#did i just vent 😨

[nostalgic-muffins]

sighhh why cant satan obey me be real so he can hold me close n give me a big ol smooch on the forehead n tell me everythings gonna be ok

[maxdurden]

i got that kind of mentally ill swag where everyone in my life knows that i need to be medicated except my therapist ✌️💕🌎

[zikkytheblicky]

Hey I wondered if you could do Angel dust x Angel!male reader like his reaction to see a real angel ?

if you want,you can ignore this <3

this anon is so nice omg :( such a sweetheart i’m gonna call them sweet anon :3

anyway, ya ofc!! this might be a lil short cuz im doing this at 10 pm and im tired but ya!! its gonna be story format + headcannoning cuz why not :3 I MADE READER OBLIVIOUS BTW!!

angel dust has never seen an angel. not once, not twice. the only thing he’s ever seen closest to an angel was lucifer morning star but he’s technically a fallen angel.

so when he saw you for the first time he was very shocked- especially since you were so beautiful..

you were talking to Charlie and introducing yourself as one of Adams’ body guards. you were there with Charlie to help determine if Charlie’s idea was even possible.

so obviously, for your charlie’s sake, he was on his best behavior.

you brung your hand up to your lips and let out a laugh as angel cracked jokes to you as he told you stories about his life(?) in hell. “and then- then he-“ angel was laughing so hard he could barely continue- ignoring the knowing smirk husk sent his way. the damn cat. he knows everyone too well. maybe angel should stop venting to him while drunk (not like angel chooses to. his drunken, depressed state during those hours are never in his control.).

angel had ended up getting really confused on your anatomy- questioning how you can fly and why you have a halo over your head- keep in mind this man died in 1947 of an overdose and is in his thirties ☠️ he’s been in hell since 1947 and has NEVER learned about angels at all. the only thing close to angel anatomy he learned is how lucifer has yellow hair and has a kinda angelic color scheme (all angels obviously don’t look alike but angel has never seen another one besides vaggie but he doesn’t know she’s one).

“‘m/n’?” angel asked as his eyes followed the way your feathers twitched every millisecond from the uncomfortable stares at them. “yes?” “why do you have a halo over your head?” “ANGEL.”

angel likes you in a week. A WEEK. he fell so hard im telling you bro. like just one look into your eyes and he’d kill all three of the vees for you if you asked him to.

he surprisingly doesn’t act downbad in front of you. i know people like to think angel is bold and flirty but to me i think that’s just his persona and not his true self. he keeps up a persona so he never gets his trust broken again? maybe? idk. but i js believe he’d be shy and not really know how to flirt with you like he does with husk and alastor and sir pentious; so smoothly and easily.

think about how he had tried to flirt with you before but ended up just becoming a stuttering mess when you took his flirting literally.

“hey toots~ did you fall from heaven?” angel dust said in a seductive tone, grabbing your chin and tilting your face up at him. “huh? no.. i’m not a fallen angel..! are you saying i’m like lucifer?” “HUH WHAT- no- no! not like that at all! i was trying to- to..” angel stuttered his words, waving his hands around (bring careful not to accidentally hit you, of course). “to what?” “to.. just joke around! you’re so oblivious ‘m/n’, im going to punch you.” angel said in an affectionate tone, slinging his arm around your shoulder. “why? what did i do?” you asked politely, too politely. now angel felt bad. angel mentally screams.

sometimes you think angel’s mad at you when he’s playing around with you on text.

he ends up getting mad at himself most times

angel was smashing his head into a table and cursing all the overlords because of this btw.

alr thats enough bye bye!!

this was so rushed omlll. 😨

[ivediedmorethan20times]

Obey me characters as convo’s I’ve had with friends

Asmodeus: If you have a boyfriend, and he says you can’t use his balls as beauty blenders- 

Satan: *Leaves VC*

Lucifer: Why is it in Korean?

Leviathan: Are you homophobic or something?

Asmodeus: Prepare your balls

Barbatos: For the love of fuck it was 4AM when you sent that 

Diavolo: A dog trotted up to me in public and very slowly took a burrito from my hand. He thought he was being sneaky 

He was

I didn’t notice it at all

I feel violated 

MC: L take skill issue 🫵

Belphegor: Is knowing gay lore gonna help me in college?

