#don’t worry sometimes it goes away in your 50s

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wow i just love suffering from an incurable unexplained illness. I especially love experiencing daily excruciating pain that is completely resistant to tylenol

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i had dream about this lol. reader is naive/innocent/virgin, they know about sex but not much about masturbation. reader tells joel that they’ve been having this problem at night (usually) where they get all hot and achey down there. joel’s like well i know a way you can fix that feeling!! hopefully this isn’t too outrageous, i just love perv!joel lololll

Aches

900 / Joel x virgin!Reader / joel master

✨ prequel: fires | sequel: thoughts

WARNINGS: I8+ mdni, big girthy age gap (20/50s) only one sleeping bag. fingering, grinding. mention of Joel being a girl dad.

You can't sleep.  You scoot your lower body forward and away from Joel's crotch.  

"You okay, sweetie?" 

Not really, but you don't know how to talk to him about it.  You’ve been sharing a sleeping bag with Joel ever since yours was lost in a scuffle.  Joel's is big enough for both of you, but barely.  You’re settled in against him with your head on his bicep trying to get to sleep, but he was poking into you again, and it makes you ache.  The feeling between your legs is so distracting, so overwhelming you can't sleep.  

It seizes you and won’t let you relax, but you don’t know what to do about it.  You’re a grown woman, of course you’ve tingled before, felt the warmth between your legs, thought about sex, hoped to have it one day.  But this aching, throbbing feeling worries you.  It’s so beyond anything you’ve ever felt before.  It's extreme and sometimes it hurts. You worry something has happened to you from sleeping so rough, not having the right products people used to have for their periods.

The feeling is at its worst when his dick gets hard and presses up against you.  That makes you suspect it's sexual. But you never learned how to get yourself off, and it's too late now.

"Um, yeah," you whisper. "I'm okay."

You squirm uncomfortably and dig a hand between your legs just to stay there.  

"What's wrong honey?" 

You sigh. "I just feel funny, that's all. You can't help. It's girl stuff."

"Now, hold on. Gimme some credit. I was a girl dad remember?  You havin' cramps?"  He gently rubs your lower belly, making the throbbing between your legs even worse.  

"No, not like that," you groan.  

He lifts his head up and gets more serious. "What's goin' on, sweetie? Where's it hurt?" 

Your face burns as you start to try to tell him. "In the front between my legs." 

His breath hitches.  "What's it feel like?" 

"It just aches and tingles and feels like a lot of pressure." 

He inhales deeply. "Anything else that goes with it?"

"I get wet," you say. "But I don't think it's like normal. This is really a lot, and I'm afraid something's wrong." 

He's quiet for a moment. "Nothin's wrong with you, baby," he murmurs. "Imma try somethin', okay? Tell me if this makes it worse or better."

"Okay." You're desperate.  Plus, you've been traveling with him for weeks and you're past the point of modesty.

He nestles in behind you and grinds his hard cock into your ass. "Worse or better?" 

"Worse, worse." 

"Okay, now we know what the problem is. It's just tension, baby. Built up pressure. Your body's reactin' to mine."

"Okay. . ."

"Just gotta relieve that pressure. It's okay, we all do it. I can give ya some space if ya want" 

Your heart rate speeds up.  He must assume you know how. "I don't do that," you whisper. 

"Ya gotta. Not gonna go away on its own, sweetie."

"I never figured out how. maybe something's wrong with me"

"Nothin's wrong with ya sweetie." He's quiet for a moment then he strokes your abdomen reassuringly. His hand finds yours between your legs. "Want some help?" He asks. 

"Um, alright." 

You move your hand out of the way and Joel's replaces it, first feeling you over your underwear. He whistles silently when he feels how wet you are. Then he slides his hand into your waistband.  "This okay?"

"Yeah." 

He backs up and urges you to lie down flat on your back.  His hand wedges between your thighs and you move them apart, making space. He watches you watch his hand. He bypasses your clit to wetten his fingers with your arousal. "This okay?" He asks and you nod. 

His middle finger prods at your entrance "can I go in?"  You nod again. 

He scoots up and presses his hard cock into your hip as he swirls his finger, then inserts it to the first knuckle and your mouth falls open with the intrusion. "Real tight," he mutters. 

"What's that mean?"

"Nothin', baby."

He proceeds to insert his whole finger, then adds another.  He slides his fingers through your folds then finds your clit and begins to rub wet circles. "Tell me when it feels right," he says. 

He tries a few angles, speeds, and techniques until one really hits the spot and you say "that."

"Good girl." 

He rubs you just how you like. "Now if you wanna touch your nipple or somethin', sometimes that helps, too." 

You slide a hand under your shirt and lightly caress your breast. You feel your lower belly heating up, you're getting more tense but also feeling so good with his hand between your legs.  He grinds himself into you as he fingers you and watches your spine begin to arch. 

"Come on, sweetie. Let it happen."

You whine from the pressure. "Joel, I - I don't know how"

"Sure ya do, baby just let go, let it happen," his voice is soothing and low. 

You whine again and pinch your eyes shut. 

"I know baby, you're almost there;" 

A few more strokes and you see stars.  You ride massive waves of pleasure and relief. It feels so good you cry. 

"Shhh, it's okay, baby. I got you."  He caresses your face. "You're okay, I got you, sweetie." He presses a kiss to your temple.

SEQUEL: Thoughts

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Thank you so much for reading. I always love your comments 🥹🙏

If you're into innocent readers, there's more where this came from. . . My ongoing series Left in Lincoln has an innocent, naive, virgin reader. And my master list has a virgin section lol.

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[cyber333angel]

PART 2 TO: DBF!TOJI

toji “helping” you study for your upcoming exams !

CAUTION ⚠️

This work contains: usage of daddy, exhibition, praise,riding toji (ofc), p!links, size kink, studying, breeding kink (all the good stuff), itty bitty spanking kink

NOTE: this was supposed to be a drabble but once again!! I overwrote 🙄 but ass promised here is you riding toji. I hope u enjoy 😉

after the intense night you had with your dads best friend back at your parents house, in your own bedroom to boot, toji and you still “hung out”. you loved the way he made you feel, and the feeling was mutual . whenever he dropped by your house to fraternize with your father he continued to sneak into your bedroom usually to kiss you, reminisce the feeling of you squirming on his fingers and the taste of your cunt, or of how tight your pussy felt clenching around his cock.

“t-toji, I don’t want my parents to-hmph hear m-me downstairs!” he had you on the edge of your bed with your panties pushed to the side . two thick fingers thrusting in and out rapidly like the first time. “maybe if you stopped squealing you wouldn’t have to worry about that sweetheart.” your moans were inevitable with the pace he was going. you were reminded of the wet sounds your cunny made when you heard a “splurt”. mewling, you see toji stunned at the action your wet hole just made. amused he thrust his fingers again and repeats his abuse on your cunt, wanting to see you squirt again. “i-it feels weird toji! please n-no more please!” you reach your hand out to stop him “move your fuckin hand kid.” you flinch at the sternness and he manages to get you to cum again leaving you twitchy and thoughtless. he slides your panties back to fully cover your cunt and pats it , giving you a kiss on the forehead .

for about a week things like that kept happening until you had to go back to your university, it was only 45 minutes away so you weren’t too sad leaving your parents, opting to visit on the weekend sometimes. toji however, felt different and was going to miss the moments between him and his best friends daughter. as you were walking back to your dorm after finishing a class one day, toji called you, telling you he would pick you up for dinner at 6. excited you put on a cute outfit and met him in the parking lot “im so happy to see you to’!” you jump and hug him and he embraced you back, squeezing the fat of your ass “it’s good to see you too pretty girl” he said smiling . the dinner goes well and you end up back at your dorm, living here by yourself ever since you started college, your roommate having never showing up . you were happy with that space and even more happy to be able to have privacy with toji. visits like this happened often, him showing up unannounced and on the same day you falling asleep in his arms. coming into your room in a very grumpy mood your met with the large man sleeping in your bed, the same way you left him this morning. toji wakes up hearing aggravated mumbling from his little fling, “what happened babydoll? what’s with the grumpy face?” you flash him an annoyed look, taking offense he grabs your hand “it’s polite to answer when someone talks to you. now, what happened?” you look up at him feeling bad for the hostile entrance .

