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It bugs me when ppl leave Sevika out of the found family dynamic with Jinx and Isha
#why do people like completely ignore her omg 😭#that was her lil family too :((#why would ekko be there and not sevika#he never even met the kid#curse u arcane for not giving me more time with those three .#omg and don't get me started how they just. completely dropped that dynamic after episode 4#I personally wouldve rather had more family dynamic scenes than any of the romance shit#aufjgjgjg#sevika#arcane#jinx#isha
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shuichi posting
#my art#fanart#strawberridraws#danganronpa#drv3#shuichi saihara#character design#don't ask me what possessed me to make this#(its the game grumps play through. the demons have officially returned)#all my aus and head canons bouncing around at maximum velocity rn..#technically this is part of my “the tragedy was real” au / towa kids au#but shuichi (in that au) was kinda just like#what he is on the tin#aka a nice dude taken under his uncles wing post parent death (tragedy) (they were on vacation and got caught up in one of the worst areas)#in my au its like. imagine a weather map with hotspots; that's how the tragedy worked#so shuichi lived in a less effected area but with the rise of infected people (like zombie apocalypse style) (and animorphs brain worm styl#as you cannot tell who is effected by despair and to what extent unless they choose to reveal themselves)#there was a hugeee uptick in crime and shit so he started working with his uncle early on#eventually his uncle went missing (I think its not super hammered out) and he went to investigate#which is when he runs into his like Gang of pregame ppl#(Kaito maki Kaede)#and later some others (towa kid gang [kokichi gang but with drv3 kids] island gang [angie kork n amami])#ANYWAYS its a thing...#ik its been like 3 years since I first posted about it but u can't control the brain worms ig#and I just wanted to do a redesign lmao
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i'm kind of late to this but i just finished reading the scholomance trilogy by naomi novik and i feel like it is such an underrated urban fantasy?? taking the chosen one trope and turning it on its head with a fmc who has been prophesied to bring death and destruction, who is imbued with terrible power, but cannot even properly use said power to solve any of her obstacles because it would obliterate them and her soul. it takes a tired trope and the idea of an 'overpowered mary sue' and throws it back in your face by showing how all the power and destiny in the world is useless against a system filled with corruption that has burdened you with an easy way out (evil/destructive magic) that you can't take so now you have to work twice as hard as everyone else just to do simple, constructive spells instead of flicking your wrist and being done with it.
#the scholomance#naomi novik#galadriel higgins#orion lake#bookblr#urban fantasy#a deadly education#the last graduate#ya fantasy#the golden enclave#ya fiction#it has a diverse cast#queerness just effortlessly woven in#and the entire thing is so seamlessly crafted with a narrative on what real change looks like#how to really rid your environment of corruption and change society for the better you have to do the gritty work#you have to be willing to do the unpleasant hard grueling organization and working with people / meeting them where they're at#you might not even get to see or do the pretty parts#but its still worth doing the distatesful shit#doing the compromising and giving space for people to learn and make up for mistakes#so that future generations can do better#and have the childhood u didn't#no spoilers in case by some miracle i convince another soul to read this but like#she legit fucking says it in the book#it's not the work she wants to do in the end. not what she envisioned. but she does what she must to make sure other kids don't suffer#makes me think of climate activism so much#we might not get to have the pretty wonderful utopia but we have to be willing to do the shitty stuff it takes to make that future possible
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[zombie au] finally a full colored piece of the gang (and also a fun b&w version)
#qkdraws#id in alt#zombie au#mob psycho 100#mob psycho#mp100#ritsu kageyama#mp100 ritsu#tome kurata#mp100 tome#shigeo kageyama#mp100 shigeo#mp100 mob#blood#tw guns#(don't hold a gun like that.)#told u he's bad at trigger discipline. ritsu get ur fucking finger off that trigger ur gonna shoot ur foot#another tiny thing abt this au that makes me sad: ritsu makes sure when looting for clothes that he gives mob the stuff that fits him#and ritsu wears the bigger oversized stuff. on all accounts it'd prolly make more sense to give mob the stuff that doesn't fit him#since ? he's a zombie and doesn't rly give a shit abt what he's wearing.he barely notices he has a jacket on at all#but ritsu wants him to be comfy even if mob himself doesn't rly Notice ?#idk he feels bad giving himself anything that's Better than what mob gets#the kid always feeds mob first. when he finds soap he always washes mob's hair first instead of his own#always gives him water first whenever they find it#mob is always taken care of First ritsu is an afterthought even to himself#ritsu kiddo ya gotta take care of urself too . ritsu .oh god he can't hear us he's too busy mourning
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The Good Citizen
An AU where Izuku is just an ordinary boy. He never meets All Might and has his application for Yuuei's entrance exam rejected because of his quirkless status. He still wants to be a hero, but then again, he's just a normal kid with a mom who works two jobs, and since he failed to get into his dream school, he still has to get into another one, he doesn't have time. to go to the gym or learn to fight, or whatever. And yet, he wants to be a hero, so he grabs a pair of old skates and a stick. And he sneaks out the window at night, intending to be a vigilante.
