#do you even feel like that's a job?
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you know i'm also glad i was able to be a long-term sub for a para at the middle school for the last few weeks of the last school year bc once people's typical college semester ended, getting jobs in the sub management software fucking sucked. all these fuckin college kids popped outta nowhere and crept into every corner and everything was like you had to grab it as soon as possible, which is also just the worst bc like, summer is around the corner and that's 2 months where i don't get to earn that regular income.
and i have an odd resentment for the college kids who sub for that short gap between may and june and i dont know why. is it jealousy? is that a proper word for it? morally i know they are doing NOTHING wrong, and if anything they are doing good bc they're ACTUALLY WORKING!!!! like the sub shortages for the rest of the school year is fucking crazy. the few ppl who actually do show up to sub on a regular basis (AKA old retired teachers and me) get pulled in every which way and frequently don't even get a full half-hour break. i guess i just feel like, it must be nice for that job to be a convenient short-term thing for them. bc it's not, for me.
perhaps i feel some sort of pride in being useful and reliable at my shitty little unglamorous poorly-paid job in a public school district. perhaps i do. where were you college students in the dead of february right before the winter break week and peak flu season? huh? where were you? in your DORMITORIES? i bet. well i was here. in the hall
#spongebob hall monitor voice: IN THE HALL!#tales from diana#i don't know i guess there's also an aspect of: usually i am the youngest adult in the building#and i am not very far from their age group (but rapidly growing out of it hahahahaha 25 cries)#but i don't relate to their situation at all#i have student loans from community college i'm paying and i'm trying tentatively to finish my bachelor's#little by little#idk it's easy for me to feel like typical 4-year college students are unrelatable to me#i resent the normative expectations of higher education so much#i don't like being grouped in w them#ppl i chat w at work year-round are generally pretty familiar w me and know that that's my thing#what even is subbing to you if you do it like 3 weeks a year right before summertime?#do you even feel like that's a job?#or is it as serious to you as like. running a lemonade stand? it's just a quick gig?#nothing against quick gigs in fact i would encourage more ppl to just take up subbing to *try*#bc they could be very helpful to their local community#i got one of my friends who was curious about it to try it very briefly. he decided not to come back LOL#but he tried it! which i have to respect#so why do i hate the college students? oh idk. maybe theyre just ugly buttfaces
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I think one of the biggest tragedies of Laios & Falin and their relationship is how much his actions impact her life. But like. Specifically how much they WOULDN’T impact her life as much if they weren’t both stuck in such a shitty abusive situation.
This part of the Falin-tries-makeup daydream hour comic is what got me thinking about it again because truly it just... it seems like such a like an offhand comment that I'm sure Laios didn't mean to be cruel or anything. That's just like. A little kid not thinking about what they are saying. ESPECIALLY when the kid in question is Laios.
But man they depended on each other SO much as kids. Too much. It really feels like they didn't have any other source of positive reinforcement, or anyone else to share themselves with. So of course an offhand comment like that has a huge impact on Falin.
Or this little bit from one of the flashbacks:
This tears me apart. Do you think it tears him apart to think about? I think it does. I think Laios holds every small failure to care for Falin against himself.
And then there's the Bigger stuff. The way that him coping with his own trauma ended up impacting her.
Like his interest in monsters. Like him going to find a ghost, and accidentally revealing Falin's magic to the whole village in the process.
Like him needing to leave. And leaving her behind.
He shaped her life so much, and he carries so much guilt for it. And again, there should have been other people there to help. The same things that made Laios need to leave home are the things that made his leaving so hard on Falin. She ate alone after that. She shouldn't have had to eat alone just because Laios wasn't there.
She was 9 when he left for school, and he was 11.
Nine. And Laios feels like he failed her because he didn't stand by her through this better. As an eleven year old.
Both of these kids deserved so much better from the world.