Mammon: Never know, it may…

Asmodeus: Could help you get laid. Idk about actually passing semesters though 

Satan: It’s creature! [Picture of cat]

Beelzebub: Car🤤

Satan: …Why are you like this 

F!MC: I just finished my period 

M!MC: Nope it’s gonna surprise you 

F!MC: Huh?-

NB!MC: NIGHTMARE NIGHTMARE NIGHTMARE NIGHTMARE

Belphegor: WHY ARE THE SHADOWS MOVING AGAIN

Beelzebub: It’s me 

Belphegor: Is that why it’s built like a Cheeto

Diavolo: Bed bath and behind you 

Barbatos: Do your homework

Diavolo: Nuh uh 

Solomon: You’re a man, let ‘em dangle 

Simeon: Let what dangle😨

Solomon: *Leaves VC*

Simeon: *DMing him* SOLOMON LET WHAT DANGLE

Diavolo: Do you see that vent, Lucifer? I know it’ll be hard, being sus, but you need to-

Lucifer: Kill yourself 

Diavolo: Ok😔

Asmodeus: Sol, Sol

🎁

Open the box 

Solomon: *Opens box*

Asmodeus: 🍆

HAHA ITS MY WEINER 

Diavolo: Lesbian rats‼️

Barbatos: WHERE

Lucifer: MC

MC

MC RESPOND

MC: Rat lord

What do you desire

My l i e g e

Belphegor: Oh wait of course Lucifer and Diavolo are sitting beside each other

Satan: Faggots

Belphegor: yawns out in a very loud and dramatic manner

Lucifer: Please do not tell me you just woke up

Belphegor: If I did?

Lucifer: IT IS 4PM FOR YOU

Asmodeus: Seethe

Fucking S E E T H E

Satan: IT AIN’T FUNNY

IM ON EDGE DUDE

Don’t joke about the edge thing

Asmodeus: WHY YOU EDGING oh ok

Diavolo: 🐌Snail :D

Belphagor: Kill it

Satan: Run it over

Belphegor: Stab it repetitively

Diavolo: NO D:

Mammon: Garlic toast incident 

MC: Garlick*

Mammon: Garlick💔

MC: I thought you were lonely ngl👍 I mean you are but,,,

Mammon: WH AYE SHUT YOUR MOUTH PLEBISCITE

MC: Permission to bite

Lucifer: Permission granted

MC: Huzzah

NB! MC: Woah, is that- Masquerade Butterfly🤔 by👆 Miura Ayme‼️

(Any) MC: His songs are so dick suckable🤤

Lucifer:😨

Mammon:😨

Leviathan:😨

Satan:😨

Asmodeus:😨

MC: THE UNISON WAS FUCKING IMMACULATE

Mammon/MC/Leviathan: I can skibidi explain‼️

Lucifer: I will skibidi kick your ass‼️

[wilsons-three-legged-siamese]

before i get started, i do not post anything to do with political issues in the world.

i am not being hateful, i just simply do not know enough about it. im very uneducated on it and id rather not get into politics online. thank you. x

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pronouns: he/him

gender: trans masc

sexuality: bisexual

age: im a minor !!

birthday: june 2nd

zodiac: gemini

MBTI: INTP

fandoms: house md, dead poets society,

swing kids,

jeeves and wooster, rsl, hugh

laurie, hamilton (musical & hi-

story, history mainly)

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requests. im a beta. but i am

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‼️ i only beta for poetry and

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i dont appreciate people being negative. like all the time. im extremely good at reading people, so if i feel like you are lying about your problems, i will block you. its happened too many times. my dms are open if you need to vent, but dont make it a regular thing. i have my own things to deal with, so i appreciate if you only vent a few times - make it occasional.

also please dont block me outta nowhere. i wanna know what i did, please.

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[superiorsturgeon]

Previous:

Blake: *has the dorm to herself, nestled into her bed with a tuna sandwich and a good book, firmly in her happy place*

Knock! Knock! Knock!

Blake: *gets up with a sigh and opens the door* It never fails…right when I get comfortable! 😒

Ren: Hello, Blake.

Blake: Ren? Did you need something? Where’s Nora?

Ren: That’s…actually why I’m here. May I come in?

Blake: Um, okay, I guess? What’s wrong?

Ren: *suddenly uncomfortable* …so…you may have noticed that Nora and I are…somewhat close?

Blake: *stifles a snort* I hadn’t noticed?

Ren: Lately…it’s become more obvious that she wants more from our relationship…for us to be together-together…but…

Ren: …I’m not sure if I can…satisfy…her. Do you understand what I mean?

Blake: Wait, did you come to me for sex advice?

Ren: Yes, if you want to put it that way.

Blake: Sorry, Ren, but I’m not doing this again! Ninja vanish! *disappears in a puff of smoke*

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Blake: *ninja lands in the bushes outside the dorm window* 😮‍💨

Ren: *appears from the shadows beside her* Blake, please-

Blake: 😨

Blake: Ninja vanish! *disappears again*

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Blake: *slips behind a column in the courtyard*

Ren: *standing behind the column* Blake, let’s just talk for a minute!

