#does anyone wanna hear my manga thoughts i wanna talk about the manga

[heartslobbf]

ok but actually it’s fascinating to me how many people’s first experience of aou is that they’re disappointed by it. because when i watched it for the first time i had such a weird kind of uncomfortable feeling the whole time and thought ‘hm. interesting ideas but i don’t think i care for it’. but now it’s like one of my favourite movies ever. and i know a lot of other people have revised their opinions on the movie when they have a better idea of what to expect from it. like i was under the impression it was a continuation of the show, but it’s not really, it’s like an even more abstracted character study of anthy and utena in the in-between of being trapped in their coffins and escaping ohtori. and i personally really enjoy that and i think it adds a lot to the show, especially if you’re feeling harrowed by utena’s ending (though i will say an integral aspect of rgu’s ending is hoping that utena is out there and believing that genuinely; wait for me and all that). and i just really love the use of symbolism in the movie and like. the levels of surrealism it reaches. it’s so different to rgu but similar enough that it can really rub you the wrong way if you’re not open to a reimagining of certain things. idk! i have a lot of thoughts about the value of other utena works generally but the movie is my second favourite after the show tbh

[mineonmain]

as @lurkingshan said earlier today, "Get bent, Maya"

I haven't been this pressed about a fictional character (antagonist???? she is one to me now!!) in a hot minute. Before I get into her in this ep, I wanna preface by saying that I do have the actual manga, but I wanted to finish watching the show before I went and read the manga for comparison, so that i'm going into this with basically an open mind. So I have no idea how this compares to the manga version of her.

Also if it wasn't clear, Spoilers for I Hear The Sunspot ep 7. Okay.

So it's the start of a new academic year, and we're introduced to freshman Maya, who is a Science major, is also Deaf/Hard of Hearing, and is Kohei's new tutee in the university as a result of having a mutual friend. That is the extent of what we know about her. Other than Kohei being her tutor and maybe a pseudo mentor/companion who can understand and appreciate her disability, they have absolutely no connection. They are not childhood friends or family.

Which begs the question, why on gods green earth is she so invested in what Kohei does or doesn't do, and who he is or isn't with???

Lady, he doesn't know you. He doesn't owe you anything, because you objectively mean nothing to him. So you've grown up with a really severe and isolating disability, I get it. But that's not a good enough reason to become so bitter that you decide to become judge jury executioner on every (visibly) abled person's morals. (Which is so incredibly telling, judging people on how visibly disabled they look or act, when you have a disability that is fairly invisible, unless you can see hearing aids or a cochlear implant or something like that. Interesting how that works, huh.) (Having a disability doesn't give you a free pass to be an asshole.)

Maybe, just maybe, you're allowed to act like that based on how people act towards you. But what gives you the right to walk up to the friend of a friend (??) that you absolutely know nothing about, and mete out judgement? To decide how that person is allowed to interact with someone else, a someone else that you have no claim or authority over?

Oh, but god forbid that Kohei have a friend who doesn't treat him like a social leper, who doesn't have every interaction of theirs revolve around Kohei's deafness, who for once makes him feel included and normal.

Kohei is a grown ass man, who can make his own decisions, including his own mistakes. Who are you to suddenly come into his life and make decisions for him without his involvement, consent, or approval? And who says that any person who is friends with someone with a disability has to be physically and morally perfect?

How dare you?

If I were to sum up my biggest issues with Maya, it is in the way she talks. It's entirely indicative and reflective of how she views and interacts with society. One of the first things that Kohei tells Taichi is that he is able to understand what someone else is saying if they speak slowly, partially by listening and partially by lip reading. it's a small accommodation that we even see Taichi's friends making for Kohei. That means that when anyone talks they should talk clearly, and slowly, and try to enunciate their words properly. If we look at the way Maya talks, she barely opens her mouth at all. If I didn't know any better i'd have thought it was ADR. Given she is someone who has lived with the same sort of disability that Kohei has, she would require similar accessibility needs. And yet, while she expects the world around her to accommodate her needs, she doesn't accommodate for the world. She expects people to speak in a way that she can understand, but she won't do the same.

I'm assuming that the narrative point of Maya criticising Taichi right now is so that we get to see him go on a growth journey, where he'll become more passionate and dedicated about learning note-taking and even maybe signing (and advocating for the deaf community as an ally), and not just be a passive friend who seemingly 'takes advantage' of Kohei, and in the process become the person that Kohei truly needs, and not the person Taichi thinks is good enough.

But here's the thing. I don't care if Taichi has any growth or not. I don't care if he changes or doesn't change to maintain his friendship and relationship with Kohei. I don't care if he tries to become someone that Maya (and Kohei) can approve of.

Because Kohei already likes him the way he is.

And it's none of Maya's goddamn business. Get bent

[rosie-kairi]

Guys I'm having some Thoughts™️ about khux and the MoM and I came up with a fucked up idea wanna hear it?

So what if during the first conflict between light and darkness MoM had a brother and the two were some of the first key bearers and they fought off Darkness the first time. But the brother died leaving behind his wife and infant son he never met. Still with me?

So while speaking with the disembodied parts of Darkness and gathering the book of prophecies he read over something. Read it twice. Three times. Still the same. And realized something horrible had to happen as written in the book. Someone has to be in daybreak town at a certain time. But how to get them there?

Well it turns out to be his nephew and he needs him to wake the journey on his own. So naturally he does the only logical things anyone would do. Send a board of heartless to attack the house forcing his mother to sacrifice herself to ensure her young son (maybe 3-4) survives and the poor kid is forced to watch his house burn and hear the dying screams of his mom be devoured by heartless.

So this kid is forced to wander alone going from place to place never calling anywhere his home. He has few memories of his early life due to this scarring experience and has been alone long as he can remember. Until one day he heard the calling and made his way to daybreak town. But he's younger than everyone else so no one wants him in his team and won't train him to be an effective keyblade wielder.

The stirrings of war whisper through the city streets but no one is there to protect this kid from the oncoming danger. He'll die in the coming conflict if someone doesn't intervene.

Or something.

So he goes to a house, believes he's speaking with one of the masters. That he is being trusted with the survival of the next generation of wielders and he must be there to teach them. And walks past the girl dying as collateral.

He doesn't know this was predestined.

He doesn't know this was purposely orchestrated.

He doesn't know how uncle took a calculated risk to ensure his isolation and desperation for companionship and being useful.

Ventus has no idea how these events will become a repeat pattern of malevolent forces conspiring to use him for their own means even if he gets hurt or killed in the process.

Poor Ven doesn't know how future is about to be very hard and very painful used as a tool to ensure others suffering.

^me to Ven.

ah man,,, Ventus... VENTUSSSS. This poor kid never asked for any of this... kid's getting the worst cards continuously handed to him and he doesn't realize that everyone else is laughing at him and egging him on. Honestly given his track record I'd totally believe that Ventus would be unlucky enough to be related to MoM. This shit might as well happen. (...though this is making me imagine Lauriam wearing a shirt that says "not the step-brother but the brother that stepped up" sdfgdsa)

Sora and Ventus have a conversation talking about their shitty uncles (i.e. Sora mentions having one in the manga so) like:

Sora: ...Yeah and he always shows up drunk to family functions, I don't think my parents even invite him anymore he just shows up, idk why since he seems to hate us so much :/.

Ventus: Aw man that's horrible :(( I remember my uncle sucked as well. He intentionally let my mom be swarmed and killed by heartless when I was like 3 and then treated me like a pawn in his grand overarching plans or whatever. Family can suck sometimes :(((

Sora:

Ventus:

Ventus: I feel like I said something wrong here.

[exanimateporcelain]

Today’s love is for… Goro!

For day six of sending loving anons to other jirais every day until Christmas I’ve chosen you! I’m staring to get really worried I’ve sent two asks to the same person so from today on I’m going to start writing peoples names at the top and screenshotting before I send. I should have really thought this out beforehand god. Like I feel I’ve already done you before but like I do think you are extra cute. Every jirai deserves ten times my love, pass this affection on to your moots idk (Idm do what you like, feel no obligation to reply to this post in any way, but no one’s don’t that yet and I would really like it, no pressure, sorry)

Remember your scars are as beautiful as you! I don’t want anyone to hurt themselves further, but I must say the stars and hearts thing is so poetic. But it’s also never a requirement, it’s a shame we’re not in a manga and we can’t see the stars and hearts that surround you when you truthfully smile!

(Sorry was that weird or sad or cringe)

I deeply appreciate your popular post mentioning how people might be intimidated by jirais, the way you summarised our community make me feel so welcome. And I heard you think gnc jirais are neat, and though I have no jirai or even cute clothes I do look pretty gnc so I hope it’s good to hear how many of us are out there, like I wanna be trans at some point. Oh and I love a cutesy masc too!

Also the colourful gradient on your texts is so nice to look at, I don’t know how to do it myself. Though I’m sure others do it, yours is consistent and recognisable ig, it’s clear that is you specifically, and it shows what isn’t a reblog when scrolling your blog. Also I love how you’ve been reblogging such pretty things! The whole design of your blog is very nice, what a dear little doll, if you don’t mind me saying :)))))))))))))

Thank you for reading! This was the advent jirai, though it’s not a solid title since no one seems to be aware I’m doing this yet. I’ll still reveal my identity on christmSHOOT WAOT DID I NOT HAVE MYSELF SET AS ANON THIS WHOLE TIME IS THAT WHY NO ONE HAS BEEN RESPONDING OH NO NO NO :((((((((((( sorry uh Thanks for reading!

oh anon . . this is so unfathomably sweet, thank you so much . . to be complimented in such a way by a fellow jirai is an honour, to say the least . . thank you, i'll be forever appreciative of you ♡

ah, thank you so much . . though i often look over older posts and find them a bit stupid, i find that expressing my sorrows in a way that is as eloquent as possible truly does help me rearrange the thoughts running rampant in my head . . . it's an oddly comforting thing, no ? despite not posting pictures of myself on here [a result of not owning any girly kei clothes and being a person succumbing to illness], after seeing the love you've expressed for them, i may rectify that . . ♡ you're not cringey in any sense, don't worry, anon ♡

i believe the post you're talking about was one i made when particularly frustrated by people claiming that jirai kei was a toxic place — though it certainly isn't a community i'd welcome anyone who's stable into, it isn't as inherently bad as people make it out to be . . i'm glad that both that post and the gnc jirai post resonated with you ♡ the happiness of others is in my best interest, after all ♡

i want my gradient text to be a sort of 'trademark' aspect of my blog, if that makes much sense . . . i want to be recognised .! (╥﹏╥) . . though it really isn't as hard as it seems .!! it's just a bit of HTML, which is something i adore . . an internet entity should know how to program at the very least, no ? thank you so much, it truly means the world to me .!!

it's an honour to [hopefully] be the first to reply, anon .! i can't seem to decipher who you are based on typing style alone, sadly . . but i'll definitely remember to send you love once your identity is revealed ♡ you truly are some kind of angel . .

thank you so much for your kind words, anon ♡ they're truly invaluble to me ♡

[theheightofdishonor]

I think u enjoy enjoy ats hn ? but also truly get kghn’s canon dynamic and I wanna hear someone else perspective on this badly i feel soooo shy to ask but I’m doing it anyway

Ok so

it’s established that kghn put each other on such a pedestal no one even come close. while others are easily infatuated with shoyo and are more or less devoted to him, I tend to not see as much reciprocation on hinata’s end.

yes shoyo has so many rivals and people who wants to play with him and he has fun playing with them too, I’m sure he appreciates atsumu as a setter, not denying all of that but,

With kghn it’s always “we’re in this as one. we’re gonna win, you and me… and the team” this togetherness that kghn seem to embody in their relationship, making plans for the future /together/ ats hn doesn’t really seem to share ?? maybe bc we only seen them for one match but I just can’t seem to quite place shoyo’s feelings towards Atsumu at all.

also maybe it’s bc I’m just so kghn pilled that’s why I need to hear someone else thoughts

the only character I can see shoyo being mutually devoted to is mayyyybe kenma. Even then I just can’t picture him placing anyone above kgym, in the sense of a friendship, partnership or a rivalry. They’re the greatests after all.

