#doesn't help that i don't have my driving licence

[tenrose]

Why do drivers stop to ask me, who live in this city, for directions?

Do I look like I know because I don't lmao

[omarfor-orchestra]

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[slowestlap]

It is not surprising, then, that the first thing coming to his mind when he hears the word 'time' is lap time. "After all, that's how I grew up, constantly trying to be the fastest," the three-time world champion tells us on a terrace of the Maybourne Riviera Hotel, in Monte Carlo, during a meeting organised with TAG Heuer, partner of the Red Bull Racing Team. "My memories as a child are linked to motor racing, when I used to watch my dad on the track. I used to ride my bike from morning to night, then I would race around the paddock, between the motorhomes, for me it was kind of a big playground that I shared with other people of my age. I'm not sure what language we communicated in, we probably used sign language".

"I see so many parents pushing their young children towards something. My parents fortunately didn't: when they realised I really liked it, they helped me to improve. And I recognize that I was very lucky, because that was also their passion".

"They are two different people, it's true. With my dad I spent a lot of time because we traveled for races: he was my mechanic, he built my engines, and he was also my driving teacher. With my mom the atmosphere was much more relaxed, she wasn't there to tell me how to take a corner but she always had a positive influence: she didn't shower me with advice, rather she told me her opinion, which I listened to and took into account," he adds. "Before they divorced, it was nice to get together around the table at dinner and simply talk about racing"

**

So quick that he doesn't even leave room for physiological fears: "That, on the track, doesn't make you push yourself to the limit. But off the track, I admit, I'm terrified of sharks, snakes and hairy spiders: in Australia I always stay in a hotel, possibly on the upper floors," Max smiles.

**

"At that age you're full of enthusiasm, you want to get your licence and go and have fun on the road, but frankly I could do without it today. I don't want to drive cars on the road, in traffic, I prefer to sit in the passenger seat and trust the driver."

**

"Because when I'm at home, with the people I love, I don't have to worry about being the fastest in everything I do".

Is it possible to imagine himself elsewhere? "Definitely! When my racing career is over, I will probably be more relaxed and be able to enjoy a different life. Being closer to my friends and family."

Max Verstappen for GQ Italia | 13 September 2024 [x]

(translated via DeepL)

[yourgamemasterthewhiterabbit]

I'd like to illustrate a problem here for a second about documentation and having ID expire every 5 years or whenever you move, while disabled in Canada, or at least Ontario.

To renew ID you need 3 pieces of documentation, one for proof of citizenship/status/immigration etc, like your birth certificate or registration etc, one for proof of residence like personally addressed mail, a bank statement or bill...

And the third, which must be separate, which is "proof of identity" for which the following is accepted:

credit card

valid Ontario driver’s licence or temporary driver’s licence

valid Ontario Photo Card

Canadian Immigration Identification Card

Certificate of Canadian Citizenship (plastic card)

Certificate of Indian Status (paper or plastic card)

Confirmation of Permanent Residence (Imm 5292)

only if signature is shown

current employee ID card

current professional association licence

Old Age Security Card

Ontario motor vehicle permit (plate portion only)

passport (Canadian or foreign)

Permanent Resident Card

only if signature is shown

Record of Landing (Imm 1000)

student ID card

union card

I have crossed out the ones I can't get as a disabled single adult with no dependents who was born here, is not elderly, cannot drive etc... Your average single young disabled adult born and raised here.

The certificate of citizenship I could [have, previously] technically get, but as a natural born citizen other sources will insist my birth certificate should be enough and I should never need this... And they STOPPED ISSUING THE PLASTIC CARDS LISTED HERE AS VALID ID!

I can't get a credit card approved because of my income.

The passport I only ever got because when I was younger I could travel, and it wouldn't get money taken off my pension etc... But most people in my position won't have or maintain this, and indeed mine is still with someone I took a trip with in my 20's and is lost to me, and I have had no real reason to renew it or report it lost. I can't renew it without getting the info off the old one and I can't apply for a new one without already having valid id AND BEING ABLE TO FIND 2 PEOPLE TO VOUCH FOR ME... Which I don't have, frankly, and I am going to go out on a limb and say that when you are more or less house bound and an inconvenient disabled who people are prone to abusing it is quite common enough to not be able to find 2 people to vouch for you. You also need a guarantor and someone to take photos! And sign them! And why would you? Why would you maintain a passport when you can't even travel??? It isn't accessible to me anyway.

So most people in my position, which is a lot, will ONLY have the photo ID card as "proof of id" which you NEED to 1. renew your health card, 2. renew the photo card itself.

My problem with this is that technically you need a photo ID card that's still valid, to make your photo id card valid again. They technically are not allowed to use your health card as this kind of ID.

I am disabled and therefor often things are LONG expired by the time I have the ability to get them renewed, so in addition to all this, my health card and photo id expire at the same time every time now.

They wanted to have a photo id alternative to the driver's license to help with issues like this to begin with, but they haven't made it much better.

The next issue is it's the only government Id that's of any use to me and that I am encouraged to get but it costs 35$ because it's treated as optional, instead of it being free like your health card is... So actually your health card does cost 35$ to maintain... Because you need your photo id card to stay valid... So actually our "free" healthcare has an out of pocket cost of 7$ per year minimum. That's not a lot, but that's not free if that 35 every 5 years stops you from being able to have health coverage.

I want a form of government ID, that counts as proof of identity, for the purpose of renewing my very important health insurance card, that doesn't bloody expire all the fucking time.

Because you're actually supposed to renew your health card every time your address changes... And when you are poor and disabled you tend to either be stuck with your parents, or stuck moving constantly to escape abuse.

And just... Do you know, how many times, for how many months I have been effectively between health coverage, in a country with free healthcare, and thus unable to seek medical attention, because my id has expired and I did not have the physical energy to go get it renewed? And that shouldn't happen!

