#don't feel bad about getting top surgery either though

[burningkingpeach]

Just a reminder that you don't need to feel bad about not getting top surgery as a trans guy. There are cis men with bigger tits you'll be fine

[mychlapci]

I've been writing and rewriting this to not sound stupid and tbh I don't remember if I ever sent any of the draft versions of this idea so if I did ignore this my bad

On that one ask about grandpa Magnus pressuring Rodimus into getting plastic surgery, he loves making his grandson carry his huge babies but he isn't into how fat Rodimus gets when he carries. Rodimus can't help how much weight he puts on when he carries, the babies are just so big and they need so much energon to grow that he always feels hungry. After he pops his latest bitty out, Magnus either puts Rodimus on a strict diet or calls his surgeon friend to debulk Roddy's frame manually. He gets the extra mesh removed from his belly, a boob job to keep his pouches perky, and Magnus being the old pervert he is wants something to keep his grandson's aft nice and round. He treats Rodimus like a little doll he can put back to standard after he pumps babies in, and it gives Rodimus a terrible relationship with his frame.

Enter grandma Megatron. He wants his boys Sentinel and Optimus back home, but they don't wanna go with their mom without their baby Rodimus. That's all perfectly fine with Megatron, his sons and his grandson all coming back with him is better than what he asked for. The decepticons capture Rodimus on Cybertron while he's laid up recovering from a surgery he didn't really want and bring him straight to Megatron. He looks Rodimus up and down and tsks to himself. His poor grandbaby was so small, and Optimus said he was often a carrier on top of it. Megatron wanted to use all his boys for studs for a better generation of decepticons, but Rodimus was in no shape for any playtime. From then on, Rodimus would be put on a strict diet of Megatron's milk until he could keep some weight.

It made Rodimus feel bad at first, he was ashamed to be getting chubby again when he knew Megatron had expectations for him. When he tried to voice that though, Megatron just shushed him and made him take his huge nozzle into his intake. He pat Rodimus on the back while he made him drink and told him he looked so much better and healthier now compared to when they picked him up. He didn't need to feel bad being comfortable, grandma was gonna spoil him rotten unlike mean old Magnus. He eats much better after a little pep talk and he seems a little more comfortable with getting heavy again. Eventually he's all soft mesh curves and has to have some plating removed to let his fat frame move easier. He's nice and big, and strong on top of it. He's in great shape to step up and try to give Megatron great grandchildren now that he's feeling better, Magnus doesn't even know what he's missing out on -🌱

nothing has ever made me hate Ultra Magnus more. he literally doesn't know what he has. a perfect grandson who could be all nice and chubby with baby weight if only that old pervert wasn't a shallow dickhead.

it's okay, grandma can turn his boy into a big strong stud.

[river13245]

Your recent piece with daryl x FTM reader made me so happy :,) I don’t see much of that content! When you have the time if you’d be able to write something along the lines of him dating a FTM reader & wanting to show him off/show how much he loves him.

Thank u :3!

Dating Daryl Dixon (FTM reader)

Now this completely depends on if Mearl is alive when you meet. If Mearl is alive during this time. Mearl will make a comment at your body. If you do have top surgery he will make a comment about your thighs and if you don't then about your boobs. He will find something. That's just who he is. Which will cause Daryl to tell him to shut up.

If Mearl is dead at this time he would probably meet you at Alexandria or our hunting. Either way I don't think Daryl would even look at your body in that way. He will ask who you were and then so forth.

During your time dating he would notice things. Daryl is very observant so he would notice things like how you would avoid being physically close with him. Not that my man is very physical in that aspect but he notices.

He wouldn't ask questions until one night he does. Making sure you both were alone during this time. This would be the night when you open up to him about being trans. He would be accepting of course he wouldn't be the type to judge. Just would ask a few questions cause he hadn't been around Trans people before. He would just want a better understanding so he wouldn't do anything wrong.

Many people in the town knew of course. So sometimes there would be some people who would find our and be homophobic. Daryl would be by your side instantly and even though you could take care of yourself perfectly fine. He would be the one to throw a punch if the person said something bad and didn't know personal space.

Daryl would not initiate anything so you would have to be the one to do so. If you were wanting sex you would have to tell him that it was okay to touch you and so forth. Of course when you gave him the green light he wasn't so hesitant any longer.

He would be so in love with you and he may not be super good with words. Daryl showed his love in other ways. Acts of service and gift giving was big for him. He would give you a good portion of food before getting himself any. Sometimes you would split some of your food cause he always gave himself so little and you so much. Then when you both were away from each other you both would come back with small gifts for the other.

For physical touch he would hold your hand. Kissing in private just sticking to hand holding in public. However sometimes during small gatherings you would kiss his cheek and his ears and cheeks would turn the faintest tinge of pink. Which causes Caryl to tease him and for him to roll his eyes and mumble.

Some people would question why you were with him. They didn't see what you seen in Daryl so you would be quick to defend him. They didn't need to understand or feel the way you felt about him. Its not their job to. They just needed to accept the fact that you are with him and they will be seeing the both of you two together.

Some also didn't understand why he was with you and he wouldn't get into a big argument or a big speech. Would usually just tell them to shut the hell up and walk off. Or when they would pester him he would say that he's in love with you and if they couldn't accept that then to stay out of your guy's way.

When Daryl would compliment you. He would not make many comments on your body. He would just say that you were handsome or say your eyes were pretty. However when he did compliment your body he would more so just look you over and say that you were so handsome.

In fact if you didn't have top surgery and you binded your chest. He would always remind you to take it off when you needed too. If you were hunting together he would stop everything he was doing and make you take if off right there while he turned around. Or if you were with people he would either give you a look or tap your back and you would excuse yourself and put on one of his hoodies that he had but never wore.

When you needed more bandages or wraps for your chest he would always be on the look out for more on his trips. This is the apocalypses of course these things wouldn't just be easy access so sometimes you wouldn't be able too. But As soon as Daryl came back with bandages and wraps he would give the extra to you.

On the days you were having a very bad self image day he would wrap his arms around you and pull you into a hug. Its a very firm hug. Then when the both of you would pull away he would take you hunting. Even letting you use his cross bow just to distract you. Let me tell you that he never lets anyone use that thing. Then after he would take you on a motorcycle ride.

All in all Daryl is such a good partner and you are a good one for him too. 10/10

[autism-freaks]

I got my top surgery over 2.5.yrs ago and I wanted to share some tips for pre- and post-op care! I got a double mastectomy with free nipple grafts and I'm loving my results.

Pre-Op:

-If you smoke or vape, try to quit for as long as possible before your surgery date, ideally at least a couple months. Don't use nicotine while healing either. Nicotine constricts your blood vessels and this can impede healing. If you're getting nipple grafts like me, it can be the difference between the grafts healing successfully or falling off.

