#don’t even know why I’m so tired tbh…but I am 😂

[aceofstars16]

I’ve already written over 1,000 words today and I’m tired but I’m so tempted to try to write more cause I don’t know if I’ll have time to write tomorrow and I really want to finish this fic before the end of January…but I think I’m gonna just get ready for bed 😂

[alwaysahiccupandastrid]

🪓 Nerdy Prudes Must Die - Some Thoughts 🪓

I decided to rewatch NPMD (second day in a row 🙈) and wanted to write down some random thoughts and reactions because why the fuck not 😌

‼️ SPOILERS FOR NPMD BELOW ‼️

I loved this show from the second it started omg I love things about murder 🤭

“Riiiiichie… Riiiiiichie…” — kind of gave off IT vibes ngl

They really killed off Jon Matteson’s nerd character in the first 35 seconds 💀

“They twisted his nipples off 🤣” - WHY WAS HE SO HAPPY ABOUT IT

THE PROJECTION OF THE TITLE IN THE VICTIM’S BLOOD, STARKID HAD HELLA BUDGET FOR THIS SHOW 🙌🏻

“🎵I’m dead…the blood is arbitrating from my head🎵” needs to become a trending TikTok sound or something oh my fucking gOD

LAUREN YOU QUEEN 🙌🏻👏🏻 also living for that fucking wig

MARIAHHHHHHH 🎵❤️

Definitely felt the “High School is Killin’ Me” “I’m so fucking dead” in my soul even though I’m a full ass adult now

“I was deep in a Twitter fight about a problematic puppy” ROFL OMFG

Joey as Peter Spankoffski 😭👏🏻

ANGELA AS GRACE CHASITY HELL FUCKIN YEAH SHE IS EATING THIS PART UP

We all knew someone at school who snitched to the teachers lbh 💀

“So you don’t wanna be bullied?” “No, I wanna be invisible.” “…then why do you come to public school dressed in suspenders and a fucking bow tie?” - PLEAAAASE 💀🤣

MICRO-PETER 😂💀

Joey taking off his glasses and going “oh god” under his breath, “IT’S NOT ACTUALLY A MICROPENIS”… oh he ATE the role, R*bert who?!?

“My titties are tenderised” - I MEAN SAME BUT-?!?

“I didn’t know you were funny.” “Neither did I.” “I like funny guys.” — I AM SORRY BUT IM ALREADY SHIPPING HARD

Actually obsessed with Richie’s hair and outfit like I can’t explain it other than I’m obsessed

IT’S MAX JÄGERMAN

“Ohh well there’s a difference between intent and impact - I learnt that at an anti bullying assembly last month, FUCK NUGGET” took me off guard tbh like I know I’m tired and easily surprised but still 🤭

GRACE CHASITY PROTESTING THE CO-ED HOMECOMING DANCE I CANNOT-

Jägerman is literally the archetype of the school bully jock who peaked in high school like omg but also he’s into Grace?!?!

“I run laps in the gym and I don’t want to slip on any SPUNK” - FUCKING HELL

“Can I carry your books for you?” “Carry my books? 🤢 I don’t think either of us are ready for that, I mean we’re only 18!”

“My little dirty girl.” — 😳😲😮‍💨

“I am only one man’s girl, Max, and his name is Jesus Christ!” — IM FUCKING HOWLING ANGELA KILLED THE DELIVERY OF THAT LINE I CANT-

“I’m a literal monster!” - oh so Max is self aware then 🤔

“This is politics, Stephanie 🙄 learn to multitask!”

I love that Starkid keep casting Corey as Mariah’s dad?!?

Stephanie is apparently her father’s “October surprise”… so her birthday is in October, like Hannah Foster’s? 🤔

“Stephanie, please, I’d like to have an intelligent conversation with you - in other words, shut up” - DAMN WHAT A BURN

NOOO NOT HER PHONE 😰 (I am also addicted to my phone so I get it lol)

NOT STEPHANIE THROWING HER HAND BETWEEN HER PHONE AND THE HAMMER OMFG (same though)

Mayor Lauter really said “I don’t give a shit if you lie, steal or cheat to get your grades up, just don’t get caught” - spoken like a true politician

“How am I supposed to study without listening to Spotify?!?” probably should not have resonated with me like it did 🤭

Peter trying to make a joke and Richie and Ruth not getting it is so relatable tbh

I’m obsessed with Ruth’s mushroom jumper tbh

“I just want someone to touch me… anyone, PLEASE” — ROFL (same girl)

“What was it like when she touched your arm?… DID YOU CUM?!?” — 💀💀💀💀

“You and Steph, it’s a fantasy - like a boy and his anime love pillows. It’s a beautiful dream, but I’ll never hold the real Rei or Asuka in my arms.” — I AM PISSING MYSELF LAUGHING JESUS FUCKING CHRIST

“I’m such a loser, telemarketers hang up on me” 💀😭

DID RICHIE JUST FUCKING SAY “NANI!” JESUS FUCKING CHRIST I CANT DEAL WITH THIS SHOW 🤣

Richie and Ruth climbing Pete like a tree and demanding to know what Stephanie is saying is so ridiculously funny 😆

“Really, Ruth? A Star Wars analogy? Need I go into why Attack on Titan is superior in every possible way?” — STARKID UNDERSTAND THE NERDS I LOVE IT

“You’re telling me I gotta be funny again?!? I didn’t do it on purpose the first time!”

“Pete, you’ve been given a once in a lifetime opportunity - someone’s willing to tolerate your presence for a whole evening! This may never happen again!” — damn wish that would happen to me 😭🙈

Not Pete getting a boner during “Cool as I think I am” 🙈

Nooooo not Max finding Pete before he could go into the restaurant to meet Stephanie 😭

“I’m sick of your ssshhhhit!” — YES PETEY STAND UP TO HIM

The fact Max said “Rendezvous” as “Randay-Voose” 💀

The way it transitioned from “say your prayers” to the Chasity family going “AMEN” was PERFECTION

Grace’s father referring to his wife as “mother” is…something 💀

“He came up to me in the hallway and he asked if he could carry my books.” “Oh, Mark - I didn’t know that sort of thing happened at Hatchetfield High! Do you think you should call the boy’s father?” — ?!?!?!

“Mom, will you pass the butt stuff? The butter. Butter. Will you pass the butter? (Chuckles nervously) I just want some head and butter. BREAD! Bread! Bread and butt-sex to go with this big shaft of meat I’m gonna choke down. Oh boy…oh criminy!” - THE SCREECH I GAVE WAS UNHOLY

“I’ve just got some butterflies in my tummy; and they’re flying REAL low today” 😭💀🙈

GRACE FANTASISING ABOUT MAX IN THE BATH I CANNOT DEAL WITH THIS

“Brewing up a big ol’ pot of dirty girl soup” - ABSOLUTELY NOT 💀

HES FUCKING SHIRTLESS WHAT THE FUCK-

“Everyone’s got their secrets, and this one’s mine. I love… Jesus! 😃” - this was when I definitely knew she was fantasising because ain’t no fucking way-

WAS THE DIRTY GIRL SONG SUPPOSED TO BE VIEWED AS HOT BECAUSE I AM VERY FLUSTERED AND CONFUSED AND TOTALLY VIBING WITH THE TUNE

🎵 DIRTY DIRTY GIRL WON’T YOU PRAY FOR ME🎵

You see, if Christian parents didn’t repress their teenager’s hormones and sexuality then MAYBE their teenagers wouldn’t resort to murder 🙃

Grace’s dad saying he’s going to get the plunger when she said she was doing a big poop 😭💀

Grace really thinks that impure thoughts only happen after marriage and I almost envy her innocence

“Money isn’t everything… looks are.” - yeah no that about sums people up in this day and age 😑

“We thought you were waifu material, but you’re just a bully” — NOT WAIFU MATERIAL 💀

PETE’S BLACK EYE NOOOO 😭🥺

Grace is kind of a psychopath and I’m loving that for her tbh

“I’m not comfortable with the plan if it involves that kind of language” but she’s comfortable with filming someone getting terrified and pissing their pants 💀

The “the place is not structurally sound” comment was DEFINITELY foreshadowing

“I get pus in my pits!” Jesus ☠️

🎵🤌🏻we’re gonna bully the bully🤌🏻🎵

“We’re gonna cut off his nips!” - what is with the obsession with n!pples in this show 😳

I’M SORRY BUT THIS IS ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WHEN THEY TALKED ABOUT KEEPING THE BEANS COOL

“You’re like super nice to me 😀” “…not really. I’m just doing the bare minimum here.” “You’re the best friend I’ve ever had.” “Oh, that’s sad!” — 😂😅🤣

“Okay, Richie, be honest… Am I reading as ghost or Lin Manuel Miranda” — OH FUCKING GOD IM CACKLING

“You kinda look like that homeless guy from downtown” 💀 FOURTH WALL BREAK?!?

Max must be VERY drunk because ain’t no way he thought Pete was a ghost or Ruth was actually a skeleton 💀

“Grace, we gotta abort the plan, it’s not working!” “It’s working for me, he’s so violent! 😍”

Not Max actually being touched by them putting this whole thing together for him 💀 very much giving off himbo vibes and I love him for that

MAX FELL THREE STOREYS

Oh my GOD THE FUCKING MAKE UP ON MAX FOR HIS DEATH SCENE HOLY SHIT

“NERDY! PRUDES! MUST! DIE!” — oh hey it’s the name of the show! 😃 And also it was written on the wall in… oh 😳

“I did get a lot of incriminating footage of us luring him here with malicious intent!” - uh oh

“My god! We’re going to jail! And with my luck, no one will even bother making me their bitch!” — PLEASE 💀

“It wasn’t murder, and it wasn’t an accident… it was an act of God! 😇” - Grace is UNHINGED

“No more tickling in our mommy spots!” - OUR WHAT SPOTS?!?

“🎵🤌🏻 We’re gonna bury the body! 🤌🏻🎵”

“Oh no she’s snapping again”

“I just cut off his nips 😌” - again with the nips?!?

DAN AND DONNA 😃😃😃

“Two weeks of heartache” - cut to all of his classmates happy without his influence 💀

STEPH PASSED THE TEST! 😃

“Ya know, this is really your C+.” “Oh Steph… you can keep it. It’d really bring down my GPA.”

Steph asking Pete out to the football game 🥹😁 we love to see it!

GO GO NIGHTHAWKS! 😃🦅 (I know it’s an eagle emoji there’s no hawk emoji 🙈)

“N, I-G, H-T… *squawk squawk* Ks!” 👏🏻🙌🏻

Richie is the team mascot and they wanted/needed him in the huddle 🥹

They apologised for bullying him 😭👏🏻

“And we’d like to apologise in advance for if Max ever comes back, ‘cause we’ll probably go right back to doing it”

“Fuck Clivesdale! Fuck ‘em straight to hell! Assholes!” — AGREED! 👏🏻

I’m 90% sure Jon actually struggled with taking that mascot top off but it worked well with the scene so 😌

“I love being alive! 😃” — oh he’s so about to fucking die, isn’t he?

