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Desecration of souls Wednesday prompt? how is Alec's relationship with Izzy and Jace?
i hope this explains a bit of how it is
~ lumine
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Alec sighs and forces his mouth into a smirk instead of a scowl as Izzy and Jace return to him. They’re both bright eyed and grinning at him with bloodied smiles… the evidence of their ignored orders.
“Put them in isolation rooms when they’re done. Make sure they clean their own weapons first.” Alec says with a sigh, because he’d been trained by both Maryse and his mama.
Izzy and Jace are the closest he has to true companions in this realm… but they still lack so much. It’s been made clear now, when they’ve jeopardized such a crucial mission for the sake a few more demons under their belt. The actual objective they were asked to reach, they failed.
Alec wants his mama to be able to hold him more than anything — these days when he’s constantly reminded how alone he is — but he can’t.
Jonathon, his actual brother, is also far beyond his reach.
It’s difficult, knowing his most precious sibling will never know his protection, but Alec continues on. As much as he wants things to be better, he knows they won’t ever be.
So Alec steels himself and he stares down the people who try to dissuade him.
However, he knows who his mother is, who is brother is and Alec is never afraid.
How can he be, when his family is already trapped away from him. The only thing he can do, is shore up his power and try to become as strong as he can until he can get to them.
His kin.
His family.
Those who love him as much as he loves them.
At least thats the plan… until the war starts and Alec finds himself a dimension away from those he loves the most.
#lumine writes#writing wednesday#writing wednesdays#desecration of souls#the desecration of souls#alec lightwood#shadowhunters#malec
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when ur fam's a bunch of op warriors but they love you all the same
edit: fixed quality i think hh
#*shakes you violently* you dont understand they are important to me i love them so much i give my soul to them#on my knees and praying tumblr pls dont desecrate the gif quality#kirby series#kirby#meta knight#bandana dee#bandana waddle dee#bandee#king dedede#veves ultra cool art
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I know I'm kinda late but Happy Birthday month !!!🎉🎉🎉🎉
I was wondering if you wanted to talk about the parallels between A-Qing and Wei Wuxian in the Yi city arc ?
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Thank you! As long as it’s November, it’s never too late 💝
I kind of compared them in this wwx bday meta, but I didn’t get too deep into the parallel. While I said that A-Qing represents Wei Wuxian’s adaptability and unwillingness to passively accept evil simply because it’s cloaked in civility, I would like to highlight here another shared trait: their tenacity towards doing the right thing.
A-Qing is in a position of powerlessness in the trio due to her lack of cultivation skills and cultivation world knowledge, similar to how Wei Wuxian is made powerless—despite being a part of the cultivation world—by his lack of status and faithful allies. Yet despite this, both characters thrive in their environments and use their situationally-acquired skills to protect those around them. A-Qing did not have to stay with Xiao Xingchen, especially after Xue Yang came along, but her own sense of morality made her stick around to ensure Xiao Xingchen’s safety, something she was only able to do by feigning blindness. Even when she fails, she, Xiao Xingchen, and Song Lan die, and Xiao Xingchen’s spirit disperses, she uses the last moments of her life to doggedly seek help. After dying, she uses the entirety of her afterlife to scare ignorant strangers away from Yi City (mind you, she didn’t even die there. She made her spirit go back) and try to find ways to stop Xue Yang. Even at the risk of destroying her soul, she goes against Xue Yang to the very end, no regrets in any of her actions.
In the same way that A-Qing used her “blindness” as a shield, Wei Wuxian weaponized the cultivation world’s fears of him first to protect the sovereignty of the newly rebuilt Jiang then to protect the Wen remnants liberated from the Qiongqi Path labor camp. When he was still schemed against and the Wen siblings told him of their plan to turn themselves in, he still never thought to abandon them or let the punishment fall on anyone else’s shoulders, just as A-Qing refused to abandon Xiao Xingchen. After his resurrection, Wei Wuxian still goes out of his way to rescue and protect the junior cultivators, entering back into the lion’s den of the cultivation world for no benefit of his own just to continue to help others, in the exact same way that A-Qing went back to Yi City to guard against passersby wandering in to their deaths. And just like with A-Qing, at no point in time does he regret having rescued the Wen in his first life or having endangered himself in his second life to protect the juniors (or later their bloodthirsty parents).