-for the love of all that is holy, FOLLOW YOUR SURGEONS EATING RESRTICTIONS BEFORE SURGERY. Anesthesia can cause you to regurgitate and aspirate, which can lead to pneumonia and be deadly. This is MUCH more likely if you eat food too soon before going under. If you get bad stomach issues like reflux, ask for anti-nausea meds to be given IV before you wake up. I almost aspirated right as I woke up even though I didn't eat beforehand bc of my acid reflux.

-You may want to make a lot of things more easily accessible to prepare for recovery. You'll want to be able to reach things like cups, bowls, silverware, medications, toiletries, clothing, etc easy to reach without having to reach above your shoulders.

-if you can, prep some comfort meals that are easy to reheat in the microwave or oven. This is especially helpful if you plan on being mostly self-sufficient during recovery.

-get plenty of loose-fitting button up shirts. They are by far the easiest thing to put on after top surgery.

Post-Op:

-if you want less visible scars, I HIGHLY recommend using silicone scar tape or silicone scar gel once your surgeon says it's ok. The tape is generally cheaper, reusable and washable by hand with soap and warm water. Two rolls lasted me my whole recovery and my scars are now barely visible. The gel is easier to apply and more sensory friendly, but more expensive. You can get both online.

-your chest will be swollen for up to a few weeks after surgery. This swelling may be assymetrical at first (mine was). Try to be patient and not pass any judgements on the quality of your results during this time. You can always get a revision after 6 months if you're still not happy with it, but don't freak out right away as things will take time to settle.

-your brain is adjusting to a major, sudden change to your body. It's okay if you feel some mixed emotions while you process this. Try to journal or talk about it with someone you trust. I know my brain does not cope well with change and while I never once regretted my surgery, it took a little bit of time to get used to my body looking different even if it's the way I wanted to look.

-make sure you empty your drains on time if you have them and keep your compression vest on. This will help you heal as best you can and reduce swelling.

-don't use heat or ice! Ice will restrict blood flow to areas that need blood flow to heal and heat can amplify swelling and inflammation.

-touch your chest along the length of your scars as much as you tolerably can. You will most likely have nerve damage from surgery and touching/massaging gently will help your nerves know how to re-grow and process sensation properly. I have pretty much full sensation in the center of my chest where I touch very often while the ends of my scars under my armpits (where I don't touch often) still have reduced sensation.

- Gently massaging your scars with two fingers once the scabs are healed can also help prevent knots and bumps in the scar tissue. Don't cause yourself pain, only do it if it's tolerable.

-FOLLOW ALL YOUR SURGEONS INSTRUCTIONS!! If they tell you to do something or not do other things, there is a good reason.

I'm also happy to answer asks and messages about my experience with getting top surgery! Take your time in deciding if this is right for you and know I love you all either way <3

[sturniololuv08]

The Fill In

"I'm sorry." She spoke as I stared at her. She was wearing a pale yellow crop top shirt and some jean shorts. She looked kind of like a hippie today. Her hair was braided into pigtails.

"It's okay." I smiled looking into her brown eyes. I was still surprised they weren't green like I imagined so many times.

"Can I get past you?" She looked confused about why I wasn't moving out of her way.

"Yeah, sorry." I smiled on the outside but judged myself for not acting normal in front of her. I stepped out of her way and walked over to my usual spot. I sat down and pulled out my phone to scroll. She ordered her usual drink and set up her laptop in her usual spot. Although excited to see her today, I couldn't stop wondering why she was here early. Was it fate that we were here at the same time? She clearly didn't recognize me from the party. I wasn't sure if that was a good or bad thing though. It put me in the same position I've been in with her for a few months now, strangers. But it also meant she didn't know me as the guy who had to run off to stop their brother from fighting someone and that was good.

"Hey." I looked up and watched the same blonde girl as last time walk right up to her. They started chatting again. I guess it was fair to assume she was early because of her friend. My phone started blasting Softcore by The Neighbourhood. Everyone's attention flicked to me as my shaky hand tried to answer the phone. Both she and her friend were watching me struggle.

"What?" I asked snappy. My hands were sweaty from the anxiety and embarrassment I was feeling in the pit of my stomach.

"Where are you?" Chris asked irritated back.

"I needed some air. Went for a walk." I stood up knowing his call meant it was already time for me to go back.

"Nick is awake." I looked at the phone screen to see the time. One hour had passed by. That didn't seem like a long time for surgery. I hope that means everything was fine. I could feel her staring at me as I walked through the door onto the sidewalk.

"I'm on my way." I hung up and looked for the path I needed to take to get back to the hospital. As I walked down the street I couldn't help but feel like I was being watched. I made it back fine. Once inside I asked the front desk assistant for directions to the right room.

"There he is." Chris was energetic and smiley when I walked in. A complete flip from his previous nature towards me over the phone.

"How are you feeling?" I ignored Chris being fake and walked straight to Nick.

"Fine."

"Why didn't you say anything?" I looked at his torso which was wrapped up.

"It wasn't that bad, honestly. I was in the kitchen waiting for Polly and then I just couldn't stand anymore." He looked grey and tired.

"I'm glad you are okay," I whispered getting choked up.

"Elmer said since Nick is out of commission you are to take his spot." Chris was being insensitive to our brother's health.

"Can we not fu -" I started.

"It's okay." Nick grabbed my shoulder to calm me down. He sat up more, wincing the whole time. "Is Elmer mad?" Nick didn't seem to care about his health either.

"No, he isn't mad. Frustrated but not mad. He is glad you are good. He offered for you to be put up at his place so he can watch out for you while you are out."

"I don't -"

"I already told him you wouldn't go for that."

"Thanks." Nick's nurse came into the room very peppy.

"Okay, Nick." She read the chart. "We have great news. The surgery went well. The aorta isn't leaking anywhere so recovery should be as little as six weeks. You will want to avoid strenuous activities and don't exercise too much."

"Don't have to worry about that." Nick shook his head back and forth. Chris chuckled at his humor. The nurse joined in and then I too cracked a smile. Nick was definitely okay.

"That's the humor we like to see." The nurse read some more off of a paper with a smile on her face. "We are keeping you overnight tonight but tomorrow afternoon after some testing you should be good to go. As long as the aorta isn't leaking tomorrow."

"And if it is?" I asked. I felt like Chris didn't care enough to ask.

"We'll go in and repair the leak."

"Then he comes home?" Chris asked.

"This type of injury is a day-by-day healing process. If at any point your sutures leak we will have to go in and repair it. Should that happen you'll have to stay for monitoring and do more imaging to check for possible leaks."

"That makes sense." Nick nodded. He seemed to be processing everything she just said.

"I am going to order your morning tests now and the doctor might stop in to see you in a few hours. For now, let us know if you need anything. This is your call light." She moved a little remote on the bed. "The cafeteria closes at nine tonight." She looked between Chris and I. "Are you guys related?" She asked.

"Yes, we are triplets." She looked at Nick and then at us again.

"I bet your mother had fun with you guys growing up." She signed something in his chart and stuck it on the wall.