Atsm and hnt being together always seems more of a coincidence or plot driven than shoyo actively choosing to be his teammate unlike with Tobio where he genuinely wants to be WITH HIM, stand by his side. Even with the ‘one day I’ll set to you’ it always feel more of an atsumu wish rather something atshn desires together.

though I don’t see it in a romantic way at all you can’t deny that Atsumu is interested in shoyo and wants to be part of his life on the court but when I try to picture hnt reciprocating, it’s like most of the feelings are being /forced/ onto him. Or it just feels like how he should be feeling towards Tobio if any of that make sense…

I hope u don’t take this as slander (it’s really not my intention) I love ur kghn posts !!!

Hi anon!

I'm glad you asked because I love talking about hq. Yes I like atshn, and obviously you know i'm obsessed with kghn. Dw i'm definitely not taking any of this as slander and I love criticizing/analyzing ships anyway, it's kind of my whole thing.

So, hinata's thoughts on atsumu hmm well i'm with you that we don't actually get much of hinata's internal thoughts about him. Like if you read the manga, like obviously you can surmise that he thinks atsumu is talented and and excellent setter and an excellent opponent on court and he also likes atsumu as just a person, especially because atsumu's hunger for volleyball is so similar to hinata's own. But the rest, honestly we don't know.

It's important to remember that we don't actually get a lot of Hinata's thoughts on people that aren't plot-relevant or volleyball-relevant. We don't see much of anything about his relationships to people in his classes, his thoughts on Koji and Izumi, his dynamics with most of Karasuno's bench players, etc. It's partially because he's a volleyball centric nutcase but also we're only told the most volleyball-ish parts of his thoughts and even then, like kageyama for example is pretty much synonymous with volleyball and we don't see much of hinata's thoughts on kageyama outside of volleyball either (I mean, we get a lot more of hinata's thoughts on kageyama than we do anyone else but like we don't get everything - his thoughts on the Rio thing for example, we can guess at but we don't quite know)

And as much as Hinata would like volleyball to be the end all be all of life and as much as for him, it almost really is, it's still not completely and Hinata could very much have more interest in Atsumu in non-volleyball related thoughts like for say, romantically then he does in a volleyball way. I'll agree that on court, Atsumu seems to be more taken with Hinata and Hinata's not obsessed the same way. But that doesn't need to translate to non-volleyball bits of their lives. Like there's space enough in the narrative to color him as someone who romantically likes Atsumu and still holds Kageyama as the most important setter or even most important person in his life. It goes back to why kghn is a brotp tag for me, because their relationship is something that spans beyond just romantic, they are and still would be insanely important to each other divorced from any romantic contexts or connotations. It can co-exist- and very easily so- alongside either of them being romantically interested in other people.

The last aspect I want to mention is that ships really don't have to have much to do with a character's canon feelings. Sometimes, yes, it's about who a character canonly has feelings for but It can be about a thousand other things. Even in kghn's case, we're stretching hinata's regard and intense focus on kageyama into a romantic light. And outside of that, ships are just dynamics that you find compelling or think are theoretically compelling or just funny etc. They don't even have to be based in anything.

For me with atshn, I like atsumu's flavor of devotion, the way he's so overt about it. I like how mean he is, I like the way his personality can and does contrast with hinata's, I like the potentials of their dynamic. I like the way Atsumu speaks their partnership into existence - it's soooo similar to Hinata the way Hinata stubbornly wills his own future to his desires too- about beating Ushijima, about beating Kageyama and standing on the same level as him, about reaching the heights of volleyball.

I'm not as obsessed with them as kghn because like you said, kghn's is more of a mutual obsession that we play out in canon and thus they take up much more of my headspace but I do like it!

ik I already said i'm done but like actual one last thing- I think this is inspired by the atshn vs kghn ship war that I see little fragments of floating around here and honestly, my opinion on that is that it's a false equivalence. There's no use in arguing about which one's better because they're based off different grounds altogether so in trying to compare them, you're inevitably talking past each other. And it's ok to have different opinions, it's ok to not like the same ship someone else does, it's really not a competition. I also think that people trying to explain why they prefer a certain ship over another end up either purposefully or unintentionally stepping on the toes of fans who do like their ship and don't want to see people argue against it. (i'm not innocent of this- mischaracterizing kageyama for the sake of a ship drives me INSANE and even though I know I shouldn't engage I do anyway) Some people also just seem to think that they need to be validated/justified on their ship opinions, like they need to be in the right which really doesn't need to be a thing, you can just like a ship, man.

Anways, that's every angle that I can think of about this topic, I think I answered all of your points? Ofc, feel free to shoot up another ask if I didn't or if you just want to respond or to voice your own opinions etc. It's a fun discussion to have especially because i've been seeing bits of this float around (not for the first time and probably not for the last) and thus, I have so many thoughts about it in my head, most of which I haven't had a chance to voice yet lmao.

Thanks for the ask!

[hotwings0203]

I feel like Dabi would be the type of dude who would bully you incessantly at the LOV and for the life of you you can’t figure out why. He’s always around you and making snarky comments or pulling your hair, trying to catch you messing up on missions. You’re sure he hates you, and you do well to stay out of his way, or sometimes when you feel bold you’ll offer a quip of your own. The bullying increases whenever you talk to other guys at the bar, especially when you make Tomura crack a smile, Dabi’s breathing down your neck the second your leader leaves, calling you terrible names and pushing past your boundaries.

Cw: language, nsfw, noncon, manga spoilers, some angst?

In a perfect world, Touya would not have been abandoned and rejected by his family. In a perfect world, Dabi would not exist, and Touya would be eating dinner with his family right now as he shows his little brother how to properly wield fire to its fullest extent.

But there was no such thing as a perfect world, and therefore Dabi did exist. And Dabi doesn’t care for anyone, or anything.

Or so he tells himself.

“Slut”

“Nothing but eye candy, and shitty eye candy at that”

It’s nothing you haven’t heard before, but it doesn’t make it any easier to ignore him

“What was that all about, huh? The fuck are you and crusty snickering about?”

Fed up with his continuous antics, you decide to mouth off a little too.

“Oh nothing, just talking about how adorable you and Hawks would make as a couple. And wipe that sneer off your face, it looks like some of your staples fell out of your mouth.”

It’s nothing too snarky, but in a second he’s shoving you in some dark room, forearm pinned against your throat as his hand is lit up with blue flames merely inches away from you, snarling in your face.

“You wanna be funny, bitch? I got jokes of my own too, why dont I show you what happens to dumb little girls who don’t know their fucking place? I think that would be real funny.”

But his hand is stopped from drawing near your wide eyes when you both hear Twice and Toga calling everyone for their next meeting.

He pushes you away from him, giving you a murderous look over his shoulder as he leaves the room, not paying mind to the way you slide down the wall in the dark.

You take extra precaution to try avoiding him for the next few days, not even making eye contact with him when you two get teamed up for tasks. He never mentions the room incident, if anything he acts as if it never happens. It’s like whiplash for you, he tries to weirdly talk to you more but all you offer him is mumbles and hums of agreement.

The conversation is never long, but it starts to be less talk of degrading you and more of begrudging questioning of what you’ve been up to. You never engage, opting to pretend like you never heard him, and strangely enough he leaves it be.

You give him a side eye one day as he joins you at the bar (much to your discontent), downing your glass just to fill another.

He says nothing as he slides into the stool right next to you, and pours a glass of whiskey for himself as well.

It’s awkwardly silent, you’re not sure if you should leave or not, but you’d be damned if you try to initiate small talk with this psycho.

But then, he speaks.

“Is Shigaraki sending you on the mission to get that UA kid?”

His gravely voice rumbles and cracks from his usual lack of use, and he clears his throat after he talks.

“No.”

“Oh.”

This is excruciating, you think to yourself as he mulls over the drink in his hand for a silent minute or two.

Toga calls you over thankfully at the exact same moment, and you breathe out an inaudible sigh of relief as you slip off the stool to join her.

“Wait-“ Dabi grabs your arm and you flinch out of instinct, expecting a slap or a burn to come from him.

He sees your reaction and shakes his head dismissively, letting you go and muttering a “Nevermind”. You don’t ponder over it as you trip over your own feet to join the eccentric blond.

A week passes, and then two. With each day you maneuver your way around him, request to be partnered up with different people in private, and busy yourself in random tasks. Every time you pass him by the bar he lifts his head from whatever he’s doing and tries to maintain eye contact with you, even going so far as to open his mouth to say or ask god-knows-what.

You try to ignore the foreign hopeful glint in his glacial eyes as you walk right past him, ducking your head as you do so.

It drives Dabi crazy.

He can’t handle any more rejection, he thought his family would be the last straw for him to ever want recognition or love validation from again. He wants to talk to you, to hear your voice as it snaps back with witty comebacks of your own that he secretly enjoys so much, even if it means he has to force it out of you with hateful words. He wants to feel your hair underneath his scarred hands, even if he has to mask the soft wanting of you in forms of yanking the strands. He wants nothing more than to see your eyes fill up with no other sight than him and think only of him, even if it means he has to corner you and scare you into submission.

But your silence is something he’s not used to.

Well, to be fair, you weren’t silent completely, but the only sentences he was hearing from you nowadays was when you were speaking to Shigaraki or the other League members.

You were the only idiot who didn’t notice the smoke curling from his nostrils and ears comically when he’d finally see you stop your stoic act just to open up to other men apart from him. Spinner, Twice, and Compress backed off almost immediately from talking to you for too long when they’d see the look on his face as he watched you surrounded by them, but Tomura would merely smirk from behind your shoulders and keep a level gaze with his subordinate, knowing fully well why he was so pissed off.

You began to notice the weird energy at the base soon after the rest of the men would keep curt conversations with you in comparison to your long talks about video games, sex, and life after you would all win the war.

So you thought it would be best to ask the most semi-normal person there that wasn’t fueled with testosterone and aggression.

“I just don’t get it, why are they all being weird? I mean, we all used to talk so much and now they just...try avoiding me. Except for Tomura of course, he’s still normal I guess. But he always has this smirk on his face when I’m with him and I can’t figure out why.”

Toga stops cleaning her blood-laced needle to give you a sly look, all fangs and glinting white.

“And Dabi?”

“What about him?”

She sits back on her haunches and cocks her head at you. “You really don’t know what’s happening here, do ya?”

“No,” you roll your eyes in exasperation. “But I’ll gladly take any theories here, since apparently I’m the only one who doesn’t get it.”

“He likes you.”

You gape at her for a moment and then burst out laughing.