IT’S MAX CALLING FOR RICHIE HES BACK FROM THE DEAD

MAX’S COSTUME/MAKE UP IS AMAZING OH MY GOD 😌💅🏻

“Should’ve joined the smoke club you nerdy prude” — ANOTHER SMOKE CLUB REFERENCE

Every song on this soundtrack fucking slaps I LOVE IT

There’s not very many men that can pull off being absolutely absolutely fucking terrifying while dancing and singing across the stage but Will Branner managed it so kudos to him

The bit where Richie was repeating what Max said (“who will pray for me? When I’m gone?”) was INSANELY GOOD

“What did they find? You don’t say…you don’t say!” “What’d they find, dad?” “They didn’t say” - 💀

“Oh heck… I’m so hecking fudged”

“*relieved* Oh well we don’t know anything about that one!” “Or ANY one!”

“Maybe it’s a coincidence. People tell me to die every day!” — Okay why is Ruth kind of me 😭

THE FUCKING CAMEOS IN “HATCHET TOWN” ASDFGHJKL?!?! ZIGGY?! MAN IN A HURRY?!? GERALD MONROE?!?

“Ohhh I remember before the lockdown” - yeah me too 😅

THE BARBECUE MONOLOGUES GOT ME HOLLERING 💀

Ruth walking onto the stage and into the spotlight 🥺 literally she was me this whole scene omg I relate so hard to most of what she said ASDFGHJKL

Lauren ATE that song up by the way

MAX KILLED HER BY WEDGIE-ING HER IN TWO AND THEN PUT THE PANTS OVER HER HEAD WHAT THE FUCK MAX 😭

Him telling her to “project” so those in the back row could hear her triggered me so bad as an actor omg 😳

Grace really accusing the entirety of Clivesdale 💀

As soon as the WWJD bracelet was brought up I KNEW what was going on 😭

“Who’s plan was it, Grace?” “It was God’s plan! And now he’s leaving me out to dry! Do something, you son of a bitch!” 💀😅🤣

Grace has lost her fucking SHIT and I fully support that for her

“Show Me Your Hands” musical refrain?!

BEANIES?!? PAUL AND EMMA?!? 😭😭😭 ITS FUCKING PAUL AND EMMA I CANNOT-

“Cup of roasted coffee” refrain too?!?

PAUL GAVE EMMA HIS NUMBER 😭❤️

PAUL + EMMA IN EVERY SINGLE TIMELINE, EVERY SINGLE UNIVERSE-

“EXCUSE ME I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR WHAT FEELS LIKE FIVE FUCKING YEARS AND I STILL HAVE NOT RECIEVED MY GODDAMN HOT CHOCOLATE” 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀😂😂😂😂😂 I FUCKKING CANT IM DONE

🎵”Don’t need a lover boy need a lover man / sure I’m a sapiosexual and you’re intellectual but I’ll cut my lover losses when I can” 🎵 — this song goes so hard omg

Grace pushing between them and shouting “leave room for Jesus!” 💀

“Do we need to get ahold of Ruth?” “Good luck getting ahold of her. Does your phone pls cover calls to hell?” “…Hell?” “She’s bisexual and dead, where else would she be?!?” — 💀

Grace whipping out the gun and telling Steph to cool her beans was so iconic of her

“(Canadian accent) ‘Cause if I’m going down, you hosers comin’ with me, eh” — OH MY FUCKING GOD

Doesn’t shock me a cop would arrest Paul for zero fucking reason, fuck the police 💀

“All I wanted was to be a regular girl with no sexual desire until she was safely married 😭” the FUCK-

“Don’t comfort her, she’s fuckin’ weird” 💀

“I don’t give a shit who you kill - but you just had to go and do it in that house, didn’t you?” — Mayor Lauter really said “murder is fine but NOT in that specific house, you fucking idiots”

THE LORDS IN BLACK?!? 😃 WIGGLY AND BLINKY AND POKEY AND NIBBLY AND TINKY?!?!? FUCK YEAAAAHH

“She gave me head in her car - check it out!” *throws Miss Tessburger’s head onstage* — BRO THE FUCK

WELP I GUESS MAYOR LAUTER IS DEAD THEN?!?

“Detective Shapiro, are you a woman of faith?” “Catholic.” “I’ll take that as a no” — THE FUCK GRACE 😑

They’re really about to summon five otherworldly entities who are evil I’m-

The Summoning screams CRACK and I’m living for it

“Hello Fwendy-Wends” - SCREAMING LITERALLY FUCKING SCREAMING

“WE DON’T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOUR PHONE” TOOK ME OUT ASDFGHJKL

SHE CHERISHES PETE 😭

“Pay the price or fuck off” 💀

Can I just say that I need would love a show specifically just about the Lords in Black fucking about and it’s Jon the whole time as Wiggly exactly as he was during the Summoning scene because that was AMAZING IM SHAKING-

The fact Pete cherishes Steph and she cherishes him oh my hEART 😭

“Hey Steph, if things were different, would you wanna come to homecoming with me?” “I’d like that, Pete. I’d really like that.” - SHUT THE FUCK UP NO 😭😭😭

Not Max saving Pete from being shot 💀

“So you do know the Bible!” — GRACE OMG IM SCREECHING HELP

“But Jesus never threw a football like you, Max” - WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING

Max being confused about what dirty girl soup is and then being turned on when she explains 😭💀

“Take me, Max, right here on the 50 yard line!” — oh dear gOD

Max’s struggle over whether to kill Steph and Pete or whether to bang Grace omfg 😭😅

THE NOISES OFF STAGE OMFG WTAF 😭💀😂😅🤣

Grace got Max kicking his feet, twirling his hair, after one shag, just like a teenage girl 💀 I’m crying so hard with laughter I can’t cope with it-

GRACE GAVE HIM HER CHASTITY AND SACRIFICED WHAT SHE CHERISHED MOST ASDFGHJKL

PETE AND STEPHANIE AT HOMECOMING TOGETHER ASDFGHJKL ✨T H E M ✨

Grace choosing not to get the dance cancelled and she brought a date?!? That’s character development! 😀

She let Jason walk her home?!? O_o and then asked him to kiss her?!?!

“That was… absolutely disgusting! Really, Jason?!? Kissing on the first date?!?” Oh noooo 💀

“You’re a dirty perv, Jason”

SHES GOT THE FUCKING BLACK BOOK IS SHE SUMMONING THEM AGAIN

🎵DIRTY DUDES MUST DIE🎵

Well thIS TOOK A FUCKING TURN DAMN

Anyway, 11/10, immaculate, amazing, incredible, show-stopping, would recommend to everyone of course and will definitely be rewatching it a LOT 🪓

[marofdawn]

Fucking character limit didn't let me write you my bible hahaha so if you're ok with this, i wrote you something in this doc in drive (change the x's in docxgooglexcom pls): (docsxgooglexcom/document/d/16pos0YwhMHJEh7jaPZhqqyh7bsQJz_dHJdMbN84_rl4/edit?usp=sharing) Thanks for everything in IAL, Mar!!

Omg, babe, tysm for your words 😭, seriously. Don’t apologize for writing sm bc I literally love long comments; it never annoys me. I never get tired of them. To know people feel this strongly about my story literally never fails to make me feel so fulfilled - like I’m doing something right in life, somehow

I like to give lengthy replies to long comments, so I hope you don’t mind either…

- I’m happy to hear my story has motivated you to write as well. Definitely do it! I had a lot of doubts about specific areas of my writing, as you mentioned, but I’m really happy that I didn’t listen to those negative thoughts and pushed through regardless. Writing for yourself can honestly feel very healing at times.

- Love to hear that you identified with Eden and Levi in some ways. Eden definitely has certain qualities I can relate to as well - moreso her inner qualities as opposed to outward. I’m happy it helped you reflect and value situations :).

- Sorry for the tears, but I also love knowing my writing impacted people this much 🥲. I’m happy it moved you.

- I definitely made Eden suffer so much in this story 😭 maybe a bit too much, as you said. Her mother died, she had a shitty father that practically disowned her (then all of a sudden wanted to enter her life again), was raised with shitty propaganda against her kind that, as a result, allowed them to get murdered, broke the heart of the man she loved, etc. The list goes on.

- Levi and Eden’s relationship post-reveal was definitely one of the most heartbreaking aspects of the story. Levi said a lot of things he didn’t mean, and ik many readers were wondering why Eden didn’t put him in his place sooner 😂. It was very toxic at that point; they’d constantly go back and forth with Eden trying really hard to lighten the mood, but Levi would go back to square one and say something indicating he didn’t care about her anymore, even though it was a flat out lie. He probably could have handled his feelings differently… but honestly, even though he was being an asshole, I feel like some of Eden’s attempts at reaching out to him were realistic in some ways? Like, he was being toxic and a complete dick, but she was also very deeply in love with him and missed him. Love can blind you sometimes, and she still wanted a little piece of him back. But then the whole hate sex scene happened and she had enough sjsjdjdkf. That was the moment she realized she needed to stop trying because it didn’t seem like he was ever going to change his perspective of her.

- I feel like I owed everyone a happy epilogue, so I’m glad you enjoyed! Honestly, I made them suffer so much that a happy ending was necessary lol. I considered killing Eden off plenty of times, but I don’t think anyone would have forgiven me skskdfjs.

- “Loving you made me feel free” is also one of my favorite quotes. It really put into perspective how guarded and trapped Eden felt when it came to her emotions, and how falling for Levi helped her find herself, in a way.

- I feel honored that you plan to write this in your book journal! Literally such a huge compliment.

- Happy you enjoyed the playlist! I feel like I might do that for future fics too. We’ll see :).

- I am fluent in Spanish! It’s definitely not perfect, but I do speak it :). English is my stronger language, but Spanish is practically all I speak at home. I can still read, write, and speak it, so I don’t mind messages in Spanish :). I could use the practice with reading tbh bc I don’t read in Spanish often anymore 😅.

Thank you so much for your words, my love. I truly, truly appreciate it. I say it all the time, but I really do value these kinds of messages. Thank you for taking the time to write this for me :).

Take care ❤️.

[ghostiiess]

[NSB HEADCANONS] - touring with seb

pov: seb invited you to do the world tour with him

warnings: none that i can think off

type: wholesome / fluff

member: sebastian moy

reblogs and likes are very appreciated!

So…

Seb invited you (lucky) to the nsb world tour

To me, Seb is pretty much the guy to invite you over and literally says it again and again

MOSTLY IF YOU’RE SOMEONE IMPORTANT FOR HIM!!!

Like.. i could imagine seb saying « OMG!!!! Y/N’S IS TOURING WITH US!! »

And then be like « i have to be extra sexy for them… Oh wait, i already am 😏»

The boys would be tired of him saying it

They be like « ok, we get it! Ur s/o is coming with us! 🙄 »

But don’t worry, they’re just jealous because they can’t bring their own s/o too :((

No because Seb would be the guy to ‘manipulate’ (not manipulate, but like… try to have his way?) manager ty to bring you over 😭

« Ty, if you let me bring y/n over, i’ll do the house cleaning all alone for 2 months straight. And i’ll stop annoying you with my screams »

Ty agreed bc DID YOU SEE THE HOUSE THEY HAVE??? The thing is a castle

The boys are living our fantaisies 😂😭😔

Anyways, so ty agreed and Seb was super happy

He was smiling so hard

« Y/N’S COMING OVER IN THREE DAYS OMG! »

« TWO MORE DAYS!! »

« TOMORROW OMGGGGG »

« 3HHHHHH »

« IN 5 MINUTES, THEY SHOULD BE THERE OMG!! YAY! »

Don’t worry, seb is ok, he’s just a bit excited to tour with you

Anyways, now that we know the background and all, we can start the hc :)

He would be the type to bring you IN the concert

Like the boys are singing and he just bring you like they weren’t singing the most saddest song

« make some noise for y/n!!! »

He would also try to make you jealous by interacting with stars

he loves the stars

And he also loves you

So, why not combine the two together ?

