#don't ask. i followed my heart

[sollucets]

KWON EUNBI - SABOTAGE ♥

[riddlerosehearts]

shoutout to itaru chigasaki for just casually and suddenly revealing that he coped with getting bullied in school by literally kinning his favorite video game character, and then getting to play that same character in an officially licensed stage adaptation of one of the games. and not only that but he and his theater troupe got to work directly with the creator of the series who saw the full play and praised itaru specifically for how good his performance was. like if he was on kin tumblr he would've won so hard forever.

[ingravinoveritas]

How did u feel with the age gap question was it pr or do u really think he meant it and this was the truth

This is referring to the question asked on The Assembly last night. I'll post the clip here, for those who haven't seen it yet:

A lot of what I felt while watching this was touched on in this incredibly thoughtful post from @body-face-words, so I encourage folks to give that a read. But I think for me, when it comes to Michael's answer, it's not a matter of whether he lied or told the truth. It's that his response was sweet, but it was also a version of the truth that sounded convincing because it needed to, because this was not a time or place where he could say what he actually felt.

I'm really not sure what people expected him to say, in all honesty, as he was never going to say anything that would make him or Anna look bad, and especially not anything that could potentially negatively impact the kids, so he instead gave a very perfect PR answer. This again does not come as a surprise because we know Michael has scripted his answers about AL/their relationship in the past, but I noticed how careful he was in his response, which seems to contrast with how off-the-cuff he normally is when discussing every other subject. Part of what so many of us love about Michael is how unfiltered he is and always has been, with the exception of how much he filters and edits himself when talking about Anna.

It also seemed like, at least from my perspective, that Michael answered the question without answering the question. What the girl asked wasn't so much about the age gap, but about AL being five years older than Michael's daughter Lily, and it would've been a perfect opportunity for him to mention her, or how the relationship with AL affected his and Lily's relationship. He could've talked about the falling out he had with her (and Kate) in 2019 once AL's existence/pregnancy came to light, and what has happened in the years since, or how Lily now gets along with Anna/her half-sisters. But instead Michael deflected from all of that and talked about everything while saying nothing at the same time.

It was also the things Michael didn't say that stood out as much as the things he did. In the entire answer to the question, Michael never once used the word "love." Prior to the show airing, I saw a lot of people online confident that he would say that he loves Anna, but he never did. He never praised her, never talked about the things he loves about her, or how glad he is to be with her. He never once mentioned her by name. The pivot and focus was on the kids, and there was a clear distinction made between how happy he is to have the family he does, rather than to be in the relationship that he is in. Michael's use of the phrase "very happy" was also identical to the wording of a comment AL wrote on Instagram the other day, which added to the whole "reinforcing a public narrative" feeling of his response.

I think what struck me most of all, though, was how somber and heavyhearted Michael sounded while saying how happy he is. It reminded me of the song "I Am a Rock" by Simon & Garfunkel, where the upbeat and cheerful music contrasts starkly with the fraught, angry lyrics. There was no sparkle in Michael's eyes when he said it, no enthusiasm for what he was saying (which is particularly jarring when we know Michael has the capacity for incredible enthusiasm), and his face never lit up while he was talking.

There was one specific moment (which is also highlighted in the body language post) where he seemed to visibly wince and the micro-expressions were in overdrive, and it immediately made me think of a moment from Good Omens:

Time and again, I have seen fans talk about Michael's micro-expressions as an actor and how he uses them to such devastating effect (especially in the role of Aziraphale). And while these two moments are not completely identical, the idea of ignoring how Michael uses those same micro-expressions in real life makes no sense to me at all. In this instance, what we're seeing could be either because he has put so much of himself into Aziraphale that we can now recognize those "Michael" moments...or it could be because in both clips he is performing, albeit for different reasons.

The difference between Michael when he is doing this vs. when he is being genuinely himself is made even more apparent by the question immediately following this one. Unprompted, he brings up David, and the change in his expression and demeanor is swift and dramatic:

Having the mention of David happen so soon after the AL question seemed to highlight so many things. I can't help but feel that David is a security blanket for Michael, something he hides behind when he is feeling anxious or sad or overwhelmed. I wondered if perhaps he was even already thinking of David while answering the AL question, which would explain why he named him so readily--as if his mind needed to drift to someplace else just to finish answering that question.