"You have no idea." Chris faked a chuckle. I could also tell when he didn't mean something. He didn't have any specific tells but if you knew him well enough you could tell when he wasn't being genuine. Chris' phone started vibrating.

"Give me a minute." He stepped out of the room.

"Chris is under a lot of pressure and stress. Take it easy on him." Nick reasoned for our brother.

"What do I have to do? I can't do another drop. Nick, I can't do this." I felt my fight or flight senses kicking in.

"Sure you can. All you have to do is stand quiet in the background and let everyone else do everything."

"Nick, I'm not you. I can-"

"There won't be any new drops while I'm healing. We just did one so Elmer is going to want to lay low since it went sideways." That made sense. Sometimes I hated that I wasn't more like my brothers especially when it came to this kind of stuff. Chris was the first one to get involved fully. He got Nick on board somehow and then I just went along with the two of them because that's what I do. I always just followed them and then I ended up in these predicaments.

"Okay. I'll do it." I nodded. He took a bullet for me. The least I could do was fill in while he was resting. Although at this very moment, I was wishing I was the one that got shot.

[cyrdling]

Dating Caspian the Merman (OC)

a/n: first time writing for one of my oc's. i hope you guys like it. kinda got a little too deep into writing about the biology of mermaids, sorry lol

caspian isn't a prince or really all that important in his city. of course, he is important to some of the people there, but he doesn't have a whole lot of things to really do.

you'd meet him when you go down to the rocky shores at night to think. coincidentally, he's also there- kind of bored, of course, but he's looking up at the moon as he wishes he could speak to humans without being in danger of getting harpooned.

this is the only real reason he goes there at night instead of the day- he loves the sun, but he knows that people are not as kind as they seem.

either way, you go to the shore and see him as he's laying on a large, flat rock. once you see him, you HAVE to reassure him that you're not gonna hunt him or tell anyone about him or else he'll be terrified. once calm though, he's pretty sweet.

he's got silver-white hair, long, slender fingers, soft blue eyes, and ears that are slightly pointed. he's also got very pale, almost to the point of being kind of blue, skin. on certain spots (where skin would usually be rough, like elbows) he's got pastelly blue scales that become more frequent as you look down at his hips, then his legs (or, really, the lack of legs. he's got a fish tail.) his hair is kinda brittle since he's in the ocean, but it's soft considering his situation. his nails are a little unnaturally sharp, but they seem to be dulled by how he uses them to move around on land (aka: the rocks act as makeshift nail files) and he's got a long scar across his stomach (it looks as though it quite literally tore through him) and he's got top surgery scars that are a lot paler pink, but are still visible.

on his body, he's got a few tattoos, as well- in my mind, mermaids use tattoos to signify which kingdom and family they're from- kingdom on the left wrist, and family on the right. wrists are very vulnerable, so showing the family and kingdom tattoos is customary before doing practically anything else, such as fighting for one's honor or whatever. caspian hasn't gotten a real job yet, so he hasn't gotten a tattoo for that- although his father is a successful coral and kelp farmer. job tattoos go on the sternum, as close to the heart as possible- caspian has a few ideas for his though. he's very good at the spear, so maybe he'd be a warrior or hunter of some kind.

according to mythology, mermaids and mermen were made by an angered witch who combined a village with fish to make them fish people. this means they have both lungs (above water breathing) and gills (underwater breathing). i don't really know how this works so just imagine its some like, second lung situation or whatever idk.

mermaids and mermen have different metabolisms to humans- they gain and lose weight very easily, and this can depend on the temperature of the water, how stressed they are, or what they eat.

his society is also highly matriarchal, as well- when he transitioned, his mother genuinely hated him since she thought he was betraying him. his father, though, understood after a while. shortly after their final argument, caspian's mother was harpooned by a human, and died in the cradle of the waves. this society believes burials at sea are honorable, so they did the ceremony without a body.

in order to like, date you, i don't think caspian would pull an ariel and get legs. he'd actually find a way to help you breathe underwater (like through a spell or something) so you can go into the ocean with him. he's very considerate!

overall 10/10 but i think he wouldnt know that seawater hurts your lungs the first time he'd drag you under, so he'd feel VERY VERY bad

thank you for reading! PLEASE tell me if you guys like it, teehee

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[lifblogs]

Better Late Than Dead

Fandom: The Bad Batch Rating: Teen and Up Audiences Pairing: Tech/Phee Word Count: 1268 Summary: Tech arrives on Pabu for the first time since he was rescued from Dr. Hemlock, and put his mind back together (mostly). A special someone is there waiting for him. AUTHOR'S NOTE: Disclaimer, I have PCS (Post-Concussion Syndrome) so this story could be a mess, it could be great. I don't know, but I tried, and I had fun. First story I've written since I hit my head. I am sooooo nervous about it for some reason. This fandom seems like nothing but kind, though. If you read it, thank you. READ ON AO3

Tech paused getting off the ramp. Once he stepped off onto Pabu he would no longer just be on the Marauder with his family. He would exist in a public space, with people who… might not understand, who would see him differently. He was different.

There were some stares from the crowd, but he couldn’t track all of them, faces blurring and disappearing as he watched. But maybe those eyes were still on him.

Subconsciously, he touched the back of his head, feeling the metal plate there that replaced part of his skull, felt the lines where his scalp had split, where either through injury or one of his many surgeries his brain had been exposed. His new and enhanced left eye (replacing the gouged one from Plan 99) searched the space before him frantically, but he tried to take in what the right saw first: bright, blue skies with white, puffy clouds; a calm ocean for kilometers on end; happy people in colorful clothing—survivors, every one of them. How could such a place exist when he’d been through such horrors in Hemlock’s dark labs? Now it was like this beautiful place only half-existed.

The beauty was what his right eye saw. The left one… He hadn’t had a chance to reprogram it yet. Most of what he saw through it was a dizzying array of heat signatures, structural integrities, and the best places to shoot a target. According to his eye, everyone was a target. This was all superimposed over his regular vision from his right eye. The confusing signals to his brain usually left him with the feeling as if his eyes were being scooped out (half a phantom pain and reminiscent of his real horrors), and it would throb up into his head. With the metal plate added in, he had more headaches than he could manage on most days.

Still feeling anxiety churning in his gut; cold, clammy fear gripping the back of his neck and stripping him bare, he held up his new datapad. Tech decided to do a quick check of his metabolic system, and the absorption levels of his various injected pain meds, and their half-lives. This was done through a chip implanted at the base of his skull. Unfortunately that had required an extra surgery, seeing as that hadn’t fit in the area where he’d needed his skull repaired.

His datapad beeped quietly, and a yellow bar showed up near the top. He’d need to re-inject his left hip soon.

Tech glanced up, the real galaxy around him becoming too real. Coming towards the ramp with a hesitant smile and shining eyes was Phee.