But like a normal boy, he's a bit of a coward, so when he encounters his first crime, instead of getting involved, he calls the police. He calls the police and hides and is delighted when a police car arrives a few minutes later and does its job. And then he repeats that, goes out, finds a crime and calls the police. And repeat. And the next time, he identifies himself as "Good Citizen" when the person on the line recognizes his voice. And the name sticks. And Izuku keeps it, thinking of it as a way to keep his identity safe. But one day, 'The Good Citizen' calls the police on a group of men beating up a guy. And next he stops a man from harassing a girl.
The mens who beat the guy are part of a powerfull gang and their high-rankers discovers that the person who reported them was the same person who has been making several reports. The old man who harassed the girl was an important member of the HPSC, whose arrest creates a huge scandal
With this he successfully angers the villains and the HPSC all at once. Next week there's a bounty on 'snitch's head. And an arrest warrant for the vigilante who is 'an enemy in the making for the society of heroes'.
Then a race begins, villains and heroes mobilizing to kill/arrest one (1) well-intentioned green bean.
And, out of nowhere, this all becomes Aizawa Fucking Shota's problem.
#izuku: gotta arrest the bad guys hpsc: nuh uh zuku:tf you mean nuh uh#aizawa is not paid for it but whats new#let's pretend that tracking phone numbers isn't an thing#ok#pretend dude#(i forgot that it was a thing lol)#I used to love those fics where Izuku learned to fight and program very quickly and became a badass vigilante#Now I study programming and I feel offended by these fanfics#aint no way this kid learned all this in two months alone#I've been at this for almost a year. in a school. with a teacher. I still don't know shit#no illogical and magical hacking in this house (I'm sad he's smarter than me)#he can learn later. correctly. with a teacher. like me#im mad u can notice?#izuku midoriya#aizawa shouta#dadzawa#vigilante midoriya izuku#quirkless au#quirkless midoriya izuku#i love quirkless au. like why can he be just normal for once?#i know hes green and normal is not a thing for people whos green but guys#guys#hear me out#normal people are nice ok#im nice#(im not lol)#if anyone writes this tag me so I can tag my friend moon. She's begging (literally)#She gets mad at me for not writing my own ideas lmaaaaao#boku no hero academia#my hero academia
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Arlecchino "Will Become A Winged Demon and Make You Duel Her Because You Didn't Finish Your Homework and You Need to Learn to be Strong to Survive on Your Own" and Arlecchino "Fuck You if You Ever Look at Her Wife Funny She's Been Depressed and Suffering for 500 Years and She'll Spoil Her if She Wants to" are the same person
#u see it's very simple#the children need to learn to survive on their own for when they leave Arlecchino's care#Furina however is her cute little trophy wife who Arle is never letting outta her sight again now that she knows all the shit shes been thr#don't worry Furina would be an absolute pushover of a mom. the kids get plenty of spoiling from her#you can see it in Lynette's hangout quest. Furina wanted to be a good mom so bad (and she and Lynette were bonding and it made me cry)#anyway. I'm scared for the kids. but also very in love with Arlecchino#Arlecchino#Arlefuri#4.6 spoilers //#genshin impact spoilers //#genshin impact //
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dyke!Chilaios has me understanding breeding kink all of a sudden