To me, this made it abundantly clear that David is Michael's safe place. Here was where we saw Michael's eyes sparkling. Here was where we saw him light up from the inside. And it was David he kept returning to and bringing up during the rest of the show in response to other questions. So if that doesn't speak volumes about where Michael's heart seems to be, I'm not sure what does.

So yes, those are my thoughts on Michael answering the age gap question on The Assembly. As always, this is just my interpretation, but I am glad to hear from my followers with your take as well. Thanks for writing in! x

[winteriron-trash]

rdj the (whitewashed) electric boogaloo

This is a reminder to everyone who's excited about RDJ's casting as Doctor Doom that this casting is whitewashing. Victor Von Doom is a Romani character and has been a Romani character since his introduction in the 1960s. (Fantastic Four Annual #2 [1964]) Not only that, but his Roma identity and the persecution he and his family faced due to it is integral to his character, it is what forms his identity. (Books of Doom by Ed Brubaker) Even if on the off chance this casting is meant to not be Victor but instead be some variant of Tony or whomever else becoming Doctor Doom, it is damaging to the character to rob him of that important cultural background. Doctor Doom does not exist without that history. Fans have been pushing hard to cast Doom as a Romani actor for years, especially since the MCU has whitewashed other Romani characters. (Wanda, Pietro, etc) This casting is not a celebration moment, it's fucking heartbreaking that the MCU repeatedly ignores the important and nuanced cultural backstories of characters.

I know I can't change anybody's mind on whether or not you want to be excited about RDJ's return to the MCU. But I do think at the very least you should be mad that the MCU is baiting us all and destroying nuanced and interesting characters for the sake of self-referential easter eggs and nostalgia bait. Because that's what it is. Feel how you'd like to feel about RDJ's return, but personally, this is soul-sucking. I had such a deep love for the MCU as a teenager, it was obviously something incredibly formative to me, especially Tony Stark. This isn't recreating what I fell in love with the MCU for. This is turning a well-planned and artistic storyline of adaptations into cheap cash grabs and fan service. Because, I think we're past the point of being able to call the MCU an adaptation of anything. They can use existing characters' names and powers, but to say they're being properly adapted is laughable.

This is not an adaptation of Doctor Doom. This is RDJ the Electric Boogaloo because Marvel's fear of losing the interest of dedicated MCU fans overrides their willingness to tell stories that are genuine to the characters. I don't know what there is to be excited about that. The MCU has lost its authenticity and aside from a few projects, feels heartless. Every movie is a copy of a copy. This announcement isn't something celebratory, it feels like a death knell of a cinematic universe that's so desperate to cling to relevancy it's resorting to nostalgia for a character/actor who hasn't even been dead for a decade. We're not getting anything new, we're just rinsing and repeating the same song and dance.

I get it. I love Tony Stark, his death destroyed me and I to this day, rue the ending he got in Endgame. It misunderstood his arc and it robbed him of a satisfying conclusion. But the solution to that isn't dragging the corpse out of the grave five years later to whitewash an existing character with rich and interesting nuance, just to forcibly tie his existence in the MCU to Tony. Whether he is a variant or not. Why would you want someone else's fave's legacy to be destroyed simply so your fave's legacy can go on? Hell, if we were really all so hellbent on the return of RDJ and/or Tony to the MCU, we have the multiverse for a reason. There were other ways to do it that didn't whitewash and ruin someone else. This just. Isn't something to be happy about.

[waitineedaname]

which of your mutuals is most likely to fall for a mouse trap

this is an absolutely hilarious question and I do not know the answer so I'm going to let my mutuals decide

come here dear mutuals I have a delicious piece of cheese for you

[mel-loly]

Dont mind me:3

I- Tsu.. You didn't need to... But.. Yeah, uh... Thanks..😅💛

(no pressure, but if you can read the tags, I'd be happy! and that doesn't just apply to tsu but to everyone)

[mollymarymarie]

Hey! Hope you're doing well! I saw on a post that you said you weren't writing wolfstar anymore. I just wanted to see if you meant like permanently? I totally understand if you are, but I wanted to ask. Hope you have a lovely day.

Yeah, that's unfortunately the case. I do love Wolfstar, I always will, and I will support my fellow fanfic writers and fanartists when I can, but I had kind of a negative experience on Tumblr regarding the fact that I still write for a series that was created by a transphobe. And I was already struggling with that on my own, so I just gave it up.

