#debated on whether or not to post this on my art blog but im just gonna post it here + rb it there lol

[dreamilykitty]

the slumblespekta playlist finally drops <3

i recommend listening to the songs in order to get the Full Experience! heres an alternate link if u cant do that on spotify

rainbow connection - the muppets / from the start - laufey / fighter - jack stauber / dont say that - ricky montgomery / turn out the lights - the crane wives / pitter patter - vane lily / konton boogie - jon-yakitory / monitoring (cover) - trickle / starkiller - bear ghost / foolishly wrong - autoheart / phony (cover) - will stetson / queen of nothing - the crane wives / parasite (cover) - rachie / god-ish (cover) - will stetson / hanahaki syndrome - shiki miyoshino / the bad place - waitress / heat abnormal - iyowa / my eternity - vane lily / hearts claws - vane lily / against the kitchen floor - will wood / language of the lost - riproducer / valentine - laufey / wasteland, baby! - hozier / time will change you - the crane wives

[usagi-miyamoto]

Someone followed me, and I thought they were maybe neutral, but??? No??? Their comms mentioned no proship, so now I'm confused on why they're following me then?????? ���

[birdiebirdjay]

hey! call me aj or just jay. nicknames are cool too if we're friends! :) dms are always open! i love chatting with people

pronoun page

profile pic by cutegirlsart on insta, matching with my gf <3

please no donation asks! i'm unable to donate and the same goes for most of my followers/mututals.

about my blog:

⁀☆ new theme for valentines day!

⁀➴ my main fandom is harry potter but you'll occasionally also get good omens or marvel posts

⁀☆ i talk about percy weasley and severus snape a lot

⁀➴ i LURVE lucius malfoy (minus the terrorism) and i think he was an awesome dad, actually

⁀☆ @birdiebirdtalks is my original content/fandom meta blog because i reblog a lot over here

⁀➴ i welcome friendly debates and have no qualms with people disagreeing with me as long as they're open to me debating back

⁀☆ i write stuff! requests are always open <3

⁀➴ i also shitpost a lot

⁀☆ send me asks!!! i'm bad at getting to them but i'll love you forever

(about me under the cut - tdlr: i'm aj and i'm a silly little dude who loves his girlfriend)

about me:

⁀➴ i love my girlfriend

⁀☆ goofy silly whimsical but i do get angry sometimes sorry :(

⁀➴ south asian american

⁀☆ doefae is otp sorry i don't make the rules

⁀➴ feminist and i will throw hands if you disrespect women

⁀☆ i love my girlfriend

⁀➴ genderfluid dude

⁀☆ he/him or she/her are fine (i don't really mind how people perceive me)

⁀➴ i love my girlfriend

⁀☆ haver of the tism and the 80 hd's

⁀➴ martial artist and contortionist-in-training

⁀☆ i'm a remus lupin apologist and remadora is my guilty pleasure ship

⁀➴ did i mention i love my girlfriend?

☆ i'm very rarely offended by anything (probably because the audhd doesn't let me understand offensive intentions ksjdjsjdh but i do appreciate tone tags and when people do the thing where they speak like an elcor) so feel free to ask really anything or just say hi :)

☆ fandoms/things i enjoy and will write about: harry potter (books) , good omens (book and show!!) , marvel (movies, phase 1-3 plus TFATWS and the loki show) , inception (movie) , free guy (movie) , teen beach movies 1 & 2 (movies, they're my go-to comfort) , peacock [2010] (movie) , over the garden wall (show)

☆ things i just enjoy: norse mythology! , ducktales (2017) , philosophy , ATLA (show) , and a lot of other stuff!! feel free to ask

♡ my people: ♡

@percyweasleyapologist - MY GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ my fav zoe doe who i love annoying with my awesome taste in fictional characters <333

@winn-wynn - tumblr mum-in-law!! used to be my mum fr but then i got kinda disowned but just because the incest accusations were no bueno- zoe and i are her leash children muahahaha

@sarkylittlemonster - uni!! super cool writer and lover of percy weasley :))

@beanthebugboi - bean!! uber cool friend and also tumblr famous hehe

@lirenthenonlyrist - liren!! my buddy man and also fellow simp for zoe's walburga black drawing >:)

@guess1mjustheren0w - bea!! my cool niece hehe we phase out of reality together sometimes

@casuallybeez - cheese!! MY PLATONIC POOKIE BEAR 🫶🏽🫶🏽

@mairon-goth-minion - evan!! great nephew baguette :3

(if you aren't on here it's probably because i'm not sure whether or not you want a ping or because i'm vaguely intimidated by you ^^' lmk if you wanna be added! <3)

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tag guide:

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#aj writes - my fics

#personal/#not fandom just aj - both are basically the same, just 'me' stuff

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[ask-melliotstuck]

WELCOME !! :)

ask-melliotstuck is a half ask-blog and half info-blog for my work-in-progress homestuck / melliot au ! this blog goes hand in hand with it's fanfiction for the au, found here, though one or the other isn't directly necessary to be read if you just want to focus on either the blog or the fic!