We already know how Seb is flirting with the stars, so imagine when he’s doing on purpose to be extra flirty and all

Moy love making us delulu

And we love it too, we can’t really disagree tbh

Anyways, he would also dedicates songs for you

Like he would sing random songs (not that nsb created) and just be like « yo this one’s for my partner »

Yes because your relationships with you would be public

And you can’t really says no to that, bc if we look into his sc story, he’s very… let’s say, he’s not really discreet to hide his ‘best friend’ (i think her name is Gaia but I’m not 100% sure, so I’m sorry if i got it wrong 😭)

Sebastian is just the type of guy who’ll expose you and post majority about you

So he’ll probably post a lot about you in his stories (ig, snapchat…)

If you know the songs they’re singing, he would invite you to sing with them

And he would also dance with you

Seb’s a funny guy to vibe around

Like he’s the best friend i would like to have because he’s like so cool and fun

I mean if i could have the whole group as best friends, i wouldn’t be mad 🫣

Also, also!!! He’ll dance and talk with you during the meet and greet.. he’ll even introduce you to the stars

« Yeah, this is my partner! Isn’t they so cute? »

Btw, he loves pda.

« Wdym ‘stop holding my hand’ ? Baby, i don’t want you to lost you »

This is only an excuse, he just loves holding your hands

Plus it’s a bonus if he do it in front of the stars so they can film it and he can see more fan edit, of you and him, on TikTok

« Let them watch. We’re good, right? »

Why did i imagine Seb dancing and then falling 💀

« Oh man, i just fell in love with y/n all over again »

I’m sorry 😭

Anyways, the stars would love you more than him (don’t tell him though)

We love you Seb <3

When he would sign stars’ papers and all, he would give you a signature of him

« you’ll be able to tell people you met THE sebastian moy »

« Wdym you don’t want it? You’re having the signature of THE Sebastian moy for free!! Isn’t that amazing??? »

« WDYM YOU WOULD RATHER HAVE ONE OF DARREN?????? R U KIDDING ME?! »

He’s so funny and cute, like give him all the support you can

Our youngest member can sing, can dance, he’s good in everything, like give him some credits and tell him how great he is doing because he may forget it with all the stress and pression he can have on his shoulders

Seb moy, we are proud of you <33

At the end of the concert, he’ll serenade you

Like he did with the star when the boys all serenade them while singing their songs

Ofc, it’ll only be Seb who’ll serenade you

And instead of giving you only one rose, he’ll give you the whole bouquet like-

WHY R U SO ROMANTIC SEBASTIAN MOY

Anyways, yeah he’ll even sing you a song (99% chance it’s a the weeknd’s song)

To conclude this hc, seb would be like one of the coolest guy to tour with

he would do stupid dances just to make you smile or laugh

Hold your hand

Give you some kisses here and there…

We love a man who doesn’t mind embarrassing themselves to make their s/o laugh or smile

That’s it for this hc, please have fun touring with Seb!! (You’re so lucky if you were or are able to live this)

Taglist (open! Send an ask if you want to be in it!) : @nsb-rkive @kentisbaby @firebenderwolf @hyuneee0

[perdidosbucky-yyo]

This might be my fav chapter yet!!!! 😩🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼

Bucky traded lazy kisses with you as your tears slowed, and you had no idea if it was his mouth that had your heart pounding and the crushing weight of everything that surrounded him.

Tingles, tingles everywhere 🥴😩 I just love their hold and pull dynamic it's addicting

“You’re putting a wall up,” he said, frowning as you grabbed your phone charger before he could. “Don’t shut me out, please.”

What does he expect?!! (I still felt a pang in my heart when he said this)

“This has been a lot, all of it, but we can’t go back and change it, and you know I can’t let you go because we’re meant to be together,” he said, his eyes searching yours. “You feel it. I know you do.”

How many times would he say that until you agreed? “Just because you think fate stepped in-”

How does he manage to sound unhinged and reasonable at the same time? 😭 I'm honestly starting to see his point

Bucky was hot on your heel and you didn't make it two steps out the door before he had a hand on you. “You’re upset with me. Putting up more of that wall.”

that wall 😩 he clearly despises the wall she puts up, he's had a tiny taste of her kind and vulnerable side and can't stand the thought of going back, he wants her vulnerable, raw, exposed, all to himself :')

“And you can push all you want, but I’ll just pull you closer,” he smiled, making you huff when he actually did so. “I’m not afraid to let you burn me.”

THIS MAN 💀 we're gonna die in his arms aren't we?

“Because even arguing with you makes me happy,” he sincerely stated. “And now all I want to do is find a way to put a smile back on your face.”

Ok but why does this make me so happy???

“You’re infuriating,” you whispered when he touched the corner of your mouth and made it twitch in a small smile. “Impossible.”

“I know,” he whispered back, running a hand through his hair. “Listen, you’re tired and you’re overwhelmed, which is completely my fault. Am I right?”

He was placating you now, and it was sadly working. “Fine,” you said, touching his hand, the metal one. “I don’t think I said so earlier, but thank you for finally telling me the truth,” you said, calmer than you were moments before.

HOW DID HE DO THAT???? RUNNING A HAND THROUGH HIS HAIR??? His hand on the corner of her lips??? I'M SAT. I was literally just as mad as reader and he really managed to calm me down too 🤯 excellent writing bestie

This was nothing like the slow, languid kisses from minutes ago. This was dominant, claiming, threatening to rob you of the air in your lungs, like he wanted you to feed your own breath into him. He either forgot Ray was there, or he simply didn’t care.

I- 🥴 this man doesn't care if she hates him or not does he? He's like a predator playing with his food, but at the same time he's so soft and wants nothing but to make her happy🥺.... My toxic trait is that I love him 🫡

“You're certainly keeping him on his toes,” Ray said, not driving off until he made sure Bucky was in his vehicle, too.

I could say the same thing about you Navy😩😂😂

I'm so scared of what comes next with Clark, he gives me the creeps jsjsjs more than Bucky tbh😂

But wow reader is learning to tame her beast and I'm so excited to see how that goes 😏

Hold You Tight: Part 16

Pairing: Club Owner!Bucky Barnes x Female Reader

Fic Summary: The owner of The 107th wants you to be his girl whether you like it or not.

Part 15 | Series Masterlist | Part 17

Chapter Word Count: Over 5.4k

Chapter Summary: Bucky tries to pull you closer when you want to pull away, and someone else in your life my not take no for an answer.

Chapter Warnings: DARK AU, arguing, tension, slight harassment, kissing, reference to stalking, inner turmoil, manipulation, Bucky Barnes (he's a warning, okay?), more warnings to come.

A/N: More Hold You Tight! Thank you for sticking with me! Bucky edit by the beautiful @nixakimbo ❤️ Beta read by the lovely @whisperlullaby but any and all mistakes are my own. Divider by the talented @firefly-graphics. Please follow @navybrat817-sideblog new fics and notifications. Comments, reblogs, feedback are loved and appreciated!

Bucky traded lazy kisses with you as your tears slowed, and you had no idea if it was his mouth that had your heart pounding and the crushing weight of everything that surrounded him. It was so much to unpack. Every encounter with him seemed to be that way. Something blindsided you or suffocated you, but you hadn't been at all prepared for what he just shared. And how could you? He didn't keep photos of his mother around, and you hadn't gone poking around online.

Would you have found out the truth if you had?

He followed your lips when you pulled away. “It’s okay,” he whispered, pulling you back in.

It wasn’t okay. Nothing was okay. Though it partially made sense now why he was moving so fast. He believed if he met you then that you would've fallen in love and been together to this day. Because he didn't seek you out then and lost so much time, he was packing everything into a rushed time span. Dating, meeting his friends, getting you into his place. He was moving things along at an accelerated speed, and you were barely keeping up with the ride.

“No.” The muffled word against his lips somehow rang out loud and clear enough for him to stop, but you put a hand on his chest in case he tried to lean in again. “Why are you punishing me?”

His eyes rounded. “You think I’m punishing you? Jesus, why would you think that?”

“Because of how you went about all of this. I know you were desperate, and I get the drive behind some of your actions now,” you said, which you refused to excuse. You got it but couldn’t excuse it. “Your response of ‘where’s the fun in that?’ when I said you couldn’t just ask me out like a normal person? You almost seemed to delight in intimidating me. Why?”

If you saved his mom, why do this?

“I didn’t delight in that. I played it wrong,” he admitted in a quiet voice, surprising you. “I approached it like…”

“Like everything else in your life where you have everyone under your thumb through fear. You did the same thing to me.” You laughed just a little. “In a way, it worked because I’m officially afraid to try to leave you.”

Had things blossomed between you two organically, you’d like to believe that things would’ve been better. Healthy. There was always the chance that a relationship might’ve come to an end because life was like that. But if he frightened you enough to stay forever, he’d never have to worry. The stars would still align as far as he was concerned.

“I don’t want you to fear me or what we have,” he whispered, reaching for you as you scooted back.

“What we have? Tell me, do you think your mom would be proud of your actions to obtain me or ashamed?” You couldn’t believe that was the kind of man she raised, to put fear into the heart of the person he supposedly loved.

He flinched. Actually flinched. You might as well have raised a hand to him. “She…” He swallowed. “She would’ve wanted us together.”

“Like this? By you not giving me a choice?” you asked, pushing yourself up. “I need to go home.” There would be no getting through to him and this revelation was doing your head in. One cup of coffee wasn't enough either.

He got up to follow you. “Why are you rushing off?”

“I have a shift today, and I have to go home and shower,” you said, grabbing some of your things. “Don’t worry about dropping me off. I’ll get a cab.”

“What? No, you-”

“You put money in my account, so it’s not like I have to worry about paying for it. And it’s not like I’ll be alone either since you’ll have me followed whether I want it or not,” you said as a matter of fact.

“You’re putting a wall up,” he said, frowning as you grabbed your phone charger before he could. “Don’t shut me out, please.”

“I’m not shutting you out. I’m trying to process the gigantic bombshell you dropped on me,” you said, stopping to look at him when he grabbed your arm. “Bucky-”

“This has been a lot, all of it, but we can’t go back and change it, and you know I can’t let you go because we’re meant to be together,” he said, his eyes searching yours. “You feel it. I know you do.”

How many times would he say that until you agreed? “Just because you think fate stepped in-”

“Fate brought you into my club, but I gave it a much-needed push to bring us together after leaving things to chance for so long,” he said, tugging you closer and putting his other hand on your cheek. “You can’t tell me you don’t care about me in some capacity. You’re just afraid to admit it because it isn’t conventional in your eyes, but you don’t have to be afraid of how you feel.”

How could you truly fall in love with him when he orchestrated everything from the start? “Feelings or not you’re still going to force me to move in with you soon, and that scares me,” you said. Your wings would forever be clipped.

“We should’ve been living together and married by now,” he argued, keeping a tight hold on you. “I know I’m making you move in sooner than you want, but beyond safety it’ll give us a chance to really know each other before we get married.”

Talk of marriage had your heart thudding. The man would probably force you to marry him sooner than you wanted. “You said you already know everything about me,” you said. At least he thought he knew you. The vision of you he built up in his mind scared you, too. He couldn’t keep you on that pedestal.

“But you don’t fully know me yet, and I don’t know what it’s like to live with you. The experience will bring us closer together.” His smile was full of hope. “We can read together, do movie nights, dance in the kitchen.”