#chilaios#that's a lie i understand breeding kink very well lmao#HOWEVER IT MUST BE SAID#they finish up a great scene. hot lesbian sex. all going well.#and laios lies back with her eyes closed. still flushed and sweaty. she rests her naked hand on her naked lower stomach and says. 'hah....#'did you know ...that tallmen and halflings can have kids together?' Like its just another fun monster fact.#she's trailing her fingers absentmindedly over her stomach now. tracing idle patterns.#'with our lifespans being so similar it isn't even as big a deal as it is for elves and humans. they're even fertile and that's ...#that's really rare for hybrids.' her eyes are still closed. she swallows hard. She's more red now than she was when they fucked.#'you should talk about that next time you're in me. i'd like it...' and she cracks one eye open a sliver#to see chilchuck . BEET. RED.#because Chilchuck DID NOT. KNOW.#She was already fucked out and now she's dying?? she's dying. Laios still has her huge hand resting on her huge smooth stomach#miles and miles of soft skin...that she wants chilchuck to put a BABY in#she's thought about the hypothetical lifespan and safety of the hypothetical baby! is this just a sex thing? is this a for real thing?#chilchuck does not know and does not know which one she's hoping for now!! cause both sound GREAT#AND OF COURSE THERE'S ALSO#chilchuck remembering that conversaion next time Laios's huge huge fingers are inside her. Laios's hot wet breathing by her ear.#Laios's breathing going ragged even though no one is touching HER she is the one toying with Chilchuck right now. She always does that.#between the breathing and the fingers and the warmth and the smell Laios is all around her and she just thinks -#'Laios is so huge. Laios's baby would be so huge. I'd be so huge. Pregnant with it.' And she cums.#rattles her to her fucking core. Chilchuck who HAS BEEN PREGNANT BEFORE realising. holy shit.#i want this fluffy haired socially awkward 26 year old doggirl to . to fuck a baby into me. in a sexy way.#i think . I think it's hot.#enough to turn you to drink isn't it!#u may ask - hey how come chilchuck has a girlcock and has got pregnant? can laios get chilchuck pregnant?#does anyone even have a womb in this situation? I may answer - don't worry about it#a wizard did it. whatever. its a fantasy world.#whatever is sexiest in the moment i don't care#lesbiance
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Super good luck on yr procedure adventures cheye!!! Such an awesome thing I hope to do myself someday. Best of luck !! 🐈⬛🕊️
Thank u!!! Im waiting on call back from the surgery scheduler neow 🧿🧿🧿
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#i know the One Day might be due to ur age but if u want to start looking into it#i wld recommend the childfree subreddit wiki's doctor list#i know everyone has Opinions on that subreddit but the doctor's list is a separate thing...its jst a list of doctors people have compiled#that don't reject u for sterilization on the basis of being too young or not having kids yet#(tho it also depends of course)#id been looking thru the list and yearning for years bc obviously there were never any doctors in my city#and i cant drive out of town yet#but like 2 months ago i saw that somebody had finally listed a doctor in my city who did it on a 24 yr old with minimal questions#so i jumped on that shit immediately!!!!!#its insane too like the info on the list said he asked the person several questions but for me all he said was like ''so u never#want to have kids right?'' while inputting new patient info and that was it#skunk mail#werewolfclaws
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now that I've finished the Fontaine archon quest I need hydro fam shenanigans.
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This is the vibe in the hydro fam. You got neuvillette babysitting a bunch of unhinged children.
And before you come for me about barbara, barb is one incident away from being completely unhinged. My girl is barely holding it together. And nilou is unhinged, shes just good at hiding it. Girl was ready to go to jail in the sumeru quest.