I believed that I was subverting her by using her characters to make a world more inclusive and caring and loving than the one she started, but not everyone sees it that way, and I get it. She's a garbage human. More so every day.

That being said, I would absolutely never judge anyone who remains active in that fandom, because it's a huge community full of wonderful people and I still think good comes from that. I still love all the friends I made here, but those negative comments/experiences sort of stuck with me and I just pulled back from fandom, in general.

I am still writing! (If you're into Jujutsu Kaisen and Satosugu, feel free to stick around lol) I wrote Wolfstar for so long, so exclusively, that the general dynamic and vibe of whatever I write is still going to read like Wolfstar 😂

[setsailtomorrow]

Hi, I've really appreciated your fic recs and I wonder if you have any for Beyond Evil?

hello anon! this message made my day <3

i've read some good stuff in the beyond evil fandom. all recs here will be of the han juwon/lee dongsik kind.

chokehold by whir, 5k, M

Contrary to what’s known, their story didn’t start in Manyang. It started at the heart of Seoul, two years ago, with a one night stand.

just what the summary says. but some really good instant attraction and great use of the rating. this writer has the top kudos'd work of the fandom and is well worth a click.

The Reverie of Clouds by DachOsmin, 7k, T+

“What’s your name?” Han Juwon asks, not that he really cares what the answer is.

The man’s face does something complicated, spasms with a series of emotions Juwon can’t name. “Lee Dongsik,” he finally says.

---

Han Juwon wakes up in a hospital bed. The last thing he remembers is driving to Manyang for his first day of work.

this one hurt.

splinters by stickypearls, 9k, E

At night she dreams of dying. It is not just a memory: memories fade, the way she is already forgetting her father’s twitching shoulder or the odd twinkle in his eyes whenever she talked back at him. No, it is like she is back there for real, dirt darkening the world, buried alive in her own backyard.

AU where Kang Min-jeong lives.

listen. Kang Min-jeong deserves to be explored as a character.

i'd suffer hell if you'd tell me what you'd do to me tonight by ltyrell, 10k, E

A police fundraiser puts Han Juwon and Lee Dongsik in the same room at the same time, before everything.

[or: flirting with that handsome stranger at the bar gets a lot more high stakes once you realize he's the son of your boss, technically]

what it says on the tin. a really good too.

crashing in to something safe by little_roo, 11k, T+

Joo Won catches Min Jung’s elbow to the face and pain erupts in his nose. He is able to straighten the falling trio back up despite the pain but not before Min Jung yells out something intelligible and punches him in the lip. 

“Han Joo Won!” He feels Hyuk wrap an arm around him as more pain starts in his mouth, and he feels the coppery taste of blood. It makes his anxiety flare up and he has to take a deep breath to remind himself that it’s just blood and that it would be okay. He manages to take his handkerchief out from his pocket and presses it on his lip, wincing at the pain.

just a little bit of a misunderstanding, and ust...

Resonant Frequency by RC_McLachlan, 13k, E

Lee Dong-sik is an astonishingly good detective. Correction: was.

Ju-won wrestles with the reminder.

"What was your involvement when you were with the RIU?" Ju-won doesn't remember any of the detectives' names attached to the case notes, let alone if Dong-sik's was on the list, but then he hadn't been looking particularly hard. "I was part of the second team that took a crack at the investigation in 2010." "2009," Ju-won corrects. One side of Dong-sik's mouth pulls up. "Which means you were, what, eight?"

i do love competent Lee Dongsik

Emergency Contact by Magnolia822, 15k, E

After Han Joowon is injured in the line of duty, Lee Dongsik brings him back to Manyang for his convalescence.

He's going to get cared for whether he likes it or not.

oh the carefully pushed down emotions. this fic features having to help with baths. what a set up.

look at the fire and think of me by flumes, 25k, M

The wind must have announced his presence, must have alerted her most loyal guardian, for he hasn’t even lifted his hand to knock when the door swings open and there he stands. Hands in pockets, hip slightly cocked, the waves of jet black hair closer to a more familiar length. But it’s the twinkle in those curving eyes that feels the most surreal, a gut punch into a past that feels a lifetime ago from now, on the porch of Dong-sik’s old family home.

“It’s been a while, Inspector Han.”