Technically, by their own laws/policy they should have turned me away to renew my id, which would have left me 100% fucked with no existing valid ID to use to get other ID. That shouldn't be able to happen to you every 5 years or every time you move, especially when you are disabled.

And they shouldn't charge 35$ for it, considering you need it to get your health card renewed at all, technically speaking. It should be FREE! Especially if you are disabled!

If I still physically had my last passport I might be able to keep renewing it without this bullshit headache, but I can't without my old one.

They should have never switched to health cards that expire, I don't care if they wanted photo id, it was fine before, this is bullshit. This makes healthcare potentially inaccessible to the disabled because they have put it behind these stupid hoops you have to jump every 5 years and when you move.

And do you know how many disabled people have memory and mobility issues???

This is stupid.

And the kick in the teeth is that once they have my photo taken they will randomly chose to use older photos they have on file, because clearly my appearance hasn't changed enough through my adult life for them to even care how old the photo is! Why does the photo id have to expire if the photo can be over 10 years old according to their own records!? Their whole excuse for them expiring is that your appearance and address need to be up to date!

For those of you who don't know because it might have been before your time... health cards used to be white with a red stripe and no photo or address and they never expired. You only needed a new one if it was lost or stolen and that was fine. You could memorize the number on it and not even carry your card like you do with your SIN.

And then they switched us to the new photo ones to make sure everyone would have photo ID

And then they decided health cards couldn't be photo id because they didn't want to manage who got health care and who could buy alcohol with the same system for whatever reasons, so they came out with the "photo id" that you are expected to have as an alternative to a drivers license if you don't drive...

But they wanted money, so they charge 35$ every five years and make you pray to their monument of bureaucracy to get it.

Anyway fuck this my ability to make medical appointments shouldn't expire in a country with free healthcare. If they had a problem with people using each other's health cards before and messing up records, they should have made it easier to get your own health card, and not harder. And yes they should have made it so anyone even an illegal immigrant or someone who lost all their ID in a fire could walk into a clinic and still get basic care.

Not this bullshit song and dance.

So gee, if I fail to renew online just before these card expire you will hear me rant about this bullshit again in 5 years.

They could at LEAST give you a disability id card that never expires that you can use for shit like accessing the food bank or for proof of identity etc... Maybe even then it would be easy to have discount programs for anyone on a disability pension, maybe any groceries that are deemed basic necessities enough could be partially or fully subsidized without extra applications and headaches?

But no it's like they want to make healthcare inaccessible for the people who need it the most.

[godfrey-the-chaos-duck]

this just in: Irish loser is Sad™ because all my friends can go and do shit but not me apparently

Vent under the cut, I'm really sorry about this but I have to get it off my chest (it's nothing too serious but it is kinda long)

I'm eighteen. I've voted twice. I've finished secondary school. People my age are planning holidays and going to college and moving out and actually living life, and I feel like I'm falling behind so so much.

I don't have a bank account. I don't have a passport or any form of photo ID with a date of birth. I don't even have (or want!) a driver's licence, I will circle back to that later though.

My parents (particularly my mom) keep saying they'll help me get set up with all the above but because Mom's busy with work and Dad's really forgetful, it never gets done.

It's gotten to a point where I don't actually see a point in getting these things set up, for the following reasons:

I haven't had my name legally changed yet so everything would be set up under my deadname. Which. Fuck that.

For a bank account to make sense I would need money and I live in literally the textbook definition of "rural ass farming town" so the only jobs around that don't need experience are working in the supermarket or food service. I would, and I'm not exaggerating here, rather launch myself into a black hole than do those jobs because I've heard from my neurotypical peers how hard they are so I can only imagine how awful it would be for someone with autism like myself. My only other option is to try and get unemployment benefits but like. What would I even be spending the money on? Certainly not a house (the housing market in Ireland is literally impossible) and not a holiday either.

For a passport to make sense I would need to be able to travel, and quite aside from the No Money thing (see above) I've been fucked over by fate yet again because Mom doesn't trust me to go places on my own. She's only quite recently started letting me take the bus to a town half an hour away with friends. I don't even see the use in asking her to go on a train/plane/ferry unaccompanied because I know for a fact she'd say no. She'd say something along the lines of "we should do this together a few times first" which, understandable, but then she's so tired from work and busy with housework on the weekends that that never ends up coming to fruition. Add to that my crippling anxiety, catastrophic thinking and fear of the unknown, and I have basically conditioned myself into thinking I can never go anywhere more than a half hour's drive away without a parent.

I do not want to learn to drive. My dad keeps telling me I should because it would give me freedom, except no it wouldn't. It's not like I could use his car because he needs to go places too, and I could probably never afford my own car cause that shit is expensive as hell to run and maintain, so I really see no sense in learning. Also, I have the navigational skills of a teaspoon, so I would be basically guaranteed to get lost.

All of this has come to a point where I'm super hesitant to ask for anything because I know that either my parents will outright say no, or I'll end up chickening out because they'll remind me there's probably something I haven't thought of. (Mind, they don't often fully explain what)

And this was fine a few years ago when I had no friends and couldn't see how people actually lived their lives, but as my friends are all telling me about things they plan to do, I guess I'm having a lot of realisations.

The first time a classmate of mine said she was going on a holiday independently with some friends of hers, my first immediate thought was, "Do her parents just not care?" This would've been a little over two years ago, when I and all my class were around 16.

Now, though, I'm realising that teens going places on their own is actually NORMAL and that, big surprise, I'm once again the weird one. I told Mom about this and her response was "there's no right speed to do life at" which is right, you shouldn't do things if you don't feel ready to do them, but I don't know, something about this whole situation feels kinda wrong to me.

Here's the thing that's made me emotional today though.