Even though they faced negative consequences for following their morality to the bitter end (and even beyond), even if the people they wanted to protect were still murdered before their eyes, their reputations tarnished and legacies buried, at no point do either A-Qing or Wei Wuxian stray from their course nor regret their actions. This is their shared tenacity. There’s a reason, after all, that Wei Wuxian experiences the Yi City arc as her.
#mdzs asks#anon#human metas mxtx#a-qing as the sole (conscious) survivor#who must witness the horrors every day while combatting it#until finally at least xxc’s soul fragments are freed from xue yang#and song lan’s consciousness is brought back#wwx as the sole survivor of the burial mounds massacre#who must witness the horror of their lives reduced down to ‘wen-dogs who deserved to die’#to watch all he loved and protected be desecrated by The Good Guys™️#until finally wen ning regains his consciousness#until finally a-yuan regains his memories#until finally a-qing and wwx are no bearing this burden alone#and their selfless actions finally bear the fruit that had been waiting to bud all along
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the prevalence of "yes or no" in The Locked Tomb Series
bonus!:
#forgive me. i love pash. i couldn't not include her.#tlt#the locked tomb#fuck off lou#my post#parallels#tlt meta#htn#ntn#gtn#harrow the ninth#gideon the ninth#nona the ninth#im just intrigued by the fact that there's no instances with a right choice#if gideon says no she's stuck on the ninth. if she says yes she dies at canaan house#if harrow says yes she eats gideon's soul. if she says no she damns her own#john's taking away U and T's past identities and fleshing them over later w a nicer exterior#or he's desecrating someone's children#nona doesn't know what she'd be disagreeing or agreeing with#camilla dies apart from pal and they depart unknowing into the river. or their souls are destroyed and remade together. forever#the horrors of love making the more grotesque of two evils look more inviting#anyway
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my queue was supposed to run out tonight (11/19) - i'm nothing if not someone who clings to dates and anniversaries, and exactly a month ago, i realized i had enough posts stowed in it to last until today. of all the days. kismet. you know when it's time to go. but i ended up adding some posts from my (still copious) drafts, and no matter how i finagled it, it was impossible to make them all fit by the time today ended. so it gets a little bit of extra time. maybe, in honor of this blog's existence, that's fitting.
you all know this, i've said it, typically in gratitude, many times already. this blog was never meant to last. i came back in november 2020 expecting a couple of months, maybe to be here until the new year. i told very few people, anticipating the goodbye, not wanting to cause anyone undue anguish when i had to vanish again. something i didn't expect was the sheer (admittedly devasting) emotion that would tie itself to those two weeks when i started interacting again, nor that it would have any outreach or impact, but somehow it did. then time kept spinning on, extending itself, gossamer threads unfurling each day. my following kept growing, far beyond what i could have anticipated, greater than i'd ever established on any of my previous blogs. moving around is unfortunately a pattern at this point, every time for reasons that felt quietly catastrophic. not being able to pay bills for a while. angel's death and the ensuing difficult circumstances. so here, i kept anxiously imagining why i'd eventually have to leave, how to plan for it. poverty issues. the homelessness we were facing through the entirety of a couple of years until last august (and my dad having to be the saving grace). worsening health issues. i never knew, i couldn't predict it, i just worried about it. often tried to brace for it. maybe i got too comfortable this year, because this was when i started to think it wouldn't happen, that i really could stay. little did i know. and the reasons...are not reasons i ever fathomed, why would i have? how could i have? i wish it weren't so. (i wish a lot of things.)
i thought sometimes about the words i would leave you with, none of which are suitable now. i almost wrote nothing, yet found that feeling wrong, couldn't leave without something about parting.
thus it turns out i'm leaving before it's strictly necessary, before it's the fear of personal catastrophe coming to fruition, not knowing what i'll do or where i'll metaphorically go, as that is the downside of chronic illness and isolation narrowing this to my sole outlet. (lyrics keep running through my mind, there are always lyrics stuck in my head. no matter where i go, there'll be memories that tug at my sleeve, but there will also be more to question, yet more to believe...teach me to be more adaptive...help me say goodbye). my body is in such a fragile state right now (my mind not far behind) that maybe what i need to do is rest. just rest for a while.