Joo-won fights a grimace, looks up. “I need your help.”

my only bookmarked Beyond Evil fic, strange. but it's a very good one. intense.

no lost causes by princesskay, 60k, E 🔒

When a prominent Seoul defense attorney passes away unexpectedly, his fortune and his legacy fall to his only son, Han Joo-won, a recent bar graduate still finding his footing in his father’s firm. Included in the inheritance is a dying Japanese Cherry bonsai tree that once belonged to his mother and bears painful memories of her death years ago. Eager to be rid of the tree, Joo-won meets Lee Dong-sik, the owner of a bonsai nursery in the little village of Manyang, who reportedly takes on "lost cause trees." When Dong-sik insists upon keeping in contact about the survival of the tree, Joo-won warily agrees, not anticipating that the unexpected kindness of the strange but compelling man will change his worldview, his future, and his life.

this is a pretty recent one! a lot of the "big" BE fic were written in 2021, as the series was shown and gathered an audience. this fic is from mid 2023 and it was such a good read. as a plant enjoyer i loved the bonsai as something driving the story. in part.

skin the apple (and leave it to rot) by 64907, 67k, E

Mafia AU. In a bid to prove his worth, Han Joowon goes undercover in a rival clan to assassinate their leader.

no glorifying the mafia. this is dirty this it evil this is corrupt. so a lot of what the actual tv series is as well. the shifting dynamic, power and the tension here is excellent. do click on the author as well, they have some other really good ones as well.

and, i've written it in a few places, but click on the writer if you enjoy the fic. most of the fics i've rec'd here are by prolific writers in the fandom. there's lots to discover!

[httpiastri]

i’m the anon who sent the barcelona ask, i am now scared bc i don’t know if this is a safe space for a carlos girlie 😓😓😓

goshhhh darling of course this is a safe space for you!!! i promise to not post any carlos hate here, the only thing i might do is post a few jokes with something along the lines of "carlos fighting oscar for lando's attention again huh 😔" etc!! and possibly having these discussions like i've had with you here rn, trying my best to look at the objective stuff instead of just going "no carlos is evil!!!!!" out of nowhere

[americankimchi]

That helped a lot!! The star wars fandom is a bit intimidating to me but I know Obi Wan is your fav so I thought you'd have good insight on characterization!!

if there's one thing people know about me is that i'm always ready to speak on obi-wan 😤✌️

[dbphantom]

Listen if you're gonna send me an ask about why I shouldn't interact with a person, can you at least do it off anon so I can request actual proof privately? I'm not replying to these since the only way to respond to them is publicly and I don't want to contribute to an unsubstantiated rumor about someone. That's not fair.

[spiteriisen]

tag drop ; isande.

( even scorched by fires of war ; i will fly on wings of my own making. ✧ ic. ) isande. ( gold as the rising sun ; she holds her shield aloft to greet the dawn. ✧ visage. ) isande. ( what good is any faith if in yourself you hold none ; be your own devotee. ✧ isms. ) isande. ( through shade & sleet-- through all winter's wrath ; the thistle maid blooms in xanntash. ✧ aesthetic. ) isande. ( born in the dark but her heart never beat ; not 'til light touched her face was she truly complete. ✧ lore. ) isande.

( a message to all the holy temples dedicated to me ; you all really make up any shit huh. ✧ crack. ) isande. ( do not follow me-- do not pray ; choose to walk alongside me and i will stay. ✧ game shenanigans. ) isande.

connections ;

( i'd trade all tales human & divine to turn back time ; for song in your smile & light in your eyes. ✧ isande & finnegan. ) passionfell. ( you seek no god & i never sought to be one ; not demanding or bestowing-- i am asking for a champion. ✧ isande & ankita. ) passionfell. ( you can't wield a sword for me-- i don't carry one ; pledge oath to you & let blind faith be gone. ✧ isande & alwin. ) risingretribution.

[saltedsolenoid]

nothing of any significance but I had been looking for yr artfight like a week ago (had found it like... last year ? But didnt bookmark or anythubg like a DIPSHIT!!!) and was trying every combination of poisonous berries under the sun. Eventually got to blueberries but gave up before actually finding it . I do not know how to spell poisonous (solved via a quick search) nor did I know what the plural of "blueberry" was. Dead set on spelling it blueberrys. Like an idiot. Anyway I don't know how I planned on ending this ask what if I start it again. Hi sydnay twigehr arcademeptne live in your inbox wirh another ask for you today we're asking

o, the curse of artfight remains eternal 😔

[phoenixdaneko]