The big Pride festival in Ireland is on June 29th. I wanted to go last year with my friends but Mom said no because it would be "too crowded" and "what if something goes wrong and I can't be there for you" and all that. And the worst part? She's right. It would have been very overwhelming.

Anyway this year, my friends aren't going, so even if by some miracle Mom's answer was going to change, I would feel awkward not being able to go with anyone I knew. So I'm not even gonna ask.

The way I see it, I can't move on with my life in any way as it stands. I can't release music, or publish books, or sign up to act in anything, until I get my name changed, because I do not want to be renowned under my deadname.

But I also feel like I can't change my name until I move out. My parents say they need to know where I am all the time, to the point where I once had an outing with a group of friends interrupted by a call from my father because I had left with the group from the coffee shop he'd dropped me off at, to a different shop somewhere else, two minutes' walk away.

I don't know. I feel like I have no freedom or independence and I'm genuinely unsure whether this is normal for people my age, or if it's an autism thing, or if my parents (again, particularly my mother) are being weird.

Basically what I'm wondering is

Is it healthy to be in this situation? And if not, how can I get out of it?

Again, I'm really really sorry about this, I know I don't usually get all personal on here but just. I feel weird about this and need some advice or at the very least a virtual shoulder to cry on

[struggle-but-its-all-ocean-floor]

https://x.com/seokjinbit/status/1823579993265594436

idk if you care, but regarding suga dui (and you did say we would probably update you) there is footage now out and it is as unspectacular as you can imagine. he drives an electronic scooter at less than walking speed and then falls down as he arrives home, police is there to pick him up. according to them, they wanted to simply help him and then smelled the alcohol, did the test and the rest is history.

his testimony and the footage show that he also drove that thing for about 500m, nothing more nothing less.

however, regarding his bac, that might actually be 0.227% or 2.27. in his initial apology he stated that he had a beer, the next newsreport stated that it was above 0.08% (note: they didn't give a specific number they simply said above), which was important because it meant that he would get his licence revoked. a big newspaper stated that the police told them it was 0.227%, neither the police nor hybe have come out to refute that or comment on it. and hybe did release another statement clarifying somethings so the obviously could have.

(would like to note that in some countries you can lose your licence if you ride your bike at 0.227% so this is not particularly bad or harsh or weird)

given the fact that the scooter he drove had a seat that's not detachable its classification is i think that of an electric scooter (there was some confusion over this both on the end of hybe and the police, maybe it is still ongoing), which could mean that in the eyes of the law the case is handled more similar to if he was driving a car. that's more about law stuff and not about the reality of the situation or how it is perceived. the fine he will have to pay will be pretty hefty i assume (but i assume he will have no problem paying it). given the very unspecular nature of the footage i also assume his reputation in korea will recover.

all in all, yeah this is a crime and i don't want to make light of dui (even on something that isn't a car). i think paying a fine and getting his licence revoked are perfectly fine consequences for his actions, but apart from that... what is there really to say?

Thanks for the update! I saw the footage too.

He never said he had a beer though. I've seen multiple Army accounts on Twitter refute that. I don't think he was even the one who said it - might've been Hybe or another source -, but the expression, which literally means having a drink (or a beer?), is used to mean "going out to drink" or something like that. Anyway, he didn't claim to only have drunk a beer. Regarding his alcohol level, if your BAC is 2.27% that supposedly means you are drunk drunk, but he drove in a straight line and only fell because his front wheel got caught in the sidewalk, and he got up fine too... I doubt he was that drunk.

My thoughts on the whole situation: Yoongi drove in a straight line at near walking speed so the chances of him injuring himself or others were low. Let's face it, even if you walk home drunk, which isn't illegal even if you are shit-faced, you can bump into someone, or cross the street without looking (or stumble onto the street) and get hit by a car. A fine is more than enough imo. Getting his license revoked isn't even necessary, because after the drama he went through, do you believe he will ever do that again? Especially with everyone's eyes on him... But I'm not saying getting his license revoked is wrong. Yoongi doesn't even need his license because he has money and resources to have someone drive him around.

Anyway, everyone was having a great time trashing him on Reddit, Twitter, and everywhere else, wanting him to leave the group and saying he would even go to jail lmao, but now the truth's out suddenly everyone's very quiet and no one cares about Suga anymore. Typical.

Thanks for the ask!

[thestobingirlie]

That one anon really thought they did something. Also calling Robin Steve's property is so weird because 70% of Robin's tag is about Nancy and the majority of r*nance fics are about how Robin benefits Nancy. How Nancy can overcome trauma and be saved from heterosexual relationships.

Like you said Steve wouldn't force Robin to do anything, his entire character is about making sure other characters are happy even if it's on the expense of his own happiness. If you think Robin would be bossed around by Steve you purposefully misunderstand their entire dynamic. It was literally her idea to combine with him because they are platonic soulmates. And again Steve would never tell people what to do (other than in dangerous situations when he tries to keep others save).

Robin will always choose Steve, if you want r*nance to work Steve can't exist in that universe. That or they literally have to break off their friendship because you can't have both. I lost a friend because she dated my ex. We were really close but it's one of those things you can't really get over.

Also tbh personality wise, they just don't match. The fandom also makes Nancy a lot sweeter than she actually is the show, same goes for Steve before people come for me. They overlook her flaws like the show does, so when you point out okay well she actually would behave this way in certain situations according how she behaved in canon, people will jump you and say oh no you just hate her she's actually not bad. This is especially true for stancy, the way people just overlook the fact that she emotionally cheated on Steve for a year and then slept with Jonathan while they were still together. And before people say well Tommy said they broke up, Tommy doesn't speak to Steve or Nancy anymore, he doesn't know their relationship only rumours because they had one fight. And Jonathan's and Nancy both acknowledged Steve as Nancy's boyfriend minutes before they had sex so yeah. Again, if she was a man in that instance, nobody would excuse her actions.