#dunmeshi analysis#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#falin touden#laios touden#dungeon meshi spoilers#AND this isn't even getting into her leaving the academy & how much it seems like that was directly tied to how poorly he was doing#there's a comic in the adventurer's bible where marcille is like 'yeah she had a job lined up and everything'#and like. do you think he feels bad for that too#like he wrecked her life by leaving#and wrecked her life by showing up#what do you even do at that point. if you feel like a failed protector when you are away & and a burden when you return#unable to make yourself accept. unable to make yourself resist#Laios strongest moment is when he lets himself accept that. the contradiction of his life & his relationship with Falin#that he has to kill her to save her#as a small note this came out a little more focused on Laios' POV with this stuff but Falin's experience of it is v important to me too#didn't mean to sideline her but her feelings about stuff are more speculative and probably need a post of their own
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i am losing my entire shit right now, this single panel caused a nuclear disaster in my ig comments when someone said "halsin just saying 'astarion's partner' instead of his name feels icky"
which is such a fucking reach by itself but descended into this in about 5 seconds
#ramble#i keep getting older but the fandom bullshit never changes#i'm in pieces rn i am begging this person to get some real problems#i feel like it's an offence to even MENTION the pyramid of harm/hate on this???? like that's a Thing#but offhandedly referring to someone as 'person-you-know's partner' isn't a MIGROAGGRESSION IT'S A DESCRIPTOR SFDHDKSSDK#am i on shutter island. is this real#literally every job i've worked. 'oh xyz's girlfriend came in today'. 'i met so and so's partner yesterday'#HOW DO I EXPLAIN TO AN ADULT THAT CALLING SOMEONE 'PERSON'S PARTNER' IS A VERY NORMAL WAY TO REFER TO SOMEONE THE OTHER PERSON DON'T KNOW#i know it literally doesn't matter but as like. a storytelling thing#in my mind halsin has probably known astarion a LONG ASS time and he WOULD know dorian. he went to the wedding akfhdfh#ashe does not give enough of a shit to remember people's names. he's been at that arena for 30 years and forgets there's even a hockey side#ALSO IT'S NOT REAL#i need to put my face in some moss i'm dying
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tfw you fall in love with the magicless prefect that keeps running around campus 🤦♀️
#aceyuu#just in case u cant read my shit writing ;#Ace: Y-you! Grim is doing a terrible job at taking care of you while I'm gone! Your hair is a mess... Let me fix it...#Yuu: “Thank you Ace.”#Ace: UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#twisted wonderland#ace trappola#ace trappola x yuu#twst#disney twst#twst ace#nyuudle#oc x canon#twst oc#twst yuu#my art#pupheart#2025#hi i love aceyuu so much i think abt them even tho im not even into twst as much anymore#something abt their dynamic kills me soooo good liikeeee fuckkkww#WHO DOES HE THINK HE ISSS#my yuu is constantly overworked cuz she feels like she needs to compensate. like she doesnt mind being burned out but theres a reason why-#-she always looks a little scrunkly. she has no time for self care she just helps people constantly no matter what#ace doesnt like that
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okay but what if. video game designer marinette...
#miraculous ladybug#marinette dupain cheng#this is brainstorming for one of my WIPs technically but#i increasingly headcanon marinette as realizing in university that fashion design isn't really what she thought it would be#and then having a crisis of what the heck do she wants to do with her life. and taking a long time to figure it out#and feeling like she's falling behind because all her friends know that now. and adrien even knows what he wants to do now#and he keeps reminding her of all the times she told him not to worry. that he'd figure it out in the end. but she's like IT'S DIFFERENT#and every time she finds something she finds 100 reasons she can't do it or won't like it--mostly cause she's sort of lost faith in herself#maybe i just want to project the mid 20s experience™️on her okay? KJBADFKJDKJBGFKB#BUT YEAH SHE'LL FIGURE IT OUT IN THE END#and i think she could get so into gaming. she can't decide if she wants to do more game design or art or programming aspects#so she tries out multiple different programs before settling into a job#but then she's a badass#do you see the vision?
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Peter Weir: ok this is the big finale and probably the most important moment in Todd’s whole story, showing the audience his growth from the shy awkward kid who couldn’t speak in class or participate in anything into this changed person
Ethan Hawke: don’t worry, I got this
Ethan Hawke: 🧍
#I love Ethan hawke but that was so silly the way he stood was so awkward like bruh 😭#you can feel Todd’s slight regret from acting out this rebellion and his awkwardness yet him pushing through it to take a stand and idk#it feels so Todd; like as much as I jest like Ethan hawke did such a good job portraying Todd as a character where he feels real even in#moments like that; like he is awkward and he may be doing this big thing but that doesn’t make him less awkward and like I think that’s an#important message for the audience that you can’t wait for confidence to take a stand; you just have to do it scared#you have to be vulnerable even if you are awkward about it because vulnerability and awkwardness are two sides of the same coin#dead poets society#dead poets fandom#dps#dps fandom#todd anderson#ethan hawke
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Curly's little blurb on his steam trading card just keeps reminding me he is a much more miserable person than people realize.