“Bucky-”

“We can exercise together, in and out of bed,” he continued, your breath hitching as he rubbed his nose against yours. “Don’t you already feel closer to me now that you know we're meant to be?”

A quick knock on the door followed by a long one saved you from answering. “It isn't check-out time, is it?”

“No. That would be Ray,” Bucky headed to the door and kept you back a small distance before he answered. The man really was protective, wasn't he?

“I’m sorry to intrude,” Ray said, giving you a polite nod before he leaned in and whispered something to Bucky. Whatever was said to him made his face harden. The entire change in his demeanor worried you.

“Kotyonok, let’s get your bag and get you back to your place so you can get ready for work,” he suggested, his smile tight.

“What’s the matter?” you asked.

“I’ll tell you later,” he answered, kissing your forehead. “And before we go, I know you suggested taking a cab, but please let Ray take you back to your place. It would make me feel better.”

The hint of a plea in his voice and the look in Ray’s eyes kept you from protesting. “Fine, Ray can take me home. Just give me a second to change out of these pajamas,” you said, a bit surprised that Bucky wasn’t offering to take you home himself. “But you are going to tell me later what’s going on, right?” you asked.

“I will, but I need some answers myself first. Get changed. I’ll get your bag,” he said, gently guiding you to the bathroom so you could change and officially ending that conversation.

Ray was still by the entry door once you came out, looking a bit stiffer than usual, too. You stole a glance at Bucky as the three of you headed to the elevator, catching the anger etched in his features as he gripped your bag handle tight enough that you thought it would rip. They were leaving you in the dark about something. You weren’t sure if you could take any other bombshells.

“Ray may need to pick you up from work instead of me, but I’ll message you if that’s the case,” Bucky said, fixing his hair in the elevator reflection. “And… we may need to talk about your girls’ day out.”

“What about it?” you asked, already knowing where he was going with this.

“If you can cancel or reschedule it,” he replied.

You stared hard at him. Where was that coming from? “No, it's tomorrow, and I’m not cancelling or rescheduling. And don’t you dare use Zemo as an excuse to get your way,” you snapped. Even if it was a valid reason, you didn’t want to hear it.

His jaw clenched, but he looked sad as he glanced at you. “I just don’t know if it’s a good idea.”

“We talked about this. If it’s a safety issue, Ray agreed that someone could watch out for me. That should keep me safe,” you reminded him. You’d be fine. “Right, Ray?”

The blonde stared straight ahead. “That isn’t my decision,” he said apologetically.

Your shoulders slumped. For a short time, you thought he could be on your side or at least help give you some slack. “Right. Because you don't get to make decisions, and neither do I. You’re a bodyguard, I’m just a doll,” you said, looking straight ahead, too, and pulling your hand back when Bucky tried to take it. “Please, don’t.”

“Kotyonok…” Bucky sighed as the door opened. You marched out, not waiting for either of them. “Wait.”

You headed straight for the desk, feeling sadder when you didn’t see Natasha. “Checking out, please,” you said, sliding the room card over to the woman standing there.

“Of course. I hope you enjoyed your stay.” She looked behind you likely at Bucky before giving you a smile. “Ms. Romanoff also wanted to remind you that you have a place here if you need one.”

“I’m sure I’ll take her up on that soon,” you said, turning your head to glare at Bucky. While his expression was stoic, his eyes told you he didn’t want you to be upset with him. “And make sure she adds an inconvenience fee to the damaged wall bill. She’ll know what I mean.”

“I’ll be sure to do that,” she smiled. “Take care.”

Bucky was hot on your heel and you didn't make it two steps out the door before he had a hand on you. “You’re upset with me. Putting up more of that wall.”

You didn't speak until Ray walked past you to get his car. “You’re trying to get me to cancel my day out with my friends, after you went through the whole charade of buying me a new dress for it and everything. And after what you told me about your mom.” You took a breath to try to calm down. “Yeah, I’m upset, and yeah, you’re supplying me with the very bricks to build that wall.”

“I said we may need to talk about it, I didn’t flat out say you weren’t going,” he corrected you. He might as well have. “I know it means a lot to you, but-”

You held a hand up. “No. There are no ‘buts’ in this. For all you keep taking from me, I don’t ask for much. I really don't,” you stated. In fact, you’ve shown lots of restraint. “Who knows how many moments I’ll get like this with my friends once you move me in.” He wasn’t about to take this small thing from you after everything.

He titled his head. “You think I’ll keep you from them?”

“Part of me thinks you will, yes. Because as soon as I think that there’s hope, the second I think that we could be closer together while you loosen the reins, you say or do something that puts me back in your full control,” you said. He had to see that. “And every time you do that, like you are right now, it makes me want to push you away.”

“And you can push all you want, but I’ll just pull you closer,” he smiled, making you huff when he actually did so. “I’m not afraid to let you burn me.”

“You keep saying that. Give me a match or a lighter and we’ll test that theory,” you said. He burst out laughing, the sound loud in the morning air as your eyes widened. “Why are you laughing?” you asked incredulously. How could he laugh when you were still worked up?

“Because even arguing with you makes me happy,” he sincerely stated. “And now all I want to do is find a way to put a smile back on your face.”

You exhaled. He was so in love with the idea of a relationship with you that arguments appealed to him? Anyone else would've walked away by now.

“You’re infuriating,” you whispered when he touched the corner of your mouth and made it twitch in a small smile. “Impossible.”

“I know,” he whispered back, running a hand through his hair. “Listen, you’re tired and you’re overwhelmed, which is completely my fault. Am I right?”

“Yes,” you sighed. He hit it right on the nose.

“And maybe I was rash in suggesting that you cancel your plans, but I need to take care of a couple things before we discuss that more,” he said, leading you to Ray's car before you could protest. “You just have a good shift, okay?”

He was placating you now, and it was sadly working. “Fine,” you said, touching his hand, the metal one. “I don’t think I said so earlier, but thank you for finally telling me the truth,” you said, calmer than you were moments before. He should've told you from the start, but it couldn't have been easy reopening old wounds regarding his dad.

His gaze softened. “Thank you for letting me.”

“And whatever Ray told you or whatever’s going on, just breathe, okay?” you begged.

He took a deep breath. “I’ll just think of you and it’ll help,” he said, adding in a low voice as he pulled you against him. “And this.”

This was nothing like the slow, languid kisses from minutes ago. This was dominant, claiming, threatening to rob you of the air in your lungs, like he wanted you to feed your own breath into him. He either forgot Ray was there, or he simply didn’t care.

By the time Bucky stopped kissing you and helped you into the car, you didn’t want to look either of them in the eye.

“I love you,” he whispered, kissing your temple and shutting the door as your heart flip flopped. God, he was insufferable. Confusing. Obsessed.

“You're certainly keeping him on his toes,” Ray said, not driving off until he made sure Bucky was in his vehicle, too.

“Someone has to,” you said, staring out the window. “I’m going with my friends tomorrow. I don't care if he makes you drag me back,” you said. Unless your life was in some sort of immediate danger, there was no reason for you to skip out on meeting up with the girls.

“So you’re aware, the suggestion of you moving your day out has nothing to do with wanting to control you. He’s upset because of the news I delivered and he wants to keep you close,” Ray explained, making you feel a little bad.

“So, that news was the reason why you both changed your tune, and you can't tell me what that news is,” you guessed. If you were in some sort of danger though, surely Bucky would’ve said so. “He told me about his mom. How I saved her.”

Silence filled the vehicle. “So, you know the truth,” he said after a minute, his voice neutral. “Are you okay?”

“I’m trying to be,” you answered carefully. You really were.

“That’s all you can do,” he said before adding under his breath, “No good deed goes unpunished.”

You snorted. “I guess I'm living breathing proof of that.” It was ironic how an act of kindness put you on this path. “And as much as I don't like to wish pain upon people, I hope Bucky's dad got whatever he deserved.”

Winnie, from the short time you knew her, was nothing but wonderful. Bucky said the dahlia painting in his office served as a reminder that he would never do to you what his dad did to his mom. He would never set you up to take the fall for anyone else, wouldn’t let someone else hurt you if he could help it. He would forever stand by you.

Was pushing him away doing you any good?

“He did,” Ray promised you. “And I say with complete sincerity that I hope today is very uneventful for you after the time you've had.”

Your nose scrunched as you laughed. “So do I, Ray. So do I.”

Ray was kind enough to wait outside of your place as you showered and got ready for work, and didn't push you to talk more before he dropped you off at the shop. He was even kind enough to stop so you could get another cup of coffee. It helped improve your mood.

“There she is!” Kate smiled when you walked in. “Little miss not-so-single anymore.”

“Hey,” you giggled before you paused. “I didn't know you were working today. Did you switch shifts with someone?”

“God, the schedule’s all messed up. Mrs. Crandle called out for some business thing-”

“Business thing?” you asked, your brows pinched. She hardly ever took time off for things like vacation let alone a business thing without informing her staff.

“Yeah, I’m not really sure about all the details, but Lorraine ended up switching the whole schedule around. Mya’s coming in later, and I had to come in early, and your shift’s ending early.”

“What?” you frowned, checking the schedule to make sure. She was right. Your shift today was almost cut in half. “Would’ve been nice to get a text or something.”

The assistant manager wasn't bad to work with, but she could be a little forgetful with things like that. If Bucky hadn't just put money in your account, you may have been more upset over having half a shift cut. After the night and morning you had though, maybe an afternoon off wouldn't be so bad.

“She probably forgot since you were coming in at your normal time. Who knows?” Kate shrugged. “You know, I half expected Clark to be here waiting for you. Seemed really eager to see you yesterday.”

“Yeah, about that.” You looked toward the door, your body tense in anticipation even though he wasn't there. “Why did you tell him I was working today?”

“He’s kind of a regular, and I didn't really think about it. Then Mrs. Crandle brought up your boyfriend and…” Her face fell as she stopped cutting stems, which made you feel bad when she glanced your way. “Crap, I did something wrong, didn't I?”

You weren’t about to go into specifics regarding your personal situation. “I just don’t want customers to know when my shifts are unless I’m specifically working on an order or event for them, okay?” you said, hoping she understood that it was a general request.

Bucky was not getting in your head about your safety.

“Okay, as long as you aren’t mad,” she said. You gave her a smile to assure her that you were okay. “So, tell me about your new boyfriend.”

You filled her in as much as you could to make it sound believable, just like you had with Addison. Like her and Mrs. Crandle, Kate was excited for you. And they would never know the full truth.

As your shift went on, you were surprised you hadn't heard much from Bucky. It was for the best though. He was clearly dealing with something. As much as you didn't want to defend him in your mind, it had taken a lot for him to talk about his parents. To show you some of the damage done to his body. It was a vulnerable moment. Did you owe it to him to be vulnerable, too?

Wait, why did you owe him anything?

“Heading out?” Kate asked once your shift was up.

“Yeah,” you replied, glancing at your phone. You wondered if you should text Bucky before you decided against it. You'd let him know once you got to your place that you wouldn't need a ride. “Just call me if you need me to come back in.”

“Don’t worry about that. Enjoy the rest of your day!” she smiled.

Satisfied when you didn't see Bucky or Ray’s car waiting for you either, you decided to take a walk. It was a nice day, and you needed the fresh air. You hoped the weather was nice for the winery. You’d have to take photos to look back on what was going to be a fun time.

“Hey!” you heard someone shout after a few minutes of walking.