“I have exams coming up and nothing is helping me study. i have asked my professors and tried tutors but nothing works! im really nervous to fail this test toj.. it makes up 50% of my grade!” understanding the problem now, getting an idea he wants to help you out, well.. sort of. “i’ll help you study, sweet girl.” toji says smiling, the two of you were facing each other, he sat on the bed while you stood in front of him your arms crossed over his shoulders. “will you really help me to’?” he nods and your just thrilled to be receiving help from your favorite person.

“how is this s-supposed to help-hngh! me study!?” you were in top of him, straddling his lap and about less than halfway down his cock. he’s watching you try to sink yourself into his cock, and rubbing your cheek, reassuringly “baby i already explained it to you, if i say the terms you have to explain them back to daddy alright?”. your not fully listening to him but you nod. “the definition of a “subatomic particle” is what hm?” feeling to overwhelmed you attempt to answer his question “a subat-tomic particle is ugh!” distracted by a thick rod slivering into your cunt, your unable to answer, bringing his hand back he smacks your ass. making you yelp “your not focusing.” as if you can even think about some dumb chemistry question while you were being stretched open..

“daddy m’sorry but I can’t focus! it can’t fit,its too..too big mph please!”

he grabs your ass, lifting you off his lap. you look at him confused and suddenly he slams you down right on his dick, unable to process what just happened, you were now sitting and taking all of his length feeling more than just “full” , it all snaps back to you when he grinds you back and forth on his pelvis, clit feeling sensitive “oh g-god! i feel it in my tummy, daddy!” toji getting more and more turned on from the comment “shiit.” squelches and wet sounds exude from your cunt making you embarrassed plat-plat-plat, toji thrust his hips upward hitting your cervix , placing tou hand on his chest for balance,you can barely form a thought. he was going so fast and he fucking you too good. “I think im gonna cum..!” hearing this he paces faster and reaches a hand out to rub your overstimulated bud “augh that’s t-too much!” you squirm around his cock and he thrust up into “you gonna come for daddy? oh goood girl, y’re doing such a good job me.”

“y’re too fuckin tight..shit” he pumps his load into you filling you to the brim with a groan, toji scoots up and lets you fall backwards onto the bed . he had tired you out instead of helping you study. you whine at him “I think you made a mess in my tummy daddy..” satisfied, he pulls out making you twitch, he watches the semen drip out your abused cunt. it would be a lie if he said he don’t want to go again but seeing how you already fell asleep he waves away the thought. the next morning you wake up and toji isn’t cuddling you like he usually is, your thighs are all cleaned up and your in a new shirt, probably his, but toji isn’t anywhere to be found. five minutes later he walks through the door with a delicious smelling bag of food. “oh g’morning toj! I couldn’t find you.” you hug him at the door “i js wanted to get you something to eat and something else to help you study with.” puzzled you twist your head while chewing on some bacon “flash cards?” you ask him still chewing “yeah babydoll, flash cards, im gonna help you study.”

[lupinsweater]

Already screaming crying kicking my legs and giggling, hope that appointment goes SO WELL babes omg x

thank you!! my husband is doing a ton better🤎 hope you enjoy this mini-drabble! it’s a little different but i had fun writing it!

part one part two part three part four

Teacher!James Potter x Single Mom!Reader 💌 890 words

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EMAILS BETWEEN YOU AND JAMES

Subject: Thanks for Volunteering!

From: j.potter@godricshollowprimary.org

To: y/nandcharlie@gmail.com

Monday, 9:45 AM

Hi Y/N,

I just wanted to reach out and thank you again for helping with reading time on Friday. The kids loved hearing you read, and Charlie was so excited to have you there. I really appreciate you taking the time- I know how busy you are!

Hope it wasn’t too chaotic for you!

Take care,

James

ATTACHMENT: 1 IMAGE (a photo James took on his phone of you and Charlie- he’s holding It’s the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown! and grinning madly. You are crouched down so your cheek is pressed to his, and you have an arm around his side- your face is practically glowing with pride as you smile at the phone.)

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Subject: Re: Thanks for Volunteering!

From: y/nandcharlie@gmail.com

To: j.potter@godricshollowprimary.org

Monday, 12:37 PM

Hi James!

I actually had a blast with your class. The kids were all so sweet, and it was great to be able to see Charlie in the classroom. I’m glad the feeling was mutual! I’d love to volunteer again if you ever need the help. And no- it wasn’t too chaotic. In fact, I think you have those kids trained pretty well.

Thanks for the photo- it’s so sweet! Charlie looks so happy.

Best,

Y/N

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Subject: Random Thought

From: j.potter@godricshollowprimary.org

To: y/nandcharlie@gmail.com

Tuesday, 4:15 PM

Hey Y/N!

Okay, this is totally random, but I was just thinking about our conversation on Friday before the kids came back in from recess. I hope I didn’t make you uncomfortable buying those books for you to read- I really did need some new books for the classroom, and I figured I’d buy some that you would like since you were helping me out for the afternoon.

By the way, Charlie won’t stop talking about how awesome it was to have you read to the class. I was starting to think that I was catching up to you as his favorite adult, but I think I still have a long way to go ;)

James

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Subject: Re: Random Thought

From: y/nandcharlie@gmail.com

To: j.potter@godricshollowprimary.org

Tuesday, 5:02 PM

James,

Don’t even worry! I wasn’t uncomfortable at all- I actually thought it was so sweet and was definitely very flattered. Also, don’t kid yourself. We both know Sirius is his favorite adult, and he was only with him for about an hour. I think you might be a close second, though. We pretty much spend our evenings around here talking about how cool you are ;)

Also, please tell me you’re not still at the school that late. You need some time to yourself, too!

Y/N

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Subject: Coffee?

From: j.potter@godricshollowprimary.org

To: y/nandcharlie@gmail.com

Wednesday, 8:36 AM

Y/N,

Yesterday was a late day! I usually try to get out of there earlier and grade papers while I get a coffee. Speaking of which…there’s this great little cafe a couple of blocks away from the school. If you ever need a break, you should check it out! I’m there pretty often, so it would be great to grab a coffee with you sometime!

No pressure, just throwing it out there :)

Talk soon,

James

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Subject: Re: Coffee?

From: y/nandcharlie@gmail.com

To: j.potter@godricshollowprimary.org

Wednesday, 11:48 AM

James,

Glad to hear you don’t live at the school ;)

Are you asking me out? Because if you are…I just might say yes. Either way, I could definitely use some caffeine, so coffee sounds great.

Let me know what works for you! I’m off this Friday.

Y/N

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Subject: Re: Coffee?

From: j.potter@godricshollowprimary.org

To: y/nandcharlie@gmail.com

Wednesday, 11:50 AM

You caught me ;) I totally am asking you out. Friday would be great- the kids get out early that day, so if you can find a sitter for Charlie by then we could do 3? Also, just making sure you knew that the art night the school is throwing is Thursday!

Looking forward to seeing you!

James

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Subject: Re: Coffee?

From: y/nandcharlie@gmail.com

To: j.potter@godricshollowprimary.org

Wednesday, 11:52 AM

3 is perfect! Charlie and I will be at the art night Thursday for sure! And don’t worry about the sitter- I’ve got someone in mind already!