Blake: NINJA VANISH!!

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Blake: *peeks over the edge of Beacon’s roof for any sign of pursuit*

Ren: *already on the roof* Blake, I can do this all day if I have to!

Blake: 😨

Blake: 😣

Blake: 😫

Blake: Fine, you win!

Blake: But I’m only doing this because you’re the most level-headed of my friends, so I’m trusting you to be careful!

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Nora: *groaning on ultrasound table*

Ren: *holding her hand and crying a bit*

Pyrrha/Jaune: *anxiously gathered around*

Beacon Nurse: …well, nothing seems to be ruptured, but you’ll have to eat soft foods for a while while your intestines recover.

Blake: *hiding in the vents to observe and document yet another sex accident* Holy crap, he literally rearranged her guts!

Next:

[kitfizzo]

The "this number is.." is a reference to idksterling.. theres nothing nsfw on here its all just innocent kissies and cuddles i promise 🙏

Ughhhh I'm waaayyy too autistic and depressed rn to say anythingg... ive got choir district on Saturday and its really stressing me out so im bringing my X plush for an extra friend to support me... autism who?

Also a stupid vent under the more lolol its funny if you need a laugh i guess

Someone on Pinterest saw my gore art and was like.. "dni" I GAVE A TRIGGER WARNING WHY DID YOU GO TO THE COMMENTS- and then on the htwins discord server i posted some adorable 4x art i got eight 🔥 reactions BUT SOME KID PUT A ROLLING EYES EMOJI- BROOOOOOOO THEY WERE JUST GIVING EACH OTHER A FLOWER WHY U HATTING 😭😭😭☹️😨❤️😭⁉️❤️☹️❤️🔥🤭🗣️❤️✌️🩸🙏❤️🗣️❤️❤️🤭 I SWEAR OSC KIDS ARE SO MEAN FR ☹️

[halfmoth-halfman]

OMGGG I'm sure you've heard this so much but the finale was SO GOOD HOLY SHIT. I started the fic a couple days ago and had to take a break from it bc angst was getting to me BUT I WAS SICK TODAY AND I BINGED THE ENTIRE THING AND HOLY FUCKING WOAH THAT WAS DIABOLICALLY GOOD.

ANYWAY I just had an idea for the epilouge:

you could make it so she's standing in her fathers office, just looking around the place and soaking in memories, when suddenly his fucking GHOST appears out of nowhere (like in that one chapter) and berates her for letting Graves treat her like that/letting his estate get fucked up - then she fucking DRILLS into him and he finally admits that hes proud of her or something. also I feel like if Canary brings up therapy to him he'd be like "what the fuck i did NOT raise you to be a pussy 😐💀"

also I kinda want more ghost content in the epilouge. i want that man to go to therapy WITH canary and they both vent about their problems and the therapist is just sitting there like "😨"

AAAAAAA YAY I'M SO GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT!!!!!

i know it def gets intense during the second half, but that's why i want to make sure there's an extra fluffy ending to make up for all the nonsense canary had to go through!!

saldkjasd adler does strike me as the kind of guy who would be like "you don't need therapy??? i never got therapy and i'm fine" while he is very clearly not fine. like i don't think he'd ever say canary was weak for getting therapy, but it's more like it's just something that he would never have considered.

ghost def needs therapy, but i think that's something he'd have to do on his own or would only feel comfortable going with support from soap or maybe roach. i can def see him getting the push to go while looking for therapists for canary tho!!! but i feel like if he and canary went together to the same therapist then that might be a bit too much for one person to handle LOL

[squirmydonnie]

Vent: 😨

I'm very addicted to sadness

Eat my face

Wear a helmet

Melted

I'm always worried about you.,, whoever you are

I'm just isolated

I'm just scared

I'm just sacred to hurt

Hurt someone maybe. I'm too scared of it

I don't do things I want or like. I'm just waiting for when I can.

I'm always waiting. But I can't just wait on my own.

I wait with my people. My fake people

The most vulnerable thing I could do is speak.,, not cry. I could cry. I cry all the time but that's not my most vulnerable.

It's my talking.

My talking that's broken. That doesn't work. It gets wasted.

I say things and their wasted.

I get tired of trying. Trying to say things.

Thinking things all the time.

I'm tired of thinking. Of knowing things.

I'm tired of no one knowing me because im to scared to tell them. Because it would be too dangerous.

I always think that if I were to tell you I would have to move in with the ink demon. An old friend I had from elementary school.

A real person. A nice person.

But I still don't want that. I want you to love what I really am not what I was. Not what I pretended to be.

It was always fake. All of it. Most of it.

I lied.

I was a liar.

7 year old liar.

And it wasn't my fault.

