#devianci

[subterra-rose]

[nadianova]

making games is great

[sharkgirldick]

Nothing will ever galvanize my belief in simply loving other trans people than encountering the stupid shit trans 4channers are saying about each other.

[sorryiliketoscreenshot]

[basicallyanotherwitchesthing]

Robert R. Bell - Social Deviance - Dorsey Press - 1971

[alexaloraetheris]

My recent blunder has made me wonder (heh),

If it's nuance, click the closest match and elaborate in the tags.

[luckyladylily]

People talk about finnster like "He's only doing drag performances. And a large element of his audience is clearly interested in his drag performances for sexual reasons. So he is only a drag queen sex worker in the most public way imaginable that can never be separated from either his public or personal life for as long as he lives in a society that is deeply hostile to both gender deviance and sex work. Only that. It's not like he's actually trans. Why do people even care?"

[whetstonefires]

See I don't necessarily disagree with what seems to be the primary reading that Yue Qingyuan's shifu fucked him over, caring nothing for his needs or preferences and only for whether he was useful. That makes sense, it ties into plenty of the generational and societal themes of the story. It fits.

But iirc we don't actually get enough information to know that's what happened.

And the thing is it would be so in-character and also thematically appropriate if Yue Qingyuan absolutely did not explain his goals or why he was working so hard, because it was private and shameful and he didn't expect any sympathy, and there was a high risk of losing everything if he blabbed.

And also if he engaged with the existing ruleset with which he was presented, i.e. 'can't go off on your own on personal business until you've mastered your sword,' in the most negative and controlling manner possible, as absolute commandments.

He's a different kind of guy but he comes from the same background as Shen Jiu! It fucked him up also!

He is very very very not a guy who trusts the system to make allowances for him--even once he has all the power he 'does what he wants' and 'makes selfish choices' as a conscious transgression; not something he has a right to do, just something he can get away with so he's gonna. (And ofc he spends almost all the latitude he grants himself on sqq.)

And even less is he a guy who opens up easily.

He isn't too proud to ask for help or pity, so much as he just doesn't expect to get any.

So in this interpretation, he understood that rule as a non-negotiable barrier in his path, the target to overcome, and focused all his considerable will and talent on overcoming it through the sphere of action he felt he had control over.

And fucked himself up bad.

Whereupon his teacher, possessing absolutely no context for this dumb shit their star pupil pulled, did the only thing they thought might work to save his life, paying in the process no attention to the raving of someone deep in a psychotic break.

Like, I feel like there should have been a better, kinder medical option, but I don't know for sure that there was, so I can't say with certainty this was the kind of cruelty that derives from not caring enough.

And it really would be kind of elegant and so typical of Yue Qingyuan's fundamental tragedy if the real mistake was 'not confiding in anybody' the whole time.

And he was just so deeply sunk into the understanding that explaining and asking were useless that, even looking back, it never really occurred to him that maybe his mistake wasn't 'fucking it up when trying too hard to solve everything on his own' but 'assuming there was no help to be had, and that he had to do it all on his own.'

Like. What if this really could all have been avoided if he'd just trusted and communicated with the adult in charge of him? But of course, of course his history of trauma (neglect, child abuse, exploitation, being the One Responsible for the younger kids whom he could not keep safe) meant he was absolutely not going to do that.

It was basically impossible. For the person he was, the person the world had made of him. And that's always been the core tragedy the whole novel circles back upon.

People can only ever be themselves, and so very often the elements of self that let them survive until now are that which dooms them, that means they need someone else to intervene if they're ever going to be saved. Because your personal doom is always the thing from which you can't save yourself.

[nadianova]

DIVINE DESPAIR DEVIANCE

TOXIC x YURI ANGEL x ANGEL SISTER x SISTER KILL x KISS SUCKING x FUCKING

kinetic visual novel, 5o,ooo words about a pair of broken angels. play my trancestual angel eroge for free at itch dot io

[robotpussy]

🤔 says alot abt ppl assuming there was a punk movement in the 60s in France because some guy had a mohawk do people not know the mohawk hair style existed before the punk movement?????

[medicsbigburlychest]

only just figuring out this can be a response to Amanda

[drifternox]

Gavin still manages to tease him. Even with the tears in the detective's eyes, the visible bruises, and the not-so-visible chest wound. Nines doesn't think he'll ever know why Reed does the things he does. Maybe he never will. "When do you think I'll be discharged?" "There ain-" Nines pauses. He tries not to frown at the involuntary accent, unearthed from his coding due to his recent full deviancy. If there's things he doesn't know about Gavin, then Gavin doesn't need to know that particular new detail about him. "-They are not going to do it anytime soon."

I love posting things on twitter and tumblr in the middle of the night and by middle of the night I mean its 5 am and I haven't slept.

Anyways, more little scenes from a fic I should be trying to write but alas....

[pinkinsect]

they should let me cite my tumblr mutuals on academic papers

[euniexenoblade]

Taken from Divine Despair Deviance

[vannss4206980085]

Playing the android march sequence rn and the man outside of the mall on hold with Cyberlife because his android just keeps telling him "I would prefer not to" when he's asking her to do his dishes just got me thinking -

- i would have loved some more glimpses of deviancy happening outside of the main plot characters, and in instances less severe than "android kill man whaaat"

- there is just so much potential for any dbh prequel/sequel even on the basis of just exploring how deviancy started emerging and what exactly it is

- this also totally implies some kind of half-deviancy or beginning stage, where an android isn't having any kind of crisis or isn't being threatened, but is developing preferences and the ability to say no to things

idk just thinking and rambling :^P

[qrjung]

So like, Amanda is clearly supposed to be important to Connor because she's got that nice shiny relationship stats, but I wish she was actually important to Connor. I want their relationship to mean something. The Betrayed stats when he deviates didn't mean too much to me but I would like it to be.

What I'm saying is I wish they'd given his relationship with Amanda as much attention and weight as they did with Hank. Sure, it's got red flags everywhere and it's not healthy but the whole Hank thing has red flags too so that's not an excuse. I want the decision to deviate to be harder for the player, aight? And maybe this is one way to do it.