See you then :)

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TEXTS BETWEEN YOU AND LILY

Wednesday, 11:55 AM

You: Hey Lily! Any chance you’re free to babysit Charlie this Friday at like 2:45? James just asked me out for coffee, and I kinda said yes👀

Lily: OMG no way

Lily: James as in JAMES?

You: What other James do we know?

Lily: Fair

Lily: But YES of course I’ll watch Charlie!

Lily: I’m literally screaming rn🙌

You: You’re a lifesaver!!

You: Also, please don’t tell Charlie that’s where I’m going…

You: If things don’t work out I don’t want him to be disappointed :/

Lily: Of course!

Lily: I’m so excited for you omggg

Lily: Have so much fun! ❤️

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EMAILS BETWEEN YOU AND JAMES

Subject: Re: Coffee?

From: j.potter@godricshollowprimary.org

To: y/nandcharlie@gmail.com

Wednesday, 12:00 PM

I’ll see you on Friday, then xx

James

[luffyvace]

MORE LUFFY RELATIONSHIP HEADCANONS

Yeahhh!!! Luffy hcs we’re what my first ever hcs were about! Look how far I’ve come! I love Luffy and I’m so proud of myself! enjoy these Luffy hcs lovely readers <3

Bathing together is SUPER FUN

and messy

you have lots (too many) bubbles

and yes bath toys

even stuff that’s not supposed to be in the bath-

like sticks-

let him tell it they’re swords

he personally doesn’t bathe bc he doesn’t care

even if its mandatory seeing as though no one wants to smell all that funk 😀

so he canonly bathes once a week right??

with you !! He can bathe at any time!

why? Cuz it’s funn 😆😆

you turn it into a game! an adventure!

so now he looks forward to bath time ;3

luffy splashes water everywhere

I wouldn’t be surprised if the ceiling is drenched with that dude’s strength 😂🤦‍♀️

it takes you FOREVER to clean up

but you know what takes even longer?? GETTING HIM OUT THE BATH

”AWWW but we were having sooo much FUUUUN (NAAAAAME)”

actually it did take a long time til you found a cheat code 😋

tell him sanji’s making food!!

ez way to get him out 😎

The final boss tho??

is getting him to help out with cleaning the mess up

especially after you told him there’s food around🧍‍♀️

Now bro’s DEFINITELY not listening 🙉

unless you use another cheat code (saying you’ll tell sanji not to give him any meat til he helps clean up)

your not getting any help buddy..

he’s already gone by the time you get him out the bath 🤷‍♀️

but again! If you use cheat code no.2 you can get him to help :)

which leads me to…!

Cleaning together !!

which turns into a game too :P

well, more like a competition-

Because that’s the only way you’ll keep him from getting bored and complaining instead of actually cleaning

even with meat on the line 🤭

‘it’s just so boriiiiiiiing ☹️‘

- according to luffy

so yes! You propose a competition!

and whoever cleans the fastest wins the prize of…….you guessed it! MEAT!

now he’s up like a whirlwind, swiping up all the soap with a towel and water with tissue 😏

you probably don’t even have to do anything anymore 😜

he may have won the battle but you won the war

eating together can also sometimes be a competition

now you can win by playing it smart like Uta

or just agree so he can leave you to eat, without actually trying

but if it’s not a competition…it’s certainly a war..

and I mean the dangerous one every straw hat goes through each time sanji calls in for food..

Luffy stealing your food!!!

😦😦

no but seriously, not even you, Luffy’s s/o gets the benefit of the doubt⁉️

it’s every man for himself in the dining room 😂😂

if your intelligent, depending on if your more like Robin or Nami you’ll either be unbothered about his antics or super annoyed

with being unbothered you’ll have a lot more peace of mind

and luffy will probably get away with more of his tomfoolery because you put up with him 😆👍

however with a s/o more like nami who gets annoyed easily, yeah he’s not getting away with any of that

thankfully for her, nami has less to stress over now (you take 50% it’s a requirement)

If your more carefree like luffy

i can guarantee you’ve got on like every straw hats nerves at least once

oddly enough I have a feeling you haven’t been able to bother brook just yet

dude’s 90 he got bigger problems..

but yes you terrorize everyone (even outside the straw hats) whether it’s intentional or not

if your strong it’s a relief for luffy not to have to worry about you and he’ll send you to defeat some guys, protect the ship or protect one of your weaker Nakama

he highly believes in you and your capabilities likes he believes in Zoro 👍

he also doesn’t have to worry about strong attacks hurting you as badly or if you go off on your own/get lost or separated or smth

especially as his s/o

if your weak he probably worries about you a little bit more but all the straw hats can handle themselves to some sort of extent

and he knows for sure you won’t go down without a fight!

and that you can at least hold over until he gets there

then he’ll beat the crap outta those guys!

he always tells someone strong to go with you to fights or what might be dangerous

if he doesn’t have to be somewhere for some reason, he’ll go himself!

he just wants to know your safe :)

Luffy loves you because your you! and he really just appreciates that fact in itself.

he looks past physical appearances completely and goes straight for personality

and even then he doesn’t judge that!

point is, no matter what type of anything you are, Luffy loves you because he just does.

he gets a funny feeling in his stomach and he gets extra excited!

Luffy loves you.

He simply does.

and there’s no explaining why.

These were short but sweet<3

to which i hope you enjoyed them💗

[dulaglutide]

The clones with a female reader with separate anxiety who is clingy?

Only if you have time! I love your work!

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!! Warnings⚠️: none

Hantengu clones x clingy! fem reader

Aizetsu

He would never want to leave you

He would like how much affection you give him but it might be a little much sometimes

He understands how hard it must be for you to be left alone without him there

When he has to leave for a mission he will be very affectionate before he goes

He will hug you from behind a lot and love it when he hears your little giggle

He is always thinking of you while he’s gone

Don’t worry he also has separation anxiety!!!!

He will always kiss you on the forehead of cheek before he leaves

He will always try to come back with something that he thought you would like

He will blush a lot when you randomly start hugging him

If you hug or kiss him a lot in front of the other clones he will want you to stop but he won’t tell you that because he doesn’t want to make you sad

Sekido

He hates it at first

But one day he would be sitting down thinking about you and then realize that this is just your way of saying “I love you”

He will only let you hug and kiss him in private

If you dare to hug him in front of the other clones he will push you off of him but he will grab you hand and hold it giving you hard or soft squeezes every now and then

It’s his way of saying “not right now” while still give you some form of contact

He will get mad that you have separation anxiety but he knows you also can’t control it

He will try his best not to yell at you when you beg him to stay

If he does yell at you expect to wake up the next morning to your favorite kind of flowers on the bed

He has a soft spot for you but he won’t show it much

Karaku

He will carry you EVERYWHERE

You will be taken on missions with him because he knows the demon slayers can’t hurt you

He finds it fun to “save” you from them

He will only leave you alone if he has to go back into the main body to go see Muzan

Even then he will be secretly worried about you because of your separation anxiety

He will make sure to give you all of the affection you can ask for

He won’t show it but he worries about how easily stressed you are when he leaves

He will constantly kiss you

If anything he is more clingy than you

You will be shown affection in many different ways if you get what I mean

If you hug him in front of the others he will pick you up in his arms and not let you go

Urogi

Don’t worry he is also clingy

You will be brought on missions with him he can protect you and he knows you can’t be hurt easily

You and him will go flying constantly

He will always be holding you

He loves to make you laugh and smile

If he has to leave you he will make sure to give you more hugs and kisses than usual when he comes back to make all of that anxiety go away

He is a walking plushie

SQUISH HIM IN YOUR ARMS HE WILL BE SO HAPPY

His wings will be around you 50% of the time

He will blush a lot when you hug him out of the blue though

You can barley ever get up off the futon because he is on top of you sleeping or cuddling you or both

He will be worried when he has to leave you alone though

Hope you liked it!