this blog was never meant to grow the way it did, to take asks and have conversations like i did, that was a somewhat new (sometimes scary! often fun) experience for me. it's one that will never be replicated. to my loyal and lovely anons, i'm so sorry that i had to cut you off unexpectedly and couldn't reinstate communication - i know that you weren't able to reach out to me as soon as i did that, and that certainly wasn't your fault, it was a response to the tenor of this website. i apologize for the hundreds of messages i never had the chance to answer. i'm appreciative of the things you shared with me and all the times we got to talk.
i sincerely hope some of you learn to be kinder and wiser and less reactionary and more willing to learn and to listen rather than to attack those who have never wronged you and who do not deserve that. i'm being too nice, but i hope you learn that misusing your supposed social justice to do harm and foment hatred and stew in ignorant cruelty makes any principles you purport to have utterly void. my hope for that is low at the moment, but it's still got to be there. waiting to be found.
to those of you who have never been anything but kind, you are true treasures, the lights in the darkness, the loving and compassionate embodiment of human spirit. some of you have (quite literally) helped keep my mom and me alive, and i can never repay that or do enough in this life to quantify it. some of you have been here for me every single day, to listen and laugh and cry and understand. i don't think i would've bothered to fight through these past three years had i not had your presences in my life. i wouldn't have had as much of a reason. there are times when i still haven't felt like i had a reason, i struggle through so many varied griefs, but then i continued to wake up, and would come on here and find something joyful or beautiful or affirming that someone had sent or posted, and it gave me an anchor. there are passions and interests i shared or discovered here that were so uplifting and enlightening, and i will carry them in my heart always. being here to find those was such a blessing. being here with you to indulge in them was such a blessing. thank you. i pray your continued paths have more of that ahead. look at all the things you've done for me. there are certain things that once you have no time can wear away.
you know that line from the wizard of oz?: hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable. maybe that isn't true, maybe our hearts being broken is proof of something. there are people who hurt me on such a profound level who i know weren't affected by it at all, but i refuse to define my sensitivity as a negative. my softness (too soft for all of it, indeed) does not quite provide me with a weapon, but it doesn't crumple. hearts can be broken repeatedly and still beat, which i've thought about a lot lately. shattered souls just make a new mosaic. it's a different picture than it was before, but the color and light persists. and in the remains of that, a handful of people have shown me depths of caring and resilience that i wouldn't have gotten to hold onto otherwise, which is an extraordinary thing. the precious rarities have to mean something more, don't they? i would think so. i believe it. or i'm trying. i keep trying with all my might.
maybe i stayed too long at the fair. maybe this is a consequence of overplaying my hand, gambling a little too much with time to where it had to teach me something. maybe i needed the reminder that sometimes we have to fight to retain our spirits, and other times we have to retreat. maybe i needed a reminder that all that extra time was a miracle. i don't take it for granted.
whether we've spoken directly, be that consistently or in scattered flurries, whether we've interacted in very personal ways or simply in liked hearts on the dash, i hope there was goodness and light in it. i hope there's a memory i leave here that's sweet. (as long as i'm borrowing phrases, i hope you'll think of me fondly sometimes.) i hope there was something warm and enriching here. i hope you know what you've been and meant to me. i said so many times that this blog was my cozy haunted house - the ghosts will linger here forever, and i know they'll never mind if you want to step in and visit.
with all my heart, i love so many of you so dearly. i am so lucky to have your friendships. please move gently through life. please hold onto the things that illuminate it for you, and provide that where you can. please do your best to repair even the smallest of tears in the world. you are not obligated to complete the work, but neither are you free to abandon it.
there must be lights burning brighter somewhere.
something yet remains. i remain. and i do my best to be brave.
#bubble wrap around my heart#jess.mess#namarie#gam zu l'tovah#edit: december 2. this was as it turns out too nice#because today this website decided to desecrate something central and sacred#i wish i could verbalize to you despicable people the profound soul deep hurt you're causing#and the constant fear and trauma you're instilling by making every space so blatantly hateful and hostile and unsafe#but you don't get to take a PRAYER away from its people. you don't get that power ever. that light will NEVER be diminished#i have no respect for any of you doing this. you're evil#i have infinite respect for myself now though. i know who i am. and i'm done#you don't deserve me and you never deserved my friendship or my trust or my heart#proverbs 4:23#goodbye.