In the end I don't see Nancy hanging out with the people outside the whole UD business. She'll leave the town as soon as it's possible and then nobody will hear from her again. The people I see still hanging out with each other in the future are Steve and Robin because they love each other. And Steve and Dustin because they are brothers. Also Max, Lucas and Dustin will stay in touch definitely.

god, i know. they really saw that we think robin cares about her friends feelings, and equated that to steve owning robin?? and yeah so much i’ve read about r//nance is about nancy. about how robin would help nancy develop and nancy needs to explore her sexuality. like… i hate any ship where one character is forced to play therapist for their partner.

if either of them is bossing around the other, it is robin bossing around steve, he literally drives her to school every day not even knowing she doesn’t have a licence. and yeah, steve is the kind of character who continuously does stuff he doesn’t really want to do to try and protect his friends.

sucks that that happened to you, but yeah, it just isn’t something you can get past. i do think it’s because steve is a guy that they have less empathy for him when it comes to his love life. nancy and he broke up just a little over a year ago. if it was a couple decades down the line it might be different (though i kinda doubt it), but even so, robin will always choose steve. like you said, they’re soulmates. in order for r//nance to work, steve literally needs to not exist (though if steve doesn’t exist, robin and nancy would have literally nothing to talk about.

i totally agree that people try to rewrite nancy to make her mesh better with other characters, honestly the st fandom does it with nearly every single character. babygirl steve, for example. people try to rewrite that he’s bitchy, he lashes out when he feels shoved into a corner (though always apologises), they make him super feminine and weak, when steve is probably one of the most masculine characters on the show. and yes! it’s insane how if you even dare to slightly criticise nancy, you hate her, you’re a misogynist, like please! you can love a character and recognise they have flaws!

i find it so funny when people point to billy and tommy making fun of steve as proof they’d broken up. like tommy is the authority on their relationship? especially because, like you said, half an hour before she has sex with jonathan, she is adamant she is in love with steve. if they’d broken up, why would she do that? but yeah, steve being the guy means people try to excuse everything nancy did wrong in that relationship.

totally agree. like, hawkins is the centre of everything that went wrong in nancy’s life. and it’s like, so many people say steve and nancy could never be together, because he reminds her of her trauma with barb’s death, and if that’s true, then i doubt nancy will want anything to do with any of them. and yeah, the only people not blood related that i really see being engaged in each others lives (other than occasionally reunions and stuff) is steve and robin, and then the party. obviously with steve staying in contact with max, dustin and lucas, specifically (in my dream version of stranger things where hopper and steve have a, like, fatherly relationship, they’d stay in touch, but that’s not canon lol).

also, i kinda see nancy becoming a murray kind of reporter, so she can’t really keep in contact when she’s breaking into government facilities and revealing all their secrets.

anyway, totally agree with all your points, and i’m so tired of getting told i hate nancy because i dare to point out that she isn’t a great girlfriend

[mayomalice]

midnight sun • twilight

6/10

I'd like to start this review by saying this: i am not a knuckle cracker. but if i was, i would be cracking them before i begin my review.

lets get into it starting with the pros of this book before i rip into it with the cons.

for the most part i actually thoroughly enjoyed this book, there were several moments that made me giddy having been able to see it through Edward's perspective, such as being able to get brief glances into other peoples heads and know what they were thinking in that moment, because.. that's literally his power. it brought forth several short almost witty moments- some of them i believe to be unintentional, such as a descriptor for jasper in a moment to be 'and jasper was... suffering.'.

while i am aware of Edward and Bella's relationship being not all that healthy, that doesn't prevent me from loving them together. (because to be frank there are far worse pairings out there). For a lack of better words and words that make me cringe just at the thought of typing, once again, the movies really fail to show how much rizz Edward has. like he was seducing me to be honest, and i'm not even remotely attracted to men.

other than those pros that will conclude the positive section of this review, as i've listed in other book reviews for the series a lot of the same positives apply to this one. that being said, i don't wish to retype all of that once again.

lets move on to the negatives this book had for me.

firstly, Edward is extremely broody. to an eye rolling extent. while yes, i have been aware of that from reading the entire original series, and having watched the movies hundreds of times.. it still doesn't make it any less irritating when he's constantly saying things like 'Bella deserves someone better than me' 'Bella shouldn't be with someone who's killed people (COUGH, rapists).. etc.

secondly, from roughly page 568 until the final page, 658, i hated almost everything i was reading.

the entire scene where they're trying to get Bella out of danger is truly a frustrating read. Edward is a moron who refuses to listen to Alice who's trying to diffuse both him and the situation at hand, which in turn worries Bella further.. Emmet is unsure of what to do as he's sat in the backseat with a now even more stressed Bella.. Edward being no help at all like i said previously as he refuses to pull over so Alice can tell him what they should do for way longer than what should've been touched on within that chapter.

furthermore the car chase scene was torturous to read. why is it that with only a single apart am i being told that the car is driving at 150 m/ph? twice? why is it that you continue to tell me the car is going '160' '170' '180.'... that detail is entirely unnecessary when all that truly needed to be said was something like 'the car was continuing to increase in speed rapidly'.

my next massive complaint has to do with Carlisle and licence losing medical malpractice on his part. now, i love Carlisle. it's not so much about HIM, but mores about stephanie's idiocy regarding topics that she clearly did NOT research before including them in her novel. (something which is not new for her and her writing at all).

the complaints are as follows:

1. the 'she's lost some blood' comment. no shit. both you and Edward are actively kneeling in the pool of her blood which she's actively laying in. she's lost more than 'some blood'.

2. WHYYYY are you doing sutures outside of a hospital?? and how?? and where the fuck do you have to supplies- let alone sterile supplies to do so?? i understand that Carlisle is a doctor but that's not just something you have just chilling in your back pocket or in your car. so once again.. WHAT?

