spend time with him. So you go to their apartment to talk to him.

A/N: This was a request by anon <3

"Can we talk?"

The three words were so often the preamble to a fight or break up that you wished you had said it differently but it was too late, Felix had heard them already. With a guarded expression he retreated a bit more in the black oversized sweater that he had probably snagged from Chan’s closet.

"Chan told me you haven’t been eating this week and I’m worried. Are you okay, sweetie?"

See the full post

326 notes • Posted 2021-12-07 20:02:14 GMT

#3

Hot Water Bottle

Stray Kids Bang Chan x Reader

Cw: periods, smut, fingering, dry humping

Rating: R

Word count: 1.5 k

Summary: You are on your period but also have urges.

The burning pain in your stomach made you shift in your seat. Sitting in general was not comfortable at the moment. You wanted to lie down and put a hot water bottle on your belly until this would pass.

See the full post

345 notes • Posted 2021-10-05 20:04:46 GMT

#2

Designated Driver

Stray Kids Bang Chan x Reader

Cw: smut, fluff, mentions of alcohol

Rating: R

Word count: 4.5 k

Summary: There is one person in your friend group who is always the Designated Driver and you begin to wonder what his motive is.

You wondered why he always did this. Why did Chan agree to always be the designated driver? Minsu was drunk again and not just drunk but hammered. He swayed with every step like a leaf in the wind. Chan grabbed his left arm and you the right.

“Let’s get you home, okay? How do you feel?”

Minsu did not look too hot and you suspected that the contents of his stomach may make an appearance soon. In the car was objectively the worst time it could happen.

See the full post

368 notes • Posted 2021-11-23 21:02:54 GMT

#1

Voices

Pairing: Stray Kids Hyunjin x Reader

Rating: R

Word count: 7.1 k

Genre: angsty, romance, smut, college au

Warnings: smut, angst, anxiety, anxiety / panic attack, thigh riding, reader has hair long enough to be grabbed and is smaller than Hyunjin.

Synopsis: Your friend drags you out to a bar where you meet the most handsome man you have ever seen and he is not interested in your friend in the slightest.

This is for @whipped-kpop-creators winter event, Fluff or Fright <3

Sujin texted you on Friday afternoon. Your phone buzzed on the table catching people’s attention in the silent library. The guy at the table on the opposite side of the aisle looked annoyed with his eyes furrowed. You picked up your phone with a burning face.

"Hey, you wanna go out tonight? :)"

She had never asked you to go out with her before. Maybe she wants to be closer with me? You and she had met at the beginning of the semester in a class and had successfully completed a group project. From time to time you had talked afterward but it was never anything deep; you talked about the class, how bad one of the two lectures was, and about assignments. Going out had never been a topic between the two of you though.

"Sure."

See the full post

396 notes • Posted 2021-11-30 21:02:46 GMT

Get your Tumblr 2021 Year in Review →

[boysplanetrecaps]

Build Up Ep 8, Part 2: 💖Guilty 💖

Hello and welcome to another Build Up recap in the series! In the previous one we saw a team rock out! In this one, we’ll see a team get sexxxy. I have a lot to say! Let’s do this! 

We start off with the team coming out on stage as usual and greeting everyone. They joke that Donghun and Jeup are the parents and that Woong and Bain are their sons #1 and #2. 

Left to right: Bain (Just B), Donghun (A.C.E.), Jeup (IMFACT), Woong (AB6IX)

Their name is transliterated Dongupjadur, I think? It’s written in a really stylized way and my hangul reading skills aren’t quite up to it. 

As they’re coming out, the other teams backstage wonder out loud if the guys will be showing their abs -- specifically, if Jeup will be showing his abs. When I was watching this episode for the first time, I didn’t know that Jeup showing his abs was that a thing that could happen. I was like… What? Jeup? Abs? Tell me more!  

Ohhh.

등 부시러 갑니다 = “I’m going to break my back.”

So you’re telling me that he just looked like that? Under his s w e a t e r s? THE WHOLE TIME?

Anyway, the team is going to… perform? A song? Something like that. What? Yeah, a song. This is a singing competition. I remember now. 

The judges say that the combination is unexpected, and yeah, it kind of is. They’re all good, but aside from Donghun and Jeup singing one song together, no one in this group has performed with anyone else from this group so far on this show. So… what is the unifying concept? Why did Jeup pick them? You guys. YOU GUYS. I have so much to say. More on this soon. 

We flash back to them meeting… on a… I don’t know, staircase. A big wide staircase. 