You stopped when you spotted Clark waving at you from the other side of the street. You barely waved back before he joined you. “Hey. What are you doing here?”

“Oh, I was just in the neighborhood,” he smiled, pushing his glasses up. “You done working already?”

“Yep,” you said, adjusting your bag. “And I should really-”

“Could we talk for a minute?” he asked.

You hesitated before nodding. “Sure,” you said, falling in step beside him.

“You know, I actually went to the shop to buy you flowers yesterday. I was going to buy you some roses,” he smiled.

Oh, God. “You were?”

“Yeah, but you weren’t there and… It doesn’t matter,” he smiled, shoving his hands in his pockets. “But I was thinking… Maybe we could grab a coffee sometime? My treat.”

The hopeful look in his eyes made a pit form in your stomach. “Clark, I’m seeing someone,” you said, his blue eyes dimming. Hadn’t Kate said that Mrs. Crandle brought up that you were in a relationship? “It’s fairly new, and I don’t want to mess things up,” you explained, though he wasn’t owed an explanation.

“I didn’t want to believe it,” he mumbled, kicking a small rock on the sidewalk. “Well, if it’s fairly new, I'm sure you can get coffee with other people.”

“Get coffee with people? Yes. But this kind of sounds like a date, and I don’t think that’s a good idea. I’m sorry,” you said. That would feel like cheating even if you didn't consider it a date, and you weren't that kind of person.

“Then we won’t call it a date,” he grinned.

Maybe you were feeling paranoid, but there was something weird behind his smile. “You just got out of a relationship, and I don’t want to send mixed signals by agreeing to go with you.”

His smile shook a bit. “It's just a coffee.”

“Is it?” The longer he stared, the more odd things felt, and you didn’t like it. “Listen, when you find someone else to give flowers to I’d be happy to pick some out for you.”

“I don't understand.” He laughed, but it sounded bitter. “You’ve always been nice to me.”

“Well, yeah. You’ve always been kind, too, when you come into the shop.”

“Too nice for someone like Bucky Barnes,” he muttered, his smile disappearing completely.

You gaped at him, almost faltering in your step. “What did you just say?”

“I said you’re too nice for someone like Bucky Barnes,” he said louder, his ire clear as day. “You think I don’t know about his reputation? He’s dangerous, and you’re too good for him.”

“How do you know I’m dating him?” you asked. And what did he know about his reputation?

He was quiet for a moment. “Mrs. Crandle said his name, and she has no idea what kind of man he is,” he said, making you feel uneasy. “I don’t think you do either.”

Oh, you knew plenty. “I appreciate your concern, really, but it’s nothing for you to worry about.”

“Well, I do. And I just don’t see why we can’t have one cup of coffee together,” he said, flashing a smile again. “It’ll be fun.”

“Because you know I’m seeing someone,” you said. He knew it before he bumped into you, but was still pushing for you to go with him. “And I also kind of make it a rule not to date customers,” you added, stopping when you got to your building. You walked faster than you thought.

“Well, rules should have exceptions, right? And if Bucky cared so much, where is he? Why wasn’t he waiting to pick you up and take you home?” he pressed, his eyes narrowing when you dug into your purse. “Maybe he doesn’t care about you as much as you think.”

Your next breath came out shaky. He hadn’t raised his voice at you, but you didn’t appreciate the third degree, or the implication that Bucky didn’t care. “Because he’s a busy man who sometimes works both days and nights. I don’t expect him to drop everything just to take me home.”

“If you took a chance on me, you’d never have to worry about things like that.”

You were starting to feel nauseous. “Well, sometimes I like the quiet after the bustle of the shop, so walking helps me decompress. And I can't take a chance on you when I’m seeing someone else.” Why was he being so pushy?

He took a small step closer. “You know, it’s dangerous to walk home alone.”

You took a step back, your keys between your fingers. “You’re right about that,” you agreed. The only reason you did so today was to take back a little control, which didn’t seem so smart now.

“I can start walking you home if you want,” he smiled, towering over you. Was he always so imposing? “When’s your next shift?”

You managed a smile in return, but it was extremely forced. “Clark, that’s really not necessary, but thank you for the offer. Enjoy the rest of your day.”

He gently took your arm when you turned toward the door, worry crawling up your spine when his hand tightened a fraction. You suddenly wish you had Bucky or Ray around. “I really don’t mind.”

“My boyfriend will mind, and I’m sure you can understand that. So it’s a no on the coffee and the walks home,” you said gently but firmly, pulling your arm back and rubbing the spot where Clark grabbed you. He wasn’t listening. It somehow felt worse than Bucky and you couldn’t pinpoint why. Was it because Clark tried to act nice? “It’s been a long few days, and I’m going to get some rest. Have a nice day, okay?”

His eyes narrowed again, but it was his chilling smile that unnerved you. “I’m sure I'll see you again soon. We’ll have to get that coffee,” he said, walking off before you could say another word.

You rushed into the building once he was out of sight, your hands shaking. It may have been from the confrontation or the combination of everything. Maybe Clark was just lonely and latched on a bit because you were nice. Hadn't Bucky done something similar?

But if Clark wanted to see you, why hadn't he just gone into the shop if he knew you were working?

Double checking your locks once you were in your apartment, you took a breath and stared at your phone once you sat down. You had to talk to Bucky. He answered within a few seconds of you calling.

“Kotyonok, is everything okay?” he asked, sounding both happy and concerned to hear from you.

“Yeah, why wouldn’t it be?” you asked, hearing a few other men speaking in the background.

“Because you’re calling me and not texting. And you sound a little off. What’s wrong?”

“Everything’s fine,” you lied. How did he recognize that you felt off? “I just wanted you to know that the assistant manager changed my shift, so I went home early.”

“Wait, you’re already home?” he asked. The background noise suddenly stopped. “Did you get a cab? Please tell me you didn’t walk back to your place.”

“…Fine, I won’t tell you that.”

Bucky let out an impressive string of curse words as you pulled the phone away from your ear. “That’s not safe. You know it isn’t,” he hissed, but you knew he wasn’t actually angry with you. Just the situation. And bumping into Clark today and Zemo the day before, he had a bit of a point. “You did that on purpose, didn’t you? Because I said it may not be a good idea to go out with your friends.”

You closed your eyes. He was not going to make you feel bad. “I just needed a breather, okay? And I made it home just fine.”

“But did you? How do I know someone didn’t follow you?” he asked. Clark’s face flashed in your mind when you stayed quiet. “…Kotyonok, did someone follow you?”

“No one followed me that I know of,” you said. You really didn't have any idea. “But… I did bump into Clark. He was in the neighborhood.”

“Clark? That guy from the shop who tried to give you flowers just happened to be in your neighborhood when I wasn't around?” he asked, fury seeping into his tone as you winced.

“I… I’m sure it was a coincidence,” you said. Placating him in this wasn’t going to work, but you had to try.

“That isn’t a fucking coincidence and we both know it. Did he say anything? Try anything?”

You shut your eyes. It would be like ripping off a band-aid. “He asked me to go get a cup of coffee with him, but I told him I was seeing someone.”

He chuckled humorlessly. “He asked you out?” he asked, making you shift in your seat. “Why the fuck do I not have a file on him yet?!” he snapped at someone in the background.

“I’m working on it, boss!” you heard someone promise. “Should I call-”

“No. I’ll call him myself,” Bucky growled.

Who was he talking about? “Bucky, it’s okay. The guy asked me out and I said no,” you assured him. You weren't going to go out with Clark. “I’m sure women throw themselves at you every day and you turn them down.”

“They don't ‘bump’ into me in my neighborhood. And had you told me you were leaving early, I could’ve made sure this guy didn’t go anywhere near you. I don’t even want him near your shop until I know more about him,” he said, his anger not lessening. “If he tries anything, I will tear him apart piece by fucking piece,” he promised you, the intensity in his tone making your throat go dry.

“That isn’t necessary,” you whispered.

He sighed. “Why would you deliberately put yourself in a spot like this just to prove a point? Be pissed at me, I can take that, but do not risk your safety,” he said, adding in a quieter voice, “I couldn’t take it if something happened to you.”

You bit the inside of your cheek, hating how guilty you felt, how worried he sounded on your behalf. “I’m sorry. I wasn’t trying to worry you,” you said. It was stubborn and dumb on your part, and now you were afraid that Bucky really would try to cancel your day out tomorrow. You couldn’t let him. “I’ll make it up to you, okay?”

“Make it up to me?” he asked. That seemed to get his attention. “How are you going to do that?”

“I’ll…” you began, steadying yourself. Natasha said you had power, and maybe you’d have to test that sooner than you expected. “Stay at your place tonight.”

You could hear a pin drop from the quiet. “You’ll stay the night?” he asked, his voice moving like lava through your veins.

“Yes,” you whispered, hammering the nail in the coffin.

“Give me two hours and I'll come get you,” he said, his voice strained, eager. “Be ready.”

“I will be.”

God, you hoped you knew what you were doing.

Oh, Clark. He's a problem now, isn't he? What do we think Ray told Bucky? And what's going to happen when you spend the night? Love and thanks for reading! ❤️

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[diaryluvvrrr]

Brah.

My best friend forever just told me she’s engaged TO BE MARRIED. Were 21‼️‼️‼️ all respect all love but I just hope they’re not moving too fast bc also idek if they’ve been together a year . But she asked me to be MOH so😂 and it’s soooo crazy too bc I’ve been getting mad crazy wedding vibes recently like I focused that energy into planning MY OWN WEDDING (not even dating anyone btw) but that bomb drop was like oh that’s why it was in my head huh

And also my other bsf broke up w her gf???? WhAT JS HAPPENING. Idk if they’ll get back together tbh I feel like they will but who even knows bruh… they broke up over something kinda dumb imo but I also think it’s just the straw that broke the camels back yknow , so we’ll see

Last but not least TAEIL??? I really don’t want this to reflect badly on haechan and nct as a whole but I know it will..especially after Lucas. I need to get out of kpop honestly. But it’s soooo hard I’ve been. In it since 2017 like this blood runs deep I think it is affecting me tho I just wonder what will replace it if I do leave. But I just will miss haechan and nct as a whole and new jeans too. I mean like my whole life is kpop basically. I daydream abt it, I watch videos abt it to make me feel better, I love breathe it etc. I read it at night . It’s my everything . I need a bf I sound pathetic but fr it makes me so happy alot of the times but also it’s so bad for u and I need to stop. I’ll never get anything out of it. Am I wasting my life on it ? It scares me.. I’ve changed so much recently and I don’t want to change more.

My credit card is scaring me a lot. The bank called me today and I tried to make a payment but I couldn’t online so I have to wait till I’m home in CA, but even then I’ll only be able to out like $200, that’s still like $350 left..I need a job badddd

I found out abt taeil and my best friend back to back and it was fucking whiplash. I’m tired.

[a-skeleton-of-something-m0re]

I don’t think so

Yes , maybe I am good person but I get tired to be that person

Maybe , I don’t think that , I’m not important and I don’t think I make a difference

Kinda just want to get over this thing called life , I kinda can’t do it anymore , nope , nothing happened , just my mind and demons that I can’t keep them behind a “door” and kinda I hope idk , something happens to me and my heart stop or something fall on me and kills me 😂

Why do you think it can't? <3

Like the previous anon said, the world is shit right now and people are so fucking shit too, so I can see why you get tired of being a good person, it is hard and it can be exhausting, people are unappreciative and rude, but I promise you it does make a difference!! Even if it doesn't seem like it.