I don't like that food. I don't like doing this. I don't want 1000 jobs.

I did it for you. For all of you.

I don't blame all of you. That's unfair. I'm all for fairness. It's just that,, your not fair.

If I tell you that I lied back then, and I don't like this stuff. You believe me.

You don't make me into someone I'm not.

I'm not what you think I am.

And theres no way for you to know that because I won't tell you.

Bleh.

[bcbdrums]

I’m so sorry, I feel like I’m just venting at this point.

I just want to talk about this I think it will help me explain myself in a better way and maybe some of the ask I send you will make more sense?

I think the reason I came to dislike the Kim possible fandom and the ships in general is due to…well, the fandom in itself.

Ron and Kim are my favorite characters.

But I experienced this thing in the fandom where they had this weird mentality:

If Ron was their favorite character it usually meant they didn’t like Kim and the stories that focuses on Ron usually portrayed Kim as bad person just to ship Ron with any other characters, (over-focusing on Kim’s flaws and/or on events like her leaving him in the janitor closet) there were a few exception to this, but even in this kind of stories Kim didn’t felt like Kim at all.

And I’m sorry for mentioning him again, there was this guy, this person. (I’m pretty sure we all know him) They had like 20 accounts to harass people? I don’t even know their name. They would pester anyone in the fandom about Kim/Ron and ugh. It was awful. And… I am saying this as a former KimRon shipper the fandom was a living hell.

That person takes the cake as the worst interaction I’ve had with anyone in any fandom I’ve been in.

But that’s just KimRon what about other ships?

Well, if the person identified with Kim and shipped her with Shego they would usually potray Ron in an awful way, ranging from flandarizing his comedic-relief moments, to portraying him as a bad boyfriend to (in the worst cases) portraying him as full blown abusive person.

The most immediate example I can think of: The current admin of the Kp wiki LoveRobin? Who is a very hardcore Kigo shipper. what happened is that when I first joined the fandom back in 2017 I had a- how do I call it? A “friendly” debate? Even though I could never make her see any of my points, at least she kinda? remained civil about it (for the most part)

It was initially about Drakgo, but then she changed the topic back to Kim and Ron and she randomly ended up comparing Ron to a rapist, and I was like ??????? (It was back in 2017 I was 17, when I stumbled upon the thread and it was so out of the left field) and then that guy found the thread of the conversation somehow and the fight got so bad, and I think it prompted LoveRobin to included stuff into the wiki like “Ron never said “I love you” to Kim” and I think she did this as as a way to, I really don’t know? Retaliat? To attempt to disregard the ship? Maybe? idk.

And that was years ago and I tried to get back into the fandom and it somehow got worse?

I know this is old and everyone probably knows about this at this point, but has anybody read Ron stoppable wiki page recently? Why is it written like that? It’s so needlessly negative and mean spirited towards the character for no reason (I know why it’s written that way, the wiki admin is a hardcore Kigo shipper ) but damn. That’s sooo petty.

This isn’t even the worst part yet That person (the person obsessed with KimRon) started harassing LoveRobin and he escalated things even further and ended up revealing personal information (is that doxxing?) about LR and I was like 😨. And listen at that point I don’t care what you ship or what’s your thoughts on fictional characters/ships are. that kind of behavior is simply terrible, awful, deplorable.

I though this was my main issue: the awful way Kim and Ron were portrayed in the fandom, but then it somehow got worse? Add to all of this the most resent talk about the age difference and that sealed the deal for me. (It’s too much drama and I cannot/will not ship a relationship that consist of an adult and a teenager)

From being neutral about the ship and being open about it I ended up despising it. Kigo became such a Notp for me now, and I can’t even enjoy KimRon as much as I used to because of all the fights and the bad experiences I also had in the fandom.

And all of this interactions killed my enjoyment toward any of those ships. I’m not kidding when I say the Drakgo community was the best and most welcoming out of all the three.

I mean, you're hitting on things I've mentioned in other asks...

The fact of the matter is, there's some historic toxicity in this fandom. Some of it goes on today. Some if it has passed. (And of course it's not isolated to KP; some fandoms have been irreparably destroyed by toxic shipping behavior...)

I've only had a few toxic encounters personally in KP myself. One was right after Graduation first aired. Like many people, I immediately went to read fanfic because I was riding high on fandom excitement. But that is when I discovered...anti-fics. People would write what started out on the surface as a happy, genuine ship fic. And then partway through it would flip and turn into a ship-sinker. Sadly, the first KP fic I ever read was a Kim/Ron ship-sinker deliberate anti-fic. The writer didn't even try to hide it once the surprise turn came halfway through. But it scarred me, and I didn't come back to the fandom until 2019.