while death, thrice drawn is planned to focus primarily on taopp's cast of characters as the humans, this askblog serves to focus mostly on adamandi's cast of characters, which will be taking the place of homestuck's trolls :)

the askbox will always be open to questions for the au, but please take note on whether in-character asks are open or not before directing any questions at any of the adamandi characters :) in-character asks are planned to be answered in primarily art panels or sketches, and therefore will take a little more time to be answered. if you just have a question about this au you're looking to be answered, send in an ask and i'll get to it! (as long as you peep in the rules first, ofcourse :^) )

RULES AND GUIDELINES::

please no directly nsfw ask submissions, i will not answer them. anything canon-typical is in fair game, but as a rule i will not go beyond melliot's boundaries

Hoping i dont have to do this much but i have the right to deny any asks for any reason, and i don't owe an explanation for if certain asks may make me uncomfortable

i will not be answering any questions that might spoil the plot to death, thrice drawn, whether indirectly or not :) i have plans !

i will not be answering any offensive, political, or otherwise hateful asks. this blog is for fun, and im not here to debate on anything nor am i here to offend anybody.

have fun !!!!

side note :: marmorei society does have designs but probably won't make many appearances simply bc i don't have good characters for them really :P sorry

side note #2 :: this blog may or may not mention past vambrose, if you have a problem with that then. idk like block the vambrose tag from here or something

extra info + credits below the cut !! :)

any and all art/writing is made by @boyish-reassurances unless stated otherwise on the post :) all art is free to use for pfps, banners or what have you, as long as youre not claiming it as your own!

[star-on-a-beach]

Okay um. I really don't like doing this, like, ever

But

Tw for vent post, Bc idk, maybe it'll help if I talk about this where it'll be seen and not on a vent blog where I know no one sees it

So it's pretty obvious that pretty much everything right now is in kind of a shit state and I'm really at the end of my line trying to be optimistic about it. Presidential election, rp, guard, college, art, writing, all of this shit, even stuff I'm supposed to enjoy, makes me want to fucking shatter a rock because I don't want to do anything anymore other than scroll through social media on my phone which, I've probably developed an addiction, and of course that makes me feel even fucking worse bc I told myself I'd never get addicted and look at where I am now

So many things I'm unhappy with are really kind of tying back to me and I'm so angry at everything but especially myself now, but theres nothing I feel like I can do about it but try and break it all down I guess?

There's shit going on with color guard and, other than the friends I've made within it and the actual performances, I don't fucking enjoy it anymore because our coach is apparently super fucking shitty and a liar and unfair and argumentative and never sticks with the drill she writes and doesn't give us the resources to put it together correctly, WHEHN SHES LITERALLY OUR COACH AND THATS HER JOB, IVE TRIED SO HARD TO STAY KIND TO HER BUT WITH EVERYONE AROUND ME TALKING SHIT AND TALKING ABOUT WHAT A BAD PERSON SHE IS IM STARTING TO DO IT TOO AND I HATE IT

And then obviously there's the actual schoolwork that needs to get done, I thought I had not one, not two, but 3 FUCKING ESSAYS DUE ON THE 11TH, WHICH WERE ASSIGNED TO US ON WEDNESDAY, AND EACH HAD TO BE 700 WORDS LONG. Granted it doesn't actually have to be like that but teachers are talking about finals now and I'm going to have SO many essays for that and I have a whole debate too. I'm tired and sick of waking up at ridiculously different times for classes and not being able to have a goddamn nap bc I'm either working, procrastinating with the screens addiction again, or I don't have enough time because god knows I can't take power naps for SHIT, and I'm not fucking paying for coffee in this economy

I can't even relax how I normally want to because I'm so tired from everything, too. Writing big things for TAOCC or drawing feels like a chore, and then I feel obligated to draw others characters or I want to actually do so but I have no energy for it, and I can't get my art to look how I want it to perspective-wise, no matter how many tutorials I look at, and it never ends up the way I want and I haven't even finished TAOCCTOBER or Memoryquest, both of which I feel shitty for, because then they're both more things that I'm giving up on, and I give up on so much shit so easily unless I'm being pushed over and over and over and over, although rn I really wanna just say to hell with it and kill both of them entirely

And with taocc as a whole, I don't even know where to begin. I mentioned in my earlier post that I'm struggling to be assertive and actually say what I want with RP, which results in me feeling really unsatisfied with it a lot. I feel like people aren't interested in my characters and I need to be the one trying to build the characters' connections by asking questions, which. I love when other characters ask mine questions, because so much would be revealed if PEOPLE JUST ASKED. I know you guys don't mean it in this way but I feel like I'm trying to push all of this out, but I barely get anything back except for maybe one question or comment or smth, but it feels like the characters aren't interested in my characters' pasts, and that means the mods aren't either. Which, is really no fault of yours, whether you are or not, it's my fault because I can't bring myself to get off my high horse and actually say "hey, are you willing to have your characters ask about mine?" because I have the firm mentality of "if they wanted to, they would", and I'm trying to make other characters feel important while also craving mine to feel important, but the moment they do, I wonder if I'm taking the main-character roles too much and I need to even it out so I immediately divert the attention back to yours and feel shitty about it. Once again, this is no one's fault but mine, and this is partially why my relationship with my last rp partner, aka my ex bsf, ended, because I wasn't assertive enough and kept wondering if I was hogging the spotlight any time focus did switch to my characters which just isn't enjoyable for anyone. So I'm angry and terrified that these patterns which are repeating are going to lead to a similar outcome.