You are important and you do make a difference, your friends and your family love you, you are important to them and you make a difference in their life. You make a difference in my life as well with your kindness, I love your kind asks, they make me smile every single time!

It can feel that way sometimes, tbh I feel that way sometimes too. Sometimes it's good to let it out and talk about it, keeping it locked still hurts, they always come out anyway. I know it seems scary or like it won't help but talking to a good, trusted friend can really help a bit! You can talk to me privately as well if you'd like, my DMs are open.

I know there's not much I can say or do to help, but please, please hang in there, just a little bit longer please.

I know it feels like awful shit right now, and me saying it won't always feel like that or that will feel better doesn't really help, but I do PROMISE you can get a little relief, I think even tomorrow (after you sleep) it might still feel like god awful shit but I think it will also feel a teeny weeny tiny bit more bearable.

And you're seen, I see you, I think about you and I notice your absence!

[scarlet-fantasies]

hii, can I ask if it's no problem sharing a bed with their gf? if it's OK maybe the first time they share a bed ♡♡

Hi anon,

Sorry it took so long so I add both things and it includes both brothers. I hope you like it.

-Scarlet

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First time they share a bed with their gf/sharing a bed with them

:: Eren::

You were nervous to tell him that you didn’t want to sleep in the same bed as him.

I mean you didn’t know what he’d think so you tried to avoid sleeping while you two were up late at his place and you were staying over mostly cause Mikasa wanted you too and so for your friend you couldn’t say no.

But sharing a bed with Eren just isn’t what you prepared yourself for.

He’s all over this since he really loves a shy gf tbh (it’s what I see)

And if it wasn’t enough your PJs were cute.

So anyways I picture that you yawned at some point only to do it a couple more times till he pointed it out.

Seeing he was tired and now you were he just figured you two should sleep seeing that Mikasa already crashed 😂

So he guided you up the stairs to his room and he just instantly laid on his bed while you just laughed seeing he was tired.

“Gosh, I thought you were never going to get tired.” He’d chuckle.

“Hmm, we’ll I’ve actually been tired.”

“How come you didn’t say anything?”

“Well, I didn’t want to bother you, and plus I don’t know where I can sleep.”

“Babe you can sleep wherever you want. Why are you so worried?”

“Because This is your house Eren. I can’t just do what I want. I have to respect your rules and boundaries that’s why I’m sleeping on the couch if you’re alright with that? “

“No, I am not okay with that.”

“Oh but then where I do—“

“Here silly, with me. Now c’mere.”

“Eren, I don’t—Ahh!” You’d yelp as he pulled you into the bed with him.

I see he’d turn to your side and smile at you before kissing your forehead.

“You’re so cute when you blush.” He’d grin pinching your cheeks and just embarrassing you.

When he puts the pieces together and sees how you're reluctant to cuddle up to him, he makes the first move.

Of course, he understands completely if that’s not what you want but whatever the case he just smiles and pulls you close to him and waits to see what you do.

He probably mumbles that you're pretty to have you smile.

Eren likes to braid your hair and whisper sweet nothings in your ear.

This is when he’s being sweet but it isn’t always lol.

The reason for him to be nice is either cause he feels like it and also because it is your first time sharing a bed.

I see that he might even read a book or some poetry to you hoping to get you to fall asleep in his arms.

He could be telling you a story that actually happened to and seeing you sleep is just cute to him.

Eren moves your hair out of your face gently and he likes to admire you before sleeping to be honest.

But when you two are past the whole sharing a bed for the first time thing he is much different.

Like, take a year later into the relationship for example he uses you like a body pillow.

He generally is really warm so he makes you feel hot when you two cuddle which is probably why you refuse to cuddle with him in the summer.

Eren is clingy and so he always wants to be hugging you or being close to you when you sleep.

But he is always the big spoon, one time you were about to be the big spoon since you were hugging him and he just flipped and changed spots. He claims that only the little people can be the little spoons 😂

Likes to rest his hand on your boobs but he really loves to do this with your ass too since he says yours is soft.

He really is just a perv tho since he does bite your ass when you complain about the position is uncomfortable.

He steals the blanket and you have to fight him for it.

Eren sometimes even snores and you could bang pots and pans but he just doesn’t wake up.

You also hit him to wake up when he snores. Lol.

He sometimes drools and I wouldn’t be surprised if like drooled when he was resting his head on your boobs. So you were upset that morning.

He does like to grab your ass when you two are sleeping cause that’s just how he is.

Typically if you wear shorts he likes to message your bare ass or sneak his hand up there and just rest it there.

You try to push it away but you can’t.

Eren always keeps you in bed because he gets lazy and doesn’t want you leaving even if it’s just to go to the bathroom.

He also likes to poke your sides and tickle you.

Eren is very playfully when you two are awake and trying to sleep he likes to climb over you and play around, in fact, if you are on top he rolls over to have you be under.

Like his brother, when he has his back turned all the weight in the bed and I can just see you rolling over to his side And bumping into him.

He always laughs cause it wakes the both of you up. 😂

Sometimes he ends up putting his leg over yours so you can’t leave.

Before you two go to bed he usually likes to mess around and he always calls you angel.

“Goodnight angel.”

:: Zeke::

You were studying late together for a History class you were in and he decided to help you.

Throughout your session of studying, you yawned a couple of times.

Seeing you continuously yawn he decided you should stop for tonight.

Plus he was also kinda groggy.

“You look tired.”

“Yeah. Uh, I still have to drive home too.” You sigh with a smile.

“Stay here, it’s late.” He reached out, putting his hand over yours.

“But Zeke, I have class to-“

“I’ll drive you.”

“But then I have work-“

“I’m off tomorrow.”

“Okay, but I don’t want to bother you.”

“You’re not a bother now just stay.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes.”

“But you don’t have another bed.”

“Relax, it’s gonna be fine. I hope you don’t snore tho.”

“I don’t snore!” You’d say as you playfully hit him.

Anyways you’d two get ready for bed and he’d give you some comfy shirt to wear as a nightgown.

Cause you don’t have pajamas with you since it was unexpected.

I see that he teases you if you drool.

But surprisingly he finds it cute on you actually.

Even tho you find it embarrassing tbh.

He finds it adorable if you curl up into a ball next to him.

It literally just wants to make him bring you closer to him tbh.

He steals the blanket a lot without realizing but he blames it on you.

Just to tease and make you cuddle with him cause you’re cold.

He does like it when you wear tank tops to go to bed.

Mostly cause when you’re turned to him he can pull your shirt in look in to see your chest.

“Zeke quit.” You’d whine before hitting his hand.

He just laughs at this and does it again.

“Stop.” You’d say playfully hitting him now.

It’s literally an endless fight.

This is when he’s too lazy to bring his hand to your ass and he is a little sleepy. Cause he’s an ass man but when he’s too lazy to grab he appreciates the view of your boobs.

And he does grope your boob when you’re asleep sometimes so be aware of it.

It’s like a habit.

I see that he does snore sometimes 😂.

He’s had pillow fights and he wins.

Zeke hits you with pillows so hard.

He’s too rough with it.

Like your hits are nothing.

And at some point, he just tackles you on the bed and tickles you till you surrender.

He does typically have his hand on your ass and rubs the side of it sometimes.

And he has the other arm around your waist 😂

He does kiss your forehead all the time before you go to bed.

I see that he is pretty warm so you don’t need to worry about being cold cause he’s warm.

He probably sleeps with your legs tangled with his.

I could see him holding you while he’s explaining some idea or theory he’s got.

If you’re taking tho I see that he just messages your scalp or plays with your hair.

He sometimes plants kisses into your neck to have you jolt away from the sudden feeling if you’re half asleep.

Plays with the strings on the waistband of your pants.

Calls you sleepy head sometimes.

Especially in the morning since he will rest his chin on his palm while laying next to you and just observing you. Or something like that.

He probably gets up before you.

Zeke probably has his back turned sometimes and I swear that when he turns it means that you might move with him.

Seems like the kinda guy to feel too hot to sleep with the blanket on so he rests his feet over it, making it hard for you to pull the blanket to cover you since you're cold. And his weight is on the blanket.

He rests his face in the crook of your neck and his beard tickles you sometimes.

He wears a lazy smile tbh but he does kiss your nose every morning that you wake up.

@bi-effing-simp

@sofijaeger

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[romanoffsbish]

Vent—A day in the life 😂

TW: Everything under the sun tbh.

——

*staring at bottle of syrup*

“Why are you just standing there?”

*shrugs*

“In a trance?”

*nods*

“Whatcha thinking about?”

“Death.”

“That’s dark; Try thinking about life.”

“Nah, not worth it.”

“Go to therapy.”

*calls me disappointing 5 seconds later because I choose to stay in my room all day over being out in her hoarders house*

When the problem can’t identify itself lolol.

—

“I hope the next time I’m in a car I crash full speed into a utility pole!”-14 yo blazing down the hallway.

“Start the revolution!”-16 yo shouts as he trails behind the other angry teenager

—

*shouting to my left*

“Kaitlyn, what’s the difference between ignorance and apathy?”-16yo

*shrugs*

“I don’t know and I don’t care.”-16yo

*unnecessary derogatory phrase said about me from the left (unprovoked)*

“What do you call a 3.14 long snake?”

“A Pi-thon”-16yo *then he cackles*

—

“You’re a great person, you don’t deserve to be treated like that.”

She says, as if she’s not been bullying me on anon for months, and thought I wouldn’t put 2 & 2 together.

—

“I ordered it with no pickles”-Rachel

*looking at the burger that definitely was given extra pickles*

*tries to eat the food but is now too icked out, and must resort to mint gum and water to keep from vomiting*

—

“Hey, how’s it going?”

-silence-

“What? You don’t want to talk to me?”

-blinks because tbh I didn’t realize I didn’t respond-

“Sorry. I am just tired”

“Why didn’t you call out?”

“Y’all would have had no one.”

“And? They could’ve figured it out.”

I fucking love her 😭

—

Do you ever just stare up at the ceiling and wonder what it is you did to deserve this life? Like, was your toxic ex bestie right about you when she said no one would ever stay? Forgoing her crazy possessive tendencies for a second, maybe she knew something you didn’t. Maybe she was equipped to deal with your brand of crazy, but she knew the greater populous would run at the first sight of your inner workings, and had you listened to her you might’ve saved yourself all this heartache. Taking to heart what she said instead of being willfully ignorant to the obvious, because for some silly reason you believed it could be different for you. That you weren’t destined to live through this unbearable existence, and that someone out there would actually be able to love you like you weren’t a fucking burden?

No? Just me? Cool 😂

—

What you Say ; What I Hear

“Thank you for everything that you do for the kids and I. I love you so much.”

“Thank God you’re still around, giving us all that we need / want even though I leave you on delivered for weeks on end until I find you hold purpose again.”

“You worry me.”

“Jesus Christ—You are too fucking much.”

(So many have said this to me recently 😔)

“I adore you, but I have to go.”

“I ‘love’ you, but I don’t ‘like’ you.”

“You need to get up, learn to live life, and live by the 8 hour rule (work, life, sleep split by three)”

“You being depressed serves me no purpose, get the fuck up, and do as I want you to.”