His heart suddenly seemed too big, blood somehow beating hard all across his torso, even as it crawled up his throat. Phee. He really had thought of her, even remembered one instance of Hemlock torturing him for mentioning her name. He shuddered, his mechanical left leg shifting in a way that seemed too obvious and inhuman to him.

Tech wasn’t the same.

Am I even Tech?

No, no. You’ve… you’ve been over this already. Done the work. I. Am. Tech.

And he had thought about Phee in what he had thought would be his last moments. He’d surprisingly had the time to think about a lot of people.

He’d thought about his last-minute realization, and he’d mourned what could have been. And now… there she was. Here he was. Pabu. Safety. Phee.

Tech took a deep breath, tried to swallow back his fear, and stepped down the ramp, all too aware of how he looked now. Feeling clumsy with this changed body, he struggled to put his datapad back on his belt. One last thing to put between this moment and the next, the inevitable.

Phee met him at the bottom of the ramp, letting him step off. For a moment the voices around them dimmed, but neither of them spoke.

Oh no, she’s horrified. She’s disgusted. She’s—

“You look different.”

Blunt, as always.

“Oh.”

“I think I like it.”

“You… do?” Tech asked, caught off guard as he usually was with her. (How could anyone script conversations with a flirtatious, bold pirate?)

She shrugged. Was she… crying?

Some of his vision blurred. His eye malfunctioning? No. His right one. He was crying.

Hesitantly, she touched his shoulder. Tech jumped a little, but let her warm, assuring touch stay there. He wondered what that hand felt like—strong, calloused.

“It’s you, isn’t it?”

Was this him? All these differences, and injuries, and modifications?

Well, he was still Tech, so he supposed that made the plate in his skull him, the chip, the cybernetic leg, and eye. Still… Tech. Just different. A new Tech.

“I suppose.” He was surprised to hear himself speak.

“Then of course I like it! But I have a bone to pick with you.”

Tech almost backed away, startled, as her finger prodded against his chest.

What bone?

What—Oh!

“Seven months?!” she went on, voice raised and rough. “I don’t see you for seven months?! And all I could get out of Mr. Face Tattoo was that you were ‘indisposed.’”

“Sorry I’m… late,” he got out, as if that somehow summed up everything that had changed his life, that had even affected hers.

That’s when a sob left Phee, and her tears spilled, and she cupped Tech’s scarred face in her hand. It was calloused, just like he’d thought it’d be. Something about her touch was reassuring and invigorating all at once.

And it was kind.

Tech hadn’t realized how much he’d needed someone outside his family to support him until that moment. It left him weak in his right knee, and he might have trembled.

Phee sobbed again, and then got out with a smile bright enough to rival the stars, “But still—better late than dead, I always say.”

Tech held her hand against his face for a second, marveling at the feeling, her words. Then he wasn’t sure who pulled who into an embrace, but suddenly she was flush against him, her heart beating fast, chest moving with her sobs, a wild scent of ocean salt, island fruit, and some kind of warm spice surrounding him. With his chin tucked against her shoulder, and her head resting against his he learned her hair was a softness he’d never felt before.

“Though of course you had to lose one brown eye on me,” she joked. He was surprised when it didn’t hurt, not from her.

“I’ll try not to lose the other one.”

“You’d better. What am I supposed to call you now? ‘Brown Eye’ doesn’t sound romantic.”

“We could… make it romantic,” he ventured, voice a soft murmur against her.

Phee laughed, and pulled back, patting his cheek. “Honey, I’m not sure you know what romance is.”

For the first time since Plan 99, months and months ago, Tech laughed—something he’d thought he would never be capable of again. And, he thought, maybe he’d like to do it again. With Phee.

“I’m smart,” he assured her, watching as she wiped away her tears, wishing he could do it for her. He went on, surprising himself, “I’m sure I can learn.”

Phee took his hand in hers, and Tech was startled by how much he enjoyed that her hand was smaller than his.

“Well, come on then,” she said, starting to drag him along, towards society as a whole new person. “You’re gonna have a lot of studying to do.”

Tech smiled, somehow, as he followed her, leaving just a little bit of that dark lab behind him.

[fizzy-blood]

LJ x TransMasc!Reader headcanons (SFW)

Requested by one of my friends on Discord!

So this is the first time I've posted this kind of stuff since like... 2019? So I might be a bit rusty... Enjoy!

(trans specific headcanons)

So to start off nice and simple I'm just gonna say this very quickly, when you first tell him that you're trans he doesn't understand wtf that means at first

Don't worry though! He figures it out eventually and is completely fine with it

I feel like he would be super happy to have to feel comfortable enough to tell him that (even if you are already dating)

He'd probably be really nice to you about it too

If you had top surgery I have a feeling that he'd like to trace his fingers around the scares

If not? No problem! He'll rest his arms around your chest and hold you tight enough to some what flatten them if you got dysphoric (bro became a chest binder frfr)

Speaking of dysphoria! If you ever felt bad about yourself or anything along the lines of "what if I'm faking it though/I'm never going to be a man) he'd try his best to comfort you, handing you sweets, hugging you, maybe giving you a kiss or two

This man is actually really good at comforting people for two main reasons

One, he was pretty much always around kids before the whole killer clown thing, so he knows how to calm people down really easily, this also gives him a high tolerance for things like crying

And two, this man is really tall (I'm talking like 7ft) and has super long arms which makes him great for hugs, he'll hold you in his arms as you rant to him, listening to every word you say, doing his best you make you calm down

The point is that this guy doesn't really get bothered by how you identify, he appreciates you either way and wont judge you for any of it

(non trans specific headcanons)

I feel like he'd love to leave you like treats and snacks around your room when you're not looking

Just tell him what kinds of sweets you like and wait, you see a small bag of them waiting for you on your bed

I also feel like Jack would just randomly pick you up and take you places, doesn't matter if you're doing something or talking to someone, you're coming with him

Along with the snacks that get left in your room, you'll probably find a couple drawings he made of you and him

They aren't anything too amazing and they kind of look like that of a five year old's but its still sweet either way

Since this Jack is 7ft tall he's obviously a lot larger than you are

Because of this he'll let you sit in his lap or lay on top of him and let you fall asleep on him

This man also *loves* to give you affection in public

He just likes being able to show others that you love him (even if he kills people lmao)

So if you hold his hand in front of others or give him a small kiss on the cheek he'll be over them moon

That's all for now, hope you enjoyed! -Fizz

[catbountry]

Why is transmedicalism bad? I thought it meant one believing things like people need gender dysphoria to be trans and that hormones shouldn't be handed out like candy. It might mean something else now. I stopped paying attention to that kind of discourse but it seemed to be acknowledging that people are trans because of biological and scientific realities. That lines up with evidence.