We don't get a lot of his thoughts, inner confliction that aren't bogged down by what Jimmy says or does. Even in the The Last One and Then Another, his dialogue is reflective, not the Curly before the crash but the result of everything. Parts of the him he was are there of course, but also disfigured and warped beyond recognition just like he is physically.
Curly really doesn't think much of himself and desires. He clearly chases fleeting moments of happiness. He doesn't really have prospects for himself, assumes in a similar way to Swansea, that if it should make it happy then he is happy. Though, he hasn't reached the point Swansea did to admit it doesn't. He neither sees the glass half full or empty, it's just water, something he needs and he'll take it from any perspective.
He wasn't running from anything but he's never really been going towards something either. He's listless. I've been using the term complacent to describe how he feels about his life and the closest people (really just Jimmy) in it, but now that word feels too neutral, too nice. Happier than Curly really was. There isn't just one word for it, he's unfulfilled, uncertain, uninspired. There are no active problems he faces and that's the issue, why should he be upset?
I believe he really is a person who doesn't know who he is or wants to be. He follows a structure. I don't think he's suicidal, but he clearly doesn't think about what makes him happy. He's numb. I suppose that is a better word than complacent, used to the feeling even if he hates it. It doesn't hurt so why stop it?
#like curly is very much does his job goes home takes care of self repeat i dont think hes like an asocial person but he doesn't take the tim#time to indulge in himself the way he thinks hes a bigger picture guy so as long as nothing is disrupted hes relatively okay even if its#slowly chipping away at him and making him feel hollow like he thought space was endless that he could never reach a point of feeling finis#he never had to predict what to do after the end and suddently he realizes there was no end to it because there cant be an end to nothing#hes accomplished so much objectively but hes done nothing with his life outside of his work like he mentions no hobbies other friends or an#thing of the sort he doesn't even feel like he can vent it cause what? hes complaining about how hard it is to get promoted to have securit#in a job you hate and a position that keeps weighing you down like I feel like if he explained himself at the party and didn't let Jimmy t#talk for him hed actually have made points the others would get cause even if they envied his position he still is justified in being unhap#not everything that you think would bring you happiness does or fulfills even a small part of that desire#idk hes a lot more fucked in the head but like towards himself than people realize like how he lets Jimmy treat him is indicitive of that i#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#captain curly#curly mouthwashing
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Let the revenge games begin.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#jin guangyao#nie huaisang#He's gonna call his 5 horse friends up. They have to go on a 14 year long journey to finish the job but by god they will do it.#The sheer chaos in the Audio Drama is really fantastic. Reminds me of those traincar murder mysteries.#The lights go off and there's a scream and then BOOM dead body. Who did that!!!#Okay it was qi deviation and he did it to stop himself from killing his brother. He did it to himself.#JGY sadly has the worst alibi ever though. Both the strongest motivation and also uhhh presence at the scene.#Not to nitpick but as someone who loves murder mysteries - I do feel like even *one* other suspect would have made it stronger.#I get that he tried to make it look like an inevitable Qi Deviation and that it *is* something within the family legacy.#And a big part of NHS figuring it all out comes down to his own perceptiveness and intelligence.#If you weren't close enough to JGY and NMJ of course it looks like an accident.#Sadly 'guy who plays the 'poor little meow meow card'' is also weak to 'guy who plays the 'poor little meow meow card''.#NHS was the better subtle manipulator at the end. That's probably the strongest mystery part of MDZS. And why he's in my top 5.#My man pulled the 'kill him just as he falls from the top of his game and loses everything' gambit and I love him for it.