Headcannons under the cut
Furina, barb, and nilou do shows together I take no criticism about this. Xingqiu wrote the shows. Neuvillette and childe fund it.
Xingqiu needs to be put in Fontaine. My boy is literally FAMOUS over there. (On a side note, love how every hydro character is famous. Only exception here is yelan but that's cus she's an undercover agent.)
Furina, xingqiu, and barb would get along like a house on fire. You got 3 art kids together, 1 that can get away with stuff, 1 that's smart, and 1 that keeps the shenanigans from getting too big and getting them into trouble. It is a weekly occurrence that neuvillette gets a call telling him his kids went and did some shit again and he's gotta clean it up.
Also childe. He's like that cool cousin that shows up at your door randomly and is involved in a lot of shady shit, but they can't complain cus childe brings xingqiu all of these rare books and makes sure he comes to all of furina and barbs performances and reads monas astrology column in the steambird every morning.
Barb makes coffee every morning for mona and makes sure mona has a balanced diet.
They have weekly tea time. Everyone shows up. No one misses it. Sometimes wrio is invited.
kokomi and xingqiu can talk for hours about anything. Books, strategy, anything. No one understands what they're talking about. Except for ayato but that's only when it's about strategy
Barbara and sigwinne will also talk about medicine for hours and it's even more difficult to understand those conversations
ayato will spawn randomly, hand someone bubble tea and then disappear. It's his way of saying I love you.
He also jumps jumpscares everyone a lot. Not intentionally but just bc someone runs into him and they haven't seen ayato in a few days and he's got Gucci eyebags and looks ready to fight the Raiden shogun. Also because he's just really quiet when he moves. You don't notice his presence unless he wants you too.
All of the adults spoil furina, xingqiu, and barb rotten. Mona tries her best.
None if them like Jean. They think that Jean doesn't deserve Barb after everything but if barb wants to have a relationship with her then they won't do anything.
Candace has fought off a crowd of crazy fans before. She will do it again.
Candace and childe fight once a month. "To see who deserves a name that starts with C" childe says. The matches always end in a draw.
Neuvillette is a better dad then all of their canon fathers.
Barbara will start singing randomly and nilou will start dancing
#12 is in fact based on the fact that Barbara tries very very hard to have a sibling relationship with Jean but Jean never tries back#It's a 2 way street and only barb is making an attempt#Don't get me wrong I love Jean#But their relationship makes me wanna tear my hair out#I might have to make a post about this later#Also I threw some sigwinne in here cus why not#I think her and barb would get along very well#I also want them to talk shit about their patients#I almost forgot about candace#The hydro fam is quite big now#Remember when it used to be 2 kids an astrologist and a battle hungry maniac?#Can u tell I have a favorite#It's Barbara#barbara genshin impact#furina#furina genshin#xingqiu#neuvillette#childe tartaglia ajax#candace genshin#sigwinne#mona genshin impact#kamisato ayato#kokomi#yelan#nilou genshin#genshin impact#genshin#hydro
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#hot take that doesnt feel that 'hot' if ur kid is going thru one of the most traumatic experiences of their lives#and having to do it TOTALLY alone despite it not at all being a one person job#but thats just circumstance and how the cookie crumbled#and then you offer to come pick them up and drive them home for a week of help and relaxation once the experience is over since that's#all you can offer at the time#its. kinda a fucked up move to then back out when the time comes for said promised r&r#esp when u dont seem to understand [or maybe worse yet you Do but don't care] that ur child CLUNG to and FANTASIZED abt the relief that was#on the horizon for WEEKS of HELL. like 'just a little longer and then I will finally have some help.'#'just a little longer and then I can rest'#'just a few more days and then I can lay low and recoup some expenses and have meals I don't have to solely cook whilst also rehabbing a#sick dog and trying to maintain a home whilst also working full time'#only to get to 'the day' and get a 'its not going to work out after all sorry....we are just so Busy prepping for our travel abroad next#month you know? it would be too Stressful to have a third person in the house'#YOU WANT TO TALK TO ME ABT STRESS RIGHT NOW????? BE SO FOR REAL----#like if u werent free fine. u dont owe me shit im grown. BUT2 PROMISE IT AND REAFFIRM IT TIME AFTER TIME AND THEN BACK OUT IN THE 11TH HOUR#SERIOUSLY???#I love them but this. fucking Hurts. and I had to pretend it Didnt so as to not make a scene
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it is totally okay to be hurt and tired and fed up with the american schooling system but i need you to understand that we need to be better about loudly and routinely defending public education.
