#difficult sometimes

[cepheusgalaxy]

Thank you:)

I'm at the weird thing where like I don't dislike the sound of sex but it doesn't exactly appeal to me either but I do feel like it could maybe be fun? Like I know it's supposed to be 18+ but I have read some smuts cause ad silly as it sounds I wanted to know what was going on (that sounds so stupid). Like I knew what sex is obviously we did that in school (however they never actually mentioned anything about people not wanting sex or about different sexual orientations either which is already dumb enough and I'm a lesbian so it was kinda just a really awkward discussion of "when a man and a woman love each other they have sex" and even at the time 12/13 year old me went well that's silly what if u don't want to have sex, I was also already out as a lesbian at that point so I was like this means nothing to me🤣) but like I still somehow knew how sex worked for different secualities and what not(not entirely sure how cause I never googled it or was taught it but I just knew somehow? Probably TV idk) but it was more of like a How's it in a casual sense instead of like over dramatic movies having these grand affairs or schools awful SRE lessons.

Anyway that was a long way of saying I read it and it sounded alright:/ like the whole feeling good idea sounds nice but like not that big of a deal, I'd probably rather have a back message or something.

But like I don't think id be against it either or for all I know I'd somewhat enjoy it. But either way I wouldn't wanna just hook up with people you know? To me that just sounds weird,like "hi I know I just met u but wanna have sex?"I personally don't get that (no offence to anyone who does hookup obviously, if that ur style go u!) So how would I even know whether I would like sex? Wait till I'm far into a good relationship have it then go sorry that was weird dunno about doing that again? I don't like the sound of that,it would be awkward and I wouldn't wanna ruin a decent relationship. But then again I could just be a top and not have to do anything myself and just give my potential future gf a nice time? But then again judging by smut and the too much information people at college day that I don't particularly want ro hear,there's a lot more than just fingerings, and like oral that sounds yucky. Like idk but I don't think that would taste nice, so again even if I'm not anywhere on the spectrum (although the more I think about it the more I think I might be but idk) I wouldn't wanna do that.

And im really sorry if this is like wat too much information but it just confuses me and there's no one I really can talk to about it. I know it's just a label and doesn't define me or anything but I feel like it would be nice to be able to easily explain it ams that if I ever did get into a decent relationship I would be able to go into it knowing this and they wouldn't expect anything from me I wouldn't be wiling to do.

The other thing is I unfortunately feel like I don't know enough about the situation, I didn't even question it until probably the last year or so, I always assumed no one else felt sexual attraction at this age (as I said idk if I wouldn't necessarily mind certain parts of sex, occasionally it feels like it could be appealing but not really but I've also never looked at anyone and gone damn I'd like to have sex with them) but yeah I never really thought to look into it all that much and now that I have I still feel like I know nothing at all, Google had the worst explaintions and they always contradict each other. But it thought maybe someone online as a part of the spectrum themselves who seems to have a far better understanding of it than I do could help. And again thank you so much and I'm really sorry how long and awkward this ask is (feel very weird saying all this)

Oh I'm glad to be of help. Getting to your other ask in a bit btw!

[jessiesjaded]

Losing my mind at seeing Twitter Discourse where a girl talks about being a waitress and how sometimes people don't acknowledge her or reply to her at all when she speaks to them and how it feels dehumanising and all the people in the replies are like UM. SOME OF US HAVE /SOCIAL ANXIETY/ You're literally an evil person for wishing people would treat you with bare minimum decency :/ like idk how to tell you this but if a waitress asks how your evening is while she's taking you to your seat in a restaurant and you're gonna pretend saying "Fine, thank you" is a horrific arduous task like. Maybe you're just a massive cunt? Maybe you're just an insufferable fuckwit?