It isn't even just that though, I just really hate how I write as a whole rn. I used to be so poetic and good with words but now they read difficult unless I'm writing a great wall of text, and my characters aren't acting the way I want to, partially because I'm trying to morph them to get along more with other characters and diminish their flaws so they're liked by others, but it just takes away from who they were originally and I hate that as well. It's easy to get caught up in the heat of the rp but for fucks sake I expect myself to be a better writer than this.... and I haven't even gotten around to fixing the fucked-up-with-a-side-of-cheddar timelines, which have been NAGGING at my mind for FUCK KNOWS HOW LONG, but once again, I don't even want to do anything anymore and I get mad bc the only things I wanna do are just self indulgent shit and like hell I'm asking for that from anyone (see, that's part of the problem, right there.)

I think the only thing I hate more than not being assertive with rp is the fact that I'm an adult among you all. Yes, being 18 now while the majority of you are minors is a massive fucking deal to me, and I'm realizing why exactly adults generally avoid friendships like this, because I'm constantly worried about being a good example to you all. I have to have the good advice, I have to be available, I have to be good with assertiveness and boundaries, hell part of the reason I try and avoid venting so much is because you all do not fucking need to have that burden. Every time I do something like this post I immediately think "these are kids and I'm an adult, it's kids trying to help an adult who should not be saying this stuff or laying this burden on them", as if I'm some kind of weirdo. I really try my damndest to not be one of those adults who dumps all their problems on adolescents in order to feel better about their own shitty life, I don't want to be the adult who their younger friends are comforting all the time and have that burden on them (yes, I am completely aware this post contradicts that, and yes, I am very ashamed but I feel Im at rock bottom and you guys deserve to know (but don't deserve the burden of it)). I don't feel like the example I want to be to you guys, I'm incredibly dense, and half the time, I feel like an oblivious idiot for the simplest fucking things in rp even when no one says anything that implies any of you guys think that. I get so annoyed as well, and that's another part I especially hate, it's that I get annoyed with the smallest things so damn easily, whether it's someone saying something random in call and breaking silence, or someone talking about a subject after we've moved on, or a rant that's gone on for a really long time. All of those are ridiculous things to be annoyed by, and I'm completely aware of that. I'm not proud of it whatsoever. It might also be the weather, but I'm so, so, so annoyed by so many tiny, insignificant things nowadays that it's ridiculous, and I've snapped on call a few times which I feel horrible about. I'm trying so hard to be a good, strong role model for all of you, because that's what you deserve and I want to be like that for you. But, both here and in real life, my own idiocy and density and emotions make me feel like I'm never going to escape being a dense, emotional, spacy child who keeps trying to catch up. And as an adult, I'm really, really, really upset that I feel like this because once again, you guys are the minors, not me. I'm not saying you guys should feel like that (I really hope not, no one should feel like that), but it feels even worse since I'm trying to be the adult for you guys to look up to, but I'm looking up to all of you instead. And then, even worse, I get jealous. Not of the bad shit you guys go through, but like. Insignificant things. Art styles, friends, activities, actually having your family around. I really hate myself for being jealous of that and always comparing and trying to match it since it's completely hypocritical of me otherwise.

I'm closing up this vent, but tw for some darker themes in the next paragraph

I'm really just kind of sick of life as a whole. I'm done being an adult, to hell with this, just let me be the younger friend again so I don't have to see myself as an old baby. I'm tired of all of this and the dark jokes I make, they're horrible, but they're becoming more common and I think about the content of them a lot. I'm so tired of this shit and feeling like this and I'm mad and ashamed that I'm making this post because of everything I said above. I'm so done with everything. To hell with this country, to hell with my future, to hell with drawing and writing and trying to put stuff out. At the time of writing this I'm crying, because I'm really really missing my dad. I want to hug him and be with him. I want my family overall to be okay. I want to feel happy and content with myself and my life like back in summer. I'm so sorry for having to say all this but it's the truth and, again, this is my last resort for trying to feel better because hell knows I don't have the initiative to make an appointment and talk to a therapist on campus. Ik this will go away later but ffs i don't know if I can wait until later.

Ok, heavy vent part is over

I've said a lot so I'm ending it here. If you choose to ignore this, that's fine. I'd appreciate some kind of acknowlegement, tbh, whether it's a like or a comment or something, or just a kind word (whatever you do, please don't just put *hug* and leave it at that, hugs dont really feel like they have much more meaning at this point). It feels ridiculous to ask you for comfort especially after kinda dumping all of this here for you guys to see but I might as well try ig. Idk, I'm gonna just try and not delete this out of shame.

I hope you all know that I love you guys so, so, so, so much. This community has brought me so much joy and leaving is the last thing I'd ever dream of unless I had to. I hope you guys don't mind me doing this too much. Logically Ik you probably don't but, really, none of what I just vented about is based in logic regardless.