As a result, I personally missed out on a LOT of the toxicity. But I've heard tales from those who were there and are still around today... I've experienced a little myself... But yeah.

The fact is, deliberate anti-fics exist. And yes, the wiki is useless because it's controlled by shippers who rather than write fact, editorialize everything to make it seem like their ship is canon.

I wish people would just ship their ships... I'm glad you've found the Drakgo community welcoming! May I recommend as a quality Kim/Ron to re-ignite your passion, Snippets of Forever. And I also suggest looking in the fave section of writers you like on FFn? Usually a good writer faves other good stuff. That's usually how I find anything to read.

[manifestingmatcha]

Okay, so my team lead (47m) was making me (26f) super uncomfortable touching and caressing me every time he walked past my desk. He’s always given me a gross vibe since we’ve been here but today he really turned it up cause it’s his last day before changing sites. I dreaded asking him for help and the last time I did he came and laid his head on my shoulder and asked to see me without my mask on and was just wildly inappropriate. He KNOWS I don’t like it, I always pull away and am visibly disgusted and say stop! We are independent contractors doing travel contracts 🌎✈️, and getting someone in HR’s attention can be so tedious. Pretty much a different state (or 3) each month. I tell the girl next to me who I had befriended that he was making me uncomfortable and she just gives me a blank stare and as soon as I take my lunch she ran to him to tell him and warn him of any repercussions if i were to take action! I was shocked. Turns out altho she has a bf she cheats on him constantly and I think she may be fucking the team lead as well. Things I wish I had taken note of that may have tipped me off that we were incompatible as friends and do not share the same moral compass before I befriended her:

- she prides herself on being tomboyish and LOVES sports and watching the game at bars with men like ‘one of the guys’. When we went out to a bar she was screaming at the tv watching the game like a man.

- I now realize she thinks it’s cute to have a roster of men (low value included) and to have sex with them on a rotation, like being a player or a pimp. Female pumps are so classless and tasteless to me. She was annoyed one of her bfs was sending her paragraphs of adoration and asked me if I WANTED him. Like an old pair of sneakers! Just offered up her boyfriend 😨

- she constantly says she is ‘so private’ but you can learn way too much from her IG bio and posts!

- she thinks it’s cute to be in her mind 30s and constantly clubbing and bar hopping

- yesterday she tried to make me feel bad for not being ‘hood enough’, speaking proper English and overall being bougie and constantly commented aloud and drew attention to how I’d drink Diet Coke, avoid processed sugars/junk food, and I eat charcuterie boards. So I started hiding my Diet Cokes in my lunchbox.

I thought because we are both in a six figure job and starting up small businesses that we’d mesh well and just have different personalities. But I may be wrong and I think it’s time to reel it in and re evaluate friendships on my journey. I have a very small circle with only the closest of friends and I think this was a reminder to continue to focus on me in my journey. The wrong friendships can cause us to regress.

Do you have any advice on approaching friendships and relationships as a young and affluent hypergamous woman from your experiences so far? It’s okay if not! I am the youngest by far on every travel contract and only older nasty men seem to have eyes for me, and it’s difficult to find equally minded young women to befriend. I am luxury apt hunting now, and looking to build my social circle to debut as an artist in a nicer area soon hopefully, and am trying to become a full time content creator eventually.🤍 and thank you for listening because I’m so private and this was really my only way to vent to someone🤍✨ have the *best* day.

Tbh I had to google the definition of hypergamy I don’t really subscribe to labels. I think it’s a red flag that she went and told your boss about the inappropriate conduct like women are supposed to support each other. There’s no such thing as being “not hood enough” or “too white” you’re literally just being yourself. She sounds like a toxic pick me that should mind her own business. I would just keep your distance from her keep it professional and cordial don’t tell her anything more than she needs to know. Focus on yourself your work and cultivating your other female friendships. I hope this helps good luck with your work and finding a beautiful apartment.🤍

[crowvainn]

sighh, big vent/rant abt my life issues bc im lowkey tweaking 💔

had a mental breakdown bc im stressed about what will happen to me in the futureeee (anxiety! how fun /sarc) and im really unhappy with the fact that my mom will never accept my gender identity (shes islamic…) and i genuinely feel like a piece of shit bc i seem to always act like a ungrateful and selfish bitch-

a couple days ago i had heartburn, because i don’t eat particularly well (binge eating and eating unhealthy food in general… i really try to not to do so but it’s hard :() and that made my mom pretty stressed and i felt horrible about it and im scared with the possibility that i could damage myself greatly.

