#deputyrook

[deputyrook]

hello friends. I accidentally deleted my blog 🙃 please reply to this/boost because I would love to find my mutuals again. I'm actually so shocked.

my fics will be reposted! Thank you for coming back.

[jennathearcher]

sage, aloe vera, nutmeg! 🥰

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

Again, this comes as no surprise to anyone who has spent any length of time around me, but film <3 And also theatre and music of course but film is my whole world as an autistic person, always has been :3 It's hard to explain WHY I latched onto it so hard, but my parents have always affirmed that the first thing to REALLY hold my attention was Disney movies and that's kind of where it all started?

I mean, a part of this comes as self reflection that came with my love for the live action Little Mermaid, but it had me looking back at how the original animated film was my FAVORITE movie as a tiny child; but it really made me think about how even as a child, I saw so much of myself in Ariel and her obsessive, dare I say autistic, love for all things human even though she was limited in how much she could connect with that world herself <3 I'm sure there's a lot of other examples and it runs even deeper than that, but just the fact that film as a medium tells stories that both let you escape from the world and also let you see a part of yourself reflected back at you, even if you're not necessarily aware of it at the time?

And more than that, I add because of how movies like Hereditary and Bones and All and even Nimona made me reevaluate the possibilities of what film can be, it comes down to the fact that movies make you FEEL strong emotions and a really good movie should ultimately make you think to some degree and connect the dots as to the why and how, as part of the overall experience <3 just UGH, MOVIES!!!!!

aloe vera ⇢ what’s something (mundane) you really want to experience in life?

Dye my hair <3 It's something I've always wanted to do but never had the gumption or really gave myself permission to do, despite my parents finally having gotten over their reservations with it -- probably because my sister recently dyed her hair blonde and it looks fantastic :P I mean my mom also went blonde several decades ago but that's neither here nor there XD But I've always wanted to have red hair; again, going back to the Ariel thing, and other movies I adored as a kid like Anastasia :3 So maybe soon~

nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?

Oh my room is a cluttered nightmare, my sisters gently call my a hoarder :P But as my therapist points out, it's hard to keep your ENTIRE LIFE contained in one tiny room; especially as a collector like me XD But it's largely movie themed; I have posters up everywhere that I brought home from the theatre where I used to work, and I have all kinds of other stuff on display that I've collected and I'm very proud of; like my POP figures, charms, pins, art prints, dolls, plushies, and of course piles of books I have yet to read XD

Thank you so so much for asking, Rook!! <3

[statichvm]

Mahogany, Goldenrod!!!

Mahogany - let's go on a late night drive together and listen to one of your playlists.

Goldenrod - i really wanna sit next to you and watch a sunset/sunrise. or maybe just look at you.

[ex0rin]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUEEN ILY ❤️💛💜💙💚 I hope your birthday is as absolutely splendid and delightful as you are!!!

Ah! Ohmygod hiiii you wonderful person you I love you SO MUCH! Thank you for the love ❤️

[chainsawsangel]

i was tagged by @themotherofhorses and @happilyhertale (ily guys 😘)

rules: tag 9 people you want to get to know better.

last song: angel of small death and the codeine scene by hozier.

last show: ergo proxy

last film: meet the robinsons

current show: the last kingdom (rewatching)

reading: nothing atm but I'm hoping to reread the sandman comics.

current obsession: welp! obviously ewan mitchell + his characters, i admire him so much. anime, video games (having resident evil brainrot atm), and my OC athena. 💜

tags: @tiffanyvalntine, @aemonds-wifey, @roguelov, @heywizards, @orallech, @boneforts, @deputyrook @onewinged-sephiroth & @hella-amberpricefield (no pressure, guys)

[nerendus]

5 Songs, 3 Outfits

Thank you so much for the tag @jaal-ama-daravv

Rules: Post 5 songs associated with your OC, followed by 3 outfits they would wear.

OC: Alwena von Valancius

Songs:

Alwena is, especially pre-canon, a cannibal but specifically a fun cannibal. This is definitely a song I can imagine her humming as she is chopping up her fellow voidsman.

Another fun song, though this one starts going into the canon days, where she significantly sobers up into the role of a Rogue Trader, especially after Act 3, but she's still cool enough to have this funky song.

This song is to more represent her psyker side as well as herself as an Iconoclast. The Iconoclast is essentially urging her to become more than herself, to reshape the Koronus Expanse into something worthy of her leadership, while the (unsanctioned) psyker part of her is far more violent--'the evil one' trying to make her go down the path of insanity.

