#denji <3

[denjirv]

＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ Intimacy ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊

He should like it but his body told him otherwise, maybe he's scared of what's the come with more than holding hands

⏤͟͟͞͞☆ A/N: This isn't much of a fic per say but a character study of Denji. Warning ofc of sexual content but also with implied spoilers for Part 1

Denji had the reputation of being vulgar and lewd. He wasn't ashame of his desires and what he wanted and even he himself had been sexual situations.

From the drunk coworker who vomited into his mouth to the woman who made his life a living hell. To even that first touch that she showed him.

"Naughty things feel good when you know the person better" would ring in his ear everytime he sees you. He knows you, you know him. So why is he so scared of doing it?

When he says "yes" he should get on with it he thought. But everytime he tries getting closer his chest tightens and his breathing gets cut short. He can't do it

And you know he couldn't so you stopped. "Until he's ready" you thought as you held the blonde boy into a wake embrace. He wants that pleasure, that touch that feeling of something alive inside him

He wants it so bad it makes him restless. But when you kiss his neck and tell him how much you love him he cries.

He just- cries.

Takes you back at first but he can't explain why. Sex should be something fun and exciting, thats what the adult magazines tells him. That's what he hears from older experienced men so why is he crying?

He just cries softly, he holds onto you and planned onto never letting go. Not even when you tell him how nervous he looks. He needs to experience this once with someone

Every hand holding, every peppered kissed and every soft noises of pleasure. He needs to feel it all. But whenever he sees you naked and sees himself naked he hides away

You don't know what happened to him. You don't know his past much but you don't need to ask. Denji was just as much as a child as you knew him as.

"Maybe when the time is right" you say, gently stroking his head as he falls asleep in your bare arms. Until he can finally face that fear of intimacy

Without the worry of getting hurt and being used. Until then you'll wait. You'll humor him but you'll wait. Until the poor boy is ready

[torawro]

this is what did it for me y’all………..like! i feel bad for betraying aki like this but i gotta give this boy my full attention rn bc !!!!!! it was the SLOW LOOK DOWN FOR ME HES SO PERVY AND SHAMELESS ABOUT IT😩 it’s literally the most minuscule movement of the eyes but it makes all the difference and it’s driving me crazy someone send help.

[vampcubus]

Yoshida: I won't give you this cake unless you do what I say.

Denji: Fuckalldashit *cHomP*

He’s so real for that tbh

[murtacalafate]

Cardinal and clone

[entirepeepeeman]

GOD i miss them

[bunibin]

First christmas at the hayakawa's prolly went something like this

Happy holidays to you all!! 🎄⛄

[pulksten-blog]

:D

[strawberryblondie-locks]

Messy drawings from my sketchbook

[dystopeyes]

chainsaw fam

[tenowls]

miss them....

[evermorethecrow]

is this it?

happy chapter 167 csm fans!!!!!!!!!

[denjirv]

◌⑅⃝●♡⋆♡ Pretty Girl! ♡⋆♡●⑅⃝◌

Denji gets in touch with his feminine side in a interesting way

⏤͟͟͞͞☆A/N: Fun fact I love it when guys aren't afraid to be in touch with their feminine side ❤️