“What? That’s crazy, he doesn’t like me, he hates me!” He can barely stand being in a room with me, all he does is talk shit and harass me.”

The blond curiously licks at a bead of red from the top of the weapon and you cringe when her own tongue rips from the sharp point.

“You say he can’t stand being in a room with you, so then why is it that he’s always there? He might talk shit, but he talks to you out of everyone else right? Regardless of if it’s something mean.”

You’re thoroughly flabbergasted. She had a point, but it was too much to wrap your head around. She cheerfully hums and gets up to flounce around the room, cleaning her already-tidy room up to a T.

“And that little silent treatment act you’re giving him isn’t helping either. I swear, Jin told me Dabi almost burned his mouth off that one day you, him and Spinner were talking about GTA. He totally cornered the poor guy and threatened his life if he didn’t stop talking to you.”

“You’re joking.”

“Am not. He wanted to do the same to Tomura but I figure he wants to keep his job, so he won’t. Doesnt make it any better for him when you’re all chummy with the one person Dabi can’t stand the most, though.”

No wonder your leader was so smug whenever you two were in the same room, your attention solely focused on him.

You run your hands down your face, moaning about the whole situation being fucked. It’s just your luck that you couldn’t take a clue, but to be fair, how could you? Being called worthless and a waste of space wasn’t exactly what you had in mind for flirty banter.

“Soooo what’re you gonna do now? I heard he’s gonna try talking to you for realsies like, tomorrow or something.”

“Tomorrow?” You yelp, jumping up to your feet. “Why didn’t you tell me sooner? I can’t face him!”

“Oops,” she giggles, twirling with outstretched arms around her room and falling down onto her bed.

“Oh god, I can’t do this. I don’t even know if I like him! He’s such an ass, and even when he tries to come off as normal he’s just so..unsettling. I don’t think I’ve ever had a good conversation with him.”

Toga props her elbow up to rest her chin on her hand, frowning in thought.

“Why not just tell him how you feel?”

You snort and fold your arms. “Yeah, because the psycho arsonist is really gonna take the word no well.”

“Hmm.. I see what you mean. Oh well, whatever you choose, I’ll support you!”

And with that she skips out of the room sing songing for Twice to make a clone for her.

You were fucked.

And sure enough, the next day he approaches you, hands stuffed in his pockets and an almost bored look on his face.

“Yo newbie, I gotta talk to you for a second. Come with me”.

You look blearily up at him through eye bags and mussed hair, a direct telling of your sleepless night. Your stomach drops when you hear his words, but you nod your head and take a deep breath, mentally preparing yourself of the speech you practiced till the sun rose.

No one else is bothering you both today, Shigaraki having gone to visit All For One and the rest of the League left to their own devices. It was something you weren’t so comfortable with, but you doubted a hero would come to save you.

He leads you through the short winding hallways, each step of his growing louder and heavier as the space started growing smaller. Finally, he reaches a dimly lit room and stops outside the door, gesturing for you to go in with a casual wave of his patched wrist.

“After you.”

You raise an unsure eyebrow at his uncharacteristic show of consideration, and do as he says. You’re sweating bullets, fists balled so that your nails are digging into your palms, and vision going in and out of focus as your eyes begin to adjust to your surroundings.

A loud bang pulls you out of your stupor, and you whip around at the sound.

Dabi is already staring back at you with lidded eyes, leaning his weight against the door, his arms crossing over each other.

You shift on both feet, picking at your nails nervously.

“So, what did you wanna talk about?”

He says nothing, but just observes you, his head slightly tilted as if you were some abstract art piece.

“Dabi.”

“You got a lot of nerve, y���know that?”

He pushes himself off the wall and advances slowly towards you, hands stuffed in his trench coat pockets.

You immediately back up with raised palms, sputtering indignantly at his offensive movements coming closer and closer. However you thought his ‘confession’ would go, this was most definitely not starting out like how you planned

“Excuse me? What’re you talking about-“

“I know what you’re doing. You think whoring yourself out to ol’ crusty and the rest of the guys here is gonna make everyone forget just how useless you actually are. What the fuck do you even do here? You fuck up half the missions which I have to come bail your ass out of, you constantly put us in jeopardy by being all friendly with everyone, and you can’t even keep your mouth shut when I need to let off a little steam, as I rightfully should.”

In a perfect world, Dabi would be the light of your eyes, the hero of your world. In a perfect world, Dabi would be able to hold your hand in his smooth one and tell you that he wants you so much that it impairs his rational judgement and makes him say things he doesn’t mean. He’d tell you that your presence is like a weight lifted off his chest, your presence means he doesn’t have to think or worry about the outside world, he just wants you all to himself without anyone interfering.

But this is not a perfect world, and Dabi is not a hero, but rather one of the worst villains.

So he does exactly what one does as a villain.

Instead of a loving look that he knows he’s incapable of, Dabi looks down into your horrified gaze as he traps you against the wall between his scarred arms, spewing misplaced venom at you.

“I don’t know what your problem is, but you need to chill out. First you go ballistic on me ‘cause I talked to Tomura for no reason, then you act all weird and quiet as if you’re some decent person, and now you think you can just bring me in here and tell me how worthless I am? Go fuck yourself, seriously.”

You scoff and make your way to push him but stop when he does what he did a couple weeks ago. You hold bated breath as he casually brings an inflamed hand to scratch at his face as if he can’t feel the hellfire emitting from it, and let out a whine of distress as he lowers his head mere inches from yours, lips almost touching.

“Stop talking to the rest of the guys,” he breaths. “Stop smiling, laughing, or going near anyone who isn’t me.”

You wonder if he knows how insane he sounds. He does, but that’s nothing he doesn’t know already. If anything, it solidifies in his mind that if he is to be as bad as the world has made him out to be, then he is acting exactly fit for the role.

“Why?”

“I don’t need to give sluts like you a reason. It should come as easy, right? What’s putting out for one more person?”

Your eyes are brimming with tears now, your stoic facade showing cracks as you sniffle a little bit.

He eats it up and groans watching salty rivers cascade down your cheeks. Suddenly, he feels as though he can no longer hold back anymore, he feels as though if he thinks for one more second he’ll combust.

So, acting on instinct, he surges forward and presses his lips against yours, swallowing your cries of distress and holding your hands above your head in midst of them frantically beating on his chest.

Your lips are so, so soft compared to his and it’s making him sink deeper into this instinctual daze. He puffs against your writhing lips as he thrusts his hot tongue in your mouth.

You try to bite him but when his hands heat up against your skin you resign to your fate and wail, allowing him to pull his hips flush against yours and start humping your thighs.

He draws back and bites your lips, teeth clacking against yours as he does so. You open your terrified eyes and blanch when you see the look on his face.

Lust is clearly drawn everywhere, from his blown pupils to his heaving chest, all the way to his flushed face and wild eyes. He looks as though he’s about to eat you alive and it’s appropriate that you feel like a lamb about to be slaughtered.

“Dabi, wait, please stop-“

But he cuts your pants off again in favor of slamming his hips against yours again and grinding impossibly hard on your legs, the friction of his jeans catching on your clothed cunt and forcing a mewl out of you.

“I’m not gonna stop. I’ve had enough of you teasing. You’re mine now, and if it takes burning our dear leader alive and this whole place down for you to understand that then I’ll fucking do it.”

He thought that terrorizing you would ease the empty feeling in his heart, that continuously berating you would force him to see you as what he always said you were, just another empty headed cunt. He thought that distancing himself from you and focusing on other things would make him forget about the soft feelings he longed to share with you, feelings he thought perished in the fire he was in when he was a young boy .

Even now, there is an ache in his chest as he hears you beg for him to stop, to let you go, that you’re sorry for whatever you did.

But this is not a perfect world, and not everyone gets their way in life.

You should really learn that, because Dabi already has.

And so Dabi will act accordingly to what life has put out before him .

[idontblushsrry]

Love Language|| Jujutsu Kaisen

“I wanna be fluent in your love language. Learning your love language.” 

A/N: If you didn’t guess from the tagline this is inspired by the song love language by Kehlani. I’ll probably do more of these with different shows and what not because why not. If I missed anyone lmk and I can make a part 2. Also please tag spoilers appropriately esp for manga readers, that being said spoilers for the prequel? manga on Yuuta’s part.

Characters: Itadori, Fushiguro, Kugisaki, Maki, Inumaki, Okkotsu, Gojo, Nanami, Sukuna

Warnings: said it b4 but spoiler warnings in general but esp on Yuuji, Yuuta, and Maki’s parts

Plot synopsis: The 5 love languages; physical affection, quality time, words of affirmation, gift giving and acts of service, and how each jujutsu kaisen character shows their love and affection for you. Ft. a gender neutral reader!

Word count: 2352

Itadori Yuuji

Love Language: Quality time and physical affection

Ok listen-

So for physical affection, Yuuji’s just that kind of person

He is all about giving to you

He’s holding hands with you if you’re ever walking anywhere, and if you’re not a hand holder pls pls pls let him hold your pinky he likes the reassurance

No but seriously he loves to hold you like yall could be walking in completely opposite directions and he’ll try to find some way to hold onto you until the very last second

And even then he’s all ‘:( babe imy’

‘Yuuji we just talked 2 minutes ago’

Another way he shows his love is through quality time

I think for him this is the biggest thing overall, esp as a jujutsu sorcerer bcus you never know yk but also because you’re important to him

Like remember how he literally went to occult club so that he could get out of school in time to go visit his grandpa...ye :(

He also loves finding dumb touristy things to do with you while in Tokyo or anywhere yall go together on a mission 

If you get together before he died and came back then that time he had to spend away from you literally killed him

Like my mans was goin THROUGH it

He almost considered spoiling Gojo’s secret

When he sees you again, he’s not gonna let go for like a solid day

Fushiguro Megumi

Love Language: acts of service and words of affirmation

This boy loves you so much

He loves to tell you all the things he loves about you when you’re alone

But he’s a little awkward with his words sometimes, hence where acts of service come in

He’ll immediately offer to hold your things, run to help you train or study, and if you’re cold? He’s fully prepared to never see his jacket again

Also he can’t cook but he’s fully prepared to suffer hearing Sukuna and suffering through Yuuji’s antics if it means he can learn how to make your favorite food

He also will surprise you by making you a playlist of all the songs that you’ve had stuck in your head and sends it to you randomly out of the blue one day like ‘thought you might like this’

However the best of both worlds is when he leaves you little notes throughout the day or sends you texts asking if you need anything or just encouraging you to keep going 

Negl he’s lowkey the president of the Y/N support club bcus-

You need anything? It’s yours

Cravings? Sad? Angry? What do you need bby, I’ve got it for you

Also he’s totally the type to be like you need help fuckin this person up? 

Also before yall started dating, Fushiguro was a mess

He was constantly asking to spar with you and go on missions, basically anything he could do to be near you  

End of the day, Fushiguro loves you and makes sure you know it whether it’s through his actions or his words

Kugisaki Nobara

Love Language: physical affection

So, she’s not the best with words, she tries but like someone help her bcus she is LOST

Like when she had a crush on you she was like “c’mere dumbass i wanna give you a hug”

In fact, she still is like “c’mere” but now you are dating :)

She loves you though and at first she doesn’t really know how to show it 

But one day you both come home from training and you just look at each other like ‘yeah today sucks’ and yall both just held each other for the rest of the day 

After that, she decided that she wants to do that with you but like always

She’s holding your hand, kissing your cheek when you go shopping, etc. etc.