Thank you for reading, whether it was skimming or fully reading it. Kind words are appreciated but obviously not forced and I love you guys so much. Goodnight ❤️

[utilitycaster]

I feel like something so many ppl just don’t get is it’s improv. I’ll see ppl be like “I hate this arc” or “this dragged on” I’m like?? If you want to watch a curated tight fantasy story with a normal beginning middle and end maybe don’t watch long form improv media? Also maybe I’m just fundamentally misunderstanding what ur post is about. I’ll constantly think and say “it’s their game” not as a “they’re above criticism” way but more in a “cmon it’s not like this is a script that’s being poured over by ten ppl sitting in a room debating whether this 30 seconds drags or not”. Like I love Play it By Ear from Dropout but I’d never hold it to the same standard as like Six the musical or whatever. Improv/normal media requires a completely different rule set for criticism imo

Hey anon,

So here's the thing - I agree with this in terms of formal, published criticism (Ebert's Law, if you will) where you are, to an extent, grading on a scale; you should be judging on what the work is trying to achieve and not some abstract ideal that applies equally to all works regardless of provenance.

However, for personal discussion (including your own personal Tumblr blog)? This is totally irrelevant. You're allowed to dislike things, whether it's a 30 minute improvised musical or whether it's the Marriage of Figaro, for any reason. It is 100% valid for someone to look at the Mona Lisa and say "eh, doesn't do it for me," and, moreover, it's just as valid for them to say "it doesn't do it for me because I don't care for representative art and prefer abstract, modern works, but Da Vinci's sfumato technique is indeed masterful" as to say "It doesn't do it for me because it's fucking weird to me that she doesn't have eyebrows." People's enjoyment of a work is not necessarily reliant on effort put in or how much the artist cares about - it should be based on how much the art appeals to them.

It's fine if people hate an arc. If they hate it so much that they aren't able to enjoy watching, then I think they should probably stop watching...but that's a choice for them to make, and as someone who loves complaining, I've talked about arcs dragging and had it interpreted by total strangers as "you clearly seem to hate this" when really it was just a case of me...not liking some aspects of a larger whole, and choosing to talk about that because I had things to say. Like, I do think the early Campaign 3 pacing was deeply frustrating, and I do think that this wouldn't be the case if it weren't improv, but there have been many improv actual plays that I felt had great pacing, and also it was still frustrating to me and I wanted to express that.

In fact, what I was getting at in my post is that if you're trying to provide a counterpoint to other people's criticism, you need to focus on the points they're making; and if you're trying to defend something in general, you need to be talking about what you find good that is specific to that thing, rather than making excuses like "the cast likes it" or "it's improv".

To give an example: I love the Aeor arc, which was, to an extent, divisive. Here's two responses I could have:

"I think the Aeor arc built up to a satisfying and emotionally charged final boss fight that was thematically resonant with the Mighty Nein as a group. I think the path there had a good balance of adventure, combat, and RP scenes, especially given its position as the final arc of the campaign and the one in which many of the character romances were realized. Eiselcross was a fun and well-crafted environment that was challenging for a party of their level, and Aeor provided new insight into the Calamity, which at the time had not been explored in depth, while also providing a lot of opportunities to tie into the arcs of the various individual characters, notably Caleb and Caduceus. I also personally am a big fan of exploring fallen technologically advanced civilizations in a fantasy setting as a trope."

2. "Well, it's the cast's table, and it's improvised."

Both are true, but the first one lets people know what I see in that arc and why I love it. The second one ends the conversation, is true of almost everything Critical Role does, probably doesn't address anyone else's complaints, and doesn't even explain why I like it. And for what it's worth I don't think meta needs to address anyone's complaints - you're allowed to look at the Aeor arc and say "cool, I think it took too long and dragged and was too stressful" and we can part ways knowing we are different people with different tastes. But if I were, hypothetically, passionately trying to defend the Aeor arc and were openly resentful towards people who disliked it, the first option is obviously superior to the second option, which makes me look like someone who cannot come up with a single specific reason why this thing I allegedly love is good, and who is whining because I lack the maturity to accept that my opinions are not universally shared by all.

[spicybylerpolls]

Dear Spicy Byler Polls,

i love your in-depth response to the anon about rooting for finn to be queer and the difference between accusations of queer-baiting and excited speculation.

the main difference does seem to be entitlement, and public forums. for example, commenting on someone's literal social media post? rude. are they going to reply personally to you? no! but i think people honestly forget or dont care that the celeb can see that. they have something to say, and they think they have the right to say it. so they do.

so my main issue is being told i can't speculate amongst friends (which is what this blog often feels like) when we are pretty hidden over here. i certainly would never want to interact with finn or even comment on his posts, as i dont feel i have anything to contribute to his life. but i love to observe and wonder in my own space on the internet, because it does serve me to do that, and i am not hurting finn, which is what matters.

but lastly i will just say that the ambiguity of how we interpret things is maybe what freaks people out about speculation. for example, i had a hunch that noah was queer way before this debate and s4, but it didnt matter in my life so i wasnt boasting to anyone about being right when he came out. it wasnt about me! who cares what i thought? my hunch was also based on nebulous things that arent quantifiable and definitely would not hold up in a court of law (lol), so it also seemed trite to describe them.

whereas sadie simply saying she likes an artist who is queer, for me is very silly evidence because that essentially makes everything into a message, and if a large majority of the straight community realised that queer folk think them liking queer art made them queer, it would stop them liking that art (or rather, being open about how much they liked it), in case people started saying ooooh you must be queer! not that being queer is bad, but that the jump in logic is pretty large. its like saying oooh you've got a friend who is queer, you must be queer too! it was a wonder it didnt happen as much as it could have with queen in the 80s - the music was so good, people didnt care. same for elton john. but im sure plenty refused to listen based on the rep alone.