[kentocidal]

50. (Fluff) "this isn't adrenaline, i want to spend my life with you." with Katsuki Bakugo

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he came in through the window.

you were sleeping, or at least trying to, considering your bed always felt empty when he was away on long missions. not to mention the fact that you were worried because you hadn’t heard from him in, like, five days, but who’s counting?

you were. you were counting. five days 18 hours 31 minutes and 17 seconds without hearing back from one mister katsuki bakugou, the love of your life, one of the biggest pro-heroes in japan.

it hadn’t been uncommon, not by a long shot, but you hated it nonetheless.

however, in the present, it was as if he had heard your stuffy dreams and worries and came back to your aid, pushing up the window from outside (you didn’t have a balcony, by the way) and landing on your bedroom floor with a low thump.

you sat up straight in bed, now on high alert, ready to activate your own quirk at the intruder, but instead you were met with the darkened figure of your beloved. you sucked in a small breath as his eyes caught the streetlights just right.

he looked… he looked completely lost. a shell of himself.

he came back like this sometimes. not always, because he was older and more resilient now, but… sometimes he came back empty. and him climbing through the window and staring at you in the dark just goes to show that this was one of those times.

“katsuki…” you sighed softly, trying to make light of the situation, “you’re back. you scared the shit out of me, you know.”

he just stood there for another moment before wordlessly dropping his gauntlets to your bedroom floor, one at a time, making you flinch at the weight of them hitting the ground. “kats, what did i say about dropping your stuff like that? you’re gonna put holes in our floors.” 

he grunted in response, sucking his teeth as he kicked one boot off, then the next, and you watched as something dark smeared across the floor. dirt? blood? you weren’t sure. you didn’t want to know. 

bakugou moved then, finally closer to you, his large, lumbering form suddenly dropping to his knees at your bedside and making you take in a breath of worry. “katsuki? what’s going on? what happened?”

you shifted closer to the edge of the bed, and that simply allowed him to scooch closer to you and drop his cheek to your lap over the covers, reaching for your hands.

you blinked at him. he must have seen things you’ll never know of. he’ll keep it to himself, most likely, no matter how hard you try to get him to open up.

your one hand found its way to his hair, your other entwining fingers with his. you scratched his scalp, felt the sweat and the grime of fighting. his hand was wet and you hoped it was sweat. you couldn’t tell in the dark.

“you’re an angel.”

“what?” you carded your fingers through his hair and squeezed his hand. 

“you’re a fuckin’ angel, that’s what i said.” he snapped right back at you, but there was no edge to it. “you’re always waitin’ for me to come back ‘n shit. even when i probably smell disgusting.”

he did, but that was besides the point. “honey, it’s okay. i understand. just because i wait for you doesn’t make me an angel. makes me a damn good partner, though.”

“i’m going to marry you,” he mumbled into the blankets over your lap, burying his face more into your clothed thighs, and you squeaked softly.

“katsuki, are you- i think you’re still running on fumes. adrenaline. don’t make promises you don’t want to keep.”

"this isn't adrenaline, i want to spend my life with you." he shifted his head in your lap to look up at you with those carmine eyes you had known for years by now. “i will. i’m gonna fuckin’ marry you. soon, too. i’ll do it right. shit like this makes me know i will.’

you felt your cheeks warm as you petted his hair in the dark, smiling softly at him. “i know you will. i’ll let you marry me… if you shower before getting into bed tonight.” “let me stay here for a little longer.”

“i am.”

[starsurface]

I love how you write diapered babyspace Liu Kang with his CG’s, it’s so precious! I was wondering…babyspace Nightwolf in diapers with CG Fujin? They’re so cute! ❤️

I'm so glad you liked the others!! :D

(Some strong languageuse) Before we get to the hcs, I want to say that there is nothing wrong with using or needing diapers. Some people use diapers use them for weird kink related things, but with age regression they are used for comfort and unfortunate inconvenience. Do not come to my blog because you wish to relate this with any kind of kink. Kindly fuck off and leave my blog alone, thank you.

^ This isn’t to bash regressors btw!!! This is me saying to fuck off if your a dd/lg or any type of blog like that. <3

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

CG Fujin w/ Babyspace Padded Nightwolf Hcs

☁️ Nightwolf slips into babyspace on two occasions:

🐺 The first is a very scary case of Reverant Nightmares where he wakes up feeling extra tiny and scared

☁️ ^ It was also the first time he ever had an accident too, poor boy was going through it :(

🐺 Don’t worry, Fujin was able to help calm him down, he could see that Nightwolf was tinier than usual, but in the moment that wasn’t what mattered

☁️ What mattered was making sure his baby felt peaceful and safe again, nothing else 😤

🐺 Nightwolf was also really embarrassed by having an accident, because he’s never had one before!! Why now? Why was this one different? Why did he feel even more fuzzy than normal? It wasn’t fair … :(

☁️ Bathtime helped him cheer up, little Nightwolf loves bathtime, and Fujin gave him extra bubbles and toys <3

🐺 Sometimes when Nightwolfs small or Fujin can tell that he’s been showing signs of regressing, Fujin will put down some of those potty training bed pad things so that their sheets don’t get ruined (he even got one with a wolf design on it! :D)

☁️ Nightwolf doesn’t like that one bit, either he was a big kid or he didn’t need some silly thing!! >:(

🐺 So to make fair, Fujin also had one, and it dimmed down Nightwolf’s complaining (he was still grumpy though)

☁️ He doesn’t want to admit that they’ve become useful though, especially in scary scenarios where Fujin doesn’t have to leave to change the sheets

🐺 And the second scenario (and much happier scenario) is where he just slips really really tiny after a long day

☁️ Baby Nightwolf is also an energetic baby, similar to his toddler headspace

🐺 Fujin looks away to cut a sandwich and- How’d he get to the porch? The door was closed?!

☁️ Luckily baby Nightwolf is also a bit clingy, so he’ll just have Fujin carry him outside instead!! :D

🐺 Nightwolf is a bit . . . iffy wearing padding, especially at first

☁️ He’s Nightwolf, protector of the Matoka, not some baby that needs padding or has accidents :(

🐺 But knowing that sometimes Fujin wore it too when he was extra tiny (I did a different Hc list on this) did really help

☁️ Normally he just needs it for naptime, but sometimes he’ll wear it when he’s in babyspace

🐺 His favorite design would be something forestry, maybe wolf prints or something (although he likes plain too)

☁️ He does end up being more okay using them as time goes on, but only Fujin can know >:(

🐺 Completely off-topic, but baby Nightwolf is a BITER

☁️ I know I said earlier that he wasn’t, but that was Toddlerspace Nightwolf, this is Babyspace Nightwolf . . . So it totally cancels out 😎

🐺 Doesn’t matter what it is, his ax, Fujin’s arm, or an actual teething ring, this man chews!