She really loves to cling to you because she always has this fear that maybe one day you’ll get killed or just disappear so she figures might as well hold onto you for as long as we’ve got

After missions, she’s running up to you and if you aren’t prepared for the tackle, you’re probably gonna fall

On dates too, like if you guys have to meet up for a date, she’s tackling you

On the subject of dates...

She doesn’t mind PDA, and while she might hold your hand or arm so that you don’t get separated

She also doesn’t mind wiping food off your face and eating it, only to then kiss the spot on your face the food was previously at

She will split her shopping load between the two of you, however she will be slightly pouty if she’s carrying more than you (she then cheers up when she realizes she can do more shopping to “balance” the two of you)

In private she’s very cuddly and kissy which honestly isn’t that bad until it gets hot

At which point she’ll just say turn on the ac or convince you to walk around in a tank top (or something like it) so that she can continue holding you

Tbh she prefers the big spoon, but if she’s ever upset you let her be the little spoon >:(

All in all a very loving girlfriend who tries her best to show how much she loves you by glomping you at any given moment. 

Zenin Maki

Love language: acts of service and quality time

So you’re telling me that Maki wouldn’t immediately go out of her way to make sure her and her s/o can spend as much time together as possible?????

Like she’s super observant (which can cause her to be a bit harsh, see Yuuta) but she can always tell what’s bothering you

So if you’re upset that you haven’t been spending enough time together due to her being out on missions or otherwise busy she’s immediately running to finish her stuff and spend time with you.

((She’s very sorry, but on the bright side she brought your favorites!))

Maki is also an acts of service type

This mostly ties in with her kind of direct action way of thinking

She thinks she’s slick but you can always see her sneaking around to do small things like grabbing your laundry for you and folding it

She’s very much like if you love someone, you gotta prove it

Overall, dates with her are very intimate and personal to the two of you

Like she’ll take you to a frog pond you landed in during a fight once

Or you’ll take her to a street fair that serves this exclusive food that Maki mentioned wanting to try 

However, Maki shows her love through quality time and acts of service and while she does receive love from these to a degree, she is very much a words of affirmation gal

She’s not insecure in her day to day life but she has her moments, everyone does

Sometimes, she’ll feel like shit and a failure and all she wants is for you to say that she’s doing amazing and that she’s a great girlfriend.

Inumaki Toge

Love language: Physical affection

Because of his curse, he can’t exactly express how he feels about you through words

He does text you frequently throughout the day (I’ll have to do a hc abt that someday)

But he’d prefer not to be on his phone to communicate if you’re right in front of him

So he does the next best thing and just smothers you in physical affection

He loves kissing you the most

Like he could spend hours just kissing you if you let him (please let him)

But in public, he gets if you’re not a big fan of pda he’s willing to tone it down as long as he gets kisses later in private

He’d still prefer it if you held his hand or linked pinkies maintaining touch in some way

Also, unrelated, but it means so much to him if you try to understand his sushi language

He knows realistically the foundation of any relationship is communication so already he’s at a disadvantage because of his curse 

But if he sees you like take notes after he says something or start to need him to text you to translate, his heart is swelling

Like ‘omg this person loves me enough to learn a whole new language <333′

Another tangent but before you were together he was struggling so muchhhh

Like how does one express their feelings for someone without words?

If you’re Inumaki, you buy some flowers and text said person to meet you at a cafe

It took an embarrassingly long time for you to realize it was a date, but once you did, you ever so gently linked pinkies with Toge

Okkotsu Yuuta

Love language: words. of. affirmation. 

He’s literally so sensitive please tell him you love him regularly

In return he’ll be sure to tell you how much he loves you too

He knows that he can’t really be there for you as much as he’d like but he likes to let you know that he’s thinking of you

Doesn’t matter the time, if you call, he’s answering

If he doesn’t he’ll cry he’ll immediately call you back and is apologizing for missing your call

You assure him it’s no big deal but the man has his volume turned all the way up and changed your ringtone to one specific for you by the time you’ve even said hey

Aside from that, he really is sensitive

He’s been through a lot especially with Rika as well as growing up alone and bullied 

So for him, it’s everything to hear that you like having him around and don’t think he’s too much or anything like that

Of course, he gets better with time, trusting you and having the confidence in himself to not need constant assurance

That being said, if you ever just whisper in his ear, “I love you, Yuuta.”

That’s not your boyfriend, that’s a puddle of love on the floor

(Maki, Panda, and Inumaki had a field day when they saw him, Fushiguro now questions if Yuuta really is a respectable 2nd year.)

Gojo Satoru

Love language: gift giving and quality time

So Gojo doesn’t exactly get to spend a ton of time

Between missions, him beefing with higher ups, and you and him playing parent the baby sorcerers yall don’t exactly get time to go out much

In which case Gojo tends to default to two options:

He’ll either go the extra mile to try and spend time with you 

Whether that be an at home date where he tries and fails to surprise you with a home cooked meal

Or a date out at a restaurant or cafe (which you tend to visit after his home cooking efforts)

OR he’ll bring you various souvenirs from his missions

He loves to spoil you, and if he could he’d probably bring you back a whole store’s worth of stuff

But alas, airport security regulations

Anyways, he loves to spoil you especially if he can spoil you with sweets because it benefits him in two ways 

He treasures all the time you spend together, and he does try to overcompensate for his absence with gifts

Despite your assurances, it’s kind of a guilty pleasure at this point (just let him, trying to argue just goads him on further)

He doesn’t only buy you small things, he enjoys buying you outfits

And he especially likes seeing you in them 

Kento Nanami

Love Language: acts of service

Y’all remember the episode where he killed that curse that was bothering that baker lady?? Yea that

He’s literally such an acts of service boyfriend it’s not even funny

Before you got together, he would memorize your coffee order and bring you a cup pretty much everyday like clockwork

Now that you’re togehter, he wakes up before you so h=that when you wake up there’s the smell of coffee throughout the house

When you come out of you’re shared bedroom and he’s just scrooling through his phone like “mornin’”

Of course you already made the bed and ironed his clothes because relationships are give and take

And then when you leave for your jobs in the morning, he kisses you and holds the door open for you

He’ll draw a bath for you if he gets home before you, if you let him join or not is up to you

Also, if you ever get sick, he’s actually the best

Like he isn’t the best cook but he can heat up soup and tea

He’ll run to the store while you’re asleep and when you wake up, there’s like a whole tray of food in front of you and he’s like ‘it’s important to eat and drink so your body can heal’

And when you inevitably fall asleep after eating and taking medicine at his insistence, he tucks you in and clears away the dishes, exiting with little more than a kiss to your head

Ryoumen Sukuna

Love Language: gift giving and acts of service

So like Sukuna never says he loves you...ever

But he does notice if someone or something’s making you uncomfortable, and if so, said entity’s head will be presented to you later that day

You also just so happen to be the only person he can tolerate being around him for longer than 20 seconds

He also loves to give you jewelry, he likes seeing you adorned in something from him

He also isn’t gonna just handle all your problems for you, he will push you to become stronger by training with you 

He’ll also expect this energy to be reciprocated, as long as you’re pushing yourself to be better, he’s content with that

(He wants to see you grow because he’s scared that if he ever gets caught lackin one day you’ll end up dead)

He’ll never tell you or admit it, but Sukuna truly does care for you and hold you in a regard that he doesn’t have for others

So be grateful jkjk

[yokohamabeans]

Hello Yoko, I hope you're well! I really enjoy your blog and thoughts. I have a few questions if you wouldn't mind, one translation-related and two for analysis/hc stuff. First: re the Tenjiku folks, do they have different/specific speech patterns each or do they all more or less talk the same? Second: Mocchi was said to come from Kawasaki in 227, does that give us any clue about his socio-eco bg? Last: Kakucho said Mucho taught him "how to be a real man", what are your thoughts on that?

ANON Thank you for your lovely words! AND I DO NOT MIND AT ALL! In fact, I got really excited by your questions! I have a soft spot for Tenjiku/Bonten/Rokuhara members so they're always a topic of interest for me.

Disclaimer / Warning: You may have overestimated my understanding of the Japanese language and knowledge of Japan ahaha... I am still a learner, so please take my attempts at translations with a big fistful of salt! This is also an open invitation to anyone fluent in Japanese to jump in and correct me if I've gotten anything wrong.

Alright, here goes!

On: Tenjiku Speech Patterns / Mocchi & Kawasaki / Kakucho’s Relationship with Mucho

1. Speech Patterns of Tenjiku Members

This one’s hard for me to answer because I don’t have a native grasp of the language, so I’m very likely missing out on a lot of nuances / slang in their speech patterns. So far, to me, it doesn’t seem like there are any particular differences in the way all members speak. They’re all speaking roughly and impolitely, the way anime boys are typically portrayed to speak hahaha. And even though Tenjiku is from Yokohama, they don’t seem to speak in an exaggerated ‘Yokohama accent’ where ‘jan (じゃん) is often used as a sentence-final particle. I guess this is because most Tenjiku members are said/implied to be from Tokyo, except Mocchi. Even so, Mocchi and the other Tenjiku mooks do not seem to have any distinctive speech style or Yokohama accent. Then again, accents can also come from the intonation as well which we can’t hear from manga. Maybe any linguistic differences may be more apparent in the anime? (Anyway, I don’t think Yokohama accent is as huge of a thing as other accents like Osaka-ben. I believe people who live in Yokohama mostly speak just like Tokyoites.)

TLDR: Tenjiku members don’t seem to have any distinctive speech patterns between each other (or even in comparison with the general rest of the cast). Then again, I could be wrong about this.

2. Mocchi & Kawasaki

Hmm, I'm afraid to say that we simply do not have enough information about Mocchi to conclude his socio-economic status.

Firstly, Kawasaki is a city, not a district like Roppongi, so the scope is entirely different. Because it is a city, there are varying levels of wealth across all sorts of wards and areas in Kawasaki, whereas Roppongi is a particularly affluent area in a city. Therefore, it's hard to decide if someone's rich/poor just by knowing they're from Kawasaki, but if someone tells you they’re from Roppongi, you can kinda assume they're rich.

That said, Kawasaki is generally considered to be cheaper to live in than Tokyo, or even Yokohama. And because of its convenient location and close proximity to Tokyo, it's a good option for people who work in Tokyo but cannot afford to live there. Kawasaki, especially its southern area, is industrialized and home to many factories since the post-war period. In the past, the city had more factories and somewhat had a reputation of being an industrial / 'blue-collar' area, so people had the impression of it being a rough place (i.e. home to more ruffians, less safe, less clean). However, this has changed in recent times with de-industrialization. It still has many factories, but it's also become more residential (especially in the northern areas) and contemporary, with many tourist spots like museums, so I don't think people still think of it as a 'rough' place. I’m just sharing what Kawasaki’s like in case you wanna make any guesses about Mocchi based on it! (Fun fact: I've been to Kawasaki for a quick stop at their famous arcade (Anata no Warehouse), and found the immediate area around the main station to be really chill! It had a suburban feel to it.)