CW are just of sub!Denji, GN reader, Blowjob, Dacryphilia, minor edgeing with some genderplay with a main focus of femmenization (but not force cause liking girly things are completely normal and should never be looked down upon 👍🏼) “Bleh this tastes awful!” Denji smacked his lips tasting the lip gloss that you were putting on his lips. The misleading pink and sweet smelling gloss coating his lips as he wipes it with the sleeve of his arm. “You know when it says it’s ‘strawberry flavored’ it doesn't mean literally?” You snicker watching your boyfriend pout as he crosses his arms. “Well I don’t get it! It tastes nasty but it makes you look so kissable!” He won’t lie, ever since he noticed you starting to doll up more on your dates he’s been nonstop kissing you. Partly because he wants your marks all over him and he gets to show it off, but seeing how invested and how pretty your makeup look he wanted to try it Though not saying it out loud cause “it’s weird for guys to be into that stuff”. Or that’s what he hears from the men he was surrounded with growing up. But there was that look Denji had, the kind that his eyes are wanting something. “Denji I’m not gonna let you eat thi-” “Could you do my makeup?” Denji’s face grew red watching you stop your sentence midway. He felt the pink on his cheeks grow more of a rogue red as he stayed silent. “Oh really? I mean sure but you have to stay still”. Denji blinked confused, tilting his head as he stared at you almost in disbelief of your nonchalant behavior. “Wait really? But like, isn't that super weird?” He was really trying to wrap his head around it. It shouldn’t take that much brain power but he’s looking at you like you just said some complicated math equation. “I mean some people might think so but who cares! As long as you’re happy then fine by me” You patted your lap as you grabbed your makeup brushes. “Here, come sit” And like a dog he moves over to sit on your lap. Luckily he wasn’t too heavy so you were able to not let your leg fall asleep too soon. “Hmmm, well you choose what color you want me to do” Out lay was selections of colorful palettes all with different kinds of vibrate and sometimes glittery colors. But as Denji was struggling to pick his fingers point to the pink rosey color. “That one maybe, it’s pink like your lip gloss…and I think it’ll match!” Your heart must’ve skipped a beat cause he’s actually trying to put in effort of what he wants to use. “Good choice, babe!” You perk up before cheerfully dabbing the brush onto the color. “Close your eyes ok? I don’t want any dust in your eyes” Screwing his eyes shut you giggle, covering your mouth at how silly he looks you gently rub his cheek with your free thumb “Relax babe, I can’t see what i'm working with if your eyelids are all shriveled up” Denji was getting more nervous as he relaxed his face. Your soft touch helps him loosen up as you start putting on his eye shadow. It compliments his skin well as you watch him react to the feathery touch of the brush with a twitching lip. “I know it tickles but this is nothing compare to later on”  Eyeliner will be a bitch to handle with but you want him to feel pretty like you so you continue with adding more eyeshadow. “Alright and you want me to add glitter too?” You pointed the brush at the sparkly white powder as Denji’s eyes lit up. “Yes, do it!!” He was getting all giddy which was great. He’s warming up now as once again he closes his eyes but this time you  notice his more content smile as you put it on him. He was starting to look cuter, and ever so kissable. Trial and error later with you trying to get Denji to not laugh when you start doing his eyeliner. But the end result was perfect as you showed him what he’d looked like “Woah…that’s me? I look…like a girl!” Denji wasn’t sure how he should feel since the way you did his makeup was something he wasn't too sure how to feel. He liked it but there was a tickling feeling in his stomach that might’ve left him breathing shakily. “You ok?” You looked at him worried, does he not like it? Denji’s leg was squirming around as he looked at himself more in the mirror. It was seriously fucking with his mind. It’s just him yet he felt something off about the way his face suddenly looked more femmenine. His eyes admiring the small details of his makeup he didn’t feel your hands around his waist. “What don’t tell me, I awakened something in you did I?” You would laugh but if it wasn’t for the fact that he does look rather appetizing with his shy blush and