☁️ ^ Fujin does take away the ax, much to Nightwolf’s dismay :(

🐺 Sometimes it’s harsh biting, othertimes it’s just soft chewing, so Fujin’s got a 50/50 on this

☁️ Although he doesn’t really encourage biting people anyways (unless it’s Nightwolf’s replaces for kisses, because those are always soft) so that’s why Nightwolf has some chew rings

🐺 Does Nightwolf use them? . . . He does, but stuffies make good chew toys too!! :D

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Uuuh, after Hc list words. :3

[casanovawrites]

random sentence prompts  ━ from various tv shows, part 8

it’s hard to figure out where you fit in. 

it’s not so easy for me to make friends. i’m not cool like you.

you’re making it really hard for me to be mad at you right now.

it was my fault. i made a mess of it.

something dreadful is about to happen.

high school is the best your life was ever going to get.

you’re gonna leave here thinking that you need to worry about me, but you’re wrong.

we did so much fucked up shit out there. and yeah, maybe it was to survive. maybe. but i don’t think we deserved to.

if you’re done crying, i can tell you some stories.

you sound like you’re about to snap someone in half with that tongue of yours. 

what are you saying, i’m not innocent?

i don’t want to be something you have to learn to live with.

you know me. i don’t always listen.

you are my ghost story.

i know you don’t think you’re strong enough, but that’s not true.

it’s family. there’s always an explosion. 

someone like you, you seem serious. i’m not sure i’m ready for serious.

understand that i love you, but i will not be waiting up for you.

i spent a long time feeling like i wasn’t enough, and i don’t want to do that anymore.

what about you and me against the world? you and me in the world.

you think i’m lonely?

your job is cooler than mine.

stop smiling, i’m kicking your ass.

i’m chasing ghosts. long story.

you’re itching for a fight.

your neck, it’s bleeding.

there’s “packing away” and there’s “throwing away.”

this is what i get for disobeying your orders.

do you wanna die? answer me. do you wanna die?

you can’t put all your feelings in a box.

we’re actually back on the same side.

if what matters to you most is how other people see you, then you haven’t learned a damn thing.

you think pain is weakness?

why are you worried about a lack of trauma?

we're finally hot, at least according to me.

with them, it’s always two steps forward, then get stabbed in the back.

i crack myself open for 50 minutes, walk out feeling like i was hit by a bus.

i kissed someone. or, they kissed me.

i don’t want to keep on making the same mistakes.

you’re family. it’s what we do. we look out for each other.

are you going to come back?

i don’t have anywhere else to go. you made sure of that.

you were worth the wait.

i guess now i know all your secrets. 

don’t make it weird. i love you.

i’d hate for things to get messy again.

talk about your dumb luck.

it doesn’t matter. you always come first.

why is it your job to take those risks?

i’m saying, i love you. and i want you to quit. 

it was a big deal to me. you saved my life.

the truth is worth everything.

don’t settle for being half of anything. go out there and do something that allows you to be 100% you.

people go away. i don’t want to miss anyone else.

people go away. and it’s sad and it hurts. but you know, not everyone goes away forever. sometimes they come back.

i know what it’s like to be stuck inside the worst part of your life.

no offense, but you’re never the one getting left behind. you’re the one who leaves.

now it’s time for me to figure out who i am without you.

you are like, out of control. 

you know i’m really in love with you, right?

if today can be a good day, maybe tomorrow can, too. 

i already feel like a fool. i don’t need the rest of the world to know the joke.

everyone wants to save the world, they just disagree on how.

i wonder if anyone survived.

i’m not usually the “take it easy” type.

do you ever want something good to happen? a really good thing?

there are no answers here.

your type is losers.

one nightmare isn’t necessarily a reason for concern.

that’s not why i came. i’m only here for you, in case you needed me.

i have walked through fire every single day of my life because of you.

you're so hot when you talk shit like that.

it’s all a goddamn prison anyway.

you want a natural disaster? look no further than my life.

i haven’t felt it in years, and it feels wonderful. but it also feels fucking terrifying.

if i’m repressing things i don’t know about, i’m very okay with never figuring it out.

you should be ashamed.

i love you. and as long as i know you feel the same, i can say it enough for the both of us.

i feel a lot of things when i’m with you. happy, safe, a million other things that i can’t explain right now. but i do feel all of that for you.

i’m not pushing anyone away. i’m taking steps back.

home isn’t a place, it’s a people.

all you’ve got out there is your instincts.

love me anyway.

i don’t think good things are gonna happen to me anymore.

sometimes the hardest part is going home by yourself, being alone with all that quiet.

if it’s meant to be, they’ll find their way home.

no one gets under their daughter’s skin like a mom.

i’m not ashamed. i’m glad i’m alive, just like you are.

you’re a good person. you really don’t belong in this place.

life isn’t a science experiment. you can’t control your world forever.

do you ever get tired of winning? or being the fucking worst?

you two together, you are unstoppable.

so who’s gonna die today? you? or me?

hey, you’re back. are you back…?

i know you’re afraid of people leaving you.

i’m afraid that i’m never going to feel normal again.

[justabackroundcharacter]

Thoughts while watching Wish:

- base princess personality trope

- Never getting over the face that the goat is named Valentino

- 7 dwarfs vibes with the friends

- Hans type character

- Weird ass love song to wishes

- Evil Chris Pratt went from 1-100 really fast

- The wife was 1000000% the kings wish and he used magic to get it

- Angry guy is played by GIZMO MY BELOVED

- 100 year old man move like a 60 year old fr

- Asha also goes from 50-100 real fast

- My favorite song was a little disappointing:(

- What she’s singing and what the animation gives dosent match

- Wifey is CLUELESS

- We could’ve had A STAR BOY INSTEAD WE GET THIS THING

- Star is still cute

- When you are a Star and accidentally make a devils trap in the tree lol

- IM A STAR ⭐️

- thanks for not eating me John

- Throwing books like your cramming for a test

- King is bipolar like actually tho

- EVERYTHING IS FINE

- What are you five ?

- DANCING CHICKENS

- Best friends help each other commit crimes against the kingdom

- King really is evil he made everyone go to an assembly and they aren’t even in school

- WAIT WAS KING SUPPOSED TO BE AN ALIEN

- how old is the king ? Do we know at all ?

- Casually dooms yourself to an eternity of pain because you got insecure

- HE HAS A SECRET LAIR LIKE HAWKMOTH

- ok how do wishes work again ? Was gramps not free to still inspire people

- Not the mom pleading for her daughter to only get her wish trampled on (definitely don’t need to look at how accurate that is)

- Star said SQUARE TF UP

- He’s literally just your king hit him with your bookshelf

- Returns to your stable if anyone asks pLaY dUmB

- when you have to speed run the 5 stages of grief bc you are the main character damnit

- I know what your thinking- WELL I DONT girl that star doesn’t have an expression on his face

- I can not swim *proceeds to jump into the water with reckless abandon *

- You’ve been hit by, you’ve been stuck by LOSS OF YOUR WISH

- ‘AMYIA darling your just in time come meet my new TOY’ why would you WRITE IT LIKE THAT

- Hot take anyone who calls their partner darling is on THIN FUCKING ICE

- King man went insane that is fun

- HANS KNOCK OFF BETRAYED THEM I FUCKING KNEW IT

- Dont worry im a talking mouse but very clean

- When you only want to be a loyal knight but you end up betraying your friends- happens to the best of us dude

- Good find Valentino - my butt found it

- introverts deserve sanctuary— louder for the people in the back

- STRIKE, STRIKE newsies vibes

- YES fulfill your Sabos wish

- doc and dopey slayed

- They all did

- They are like any queer friend group fr

- the chase scene is cool

- YAZ QUEEN GET YOUR HUSBAND

- I was fooled by the love I felt- Its ok queen you were definitely manipulated not your fault

- Don’t destroy never land you bastard

- A stick ? What am I supposed to do with this ?

- The MUSHROOMS 🍄

- Poor gizmo can’t catch a break no matter what universe he’s in

- a dress on a tree more likely than you think

- Dude bro dear got into the mushrooms fr

- Sometimes a plan is just you and your six friends jumping from a high place

- FUCKING HANS GOT ME AGAIN

- thanks John

- Your so right bunnies are terrifying

- Nope nope nope nope nope

- StAr GeT aWaY fRoM tHeRe

- WAIT IS HE MAGIC MIRRIR GUY

- Yay singing again

- THE power of collective singing will always save the day

- GREEN SMOKE

- MyWiShEs dude get a grip

- Simon and queen should be besties now

- LONG LIVE THE QUEEN

- Peter Pan origin story 👀👀

- ZOOTOPIA ?!?