yes, many teachers suck, many schools utterly suck. i also got bullied and was absolutely not given the right support for my needs. i am not defending public education because it was kind to me. i am defending it because it needs to exist.
right-wing republicans do not want an educated population. they want kids to be homeschooled or in private school. there is a huge religious undertone to this.
the most common argument is that despite high costs, the "result" is not "good" enough. they point to failing schools as proof that public education is just never going to work out. there will be arguments made here that you actually agree with: that teachers can be bullies, that we taught online for 2 years and still charged the same amount of tuition, that we have no recourse for students to actually have agency or a voice, and that schools are now unsafe for kids due to risk of illness and gun violence.
these are all placing the blame in a fraudulent way, one intended to get your parents to homeschool you. the less kids in a school, the less federally-awarded funding for that school, the less any school succeeds. they will not mention the fact it is their legislation that takes away important funding opportunities, that teachers are living at or below the poverty line, that buildings are not kept up to code, that administration is overpaid and forces specific curriculums, that corporations like (my personal enemy) Pearson Education control certain classroom goals because teachers can't afford other options. they pretend to be ignorant of the gun violence and say "oh just get a gun" - but these are the same people who will be sending their child to a private school with a bulletproof backpack. they don't care if your kid dies, though. they "don't believe" in covid, but they did get their kid vaccinated, because of course they did.
it is a closed loop. conservative parents hear the fearmongering and remove children from the system. frequently these parents are also deeply religious. the kids are raised without access to other media & learn to parrot their parents. you have now created a new generation of conservatives. additionally, one of the parents/caregivers must stay home and homeschool the children, usually for free. i will give you 1 guess which parent tends to stay home to homeschool the children. these parents are encouraged to have many, many children. those children are most likely not getting access to safe sex ed.
we might laugh at fox news suggesting teachers are forcing children to use kitty litter but: first of all, there is kitty litter in the classroom. it's part of an emergency kit in case children are locked in due to a shooter. so that's fucking dystopian, and the fact they've completely reimagined the scenario to somehow make the teachers look bad when it's instead a fucking huge symbol of our failure as a country to protect our children.... it feels a little intentional.
secondly: don't just dismiss the situation. because, yeah, obviously, no teacher is encouraging kids to be a catboy. but the actual undertone that fox news is trying to sew is an outright distrust of teachers and of public education. they rely on the dehumanization of trans people as a common touchstone to hide the fact they're pushing two agendas at once. (which is ironic. because the thing they accuse teachers of. is pushing. an agenda.)
whenever someone tells you they want you to read less, you should be suspicious of that. when someone tries to separate you and your education, you should be suspicious of that. i don't even like incel rhetoric nor would i want my kids exposed to it - but i would not take away my child's (age-appropriate) access to the internet. i would just provide more educational materials, not less. the difference here is that i believe we can resolve ignorance with knowledge; whereas conservatives believe that ignorance is bliss.
they misappropriate funding and demonize teachers. they pull the same trick each time - the same thing we are seeing with anti-trans rhetoric. they do not want you to have access to safe sex ed, so they act horrified, claim sex ed teaches you how to thrust deep, claim that we have no idea what "age-appropriate" means. since the mid-nineties, the united states has spent at least 2 billion dollars on abstinence-only education, even though to quote the above link: "a preponderance of studies has found no effect of abstinence education at reducing adolescent pregnancy". conservatives want you to think less of any person struggling with addiction so they can continue their racist "war on drugs", so they spend up to $750 million dollars a year on the DARE program which has absolutely no effect. acting like teachers "must" be "grooming" children is just the same thing - so they can demand that funding either goes to their causes or the funding doesn't "exist" ("i'm not paying for our kids to learn that thing!")