his hand covering his bulge. “Shh shhh don’t be shy now, here let me ease you up a little” You start to move your hand to his cock from under his shorts as he bit his lower lip once he felt your soft hands gently stroking his tip. “F-Fuck Y/N you feel so good..” He starts to lean into your touch as his mind was fighting back on letting you touch him in his embarrassing state but lust overpowers his thoughts. He lays against you as he watches his cock get stroked by you. “Love it when I jerk your pretty girl cock hm?” Girl cock? Denji looked confused as he was trying to get words out in between whimpers. “Girl? Hhhgh- But I’m a boy” He looked up at you with cloudy eyes, his blush never leaving his cheek as he kept on stuttering each word. “ But I’m a boy! N-Not a girl…” He protested rather weakly as you pulled a high pitch whine out of him once he felt a pressure on his leaking tip. With your fingers you trace along his slit as he leaned back further against you. His head whips back as he feels you squeeze his shaft. “Such a sweet girl, her cock is making her feel so weird” Cooing against his red tipped ears as he looks down, gasping with each stroke you make. You can feel his poor cock twitching with each word you tease him with and with how inconscient your pacing is. “Please let me cum! I’I can’t take it anymore” He starts to sound desperate as his chest rises and falls. “You wanna cum sweetheart?” You feigned innocence as when he was starting to go over the edge you stop and watch his eyes look up in disappointment as he lets out a groan. “Pleaseeee please please! Just make me cum already I-I’ll be good I swear!” Denji was starting to tear up as his cheeks were subtly wet from tears that escaped from his cloudy eyes. “Then say it, baby. Say that you’re my good girl” You rested your hand on his shaft as you listened to his incohesive whining. “B-But I feel dirty saying that” His soft pink lips pout when he thinks about that word, he hated how his cock twitched to the thought. But it felt weird saying it, then again he thought- If you want him to say it then that must mean it’s ok. With trembling lips and eyes getting wet with his tears he speaks up shyly. “P-P…Please let your good…good” He was trailing off when he saw how your hand started to agonizingly go up and down his shaft. “Hmm? My good what now?” You smile ever so sweetly to him. Encouraging him to keep going as he closes his eyes before taking a deep breath. “Please let your good girl cum please!” His face scrunches when he feels your hand suddenly stop. He made sure he was loud enough so why did you stop? ‘I'm so glad to hear, my pretty girl” You giggled seeing his grumpy face when you teased him with the nickname. He was about to scold you before suddenly gasping when you bent down to suck his cock instead.  “Wha- wait wait this is too much!!” He tries to pull your head up but you keep bobbing your head with his tip. His chest heaving and his mascara was running with how much tears there were Pink eyeshadow and eyeliner melting from the tears as a stream of black falls over his cheek. He was gasping and his legs were starting to squirm.  “Gghhhh please I-I’m gonna cum! Y-You’re pretty girl is gonna cum–!!” Before you could prepare your throat his cock throbbed before shooting its hot salty load into your mouth. Followed by Denji’s greedy hands pushing your head down. Crying so pathetically with a high pitched squeal he keeps your head still. Even though you needed to breathe you kept drinking every last drop that made him start sobbing. “Ok t-that’s enough!! I-I’m lettin go!!” He placed his hands onto the sheet cover as you kept overstimulating his cock. After a minute of suck you pull away and look at Denji’s messed up makeup that’s now left marks on the bed. His body was shaking and his cock was limp against his thighs. “So how’s that for an awakening?” You flop onto the bed as Denji follows suit. His face red and his hair disheveled as he turns to you. “Felt weird but I kinda like it…it feels pretty good having this on you know? I feel hot!” He laughed as you gently pushed his arm, laughing along with him. “Is that way you keep your makeup on sometimes when we have se-”. You kissed his mouth while he spoke. “Ok how about we get some rest and maybe later I’ll practice more makeup stuff on you how bout that?” “Say less!” He was back to being giddy again even with his soul sucked and having to call himself a girl for you. He switches so quick if it means he gets more quality time with you 