This song is a post-canon song for her inability to keep the Koronus Expanse from breaking out in both a civil war between the Von Valancius dynasty and the newly acquired Winterscale territory, as well with war with the other Rogue Trader dynasties that are not taking a liking to her way of power.

This one is again post-canon and about her fear of death for those she loves, as well as fear for her own death as she is commonly targeted for assassinations--assassinations that eventually succeed in taking her life.

Outfits:

Again, thank you dearie. I don't know whose all done this, so I'll just tag @deputyrook and @antelopunny

[whatthebec]

@bredforloyalty tagged me to list 5 songs I'm currently into! ty, I never get tagged in these things ;-p <3

poison oak - bright eyes

better than nothing - ray bull

enemy - midwife (thanks @bethesdas)

moon song - phoebe bridgers

take it easy (love nothing) - bright eyes

tagging @pokemonstadium2 @dooptown @bethesdas @taylorscarbonfootprint @miami2k17 @1892 @the-sound-of-her-wings @deputyrook @roberrtphilip

[bloodofvalyriaarchive]

we did post about it but also met @deputyrook and argued with a man in a parking lot together.... as god intended

[jamessunderlandgf]

—10 fandoms, 10 characters, 10 mutuals

emma @red-nightskies i’m obsessed w you thank u for the tag mwah 💋 idk who wants to do this so if i miss a tag consider urself tagged bless up @simply-jason ⚜️ @kyber-infinitygems ⚜️ @teamhawkeye ⚜️ @deputyrook ⚜️ @ghostfvcker ⚜️ @paddingtongirl ⚜️ @ansburg ⚜️ @bloodofvalyria ⚜️ @rosayoro ⚜️ @mxgyver ⚜️🩷✨

in no particular order—

SMOKE | MORTAL KOMBAT; i just think he’s neat idk i have been rotating him around in my brain since september please send help actually

ANNA HENRIETTA | THE WITCHER; you guys know this abt me she is serving and slaying and she occupies my mind always

CYBIL BENNETT | SILENT HILL; yes i hyper focused on a woman that is in one game i love her fuck ass bob so what. sue me.

LALO SALAMANCA | BETTER CALL SAUL; i could have put nacho and i should have but he mostly just makes me upset. so here’s the silliest goofiest guy in all of albuquerque

THANATOS | HADES; YES KING COME TO MY CHAMBER SO YOU CAN RING YOUR LITTLE BELL AND I CAN DESTROY YOU IN A KILLING SPREE

HOSEA MATTHEWS | RED DEAD REDEMPTION 2; featuring a lil charthur mwah mwah mwah aaaand the best dad ever best dilf award goes to—

MASAKO ADACHI | GHOST OF TSUSHIMA; the best canon url i ever had and will have. i love this woman. play ghost of tsushima.

DONNA BENEVIENTO | RESIDENT EVIL; show me a tragic character and i will show you the hole in my heart that is them shaped.

PERPETUA | BLASPHEMOUS; she is a ghost she’s possessed she’s been dead the whole time she’s actively plotting against god she’s everything to me

CHLOE FRAZER | UNCHARTED; women 🫶🏻

[deputyrook]

Deputyrook's Five Fictional Crushes-> I'm not sure how to describe my type, but I sure do have one

[jennathearcher]

papyrus, orchid, ivy!

random 'get to know me' ask game!

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

So the first song that actually came up is Skeletons by Brothers Osborne, which is funny because I don't listen to a LOT of current country music, but this song in particular was featured in an episode of The Sandman and it was such a bop and lowkey badass I had to download it and now it's on said playlist so here we are :P

orchid ⇢ what’s a song you consider to be perfect?

The way I IMMEDIATELY pulled up my Taylor Swift library XD There's a LOT of songs I think would fit this criteria, but obviously my first instinct is to go with All Too Well, the ten minute version of course :P It just HITS.

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

Ooh, I dig this question!! I mean I'm the type of person where I tend to wear my emotions on my sleeve pretty openly; you can kind of gauge where I'm at emotionally just by looking at me really XD Or how much I'm able to engage in a conversation, if that makes sense!!

Thank you SO MUCH for asking, Rook!! <3

[scalpelsister]

which part of you holds your soul?

