#demons in my head

[geolos]

only crazy people will be crazy about this clip (mind u this was 3 days after bedgate dropped)

[irvinis]

Don't hurt Jemima, she tried! :)

The harsh and sad truth of drawing!

[tearyx]

Immer und immer wieder öffne ich den Chat.

Wieder steht da klar und deutlich „online“ und mein Kopfkino geht los.

Mit wem du da wohl schreibst..

Wieso schreibst du allen, nur mir nicht?

Ich hab dir so viel zu sagen.

[gewitternebel]

i forgot how happy im feeling if i’m losing weight. i lost -5kg this month bc i can’t eat much most of the time. idk my ed is still in my head. sometimes quiet, sometimes loud.. but guys i might focus on this feeling again bc i have to quit smoking weed (i am addicted, smoking daily for a looong time and i prob going crazy next week)

[welcominthehell]

🖤👹🖤

[yellowrayn]

It's mostly not what it looks like:

They said she's very kind, so she may act.

He has friends, along feeling so lonely.

They look sweet, then again not.

She's smart and amazing, but want to die.

He's bullying, but just hurt.

They say they won't lie, but too late.

She said she'd try, but gave up.

He needs help, but can't even see it.

They say they love you, but don't.

She said you were friends, but she lied.

[placeofthebroken]

Heyyyy ich bin wieder zurück

[kagehime19]

Demons in my mind

Hurt, because I don’t know how comfort works

Thought of demons won’t shut up

Keep coming back and back

Pushing further and further

Convincing me

I am a horrible daughter

Person

Only thinking about myself

„Selfish you“ they say

„Hurting others by only thinking

talking

About yourself“

„Selfish me“ I start to think

„Only thinking

Talking

about me“

„I want other people to like me“

But I don’t want to force myself

My problems to them

They have anough of that themself

They don't need, don’t WANT mine too

„You are worth nothing in this world“

the demons say

„You talk to none

You don’t call your family

Your friends don’t call you.

Nobody cares if you disappear

Nobody will notice until it’s too late

Then you'll be gone

And no one will care“

Because I don’t know how to do

How to handle emotions

Don’t know what the hell is wrong with me

I want people to notice me

I am to scared being rejected

So I don’t try

Don’t hope

That there are people who like me

Because the demons, my own thoughts

Won’t let me.

So I look for the most dark and quiet corner

And cry silent all alone

So I won’t be a burden to the ones

I like.

[tech2no2]

[just-a-nobody21]

Unseen

I look at him, like words pierce parchment.

He doesn't.

While his hands glide on unseen parts of my body

I crave for his deep set eyes to ravage me.

I pick apart the blindfold.

My fingers traverse the distance between longing and reality

As they fumble between silken strands of jet black hair.

His hands guide me towards transience

And I oblige.

Afterall,

I belong to this solitude between us

Standing still like a fortress.

My body is a sullen replica of tales untold,

Waiting to be heard.

While he gauges the depth of all that's pure inside me

My demons peek into 'our' time - ungodly vessels of condescending anecdotes,

I sink into a deluge of neurotic euphemisms.

Of minutes past, present & future.

In robust displays of untethered strength, they force him into submission,

Till he can't bear to gaze upon my body any longer.

I whisper to myself-

Fraught with fear, bereft of prayers;

'I hope he keeps his eyes shut.

I hope I stay,

Unseen.'

[bloodyberryline]

[tearyx]

Und manchmal ist der Teufel im Kopf lauter, als der Engel im Herzen. 🖤

[lotsumy]

[luzifersbabee]

Und selbst in einem Moment, wo meine Welt zusammenbricht. Warst du da und hast mir ein lächeln ins Gesicht gezaubert.

Mit nur deiner Anwesenheit in einem Chat, hab ich mich nicht mehr allein gefühlt.

Du warst zur richtigen Zeit im richtigen chat! Danke dafür!🫶🏽🫂

[wishing-for-fish]

I remember when I was scared of monsters that lived under my bed, and I would get someone to check under the bed for monsters. The monster was never there, and I used to wonder where had it gone? Now I know, they live in my head, and they won't leave me alone

[shyunicorn69]

Here we are another day and it's still the same shit just a different day. I want to be so hopeful and full of life but these demons in me they won't let any light come to pass. I'm struggling in vain holding onto the grasp of light that's slowly dying inside of me. I can't let them snuff it out. If that happens then my whole life is over. It'll be hanging up the coat and calling it a day. I don't want to lose sight of who I really am. I know I can be hopeful and full of life again. I just have to battle it out with the curse that's been placed upon me since birth. The last swing will determine the outcome of the war inside the mind. Let's see that horizon come at last