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Character Tags

Genshin Impact - GI

Magical Girl Transformation 💙 - Childe

Moraless Motherfucker ☕ - Zhongli

The Bard 🎶 - Venti

Firework Goldfish 🎆 - Yoimiya

Snowflake Princess ❄️ - Ayaka

The Original Elsa 🌨️ - Kaeya

Boo! 👻 - Hu Tao

Firey Falcon ❤️‍🔥 - Diluc

The Original Wanderer 🍁 - Kazuha

Gremlin ⚡ - Scaramouche

Prince Of Chalk 💠 - Albedo

The Princess And Oz 🪶 - Fischl

The Last Yaksha 💚 - Xiao

Dandelions On The Wind 🍃 - Jean

(more tba)

Overwatch - OW

Just Some Guy 🤠 - Cassidy

Dubious Doctor 💉 - Moira

Mercy 💫 - Mercy

Dragon Man 🐉 - Hanzo

Dragon Boy 🐉 - Genji

Kitsune Kiriko 🦊 - Kiriko

Streamer Bunny 🐇 - DVa (may be changed if I think of something better)

Guns n' Roses 🌹 - Ashe

(more tba)

Demon Slayer - DS

Set Your Heart Ablaze 🔥 - Rengoku

Peacock ✨ - Uzui

Sakura Mochi 🍡 - Mitsuri

Snake Simp 🐍 - Obanai

Amnesiac Babey ☁️ - Muichiro

Emo 🌊 - Giyuu

Poison Butterflies 🦋 - Shinobu

Windstorm 🌪️ - Sanemi (may change later)

Giant Rock 📿 - Gyomei (may change later)

Sunshine Incarnate 🎴 - Tanjiro

Flaming Thunder God 🌩️ - Zenitsu

Dyslexic Boar 🐗 - Inosuke

The Perfect Demon 🌸 - Nezuko

Baby With A Gun 🔫 - Genya

Sayonara 🪙 - Kanao (may change later)

(more tba)

General FNAF - FNAF

Rotten Rabbit🐇 - William Afton/Springtrap

Rotten Rabbit 2.0🐇 - William Afton/Scraptrap

(more tba)

FNAF Security Breach - SB

Freddy Dadbear 🐻 - Glamrock Freddy

Pizza Lover 🐔 - Glamrock Chica (may change later)

The Best 🐺 - Roxanne Wolf (may change later)

Anger Issues 🐊 - Montgomery Gator (may change later)

Sunshine ☀️ - Sundrop (may change later)

Moonlight 🌑 - Moondrop (may change later)

A Total Eclipse of the Heart 🌗 - Eclipse (may change later)

Once In a Blue Moon 🌙 - Lunar (may change later)

Felony Speedrun 👦 - Gregory (may change later)

Little Engineer 👧 - Cassie (may change later)

White Woman Jumpscare - Vanessa

Bunny Woman Jumpscare - Vanny (may change later)

Decommissioned 🐰 - Glamrock Bonnie (may change later)

Sea Dog 🏴‍☠️🦊 - Glamrock Foxy (may change later)

Peepaw Willy 🪦 - William/Burntrap

Glitch Bitch 👾 - William/Glitchtrap

DJ Spider 💿 - DJMM

(more tba)

FNAF Afton Family - AF

Child Murderer 🔪 - William Afton

Zombie Arsonist🔥 - Michael Afton

Ice Cream Clown🍦- Elizabeth Afton (may change later)

Just A Baby🧸- C.C. Afton (may change later)

Friend Tags!!!

Moots Pt. 1

Moots Pt. 2

My OCs!!!

[clove-pinks]

Me and a friend both agreed that you are one of the best and most unique tumblr users, and that we always instantly recognize your style of posting even if we don't see the name.

This is such a sweet message to receive, anon! I always get a bit maudlin when I see those posts about appreciating tumblr followers (and then ironically, I don't reblog them because I'm afraid I'll derail it and make it weird by being too emotional). I'm so happy that you enjoy my posts!

[coquelicoq]

no YOU have some of the best tags and it's a pleasure to follow YOU!!! <3

i drew you a picture to express how it felt to open my inbox and read this

[id: simplistic drawing of a stick figure lying on the floor with their limbs spread out. drops of blue are falling from their face, signifying tears. their head is surrounded by messy red figures that are supposed to be hearts. the figure has no facial features and most of the image is blank white space, signifying emotional overwhelm. /end id]