i also generally act stubborn and, well, not the best- it causes her to be pretty snappy with me (which i understand, i just wish she isn’t so harsh) and when i was being very much random and like… i don’t fucking know, just me being a weirdo again- she said to me “something bad will happen in your life, mark my words” or something like that. im not sure if she actually meant that (bc we were already stuck in the rain at that time and had came back from a reoccurring meeting thing she doesn’t exactly enjoy… can’t really say here for privacy reasons-) but that freaked me out big time. like… sorry for just being who i am, silly and well, myself… like jeepers give me a warning before you drop something very much not good at all that makes me question myself deeply 😨

i really wish i could change how i act, even my identity, because i just wish that my mom accepted me. i wish i was a better person, i wish could meet her standards, i just wish that she supported me. but no, of course not. im sure she still loves me, even with me being a freaky goober, but she definitely doesn’t like how i am. i wish i can improve how i act for the better, but god damn that’s hard.

and with the fact that i have anxiety (i have a lot of symptoms, i can’t get professionally diagnosed, soo self diagnosed), anger issues, im super emotional andddd im stuck home with not much to do but be on devices n shit and just,, being alone with my thoughts a lot,,, i’ve just not been coping well, at all-

eugh… i wish school started earlier, so i’d be able to talk to my friends, as well as just being in a environment where im not??? alone with me myself and i??? this fucking sucks

i swear therapy would make me feel so much better, but im lowkey scared to talk about this to the counselors at my school about it, and i did ask my mom about getting therapy like a couple weeks back and she waved it off and said i didn’t need it… bitch you clearly know that im broken asf and you dont let me? :( ik it stresses her out but pleas….. do something that can help me feel better again aghhh

i also really hate that i have short term memory, and i can’t really understand some things correctly. it’s so damn annoying :C and with the fact that i was let on the internet at a pretty young age didn’t help either. like, fucking 2nd grade, is when i lost my innocence. god damn (then again, that’s when i moved to one of the other boroughs from queens, so. i got immediately exposed💀) and i was left unsupervised so much. im still on the internet a lot, and im not happy about that at all. but because of summer break, im stuck at home, andd i don’t have a lot to do besides basic chores, hw and reading. being on the internet is a escape from reality for me, but i really wish it wasn’t. im trying to do stuff other than being online but all the negative thoughts keep flooding back in my head… it’s literally so miserable even being online isn’t working to make those thoughts go away.

i feel dumb and useless. i feel like im a nuisance to everyone. i just wish i can belong, and i wish i was happy. im fucking scared of growing up, and im scared of what i’ll become. what the fuck will i even do when im an adult? i can’t fathom it at fucking all. im worried my life really will take a turn for the worst. (what if what my mom said is true…?)

i hate panicking. it’s starting to become more prominent :( and i’ve also been panicking with the thought of me being a therian, in which it’s like “oh no sam you might be a cambitherian or a therian and not animalhearted” to “no you can’t be either of those animalhearted resonates with you the most.” “righttttt…..?” and repeat. i don’t think i really identify as a cat at all but my brain is funky :< but like i do feel better with being cathearted. cats are my found family, but not my kin. if i had the ability to i’d def be a cat though. it would be a more stress free life 💔💔

now im using my ipad to take my mind off of the stress and rant abt this. welp… not helping that my ipad has a cracked screen and i have to get it fixed for the third time…. and that i have to deal with the hassle of moving soon… the only decent thing is me going to the beach on monday. maybe i’ll be a bit less active tomorrow. well i’ll try to- the summer reading homework isn’t doing itself…. sobbing

i feel like im typing gibberish now oopsies. its 11pm💀 sighhh I just hope things will get better soon, maybe when school starts again i’ll be able to cope better. (i feel like im repeating things a lot, but oh well)

[itsurgirlana]

Bro I need to know if I'm in the wrong in this.

So basically I was making dinner right and I had wanted to watch a movie with my sister and mom but when I was finished and ready my sister was deeply (wasn't even that dirty so idek what she was cleaning 😨) cleaning the bathroom and while im typing she still is...(💀) So I kinda got upset but I didn't let it bother me too much (it kinda did bc we barley hang out) and when I'm watching the movie with my mom she had to point out the way this girl walked. (She legit criticizes someone EVERY time she watches a movie and I'm on exaggerating. It's so draining like girl js watch the movie.) So she was like "y is she walking like that" and I said "y do u always criticize someone." Because it's honestly annoying. And then I felt a wave of guilt bc I don't usually talk to her like that I said "not in a rude way im genuinely curious" (i wasnt i js didnt want her upset or yell at me.) So she just ignores me and acts all nonchalant to everything. And she gets up and starts doing stuff like cleaning. Bro the movie is still on too so she just left me alone. And I asked if she was okay and she quickly said yes and went back to what she was doing. And I kinda found it rude. Then I go in my room cause obviously no one is hanging out with me. And she knocks on my door all mad saying "r u watching the movie?" And I said no bc she wasn't. And she legit yelled "well I got things to do, ugh ,nevermind."