[theabigailthorn]

"Good" Acting

i have a theory that a lot of people say acting is "good" when they're emotionally moved by it, and a lot of cishet white people have a lifelong habit of not listening or empathising when minoritised people speak, so minority actors get called "bad" even when they display some pretty fucking amazing technical skill

[umblrspectrum]

i got lazy in the second panel

[harumichiii]

SAILOR MOON S: Episode 18 - 「芸術は愛の爆発!ちびうさの初恋」

[time-woods]

later:

teach your local invasive species what emotions are !

i feel like scarab is more into the main plotline of the medieval drama but prismo on the side writes these oneshots between the characters and theyre usually just exploring the characters emotions/ personalities in a free form way. anyways kiss ur local invasive species at dusk

[shinynewmemories]

Listen to me Suzanne Collins did not have to give Katniss and Peeta a history before the games. She did NOT have to do that. She could have just had their story begin when Peeta's name was called. She could have had them be total strangers until the moment of the reaping.

Like: "And the boy tribute is... Peeta Mellark!" Katniss: Who's that? Or she could have made them vaguely familiar with each other! Peeta's name is called and Katniss just thinks, Oh, I know that name! He's in my class, actually. Poor boy... Anyway!

Either way, SC could have written the rest of the story exactly the same! I think many authors would have done that! Because if Peeta's purpose in the book was to be Gale's competition, to be one of the 3 corners of a love triangle, THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN THE WAY TO DO IT!! But that's NOT how she did it because that's NOT what Peeta is.

And who is he? To Katniss, Peeta's someone who saved her and her family and received nothing in return except a beating. Peeta's someone she has had her eye on but has never worked up the courage to talk to. Peeta's someone she associates with kindness and hope. And all this before the start of the events of the book! Just because WE, the READERS, met Gale before Peeta and immediately felt a connection with him does NOT mean that was Katniss's experience! And that's what SC is trying to tell us!

To dismiss Katniss and Peeta's past as unimportant or inconsequential compared to whatever Katniss and Gale have in the present is to fundamentally misunderstand Katniss as a character and, as a result, condemn oneself to never fully understand the choices she makes in the future.

Suzanne Collins wrote it that way on purpose because she had something to say. And no one will ever be able to convince me that something wasn't "It was always going to be Peeta".

[tubbytarchia]

got an urge to design ponies oops

[abyssal-ilk]

thinking about sten again. thinking about him calling the warden kadan and never explaining what it means. thinking about him offering to take the warden back with him to par vollen, but it's never actually an option the warden takes, even if you agree. thinking about how sten responds the best to a warden who stands their ground even if he doesn't agree with them. thinking about how he loves sweets and art, and how he plays with kittens. "it's training," he says. but come on. he's playing. thinking about what else he's had to justify to himself for liking.

and he calls alistair kadan! shale as well! do you think it was ever extended to the other party members? just,, agh

[fernsnailz]

sorry these kinds of comments have been really pissing me off recently lol

[helenedraws]

- and the tension finally snapped.

[anglerflsh]

the brightest student of the Magic Academy

[yeehawpim]

I just assumed "High-Five Heroes" came from some hope for positivity, but Brennan talked about Kipperlilly pushing it on her group in this really cool interview and that gave it a p interesting extra dimension for me

[hajihiko]

The polycules are falling apart

[yo-yo-yoshiko]

The Bedside Manner Duo.

Bonus Poppys cause I had to really practice to figure out how to draw her waahah! Conventionally cute designs are hard for me....

[corviiids]

i think ive been so enamoured with tragedy and unhappy endings recently because it's so common for us to take comfort in the idea that we're okay because we will be okay, you know, the whole "it'll be okay in the end and if it's not okay it's not the end" type thing, this desire to put our faith in things turning out eventually, and that's why people sometimes get upset if something doesn't have a happy ending that gives them closure. but i honestly think there's something equally or even more comforting in having to cope with the fact that in reality the happy ending can't always be counted on. in trying to accept that fact, you're sort of forced to find your comfort and meaning elsewhere, which is what tragedy is asking you to do. if you know a story is going to end badly, can you still invest in it? can you survive it for as long as you're asked to? because then you have to concede that the things that happen and the lessons you learn during the story still are meaningful and fulfilling even if they don't culminate. if the story is unfinished and the threads are loose and you don't get closure, can you still find a way to let this frustrating and unfinished experience mean something to you? you kind of have to. can you be okay with it if you aren't able to believe that things will be okay in the end? without looking forward, can you be okay right now