I personally am not queer, and if i had a platform of fans, and i said oooh i love boygenius, and some of those fans started thinking i was queer because of that, i would feel like they were reading too deeply. because my queerness would not be expressed through enjoying music, which is a universal thing. if they started to notice actual queer behaviours in me that i also acknowledged were queer, and i was questioning, i would be like ok, they've seen through me.

so as a straight person who is fascinated by modern (and older) queer culture, its kind of funny to me to see the ways modern queer folk interact with people who are unlabelled.

it seems to have gone from the old ways of safely finding others queers, like asking if theyre part of the family (which would have been an assumption based on instinct and vibes, and which was relatively easy to dismiss if they were in fact straight), to either demanding someone comes out, or relying on vague indicators of sexual identity, like someone's taste in music or even whether they wear rainbows.

these things might be big for the queer community, but they already have meanings in the straight ones, too. liking rainbows does not make you queer or even indicate you are queer.

of course, the queer community have used these ambiguous ways to find each other, but the whole point is that they remain double meanings in order to protect the secret language of queerness. 'are you family' means one thing to straights and another to queer folk, but now, in modern culture, lots of queer people seem to be insisiting that it MUST mean only one thing: gayness. for example, someone wearing rainbows? they must be gay. they must be flagging. despite the millenia-long history of the existence of rainbows and their popularity in pop culture.

in modern gay culture, many people seem to think they are entitled the queerness of others because they sense it. whereas back in the day, you get the sense that if someone did not respond positively to 'are you part of the family?' then you would leave them alone, not demand that they come out because they would be happier if they did so and lived their truth.

do you think this speaks more about the internet age than it does about queer culture itself? and can queer culture every be extricated from the internet age? can any modern culture, now? i love that young queer folk are living more freely, but it seems to have swung a horrible way, towards entitlement for a lot of people online. and all that does is make them unhappy when their faves dont come out. i understand that queer people are oppressed and need idols and role models more than straight folk. but you can still enjoy an artist's work even if they dont share your sexual identity, cant you? it might help to make your experience more universal if you can acknowledge that not everything is about sexual identity. we want gay love stories like stranger things to bring straight folk and queer closer, not divide them by making sure gay communities remain separate, surely?

i hope i'm not being unfair.

Thank you for your thoughts! I hadn't really considered the straight perspective in all of this. You bring up a lot of interesting points, and I don't agree with all of it, but I don't necessarily disagree either.

You're right that sometimes rainbows are just rainbows and that, "These things might be big for the queer community, but they already have meanings in the straight ones, too. liking rainbows does not make you queer or even indicate you are queer."

I just had a vision of someone who is really into rainbows, putting them on literally everything, placing them in all their captions, placing them on all their bags, and everyone assumes they're flagging their sexuality. But then it turns out they're actually just a devout Southern Baptist, and they're really into the Noah's Ark story lol.

That being said, rainbows might be pretty universal, but I'd say there are symbols and clues that one might flag with that are very queer. And probably one or two of these things can be a coincidence. But just like with Mike's sexuality, it's not just one thing that clues us in but several subtle things piled on top of each other. And while of course "you can still enjoy an artist's work even if they don't share your sexual identity," there's a subtle magic when they do share it that I'd say can't be fully replicated by anything else.

The thing I find the most interesting about your message is your question, "Do you think this speaks more about the internet age than it does about queer culture itself? and can queer culture ever be extricated from the internet age? can any modern culture, now?" And I do think a lot of what you're critiquing is absolutely a part of the internet age in general. And it's not going away anytime soon.

The one thing I will clarify tho is that the Sadie Sink/girl in red thing is not a matter of her liking a queer artist but the context. At some point in like 2020 or 2021, "do you like girl in red?" actually became a very specific coded conversation/semi-meme for queer girls on TikTok.

So Sadie commenting I like girl in red btw on a girl's Instagram, followed by a winky face, is absolutely within that context. It's not about liking a queer artist, cause "I like Reneé Rapp" doesn't hold the same meaning even though they are both lesbians. And it's not even about liking girl in red as anyone can like her music (I love her music and I'm a guy), but about subtly communicating queerness in a specific way.

That being said, music/media in general ARE cultural signifiers that someone may be "safe," especially if there's a pattern. Like if someone's Spotify exclusively consists of boygenius and other similar artists, if they follow the Heartstopper cast on IG, and if their favorite films on Letterboxd are But I'm a Cheerleader, Bottoms, Carol, and Portrait of a Lady on Fire, that might be a sign lol.