Back to Mocchi; perhaps if Wakui-sensei had told us where in Kawasaki he is from, we could have more of a clue. BUT! In the manga, Mocchi is simply said to be from Kawasaki, though it did not specify if it's Kawasaki the city, or Kawasaki the ward in Kawasaki City. I guess common sense tells us he meant Kawasaki City, but IF we ASSUME that Mocchi is from Kawasaki the ward too, we can perhaps squeeze something out about his background? Kawasaki Ward is home to one of the largest ethnic Korean populations in Japan, with its own Koreatown. Perhaps, PERHAPS Mochi might have Korean blood in him, from this fact? Many Zainichi Koreans (permanent residents/citizens of Japan who are ethnically Korean) adopt Japanese-style names, so it's not impossible that Mocchi has this heritage even though his name is Japanese. Zainichi Koreans were historically discriminated in Japan and could only mainly take on 'undesirable' jobs (like construction or gambling), so socio-economically they were not high up on the list. Some Zainichi Koreans also turn to crime and criminal organizations, which could perhaps provide some context to Mocchi being a delinquent? I feel like I’m reaching for straws here though. Please let me emphasize that Mocchi being Korean is not my conclusion or personal HC. I am only LIGHTLY TOYING with the very vague idea that he might be, haha. It's better if you just disregard this whole spiel, really!

TLDR: We simply do not have enough information about Mocchi to conclude anything about his socio-economic background, or even his background at all haha. I'm sorry to disappoint, anon!!

3. Kakucho and Mucho

Oh it certainly does seem that Kakucho’s relationship with Mucho is one of his more positive and healthier ones!! That scene where Kakucho stopped Mucho from stabbing Angry/Takemichi with a knife in Chapter 164? It’s brief but quite revealing about their relationship. I know you’re only asking about one particular line, but I think there’s more to be said about the whole scene so I hope you won’t mind me rambling about it too! Let’s break it down:

Firstly—“You taught me to be a man among men.”

In Japanese, Kakucho says: 「アンタから漢を教わった」 the meaning of which is what’s conveyed in the translation, so I don’t have much else to add.

In case you were wondering: the word for ‘man’ used here, 漢 (otoko), is slang for ‘manly man’, someone who is tough, strong (both in terms of personality and physical power), courageous and honourable. Basically, the traditional image of masculinity. Kakucho by nature is an honourable person, even as a kid he thought it was wrong to gang up on others (Chap 165). Therefore, I’m sure that in Tenjiku, he would’ve gotten along best with Mucho, who also holds strong moral values of honour and is portrayed as the ‘elder brother’ type. Mocchi also seems to value honour in fights, so he’s another person who could be on friendlier terms with Kakucho, but Mocchi is comparatively more chaotic and battle-thirsty than Mucho haha. I personally think Kakucho didn’t interact or hang out with the Haitani’s or Shion as much because they seem to be sneakier and generally not so respectful in disposition, so Kakucho probably disagreed with their views. Also, Tenjiku!Kakucho seems to have a particularly strong ‘tough guy’ vibe in his appearance and dressing, so he could also have been influenced by Mucho in this aspect.

Secondly—“I don’t want you to be ruined by Tenjiku.”

In Japanese, Kakucho says 「アンタまで天竺に染まるな」, which honestly is kinda hard (for me) to convey the nuance in an English sentence that is grammatically correct, haha. Instinctively and immediately, this sentence strikes me as “Don’t be tainted by Tenjiku. Not you too.” I’m not saying this is how I’ll translate it, but more like the impression I got from the line.

The fan-translation is more or less correct I suppose, though I feel that ‘tainted’ is closer to the original than ‘ruined’. It also doesn’t highlight that Kakucho is saying 「アンタまで」, which means “even you”. This implies that to Kakucho, Mucho is the pinnacle ‘good guy’, who the corrupting influence of Tenjiku should not reach. This further implies that Kakucho views Mucho differently from the other Tenjiku members, which provides more evidence that after Izana, Mucho was most special to Kakucho within Tenjiku. (Lmao sorry Ran!)

Thirdly—Kakucho’s pronoun for Mucho

In English, the pronoun ‘You’ just means ‘You’, but in Japanese, there are several ways of saying the pronoun ‘You’, and it can show what the speaker feels towards the person they’re addressing.

As of Chap 247, Kakucho generally uses Omae (お前／オマエ) and Temee (テメエ), depending on who he’s talking to and his mood at the moment. (This is the same for the rest of the TR boys (and Senju), and is typically the norm for most male characters in animanga.) However, it is only with Mucho that he uses Anta (アンタ). They’re all rude ways of saying ‘You’, but this is how they differ:

Omae (お前／オマエ) - This pronoun is generally considered to be very informal and rude, though it’s used by boys and men for people they know who won’t mind it, like close friends or spouses/partners. I’ve also heard it used by superiors to subordinates in workplaces. Kakucho uses this with Izana and Takemichi, or when he’s in a neutral / positive mood. 

Temee (テメエ) - This pronoun is considered to be derogatory and more vulgar than Omae, so please don’t use it with anyone you know haha. It feels like a word a guy will use on someone he wants to beat the crap out of. Kakucho uses this when he’s mad / hostile, such as with Takemichi (when he was being spiteful about Takemichi not understanding his bond with Izana), Takeomi and Mikey.

Anta (アンタ) - Out of the three, Anta is the least rude. Boys and men also use it with people they’re close with, and I feel that it’s more acceptable to use it with elders you’re close with (like parents) as opposed to Omae. Women sometimes use this too with their husbands, though it may come off as more admonishing. It’s generally still very informal though, and if you use it on a stranger you’ll sound like you’re picking a fight. Nonetheless, between the three, Anta is the most ‘respectful’. Kakucho has only used this for Mucho (not even Izana), so it further insinuates that Mochi had Kakucho’s respect. (Kakucho hasn’t been shown to use the ‘you’ pronoun on other Tenjiku members yet btw.)

You hear second-person pronouns in animanga like Omae / Kimi (君) a lot, but in real life, Japanese people tend to avoid using it and prefer to simply refer to the other party by name. Even the neutral / formal Anata (あなた / 貴方) should be used as little as possible when speaking to someone. This link here explains the differences in the ‘You’ pronouns used in animanga really well, if you want a deeper understanding!

Bonus: I noticed that Ran referred to Hakkai as Otaku (おたく) when they were starting their fight in Chap 156. Otaku (おたく/お宅) is an old, respectful way of saying ‘You’, but Ran used it playfully (Ran uses Omae for other people). And yes, Otaku also has the entirely different meaning of a person who has obsessive interests haha.

Lastly - Mucho’s Relationship with Kakucho

Again, the only interaction shown between them is when Kakucho stopped Mucho’s knife. In the fan-translation, Mucho says “Get out, you shit” but in Japanese, he says 「どけクソガキ」, which translates better to “Out of my way, damn brat”. To me, Mucho calling Kakucho a brat highlights the age difference between them. Knowing Mucho and his inclination to be the ‘big brother’ type, he probably saw Kakucho as another youngling he could take under his wing, or at least be a role model to, like Sanzu. 

We don’t know exactly when Kakucho was introduced to the S-62, but based on the S-62′s jail term and ages, I’d say that Kakucho met them when he was 13-14, and probably only had a year or two with them before the Kantou Incident. So it’s not like Mucho was there to guide Kakucho through his formative years like Izana, but I think because of how ‘manly’ and ‘big-brotherly’ Mucho was, and how Mucho at his core was a good guy, Kakucho looked up to him the most and was most definitely influenced by him in some way. 

In addition, Mucho was one of the most shocked people around when Kakucho stood up to Izana. Attention was specially given to his thoughts about it: 「誰より忠誠心の強い、あの鶴蝶?!」/ “The one whose loyalty is strongest [to Izana], that Kakucho?!” I’m sure it’s very clear to every Tenjiku member how loyal Kakucho is to Izana, but from how Mucho found it so incredulous, it kinda implies that Mucho knows Kakucho’s feelings on a deeper level than other Tenjiku members, perhaps? 

TLDR: After Izana, Mucho was closest to Kakucho in Tenjiku, and Kakucho looked up to Mucho a lot. 

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And so, here you have it! I think I ended up being... not so helpful in answering your questions about Tenjiku speech styles and Mocchi, but I had lots to say about KakuMucho hahahaha. IT WAS SO FUN ANSWERING THIS ANON!!  THANK YOU FOR THE QUESTIONS!!! If you have any more, I’d love to answer them! Especially if it’s about Kakucho hehehe

I hope you have a good day/night!!

[pikahlua]

Hi sweetness, I love that you've set up a discord but I am so nervous and anxious about yknow, just talking.

Would it be possible to get some pre-leak buzz going so we can talk a little more organically?

I understand the anxiety issue. I have pretty bad anxiety myself. Over time, I've noticed people seem to only want to send me messages on anon lately. I don't know if that's a reflection of the internet and its denizens these days or if I somehow have managed to build an intimidating parasocial aura perhaps as a consequence of my blog's comedic arrogance memes. In truth, I'm just a person trying to chill and enjoy a manga with you all. I don't have a problem with people having different takes on MHA than I might, and I have zero interest in "calling out" anyone for anything. I just enjoy the discussion, and I wanna have fun in the fandom! Anyone can send me a (kind, good faith) private message to strike up a chat.

Now, I think I also owe you all some clarification since it’s been a while I’ve talked about these things.

I currently run two Discord servers:

One is for meta discussion, which requires you to ask for an invitation from me via the Tumblr chat function. That is where I am most active on a daily basis. The details about joining this server are on my blog in the "Meet Me Outside" section.

The other is this new server from last week that has been set up solely to facilitate the live streams of when I'm translating the MHA chapter leaks (here's a new link to join by the way). The single voice channel on this server does not allow for audio chat. It just allows for me to stream audio and visual from my setup. Should you connect to the voice channel, you will be able to view the stream when it's live and write in the voice channel's text chat for me to see and respond to you. It is not compulsory that you participate in any discussion, but you will always be welcome to do so. The server itself is still in its beta testing stages to see how many people join and what improvements can be made so everyone can have a good time, so of course I'm open to suggestions.

I've set up the translations server this way to create a controlled streaming environment where I hopefully won't have to manage moderating too many people and can keep things low-key. Too many distractions would slow down the translation process. I will continue posting the completed translations to my blog after each stream, but this server gives the opportunity for you to hear my initial reactions and thoughts on the chapter before I've organized them or determined if they're worth writing about on my blog.

As for "pre-leak buzz," I’ll give it my best shot in the server, but be warned that despite my best attempts at passing as cool, I'm actually a giant square. I’ll definitely need some help generating buzz. XD

That said, if you're wanting to chat and hang out in a community, perhaps my first Discord, the meta discussion server, would be a better choice for you. Consider it! :P

[not-me-simping-for-blasty]

some soft!bakugou brainrot for the soul:

-he likes when you greet him in the morning. will absolutely roll his eyes and say sum “jesus, idiot, it’s too fuckin’ early for pathetic enthusiam like that” but will also simultaneously get pouty if u dont say hi to him first

-very much a quiet boy when it’s late at night. will just sit back with his eyes half-lidded and head in his hands, giving a little “mhm” to everything you say. you think he’s not listening but when you don’t finish a thought he will, without missing a beat go “the hell? really? gonna talk that much and then not even finish the story?”