3. WHY do you have morphine on your person to treat Bella with.. morphine is an opioid, and there are legal restrictions that come with that.. as far as i'm aware you would not just have morphine on you, let alone a high enough dosage to treat Bella who has; 4 broken ribs, a broken leg, 2 open wounds on her head (which directly goes back to #2 of my complaints), and a body almost coated in bruising from head to toe. there is NO way.

4. Taping Bella's ribs. first of all, this is no longer a practice that is used as it makes it hard to take deep breaths, which bella was doing, because on top of everything she was also actively turning into a vampire.

5. i understand that they 'couldn't go to the hospital' because of the vampire turning on their hands, but they should've. if they truly had to keep Bella human, Edward should've sucked the venom out on the way to the hospital. in my opinion though, Bella should've just turned then and there. it would've saved everyone a world of trouble as well as once again, saving them the trip to the hospital entirely.

that's all for my medical malpractice complaints, now onto some more general complaints, i'll try to keep this short.

1. how did nobody in the small town of Forks notice the ballet studio having been lit on fire and burned to the ground? it's a small town, people are nosy, people would notice and come to see what's going on.

2. Bella was only kept in the hospital for 9 days despite her condition.

3. no obvious timeskip in the writing to show that Bella had recovered enough to be walking around and able to go to her school dance.

4. a lacklustre, disappointing ending. the final sentence literally being; 'as the night finally overcame the end of the day, i leaned forward again and kissed the warm skin of her throat.

with all that being said, up until the climax i did enjoy reading the book. it's not the best in the series at all, but at least it's not new moon.

[anthonysstupiddailyblog]

Anthony's Stupid Daily Blog (739): Tue 26th Mar 2024

Up early for an automatic car driving lesson and man this was a real fucking eye opener. Without the constant urge to look down at the gears I could finally drive with zero anxiety. It was like driving one of those dodgems at the fairground. The lesson lasted two hours and the instructor hardly gave me any pointers or things I could have done better, literally all he gave me were directions and instructions. The only thing I kind of struggled with was the parking but since most automatic cars have a screen with built-in reverse parking guidance this shouldn't be a problem. Plus most of the time the car park at my work is half empty anyway. The two hours flew by and at the end of it the instructor told me that I didn't need anymore lessons and if this had been a test he would have passed me. He said that if I'm only going to be using it for work then I should just go ahead and get one but if I ever plan some trips away I can call him and he'll help me get used to the motorways again. After I got home I felt a mixture of elation and sheer anger: elation at the how much easier my life is going to be once I get this car but anger because of how much time and money I wasted on automatic car lessons. Don't get me wrong I enjoyed my time with Joe my instructor who is no longer with us as he was hilarious but I must have paid for about a hundred lessons and failed my test twice before I finally got my manual car licence. The whole time I could have just jumped in an automatic and passed in a fraction of the time. Tuned into tonight's Hollyoaks and when John Paul got too inquisitive about Carter's classes with Lucas (which JP doesn't realise yet are gay conversion classes) Carter threatened to suspend John Paul by making up a lie that he caught him drinking at work. After the episode I wondered if Carter suspended John Paul and said he was drinking at work couldn't he just take a breathalyzer to prove he hadn't? Anywho later on in the episode Carter gets down on his knees and begs Maxine to take him back. I thought it would be funny if later in the episode Declan, the leader of the gay conversion cult Carter is a member of saw the dirt on Carter's nees and said " You've been with John Paul again haven't you?"

[derelictheretic]

How about “Zombie Messiah's Are Too Much Trouble Part 2 (x reader)” 👀

Thank you for asking about this one i'm really proud of how it's turning out!! It's a Murphy x reader (my terrible taste is further supported by other ppl with the same tastes <3) I wanted to see a fic where the reader doesn't just let Murphy get away with everything and there's jusy big love hate vibes all around

"Are you gonna fucking help Murphy?" You ask with a huff of breath, looking at him over your shoulder.

"I thought I'd just stand here and look pretty actually, thank you for asking." He shoots you a pleased grin and you scoff in disbelief.

"For the guy who bitches every time we have to walk more than a mile you sure aren't too concerned about getting this car started." You throw your arms up to gesture at the vehicle and Murphy pushes himself off the car, hands raising to his chest.

"That's not my job sweetheart, my job is to—"

"To be the cure for humanity, yeah I get it, fuck sake fine. Do whatever you want Murphy, I don't care." You snap, opening the door roughly and storming into the house. You walk past Addy and to the set of stairs you see at the end of the hall, stomping up them and into the nearest room. God that man could grind your gears like nothing else, without even trying sometimes. Though it really felt like he put extra effort to push your buttons specifically. No amount of excitement and distraction was worth the grey hairs he was giving you. 

By this rate a hernia was gonna be what took you out instead of Z's.

"Murphy?"

Warren's voice comes from your right and you turn to see her in the doorway, a look of understanding on her face as you seethe in place.

"Murphy." You confirm and she nods, sighing and resting her hands on her hips.

"Just hold out a little longer, he may be a pain in the ass but we need him." She pats the doorway and walks away after you give a stiff nod. You didn't know how much longer you had in you. Guy was driving you fucking nuts.

You sigh heavily, trying to expel your anger with your breath before looking over the room. It was a simple bedroom, not much decoration and only a single bed in the middle of it. You look through the bedside tables before moving on to a handbag laying on the floor. You pause as you pull out a leather wallet, flipping it open and having a driver's licence stare back at you. Just a normal woman with the same dead eyed stare everyone gave for those photos. The stray thought that you may have seen her face in the swarm of Z's yesterday makes an uncomfortable shiver run down your spine.

You shut the wallet and put it back in the handbag, rummaging through the rest of it but coming up empty. You walk out into the hall, pausing at the sight of Murphy at the top of the stairs. He juts his chin up and walks past you, as if he were the one mad at you. You watch him in silence, you had half a mind to follow him and throw him out the closest window. But Doc jumps out of a room at the end of the hall before you can give in to the impulsion, a bright grin on his face and hand held high with a set of keys dangling from his fingers.

