#don't tell me what to do angst

[wandixx]

I've seen a lot of different takes on Fear Toxin/other fear causing stuff (Yellow Lanterns Ring or something)(later just called Fear Toxin cause I'm lazy) but here is another one.

Danny seems like he isn't affected by Fear Toxin because his biggest fear is that his accident changed him so much he is no longer human, he can no longer truly experience human things.

So when he gets lungful of fear Toxin, he feels normal. He was antsy before, because c'mon, it's a rogue attack but it's not worse. Or so he thought. Because the anxiety lingers. Not enough to register as abnormal just this slight hypervigilance that makes you see things about yourself and your surroundings that you'd never realize otherwise. He'd realize he doesn't blink as often. He'd realize that if he doesn't consciously focus, he sometimes seems to not touch the ground. Forgets to breathe. He can't feel his own pulse at time. He'd realize people will miss him when he's walking down the street as if he was invisible (people just don't care about everyone they pass by). When he'd look straight into his reflection, he'd look slightly to the left. Not enough to actually name anything that was wrong but just stretched enough to fall on the wrong side of the uncanny valley. If he just caught his reflection in the peripheral vision, it'd be vaguely shadowy creature with glowing green eyes and white smoke instead of hair. Overall he'd be just wrong enough to be distinctly not human.

For everyone else, he'd be just a dude. Literally couldn't find more normal dude than this dude. Will pass as absolutely normal human unless someone is specifically looking for ecto-ghost stuff. Even most magic users wouldn't clock him at the glance

Tldr: Fear Toxin makes Danny perceive himself as some sort of eldritch horror but not enough to make him believe he'd actually be affected, while from outside perspective he's Just A Dude™

[primrose19]

Because I've realized that I really hate the holidays (and I already want the guests to leave even though they aren't here yet), here's some juicy angst that came to me in a vision just now

What if Nicky was never meant to live, not because of Rio but because of Agatha?

We haven't seen much of Agatha's power but usually it was to literally suck the life out of other witches. Rio, even though the literal embodiment of Death, isn't allowed (?) to kill anyone, only take them to the afterlife after they have already died. Plus, we've seen her create flowers which, yeah, not the same as a human life but still a form of life.

And it makes sense Rio would know this right? But doesn't say anything to Agatha because she would much rather Agatha hate her than herself. And I think she would have also kept it to herself for slightly selfish reasons as well, since, it has been implied, that Rio loves Agatha's powers. If Agatha had made the connection, she would probably have hated Rio even more for letting her go through with it even though she knew Agatha would never be able to give birth to something alive.

Happy new year everyone! :)

[orion-archives]

I have an urge to draw Bayverse MegaSound but I also have an urge to see other people's art of Bayverse MegaSound

[thebad-lydrawn-sanses]

Creator: Mm, art block. What to do...?

Creator: What do you think, wackus bonkus?

"Wackus Bonkus" (Hand): make angst

Creator: ohh, you naughty wackus bonkus

[justanintrovertedweirdo]

Spoilers for the new digital circus episode

THE NEW EPISODE WAS SO GOOD OH MY GOD AAAAAAAA!!!!!!! They totally teased us with that Jax angst, but it was still amazing! They better bring back Gumigoo in a future adventure. Man did not deserve what happened to him. He had his entire reality crushed and just when things were going well for him again, he got deleted. And of course it was Pomni who had to get close to him. My poor girl just can't catch a break. ALSO, THEY HAD A FUNERAL FOR KAUFO. THEY HAVE FUNERALS. I AM NOT OKAY. THE ENDING WAS SO FUCKING SWEET MY GOD!!!! POMNI HAS FRIENDS NOW AAUGDKDVAJSG!!! All it took was for her to get trapped in a digital hell hole. Good for her! Also there's a Kinger plush. I must have it. I need to cuddle him.

[beanghostprincess]

I am so so nice I am letting you see some stuff from the Fairytale Sanuso AU I'm writing (they're both girls btw)

[joseopher]

🍓

🍓 ⇢ how did you get into writing fanfiction? 