I feel like an ass bc she always calls me mean. And the convo we had before was saying a lot. She said I always look sad, depressed, or mad.

I never hang out with them and when I do something always has to end up like this. I'm honestly tired of it. I miss when she would b nice to me when I was younger and when she wouldn't vent every day to me, and when she wouldn't criticize everyone she saw.

[southside-otaku]

So liiike am I the only one who just thought about Izana’s ringing in his ears is his DARK IMPULSES?!?!?!

Like the two Sano kids who look damn near identical have the same mental illness?! But it seems Izana knows like how to trigger those impulses ?? Sorta like because he says this hoping Mikey is empty and loses his shit has dark impulses.

Maybe Shinichiro was disturbed by Mikey’s actions towards Sanzu and vented to someone (Izana) about it one time hoping that in the future when all his siblings could be together they could all help each other or maybe Izana talked about it first and Shin thought he was helping ?? No clue but this seemed like INTENTIONAL AS FUDGE!!!

EDIT: not to mention he claims Shin was “painfully empty inside” and that’s why he wanted Mikey to be empty so he could be like Shin…..so did SHIN have dark impulses first?!?!?!😳😨

[ideks-on-mars]

ReonSemiShira PROM SCENARIO? I just remembered prom existed since i think im gonna have one by the end of the year. Tho i know japanese schools doesnt have those from what i remember BUT JUST FOR THIS YK

IT'S OK WE'LL JUST PRETEND THAT JAPAN HAS THEM LMAO

ANYWAYS REONSEMISHIRA PROM HCS LET'S GO!!!

- Let's start off with the fact that Shirabu ain't easy 🙄💅

- He dgaf if they're his boyfriends or some random men he met yesterday. HE WANTS A PROPER PROMPOSAL

- Nothing too big tho

- He doesn't want a marching band, but he doesn't want a "Oh, well I figured we were already going together cuz we're together"

- Treat him like bae, not someone you're still trying to win over or someone you figured the effort-needed parts would be over with once you got together ✋️🙄

- Reon's pretty low maintenance, you can come to him and just say "Hey, wanna go to prom with me?" And he'd be cool with that

- Doesn't mean he wouldn't appreciate some flowers or chocolate or something

- Semi's got his work cut out for him

- He's gotta ask out both his pretty boyfriends 😨

- Semi probably asks them to come to prom with him out in the garden

- Reon and Shirabu like flowers, and if they like it then he loves it

- Cue a pretty sunset in the back

- He brings them fresh flowers too tho cuz he's a gentleman 😪

- "Would you guys pretty please go to prom with me?"

- Reon is so excited, it's so cute 😭

- Reon takes his flowers before kissing Semi on his cheek and hugging him

- "Of course 😊"

- Shirabu shyly takes his flowers and rather leans into Semi than hugging him

- "I guess I could clear my schedule to go with you 🙄"

- That means "Yes, yes! A thousand times yes!" In Shirabu talk

- Mission complete 😎 style points to Semi

- Comes the day of prom and they're NERVOUS

- Reon calls his moms and older sister, they're the only ones he trusts enough to dress him properly 😭

- He goes to his little brother for opinions, he's brutally honest 💀 he means well tho

- Semi asks his oldest two little sisters and oldest little brother. They go to STZW too so they MUST have some clue on how they're gonna dress.

- Semi ends up going to his stepdad and older siblings, the three little shits did nothing to help him 😭

- Shirabu's the only one who knows how to dress himself 💀 (he calls his older sister anyway but no one needs to know)

- NOW FOR OUTFITS!

- They all wear suits cuz it's prom

- Semi's tempted to go in jeans 💀 someone stop him please

- I did my research for this one guys, be proud of me

- We'll start with Shirabu 👀

- Shirabu gets a nice English cut three-piece suit. He likes how professional they look 🤭

- The cuffs are two-button with an angle cut

- The lapel is a peak shape and thin, and his collar underneath is a classic style

- He wears gloves with the suit. The blazer waist is tapered, it has two buttons with only the top one looping through the hole, pockets are flap. Dual vents (tho pretty much all English cuts have that).

- The shoulders have a little padding but not much

- The waistcoat has a V shaped dip with two pockets and five buttons. It has a upside down v cut at the bottom under where the buttons end. He wears a tie with it.