Just like, a good staircase to have a meeting on, you know? We’ve all had meetings on big indoor staircases, why am I even explaining this?

Woong asks Jeup why he chose Bain and himself. 

s w e a t e r

Jeup basically answers that Bain and Woong are good singers and he wanted to work with them and make a team that can do anything. Hmmm. 

On a first watch, I wondered if maybe the real reason was that he wanted a group full of debuted idols? Bain is from Just B, Woong is from AB6IX, Jeup is from IMFACT, and Donghun is from A.C.E. But that just doesn’t seem convincing, does it? Ok, like I said, more on this soon. 

The guys do a little skit where they pretend to be choosing a song together, but it seems obvious when you watch it that they already know what they’re doing, and what they’ll be doing is Guilty, the song by Taemin. That’s a ballsy choice! A choice full of balls! 

Ok, a little bit about Taemin, in case you don’t know him well. He’s a member of SHINee, the same group that was once home to Jonghyeon who we talked about a lot during the 2x2 round. Taemin was only 13 when he debuted, and at the time, he basically couldn’t sing. At all. Like, at all at all. He was there to dance -- and boy can this guy dance -- and to be a cute maknae.

Over the years, a combination of a lot of hard work and some really good vocal training has made him a quite good vocalist. He also absolutely, positively drips with charisma -- both as in the sense of “star quality” and in the sense of “sexiness”. If you have never listened to Move or Want, you’ve been missing out, so rectify that ASAP. 

Guilty came out in October of ‘23, shortly after Taemin came back from military service. He’s said in interviews that he drew inspiration for the album from a book called Erotisicm by a philsopher named George Bataille. A summary of the book: “Bataille challenges any single discourse on the erotic. … Investigating desire prior to and extending beyond the realm of sexuality, he argues that eroticism is ‘a psychological quest not alien to death.’” Well, ok then! So that’s the book that inspired him. What about the song itself? Well, the lyrics could be summarized: You know you want me, baby! 

In other words, my friends, the song is a fuck song. And boy, do fuck songs do well on shows like this. Consider Boys Planet, if you will. Songs like Love Killa were always going to beat songs like Home. Team Over Me was always going to place ahead of Switch. 

In addition to being a fuck song, Guilty is a good song, but I don’t know if it’s fucking good, if you feel me? Something about it -- I don’t know, I didn’t fall in love with it the way I did with Move and Want. In fact, the day I first watched the episode, I had actually skipped Guilty  when it came up in my shuffle. Twice. Don’t get mad at me sometimes I have to hear some EXO or I’ll die okay? 

Alright, back the episode. Where were we? Oh yeah, the guys were pretending that this was the moment that they chose the song. The show reminds us that Guilty, with its attention grabbing choreography, is a popular “challenge” right now, for idols and just anyone who thinks their belly is flat enough. (Hwang Soyeon, where are you?) 

Woong points out that they really have to do the up-the-shirt-neck-grab move -- and he’s right, I mean imagine doing Gashina and not doing the finger guns? Some choreography is so connected to the song that you can’t take it away without missing it a lot. They also know, though, that they have to prioritize good vocals. 

Next question -- should they all show their abs? The immediate answer is yes, but -- and this is really interesting to me -- Donghun gestures to his ab area and says “I’m going to wear Heattech in here.” I did some research and can’t find anything on singers traditionally keeping their abdomen warm in order to sing better, though it doesn’t seem completely crazy. I have a chronic illness (endometriosis) and I know that heat is really great therapy for a lot of things, but I just have never heard of singers doing this. 

Plus, go with me on this -- even though in their little skit Donghun is the one who appears to suggest Guilty as their song, he apparently hadn’t thought through the necessary ab exposure or he wouldn’t be bringing this up now as a possible issue. See what I mean about it just being a skit? I’m pretty sure that Jeup had already picked out the song when he put the group together and then for some reason had to make it look like someone else was suggesting it when they filmed this scene. 

And poor Bain is like, um, guys, I don’t *have* abs. Bain isn’t skin stretched over muscles like most kpop idols, it seems. That’s ok, Bain, I still love ya! I sure as hell don’t have visible abs. He says he thinks he needs to work out, as if it’s possible to go from not having abs to having abs in like, two weeks. Sorry, dude, that is not happening, or at least, not without doing something super dangerous for your health.  

Anyway, luckily for the team, they have a leader who can also lead them in personal training.

The show gives us some good shots of Jeup’s bod, and in the interest of thoroughly covering this topic, I’ll take a screen shot.