The main problem with it is that it pathologizes transness in a way where it's framed as a mental disorder, which even when done with good intentions, it winds up being weaponized against trans people and is "proof" that they're crazy because they are trans, and not that this is a medical procedure used to alleviate mental problems caused by gender dysphoria. Another problem is that it's actually not that easy for most people to get hormones. There's not very many places where they're "handed out like candy;" it's in fact far more common that they have to jump through multiple hoops just to get HRT at all. On top of all that, the percentage of trans people that detransition because it's not right for them it something like 0.2% of trans people, and even then, there are other reasons people might have for detransitioning aside from "whoops, I realized this isn't right for me, oh well." Estrogen in particular is pretty easily reversed in the case of someone deciding to detransition. Testosterone is rougher, but most of its effects can be reversed.

I do think that there definitely is some kind of biological reason for transness, but I'm not sure if we actually know what it is. I'm pretty sure the study on "male brains" versus "female brains" isn't that reliable, but there might be something to being bombarded with cross-sex hormones in utero? But, much like homosexuality, where there might be some kind of biological and scientific explanation for why it exists... I don't think these things should have to be proven to be "real" by science for people to just respect other people's experiences, because ultimately, it comes down to this:

Is this person harming anyone by expressing their gender identity the way they want to? Does a nonbinary trans identity actually harm binary trans people? I would argue "no."

I recently came out as nonbinary. I have zero desire for HRT; it's not necessary for me because my gender is more about my feelings, my presentation, my ability to express myself safely. There are trans people who do not seek HRT or surgeries, or trans people whose gender expressions don't 100% align masculine or feminine; something that many doctors require before treatments like HRT. There are some who feel like they need it. Transmedicalism often narrows the possible range of those expressions to strictly binary transgender identities; FtM or MtF. It doesn't account for nonbinary identities, which don't fall neatly into either category. I used to not believe in the validity of nonbinary gender identities... and then my best friend came out as nonbinary. Then other people I knew started identifying as nonbinary. And I realized that my thoughts of "why are people describing really normal feelings of just not fitting neatly into a particular gender presentation as nonbinary, I do that all the time and I'm cis!" before I had a realization that people's experiences with being nonbinary pretty accurately described my own relationship to my gender. Transmedicalism doesn't really allow for these squishier identities to really exist, and is often used as a way to gatekeep transness by saying that it can only exist in this very specific context.

I think the broader point, though, is that it's not really anybody's fucking business how you express your gender. I've had to condition myself to accept "it" personal pronouns after having previously been uncomfortable with them. I'm still probably going to have trouble with neopronouns and will take to any more normie options for the sake of making communication easier if those options are available. The only real benefit I can see from transmedicalist thought is that it could make insurance coverage easier, but the flipside is that you're not allowed to buy a gun because you've been deemed mentally ill because you're trans. It's still weird for me to acknowledge that I myself now fall under the "trans umbrella" due to identifying as nonbinary, and it mostly feels off because I don't experience any gender dysphoria in regards to my body and I'm not transitioning to anything; it's just business as usual with a different label. Gender is a thing we made up that's formed by social and cultural expectations. We made it up. Biological sex is real, but the existence of intersex people makes it not that cut-and-dry as we were taught in biology class.

I would like to think that a lot of people buy into transmedicalism for reasons that might be seen as noble, such as insurance coverage or access of care, but in practice, it's very restrictive. We're already seeing the rising rates of transgender youth start to plateau, much the same way that left-handedness did once we stopped trying to convert left-handed people into righties. Transmedicalism just wants to sort people into "real" and "fake" trans, and honestly? I no longer think it's that simple. It's reductive and also it's not really that important when transphobes see both binary and nonbinary trans people as the same; perverted freaks who should be lined up against the wall and shot.

And I don't know about you, but I think the trans community has bigger issues to be concerned about than useless bickering about who's the most legitimate trans person. You know. Because of the whole lining up against the wall attitude.

[your-queer-dad]

hey dad i did an ask once before though idk if it was answered i cant tell but i came out to my parents and siblings almost six months ago now my dad is very ignorant doesnt care but still supports when he does remember. my mom is a bit complicated. i am pretty young for an enby, and she feels like i may not know for certain whilst i may be agender or nonbinary i am definitely not a girl or boy and definitely prefer my preferred name and they/them pronouns my mom isn't straight idk what she is my parents dont have a good relationship but i think they try to support me she says she will continue to deadname me cause shes worried she'll use it in front of my grandparents who are super bigoted i am not out to ym grandparents on either side and she has said she'll try to be better with pronouns but we'll see on that my siblings are all super supportive and i plan on asking them to start using my preferred name i also fogured out one of my siblings are gay and one is bi which im glad im not the only one though im the only non cis person which does make me feel a little odd or abnormal recently my dysphoria has been getting horrid used to just have chest dysphoria but not i feel like im getting bottom dysphoria I've talked to my mom about it originally she said i couldn't get a binder till om 18!? after a bit of an argument with mom me and my sister it was eventually moved to not allowed till 15 i have to wait 2 whole years i also am not allowed to change my preffered name on stuff like library cards until ive been out for 12 months so only around 6-7 months but still pretty annoying like she thinks its a phase or something she grew up with extremely bigoted parents so i cant completely be mad i recently told my cousin though shes got a bad influence from school and tends to spill secrets shes also pretty close with my nana who is in fact queerphobic i really regretted it right after idk if shes told anyone yet but im really worried she will im worried by the time im 18 i wont be able to get top surgery or bottom surgery due to the current political stance i also am intrigued by furry like things such as wearing cat ears and a tail but feel super self conscious i dont have ny own room to wear such things i also dont have my own credit card to buy these things without anyone knowing and im super nervous i want to explore things like cat ears and tail but i dont have a private space to wear them my family is unemployed my dad has stopped trying to get a job i dont have anyway to get money for what i want my family isnt well off im super sorry for such a long vent i just really am confused right now and my situation is very complicated

-a little enby buddy (they/them ei/eim it/its)

Hey kiddo! It's okay, please don't apologise for the long rant. That sounds like a really complicated situation and I'm so sorry you're having to deal with all of that. I'm glad your siblings and mom are supportive, even if they aren't great and I'm always here to listen no matter what 🫂🫂

- dad x

[kuriboo]

Hey i hope you don't mind or find this weird/rude. I just wanted to reach out here because i saw you have this blog linked on another account and i also saw you was the one running that ygo server promo'd in tags awhile back? ( a year or so ago. ) i wanted to check in with you if you're doing well? I know you are probably busy with IRL stuff so please don't feel you have to reply to this at all. before realizing i think i know you from somewhere else i wanted to ask if the server still active and chill? i'm shy in big groups so i wanted to check before considering. I hope you had a wonderful christmas/holiday!

i'll be honest anon i have not been doing so hot.

which is why, i'm not entirely sure what other blog you found this blog on (which is totally fine!) (i have an inkling it might be my rp account but i may be wrong), but there is a good chance i have been dead silent there for months.

