#depending on how that’s gonna go

[cinnabar-cemetery]

How would you rank the bsd light novels?

i haven’t read the most recent ones (in part because i’m fighting with amazon to actually ship them to me since i made the questionable choice to collect all bsd media in english while living in a country that does not have english as an official language and importing shit was already annoying before all of the bullshit and that’s yet another mistake i have to live with) it’s also been a while since i read them and unfortunately my opinion on at least one character has taken a nosedive since then, which might change things after a reread, but as of right now my raking goes as follows:

1.dark era

2.beast

3.55 minutes

4.dazai’s entrance exam

5.fifteen

6.untold origins

7.dead apple

8.stormbringer

4 and 5 are pretty much interchangeable (but i think entrance exam was done dirtier by the anime, so it gets the higher spot).

2 and 3 are very close too. i love the beast universe, i love the angst of it all, i love characters who destroy themselves to achieve their goals (usually it’s dig-two-graves type revenge stories, but destroying oneself for another person is a close second; that’s also why i love higurashi no naku koro ni gou), so beast just ticks all the boxes for me, but i do enjoy 55 minutes as a story more. it’s more exciting! dramatic! the oh shit moment before time travel enters the building!! trashcan dazai is there!! also lore! LORE!!!

in the end beast ekes it out because odazai was my first bsd otp and is still in my top 3 and this ranking is negative percent objective. i’m not ranking with my brain, in fact i’m not ranking at all, i’m just transcribing the whispers coming from deep within the abyss that resides where my heart was supposed to be. and the abyss loves to see. dazai. suffer.

[ihavesomejays]

text transcription:

Many springs ago, I perceived a sea of flowers upon a lake. I thought to myself that those fleeting colors held indescribable beauty.

The next time I perceived those colors was many years later, when the medic’s tent had blinded me to all but red. The radiance of that shining star was lost on my eyes.

Now, my eyes no longer perceive the subtleties in the colors around me.

But I am content.

For I can now see the most brilliant colors in my universe.

anyways yeah why did they fucking do that to jiaoqiu bro

the planning for this experimentalish comic is under keep reading

[astrolavas]

my art style is too simple for this but just know that when i draw post-ttt hunter, in my mind he has central pink-brown heterochromia. like this, kinda:

[alley-just-alley]

So I watched the @jelloapocalypse In Stars and Time stream and drew these during the finale. You should watch the streams, or better play the game!! I promise it's good!

[nebuladreamz]

He's just a little angry I think

[gutsfics]

so. i just watched most of the new quintonreviews Sam & Cat video and for Reasons i looked up both Goomer and Frankini on ao3 and theres only One Single Fic thats tagged with Goomer/Frankini. fucking criminal.

double criminal for it being tagged as "past Frankini/Goomer" bc the actual relationship focused in the fic is fuCKING GOOMER/DICE. BITING AND KILLING.

[rnoonsetter]

i really wanted to draw a different character next, but then season 2 introduced me to evil goth virginia, and. well. (check the tags for the updated version!)

[theythemmer]

phinktober day 8: tatinof

wtf a whole week done already???? i haven’t drawn this consistently since i was in high school 😭

bonus bc idk when to stop

[aroaceleovaldez]

full on feel like pjo tv s2 is not gonna hold up so they need to drag as much attention to the series as they can by using nico as a sock puppet w tsats2

im fully expecting the show to go the way of the movies. it doesnt help Sea of Monsters is almost unanimously the least favorite book of the first series. People frequently forget it even exists or what happens in it, especially more casual fans.

Heck, just look at how little fanfare the second season has gotten so far as compared to the build up to s1. I wouldn't be surprised if s2 totally flops. It would be a little funny.

[aeliem]

variations on dust

trying to get back into drawing after artfight, so have some random doodles in the meantime

[shevr]

may have plans to mess with my hair in a most unoriginal way

[m3tr0n0m333]

Back on the Nine thoughts grind I need to think about him NOW

Anyways, this also reminds me (this being Brainworm's analysis post recently) that for someone who lives in the present, Sonic sure does get stuck in denial a lot. (I feel like this is because of forces. But also tbf that guy got thrown arpund a lot his head is NOT on straight.)

[krotiation]

I'm kinda torn on timothy getting a new prosthetic because, yeah, having two hands would be convenient and the circumstances are a bit different from when he got the hyperion hand BUT at the same time I feel like not replacing that hand is kinda healing for tim in a way?

He's spent the past decade in a body that's been changed so much to the point where it's not even his anymore, including his own DNA. I imagine that when he lost the hand he just felt detached, like he just lost something that wasn't even his own to begin with so who cares. Getting a new prosthetic would mean changing his body yet again and that would be hard to accept

[gifti3]

[one-and-a-half-yikes]

Another Day, Another Fanny Chapter...

Well that sure was fucking something huh? I promised I'd at least start talking about IM chapters on here instead of keeping it strictly to the discord server so here I am. Though most of this I already said, I don't mind going over it again, since I feel like I can better organize my thoughts on this.

Also there's no word limit, which is also great.

MY THOUGHTS ON CHAPTER 348: RABBIT REFLECTIONS

So to start, let's rip the bandaid off and just say that everything Fanny said to Vicious in this chapter was bullshit.