"I found them!" He cheers and you can't help but smile, any annoyance disappearing as the infectious energy from the older man seeps into you; and the sight of Murphy jumping out of his skin at the suddenness of Doc's shout was admittedly a bonus.

"Way to go Doc!" You cheer, lifting your hands to catch the keys as he throws them over Murphy's head. Once the metal meets your palm you turn and jog down the stairs, meeting Warren and Addy in the garage. You toss Warren the keys and after the blessed sound of the doors unlocking meets your ears Warren swings open the driver side door and slips into the front seat. You come up to her side, resting your hand on the frame of the car and watching in anticipation as she puts the key in the ignition.

Doc puts a hand on your shoulder as she glances over at you, you can feel the hope bubbling away inside you and you and Doc give her encouraging nods. 

She turns the key.

[i-piss-bubbles]

I've got my mental health phone appointment today. Hopefully nobody gives me any shit for being gone over 45 minutes, I did work my lunch yesterday. God,when did I become such a kiss arse, so bogged down with silly details. Hopefully the therapist will help me to stop putting myself down so much. If beating myself up worked,it would've worked by now,you know? But it's a hard habit to get out of. I guess it's like a destructive addiction. Everyone struggles with it,or most people do at least, and I'm no different. That's what I have to keep telling myself, I'm a normal person who not Everyone is staring at and judging. 41% of people my age don't have their driving licence, it doesn't make me a failure or a bad person, just part of a large minority. Its just that everyone else at my work has it, but work doesn't define me. I could lose my job tomorrow and still be the same person. Just breathe abs, it's all gonna be ok eventually.

[crazybiaatch]

!! VENT !!

this is a vry venty post abt my struggles with high school, mental health & family so this is ur warning to only look if u want to see my problems lols

So I'm in my last year of high school rn, finally made it all that good stuff so proud of myself blah blah. At the same time though, I've had one sister get pregnant and move out, a new secret sister move in and we've had to deal with relationships imploding all around, especially my parents who are on the verge of divorce. So I am reasonably (imo at least) stressed tf out. Now my dumbass decided to take Italian for my last two years (so this year + next year until I graduate) but bc I live in the middle of nowhere I have to do it through something called distance education, which is pretty much covid school but if u transferred the day of lockdown, and that makes it a hard course. I was warned abt how hard it was but I was also a cocky lil shit that believed I could breeze through it bc I had Duolingo. I was wrong and now I'm struggling so much that i kinda just want to leave it all behind, and normally I could do this bc my school lets us drop a subject as soon as we go into our last year. Except I already dropped a subject, and we can't undo that. so now I'm stuck. There's three things I could do here that would leave me in school. 1 is fail out of the class, but not my school, which would be me not doing any of the work until they kicked me out of the class, 2 would be begging the school to let me drop it & just not graduating (p much I would attend my other classes but I wouldn't revive our version of a diploma & wouldn't be held back) which may be impossible with how the school is run, or 3, switch out my Italian course with a trade course, the only problem with that is the fact that I would be losing out of the rest of my classes by doing that, plus I would have to do mandatory work placement which is quite litarally getting a job for at least 2 weeks but not getting paid for any of it, and since it's a trade it would be manual labour, which I'm not too excited to do for free.

on top of my schooling troubles and trying to figure out what I should do, I've been depressed. tbf I've been depressed for years, not diagnosed but I've been suicidal so there's that, and last week I sought out a doctor so I can begin seeing a psychologist to deal with my mental health issues.

so the idea I came up with, which I have thought about plenty, is to get a job and drop out. This is the best plan I can see for myself. My family is a long line of drop outs, so even if I asked for help they couldn't give it to me, and I figured that since I'll have a job, my parents will for sure let me drop out, I mean, my sister (who is only a year older) dropped out without a job, so surely they would let me, right?

nope. I've only spoken to my mother about this bc she's the one that saw me having a panic attack over school, and she believes that I can 'push through and do it' and that if I did drop out, it would just put more stress on me and that I haven't thought it through. I have though. I was never planning on uni, so getting my diploma will only slightly boost me compared to the level I'm currently at, I'm trying to get my licence so I can drive myself to and from work, but ofc as a minor I can't order my own birth certificate and my mother has been putting it off for 2 years now, I'm really close to getting a job already, and I've been applying to every job I can in this tiny little town, but according to her, because I'm not going around and leaving my resume nailed to business doors it means I'm not actually trying (keep in mind this woman hasn't applied for a job in almost 6 years & runs her own cleaning business) she also says my dad will never sign off on it bc he doesn't think I'm putting in an effort either, but he doesn't even know what year I'm in or what classes I'm taking so I don't think he would even notice if I was going around like a Mormon and offering my services to everyone. She also bought up the fact that I don't know what I want to do with my life. I want to be a writer. She doesn't know what I want to do with my life. They all thought I still had my dream of owning a cafe from 3 years ago, even though I've told them all how much I hate making coffees. I've even thought about things like taxes and rent, my dad plans to start charging me rent as soon as I turn 18, so I figure a year of working and saving could help with that, and I've helped my mum do taxes for years (plus she's always done my sister's taxes, but I don't see her offering that kind of help to me) the only two things I don't have that are keeping me from dropping out are two things out of my control: a job and a licence. I can't control who hires me, and I can't access my birth certificate. I don't mind that though, I'm still applying places, and I'm more than willing to catch a taxi to my job out of the money I've already saved. I'm old enough that if I went to the school and told them I wanted to drop out, they would immediately start the process, my parents agreeing is the only possible thing that could stop me.

aside from my family, I've also received some mixed messages from my friends. 1 is definitely dropping out, she's also moving, and 1 is definitely staying in school, but there's another. He said he also wanted to drop out, but then when I joked abt dropping out he said it was a bad idea, so I'm getting pulled in different directions there.