[torawro]

please im watching csm and the way i want to cry for denji he’s just so pure :((((((( “no one’s ever been nice to me before or given me anything”🥺🥺🥺🥺 BABY ILL GIVE U DA WHOLE WORLDDDDD AND THENSOME LIKE ILL GIVE U EVERYTHING JUST TO SEE U SMILE🥺🥺🥺 lil skrunkly must be protected at all costs !!!! it’s making me mad now bc makima doesn’t deserve his affections at all.

[megane-sama]

Cinematic Parallels.

[mochikage]

your goofy fave who comes up to you when you’re out running errands or shopping with friends and says “my friend thinks you’re cute” while pointing off to the distance only for you to look where he’s pointing and see his reflection in a mirror winking at you

[fumifooms]

Firefly Wedding is so…

It’s so

It’s them. It’s "It’s just a firefly, they’re meant to die soon. Why should I care about the sick, or the poor?"

It’s "I was purposely trying to scare you and push you away to see how far you were willing to go with your act, how desperate you were to play with my feelings as if I was a fool, but it didn’t work."

It’s "I know you’re just using me but now I care. Please keep using me. I need you to need me."

It’s choosing to give her her freedom anyways. Because your love is no longer all about you, no longer selfish. Because this love isn’t just a shallow balm to soothe your complexes anymore.

It’s being betrayed, finally facing the lies and no longer pretending you both don’t know that this is a farce, but desperately wanting to keep it going anyways. It’s "I should hate you now. Why don’t I? Hey, tell me we’ll go through with the plan, tell me you’ll marry me after all. Otherwise, why am I still here? Why don’t I want to leave? You act like you don’t need me but I still need you."

Like that’s so revolutionary for a yandere story. The self-delusion is strong, denial that things have changed despite it being impossible to truly believe, BUT HE STAYS. It’s no longer selfish 😭😭

"I don’t care about you anymore, I won’t help you. Get yourself killed for all I care." <- Jumps to her rescue 3 milliseconds later when she almost falls down a ladder/roof. It happens twice. The ‘lying and trying to emotionally distance yourself from something to protect yourself and not get hurt’ defense mechanism is blatant and it’s failing really bad.

It’s "My sense of duty and goals to have accomplished something useful in my short life are making me do this, but I do want you to stay with me." The yandere stuff here gets turned on its head because what he says is empty where it matters and meaningful where it matters. It’s knowing that if Satoko asks him not to kill anyone he won’t, but knowing that he won’t give up on her no matter what, even if she’s unattainable, even if she’s sickly, even if she pushes him away like just before. It’s so thinly veiled for "I’m determined to see my goal through, but that’s not what I want. If you just so happen to take me away and I don’t try to run away hard enough then we can elope and be free. I want to have an excuse to leave with you. Please give up on marrying me. Please don’t. I want that, but I can’t."

It’s "If I didn’t burn brightly in my short firefly life, then what was the point?"

Except that burning brightly doesn’t have to mean making big achievements, or being useful to your family.

It can be living happily, living for the ones you love, fighting for them. It can be worth to risk it for things that actually matter to you.

It’s giving your heart to someone, figuratively and literally. To lend it to them even if it might get used or battered, for as long as it beats to use your body to protect them, even if you have to sacrifice yourself. A love that burns bright into a bonfire before they both turn to ashes. Unwise but wholehearted.

It’s despite even that, needing grandiose gestures to be able to trust that this is real. It’s needing external cues that prove it to feel safe in their love existing, other people to confirm that he’s not crazy, that this is happening and this is how they both feel. Their love has been fake, both being a warped love and being a lie, only being out of necessity or because the other was the only one willing to offer it to them, offering comfort, safety, support and care. And showing that they care is the most loving of all. It’s despite everything falling back into old habits that "Oh if she was miserably worried for me then that means she’s not indifferent to me! That’s good!" And then once again being taken aback by her, by her earnestness and by her will. Because oh, no, this goes deeper than that. She cares. It’s love.

It’s opening your heart up to love, and both being punished and rewarded for it.

But most of all it’s

And it being the most loving thing he’d ever heard

Firefly Wedding is so…

And yet it’s also

The complicated and hurtful nature of love and the joy and light it brings are two sides of the same coin, because that’s what inevitably happens when you care about something. But caring about a firefly isn’t a waste even however short lived it is, or how hard the loss will inevitably hit you. Isn’t their light just such a wonder to witness?