At eleven years old I created a tumblr account and the first thing I discovered was RPF porn, the rest is history!

[raayllum]

if rayla has to stab callum in order to protect ezran i think that’d be very cash money

[kangaracha]

wips list for the end of march

nevermore (145/300k, edit complete)

queenmaker (16 chapters written)

FNF (8/10k)

leave part 2

what the water brought (25/50k)

boxer!minho? dlc? something

sick fic (handed to keeps, godspeed)

the gone and the gathered ch 3&4

valleys (complete rewrite)

tgbyb ch 5

tsotl end part 1

darling don't wake up x4

goldmine goldmine (landmine) (6/40k)

soul is yours to keep/zelda fic

draculas

the finished things list! raise a glass!

leave part 1

lyre lyre

[chenziee]

OPKisstober: Shouldn't

Day 13 for OPKisstober: Noland/Kalgara

WARNING: major character death (canonical)

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Dear Kalgara,

I have written many letters over the years, but I must admit, none have been quite as hard to put together as the one I know the recipient will never be able to read. I wish you could read these stupid words of mine, but…

I am to be executed tomorrow. The king has declared me a liar for failing to lead him to Shandora—in retrospect, probably a good thing. I was so naive. I’d thought his intentions were pure, that he simply wanted to witness the stunning beauty of the ancient city, just like I did. I shouldn’t have even allowed them to set on the voyage.

So, I don’t regret not leading him to the gold of your people’s ancestors. I don’t regret being put to death for that. But…

If I do have one regret, it’s failing to find you, Kalgara. What happened to you? Are you safe? Are you still waiting for me? When I reached Jaya with the king, I only found the forest and half a house… About half of the island was gone and with it, all the people, the village, the ruins… You…

I couldn’t even hear the bell that had guided me to you in the first place. What a beautiful sound that was. Is the light still shining where you are? Are the souls of your ancestors finding their place without the guidance of the bell?

I probably shouldn’t be thinking about that. About you.

I’m about to die, the whole country believing that I lied about everything—not just about Shandora and your people, about everything I’ve seen during my travels. The irony, right? When we met, I boasted about how much more advanced our society was to yours and here I am now…

I truly only wish to know whether you are safe, Kalgara. I care not for myself, but I… As I sit here, all alone in this dank cell… All I can think about is the ghost of your lips against mine, the feel of your strong body as you held me, the warmth of your skin. I shouldn’t be missing your touch. I shouldn’t wish for things to be different. I shouldn’t have left you in the first place. 

Or maybe, I shouldn’t have fallen in love with you at all.

I hurt you and your people greatly in my ignorance, even while only trying to help. You shouldn’t have forgiven me… and yet you did. And that only made me fall for you harder, and it makes me miss you that much more now.

Where are you? Are you still waiting for me? If you are… I am so very sorry. Gods willing, I will be seeing you on the other side. If whatever had befallen Jaya had caused you to already be there, we will meet again very soon. But if, and gods, do I wish and hope and pray that is the case, you are alive and well somewhere out there, then I will wait for you for however long it will take. I do hope you still have a full, long, happy life ahead of you.

I will wait for you, eager to hear all about it.

With all my love,

Noland

[ Masterpost | Series on AO3 | Ko-Fi ]

[laurellala-comics]

there are two wolves inside of you. One of them is fretting that you went through all the effort of making a new art account just to pigeonhole yourself once more into a specific fandom, which holds you back from exploring original art concepts that you care about. The other one came up with three separate ace attorney comic ideas in the last hour alone and isn't stopping anytime soon

[nostalgia-tblr]

have we done "tva loki at the start of the series and thor in the first movie" have the same general experience of being forced to change their ways by being physically de-powered (with the same 'realising the full extent of the shit they are in when a magical object fails to save them as it usually would' low point)?

tva loki's experience involves a much more hostile environment (jane didn't torture thor, just accidentally ran a van over him) that includes a threat of death generally lacking on thor's midgard trip, but they're the same general idea. maybe if they met they could bond over that. or something.