- Now for the color

- Shirabu looks good in a lighter wine red 🤭

- He has a black tie and black gloves. His button up underneath it all is white. And his waistcoat, dress pants, and blazer are, again, light wine red

- Next, we have Reon's gorgeous self 😪

- ITALIAN CUT ITALIAN CUT ITALIAN CUT

- He's so handsome and sophisticated looking omg 😳

- He goes with a three-piece just cuz his sister told him they look more proper

- The cuffs are round and three-button

- The lapel is notch and thick, his collar for the button up is spread

- The blazer is tapered, pockets are slash no flap, and there are no vents in the back

- The shoulders are very padded, just shows off his great shoulders even more 😪

- The waist coat has a v cut in the top and the folds are asymmetric with five buttons in the shape of a v, only three of them holding the sides together. It has four pockets. He wears a tie too.

- COLOR TIME

- He goes with a nice Forest green for his suit, dress pants, waist coat. For the button up underneath he goes with black, the tie is also black

- He's so handsome omg

- NOW FOR SEMISEMI

- He decides to go without a blazer cuz he doesn't like how stiff they feel

- TELL ME WHY THIS MAN LOOKS SO SEXY IN A CAVALIER VEST

- It's black and blue with a black button up underneath and the vest has six silver buttons 🤭

- He wears a silver gothic cross necklace and he has silver earrings in too

- It all sounds great until you look down and he's wearing jeans. Baggy jeans too. Semi's a skinny jean hater 🤧 unless they're on his boyfriend's cuz then he can peep their asses better

- His button up collar is in a semi (Haha) spread style and his tie is silver to match the buttons

- ANYWAY

- Yeah, he wears black jeans with a silver chain, it's embarrassing 💀 but do your thing ig

- You can't expect too much out of him, he's Semi Eita 😭

- Semi and Reon share a dorm so Semi decides to get ready at Tendō's place 🥱

- "Do I look alright? Do you think they'll like it? What if they think I look stupid-" "Just shut up and go. We're gonna be late dude."

- Semi goes to get Reon first

- The way BOTH their jaws drop

- Semi's hands are IMMEDIATELY on Reon's waist

- They give each other a kiss kiss 😙

- "You look good, sweetheart :)" "Thank you Reo 😭 you're gorgeous as always"

- Semi's already a puddle on the floor and he's only collected one of his handsome boyfriends 🤧

- Reon's surprised that Semi even wore a vest 💀 maybe he should play the lottery

- They get to KawaShira's dorm and ofc Taichi's the one to answer it 🤡

- "Oh, I'm assuming you're hear to get Kenjirō? Also, Ōhira why'd you bring a clown with you?" "Fuck you, Taichi. I hope you trip in front of everyone." "Yes. We're hear to get Kenjirō. 😮‍💨"

- Taichi gives them both one last look up and down before returning inside his dorm to go get Shirabu. Muttering about how Shirabu's mom would have a heart attack if she found out he was going out with a guy who wears jeans with a vest to prom

- The next one at the door is Shirabu and ReonSemi are on the verge of tears

- Reon moves to kiss him first and Semi follows soon after

- "You both look nice. For a second there I almost thought you two were civilized men."

- Semi gives a dead pan expression and Reon just huffs a laugh

- They both make their way down to where the prom is taking place.

- It's taking place in a banquet hall cuz STZW is fancy like that 🤭

- They arrive at the place and they're immediately hit with loud censored music and a wave of hot air

- That's always fun

- They look around for a minute before hearing Tendō screeching at the top of his lungs from where he's at with Ushijima and Goshiki

- They do nothing but talk really until Kawanishi and Yamagata decide to finally show up 💀

- They take funny pictures with the team and they watch in disappointment as Tendō and Yamagata make a fool of themselves on the dance floor (at least they're having fun ✋️🙄)

- And Semi stops his boyfriends from getting any punch 😭

- "I wouldn't drink anything that's out in the open with Satori around 😮‍💨"

- ReonShira agree and slowly put their cups down

- They end up out in Semi's car riding around empty roads with the radio blasting

- They probably make out at some point too 🤡

- They return to ReonSemi's dorm and honest to God they are excited to get out of those suits 😮‍💨

- They strip and get some comfortable clothes before making a blanket and pillow fort together

- They all huddle together in it and watch movies before ultimately passing out in a mess of pillows, blankets, and limbs 😪

- And dw, they make sure to text their friends to let them know that they're safe 😙‼️

[iravaid]

When I see ur aus (love them so much) I just think

Lacroix: venting abt his sire

Nines who is just trying to hit: 😔☹😨😰omg thats so bad😭😭😨😰😭u free tonight??

You did it anon you cracked my nines/lacroix dynamic akfhkdksla 😭 this works for Literally All Their Iterations

LaCroix: *experiencing every misery known to man*

Nines, biting his lip: so like. Are you single? Aha

And then they get married and also divorced, love loses