and they want you to feel uncaring about this. they are aware that you will hate some parts of your school experience. pretty much everyone does. they want to lean into the parts that you hate so that you don't put up a fight about it when they take it away for not being "good enough."
i know i maybe sound like a conspiracy theorist. but truly. truly. it is beneficial for conservatives to reduce your faith in the american public schooling system.
one of the explicitly stated campaign promises of the conservative party: to axe the Department of Education in 2024.
i know we are all tired and burnt out and there is so much else wrong with their entire platform. but maybe just - pay attention to this one.
#i can't believe i have to say this#the conservative party is legit like ''is it anything good? okay we hate it.''#''lets kill lgbt people and ummmmm school children shouldnt be able to read they should be at home watching jordan peterson :)"#the fact that it's like all related is. wild.#like it's wild bc if u start being like. actually making it impossible to afford housing is part of how they keep the nuclear family.....#it's just like lines connecting to lines. EXCEPT ITS OBVIOUS?#what's wild to me about most conspiracy theorists is that they're like . ohhhh the govt is hiding shit!!!!!!! they don't want u to know!!!#and im like. this old man literally got up on stage and said he hates public education and will let our kids die before taking away ak-47s#and ppl are like: lol thats just bob's sense of humor he didn't mean it literally uwu
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What would we need to do if we had a small shifter currently huddled up in the radio room with no details other then hes a shifter, hes scared to go home, he has most likely been living outside for a long time, and he doesnt seem to want any help?
This seems like a department issue… do you handle empoweeed children well fair?
- 🧸🖍️ ( @damn-daycare-news )
short answer, yes
long answer, still yes, but the system is kinda shit and only work for a big handful of kids
it works for a lot, but not for all
and judging by the detail for this little man, I don't think he'll do very hunky-dory there
I mean, if he doesn't end up having any proper home, u could always send him my way 😃 I DON'T MEAN THAT IN A WEIRD CREEPY GUY WAY, I'm just really great with kids and wouldn't mind having to take one under my wing if he's too much for u👍
#redacted rp#I won't tell the Department if u don't want me to#I just think the system in place to help empowered children are kinda biased and pretty shit for kids like this little shifter u guys got#and this is coming from someone on the inside too
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Damn Shaman King Flowers........is kinda ass so far
#herne talks#am i just old or is the exceedingly violent kid that both somehow walks all over a number of the adults and peers in their life for no reas#n as well as getting their ass beat by other adults in their life trope no longer entertaining to watch in the slightest#like i get why it was a trope back in the day#but ffs man why should i give a shit about hana or alumi when they are extremely Like That TM#i didn't like it with anna 20 years ago when it was still of the time and i don't like it now#“if you don't marry me i'll kill you!!! >u^” go do your fucking homework and get some therapy alumi#no wonder none of these kids have friends the normies can tell they're smothered in fatherless behaviour
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ramblings of insane person
#i keep going back nad just typing on this when im watching lectures LMAO i don't even necessarily agree with myself anymore on all of it#it is 2024 and i have been thinking about hardenshipping all month. it is 2014 and i h#i can't even hide behind nostalgia though i played alpha sapphire early 2022 LOL this is just who i am#honestly though i consider my parents not getting me a copy of oras when i was a kid to be some kind of real tragedy can you imagine if i'd#had a 7 year head start. i mean i didn't have a 3ds until 2016 but at the time i would have literally sold my kidney to play oras#i love hoenn a lot though just bc as a kid most of the pokemon anime i would watch was dvds from the library cause i didn't have cable#so it was just the gen 1-4 seasons and i looooooved the gen 3 ones and the gen 3 movies soo much destiny deoxys was on repeat me and my#brother watched it like once a week i still love that movie. so i do have a lot of hoenn nostalgia. I LOVE HOENN. in all its square majesty#anyways oras are just such good games man so fucking good like they have actual spirit like it is not very often that i feel genuine wonder#anymore playing pokemon games but every time u use the eon flute to fly around and fully exploring sea mauville the first time earlier this#playthrough ohhh it does give me that feeling of like holy shit im playing pokemon pokemon is so cool i love pokemon#ahhh video james. long ass tags