- bippty boppty boo the magic wand is fixed

- Give GIZMO THE WAND 😭he deserves it

- Fireworks yay

- 5/10 movie

[artzychic27]

Got any headcanons for the kids from the Monster School?

Nathaniel CAN’T swim. The moment he sets foot in the water, he sinks to the bottom. So, he’s not exactly the life of the party at pool parties

Nino absolutely hates fire. “Fire bad!”

Lacey’s fire can turn different colors when she comes into contact with certain chemicals

Only Denise can tell when Simon is winking

Chloé and Zoé get to school by sandstorm, and it gets EVERYWHERE

Marinette is always getting caught in her sewing machine. She sometimes confuses her skin for the fabric she’s sewing with

Alya and Jean sweat ectoplasm

Nathaniel is the only one unaffected by Alix’s gorgon powers since he’s already made of stone

Adrien is always the first one to find his friends body parts and reattaches them so many times, that he can reassemble Nino and Rose without looking

Marc is easily distracted by bright lights. Seriously, keep him away from bug zappers

Cosette actually likes the color red

Kim has nineteen younger brothers and one sister. And his sister is the only one who listens to him

If he feels the need to retaliate, he will scoot across your carpet

Ismael HATES cucumbers. They’re just… There.

Ivan and Denise are related

Mylène likes to braid flowers into her friends hair… Or fur

Aurore has actually met aliens that look like the ones in 50s sci-fi movies, and they are so sweet

Mireille sometimes gets sucked into drains. Don’t worry, she figures her way out… Eventually

While Max prefers his steam powered tech, he’s willing to learn about modern day appliances

Reshma, obviously, gives the best hugs. Oh, and she likes to hang out on the ceiling

Ondine is actually best friends with a kraken, and the rumors are false, because he’s a sweetheart. Kim’s totally not jealous

Sabrina knows all of the secret passageways around school to get to classes quickly. And if there’s not enough time, Alix gives her a ride on her skates

Nose rings are sort of a status symbol in Minotaur culture, and Cosette wears bejeweled rings proudly

Kim and Ismael are actually good friends

Rose knows the skeleton in the mad science lab

Luka and Juleka commission Nathaniel to sketch their portraits in place of selfies

They also don’t like the taste of human blood, so they drink a substitute; you can hardly tell the difference

Lacey is her friends’ go-to when they get too cold, and the same goes for Ivan when his friends get too hot

Denise, Ivan, and Marc are all Cryptid Kids and just wanna clear up a few things

Marc: No, I did not cause that bridge in Virginia to collapse! And those people were obviously color blind, because my eyes are green, not red. And as for me chasing them? I was warning them about their broken taillight.

Denise: Huh? Oh, yeah, that was me in the photo. Yeah, I was just walking through the woods, minding my own business, and this guy just whips out his camera, and I’m like, “Uh, hi?” Then he just takes off. Uh, rude.

Ivan: Some fancy guys found my footprints in the snow. For your information, my shoes were killing me, so I took them off, creating the footprints.

Ismael cannot be let near catnip. He gets all whacked out and starts running around like a lunatic. It takes forever to catch him

Ismael: *Laughing and running around while his friends try to catch him*

Aurore: Ismael! Get your butt back here!

Reshma: *Shoots webs at him, but he just keeps dodging* How can he be so good at this while high?!

Kim barely gets a wink of sleep becuase his siblings keep him up at night

Simon is of some nobility. His family’s got a castle in Ireland he visits every summer. He also visits Greece to meet up with some distant relatives

Nathaniel can often be found on the school roof with the other gargoyles when he doesn’t have classes. They either tease him about Marc, give him some good relationship advice, or they spend their time scoping out anyone who looks suspicious

Ondine sometimes falls asleep in the pool

Jean’s quite fond of Elvis

[ink-flavored]

sorry if youre not still doing kinky asks but ;;; 💊🥸💌🦵+a wild card whichever one you want for Priscilla?

there is one fact you should know about me: i am always doing the kinky asks

Priscilla it is! And I'm going to take that wildcard as an excuse to talk about her weird gender 👍

💊Are they vigilant about birth control and safe sex, or more flippant?

Well, contraceptives were illegal in America from 1873-1918. Considering this story takes place in the 1930s, and the 20s were kinda all over the place with both support and opposition (especially during all of the eugenics shit that happened at around the same time), contraception was barely able to be talked about in public again. Priscilla definitely wouldn't have grown up knowing about it, but it sure as hell didn't stop her from having sex anyway.

Now that she and Henry have worked their way up to being a crime boss power-couple, she has more access to birth control, but she still doesn't care. She has bigger things to worry about. Crimes to commit, cops to bribe, drugs to sell, etc.. Not to mention she's a married woman, now! Her days of partying and hook-ups are (mostly) behind her!

🥸How do they feel about hook-ups and casual sex? Would they ever seek out sex from a stranger? How would they react if propositioned?

In her younger years, Priscilla took full advantage of the relative sexual freedom woman had in the 20s. She frequented illegal alcohol-serving establishments to hook up with strangers, and when she got into supplying those establishments with illegal substances, that didn't stop. Until she married Henry, of course, and at that point they agreed no more free hookups—prostitutes only. And only in the brothels they own, so the money would always get back to them. Win-win!

If propositioned for a free hook-up now, Priscilla would laugh and flash her wedding ring (and possibly a knife), and insist the silly young man go play with the other girls his age.

💌What do they seek out in terms of sexual compatibility?

Priscilla needs someone who can like... handle her. She gets rough, sometimes violent, and won't stop until she's satisfied. Loud, unapologetic, and almost insatiable.

Henry is her perfect match, because he can basically pick her up by the scruff of the neck when she's losing her mind, and doesn't mind getting a few bruises during the act.

🦵Favorite non-sexual body part on themself? On others?

Priscilla likes her arms. They're robust from years of crime-ing and make her look tough. She likes to be intimidating—she wants you to be a little afraid of her.

As for others, Priscilla likes a brickshithouse of a man. You need look only to her husband to see this. Broad shoulders have always been her weakness, and she has, in fact, literally climbed him like a tree before.

⚧️How does their gender influence their relationship to sex and kink?

Priscilla's fun gender all started when I wrote this exchange:

Henry sighed, resting a hand on her shoulder. “Percy—” She shrugged it off and took a step away. “Don’t ‘Percy’ me. I’m not even a man today, in case you hadn’t noticed.” “I did.”

Lo. A gender was born.

So yes, Priscilla's nickname is Percy. It's also the name she goes by when she's a man. I don't know if she's genderfluid or bigender or a drag king or all of them or some other flavor of trans person, but that's the gist.

In general, Percy was who Priscilla had to be in order to join the mob as a participant and not a woman to be sold into prostitution. When he got enough notoriety, he was able to "reveal" his status as a woman and keep her position (with Henry's help), but after being Percy for so long, she found she enjoyed being a man every now and then. It's not exactly 50/50, but Percy has a whole different wardrobe for himself when he likes being masculine, puts his hair up, and feels a whole lot better for it. And when she's back to Priscilla, she can easily throw on the dresses and make-up again.

Priscilla, as mentioned above, is a wild one when it comes to sex. When he feels more masculine, the kinks don't necessarily go away, but he's a lot more subdued. He's much more willing to let Henry take the lead, and enjoys more of a back-and-forth with their power dynamics as opposed to the very one sided display when she feels feminine. He's still loud and can go all night if he wants to, but Henry picking him up like a sack of potatoes is sexy instead of frustrating. That sort of thing.