I do love school, but the stress is too much. I also understand that working is stressful, trust me I do, but for me it's either Work or School And Work, so I would rather cut down one of the causes of my stress.

I just don't see the point in staying any longer. The thought of my classes sends me into near panic attacks and meltdowns, and I would rather work a shitty retail job that pays the minimum wage than continue in this school. Work might make me more stressed, school definitely will, to a fatal level.

My mother has also taken to telling me I need to just 'get happy' since I've been so depressed and on edge for so long. Clearly the resolution to this is to just smile more instead of talking about my problems or even trying to solve them.

I'm so so sick of all of this. I thought I was just having a bad week last week, but it's snowballing. I don't want to know what happens when it blows up. I'm not expecting to drop out and suddenly have so much free time, or to drop out and only work on weekends. I'm willing to go straight into full time, I'm not expecting my parents to fund me living in their house doing nothing all day, I know better than that, but I was expecting maybe some support, or at least a good reason to not quit school other than just asking me why.

thank you for reading my vent, if you did. these will probably become more common if I can't get out of this damned school. But for now, I'm off do go fill out my DASS21 form so I can get referred to a psychologist 😋♥️

[theodore-lasso]

Diary entry time

I have so much driving test anxiety. I don't even have driving anxiety it's the test that's killing me. It really doesn't help that I technically only get one chance to do it or I have to basically start from scratch in getting my licence again. Also as a 24 year old getting it without a friend who has a car to borrow etcetc it's SO expensive. Even the test is expensive!!! I'm paying ~400$ for the test tomorrow lmfao. 400$ to have a bad time

I have an hour long lesson w my favourite instructor before the test tomorrow, so I'll get her to run me through reverse parallel parking and just like. Parking in general lol again.

But she was super fine with how I was driving last week and I was confident when I was on the road it's just the idea of someone watching what I'm doing that sucks soooo bad.

Plus like the first time I did it I failed on a really stupid error and I had a full breakdown afterwards bc I had just moved out, I had an assignment due the next day etcetc, and I was fully sobbing in front of my parents and they just like sat there and didn't say anything. I'm v scared about like. How fucking godawful I'll feel if I don't pass tomorrow. I feel like that feeling of absolute shame will come back and I just hate it so much.

It doesn't help that I like NEED this licence before January 15th bc I'm moving far enough away from my workplace that I won't be able to walk/catch the bus anymore.

Anyway. The thing is that I'm a confident driver and am literally fine at driving. My brain on default is a worst case scenario machine and I reallllyyyyyy struggle to get out of that.

[alexafaie-asd]

I finished university in the UK in 2008. I had studied archaeology.

Thing about archaeology in the UK is that the paid work only happens as a result of developments going on. Building projects no longer happening? Then you don't need to pay for an archaeological unit to survey your site to determine if there's anything of historical significance to avoid or investigate before work can start (or if it can ever start).

So its a bit of a canary in the coalmine of jobs because you get those jobs months/years before they'd actually be breaking ground on their building project anyway. It all happens in the planning stages. So like there were practically zero new jobs showing up for new archaeologists. Didn't have a 1st degree, just a 2:1 (second best)? You didn't get one of those very few jobs.

So ok, you go look for a regular mundane job. Just anything, doesn't need to relate to your expertise. Just anything. Except there was one point when I was at the job centre doing my mandatory search of their database for a suitable part time job (I was new to working & would've struggled to do full time) and there were 3 job listings for the whole city. Not sorted into categories, so maybe I was being too specific just 3 total. One of which required a HGV license and you can't get that until having had a regular license for years and I didn't even have a provisional licence. I had to show the person I was seeing that there weren't enough jobs to apply to because you were expected to apply to a certain number to keep getting jobseekers allowance. I tried applying elsewhere but nowhere was hiring.

We're talking a largish city too. One which is well known enough that if I mentioned it by name, Americans will likely have heard of it. Even saying that likely narrows it down lol. But like the job advisor was trying to get me to apply to the job that needed the HGV license (even though they knew I couldn't drive) saying desperately "well maybe they'll make an exception" and I'm like sure, maybe they will let me drive a heavy goods vehicle with zero driving experience of any kind.... are they hiring here? I'm sure I could give better advice than that.

And funnily enough a year later they *were* hiring for more jobseeker advisors because there were so many people out of work looking for jobs they were shortstaffed! So you could get a job just to tell lots of other people that there are no jobs other than trying to help people find jobs! It was quite frankly madness.

The "um but the economy actually *isn't* that good" argument is a prime example of what the fuck is wrong - people are deliberately ignoring the majority of the facts to focus on one element and act like that completely negates the rest.

[leeknowstoy]

Drivers License

You were studying for getting your driver's license and I.N helped you to keep concentrated. Also he has a little obsession with your boobs.

Tw: smut, unprotected sex, oral sex (f receiving), Jeongin loves your tits. Mentions of Seungmin, Han, Lee Know and Hyunjin.

Word count: 1.1k

MINORS DNI

You were laying on the bed you shared with IN in your room. He used to be Han's roomate but since you two are dating, Jisung has moved to Hyunjin's room so you could have your little space. Also, he was tired of hearig you making out at 3 am.

So, you were reading a few notes studying for the driving exam you have the next day when Jeongin entered the room after shower, laying by your side.

"What are you doing?" he said turning on his side so he can look at you.

"Studying" you sighed "I'll go get my licence tomorrow"

"Oh really? I thought it was going to be the next week. Are you nervous?"