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#a doodley#i had to make this blue so tumblr would stop hiding it from the dash#anyway no caption this happened 2 hrs ago#im happy abt my surgery but it and other things this year keep beinging conversations like these up#and i cant handle it at all.#everything my dad tells me just makes me feel worse and not bc its anything bad but bc I Feel Bad#like the conversation then continued to him being like no dont cry im just saying i wpuld have wanted to#quit my job decades ago and set aside money so I wouldnt be struggling as much now but that didnt happen#and i just dont want that to happen to you guys :)#so we have to support u so that your life is what u want it to be#and i cried even more bc what do u mean. thats so sad. ur a person and u were a child and baby once and ur gonna die#and you always almost cry when u talk about your mom who passed away decades ago#and your brothers that passed away#recently and im going to be your age and still sobbing bc i miss my dad. just like i have been prematurely crying about since i was 7#the other day my dad asked my mom if i cried a lot when i was a baby/kid and my mom said no and then my dad#said that when i Did cry it was so severe he thought i would ''drown in my own tears''#bc i could never stop. like. thats still true today. ive been crying on and off since then#i think i mentioned he's just been telling me stories about his life lately and it further fuels this. i get so sad. im sorry your life was#like this. i dont want to die i dont want you to die im sad im sorry im sorry#im scared. im never going to see you again. how horrible. how horrible#i cant enjoy my day today bc every day is a day closer and i get sad
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(wips) who here likes serijose or joserei!!! *exactly three ppl in the crowd cheer*
#this is what a lack of new mp100 content is doing to me... im i feel like im digging into crumbs#YES i know joseph and reigen have never even spoken to each other but just think of the compatibility between them!!!#they both uhh smoke?? or at least reigen used to... anyway theyre both bad at their jobs and have similar smuggish personalities...#yea thats all i got sorry#i like to think they met when reigen was still working at the water cooler company... in fact maybe they where coworkers even... huh huh#actually that reijose belongs with a compilation im making where reigen flirts with like every man in mp100...#you could call it a hoe down throw down if you will#now what the hell do i tag these ships as#mp100#mob psycho 100#my art#mp100 joseph#serizawa katsuya#reigen arataka#serijose#???#joseseri#????????#reijose#joserei#fuck i dont know!!!!#wips#cw smoking
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What I'm hearing is that Davrin joined the Grey Wardens because he was lonely.
#Dragon Age#Dragon Age: The Veilguard#DATV#Veilguard#Davrin#something something you leave your clan because you feel like you don't fit in#but your new situation isn't really an improvement and you come to appreciate what you've lost#but you feel like the damage has been done so you can only move forward#you look for camaraderie in a group of warriors risking their lives to fight darkness who end their lives in darkness#now you have a sense of purpose‚ community‚ and can see the endgame clearly#something something your life has to have some grand meaning or what is even the point#and when that gets taken away? what then? how do you face just existing? for no particular reason?#remember when you were a little kid and you thought your adult life was going to be exciting? not boring like your parents'#and then you grow up and you're just a regular adult and it's nothing like the cartoons and shows and books you liked#maybe you're not even a particularly cool adult#you do your regular adult job or whatever and everything feels quite mundane#and you look for some meaning somewhere in there#hmmm
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The thing no one ever considers while writing up character analyses about Merlin is that. he must have been sooooooo sleepy.