[try out my 100 Question Sex & Kink ask game]

[health-insurance-struggles]

How to Pay Your Bill

It’s time for the worst part of getting medical care: dealing with the bill.

First and foremost: there are times you will have to pay agonizing amounts of money. Sometimes, there is no way around the bill, no matter how hard we try. It's something that we can't always escape.

That doesn’t mean we can’t try.

(I have a separate post on collections agencies and credit scores HERE).

When you get a bill from a doctor, you should check your insurance claims (calling insurance post HERE and what is a claim post HERE). Don’t pay anything until you’ve checked that your insurance has received the claim, processed it, and your bill lines up.

If it doesn’t, call the billing department (post HERE). Be calm and polite. Tell them what you see and ask if they see the same thing or not. If not, ask them to put your account on hold. Ask them to contact your insurance and check what you owe. Most of the time, it’s some kind of mistake. Someone didn't write something down correctly or call the right number. A lot of the time, it can get fixed then and there.

Let's say your bill and your claims match up and it's more than you can afford (whether it's $50 or $10,000). There are a few things we can do!

Financial Hardship Funds

First, go to the provider's website and find the page titled "Insurance and Billing" or "Patient Resources". Almost everyone has something titled like that. Once you're there, look for a section titled "Pay your bill". There is usually something about financial hardships or payment plans, and that's where we're starting.

Let's have a quick side conversation because some of you need to hear it: Yes, you can apply for financial hardships. Your situation doesn't matter, whether you're single or part of a family of twelve or anywhere in between. It doesn't matter: This option is for everyone to apply for.

There are usually forms available to fill out on the website and send in to the provider. They'll review them and tell you if you qualify within their program and send you a bill with adjusted costs. This is not to say everyone qualifies, but you might as well try!

The paperwork will suck and ask you for a ton of information, usually pay stubs, tax information, reason why you're asking for a lower bill, etc. They're hard on purpose. They want you to give up and pay the whole thing. Please don't. Fill out the forms, attach the paperwork, send them in.

There are almost always deadlines, so do this sooner than later. Does it suck? Yes. Is it annoying? Yes. Can it save you money and is therefore worth it? Yes.

Payment Plans

Okay, so maybe you didn't qualify for hardship funds. Maybe you missed the deadline to apply. That's okay! We can still try to make this easier.

This time around, you do have to call the billing department (sorry). After you give them your information to pull up your account, you should ask about payment plan options. They usually have several available and are almost always willing to work with you.

Remember: Providers don't care how they get their money, they just care that they get it.

A payment plan won't make the amount go away entirely, but it can at least spread it out over time. If you do a payment plan before it goes to collections, you can avoid interest and a credit hit.

Finally...

Talk to someone. Ask politely about options to see if they'll budge and work with you. People want to get paid, they don't care how. The people on the other end of the phone are just that: people. They have bills and worries just like you, and if they can help, most will.

[sleeponthephone]

there are three ways to chart this narrative. I am living in all of them.

just try to appreciate

what you’ve got while you’ve got it

so if it ever goes away

you can say you enjoyed it while it lasted

1.

I’ve decided to be comfortable irritating you. it’s already over, in my mind. I can relax now. I can say whatever dumb shit pops into my head and send you every single post I think you’d like and ask you to hang out as often as I want. let me give you this thing I made for you. can I take a picture of you? can I take another one? I’m going to hold both your hands. the story is over! we’re just waiting on the epilogue now. in the meantime, come over and drink wine with me tonight. I’m not worrying over how much you’ll enjoy my company.

I’m going to love so much and so hard, I’ll get my heart broken by the end of the summer. this thing does go away, and I don’t want the story I tell later to be one of holding back.

dance with me, lovely. oh my goodness, it is so wonderful to laugh with you.

I had my heart broken in 2017 and again in 2019. I was too hesitant for it in 2021, but I look around and all of a sudden it is 2023! and I look around and you are next to me, and I love you so dearly I took the sun out of my eyes to see you for real.

I am laughing- and believe me, I know the bittersweet that comes after the sugar rush. the creature in me is growling softly, so tired of trying to make it easier to be with me, trying to be easier, trying not to love so hard, so wholly, so envelopingly, trying to be less boring, less anxious, less clingy, trying to be less be less be less, tired of how the only way I know how to convince people to love me is to be less, tired of being sorry it never works.

you look so cute in those black and white polka dots. I tell you. you’re sending a picture of me to your friends, telling them how hot I look in my box-dye hair and my five dollar sunglasses. for now? for now. I can be happy in the for now.

and you don’t need me to tell it to you, that friendship breakups hurt the most. you say any one of the people you’ve loved, even the awful ones, could turn up on your doorstep now, and you would still offer them the couch. you say you always love full-throttle. I shift into sixth gear and say race me as reckless driver by lizzy mcalpine is blasting.

- I love you. I am through with trying to make it as forgivable an offense as I can.

I’ll rewrite this whole life and this time there’ll be so much love,

you won’t be able to see beyond it.

2.

sometimes I feel that I am restarting my younger years, writing a better life over the one I had. I split my trinkets with my friends 50-50. the two most important things in the world to know about zir, their favorite ice cream flavor alongside their parking spot preference. dying red into their hair and for a moment it could be sticky fingers and koolaid colors. I cut out hundreds of pictures to color my walls. I hang the string lights up, and I am so in love with myself it’s hard to imagine I’ve ever been alone. we snap photo after photo after photo like it’s muscle memory from a disposable camera at eight years old. I give myself the abundance to push back against an old scarcity. I hold both your hands! why shouldn’t I?

in our barbie movie marathon, we will only have pink drinks- strawberry gin, rosé, pink lemonade mixers. a friendship bracelet for valentine’s day, a frog for springtime, a felt bird in summer. let me sit with my hands in the dirt and make something for you. let me see if I can find it, push past the pillbugs and the millipedes and the worms, graze over the rocks and potatoes- yes! I pull it out for you.

needle in my hands, thread pulling through, and it comes again, this sense of deja vu I’m so prone to. perhaps in a dream, perhaps in another life, but I know I have done this before. and it’s nice- whenever I catch myself in a moment like that, it feels like an affirmation that I have been making the right choices, that this is the point I was predestined to arrive to. we are in the right timeline, because I am sitting here making art for someone I love.

- I’m worried, because what if you see how much I love you? I’m excited, because: isn’t that the point?

that’s the kind of heartbreak

time could never mend

3.

summer is only my third favorite season. I don’t think any of my selves would be upset by my saying it is the best of me, the one that comes alive in the first half of summer. she is brilliant, filled with laughter and confidence and a love untinged by anxiety. oh, I can’t help but love her, raining flowers and flashes of green. she loves herself better, and she loves him a little better, for coming to us in the cold months when the fear leeches out from me like a sickness and choosing to love anyway, for staying long enough to see the gold catch in our eyes in june.

no, they are not an answer to this thing within me. I sit with myself in this home, and I love both him and me enough. I love us all to the point of invention.

my sister has fallen in love for the first time. she is afraid of her first heartbreak. she can’t fathom how taylor could love joe for six years and not end up with him. I think of how I used to love in forevers. I fell in love with potential. I spent so much time in the future of various relationships, it became a detriment to their present. now, I romanticize the ephemeral as much as I can. I am here for the little stories of the morning, this afternoon, the brilliant night we are sharing together. I do not project into next year. I sit with you in the same room and I exist with you at the same time. it fills my whole heart up.

summer was the worst of me, for a long time. too many beginnings and endings and old friends’ birthdays. all the shattered things are stitched together now into this personhood. it is strong. I am not afraid of them breaking it. I have had the piercing ruptures, the departures that rended flesh from bone and hollowed my cheeks and left me gushing blood and hope for months. he will not cause that. whatever damage may come, time will be enough for. I will be enough for.