@ghostfvcker tagged me to do this uquiz for an oc- so naturally I picked Feilan. She.... also got legs lmao

Legs- you're always onto what's vital, what's essential, whatever's the most pivotal thing in your life. survival, stability, ambition, and self-sufficiency. you may find that others instinctively trust you to make the important decisions. at your worst, you're ungrounded. you lack ambition, you lack purpose, and you become more frustrated with life. at your best, you're the glue that holds it all together. your soul is the essence of holding the door open for as many people as possible. you are an extra umbrella in the downpour. the lighthouse guiding ships through a foggy sea. you're as dependable as anyone will ever be.

tagging the usual suspects (sorry for any double tags!) + whoever wants to do this!! :)

@bloodofvalyria @cybilbennettgf @red-nightskies @oc-musings @fizziefizzco @benwishaw @gcthamqueen @deputyrook @shellibisshe

[inaviolentnature]

tagged by @faggotfungus <3

no pressure tags: @babisawyer @palaeolithicc @apocoeurlypse @caliginouspurple @deputyrook

[words-are-fireproof]

*gif by @deputyrook

My Face Is Revealed (Jake Lockley; part I)

Rating: M Warnings: drinking, loneliness, mentions of vomiting, Khonshu being a little shit. Word Count: 518 A/N: I wrote this in June at the height of my fixation. I wrote it on Twitter so I'm sure there are mistakes. Please forgive them. Summary: He knew this time would come.

Masterlist || Part Two

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Whiskey burns just as bad coming up as it does going down. He'd learned that the hard way. Reflecting on that moment, when he'd been doubled over in an alley in East Harlem, heaving his guts up on the pavement, he knew that it was exactly when he fell in love with the drink. 

He'd been dancing around the love affair for years, pushing the limits on his capacity for holding his liquor, seeing just how many drinks it took before he puked it all up. Tequila took the quickest. Beer the slowest, but despite its lasting power, he didn't like beer. The bitter earthiness of hopps was just something he couldn't get behind. It made his mouth claggy and dry. Whiskey didn't. It was smooth yet biting, warming the fire in his belly and dulling the seething self-loathing that danced in the shadows at the corners of his eyes.

If he focused on the feel of the glass in his hands, focused on the way the alcohol settled on his tongue, he couldn't taste the lingering tang of lead in his mouth. He couldn't focus on the faint tinge of red dripping from his hands. 

He couldn't focus on how alone he truly was. 

But how does one define the word "alone?" Does it mean "having no one else present" or does it "indicate that something is confined to the specified subject or recipient?" Or is it both? Is it none? What defines a person when he couldn't even be sure he *was* one? Of course, he had to be one. He had a body. Hair. Organs. He breathed the suffocating smell of car exhaust, but nothing tethered him to this life. 

He laughed bitterly to himself in a bar in Midtown and downed a couple of fingers of liquid courage before tapping the lacquered wood for another one. The bartender complied begrudgingly. She knew how he got when he was drunk. 

The solace of the glass was short lived, though, when a booming voice echoed ominously in his head. He clenched his jaw, amber eyes staring fiercely at the wall in front of him as he built up the walls around him, knowing perfectly well it wouldn't shield him from Khonshu's all knowing gaze. 

"Who's the target?" 

GETTING DRUNK, I SEE. 

"Never bothered ya before." 

I NEED YOU SHARP. 

"Yeah, yeah, yeah. Who's the target?" 

He finally cautioned a glance to his right. The God of the Moon stood with his white gloved hands in his suit jacket pocket. Even without eyes, he could feel Khonshu's judgemental gaze on him. 

SOMEONE YOU MIGHT KNOW. 

His jaw clenched. Of course. He knew this time would come. He couldn't escape the enacting of judgement. 

He didn't want to. 

He knocked back the rest of his glass and slid from the barstool, reaching into his black jacket pocket and pulling on leather driving gloves. He shot a look at Khonshu, straightened his flat cap, and stalked out onto the bustling sidewalk, melting into the crowd. 

An agent of the night. 

Alone. 

Exacting an all too familiar form of justice.

[bloodofvalyriaarchive]

having a convo with @deputyrook about our first celeb/character crushes and having a LAFF please send me yours i wanna dissect everyone's brains

[generalherasyndulla]

kind, and warm like freshly baked cookies, like a hug on a bad day, like going to a convention and feeling like ur no longer the odd one out, like an alcoholic drink where you can't taste the alcohol and its just yummy, like a christmas tree on the first night you set it up

THIS IS SO NICE, BITCH YOU’RE GONNA MAKE ME CRYYYYYYYYYYYY <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

what sort of vibe do I give off