#I see everyone talking about the nuances when you look at Merlin through [x] lens#BUT WHAT ABOUT THE SLEEPY LENS#WE CAN’T KEEP SLEEPING ON THE SLEEPY LENS#(can u tell I'm exhausted)#see this reads as if I'm joking but I'm actually being SO serious. I think the lack of rest was a significant factor in Merlin's conduct#IF he got a solid 8 hours of sleep + 2 hours minimum JUST to himself everyday uninterrupted... I just know things would turn out different#like it isn't even asking for much. decent sleep + a frankly sad amount of down-time. and yet. I know he didn't get that w those 3 jobs#ugh#he must have been TIRED do you hear me#even applies to morgana she looked tired tbh. those prophetic dreams probably weren't great for restfulness. sad what she did but#she did seem sleepy#okay ignore this I am going through it. extrinsic intrinsic coagulation pathways have gotten to me if u know what I mean#actually wait no if anyone sees this don't ignore it#HE MUST HAVE BEEN SO SLEEPY and everyone must understand. SLEEPy.#I hope I do not wake up and reread this and wonder why I posted this. but like I feel like I am the correctest person on planet earth rn#I've been thinking abt merlin's nap deprived state for years now tbh#merlin#bbc merlin
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GLAD EVERYONE ENJOYED THE ANDROID INFO UPDATE ABOUT INTERFACING DFGJNDGKGNMXGHNCBNM
#dbhc#dbhc sillies#the shepherd#my sona#art escapades#IM DEAD#dbhc doc#dbhc etho#there was a point I was working on pt 6 and I realized I never. talked about it#and I was like oh my god only detroit fans are gonna. know#erm#I should really do something about that#THERE WERE A FEW PEOPLE WHO CALLED IT OUT BEFORE PT 6 EVEN DROPPED#LIKE#‘hm. interesting you added that last part. interesting. hm. hm.’ LMAO#glad it did it’s job#I wanted to emphasize in that post how like. NOT OKAY it is to force interface with someone#it’s very… idk if violating is the right word but I think it would feel very invasive/uncomfortable#if it’s not something you asked for yknow#ANYWAY IM INSANE#etho and doc WILL make up. eventually.#if I may. doc ‘no we aren’t telling anyone what happened. it’s not a threat to them anyways and this isn’t the first time I’ve replaced this#arm. it’s nothing the other hermits need to worry about’ 77#you better let xisuma comfort you. i dont know if it’s safe to have another guys trauma in your brain. you should get that checked out
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sending my love to people with slow processing speeds.
you should be allowed to take your time to do things and I am so sorry if people have ever made you feel like you can't.
you and your contributions are just as worthy as everyone else's, the speed in which you do them should not impact that.
I am so sorry if you ever been made to feel like you weren't good enough because you "couldn't keep up".
you are good enough. you are trying enough. there is nothing wrong with you and it's not your fault.
#saying sps because its a part of a lot of NDs! and imo the one that impacts me the most at least in jobs ect?#might make a post about it if anyones interested? i feel like its not spoken about that much as an ND thing?#but it's basically being slower to do things than others and it impacts everything!! but i feel its misunderstood?#ive found its the thing NT seem to have a hard time understanding? its the ive been pulled up on as a 'performance' issue throughout my life#even though its something that i... cannot control and am not even aware im doing??#anyway big love to people with sps!!#i see you i love you you are worthy <33#reminder#self acceptance#processing speed#letters to you
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Bezz for Sky Sport Italia
-“In the VR46 groupchat, when you talk about the new Ducati riders that are going strong, like Marc Marquez.. how is it (what do you guys think about it, how does it feel like)? The Devil wears Prada? Look at Marquez..? I just wanted to address this topic.
“Well, we talk about it much more in person than on our groupchat-
“But it doesn’t go unnoticed. (You do talk about him)
“No, we pay attention to everything. With Vale is difficult not to, he has always taught and still teaches us to pay attention to every detail, so we always try to understand everything around us. Marc is going very strong, and we watch him and try to learn from him.
“So he’s like a benchmark! (nice pun right there)
“He’s like a ‘tool’ that we can use… wait, it does sound bad, I mean he’s a rider, but he’s a rider that we can ‘use as a lesson’. We can look up to him, as if he was a teacher.”
#it isn’t in the video but he went on and said that he thinks even non-ducati riders look up to him bc he’s (then he started mumbling idk)#wdym they don’t talk about marc in groupchats do you think uccio told them to be aware of the hackers or some shit#bezz calling marc MARC#bezz calling marc a MAESTRO#INSANEEEEEEE#as soon as I saw this shit i started shaking and yelling#the interviewer was WILD#feel free to kinda help me in the comments with translation bc it’s 10am and i just watched marc fuck up the quali#THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA??????#new level of insanity unlocked! good job bezz#they also asked him how he is doing since pecco is getting married and luca is having a baby and he was like. i have a dog#he also doesn’t have a stylist and he thinks you can tell#my cringefail daughter#i feel like i’m going crazy#marco bezzecchi#marc marquez#marcmarc#motogp#marc <3
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girl you are always going through something
i live an interesting life what can i say
#tldr dont apply for a grad program right out of college that u dont know much about on a whim bc you feel like u need to when u are doing#a job that is entirely unrelated to that subject just cause u think it might be interesting#everyone who tells u that if you want to go to grad school u will eventually and dont need to do it right out of college is correct#not a tag#from saph#anyway!!!!!#saphs not so hot take of the evening
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