-will cook meals that you like but will insist that he likes them too. bakugou is 100% trying to convince you that he made it for himself but the entire extra portion with your favorite toppings implies the opposite

-pays attention to what you’re doing in training, and will not outright tell you if you’re doing well,, but when ur alone he’ll just sorta “you looked less pathetic than last time, dumbass” with a slight smirk as he brushes past you

-likes to bicker,, i mean come on, obviously, but what i mean is that he just looks so weirdly happy when u yell at him (def goes heart eyes but literally do not say a word about it pls)

-goes very soft for hand massages,,, just like, ground ur thumb into the heel of his hand and rub at his knuckles. man’s will melt into wherever he’s sitting and close his eyes

-will absolutely bite your head off if you’re reckless, but then spend the rest of his time trying to think of ways to avoid u ever being in that much danger again

-remembers places you’ve been together very clearly. so like, if y’all wanna revisit some restaurant, bakugou is leading the way and ur just like “??? that was 6 months ago how do u know where you’re going” ,, n he just scoffs and “because i’m the best. now shut up and pay attention we’re about to cross the street”

-is very soft about u wearing his clothes but only when no one else is around to see it. idk contrary to popular belief i actually see him being very flustered by the sight of u in his clothes. so he won’t let u wear anything around others rlly, but when it’s just him??? poor bby is so soft for it. like, v much hiding his red face in your neck and just breathing u in type of soft

-has a specific blanket that he keeps for when u hang out. eventually it starts to smell like you, bc obviously, n he’ll cuddle up with it when you can’t be with him

-adores when you sing to him. 100% doesn’t matter if you’re good or not,, bakugou just likes that you don’t do it in front of anyone else

-likes when you get needlessly angry with him. idk how to explain it,, but just like, if he’s bitching at one of his friends and you back him up, purely bc u like the chaos, bakugou will be totally �� over it. only after he’s done yelling tho

-mans has a thing for praise. he does. we been knew. but he rlly has an even bigger thing for mundane praise, like rlly small things like, “wow your handwriting is so neat” or “omg your room is so clean! you’re so organized!”,,, jus tiny stuff in passing that let’s him kno he’s doing good

-will absolutely not admit it but he 100% prays for lint on his uniform so you’ll brush it off for him. it’s like, a tiny little touch, just enough to sate him, but not so much that it feels like embarrassing pda

-is a sucker for someone he can just sit in silence with. like idk, if y’all noticed it, but he literally has like, nothing to say when he’s not bitching, so if he’s not angry he’ll just be quiet. if u can be quiet with him, in the same space but not talking, bakugou is a very happy boy about it

-he likes to know things about you no one else does,, so if u tell him anything in confidence, literally anything, he’ll keep it secret. 100% every time, no exceptions, will never spill a single detail even if someone is begging him to

-probably demands that u say u love him multiple times before y’all go to sleep. its the only affection he outright asks for so u give in every time

-shares whatever he has with u. just wordlessly will hand u a piece of whatever he’s eating. doesn’t warn u if it’s spicy tho,, bc he’s still a little shit

-sort of just follows you wherever you’re going. like, if u tell him u want to be alone he’ll leave, but otherwise he just kinda assumes he’s meant to follow. most times he’s right

-he is 100% the type to know something is wrong without u having to say it. he prob knows exactly what it is too. lmao like, sure, he’s still totally clueless on how to approach/support you but bakugou is the furthest thing from dumb. he knows,, he just does.

-gets super protective about your things. like, god forbid somebody try to write anything in ur notebook while you’re not paying attention,, bakugou’ll threaten them before their pen even touches the paper

-he likes to tend to your injuries. like, even the rlly minor ones. like, let’s say u get a papercut??? pls mans is grabbing your finger, running it under water, and wrapping a bandaid around it before u even register it. he’ll grumble the whole time like “jesus, dumbass, can’t believe i have to do this.” but rlly he enjoys doing it bc it makes him feel important. like maybe he’s someone heroic to u

-if no one else is around, and there’s a lot of trust established, he’ll prob do whatever u tell him to. now ofc there’s gonna be a lot of complaining, bc it’s bakugou, but he’ll do it

-is a big fan of when you tell him he’s your favorite. pls the man is so see-through ahaha,, u could be like “omg! bakugou! you took out the trash without me asking?? that’s why you’re my favorite!” n all he walks away hearing is “they think im the best. i fucking am the best.”

-he likes to watch you do mundane things. like rlly little, every-day things like brushing your hair or tying your shoes. idk he just thinks your methodical movements are weirdly calming

-is a sucker for forehead kisses. like obvi, only when y’all are alone, but like, press a kiss to his hairline?? suddenly it’s rip angry bakugou, soft bakugou hrs only

-doesn’t rlly initiate touch that much,, but when he does mans is extremely petulant about it. like, if u decide u have something more pressing than him, bakugou is almost immeadiately going “that’s fucking stupid. what you’re doing. you should stop.” n then he’s just poking and prodding and needling at u until u fall into his arms

-shadows you at social gatherings. very guard-dog like from an outsider perspective, but rlly it’s just bc when katsuki says he doesn’t like anyone else, he means it. he’s sticking by you bc you truly are the only one he tolerates

-he secretly rlly likes when u fuss over him. like, when u ask him if he’s sore from training or if he has any injuries. bakugou will brush u off like the absolute bitch that he is, but secretly he’ll be so warm about it. he just likes that u care enough to ask

-he tries very hard to be gentle for u. ofc it pretty much never works bc it’s him, but he’ll still forever be reading romance manga n going “yeah, i bet they’d like that. gonna it do it way better though. im the fucking best, i can do it.”

ahahaaha me?? a bunch of bakugou thoughts?? never, idk what ur on about

[hitnran]

UNHAPPY (gender neutral! reader)

how you deal with them when they’re unhappy

includes: chifuyu, sanzu, ran, rindou

note: you can view these as either their past or present selves

— CHIFUYU MATSUNO

For Chifuyu, it doesn’t take too much for him to really make him super unhappy. But often times, he does get annoyed at some things that just tick him off. Sometimes it’ll be something small, like someone cutting in line or someone stepping too close into his boundaries. At those times, he usually either lets it go or will confront whoever it is he has to deal with (verbally or physically, depends on the situation).

But nothing would make him more unhappy like the situation involving the death of Baji - someone who changed his life for the better.

For the first few days, it felt like the situation didn’t even occur. He would drag this out to days, weeks, months. You didn’t want to ask too many questions out of fear of being too insensitive, maybe this was just how he dealt with it. Though, you would always at least check up on him.

“Yeah, I’m fine,” He would softly grin, assuring you that he was okay. Never had you heard him fully talk about it, and you wouldn’t force him.

Upon plans to visit his place and hangout, you figured that it wouldn’t hurt to show up earlier than usual. It wasn’t like he minded it either - more time to spend with you.

You gathered together both of your favorite snacks and drinks, the door was left open for you. You quietly snuck in, figuring he would be in his room, maybe reading a new manga or playing with game.

But upon peaking through the cracks of his opened room door, you found him sniffling and sobbing, staring down at something in his lap - Baji’s Toman uniform.

You felt your throat go dry and your chest ache to see him like this - so vulnerable about a topic that he swore he accepted, but you knew him better. You slowly pushed opened his door, falling to your knees and pulling his head close to you.

He cried harder, feeling weak to show this side of himself to you, but he couldn’t help it. Chifuyu tried letting out words like ‘I’m okay,’ but he failed and choked on his words.

“You..don’t have to keep it to yourself anymore, Chifuyu,” You comforted him, softly humming and running your palm over his head.

Once he is calm enough to speak, you both move to a more comfortable spot where he can talk. One of Chifuyu’s favorite thing is to lay down with you, so this isn’t out of the ordinary, but when he’s unhappy, he relishes this moment more than he ever has.

The feeling of your stomach raising up and down and the sound of your heart beating makes him feel at ease - it helps him know that you’re there with him and you’re all his.

When he’s unhappy, he really appreciates it when you give him his undivided attention and just listens to him talk. Chifuyu’s aware that some things are out of your control, but it’s the thought of having someone to share these moments of his life with that means more to him. Whether it’s him ranting about someone who annoyed him or him reminiscing back on his memories, at the end of his session, he will always shower you with attention to show you how much he is thankful for you.

— HARUCHIYO SANZU

There’s a lot that actually makes Sanzu unhappy. It might be more common than him actually being happy, but nonetheless, for the most part he doesn’t care. Sanzu simply does not care enough to worry about minor inconveniences. If it doesn’t get in the way of him and/or those he is loyal to, he isn’t going to waste his time and energy on even thinking about it.

Other times, if he’s just having a bad day, he’ll maybe blow things out of proportion and take those minor inconveniences as a way to just blame his bad day on. If someone really wants to get on Sanzu’s bad side though, all they’d have to do is either mention his siblings that he loathes so much or talk badly about those who he is loyal to.

You will immediately know when he’s unhappy when Sanzu doesn’t talk. He’s already wasting his time and energy to even worry about what’s making him upset, so he’s not going to add more by talking. Unfortunately, this even goes for you. He’d enjoy it if you would give him his space, allowing him to just let time deal with his temper.

Though, Sanzu greatly appreciates how patient you are with him. Never did he ask for you to do these small things you do for him, in fact, he thought it should be the other way around where it would be him giving you everything.

When he’s unhappy and unwilling to speak, you still put so much effort. His favorite food is ready and waiting for him, his clothes are free of wrinkles, and life just seems so much easier for him to deal with.

Depending on how serious the issue was, it’ll either take a few hours or a few days for Sanzu to speak to anyone else again, but you will always be the first. He’ll walk up behind you, ignoring whatever you’re doing and inhale your scent that he missed so much.

It’s really better to just not ask about what happened unless he brings it up himself, but he likes it if you’d just talk about yourself.

“What are you doing, doll?” His words are a lot softer around you, a big contrast to the personality he puts out towards others.

And as you begin to talk, Sanzu can’t help but soften his expression, nodding at every sentence and giving you his attention. He knows that he isn’t the easiest to deal with and he knows that it was nothing you have to deal with - you could ignore it and he would be fine with it. But your efforts will never go unnoticed, and he will be sure to make it up to you to the best of his ability.

— RAN HAITANI

It doesn’t take too much to make Ran unhappy. He’s unbothered by a lot of things and it may just be an older brother instinct to just deal with things as they go. If it’s things involving his career as a dangerous man, then it’s a little different. Things are in the moment and he has to make sure that he isn’t caught with his guard down.

If someone is bothering you, Ran will deal with it on the spot. If Rindou got himself in trouble again, he’ll deal with that too on the spot. He just doesn’t wanna waste his time.

Like Sanzu, it had to just have been a bad day where things kept piling up on him and he just had enough. He’ll immediately go and find you, not wanting to really project his problems on you, but more as a way to distract himself.

You hear a familiar set of feet creep your direction, your name is dragged out as Ran calls for you, wondering where you are.

“There you are,” Ran’s face visibly beams as he finally sees you.

He immediately walks over to you, grabbing your attention and leaving you to toss out whatever you were doing prior. Ran’s a touchy person, but never really ‘clingy.’ You’ll know when something happened that irritated him when he clings onto you more.

“Did something happen?” You curiously ask, looking straight at him.

He shook his head, nearly forgetting the reason why he was upset in the first place, “Let’s go out tonight or something. Tell me what you wanna do, and we’ll do it.”

If Ran is unhappy, he really just doesn’t wanna bother with it especially if it isn’t something he can immediately deal with. The best thing you can do is just ask if he wants to talk about it. Usually he’ll brush over it, wanting to at least let you in on the details of his life, but that’s about it.