I'm interested in my anons thoughts on this.

[brighhton]

im debating whether i should just post my og art on my side blog even though its not hl/portal themed just because if i post here it wont show up in tags ... in the coming weeks if the issue doesnt get fixed i might just have to move blogs which i reaally dont want to do augh

[yans-scratches]

im too lazy to make an about page right now so....

about me:

hi! my real name is madeline, but you can call me maddy or yan if you want. as the bio says, i use she/it pronouns and am transgender and bisexual.

im primarily an artist, scratching whatever bullshit comes to mind on my decade old tablet between my terrible job and my less than stellar mental state. im also a fursuiter and am trying to learn how to make my own suits.

if you talk to me and i come off as cold and aloof, dont take it personally. im neurodivergent and usually have a million things i need to think about, so it makes me sound uncaring when i actually do care. this is tumblr so im sure most of you understand.

a quick note about the content i post here

its all furry art, i dont like drawing humans.

this specific blog is SFW, but i do draw dirty and graphic stuff on the side and some of my posts here will refer to my cannabis use. i dont have a NSFW blog and im debating whether or not i even want one. that being said, i am not good at talking to minors and would appreciate that if you are under 18, you enjoy my SFW art at a distance and not message me. oh, and my other blogs are NOT for minors at all.

about my characters:

yan or yanny (she/it) is my main fursona. she is just me but an anthro fox.

koko (she/her) is my raccoon dog character. she is a kleptomaniac with a good heart who finds herself getting into trouble often.

aya (she/her) is a former dragonborn dnd character of mine. shes serious, smart, and shy, focusing the majority of her energy improving her spellcasting.

about sharing my art

please do! with credit of course. i also dont mind if you use it as a profile picture. also, do not use my art in any projects without my express consent. i dont know why you would though.

i dont consider my art to be exceptionally original or even of enough quality to warrant a defensive attitude. i just want to share it.

[ofallplaceswhythis]

K this is from the star (literally) (im also gonna section this)

Characters and their headcanons

im gonna leave this one to you unless you specifically ask

Fanfics

ATYD- wolfstar, flowerpott, minor or background

Just Lovers (like we were supposed to be)- sunseeker, wolfstar, m/bg

Crimson Rivers- sunseeker, wolfstar, minor of backround

Only the Brave- sunseeker, wolfstar, minor or background

Kill your darlings- sunseeker, wolfstar, minor or background

Cadence of Part - Time Poets- wolfstar, flowerpott, m/bg

The Hand That Feeds- seameadows, minor or background

Every Lovers Game- seameadows, minor or background

I'm not going to teach him how to dance (sequel to ^)- rosekiller, m

ATYD - Sirius POV- like ATYD

Best friend's brother- sunseeker, wolfstar, m/bg

The Black Mass over highway 90- wolfstar

Art Heist, Baby!- sunseeker, wolfstar, minor seameadows, m/bg

Choices- sunseeker, minor wolfstar, m/bg

the rest is your choice but these are all the classics (that i can think of rn)

Ships

Jily / Flowerpott

literally the cornerstone of the fandom (along with wolfstar) amazing ship but the fans hating on jegulus made people hesitant to ship it

wolfstar

you already know BUT a little controversy surrounding tonks and how it "excludes her" and "not acknowledging her is a product of misogynism" (which i am prepared to give a whole debate about. Otherwise the PARENTS AND THE FOUNDING FATHERS OF THIS ENTIRE FANDOM

jegulus / starchaser / sunseeker

VERY popular ship - no controversies as far as I can think of except flowerpott fans hating on them

dorlene / seameadows (marlene means star of the sea)

the very first RIVALS TO LOVERS (sunseeker is enemies to lovers imo) the very first marauders era wlw ship to emerge AND A BEAUTIFULL DYNAMIC I LOVE THIS

marylily / cherryflower (queen mary is a type of cherry)

i dont know much about this so consider some marylily blogs if you wanna RESEARCH TO THE CORE but this is the fluff induced friends to lovers (wolfstar is angst induced friends to lovers)

pandalily / mythflower (pandora's box is a myth)

i also don't know much about this so same advice as cherryflower but this is the fluff induced rivals to lovers (seameadows is rage + angst induced rivals to lovers)

rosekiller

popped out from god knows where - didnt even have a confession or anything just randomly started making out or smt (dont have a clue pls read some blogs or smt these are just my hc). unhinged serial killer vibes

i could tell you about the rarepairs / extras but i think this is probably enough information to digest

Info about Authors

idk how to classify this so lets just get into it

Zar and Green are both amazing writers who have deleted/privated all of their fanfics because people were selling them/publishing them onto different sites/ generally doing stuff with their work which they had not given permission for.