What can I say -- I’m a hard worker. (That’s what he said!)

Then the guys go work out with Jeup and he does fucking leglifts hanging from a bar the way you’d lift a single finger.

“It’s easy,” he says. “Just hang on. And just put your legs up.” Sure. Just do that. Just. Do. That.

They all take a turn doing this incredibly difficult advanced move. Woong asks Jeup to hold him up from behind and says “I feel like I’m going to die,” but he can do it. He has abs already, anyway.

Donghun also needs Jeup to hold him up, but he can also basically do the move. 

It turns out that Bain absolutely cannot do the move -- he can’t hang there and he can’t lift up his legs. So the whole team helps him.

I think it’s supposed to be funny? It’s a weird combination of horrible (because Bain is the butt of the joke) and oddly wholesome (because they’re all approaching it with kindness), but it’s also kind of wrong, because “abs start in the kitchen,” meaning, that it’s much more about whether you have abdominal fat than whether you have abdominal muscles. So all this work will not actually give him visible ads unless he, IDK, does this for two hours a day and also doesn’t eat, which is a bad thing to do. 

They also do some rehearsing at BR N  W MUSIC, whatever that might be! 

And that brings us to performance day! Right before they perform, Yeo One backstage says that Donghun drew his abs on with a marker. Hey, man, don’t blow up his spot like that. 

It’s time to perform, which means it’s also time for a commercial! 

Full version without reactions

Alright, I want to talk about the performance itself and believe me I will but first, get your tinfoil hat ready because I think I know why Jeup picked out this group. It became clear to me as I watched the performance and did some thinking.

It’s because

Jeup is very smart

Jeup knows what a mostly-female survival-show audience loves best is sparkles in their pants

Jeup selected the other three guys on the show that can pull off a sexy concept most easily. 

Look, I am not saying that I find any of these guys besides Jeup particularly sexy when they’re just goofing around. But they’re all sexy when they perform! Or rather, I should say, they create a sexy mood. Let me explain.

Have you ever listened to a sad song that makes you tear up a little, even though you’re not actually sad about anything in real life? Or maybe a song kind of makes you feel inspired and lifted up? Into the New World by SNSD does that for me. Or maybe a song makes you feel snarky and sarcastic, like Wife by G-Idle. It’s like that, but with sexiness. You get to live in a sexy world for a few minutes, without it being focused at anyone or anything in particular.  

To put it differently: it’s like they emit the smell of baking cookies, only instead of baking cookies, it’s sex. You breathe it in instead of actually… having it. 

Woong, Bain, and Donghun can all do the sexy concept. Not everyone can do sexy. In EXO, for example, I’d argue that Xiumin and D.O. struggle with sex appeal in performances, despite their beautiful faces; that’s part of why a comeback like Obsession was only possible when those two were away in the military. Suho can kind of do sexy on stage, but that’s helped by the fact that to me he seems the sexiest off stage. I don’t know, I guess it’s all subjective of course, but “doing sexy” is different from “being sexy” and both are different from actual sex.

So yeah, Bain can do sexy, abs or no abs. That’s why his whispering “like a river!” in River worked. 

Woong can do sexy, as you can tell if you watch AB6IX perform. 

And Donghun can do sexy, despite being kind of not sexy at all in real life. 

Jeup knows that he’s a Kai/Hyunjin/Kang Daniel/Baekho/Wyatt type, and he knows that he has to give the ladies sparkles in their pants. That’s why he had to ditch Suhwan, despite Suhwan’s strong vocals. He needed a group that could be his backup sexies as he hit us full bore with the force of his sexiness. 

And boy can this boy do sexy. I actually learned how to make gifs in order to make this one:

Just Park Jeup stroking his mic stand lightly all the way down, while Donghun hits a high note. Jeup is a fucking genius, and yes, I mean that. He knows exactly what he’s doing. It's funny because I later on noticed that all of them are doing the microphone stand stroke, but Jeup is the one who the editors decided to highlight, and I mean, come on. Yes. He does it best. 

The ab reveal was fine. I think Jeup is sexier just staring into the camera, but that’s just me. Here are some gifs to delight you:

Did Woong tear his shirt?

As to the song and the performance itself. 

I am now the world’s foremost expert on this song as I have listened to it approximately one million times in the past few days.  I listen to it the way I listen to an EXO song -- noticing each new voice (“ooh, that’s Jeup! Ooh that’s Bain!”) and enjoying it. 