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why is every time i check belos' crime list on villains wiki they add a new crime
#since i last checked they added “serial desecration of souls” and “attempted deicide”#the guy had a lot going on#belosposting
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Sometimes I think about all the guest kudos I have ever gotten on AO3 and wonder - how many people, maybe people who are new to fandom, have read my fics and smiled? How many people have come to A03 from my Tumblr? Has one of my fics ever been the first fic someone has ever read? Has anyone ever joined fandom because of one of my silly little fics? Read one of my fics on their phone under the dinner table or their desk at school or work?
Probably not. Maybe? I don't know who these people are; now many anonymous "guests" are different people? How many are the same person, reading through all my stuff? How many are people with an account that loved the fic so much they logged out just to leave another kudos?
I just went on AO3 and locked all my fics, making them only available for registered users. No more guests. It makes me sad; it feels like saying goodbye to all these faceless, happy little people who have found my stuff and left behind a fleeting trace of their essence to let me know they read something of mine and it made them smile. (Or cry? I don't know. They're just kudos.) It makes me sad saying goodbye to them, but I don't want the soul of my works, my soul, fed to AI. Mindless, devouring monster without a heart, black cloud of toxic fog darkening the bright horizon.
#anti ai writing#anti ai art#fan fiction is not content!#it is art#it has a soul!#don't treat it like that#don't desecrate the creative process like that
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Here’s our MTGinktober for “Remove,” starring Cemetery Desecrator, Remove Soul, and Path to Exile! And with this last page filled (to the brim with interaction), even this sketchbook is removed from game entirely--what to do...start a different sketchbook or finish off some larger-sized artboard I have left over...
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#Reuxben#MTGinktober#Inktober#Magic: The Gathering#Cemetary Desecrator#Remove Soul#Path to Exile#Umezawa's Jitte#Dreamcatcher#Labyrinth of Skophos#Theros#Innistrad#Kamigawa#Alara#MTG Fan Art#Illustration#Artists on Tumblr#Inktober 2023#Black and white#Traditional Art#Zombies#Horror#Spooky#Slivers
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Just dropping by to say I love your blog a lot!!❤️❤️❤️ you are doing the lords work lol someday I try hard to find good questions to send you that I think you'd like to think about--but all I ever come up with is "since it's canon that after the tybw and 10 year time skip and they have tv--who would actually have a tv, and what do think they'd watch, or would they try to make their own weird version of a tv station/show? Would ichigo be able to get it on his home tv, like, he's just wanting one day and then there's yumichika, renji, ikkaku and shuuhei on the lowest budget drama in all 3 worlds"
Just want yall to know I love and appreciate all the work you do!!❤️❤️❤️
Aww, thank you! I'm glad you enjoy it! <333 You are one of our OG dash blorbos and it makes me really happy that we continue to blorbo it up together. <3
This seems like an excellent opportunity to bring back
which is further elaborated in this post. (I’d forgotten everything except the C-SPAN gif, which is a total disservice to House Hunters Interdimensional—I feel so ashamed!)
As far as who has TVs, I think all the division offices have one, because they were part of a military tech rollout. They have yet to really catch on individually, though. In the commercial district, there’s a TV store with a whole wall of them out front, and people tend to simple congregate in the streets to watch whatever’s on, as though it were a live playhouse. The difference is that it’s 24-hour programming, and when it’s not airing Central 46 C-SPAN it’s fueled by camera-happy insomniacs.
I used to live in a city that had a local access channel that a friend of mine swore by, which was a single-camera one-man puppet show performing the entire story of the Bible. Soul Society definitely has one of those, except it performs the full history of Soul Society. It’s actually incredibly well-researched and is the love labor of Some Guy who was granted access to and spent a lifetime absorbing the Kuchiki records. Byakuya has signed off on the show, but owing to its low production value, he did not consent to use of the Kuchiki name anywhere but in the credits roll.