[3416]

I’m kind of the odd one out here I think… I went the absolute different way…

I was very much OG over everything. Like OG 911 is just my show and I love it so fucking much and it has nothing to do with shipping that I refused to watch Lonestar for the longest time. It’s just that a lot of times when a really good show gets a spin off, eventually all the focus goes to the spin off and that in turn declines the quality of the OG (which I think is what unfortunately is happening with s5 of OG right now)… so I refused and refused and refused… And on top of that Texas is not my favorite place…

but then I was locked down for six months… Just staring at my bedroom wall because everything was closed and work was closed and the pandemic was raging… So I caved… Now I’m so happy I did… I love both of them equally and I ship both buddie and tarlos equally! Actually call them my “not yet gay gay himbos” and my “comfort gays” 😂 And I’ve never understood why fandoms had to fight over ships… Like, just open yourself to love and stop hating on other stuff… Maybe I’m too old… I’ve been in fandom for too long… Even if I dislike something I never post about it, I just either ignore it or if I really don’t like it I block it and then I don’t see it… I just wanna concern myself with the things that I do love! And I don’t have to shit on others for that 🤷🏻‍♀️

but Buddie is also my very first ship that is not canon… And I am suffering so much 😂 I don’t know how people do this 😂

i see why people stay away from spinoffs or franchise extensions or reboots or whatever it is that they think is going to taint or harm the original! i get the urge, truly. it wasn't about that for me personally bc i didn't start out an og fan... i saw people talking about both multiple times and just decided to start on lone star first and was hooked. i'm glad you came to a point where you wanted to give it a shot and that you ended up liking it!!

in my mind, it's not like this is a major ship war thing (stupid, i feel 12 typing that) at all. like maybe it is to some people... i honestly fkljsd am not bothered by what people choose or prefer... only by the way annoying and insane things encroach into my territory or when it bleeds into the real life people involved in these shows, that's when it gets me. i'm never actively comparing bc i genuinely don't care or think abt buddie fdskjls, but if i gotta be made aware.................. i end up talking it out somewhere. i mostly agree with you, people need to chill out. talking about things you dislike can be fun in small circles with people who agree but honestly.. focusing your entire energy on being hateful or complaining or whatever it is these people are feeling.. well. i get tired of having to see it, and it does personally taint my view of some stuff.

anyway, thanks for sharing! good luck bc non canon shipping can be a trip (but also lots of fun and a reminder that there's no real constraints when you're not afraid to say fuck it to canon tbh kfjdksl that's somethings half the fun).

[handonhaven]

Aye bestie❤cause ur opinion comforts and claims me❤..

So you must have seen Danielle interview by now and already the hosie's b twisting it up , Dani said "You know, it's complicated. My personal feelings obviously are very different from how Hope feels", the hosie's twisting it up saying that Danielle hates handon and putting words in her mouth she and hope are two different person so obviously she's gonna have a different feeling or opinion, it keeps getting to me tho maybe shes tired of them to how she was speaking ion know but until Danielle confirms she hates them am not gonna let it get to me.

She didn't say much about handon this season more than there short of endgame material, she also said they are gonna be separated for awhile mainly because they both need growth and time to heal which is true . I really wanna see landon storyline this season and how he handles his trauma and I want hope to help him but they gonna separat them for a while, am gonna cry so hard for landon am also excited to see hopes storyline as well and how she handles her tribid side and i heard she's gonna push away her friends and landon or anybody shes close to. Do u think both hope and landon gonna push away each other and in the end they will they be okay and be stronger or closer?? Am excited to see and also scared.

Aww really? 🥺❤️ I‘m so glad to hear that! I don’t comfort myself at all. 😂 Yes I did see the interview but I’m avoiding H*sies, though I can imagine what they’re saying. Yeah, idk what Danielle meant by that, but I’m trying not to assume too much, and H*sies should do the same. I’d hope Danielle doesn’t hate Handon but maybe she does want a break from Handon stuff idk. And yes, she said both good things and bad things about Handon. I’m glad that she talked about them being endgame, but I’m obviously very unhappy about a separation. I just don’t agree with the idea that they need to be apart to grow and heal individually. Like what kind of message does that send about relationships? That you can’t work through things together? Or support each other with your own individual challenges? When things get rough you’ve gotta go your separate ways and deal with stuff on your own before you can be together again? Which is the opposite of how Hope and Landon’s relationship has always been? That doesn’t necessarily send a good message, people can absolutely grow and heal individually together. I mean, what do people think happens with married couples? That they never grow or progress ever again? It’s ridiculous and it would be great if, for once, a tv show would actually show a couple realistically getting through challenges together throughout the course of the series without separating them. And especially in this case, when Hope and Landon have always fought for each other and would need each other more than ever, it just makes absolutely no sense to me. And also almost makes all of season 3 and them fighting to get back to each other kinda for nothing?

But anyway, I really wanna see Landon’s storyline too but I fear for what they’re gonna do regarding his trauma. I’m worried it’s gonna be handled badly (if it’s even handled at all) especially if they’re not gonna have Hope helping him. It’s unbelievable tbh, I’ll be crying too. Hope’s storyline could be interesting as well with her most likely being a full tribrid. And I’d think her pushing her friends away would make sense, but her pushing Landon away would make no sense. I sure hope that Hope and Landon don’t push each other away, why would they do that after all they’ve been through? I can’t think of any good reason. But I hope whatever happens, they’ll still end up being stronger and closer eventually. I’m glad you’re excited, I wish I was, but I’m mostly just scared. I’m hoping it won’t be as bad as I’m thinking it will be. If the real changes happen starting in 4x05, maybe we’ll still get a lot of great Handon stuff in the next four episodes, if anything.

[penaltbox]

lol ry’s so annoying like that. but we’ve been through a lot and he really is one of my closest friends so we know when it’s too far. and since i actually did feel so embarrassed (and still do lol) he did apologize and try to make me feel better. i appreciate it from him. yeah hahaha hiding from them is not an option. there was a team party (plus a few friends and gfs and whatever) this weekend 🙈 so those were my weekend plans lol. but T is honestly such a rock for me. he’s had a few of his moments but for the most part he really is so calm and cool and collected. i love it about him 🥰 its actually really attractive to me and idk why but he has got it down so i dont question it and just enjoy. the party was interesting though. i saw the one freshman and he blushed so much when he saw me 😫

lol i dont even want to know what T told them tbh 🙈 too embarrassing to even think about. esp bc in ry’s shitty version of an apology he also mentioned how he was ‘sorry for telling the freshman congrats on seeing your first shirtless girl’ bc it was a ‘kind of inappropriate’ comment. i smacked him for that. i dont want to know what T had to say about that one lol. by the time he got back that day, i was tired and asked for cuddles and i fell asleep there instead of going back to mine lol. oooh the lsat, good luck to him!! and spending the night 👀👀👀👀 okayyyy j 👀 i see you big sis 👀 hope you had fun and made good decisions 😏 oh and for cute bras. that one was from a while ago from la senza. i have a few from there. and i had one that i ordered from adore me that i really liked that was uhh a little spicy 🙈 but someone might have ripped that one and now owes me a new bra

Ry really is a day one bro and I mean that in the best way lol. He’s been around just as long as T I feel like (or that we’ve been lucky enough to hear about). I’m glad he apologized though! Don’t be afraid to give him a hard time for a bit over it though lol. I totally get why you think T being so dependable is attractive. I think we’d all agree that a consistently calm and loyal guy is pretty much what we all want. So in summary, ry is never allowed to tell another story or talk to the freshmen for life lesson moments 😂😂 that boy, what a trip lol. I think him getting back and you just stealing some cuddles sounds like a very good idea. I’d have done the same.

No because listen. He was going to stay over and then goes shoot I can’t, I have a golf outing the next morning right by my house (we live like 35 mins from each other) so he had to be up the next morning and didn’t spend the night 😒 I’m not salty, but I am. Idk. He’s like serious but not. I have fun with him though and we get along so well and things are stupid easy when I’m with him but he also isn’t super forward and hasn’t tried to make it official. Confused but content is pretty much where we’re at 😅.

[bitchy-peachy]

ok don't you just super hate it when people judge you for saying something and then they go on after talking shit about you, making you look like an asshole and acting like your opinions are shit, to repeat EXACTLY WHAT THEY JUDGED YOU FOR BECAUSE YOU HURT THEIR FICTIONAL FANTASY? i've just seen the most toxic hypocritical person in my life because i know she and her little friends for a fact judged and bitched about every little thing dark fans said and discussed that wasn't even forced on them

Tbh, I wouldn’t say I hate it, cos I just ignore it now, lol. Yeah, it’s extremely annoying to have some no-lifer just hounding your every word to report on it, and blowing it up into something it’s not. Even just shitposting got some panties in a bunch cos some people seem to only like being negative all the time and up in other people’s blogs (even stuff that I had in my own personal tag somehow ended up being discussed in those shitty type of blogs).

If I said I liked something and discussed it with some friends, suddenly some loser too cowardly to show their faces, would throw a fit saying, “Oh, they’re fooooorcing us! 😭” when we use personal tags for everything. Then we’d be accused of wanting attention when we didn’t go out of our way to get noticed, and if we stuck only to our friends we were “snobs”. And the amount of ridiculous shit we even had made up about us just cos our opinions upset some easily triggered person in the past were lol. We even got hate for blocking toxic blogs since wanting more positivity surrounding us instead of toxic minded vibes, makes us massive bitches (coming from people that actually blocked us first, pffffft).

A lot of contradictory shit right there, lmao. We want attention by not seeking it and then we’re snobs for not seeking it? I’m sure these people didn’t know wtf they were even feeling most of the time and only used their hatefulness as a way to fuel everything that they do in their fandoms and tbh it got tiresome.

I still think they’re full of shit and hypocritical and that’s why I just stopped giving a fuck about them. I was tired of getting as bitchy as them to fight back when it was obvious they were just being hateful for the sake of just being hateful. Maybe they don’t get attention irl, maybe their lives suck, idk… But I realized something after taking a break.

I don’t have to be like them because my life is in actually good place rn. Great family, friends, great job, fangirl stuff… I don’t have a reason to be like them. I like discussing fandom things for different fandoms, interacting with followers, talking about the good and bad things, but honestly I don’t have to be acting as a judge like these nasty people do, I don’t have to stalk and nitpick like these people do.

Why would I need to do that when I’m satisfied with my life? Maybe I’ll get called arrogant for even saying I love my life because even that gets judged. In order to be a “good” person, I have to have a shitty life, low self-esteem, and be depressed and angry all the time apparently. If I don’t have those traits, then I’m just an arrogant person cos I’m not like them.

And I’m proud of my friends cos whenever we get down to discussing random things I realized something. We’ve accomplished so many things we thought we couldn’t. Even small things we didn’t think we could do again. Some friends graduated from their universities as professionals already, others have stopped fearing being in serious relationships and are happy with their S/Os and have accepted love in their lives, others have fixed their problems and came out stronger for it.

But… These other people stay stuck and I kinda feel sorry for them. (sorry I’m sappy this early… Oh shit, it’s 10:16 my time, lmfaooooo. I fell asleep at 2:00 am, so to me, holyshit 😂).

Anyways, anon. Sorry for the long answer but I made my peace with it and just don’t pay attention to it anymore. They’re the ones that easily can look bad on their own for talking nonsense about other people all the time when those people don’t even talk to them or say anything about them or their hateful jabbing. I’m actually in the dark about a lot of things cos literally we’ve all moved on.