And in my expert opinion, this was PERFECT -- the perfect choice of song, the perfect group, the perfect performance. There were high notes for Jeup to croon, whispered parts for Bain to whisper, emotional parts for Donghun to emote, and sassy parts for Woong to sass. And they all did their jobs. 

I almost don’t even want to analyze their various vocals because I just love this so much, but I also do want to because they were so good. First off, if you listen to the studio version that was released and compare it to the live version, the live version is actually better. Seriously. There isn’t a note out of place here. 

GOD but my Bain is SO GOOD. I am so proud of myself for picking him out at the start of the show as my main pick. He’s so good. His voice is just perfect. His adlib at 3:16 in to the Youtube version is so gorgeous. His technique is so clean, with no closed throat sounds or a feeling of being out of control of pitch or anything like that, ever. No nasality that I notice. Just the perfect amount of vibrato. It’s just perfect overall. His vocals are my favorite on this team. 

Woong’s vocals are obviously not powerful and perfect like the other three’s but he adds this sassy contrast to the others. I wouldn’t swap him out for anyone else. He slightly reminds me of Woongki from Boys Planet -- offstage, not sexy at all, in fact kind of feminine seeming. And then give him the right concept (Supercharger for Woongki) and you see what he’s capable of. 

Jeup is an absolutely top tier vocalist in addition to being a gorgeous man. I don’t know if I have anything more to say than that. It’s just like, yeah. Did you hear it? You heard it, right? I’m getting used to his vocal color and liking it more and more.

Donghun does a great job here too, obviously, especially in providing harmonies with the lightest touch imaginable. That’s a real talent. In fact, I think my favorite part is from :39 to :47, when Jeup and Donghun climb up that lazy scale together. It’s like a hand moving up your leg to your thigh. It’s really something. 

See, Jeup is a genius. Everyone else kind of leans forward, like Donghun on the left. But Jeup keep his head up and just looks to the side, while leaning back slightly and tilting his pelvis up. He GETS it. How can someone look as tasty as Kai while also singing as well as Chen and not like, be the most famous person in Korea? I don’t get it. 

I think I’m going to be cheering for Partners at this point. I just want this team to release a whole cover album with them singing like, IDK, Taemin’s entire catalog. I want this team to manifest. Just more singing like this. 

EDIT: I just showed this performance to My Fella and he said, "So that won, right? That had to win. That made the hairs on the back of my neck stand up." My Fella is the best, isn't he?

Counter offer: I don’t really have one. This was the right song. Hoo boy. But if they had to pick out a song for next week (and I don’t think they do, based on what I think its next), I’d recommend Touch by NCT. There are lots of kinds of sexy, and they’ve already done the vaguely menacing kind of overt sexy, so next is the “boyfriend in jeans” sexy level to conquer. Alternatively maybe they could do Playboy by EXO (another song written by Jonghyun). It’s overtly sexy but in a jazzy flirty way instead of in an aggressive dangerous way. 

Ok, so in the MNET edit the focus seems to be mostly on the shirt lift moment. There was a cute bit where Jeup the Genius gently strokes his collar bone area, as if to remind everyone of what’s under his shirt, and backstage, Wumuti is like, “hey! I was promised abs!!” 

Wendy is impressed with Bain’s vocals

Jaehwan needs an adult!

So when they’re done, of course the audience goes batshit while the judges applaud. Jaehwan stands up and Wendy gives a thumbs up. 

Backstage, the other guys have mixed reviews. They seem to think that this was pandering to the audience, but I think that’s unfair. I have been *listening* to this performance for days. Just on repeat while I’m on the plane or driving my stupid rental car around. If I could listen without watching or watch without listening, I’d much rather listen. I love this performance vocally, truly, I do. I respect the sexy cloud they generated, too. That’s not easy to do. 

VCG compliments Woong and he lets out the cutest, goofiest grin. 

The judges vote, and the highest score is revealed: It’s a 95 from VCG. 

Seems like they’re pretty surprised by that. 

Backstage, Haram says to his teammates that he’s not surprised by that high score. “You can’t ignore the sense of presence,” he explains. That’s the name of my next Jeup x reader fanfic -- “The Sense of Presence.” 

VCG explains his grade. “I felt that the skills of reading the song for singers who have been on stage was different.” He also says that Donghun really understands the stage and how to change up his voice based on the flow of the performance. 

Eunkwang says that the team had good teamwork -- that they divided the parts properly and worked well together. 

Solar praises Woong, and he grins again. 

Wendy asks about the killing part -- “Did you all work out together?” Ha ha! 