SO PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DO NOT DO ANYTHING TO A WRITER'S WORK EXCPET READ IT AND INTERACT WITH IT. THERE IS NO NEED TO PUBLISH IT ELSEWHERE, OR SELL BOOKBINDINGS, OR DO ANYTHING WHICH THE AUTHOR HAS NOT GIVEN PERMISSION FOR. IF YOU FIND SOMEONE DOING THAT - PLEASE ALERT THE AUTHOR.

also, if you are contributing in this fandom (or any other) whether by posts, fics, arts, literally anything PLEASE DO NOT TAG THINGS THAT ARE NOT MENTIONED IN IT.

eg. if your post includes 2 characters ffs do not tag the characters who are not mentioned - even if they are from the same fandom

this goes for fanfics as well - do not tag relationships if they only have a minor focus

also, please please please make sure that if you are writing a fanfic that you tag tws and cws appropriatly

i think that is all?

i mean i dont think our friend will write ffs but ok

making a powerpoint presentation for my friend who isn’t into marauders, need some core things/headcanons to mention. HELP 😭😭

[softestbeaniebaby]

Call these Gay And Touch Starved

someone please hold me holy shit

[oujibaka]

your exorcist looks gnc as fuck

[cybertistiic]

i want to make a call out post about someone but like at the same time i don't bc i don't wanna get caught up in any drama and that's not rlly what i do here but i just want my followers/mutuals to be safe from ppl like them and not give them any attention.

also im probably gonna have to put up a dni list so ppl like them will stop engaging with my content when i don't want them to. though it probably won't do anything bc these types of ppl have no fucking respect for boundaries whatsoever.

[sakuramoussy]

If anyone is perchance interested. I am working on rebuilding my Whistold content, this month I am 100% focusing on Whistold art projects, and im going to rebuild my sideblog @whistold which is brand new. This isnt necessarily for others as much as it is for me - i recently uploaded all my old Whistold content to toyhouse and it inspired me to post everything for the CURRENT version of Whistold onto the sideblog, once and only once, so that its all in the same place for easy access.

Its currently empty, but i plan to start actually posting stuff, just debating whether I want to repost content directly to the new blog or reblog from main for content thats already out there. Follow @whistold if you genuinely are interested in my characters, itd mean a lot to me

Am i the only person who is interested in my characters?

It really feels like im posting art into the void sometimes, does anyone actually enjoy seeing Whistold content? I definitely do, and I dont plan on stopping, but Im not sure how to find people who might actually.. idk.. read the book, enjoy my characters to the fullest with me, ya know?

[aerequets]

hello I am obsessed with you and your mind, and I must ask you for recommendations of miraculous comics/fanfics/artist/etc because I trust your opinions and I am in love with you okay thanks

the way this made me laugh SDKLHSLHFW if i was not on my computer right now i would spam with the sparkly eye emoji (pleading emoji? idk what its called but its like O_O but less. creepy. okay im done)

i made this mini rec list a short while ago for some of my favorite fics off the top of my head. i would dig through my bookmarks on ao3, except i made it really recently and i only have like 7. rip

as for fancomics:

@hamsternamedmarinette invented comedy. literally so funny like.... how does her brain work? if you want a good laugh (like a full on belly laugh, wheezing laugh, painful laugh) this is the blog. every comic is just whiplash in the best way

@anna-scribbles draws them so soft???? AGAIN if i could use emojis YOU KNOW THE EMOJI IM TALKING ABOUT.... LIKE THE o_o CUTE ONE? her art is the personification of that. and its also so funny and the punchline always hits just righttt

@zoe-oneesama i think pretty much everyone knows about her Scarlet Lady AU, but just in case you don’t, it’s a reimagining of the show where chloe steals the ladybug miraculous from marinette and becomes a superpowered pain in the butt. it’s,,, so well done and really funny and lots of things that bother me from the show bother the author too so she fixes them LMAO 

@buggachat again, i think everyone knows about this blog but just. top tier comedy. such funniness. but also hella angst sometimes. they’ve got a baker enemies AU going on rn and its DELICIOUS. basically hawkmoth has been defeated, everyone knows it was gabriel agreste, and adrien (who was chat noir, but never revealed his identity to mari/LB) is suspected by everyone and ostracized :( this “everyone” is namely MARINETTE who thinks he’s after her bc he found out she’s the guardian and. it is a lot so i won’t try to explain it all but hopefully that gives you the gist of it LOL

@carpisuns was debating whether to put this blog under fancomics or fanart BECAUSE SHE DOES BOTH AND SHE DOES BOTH AT THE SAME TIME AND SHE DOES THEM SO WELL !!!! FULLY COLORED COMICS? SONG LYRIC COMICS?? AND THE FEELS.... the feels hit you hard here. but the fluffy feels too so dw

now FANART

@rosekasa CUTE. SO CUTE. LIKE U JUST WANNA KISS THE ARTS LIKE MWAH they’re so cUUUUTEEEEE her style is like a marshmallow, it’s so fluffy and sweet and. its just so cute oh my god i have no other vocabulary for it 

@jjuuppiter artwork? ON POINT. aus? ON POINT. ANIMATIONS? SO ON POINT !!!!! THE ANIMATIONS BLOW ME AWAY you might have seen one where it was like an anime opening as miraculous? like i didnt know the anime but i cant tell you how many times i’ve rewatched that animation BECAUSE IT IS JUST SO COOL. i love it sm its crazy good