Lately, all I’m discussing in different discord servers are otome games and in one private one-on-one chat with a friend, she’s slowly convincing me to write fanfics again for fandoms with better reputations unlike the ones I’m usually writing for. For a positive change of scenery. She’s even doing OC idea sketches (she’s really hyped and her enthusiasm is addictive. I love her. She’s the best)

If people can’t move on from being well, being toxic for no reason, then that’s their problem. I’ll just chill surrounded by good people and having fun, thank you. 😘

[buruuhan]

3. 11. 14. 23. 24. 28.29. 30. 33. 37. 38. 39. 44. 46. 47. 48. 53. 54. just choose your favs:D, i know that’s a lot of asks!😂💛

No, no! I don’t mind these questions, don’t worry. Thank you for waiting patiently!

(Cracks fingers) Alright, let’s do this!

3 -- Do you drink the milk out of the bowl after the cereal is gone?

Yes, I always do. Why would I waste the milk? It’s not good, man.

11 -- Ever broken a bone?

Fortunately I haven’t; I always try to be careful and restrain myself from moving around recklessly.

14 -- Do you send 1 long text or separate your thoughts into single texts?

I find writing a whole long text in a message tiring and kind of troublesome so I prefer separating my thoughts into single texts.

23 -- Are you on other Social Media? If yes, which is your favorite?

Yes, I am. I frequently use this (for international interaction) and Facebook (for local interaction and memes)

24 -- Do you have any allergies?

I recall that I had allergy to shrimps during my childhood, but no longer today.

28 -- What was the last thing you Googled?

“Serai kesehatan pdf” aka “lemongrass health pdf”; I’m looking for references to include in my future final paper.

29 -- Are you a vegetarian or vegan?

I’m not although I have plant-based dish much more frequently due to my place’s economy state.

30 -- Last song you listened to?

Taka Radjiman’s cover of Kouzen no Himitsu.

33 -- Favorite fast food place?

I only order fast food once in a while so it’s a bit hard to choose, but so far my favorite is McDonald’s. Their fried chicken and chicken burger are great. I also love how they set up seasonal menus.

37 -- How would you describe your sense of humor?

I would say it’s shitty; I laugh easily at puns (any type) and dad jokes.

38 -- Do you collect anything?

Not really, maybe unless it’s something I would use frequently such as clothes and utensils?

39 -- Do you wear glasses? if yes, how old were you when you got your 1st pair?

It’s antiradiation glasses rather than regular glasses, but sometimes I do. I got the first (and only so far) pair around last year.

44 -- What are the top 5 tags in your Blog?

Wait, we can see them in our blog preview right? If so, here are my top 5 tags:

reblog

fanmade

Ninjago

Kamen Rider

Super Sentai

46 -- Coffee or tea?

Depends to my mood, but I think i lean more to coffee (though I can’t drink one without any condiment; milk and some sugar are enough).

47 -- Do you like Amusement Park rides?

Uhh, I don’t think I do well in those “extreme” rides such as roller coaster. I prefer something calmer. I even barely go to amusement parks so idk how to explain this properly lol.

48 -- What is your used most emoji?

....I feel like I use 🥺 or 😂 more frequently these days. I love pien face lol.

53 -- How many languages do you speak?

Okay, let me see. I speak regularly in Indonesian as native language irl, but when I write in social media, I also use English and sometimes Japanese. Recently I’m also trying to learn Javanese slowly; I understand the language decently but I can’t speak well.

54 -- Where would you teleport to this very second?

Tbh it's either a local mall or coffee shop. I'm getting tired being only at home or campus for laboratory work. I'm getting sick of the scent of microbe-infected agar plates ffs.

[leandealer]

Self love

(REBLOG THIS POST AND ADD EVERYTHING YOU LOVE ABOUT YOURSELF. • I'm a fucking soldier. No matter how low I feel I still remain positive. Can't shit shake me son. With my usual mind full of doubt and anxiety every day, all I'm thinking is "what's next bitch" 😂 I've been dealing with depression for so long yo, and other undiagnosed mental illness idek. But tbh I don't care. That's not going to stop me from living. I love how strong I am. I love how I don't even consider how I feel, I just get over shit and move on. I'm learning to slow down though and let myself feel the pains. Pain is good for growth. It feels all scary until you really sit down, relax, empty your mind and make it your bitch. •I'm so fucking confident. Even on a bad day-- which has been pretty much every day this past year- I still feel like I'm the shit. I try so hard to humble myself and dim my shine but nah it's 2017 I'ma shine as bright as I can. I humble myself so that I won't feel alone because no one else can fucking come close to my level of confidence. I hold out on myself so much. I'm always the bigger man. I never allow myself the real satisfaction of losing control and going crazy. I have too much self control. I'm mature as fuck for my age. I literally see through every little piece of bullshit that's thrown at me and I accept it because I feel sorry for people who feel the need to lie. Lmao I swear some people would be devastated if I told them about themselves. I will not accept anything less than what my heart wants. I don't care how good things look or what it is, if I'm not feeling it then it's a no for me dawg. •I'm romantic as hell. I been sleep on myself for a minute and haven't really been spitting game but it's like I don't even have to. I got that type of game that's like I don't even have to flirt. Casual conversation got yo bitch panties wet. I'm such a good, kind, and loving friend/boyfriend. I will go through hell and back just to see you smile if I'm really down for you. I'll push all my pride aside and focus on what I need to do on my side to make this relationship better. I can tell you endlessly what I love about you and exactly why. I'll write you poems, take you out on dates, finger you in yo bed while yo moms in the next room, randomly grab you and make out. I just do whatever I feel I should do in the moment. I'm here to build and fly high, not settle for some shitty ass relationship. I need a strong partner. I'm tired of y'all insecure, emotionally unstable little girls and some of y'all grown ass hoes too. I'm tired of fixing problems that aren't mine to fix. I'm tired of being drained of my soul and positivity for someone who can't love me in the same capacity. Anyone would be lucky to even get a glance from my attention. •I'm sooo intelligent. I'm not even bragging. I don't know the limits of my brain but I do know how vast my potential and capability is. I hold back so much and act like I don't know a thing when really I understand everything down to a T. I don't just see what's in front of me, I see what's behind it, what it could possibly be depending on multiple factors, what it used to be, how every little piece fits to make it work as a whole, why it's there, etc. Sometimes I wonder how I haven't gone insane or if I am insane. But an insane person does not know that they're insane. I feel like a true genius but I never show or share that side of me. Evidently enough- other people must see it in me. Especially adults. I don't know how many times teachers or just various adults have told me how wise I am or confided some deep subject matter with me. I really need to stop wearing that mask of doubt and unknowingness lol. I love to learn. There's so much information out here. I want to learn about everything. I remember when I was younger I would spend my summers reading books and doing research on my computer. I studied all about American history- outside of the classroom for over a year because I wanted to better understand. I felt that I wasn't getting shit out of the lessons in school. •My energy is so good and calming. People are drawn to me and I don't know why. Sometimes it's annoying and I get more attention from strangers than I care to handle. I want to be left alone most the time because I get drained from too much socialization. I inspire other people or they feel bothered by me for some reason. You know you got that glo when niggas afraid of your vibe. I have to be so careful about who I associate with cause mfs hang around me just to bask in my warmth. lol I wear this mask of being a boring, dead type of person but in reality I'm fun as heck. I can change your viewpoint of life for the better and shake your entire core being. I am the gentle breeze that turns into a hurricane. I am not for the faint of heart. I feel like a living piece of art and I'm here to make others realize their inner beauty too. •Last of all I'm just me. No one else can do what I can. Everyone is unique in some way and once you really step into your individuality, no one can hold a candle to your flame.

[leandealer]

Self love

(REBLOG THIS POST AND ADD EVERYTHING YOU LOVE ABOUT YOURSELF. • I'm a fucking soldier. No matter how low I feel I still remain positive. Can't shit shake me son. With my usual mind full of doubt and anxiety every day, all I'm thinking is "what's next bitch" 😂 I've been dealing with depression for so long yo, and other undiagnosed mental illness idek. But tbh I don't care. That's not going to stop me from living. I love how strong I am. I love how I don't even consider how I feel, I just get over shit and move on. I'm learning to slow down though and let myself feel the pains. Pain is good for growth. It feels all scary until you really sit down, relax, empty your mind and make it your bitch. •I'm so fucking confident. Even on a bad day-- which has been pretty much every day this past year- I still feel like I'm the shit. I try so hard to humble myself and dim my shine but nah it's 2017 I'ma shine as bright as I can. I humble myself so that I won't feel alone because no one else can fucking come close to my level of confidence. I hold out on myself so much. I'm always the bigger man. I never allow myself the real satisfaction of losing control and going crazy. I have too much self control. I'm mature as fuck for my age. I literally see through every little piece of bullshit that's thrown at me and I accept it because I feel sorry for people who feel the need to lie. Lmao I swear some people would be devastated if I told them about themselves. I will not accept anything less than what my heart wants. I don't care how good things look or what it is, if I'm not feeling it then it's a no for me dawg. •I'm romantic as hell. I been sleep on myself for a minute and haven't really been spitting game but it's like I don't even have to. I got that type of game that's like I don't even have to flirt. Casual conversation got yo bitch panties wet. I'm such a good, kind, and loving friend/boyfriend. I will go through hell and back just to see you smile if I'm really down for you. I'll push all my pride aside and focus on what I need to do on my side to make this relationship better. I can tell you endlessly what I love about you and exactly why. I'll write you poems, take you out on dates, finger you in yo bed while yo moms in the next room, randomly grab you and make out. I just do whatever I feel I should do in the moment. I'm here to build and fly high, not settle for some shitty ass relationship. I need a strong partner. I'm tired of y'all insecure, emotionally unstable little girls and some of y'all grown ass hoes too. I'm tired of fixing problems that aren't mine to fix. I'm tired of being drained of my soul and positivity for someone who can't love me in the same capacity. Anyone would be lucky to even get a glance from my attention. •I'm sooo intelligent. I'm not even bragging. I don't know the limits of my brain but I do know how vast my potential and capability is. I hold back so much and act like I don't know a thing when really I understand everything down to a T. I don't just see what's in front of me, I see what's behind it, what it could possibly be depending on multiple factors, what it used to be, how every little piece fits to make it work as a whole, why it's there, etc. Sometimes I wonder how I haven't gone insane or if I am insane. But an insane person does not know that they're insane. I feel like a true genius but I never show or share that side of me. Evidently enough- other people must see it in me. Especially adults. I don't know how many times teachers or just various adults have told me how wise I am or confided some deep subject matter with me. I really need to stop wearing that mask of doubt and unknowingness lol. I love to learn. There's so much information out here. I want to learn about everything. I remember when I was younger I would spend my summers reading books and doing research on my computer. I studied all about American history- outside of the classroom for over a year because I wanted to better understand. I felt that I wasn't getting shit out of the lessons in school. •My energy is so good and calming. People are drawn to me and I don't know why. Sometimes it's annoying and I get more attention from strangers than I care to handle. I want to be left alone most the time because I get drained from too much socialization. I inspire other people or they feel bothered by me for some reason. You know you got that glo when niggas afraid of your vibe. I have to be so careful about who I associate with cause mfs hang around me just to bask in my warmth. lol I wear this mask of being a boring, dead type of person but in reality I'm fun as heck. I can change your viewpoint of life for the better and shake your entire core being. I am the gentle breeze that turns into a hurricane. I am not for the faint of heart. I feel like a living piece of art and I'm here to make others realize their inner beauty too. •Last of all I'm just me. No one else can do what I can. Everyone is unique in some way and once you really step into your individuality, no one can hold a candle to your flame.