[lem-argentum]

it took me until dt to change rudy's hairstyle, but i ACTUALLY think he would've cut it back in post-stb when he became a reaper. the trope of "character cuts hair to feel more in control of their life" is cliché but REAL. and also the visual of him cutting it with his scythe is fun

[theflyingfeeling]

I don’t know if I’m just imagining things but I feel like Olli and Aleksi are actually so close 🥺 for example I feel like they post so many pics together and I know they post with others too and it’s not a big deal but e.g. Olli has posted 5 pics with someone else this year and 3 of them are with Aleksi.. so it must mean something right?? 🥺 and I feel like they spend a lot of time together yk even ”outside the band” when they’re having a day off and they still do music (the remix) etc. together 😭

Yeah I mean I for one am so deep in the Olli/Allu delulu land that it's VERY easy for me to agree and confirm all of this 😭 they're boyfriends secret lovers special friends and it shows 🥺

Here are all the pictures of the two of them I could find on Olli's IG, for reference 💞

+ the group picture Olli posted when Aleksi first joined the band, with the caption 'so now there's six of us' 🥺

[phoenixcatch7]

The problem I'm having with one of my stories is that it is compelling - but not clicking.

It's a sephiroth gets reincarnated into mdzs. Straightforward. I've got several branching paths: lwj, jc, nmj (my personal fave) and the jade twins (one mind in two bodies). All five of them have great potential, but for some reason my heart is set on sephiroth!lwj, because the aesthetic is sublime.

But! It's! Not! Working!

My main problems are a) despite similar surfaces, sephiroth has fundamentally different morals and life experiences to lwj and lwjs morals are a huge part of his and wwx's stories. B) I can't NOT have wangxian. I don't ship often at all, but when I do I'm pretty set on it lol. I don't want to deny soulmates. Unfortunately I HATE writing romance. C) I do not think sephiroth should be in any sort of romantic relationship at all nor can I see him wanting one. I've read tons of fics where he is in relationships (healthy or otherwise) and they're amazing, yes, but... Under my pen it's just not in the cards. And I do feel pairing him with wwx would just amplify wwx's worst traits, which is the opposite of what lwj does for him.

Everything's in conflict, but the lure of sephiroths second childhood in strict gusu and his complicated feelings about it, wwx being a perfect mix of all his important people with a spine of steel and righteousness that they all lost as everything fell apart, the relationship between sephiroth and his new mother, and how he'd inexplicably lose her too, the white on white aesthetic, the older identical brother, the cruel angels aesthetic with the benevolent demon, the angst of wwx's defection and death, his relationship with qi as a planet's overflowing life force, the tragedy of the mourning angel, monster x monster.... It calls to me.

But there's also the way wwx becoming a demonic cultivator was so vital to winning the war, and the way that affected things, gave him a legitimacy. Involve the silver soldier, and well. Everything else becomes a little extraneous lol. And sephiroth himself is such a big mover and shaker, I don't know what I could do to manage that without wiping out 80% of the remaining jianghu after the burial mounds siege with sephiroth appointing himself king lmao. He's not the kind of person to make small ripples, you know?

And I'd love a twin jades au to sort of turn the chaos inwards a bit (nmj and jgy would be Excellent foils) but again, I can't separate wangxian and imagining scenes feels a bit too close to incest for my tastes, even when it's ONE PERSON in identical bodies!

It's frustrating, wanting to write a non romance fic set in a love story lol. I just. I hate writing romance. But wangxian just don't want to be parted.

But the image of lwj in the xuanwu cave secretly covering a feverish wwx with his wing, only to notice a handful of white feathers pushing through the black as he unknowingly becomes a better person through showing care for other people, shaking his own deep belief that he is a horrible irredeemable creature incapable of love. Caught in an act of love. Hnggh.

Any ideas?!

[benefactordreams]

“Do you think we'd be lovers in every universe?”

“But of course, McCoy my love.”

but that was simply a lie coated in sugar to hide his motives from McCoy. Of course he didn't think so, and he'd hate if they were.