to put it mildly, i've been overwhelmed with life. i keep having house issues, there are so many health issues going on between myself and family (i may be looking at gallbladder surgery in the near future, and if not that, i need wisdom teeth removed and i have to find a surgeon that takes my insurance for that still. and that's just me.), house issues, car issues, and work. i love my job. i feel fulfilled at my job. my job is genuinely fun sometimes. however things keep happening (client actions) that genuinely fuck with me. like the guy who keeps getting drunk and harassing my coworkers [but not me? but that puts me in a VERY awkaward situation being hte only staff he'll talk to.]

the amount of stress this has put on me is LARGE. which is why i've basically been silent everywhere besides this account (kuriboo) and the yugioh server. and the yugioh server, i love the people that are there greatly, but if i was not running that server my anxiety might keep me from being active there too.

holiday's been good, though! i took about a week and a half off bc i had pto to use up before losing it at the end of the year (i did work a couple hours on christmas but it was the kind of work that renewed my faith in humanity and gave me christmas cheer), i'm out at my brother's place for a couple more days, i've been spending time with family and things have overall been good this past week and a half, house issues be damned.

all of this to say, i'm positive the account you came to kuriboo from has been basically ghosted by me and i feel so bad and i'm very sorry. i've been so overwhelmed that my anxiety won't let me do a lot of things.

The yugioh server is still active! Honestly, more active than ever. Which is crazy to me, haha. It's chill most of the time. I host poll tournaments on there (we're currently running a yugioh villain tournament) and sometimes we get a little over the top about the proproganda of who we want to sway votes towards (i think a powerpoint presentation is being created) (the last match [pegasus vs spectre] devolved into bribes and ended as a draw anyway), but that's like, not the usual vibe.

most everyone currently active is very nice and chill though from what i've witnessed. lots of writers in the server, and we have an rp section in the server that's fairly active but extremely casual [currently there is a huge rp thread going on named simple rescue. it's not nearly as simple as the name implies.] i do rp in this server, and we all encourage each other with writing projects and do sprints together and stuff. that's not to say there's no artists. we've gotten more artists recently! and i love seeing everyone's art <3 it's a fun creative place and this server is the only reason i've done any writing in the past six months or so honestly.

but i mean like, you don't gotta be a writer or an artist or an rper to join either. it's perfectly fine not to. genuinely, i think it's a cool place to see some art and fics. or just talk about your favorite yugioh series, or to get into some yugioh analysis or whatever. there's a whole squad of us watching go rush (not simultaneously) and we just talk about how much of a roller coaster it is.

it's a good vibe for me, and i hope it's a good vibe for everyone else!

if you wanna join we'd be happy to have you!

[setokaibasblimp]

seto kaiba nsfw hcs for anon!

as i said before, i don't think about this often because during canon he's too young and i'm not always in post canon mode, but i got an ask about it so i made an effort! also just as a heads up i'll be going with my trans hc for this, because... it's my blog :)

warning for nsfw under the cut!

• he's a power bottom, i know it. i can feel it. will ride dick like he'd ride a horse, and i mean that regardless of who he's sleeping with and what they have between their legs, through the power of the strap on all things are possible

• has a dragon dildo for every dragon in his deck except for the bewd. he knows there must be a blue eyes white dildo somewhere in the world, but he simply respects the bewd too much for that. the other dragons are fair game though

• alternatively, he tops using a futuristic techno dick he created himself, the ultimate bottom surgery. he's the guy that made a simulation that allows you to feel stuff like in the real world, a fully functional dick hologram would be easy

• is into the weirdest shit, bonus points if he genuinely can't understand normal sex and/or finds it repulsive. the type that would respectfully ask if his partner would consent to pissing themself or getting fucked in their sleep, but draws the line at idk, giving handjobs

• this is partially why i can see him having a string of relationships that didn't work out, it's simply hard to find someone he'd be sexually compatible with. other reasons include him being the most avoidant socially inept guy in the planet, and most of the people that show interest in him doing so as either part of a ploy to steal kaibacorp or a creepy plan to detransition him. keeping the celebrity gossip at bay would be a nightmare

• oscilates between being The mean dom, and being surprisingly sweet and caring, depending on how bad of a day he had. he already has to spend a lot of time asserting himself in his day to day life, i imagine he wouldn't allways have the energy to do the same in the bedroom

• pet play enthusiast looking for a dog sub. ironically enough, the loser dog thing with jounouchi wasn't sexual for him at the time, he was just coping with trauma by being an asshole. literal years later he connects the dots and goes

at the realization that he may have sounded like a perv, and that he can't even defend himself because he is, in fact, a perv

[apricotbuncakes]

(866) 488-7386

This is the Trevor Project Crisis/Suicide Intervention number.

I talked to someone tonight and she was so fucking awesome. She helped pull me out of my spiral, talked me down from my darker thoughts, gave me encouragement, and told me I was doing awesome for being brave and sharing how I was feeling. It was such a weight off my chest to hear someone else tell me I wasn't allowed to commit suicide (yes, I did ask if she could tell me that, yes she did awesome, and yes I am feeling so much better and am much safer because I called).

This number and others have high traffic because of the election season and the fear surrounding that, but don't let that discourage you from calling if you need to. I was scared to call too, and I tried every other coping mechanism I could think of, but hearing another person walk me through things helped so much better.

Call this number and get help if you need it. And yes, if you're asking "do I really need help?" Or "other people probably have it worse than me" you probably need it more than you realize. At least, that was my experience.

(More info on my experience below the cut)

I have this really weird relationship with suicidality. Like, the last time it was this bad was when I was in middle school. I ended up in a mental hospital because of it, and was relatively okay after I got all the feelings and stuff out of the way. I wasn't even in there a full week. I hated it there, but I know that if things get like that again, where a mental hospital feels safer than being at home, that it's serious. If I'm willing to go to a place like that to keep myself alive, I need help. It's a last minute metric, but it's a metric that's kept me alive so I'll fucking take it.

I actually made a promise to myself then that I wasn't allowed to try and kill myself, and every time it's gotten even remotely close to being this intense I've always told someone. Tonight it's late though, I was running low on sleep, hadn't eaten cause of nausea, and everyone who I wanted to talk to to distract me was either asleep or also on the verge of spiraling, and I didn't want to stress them out more.

So I went to the bathroom, I looked myself in the mirror and repeated "I'm not allowed to kill myself" over and over. It worked for a while. I more or less intimidated myself out of suicide for all of 20 minutes (every minute counts and I'm very proud of that). But it all spiraled again. So I got a notebook, a pencil, and I hit 'call' after dialing the Trevor number. I knew they had high call volumes so I made sure to use the notebook and pencil for something productive (productive as in 'keeping me alive'). I made a list (several pages long) of all the reasons, big and small, for me to keep living. I included selfless and selfish goals. I included the little things like wanting sushi or strawberries again. I included expensive things like going ice skating or traveling to Mexico. I included the personal goals like updating all my IDs to have the same name + gender marker, and getting top surgery. I included that I wanted to help other trans people get to safer places and that I wanted to finish college with a degree.