There’s also a shopping channel that is essentially a slideshow of the existing SC catalogue, intercut with footage of straight-faced SC staffers describing the items. This show is incredibly popular, because it reaps the benefits of dual audiences: 1) People who want to buy stuff from the shopping channel, and 2) people who watch it because they think it’s a hilarious, dry-witted mockumentary-style social satire. (It is not.)
Similarly, there’s a fairly ambitious show that compiles "Lights and Sirens" style reporting from the top 13 most popular border checkpoints in Rukongai, filmed by bored shinigami sitting in firetowers. This show typically has the affect of John Trudell as Randy Peone in Smoke Signals’ KREZ Radio. (This would be my favorite show, she said, surprising no one.)
Yumichika, Renji, Ikkaku, and Hisagi DEFINITELY made a no-budget drama that was going for a found footage aesthetic but in actuality has the aesthetic of "Hisagi with a camcorder." Even though it’s supposed to be a hard-hitting crime thriller set in the universe of Detective Byakuya (but not centered on Byakuya), there are often entire sequences of, like, Yumichika doing tai chi on a dramatic outcropping in silhouette, sunset behind him, and the other three offering hushed commentary like nature documentarians.
#when i started this post i had it in mind that it would take concent cues from JP tv and then i proceeded to describe things that were#very much not that but OH WELL#also i made the mistake of originally typing this post straight into the tumblr text-editor and i flipped to another tab briefly only to#return to a completely desecrated post missing all but the first paragraph#i am INCENSED and having now suffered that trauma i've decided i'm never posting anything to tumblr again LOL#but seriously though the actual fuck i was gone for a few seconds!!#can't have shit in detroit#bleach headcanons#shinigamiology#asks#no brain just bleach#soul societv#in our original google doc for soul socieTV half the ideas we had were actually radio programs and not TV#all based on NPR stalwarts like Fresh Air with Terry Gross Prairie Home Companion and Wait Wait Don't Tell Me#which didn't seem demographically resonant (lol as opposed to whatever else that DOES get posted here??? idek man)
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people begging me to do something to make a certain someone happy aren’t taking into account that i hate this person and i will revel in the knowledge that i kept them from getting the most perfect version of what they wanted. in fact i hope they mourn the loss of this for the rest of their life and die unhappy about it
#i wish i could do worse. i wish i could go through and ruin everything i ended up giving them (all against my wishes) and i wish#i could ruin everything they love because god do i hate them and i will laugh when they finally fucking die#i have no idea why everyone glosses over all the shit this person has done to us and all the pain they’ve caused and i can’t fathom why#everyone wants to make them happy and why they’re willing to beg and bribe for me (and one other person who also hates them) to#give in but it is amusing and i hope they all fucking cry about it like oh nooo did poor [REDACTED] not get something they will never#get another chance to have ? oh well that sucks so bad for them i’m oh so sorry i caused that i can’t believe i managed to ruin their#chances for this how awful that this person i hate who has done and gotten away with so many horrible things didn’t get their perfect#little fantasy how sad we should all comfort them and call me a bitch who has no respect for anyone#god sometimes i wish i gave into violence more in the past bc i wish i got to fucking beat their ass up back when it would be self-defense#unforch i will never get to now. SAD!#i suppose i have murder fantasies and the thought of being able to ruin their funeral to soothe my soul#and the knowledge that i could make them fucking hurt by refusing to cooperate w them#and ough every time an opportunity presents itself for me to fucking take back what they took from me arises i have to fight myself#on it bc everyone will know it was me. i don’t even want what they have i just want them to know they will never get it back and#god it would upset them so much but they never should have had it in the first place ough if i get the chance before i ditch everyone here#for good i’d want to take it and stick around just long enough to hear how much they’ll cry about it before i fuck off#unforch i would need to know where all of their copies of things are but fuck i hate knowing they’ve taken so much from me bc i didn’t#get a fucking choice and they think they have to right to keep it all bc oh it makes them so happy they love having it they’re so fucking#afraid of losing it but it’d be so easy and i doubt they’d even notice for a while and i genuinely could disguise it as a mistake something#got misplaced some files corrupted etc etc but whatever this is fantasy a sweet little daydream of mine my second fantasy involving#them has smth to do with setting their house on fire and my third fantasy is desecrating their grave when the time comes#okay i’m done w this lalalalalala *skips off into the distance* i think revenge is not productive but god is it delicious to think about
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hmmm…part 2 of sabotage is calling my name…maybe if i have time tonight (and mcat studying doesn’t drain me) i’ll start writing something lol
#[ 👻 ] - ghost speaks#desecration is still my number 1#but i loved the plot of that sanemi fic LOL i put my heart and soul into it
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had a super pfms moment on sunday thought i might share🤭
sunday night I used a bible page as rolling paper cos my friend used all of his like a dumbass
he grabbed the joint from me, took a hit and put it out on the cover of the bible, then grabbed my face and we made out for the rest of the night hehe
i am pretty sure matty has said him and george smoked a bible page before…… also was this your first Kiss cus damn that’s such a good story..