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oh my fucking godddddd i wish i could come out to my parents
#maddie.txt#alright rant once again folks. u ain't gotta read it lmfao i'm just whining </3#my dad loves talking about when i'll be married and get a husband and how i'm probably gonna find some random guy in college#i just absolutely hate the fact that i'm assumed to be allo but i kinda get it bc like 97% of the population is allo but still#idk. i just makes me really uncomfortable like bro i don't have a type whatsoever even when i do have crushes i never really think of#marriage and even though i'm technically only attracted to men i know full well that he's not gonna accept it#like my dad was just saying how once i get into college/my career i'm gonna find men that 'check all the boxes'#and btw i have told this man many times that i've never had an interest in having a husband or kids but not even 10 minutes ago he just#told me that even though i don't want to get married/have kids that if god 'presents you with a man' that i should take it and get married#whether i want to or not?? what the fuck???? and he said to my younger brother that he should do the same w/ his future wife/gf which is#absolutely insane. (also dad constantly refers to our future spouses as 'mates' which i find weird as fuck) and just that along with the#fact he outright told me sometime last year that (literally his words) women are 'products bought by men' that have#'time limits and expiration dates' and that's why 'men buy them (women) while they're 21‚ 22‚ 23' so. yeah .#that last bit was a side rant but god i just wish i could be confident he could accept i was demi-aroace it would just make things#so much fucking easier and less weird and uncomfortable but it's just sometimes i wonder where the blurred line is between where my#sexuality ends and where the effects of purity culture begin. and maybe throw in some childhood trauma and witnessing domestic violence as#well. i don't know. the only thing that helps is that i felt 'different' even before Shit Got Bad so that's nice.#in conclusion i wish father dearest know that i'm not allo in the slightest and there's a pretty decent chance i may not get married at all#and i'm very sure god's chill w that. bc like i'm still a normal person with hobbies and shit. i'm just some queer bitch who likes coding#and wildlife photography and has a few weird issues to sort out. i'm just an aroace with exceptions my guy. it's not too hard to understand#also sorry to my friends/mutuals who i haven't talked to much lately. i'm terrible at starting convos but i know that i love you like#the moon loves the earth okay? :)
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for the first time in my life i was just asked if i have kids instead of if i'm in college yet. the years start coming and they don't stop coming huh
#stooooop#i know i have been old enough to have kids for a while but 😵💫#im always behind on all the milestones in life tho but it never stood out before bc people always thought i was 17#literally from when i was 13 until very recently people always guessed i was like 16-19#which was great bc i am an autistic late bloomer who lives w my parents and sucks at being an adult#so giving off the vibe and appearance of being a teenager was fine#but now i look like an adult#🧍♀️🧍♀️🧍♀️#yet i am not good enough at being one for these questions and assumptions 😭#i hate it hereee#anyway weird old guy at the store started telling dumb blonde jokes then asked me if i had kids#never in my life have i been asked that#late twenties fr the worst age bc u still feel young but start getting treated old and also u don't have ur shit and life together yet#but everyone thinks you do or should by now#alas#irl i'm 27 what am i a child bride moment#not that having kids is for old people#but im not even good at being responsible for myself yet let alone an entire baby#i do want kids but im not ready for that yet#also never been in love 🫠#or even seriously dated anyone ever#not that it's a requirement#in fact im planning to adopt esp if i dont get married but still#anyway i do very much want kids im just not in that place yet#and didnt feel that behind in life about it bc nobody ever asked me that before#thsi better not be like how everyone asks you as soon as they meet u about ur job or school i dont need to be fielding this forever
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