At this point in the story with how Fanny has been acting around Cuphead I hope I don't need to specify how Fanny is in love with Cuphead when there's just too much evidence to support it. She kissed him because she wanted to kiss him, not because she was trying to see what kind of lowdown man he was. If Fanny had truly believed that, she would have confronted him about it long ago, but she didn't and we know why. And on some level, I think she knows why, too.

I think it's much easier for a reader to imagine this chapter as a conversation Fanny is having with her conscious. Saying something like this:

Is not her responding to Vicious but to her own thoughts that weigh on her. That kiss has been on her mind for about a week. And her reasoning behind it has changed even moreso. This is her settling on a final conclusion. This is her convincing herself of her own convictions. Of her worldview. That what she did was right, that she didn't ruin something good because it was never good to begin with. So that she doesn't have to confront that ugly realization in the pit of her stomach.

That Cuphead doesn't love her the way she loves him.

That last part specifically. Let's look back at the screenshot yeah?

-"She could almost see Oswald's glare. It was all the same dance. A carousel of pain and betrayal, around and around."

It's a strange thing, isn't it? To bring up Oswald. To equate Oswald to her current situation with Cuphead. Because that is essentially what she's doing, isn't it? It may seem odd, but I do have a reason for why she's thinking that.

Rejection.

Oswald broke up with her and moved on with his life, and Cuphead literally ran from her. Literally the only thing they have in common here, is the fact that they rejected her. But there's another thing too.

"No, she shouldn’t complain. She was lucky she’d found a man with a decent job. Little fights like these weren’t going to end it all for them. Besides, it wasn’t like marriage was about love and all that stardust. She had tried that avenue, and it had ended in heartbreak. Definitely not worth it. Dumb rabbit." (Chapter 74)

The bold is obviously about Oswald. Now compare that to now. Do you see what I mean? She fell in love again, and she got hurt in the process. Nevermind that in both these scenarios the men were also hurt. Especially Cuphead who trusted her and from his perspective, probably assumed she planned on using him for her own needs. Just like Meg. Just like Natasha. And in that way it's very interesting the wording she's using to describe Cuphead, and also Oswald for that matter, rejecting her.

Pain and betrayal. Very edgy, it's giving listening to that one slowed down piano version of Numb that everybody made fandom AMVs to back in the 2000s.

But seriously, why those words? It's a betrayal that Cuphead wasn't interested in the same way she is? Painful sure, that's kind of how rejection works, but betrayal really?

Or.

Is it a betrayal to herself? Thinking of certain aspects of this chapter as Fanny talking to her conscious would definitely lead me to believe that that's partially what it is. She'd already tried the avenue of love twice and it's ended poorly for her, so why did she do it again when she said she wouldn't. Why now, and why with someone like...like him? Like Cuphead? It's absurd in her head. It's something she can't make sense of. Doesn't want to make sense of it either.

So the betrayal could be referring to herself. But, I also think it could be something else, too. But for me to talk about that I have to talk about Oswald and Fanny's relationship because even after a disastrous break up they just can't stay away from each other~

So even though we don't have a lot of context for their relationship, I'm going to go off on a hypothetical that the "betrayal" in regards to Oz is that he offered Fanny (either literally or just like, the idea of the relationship with him gave her that impression) a way out of the dark. From chapter 327 that her home life wasn't great, and she doesn't seem to have any high opinion of her parents at all. Even the mere suggestion of going back home after her break up with Oswald seemed like a worse fate to Fanny than being homeless.

Oswald betrayed her because he was her first love, and also because she was supposed to be living the good life with him. They were supposed to be together forever, but then he broke up with her and next thing Fanny's hearing he's got a successful career and a beautiful wife and kids. She left everything behind for this man only for it to turn out like this. In some ways I can kind of understand what she means. But then she applies this to Cuphead and it's a bit stranger.

Because Cuphead never did anything other than offer her friendship and nothing more. Of course, at the beginning, Cuphead did have a crush on her, but by the end of the Wonderful Winter book he's basically over it. But then I think back to that book specifically, and I think about their interactions throughout and wonder if the betrayal is because Fanny misconstrued everything about their relationship because of how he'd previously acted. Is it the case, that Fanny thought they were both in the same boat, using each other as a form of escapism. She even calls Cuphead out for this at one point and makes an observation about it. Did she think it was the same for him as it was for her? That the feelings were mutual?

And, okay I actually can't blame her for that part. Look, no matter how you slice it, Fanny and Cuphead were just straight up flirting with each other in the early chapters. Not to mention Cuphead asking to take Fanny out to dinner? The Christmas group date? The aftermath?

At the beginning, there may have been mutual feelings of attraction sure but things have changed since then. And even though Cuphead put aside his feelings for her for good, if Fanny had shown any form of reciprocity then maybe things could have changed, but she didn't. But even still it doesn't really explain how Cup could have betrayed her. It stumps me and I've had a good nap to think it through and it's still confusing.

[screampied]

hihihi good afternoon beautiful wet squirtlings 🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️ since october is coming to an end i decided to open my requests again <3 m also fine with writing angst / fluff. ANNND im willing to try to start writing for other fandoms again, just make sure to read my rules beforehand. thank uuuu !!!!