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I've probably had this realization before and just forgotten it, but. transient curses. they always drop in pairs.
presumably because they actually are in fact, "special arms" to quote pun-master Domnhall, and people (corpses) generally have. two of those. 🥲
in related news, I just got a mental image of what "carrying 10+ transient curses in my inventory quickbar" would look like in the actual game world, and.
backpack with the zipper partially open and a bouquet of numerous severed corpse hands sticking out through the top.
#dork souls tag#James liveblogs video games#....should this have a content note on it for like. corpse desecration or gore or smth#also mostly unrelated except that it's also New Londo#but WHY DOES GRANDPA WAR CRIMES KNOW ABOUT THE LORDVESSEL IN THE FIRST PLACE#every damn time I talk to him#did the conspirators hop on down to his sad little rooftop and explain to him about how they're trying to get someone to harvest lord souls#were lordvessels like. A Known Thing back in ye olde non-drowned New Londo days? (if so pray tell w.h.y. ??)
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unfortunately the “cemeteries should be green spaces used for recreation like in ye olde days” crowd loses any credibility it has when they walk all over graves, risk damaging old headstones & grave monuments by misusing them in a Number of ways, & rub their bare asses all over said graves for “““artistic”““ purposes
#also they are sometimes wrong about people using cems as green spaces back in the day#there was a reason they were often built on the outskirts of town. to keep them away from residences & businesses & town spaces#i.e where it would make sense to have green spaces#& also graveyards attached to churches may have been used recreationally#but they still respected graves as graves#wtf is wrong w these people#also 'don't sing in cemeteries' girl. you are primarly visiting & talking about christian cemeteries#wtf do you think people do at funerals#better get father mulligan to stop lettin people sing dirges#when they attend the funeral of their catholic great grand aunt#bc all the rest of the dead catholics in this cemetery will be disturbed#etc#also i have said it before & will say it again:#feel free to get naked on / fuck on / desecrate my grave#but if you do you better be praying for my soul before or during or after#(just in case purgatory is real)#it's the least you can do#*
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he was supposed to live to be 14 i shouldnt be googling how much cremation costs at half that age.
#gonna spend most of my paycheck on that#two of my other dogs were buried and it haunts me everyday that i cant jyst go see them.#i cant bring them with me.#the property can be owned by anyone and they can deny me entry or they could desecrate their graves altogether.#im also leaving in a few months. i cant bury him here.#it just...#cremation unnerves me lately. i found out it's environmentally bad and also im so scared that they feel the burning...#like their soul feels it.#it's so fucking stupid but i dont want to ruin his afterlife.#it hurts so much.
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Took my antidepressants but the emptiness continues to consume
#refiba screams#atp i think i want to be miserable#i find my purpose within the walls of heart crushing disappointment and utter abject misery#and thatd not good#methinks i have a deeper problem than hormonal depression#theres something wrong with me#the question 'what do you want to do with your life' makes me crash the fuck outtttttttt#what a horrible question id rather be dead#ive been in limbo so long it feels like home#my insecurities take root deep in my soul like violence like invasion like desecration like violation#i create from a place of misery because ive mistaken insecurity for my indentity#nothing can fix this nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing#and the worst part of all is i cant even cry about it bc im taking these choney antidepressants#who am i without this heart rending depression i feel like i need in order to be alive#who is the happy alive girl i dont want to be?#fuck
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