@lc-holy this is another one of the fancomic/fanart crosses because ALL HER COMICS ARE COLORED AND SO BEAUTIFUL... i put carpisuns in comics so im putting this blog under fanart, that is the only reason LOL but PLEASE CHECK THIS OUT the work she puts into the comics is amazing and you can just see it ....... so good. such good food

@picayunearts  (for some reason tumblr wasnt linking this blog so i manually did it and hopefully i did not mess it up) literally jaw dropping. their use of colors and mood setting is GORGEOUS and as a chicken-scratch artist who never colors i am so envious LMAO. it’s just like... u can just stare it at for at least six minutes straight. at least i did 

now for headcanons and stuff (there’s only 2 but i had to mention them)

@gale-gentlepenguin amazing AUs, amazing headcanons, you get the whole package, angst, comedy, fluff, NAME IT. (also amazing april fools jokes LOL)

@sariahsue lots of incorrect quotes!!! was lowkey stalking the blog to see if i could draw any LMAOOO (i think they write fics too, and im pretty sure i have read them before i had an ao3, but because im 99.9% sure and not 100% this is not under fics) 

okay this got super long and i just KNOW im missing so many blogs. these are the ones i could think of off the top of my head while im in english class (oops). i will definitely add on more when i remember them, but theres just so much TALENT IN THIS FANDOM this post could be miles long and still not include everyone 

[the-chessboard-is-personal]

Very tiredly made pinned post bc I'm always tired.

hi, I'm Knight and this is my personal blog. they/he. Yes Knight is my irl name. 20, aroace, either enby or a guy idk gender is complicated

Cadanain or however you spell it. uh. 🇨🇦 <- from there

ask game

neocitities site for "ethical"/with permission AI training: https://chessboards-ethical-images.neocities.org (wip, submissions are open so DM me!)

DNI: basic dni (link) + zionists, car enthusiasts (I don't hate you I hate cars), NFTbros, people who are violently on either side of the AI art debate*

Not extensive but generally if you're a bigot, support bigots or are hateful in general fuck off

*my opinion on AI art is that it seriously, SERIOUSLY needs more regulations, but if I wake up feeling like more shit than I usually feel like I shouldn't be ridiculed and hated by everyone on this damn planet if I occasionally want to pop over to Craiyon and have it generate some art of weird looking dice to cheer myself up. fyi. and stop arguing about whether it's art or not the semantics aren't important!! also. ffs. when an untrained downloadable model and a website where images are given out with permission to be used for AI is made, THEN I'll join the argument about "stealing". so PLEASE, let people download untrained models! actually y'know what? Y'KNOW WHAT? THAT'S IT. I'M MAKING A NEOCITIES SITE. FUCK IT. WHO FUCKING CARES IM TAKING PHOTOS OF THINGS MYSELF.

not sorry for the rant. I'm so fucking tired. be the change you want to see.

And ChatGPT is a wonderful Goomba Name Generator. bite me. /ref

Fandoms I'm in: chess, animation vs., inanimate insanity, bfdi, steven universe, magic the gathering, smg4, baba is you, murder drones, d&d, owl house, tadc, minecraft, hermitcraft, life series, lifesteal smp, mario (mostly for smm2 and b3313), gravity falls, fnaf (kinda), doom (.......kind of. yes it is because of myhouse.wad), dsmp (but I'm kinda drifting away from that one)

ramble about the bold/orange ones to me‼️‼️‼️

Fandoms im Looking at, but unsure of: the magnus archives, the stanley parable, other object shows

Random shit about me and tags i tag under cut

Don't spoil House of Leaves for me, I'm gonna read it soon maybe (<- liar)

I watched all of soul eater and then proceeded to forget everything that happened because I'm stupid

For personal reasons relating to Words (derogatory), do not talk to me about outer space or organizations capable of going on strike

do not ask me about No Context Nope Not Giving Any. I will dodge the question.

First ever Chessboard Moment: chess.jpg

tags:

#vent for venting

#grasping at straws for reaching out (e.g "help me with a project please?") Wait when did I make this tag also what does it rnean

#the fuck up won't shut up! for just talking about stuff

#nobody cares huh for stuff I'm actually proud of

#another ruined canvas for art, although most of that will go on @chess-is-art

#look! a blunder! for plugging stuff i have on other sites

#I'm not funny for stuff i add onto when reblogging

#chessboard? sleeping? in this economy? dreams tag

#sticks and stones can break my bones but Words Can Fucking Kill Me for specific vents hold on what the fuck is this tag

#negative iq takes for theories

#cringe comp for videos

#dumb writing for fics

#chessboard saying dumb shit for when I talk to people

#do you want bad or terrible? Polls

#shitty sleep september Have you seen an entire two* month's worth of nightmares in a row? WOULD YOU LIKE TO??

*it happened twice

#knight and the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad pun for puns. yes commas can go in tags. no I will not say how

I tag triggers as #tw [thing] (without the brackets when actual thing is involved) current triggers are #tw sui mention but i might forget to use it once in a while so uhh just block #vent sorry

I also tag discourse when I go into it

projects will be tagged as #project: [name]. "Project:" will not be part of the name by default

I don't tag mcyt posts as #minecraft and you shouldn't either! It is #mcyt and the mcyt applicable!

Uh I'll think of more if I need to