"I think so, It's a bit difficult"

"You'll do it great babe, Seungmin taught you with his car, and he's an amazing teacher"

"Yeah" you laughed "poor Seungmin, he almost had a heart attack when I didn't find the car brake"

"You didn't? I didn't find it either when I was practising. But I'm sure you're going to do a great job"

"I'm still nervous about all the things I have to know"

"Then I'll help you relaxing. You just keep reading." He ran one of his hands under your shirt and smiled. "Babe you're not wearing a bra"

"I knew you were going to do this so I was prepared"

Jeongin really, like REALLY, loves your titties. Every time he has the oportunity he squeezes them. It doesn't matter if you are alone or in front of the members, he would hug you from behind and place his hands on your breasts. It's kinda like Lee Know's obsession with hitting butts.

Sometimes he just undresses you to take a nap while caresing your tits.

"I love your boobs you know?" he catched one of them and started moving his hand softly. "They have the perfect size to fit in my hand, and they're so soft."

He kept doing it for a while. The way he moved his hands was so relaxing that you almost fell asleep but when you closed your eyes you felt his lips on your neck.

"Hey, wake up, you have to study."

"Sorry babe, I think I relaxed more than I thought" you opended your eyes and started to read your notes again.

"Well then I guess I'll have to keep you awaken" he moved himself on top of you with his legs on the sides of your body and removed your shirt completely. "Read out loud so I know if you are really focused or not." He left soft kisses on your breasts.

"Well, here it says that if the companion isn't wearing the seat belt is my fault"

"That sounds unfair" he kept squeezing your boobs, playing with your now hard nipples.

"Here it says that I have to be able to see the back of the car and the most of th- mhm" you moaned when you felt Jeongin's tongue on your nipples

"Moaning is included in the study material?" he said leaving wet kisses on your breasts, moving down to your belly and stopping on the begining of your shorts, playing with them. "Repeat that sentence for me please"

You took a deep breath. "I have to be able to see the back of the car and the most of the highway" you felt how Jeongin removed your shorts with your panties.

"Intead of the back of the car, why don't you look at me while I eat this pretty wet pussy of yours" Another little moan left your mouth. You left the notes fell on the floor and looked down to see how Jeongin spread your legs open and started to kiss your folds, pressing his tongue on your hole collecting your juices. You moved your hips up and down trying to create more friction, but he held you still on the bed. "Oh you're that desperate? Ok then I'll give you what you want little whore."

Jeongin sepread your folds open with his fingers, leaving your clit in full display for him. He didn't waste time and started licking your clit with fast moves, making you react by arching your back. "Fuck Jeongin" you moaned and you could feel him smiling in your pussy. You tried to look at him, but he made eye contact with you while slowing the pace on your clit, making you close your eyes for the pleasure. "Oh my god you're so good".

You placed your hand on Jeongin's hair, trying to get closer to him, which was impossible because you were already connected by his big mouth. Then he moved his lips to your hole putting his tongue inside of you while his nose was pressed on your clit. You were already clenching around him.

"I'm so close babe." You said and he stopped licking you as a little cry left your mouth.

He went up to kiss you, making you taste yourself on his lips. "I would love to suck that pussy until you come but I really want you clenching around my cock while I watch your beautiful tits bouncing."

You grabbed his neck to kiss him, your tongue exploring his mouth before biting his lower lip, making him moan.

Jeongin quickly undressed himself and lined up his tip on your hole to finally push it in. He started thrusting you at a slow pace, watching your breasts start bouncing from his position.

"Jeongin" you moaned "faster please"

"I don't understand" you knew he wanted to be specific but you can barely think a sentence when his dick was hitting your g-spot so softly.

"I want you to fuck me faster and harder, please, I want your dick deep inside me"

"As you wish princess" he grabbed your waist and speeded up his thrusts. Both of you were a moaning mess, you were worried about the members hearing you, but not worried enough to stop. "Look how fast your tits bounce, is this harder enough babe?"

"Fuck yes, just like that don't stop" your fingers were tangling in the sheets. You started clenching again around Jeongin's hard dick.

"Are you close sweetheart?" you moaned and nooded in response. "Of course you're close you needy slut." He pressed his thumb against your clit, rubbing in circles while thrusting you harder and harder.

You felt the knot in your stomach and came around Jeongin's cock. He pulled out of you and stroked himself to finish, and you knew what he wanted. "Babe" you said while touching your breasts, inviting him to cum on them. You saw the smile on his face as he climbed till he could place his dick in the middle of your boobs. You didn't have to do anything, he squeezed your tits around his twitching cock and thrusted them a few times before cumming.

"I love you and your tits so much" he said as he kissed you and went to the bathroom to take something to clean you up. "Are you ready to continue studying?"

"I think now I need a nap baby" he layed on the bed again and you hugged him, putting your head on his chest.

"Yeah me too." he kissed the top of your head. "Rest well princess, I know you'll do it great tomorrow."

[stnaf-vn]

! feel free de Ignore this ! :

unfortunatly I can't turn this into anon ( I suppose it's because of some stupid anon 🤡 )

I just wanted to ask if I could have some comfort from Friend ? (a simple sentence can be enough don't feel obligated to write a paragraph), I think I already mation it on my twitter but this year might be the most stressful year for me because I'm dealing with exams , driving licence and more other stuff. I'm trying to relieve my stress by drawing those days since it's the only way I know (even though to be honest it doesn't always work) I just wish I was a chill person sometimes and didn't worried about futur this much 🥲

( I apologize for the grammar if there is any mistakes 🫣 )

(Aww I'm sorry Kuru :((( I hope things get better for you!!)

"Aww, you poor thing. You deserve to take a moment for yourself, when you get the chance. Hmm... if there's anything I can do to help, like help you study for exams or anything like that, please don't hesitate to let me know. And...if you want...you don't have to get your license if you aren't ready!! I can just be your chauffeur. I'll get the uniform and everything. It's going to all be okay, I promise. Things are going to work out, and bad things can't last forever! So, just lean on me, and we'll get through this together, okay?" ~ Friend