VCG asks how they feel the ab reveal went -- did they get the response they were hoping for? I mean, if they were hoping from high pitched squeals from all the women -- and most of the men -- in the audience, then yes. Hilariously, Jeup can’t help but be honest and say that they had difficulties with that in rehearsal because their abs weren’t being revealed properly. They had to really work at it. I find the idea of them conscientiously making sure that their abs showed when they lifted up their shirts to be so funny. It’s this sensual move, and here they are like, “Is my shirt lifting properly? Let me adjust the angle. Hmm, I might need a different shirt. I think cotton slides more easily than poly blends.”

Solar’s like “it showed really well, don’t worry.” I mean, we know she was looking.

”Hey Solar, I know you do a bit of pole dancing. I do that too, on the side. It’s great for the abs. Want to hang out and work on our abs together? I know a lot of cool moves that will improve your balance and control. And abs. We can do ab lifts and drink supplement smoothies and then take pictures of each other for Instagram.” -- Jeup, probably 

Backstage, Soomin wonders if his team should also show their abs, and Seohyung continues to be everyone’s favorite when he says:

“It’s kind of weird to reveal abs while saying MILKY UP.” 

Dude, it’s kind of weird to do anything while saying MILKY UP. In fact, it’s weird to just say MILKY UP. I hate it. 

And with that, we reach the end of this segment! We didn’t hear a single word of praise for Bain or Jeup’s vocals. Fuck that shit, man. 

In the next post, we’ll visit with Waterfire, Wumuti’s team, who are doing a cover of Aespa’s Drama. See you then! 

[possession1981-moving]

(4/?) little donghun moments because i miss him

[sourn3on]

I've been wanting to make one of these bias grids for awhile but it's just so hard to decide what pictures to use and such. But! Here it is B) they're kind of in an order but also not really. Mang is kind of a joke bc I don't have another group to have a bias for, but also I love them so

Taeyong (NCT)

Namjoon (BTS)

Vernon (Seventeen)

Woojin (Stray Kids)

Mang (BT21)

Seungjoon (ONF)

Jooheon (Monsta X)

Hyojong (💖)

Donghun (A.C.E)

[spacequokka]

Page 38

Junhee was one of the pretty people. The insanely hot and thus popular kind of guy that made even the perfectly sane lose control of their motor skills. He was hard to get alone and even harder to actually talk to. Just getting him to smile and wave at you was considered a lifetime achievement to most of his admirers. Though you tried to fight, you also fell for his charm and ethereal beauty. You daydreamed about having the courage to ask him out, sparking an impossible whirlwind romance that led to marriage with babies and a dog somewhere on the coast in a cottage. A bit much, yes, but you’d always had an overactive imagination.

This fantasy shattered during your third shift at your new job as a mascot for the new seafood restaurant in your neighborhood. You were handing out flyers for the ongoing special when tragedy struck. With a little less than thirty minutes of your shift left, you spotted Junhee approaching with his friends. You panicked. Dressed up in a giant orange starfish costume and handing out fish ’n chip flyers was not how you wanted your first conversation with him to go.

“Hey. I’ve heard about this place,” a voice spoke above the others. “They say the fried fish and fries are delicious.”

You didn’t want to turn around and face them—him. He’d always see you as the starfish girl and who’d find that attractive? One glance at the owner inside the shop and you caved. You knew the scope of Junhee’s influence. An Instagram update from him would reach hundreds more than you ever could sweating to death on the sidewalk.

Resigned to social seppuku for the greater good, you put on your best customer service smile and turned around. “That’s right! We have the best fish in town! Don’t believe me? Here’s a coupon for ten percent off any combo meal.”

“_____?” Donghun’s mouth gaped as he took in the costume. Junhee’s focus shifted from the flyer to your face. You didn’t know these two were buddies.

“Hiya. Still working at the gas station?” You did your best not to look at Junhee. You’d lose your cool and forget how to talk.

Donghun nodded. “Unfortunately. My shifts suck now that you’re gone.”

“Oh, wait.” Junhee interrupted with wide eyes. “She’s the one you always talk about?” As soon as Donghun nodded, he was sticking his hand out towards you. “I’ve heard so much about you. I’m Junhee.”

Lifetime Achievement awarded.

You took his hand, praying he didn’t notice how yours was clammy and trembled. “I’m ____.”

“The pretty starfish,” he added with a sweet smile.

As your cheeks flushed with color, you bit the inside of your cheek. Maybe being a starfish wasn’t so bad after all.