I have so many hopes and dreams and I'm not allowed to let them die with me. I'm not allowed to die.

And I told all of this to the wonderful woman who picked up tonight. And she walked me through everything, told me that I was okay, that we were all going to get through this together. She helped me, and I gave her the resources I had to look into safer states for everyone. She joked that I was doing her job and we laughed about it. I even told her that she could call or text my number if she needed something (outside of the call back/check up that we scheduled to make sure I was still doing okay). I told her I'd be happy to give her resources. I'm not sure if she's allowed to text or call me as an individual, but I did give her permission to if she happens to be allowed to.

I feel so much better, and the nausea has subsided. I'm going to get some food, lay on the couch, and watch something fun and lighthearted. Because it's been a rough night, and I need something fun. I deserve something fun.

[momochizoey]

Thank you for tagging me @celinou !!

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 

I've got 12 on my AO3! 9 ATLA/TLOK fics, and 3 Wednesday fics.

2. What's your total AO3 word count? 

46,759 words in total! Most of it is one shots so that tracks tbh, though I'm actually pretty impressed with how much that actually is, especially cause it doesn't count how much I've written for WIPs.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? 

#1) Scrapped Scenes, a Wenclair fic, at 1,632 kudos (which is frankly insane, I hadn't realized it got that much)

#2) Crying Wolf, another Wenclair fic, at 759 kudos

#3) And Iphigenia Felt Rage, a Yuezula fic, at 225 kudos

#4) The Future Looks Brighter Together, a Sokkla fic, at 163 kudos

And at #5) Yours In Body And Soul, another Sokkla fic, at 154 kudos

I'm not surprised the two Wenclair fics are on top by such a wide margin, I wrote those when the show had only just come out so the fandom was at its peak. Very glad that many people liked what I wrote though! Since most of the other fandoms I've written for (on ao3 or here) are a lot less active, it was a new experience!

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? 

I usually do, but I do have to admit I've been struggling a bit with it recently 😅. I read them all, and I'm so grateful for them, but especially on fics that I had huge plans for still, and which are in no way close to progressing, I have this feeling like I should have a new chapter to offer when I do answer them. I'm blaming it on my social anxiety 😬

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Ooh, that's a hard one cause I definitely tend to go in a more fluffy, feel-good direction. But I'd have to say it's Keep Your Fire On A Leash (Let The Ashes Bring You Peace). It's a June/Azula oneshot, mainly focused on Azula dealing with the pyromania she developed in captivity (as a need to reclaim complete control over at least this aspect of her life). She tries to manage it a little by working in pottery, where continuous, constant temperature control is crucial to porcelain quality, but it's not perfect. It's not angsty per-se, but it's definitely more ambiguously neutral.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? 

Oooh, I'd say it's a toss up between two of my fics:

The first is Not Alone, a TyZula band AU fic about Azula recovering from bottom surgery. I wrote it while I myself was still recovering from bottom surgery, and I wanted to explore a facet of trans characters journeys that isn't often discussed? It's a bit more niche, and I only recently made it open to anyone, not just ao3 users, so it's one of my less popular fics for sure, but it's very hopeful portrayal of a trans experience.

And the second is Yours In Body And Soul, a Sokkla soulmates AU, where soulmates bodyswap at night when either of them has had a bad day, in order to try to cheer them up. I got the idea from a korrasami fic called Paralyzed I read a while back, and changed the mechanics a little bit to make it work. It's definitely a more traditional happy ending, romantic getting together included (up to a point, they are still kids in the timeline so just an excited hug).

8. Do you get hate on fics? 

I don't! Sometimes people disagree on one interpretation of something, but never disrespectful or anything, so I'm pretty happy!

9. Do you write smut? 

I've tried it before in private, got some good feedback. But no, never anything that I'd share.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've ever written? 

I'm not sure if ATLA/TLOK counts😂. I've had some ideas for crossovers though, and written a few draft snippets, I think it was a TLT/ATLA one, an ATLA/Shang-Chi, and a Naruto/ATLA one that I've actually posted a few snippets from on here if I remember correctly.

That last one was a Sakura reincarnated into Azula idea, to explore some interesting anti-imperialist ideals, because that's actually a blind spot Sakura has as well with Konoha. It's easy for her to fall into the same ideological fallacies as before, especially with the significantly lower usage of child soldiers in the Fire Nation making it seem like the epitome of peace and human rights to her. Like looking at the same problem in a different font, at a slightly different angle, it gives Sakura an opportunity for growth by maybe showing her some of the issues she had been ignoring or missing in Konoha, shaking some of her loyalty.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? 

Nope, not as far as I'm aware!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? 

Also nope, theoretically I could translate it in Dutch, but I'm a lot better at expressing myself in English I think, and almost every Dutch person can read English (especially on ao3), so I don't think it would add much. Maybe one day though!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? 

I haven't, though it seems like it'd be very cool, I'd definitely be open to it!

14. What's your all time favorite ship? 

God, don't make me choose 😭😭 I guess it's probably Chasefield? I'm such a sucker for those two it's unreal. Otherwise maybe Yuezula, Maizula or Sokkla? They each have such interesting possible dynamics, in such varying ways.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? 

Again, that's a tough one cause I'm afraid I have a lot. I still have several half-written chapters of Getting Family Approval In Six Fool-Proof Steps (Cue The Fools, Sokka And Azula), as well as the start of a longer fic that continues on from And Iphigenia Felt Rage that I've fully outlined and would love to write someday but can't be sure I ever will. There's also Indelible Mark which I've been blocked on forever. As for WIPs that haven't even been partially published yet, I've got 11k for a Chasefield fic I've posted a scene or two for on here called Muse on My Mind, that I wish I could finish but I'm not confident I can manage any time soon. I've also got the start and the outline of a TLT griddlehark fic, where I'm absolutely in love with the premise and the twist I'm building it on, but which, again, I've not progressed much with in a good 6 months. There's a few others, but these are the ones I'd really like to finish at some point.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? 

I love reading it, writing it I could do Dutch or Google translate a different language, but much preferably I'd be able to check it with someone who actually speaks the language for accuracy. Best to use some of the more advanced ao3 html uses to make a translation appear when you hover over it though, unless not understanding it is an important part of the reading experience, in which case people can look it up later if they want to.

19. First fandom you wrote for? 

My very first fic was actually a The 100 song fic based on an opera song, which is too embarrassing so I won't share where it is🤐 I was like 17 so it's too embarrassing.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

Tbh, it's either Muse on My Mind (the chasefield fic I mentioned that isn't posted anywhere except for 1 or 2 scenes on Tumblr), which is super fun because it's playing with the perspective of a character that just straight up doesn't understand half the plot happening in the background that is hinted at for the reader who does know. Oblivious characters too caught up in their own shit to pay attention are so so so much fun to write, especially when you have fun with it, implying things but never outright confirming it!