- and in this way I manage the eventual death of us. it is the death of us. it will not be the death of me.

xoxo

[daleiciahart]

99 Tips for Artists

This is a list that will be continuously added to as life goes on. This is a list for creators of every discipline from designers to ghost writers.

Artist Tip #1: Create every day. Be intentional with what you create, meaning have an end goal before you begin. Continue to do this for as long as you can because one day, one of those many creations may be the one that changes the world.

Artist Tip #2: You want hearts, not eyeballs. Don’t make things just because they’re pretty. Make things because you want to tug at peoples heartstrings. Make people FEEL…anything! That’s what will keep the people coming.

Artist Tip #3: Rest. Dont spend whole days in your workspace creating art. Set time aside to just chill and relax. Go outside and sit with nature. Regenerate your brain.

Artist Tip #5: Have a morgue file of inspiration. Whether it’s a Pinterest board, saved IG posts, or a folder in your computer documents, have a file system of what inspires you.

Artist Tip #6: At the end of the day, everyone is worrying about their own lives and they don’t care about you…so make whatever you want without the fear of judgement.

Artist Tip #7: Always pay attention to “coincidences”.

Artist Tip #10: There’s no better way to experiment and test a variety of ideas than sketching. It’s not magic, it’s apart of the process.

Artist Tip #11: Let your sketches be ugly. The more beautiful the sketch, the more time wasted in the testing stage. You don’t have to show people everything.

Artist Tip #12: Fear of making mistakes gets in the way of learning. With each attempt, your skill level will improve.

Artist Tip #13: Avoid making decisions based on fear. Figure out why you’re doubtful and how you can fix it.

Artist Tip #14: For better creative expression, use bad references.

Artist Tip #18: There’s no such thing as bad art if it gives you something good to talk about.

Artist Tip #19: Pretend to be making something until you actually make something.

Artist Tip #20: Refer to your art as your therapist. Take all emotion and thought that’s built up inside of you, then release it onto your work.

Artist Tip #21: There are no dumb ideas in the creative process.

Artist Tip #22: You’re not getting worse, you’re becoming more in tune with your art and noticing things you want to improve at.

Artist Tip #23: Your skill level won’t gain you popularity as an artist.

Artist Tip #24: Your best art may come from pieces you put less time and energy into.

Artist Tip #25: Feed energy, don’t suck it.

Artist Tip #26: Your art would look better if you took a step away from it and come back to it later.

Artist Tip #27: It’s okay to change your mind.

Artist Tip #30: EVERYTHING IS A REMIX. If you have no idea what to create, take something you already know and make it HUGE…or take something you already know and make it teeny tiny. Everyone takes something that’s already been made and revamps it into something new. There are fewer original ideas in the world than you think.

Artist Tip #31: The problem you have is not new. Before starting something else, look around to see how others have solved your problem. Steal their solution.

Artist Tip #32: Sometimes the crack of dawn is more inspiring than the dark night.

Artist Tip #50: GENIUS IS ETERNAL PATIENCE. Some great things take time and some don’t. Practice patience. The solutions you need will come.

Artist Tip #54: Don’t let your creativity die from the lack of support. Keep going. Someone will appreciate your work and what you’re doing.

[yippie-ki-yay]

Kissing Headcanons ; Main Four

Kind of a second part to my first post to make up for how short it was compared to what else I’ve posted. Looking back on it I feel a little bad for only writing five per character :’)

CW for slight suggestiveness!

[HANK] 

Kissing Hank might be a little hard considering his lack of a lower jaw. It’ll be messy but so long as you don’t mind he really couldn’t care less. 

If you don’t mind the mess, he may or may not try and stick his tongue down your throat. 

Again, his little biting habit comes into play here. Whether he manages to catch you off-guard or you both have been cuddled up for a while expect to leave his company with a few new bruises. 

It’s a 50/50 on whether he initiates or not. Hank doesn’t get too shy over things like that, he’ll do it if he damn well pleases (unless PDA bugs you, he’ll get the message eventually and try to tone it down!), but whe

If you make the first move though? Don’t expect to be leaving it there. 

While he’s not going to be as vocal about wanting affection, he has the advantage of likely being stronger than you. 

To put it simply, you won’t be going anywhere unless he lets you go. It’s even funnier because he’s not even being forceful about it. Hank kind of just…holds you and that’s it. Bye bye movement. 

You’re just going to have to sit there until he’s done or if you manage to squirm enough to get away. Good luck <3

[SANFORD]

Has a habit of just scooping you up and peppering your face in kisses. The face you make when he surprises you like that is too cute for him to pass up seeing. 

While it’s easy to get him to blush, it’s much harder to actually fluster him. He’ll probably figure it out and get to you first before you manage to succeed. 

It’s okay though, he finds your frustration just as cute. 

Despite his size, Sanford’s literally such a sweetheart. He’s super cuddly as well! Both of you have definitely been wrapped up on the couch before, watching some dumb movie with you giving him an occasional peck on the lips. 

He’s such a sucker for domestic moments you don’t even know-

Oddly likes it when you kiss along his tattoo! Like coming up behind him and wrapping your arms around his waist and doing that is the fastest way to soften him up. 

He’s also very much the type to kiss your injuries better! Once you’ve been seen to and gotten all patched up, he’ll take his time going over every single one. Sometimes he’s silly about it, other times he takes a softer approach. Really he just wants you to feel better :(

If you do the same for him he’ll be over the fucking moon. Really, Sanford’s just a sucker for little gestures like that. 

[DEIMOS]

Deimos is kind of the spontaneous type. Would definitely pop up out of nowhere, give you a smooch, and then go about his business like nothing happened. You’d almost think that if it weren’t for the grin he was sporting.

Whines if you do the same, funnily enough. You literally won’t be able to get rid of him unless you give in to his (albeit cute) demands. 

Like I mentioned in the first post, Deimos’ incredibly easy to fluster and it goes double for something like this. Just sweet talk him a little, trail your lips along his jaw, and you’ll have a flustered, stammering merc wrapped around your finger. 

Not that he wasn’t to begin with, but still-

There are also times where things are a little softer between your two! Whether this happens after a nightmare or it’s a quiet moment you have post-mission, it’s something that sets off the ball of worry that has undoubtedly been building in you both. 

This is probably one of the few times that Deimos can bring himself to be vulnerable - both of you tangled up in each other, sharing little whispered affirmations and soft kisses. 

You both know how easy it is to lose someone nowadays, and even if there’s options for revival it isn’t guaranteed. It’s best to just enjoy the time you both have together. It might be the last, after all…

[2BDAMNED]

Most times he’ll begrudgingly accept kisses on the cheek, grateful that his bandages and mask cover the red that spreads across his face. 

For someone who comes off as serious as he does, 2B is surprisingly soft for affectionate acts like that. So long as you don’t overwhelm him and try and keep it to when it’s just the two of you, you’ll get to see a softer side of the team’s doctor. 

While he normally relies on you to initiate, normally being too stubborn to do it himself, there have been a couple occasions where he’s pressed a soft kiss to your forehead. It’s normally when you both were winding down for the night and you ended up falling asleep before him. 

For the first few months (maybe even a little longer than that) you will not be kissing this man on the lips. It doesn’t really matter how much you ask him or try and convince him that it’s alright, in fact that might make it worse depending on just how persistent you are, it has to happen on his own terms. 

Despite his indifference and overall rough attitude, 2B’s more than a little self-conscious over his facial scars. Despite not causing him too much difficulty or pain, the scarring isn’t the ‘cool’ type (at least he doesn’t think so). It’s rigid and rough - not exactly something someone wants to put their lips close to. 

Please, once he lets you, prove him wrong. 

I’ll save the actual ‘how’ for a later drabble, but once you both finally get to that point? He might be open to doing it more often...