His thought process is really ‘why spend time worrying about those things when I can just be with my partner?’ He doesn’t want to think of you as a distraction, but no doubt does he see you as a mood booster. You always make his day.

— RINDOU HAITANI

Rindou gets irritated a lot. One thing he hates dealing with his people. He just hates dealing with how ‘indecisive and stupid some of them’ can be as he says. But with his title, he’s kind of forced to have to consistently be around others, usually those who aren’t looking to be his friend.

When Rindou’s unhappy, he’ll find everything else annoying. If it someone who cut in front of him in line, suddenly everyone to even looks in his direction will piss him off. If his brother took the last of his favorite snack, suddenly he’ll start thinking about how he can step outside and beat the shit out of a person just for fun if he wanted to.

He tries his best to not snap at you, it’s nothing he wants to bother with if he makes you unhappy too. He’ll be very similar to Sanzu where he just wants to be left alone for the most part but only out of fear of taking his anger out on you on accident or saying something out of pocket due to frustration.

But even after just a few minutes of asking to be alone, Rindou will usually go and find you and just ask to silently do something together. He just doesn’t wanna be left alone with his own thoughts; it might drive him more crazy.

Rindou will make it super evident when he’s upset (he’s stubborn), but when he is, it’s good to just be patient with him as he’ll most likely come back and drape his body over you, silently asking for attention.

Take off his glasses and kiss his eyelids, play with his hair and his fingers, tell him you love him and he’ll melt. His face is left with an expression he wouldn’t dare show anyone else, but nonetheless, he’s grateful to you and he immediately forgets what upset him in the first place.

“Thanks,” He lowly murmurs into your neck. You feel the heat from his ears go hot. “For dealing with me.”

[highanxietyclub]

I’ve fully caught up on everything for Given earlier today and omg! I need more! I really do

Spoilers ahead…these are just a few of my thoughts

-uneoyama and mafuyus relationship rn is stressing me out. I need them both to learn to communicate better. Ue isnt in the wrong per day but there are some things he could do differently for mafuyus sake. Like I know you don’t know his full past/trauma but bro hang out and make time for your boyfriend! Pls talk to him lol. But I also hope that mafuyu despite not knowing what to do about the band decides to go to the concert. I totally understand his feelings and the lowkey ptsd but I also need him to think about Ue and his feelings and being there to support him and support hiiragi and shizusumi. He’s worried about the past repeating himself (which makes total sense bc it def feels like Ue “took” Yukis place and that moment in the train station was just history almost repeating itself ) but I need him to realize that he has the power to make sure that it doesn’t happen. He’s isolating and trust me I get it but bby mafuyu pls

-I’m happy that it seems like ugetsu is (slowly) doing better and I love that mafuyu but especially akihiko reached out to say congrats. I need more ugetsu content! In my dream world in the future either given does a song featuring a ugetsu and the violin and/or ugetsu and akihiko play together (once they’re both healed from their relationship) I want them both to see how each other have grown personally and musically

-I’m glad that haruki and akishiko seem to be doing well! Bro that scene where they’re getting spicy but then Ue interrupts ugh not to be nasty but I wish that wasn’t interrupted bc 😏

(But like look at them here awww!! The way haruki is looking at him)

-poor ue getting asked to finish his boyfriends dead exs song bc that’s gotta feel weird. But I’m proud of him for finishing it and I cannot wait for this to be animated so I can see and hear it all come together. I’m so curious

-I do appreciate that there was some yuki content and also just more past/background content in general (strawberry swing ugh)

-i loved! All of the hiiragi and shizusumi content! I like getting to learn more about them and see their personality’s and their dynamic. I especially loved when hiiragi confesses and what comes after that bc oooof! I was screaming reading it all! I need a manga just about the 2 of them pls and thank you

-I love the lil mini scenes or whatever they do. These right here were my favs for obvious reasons like just look at how cute they both are

Me too haruki and take-chan

Ahhh! I screamed akihiko and ugetsu look so cute!!!

Okay…I’m done for now…pls does anyone wanna talk about Given

[kenjikutie]

That’s my Wife [Sakusa Kiyoomi]

summary: when you show up for your first day of managing the black jackals, your husband is less than thrilled with the attention you recieve from his team-members word count: 1.4k pairing: sakusa kiyoomi x wife!reader warnings: manga spoilers

with a grin on your face, you pushed open your apartment door, quickly pulling off your shoes and tossing them to the side. your husband would be home from the store in about ten minutes, so you had a little time to reflect on what you had just gotten yourself into. after pumping a dollop of soap onto your hands, you let them run underneath the soothing warm water, your lips still upturned in happiness

you had just agreed to a position as manager to your husband’s volleyball team, the msby black jackals. from what you had heard, they were one of the most talented teams in the circuit right now, rivaled only by the schweiden adlers. however, it wasn’t their rankings that made you want to work for them. the prospect of working with your husband every day was too good to pass up

just thinking about waking up together and getting to hear his morning voice while the two of you were getting dressed made your heart palpitate. even after being married for a little over a year, kiyoomi could still make your cheeks flare red with a single glance

hearing the door open, you quickly turned off the sink and dried off your hands, knowing that your husband would be less than happy if you greeted him with wet hands. you heard him call out for you and you inwardly cheered, rushing out of the kitchen to meet him

kiyoomi’s eyes brightened just a little bit at the mere sight of you, something only someone who knew him as you did would be able to notice. however, there was a look of frustration on his face, something else on you would pick out. you quirked a brow at him, continuing to wrap your arms around his waist and look up at him with soft eyes

he reached behind you to set his hands on your back, “i got a call from coach a few minutes ago.”

“oh, crap.”

kiyoomi pinched your side at your language and sighed, gently tugging himself out of your grasp. he sat down at the dining table, followed closely by you, who took a seat at his side. you carefully reached for his hand, interlacing your fingers together with a small smile

“you know how much my teammates annoy me. why would you want to put yourself through that?”, he grumbled and you could hear the annoyance in his voice at the thought of his team

you laughed, setting a hand on his cheek, feeling how he leaned into your touch almost immediately, ”unlike you, oomi, i actually enjoy talking to people. i’ve met them before, ya know? remember that night we all went out to the bar?”

kiyoomi did remember that night. he remembered having to carry you home after you had gotten yourself incredibly drunk due to atsumu challenging you to a drinking contest. he nearly killed the corn-colored blond the next day

with a huff, kiyoomi pouted, making you poke his cheek a few times with a teasing smile, “oh, come on, oomi! we’ll get to see each other every day and you never have to worry about me walking home alone. isn’t that a good thing?”

you did have a point. kiyoomi had always been adamant about you walking alone at night, or even during the day and made you meet him at his gym every day after practice anyways. maybe this was just a way to cut out the middle-man

“fine. but, you need to buy me a ton of umeboshi to make up for this, got it?”

“yeah, yeah, you big baby.”, kiyoomi stalked into the bedroom and you cackled, calling after him about how you were joking and how he had to come back and love you this instant

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your first day had gone off without a hitch so far. you had woken up with more energy than normal, your favorite breakfast place had gotten your order out quickly and you had been able to spend time with your husband all morning. despite, the constant deadpan look on his face, you could tell that he was happy to have you close

when the two of you got the practice gym, kiyoomi pecked your temple through his mask and retreated into the locker room while your attention was grabbed by their coach, who began to talk to you about where to put your things and what he would need you to do that day. you paid close attention to everything he was saying, not wanting to make a fool out of yourself on your first day of the job

as you began to fill up the water bottles, the doors to the gym slammed open, screams and shouts filling the large space, making you jump, nearly spilling water all over yourself

“ya are so stupid, bokuto! ya know that? ya ruined my chances with that girl back there!”, a voice heavily licked with an accent you didn’t recognize was the first one you picked up on

you furrowed your eyebrows as you watched the two adults chase one another around the court, followed closely behind a smaller, orange-haired boy, yelling at them to knock it off. with the coach nowhere to be found and kiyoomi still in the locker room, no doubt in the middle of his third shower, you figured it was up to you to calm the three down

the blond tackled the man he was chasing, dragging him down to the floor as the white and black-haired man yelped. you set your hands on your hips and walked up to the pile of fully grown men

“excuse me.”, no one even registered your voice and you rolled your eyes before walking over to the cart of volleyballs and chucking one in their direction

“hey! knock it off!”, the three of them stared at you in surprise, before the smallest one ran up to you, stopping just before he knocked you over

“who are you? i don’t think anyone else is supposed to be in here?”, he put a hand to his chin, as if in deep thought while he circled around you

the blonde chuckled and gave you a smirk, “must be one of ma fans, heh? sorry to break it to you, dollface, but, ya’re not supposed to come into the gym.”

“actually-”, the man cut you off with an arm around your shoulders

“ya are kinda cute, so if ya wanna wait outside then i can-”

suddenly, his arm was nowhere to be found. you glanced upward and saw your husband, looking angrier than you have ever seen him before, holding the man’s arm as if it was the dirtiest thing he had ever touched. kiyoomi looked down at you with a brow raised and you nodded, assuring him that you were fine

“what do you think you’re doing, miya?”, his voice was low and you noticed that the owl-looking player had moved several feet away and the small one was hiding behind his back

“geez, omi-kun, calm down, i was just tryin’ to getta fan outta here.”

kiyoomi dropped his arm and continued his glare before placing a hand on your waist, pulling you closer to his side, lip twitching upward as you rested your head on his chest, looking up at him with doe eyes

“this isn’t a fan, stupid miya. that’s my wife and for this day forward, your new manager, so i’d suggest keeping your hands to yourself and learning a little respect.”, you tapped his chest, attempting to switch his glare off but when that didn’t work, you turned back to the team

“hi! as i tried to tell you, i’m sakusa y/n, your new manager. it’s nice to meet you,”, you glanced at the blond, “not you.”

after being told their names, you assured bokuto and hinata that you weren’t mad at them, despite their begging and whining of apologies, volunteering to help you with any task you needed. you took them up on their offer and brought them into the storage room to get some help with items on taller shelves

atsumu and kiyoomi were left in the gym, beginning to hit some passes to one another, but the tension in the air was still clear

“your wife is hot, good job omi-kun.”, atsumu laughed, trying to break the silence

you swore you heard a shout before the resounding sound of a firmly spiked volleyball. with a giggle, you silently thanked your husband for helping you today and began to feel more and more excited about what your future with this team held

the end

[titsuya]

i'm horny any it's all your fault so YOU can hear my thoughts 😤

- kazutora is whiny. like hella fucking whiny it's so cute

- he was in prison for all of his teens and didn't lose his virginity until mid 20s so I KNOW this man is touch starved.

- Chifuyu lives to overstim. he's lives to please in general but he love overstimulating you the most

- mistuya is the softest of soft doms. y'all thought akaashi was soft? NO it's mitsu. he just wants you to feel good.