Otherwise it's Haunted By Runaway Ghosts. That one is a Sokkla fic that explores their past through flashbacks while Zuko and Katara are both grappling with the discovery of their niece and nephew they had no idea existed (or could exist). Which, not to brag, but from a technical standpoint I really think that one is probably one of the most skilled fics I've written and published, and it was so much fun to write and puzzle it all together; the slow build up and explanations slowly coming together to form the bigger picture, the hidden ties between locations in the show and events in the story and how they fit into each other perfectly - genuinely a joy to write (and if people are interested in reading it please do, imo it's on par with And Iphigenia Felt Rage, if in a pretty different style, definitely something I'd love for more people to enjoy the way I did writing it).

Thanks again for tagging me @celinou, this was very fun to do! I see you've already tagged @sourrind, who I'd have tagged as well, so next I'll tag @dawnsiren @ly0nstea and @likeadragonfruit , and of course whoever else wants to do it!

[foxboyclit]

im coming up on my 2 year t-aversarry so here's some assorted feelings on that (put under a cut because i didnt expect it to get this long oops)

first off, im hoping i don't get sick again so i can actually have a tea party to celebrate. even if its a little after the actual date i wanna do something

it looks like i cant grow anything more than some light whiskers but i never wanted a huge lumberjack beard anyway and i still get to shave regularly which is very euphoric. im a little disappointed though because ive always wanted a full beard

body hairs been really good though! its filled out nicely on my arms and legs and i have a full happy trail i am so so happy about that

my doctor said she noticed my shoulders had gotten more broad, which ive heard wasn't possible but apparently it is! and i see it myself too. she said i have more of an inverted triangle shape now, and it makes sense because ive noticed my hips shrink significantly. now apparently i wasn't very curvy to begin with but dysphoria makes me see things that aren't as prominent i guess

its also almost a year since my period stopped and i feel so much better having my emotions and energy levels at a constant state. i never have to think about whether i forgot to bring pads i haven't had cramps in MONTHS it's wonderful. i will say, ive noticed cis women are more comfortable talking about their periods around me and it's a mixed bag of emotions. im glad i give off that vibe that it's okay to talk about it but i feel bad saying "yeah im glad mine stopped" or "this is what i used to go through" which is the most i can relate to now so im kind of...sad? to not be able to talk about it? but also when i did menstruate i hated talking about it to anyone other than like. two specific people. idk

my voice is leveling out more, it still cracks but not as much as it did i feel like just a few months ago? still not where i want it but im getting closer and i love when my voice cooperates and is deeper without those cracks. ive gotten compliments on my voice too when i use my lower register! idk if the majority of people read it as masculine or even androgynous but i like compliments

still getting constantly misgendered, no matter what im wearing but im used to it. at least all my family, friends and coworkers respect my pronouns

ive been dressing a lot more feminine than i anticipated. but im having fun with it! its okay if im actually more feminine presenting than fluid like i previously thought. but also i could have another big swing in the opposite direction. i feel comfortable and stylish either way so im welcoming whatever changes

the gender fuckery of facial hair, flat chest and skirt has been *chefs kiss*

my t levels are on par with cis men! just knowing that makes me smile. estrogen is still high but it wasnt a concern with the doctor so im mostly okay with it

my libidos leveled out nicely, it's still a lot higher than before t but its not as intense as when i first started. adjusting to it has been pretty easy and im happy with where it currently sits.

body acne has mostly gone away! and i haven't had any massive breakouts or changes in my skin!

i swear to god i went down at least a cup size. its been waiting for the right time to pursue top surgery a hell of a lot easier. i always felt like if i had a smaller chest i wouldnt necessarily need top surgery, and i still want it but im more content with my chest now

i think all in all ive had to adjust my expectations for how id look by now, maybe its the dosage or genetics or aforementioned high estrogen or it just hasn't been long enough but i always expected to look more masculine this far in. it's still something i have to deal with from time to time but ultimately im happy with my body and im more okay taking this slowly than i anticipated

i dont have a conclusion for this other than wow. testosterone is one hell of a drug

[casualbiintrovert]

Hi! I’m not sure if u take requests but could you do some Bakugo head canons! Thank u ❤️

A/N

Of course! I had a lot of fun with this one, hope you enjoy( ╹▽╹ )

Katsuki Bakugo Headcannons

-In the mha universe it's cannon that people's quirks can affect someone's health or person, an example would be with Ururaka and how she gets dizzy or with Aizawa and how he gets bad dry eye and has to use eye drops. I think the same can be said for Bakugo, after years of just using his quirk and the close proximity, his hearing has deteriorated. It's because of this that from a young age, he started to learn sign language as another way to communicate, and around middle school started wearing hearing aids. And usually, everyone just assumes the reason for his yelling is because he's rude or loud, but it's mostly just because he has a hard time hearing his own voice and it makes it easier to talk to others.

-Because of his looks and personality a lot of people may say that Bakugo is exactly like his mom, which to an extent is true, but I think he also takes a lot from his dad. Growing up he learned how to observe people and their emotions, whether they be explosive or small he's always been able to read people in a way that left them a bit vulnerable. For example, when one of his friends or classmates is feeling more down than usual he knows that some may want to be comforted and others may want to be left alone, and though he won't ever admit it, he'll do the smaller things to help like maybe a comment, snack, or just giving them an option (even if they don't realize it) of what they want. This was something he saw with his parents, and with his dad especially when it came to trying to cheer up or comfort either of them.

-Just like with Izuku, he didn't realize that being trans was really a thing till he was told about it and his reaction was mostly just 'Oh, so that's what it's called'. And because of the high-paying jobs, his parents have it would've been easier for him to get the funds for top surgery, I think he would've wanted to as soon as he could, so maybe around the summer before his first year at U.A or around the end of his third year in middle school.

-He loves animals. Like, if he sees an animal on the street or in the park he'll stop and try and pet it, doesn't matter what he was doing before he will stop and try and pet it. Mid convo? Well, now he's across the street feeding and petting a cat or trying to feed a squirrel. It's a subconscious reaction really, he sometimes doesn't even realize it.

-He might call Izuku a nerd, but this guy is 100 times worse than him when it comes to heroes (they're also his special interest), he's just more "lowkey" about. He might not have a lot of posters or figurines of heroes but ask him anything about All Might and he will know, the year, month, day, and time. And he's just as much of a fanboy, he just doesn't like to show it as hardcore.

-Will do ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING out of spite. If told he can't do something he'll do it just to say he could. If a teacher or peer tells him that he shouldn't do something he's gonna do it anyway. Say he doesn't have to do something if he doesn't want to? He took it as a challenge. He's a spiteful person, and he is driven by that alone.

-A lot of people might assume that the reason why his skin is so clear is a result of his quirk, but in reality, this man has an ass whole skincare routine and he follows it religiously. He might get teased for 'going to bed' at 8:30 but honestly, two of those hours are just spent on his skincare before bed. It's a routine he picked up from his mom growing up and it's now just a permanent part of his daily routine.