- hanma is a meanie tho :( edges you for HOURS just cuz he can. will laugh when you start crying. meanie :( it's okay he usually lets you cum - eventually <3

also idk if you do emoji anons but can i be 🐻 or 🥯 anon-

have a good night i love you and your writings 😤

YESSSSSSS THIS MADE MY ENTIRE BEING THROB, IM GOING TO REPLY WITH ADDITIONAL THOTS:

kazu # prettiest boy <333333 my whole entire heart nd soul <33 creaming my pants at whiny kazu. WHINYYYYYY mf boy. every time he’s close to cumming, he’s literally in tears and unhinged. a very loud hnnng! or “b-baby! gunna! g-gunna cum, mmph!” he tries nd tries to hold it all back, not wanting to sound all “subby,” but he just can’t. CAN I JUST ADD !!!! this mf also cums SO much. just ropes and ropes of cum all over or inside of you. he has soooo much to give.

chifuyu, love of my life; light of my days, is soooo sweet. like i’m not sure i even see a dom/sub dynamic with him, but if there is. SERVICE DOM !!!! i agree, he thrives off of your satisfaction— could cum untouched at the sight or sound of you cumming just for him. nd when he has his head between your thighs or his pretty fingers shoved deep inside your cunt, just know you’re not done until you’ve given him all you’ve got. OVERSTIMMING KING. he always says, “‘m just tryna make you feel good, angel, gimme another. you’ll cum for me again won’t you?”

MITSUYA my pretty babyyy <3 my boyfriend, my whole ass username :3 i genuinely think mitsuya is the best man in the entire anime/manga universe (PERSONALLY) sweetest boy. mitsuya does it all for you. both sexually and emotionally. if you wanna ride his cock till you’ve milked him dry, consider it done. if you wanna talk about how shitty your day was, he’s already kissing nd hugging you, promising to beat anyone up that hurt you. best of all, (jesus) he says the most romantic things like, “you know you’re the prettiest fuckin’ thing i’ve ever laid eyes on,” or “‘m all yours, pretty, till the end of time.” there’s also the brat taming side to him that i cant talk about in this bc i dont want it to be too long </3

HANMA SHUJIIIIII MEAN MEAN MEAN DOM !!!! god, he’s actually so hot. he can be very sweet when he wants to be, but don’t expect it too often. he likes to be fairly rough with you, folding you in half, pulling your head to watch him make you take his cock whole. pulls your hair, slaps your face, grips you so tight. (all consensual bc he’s still a gentleman). but here’s the kicker, he’s not too big on degrading, if he does, its mixed with praise. like he’ll never just call you a slut or a bitch. he has to mix in his terms of endearment, “aw, you’re my pretty little bitch, aren’t you sweetheart~” daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. but yes, he edges you for so long and only lets you cum after you sobbed and begged your entire heart out. meanie >:(

[demonxlove]

【character analysis ― douma】

✎ just wanna start this by saying this is sort of both an analysis but also my own personal portrayal on douma’s character based on what we see from canon, so it definitely has a lot of my own opinions on it. & and it also sort of shows how i plan to write him if/when i get requests for him. you don’t have to agree with any of my thoughts but ya know i wanted to share them since douma is my fave character!

✘ warnings before you read: cults, mental illnesses, mentions of death and trauma, especially childhood trauma (that partially stems from neglect) - also not so much a warning but this is very long and obviously contains manga spoilers.

⇢ let’s be completely honest here, douma is an extremely complex character. and while we know a lot about him, at the same time, it’s almost like we know barely anything. we don’t really know an extreme amount of what goes through his head, but it’s kind of just assumed he’s a completely emotionless character, usually stated to be a psychopath because of this.

⇢ i really, really urge anyone labeling a character with a mental illness to do research on it before even considering to use the term, i should mention. and it’s very important to mention mental illnesses are very different to how they effect each person. but from what i understand, both psychopaths and sociopaths (just in case that term gets thrown around too) feel emotions, just very differently to how someone not suffering from the mental illness does. now since i don’t have either illness i’m not gonna say douma is either one, as i personally don’t feel comfortable diagnosing characters with mental illnesses i don’t have or haven’t very clearly been stated they have in canon, but it’s very important to have a very clear understanding of those illnesses if you’re gonna say douma is one.

⇢ but regardless of how you see douma mental illness wise, i personally think he does have emotions, they’re just obviously not as clear as others due to his upbringing. and we do see he has emotions as a kid, shown very clearly by him crying due to everything these grown adults were piling on to him.

⇢ he’s very obviously upset. and why wouldn’t he be? to hear such things from adults day in and day out as a child, being expected to be the one to solve their problems? it’s stressful. it eventually leads up to what we see of his parents death. he’s not upset. he doesn’t really feel any sadness for the two. but that can be explained.

⇢ his parents never acted as parents to him. from the moment of his birth douma was just an object for them to create this cult. i don’t really know what they wanted from it: money? fame? who knows. but it doesn’t really matter. douma was just something for them to use in order to gain what they wanted. even if they did genuinely believe he was a special child, their actions sure didn’t show that. and while douma said that he felt sad they believed he was special, douma was a child. his parents had no reason to show their genuine intentions to him, so we’ll never really know what they thought. but as i said, they didn’t seem to care much how messed up he became as long their cult was in place. douma never had a chance to live a normal childhood, he was placed on a high pedestal from birth and never got to be child. never got to really understand things he should understand. he couldn’t understand actual genuine love from his parents or if he actually loved him. sure, he could feel things such as happiness and love and all of that, but if he did feel it, how could you ever expect him to know? he was in such a constant horrible state, how would he ever know how positive emotions even felt?

⇢ to go back to his parents deaths for a second, even if he didn’t feel anything, it didn’t mean it didn’t cause him any suffering. he was a child, that sort of thing you don’t come out from without trauma. especially since he saw it happened with own eyes. and that probably significantly worsened his already poor mental state. but that also means he was raised from that moment by the cult, and his chance of every coming out okay was straight up zero. let’s be real, the only reason douma has any sort of hold over the cult is because he is their object of worship. they didn’t treat him like a child or even a human being. he was nothing more than someone for them to worship and believe in that they would be blessed. of course, it’s a cult, so most of these people are victims much like douma himself, but the fact there had to be people at the top that were raising him and used him to accomplish their own goals. to use his influence as they saw fit.

⇢ and it was never ending cycle, he never got out of it. all he did was learn to keep the cycle going since he couldn’t simply just leave. and maybe there were moments where he thought himself to be happy due to having so many people worship him, but it wasn’t true happiness. 

⇢ maybe the first bit of happiness he got was from being a demon and getting to interact with other demons? unclear since it’s not like we really saw it. but it was different. it was a small crack in the cycle. but those demons all ended up hating him due to his attitude, that despite no one liking he still kept up. why? why didn’t he just act in a way to make others like him?

⇢ maybe it’s a reach, but to me personally, it’s a mixture of how he desired to be - carefree without any troubles - mixed with how he imagined a child to act. like i said, he had basically no childhood, and it’s not uncommon for those who never get to experience a proper childhood to act more childlike later on to my understanding. he even uses terms like “bully” to describe people much like a child would.

⇢ however, this brings me to what i truly believe was one of the few happy times in douma’s life: kotoha.

⇢ i don’t think he realized it himself, because why would he? but he cared for a lot more than one would believe capable for him. i’m not sure if i would call it romantic or purely platonic, but kotoha was genuinely important to him. i mean, what purpose would he ever have to say he didn’t plan to hurt her?  he wanted to keep that small bit of happiness in his life, maybe in somewhere deep in his heart he even believed they could be their own happy little family to break this never ending tragic cycle he went through.

⇢ but he lost that happiness. she grew scared of him and basically hated him in his eyes upon finding out the truth. and the cycle of tragedy continued once again.

⇢ and to really come to my last point: we’ve seen douma mad.

⇢ and i suppose some could write this scene off as him continuing to be emotionless, but it doesn’t explain the way it’s drawn. the shading on his face that is usually used to show anger. or why he would ever really care about what kanao said in the first place if it was actually true and it didn’t hurt him in some way. the reality is douma does many things that can’t be explained for someone who supposedly has no emotions. and a lot of these details about his character are more subtle, so maybe they mean nothing at all at the end of the day, but in my personal opinion this is how i interpret them.

✎  but that’s really how i see douma, another demon with an extremely tragic story, but one that doesn’t come to light just how tragic until you think more on it. and that is how i do plan to portray him when writing for him personally! maybe i’ll do this more for other characters at some point, but he was the one i wanted to talk about the most since i just have so many thoughts on douma.

[ihatebnha]

hello <333 first of all, I want you to know that I always wanna know your thoughts, but rn I desperately wanna know your thoughts about Hawks that you’re willing to fight over—if you feel comfortable sharing them, of course. I just really love your brain lol but feel free to ignore or delete if you don’t wanna share, honestly <3

ASH!!!!!! have i ever told u HOW MUCH I LOVE U??? i'm honestly so touched you wanna hear my opinion hehehe i feel so special bc tbh? i love y o u r brain...

it's honestly kinda funny because i don't care for hawks as much as i used to but he's definitely my comfort character in terms of who i try to understand the deepest. that being said... all of these thoughts are kinda old as i have yet to re-up them given that i havent seen season 5 yet and read the manga AGES ago.

but! thank u sm for asking!!! <333333

(warning: EDs + trauma/abuse + SPOILERS all mentioned. honestly now that im writing these out they don't feel that special, but... u know LOL. i don't see them talked about enough)

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Idk how really to start LOL and some of this it's possible I've said before

First and foremost, I think he's a super neat person. Aggressively neat... as he definitely rings as a character who's weird upbringing with his weird parents in a weird shack has made him super concerned with not living in squalor

He's not gonna be mean to people about messes, though. He understands why they occur and what they symbolize... he's just not gonna tolerate any kind of dirtiness in his own house

Similarly, he eats/enjoys food for some of the same reasons.

His parents weren't able to provide him with anything substantial + I doubt the commission really provided him with anything other than meal plans... so eating is an escape from that

He has a line that clues us into this too (and I can find it if anyone wants) but I'm forgetting it right now

I don't want to say it's binge related but it's definitely disordered eating of some sorts, where like... if you offer him food, no matter the time or place, he's eating

And though he's lean for work, he'd probably have more of a stocky build if you left him to his own devices (because he’s also somewhat. Short)

Also... Hawks IS a deeply kind + thoughtful person... but he's not kind because he's naturally kind, he's kind because he chooses to be kind

It's a specific thing, I think... where he makes choices that he doesn't really like for the sake of it being right / what he believes in

But just because he puts a happy face on it all or it seems like he likes you... doesn't mean that his internal feelings match

So he's a lot more mean when you get to know him... which is shocking because he never actually does anything mean. Just says mean shit and speaks his mind in private and it's all weirdly depressing

And all acts of frivolously are extremely calculated, too. Even if there is truth in his declaration of "I want to live in a world where Hero's have free time"

He does, just. Can't

Similarly, he's also like... lazy... in a way that makes him hard to interact with

Again, not mean exactly but you can almost never get favors out of him or rush him because he's just gonna do stuff his way whether you like it or not

(This is dumb, but for example, you ask him to start planning for your vacation and... No. He's gonna plan when he wants to plan.)

And he also never explains anything to you and deals with all his problems by himself, so... you just have to trust that things will work out with him

Doesn't matter if it's when he plans to do something or what he's struggling with... it's personal. You get left out of it

And not intentionally, either... he's just incapable of letting someone help carry his burdens. EVEN if/when he loves them

So, TL;DR: what I'd fight over is Hawks being seen as a superficial person who doesn't value the significance of kindness or privilege. I definitely think we never really get to talk about his internal dialogue or struggles which are SO painful given that he is literally willing to sacrifice and kill for the benefit of society despite it being wrong. Also, he's a dick.

Hope this makes sense tho and thank u for asking!!! Again, I love u, tee hee.