#dao brain rot is back

[invisi-bee]

got morphable DAI heads working in origins yay

all vanilla DAI nose sliders are done. now i just have to finish all the gazillion other sliders too

[illuminchim]

I'm back with a drawing I did back in March, just right after finishing The Untamed

Part 2

[bunbunsama]

at this point I just wanna notate my own Thedas world state up to veilguard cause my brain is the enemy & it’s been a decade since I’ve had the DA braincell💀

My Rook is hilariously the daughter of my HoF, Sil’lean Surana & my Inquisitor Belavahn.

Sil’lean originally is a Dalish elf from a clan that is well established in the heart of Arlathan & who was mistakenly taken as an apostate during their travel back home after meeting with other clans when she was like 13/14. Needless to say she was ✨FERAL✨ & did not let them forget that but Bel was like “oh wow this feral woman is Dalish I have quESTIONS” & so it’s like Mononoke Hime for them except it does end up romantic after years of him teaching her common & her teaching him Dalish shit. She ended up pregnant around 17/18 (don’t do that kids) & because that shit isn’t cool by Chantry standards, & Greagior for sure wanted an excuse to magic-lobotomize the girl who definitely has left scars on his templars, she was essentially hanging with Anders in the tower dungeons till she gave birth & then would be made Tranquil. Bel begged Irving to take her place, that it was his fault, etc. & so basically that’s what happened & baby!Rook ended up taken to some Chantry & Sil’lean basically was left to rot? Irving, because Bel was his fav, definitely spent most of his time trying to shield Sil’lean without her really knowing & eventually she was cool to return & act as a normal mage & nearly a year later she helps Jowan & Lily attempt escape because she wished that Bel & her could have done that before. She finds him in Denerim before the Landsmeet & while he doesn’t understand why she’s there because “we did a bad thing & I do not understand why you think we didn’t” she tells him that they had a little girl & she was gonna find their baby so that the Chantry can’t do to her what they did to them. Also she basically feels so disconnected from her original clan that she makes the Wardens her clan & is like “I’m now the Keeper of this Warden clan & I will protect my people” while the First Warden actively is trying to hunt her down to bring her to Weissapht due to the shit she accomplishes (ie survives the Archdemon because she didn’t know she was pregnant, is a pregnant warden, takes back both Vigils Keep & Soldiers Peak, & then just kinda vanished??) ((also they really let the warden be super powerful cause man I love my warden if it isn’t obvious LOL))

I loved the headcanon of a Tranquil attending the Divine Conclave & with the tear in the veil & the large dose of fade magic/touched by a spirit it sort of reconnects them & brings them back? So that’s what happens to Bel & he only has like half of his memory & he’s just confused as to where he is & what’s going on so he’s like fully ignorant of what’s happened (bonus: Leliana is like “you are weirdly familiar looking???” cause she was with Silly at Haven & with the Ashes ie saw a shade version of him tell Silly it wasn’t her fault) & he just spends so much time trying to catch up on a decade of politics, magic, Templar v mage shit, history, etc. all while everyone is like “Inquisitor!” It isn’t till Adamant Fortress that he encounters Silly again cause you think Loghain wouldn’t reach out to the woman who legit turned the Archdemon to stone for like a minute because she was overwhelmed by dark spawn & tired of it throwing shit at her lmao

When Bel falls out of the Fade, having sacrificed Temperance Hawke to Fear, is when the decade of memories come flooding back & legit a decade of pain, grief, rage, & pure heartbreak of everything that happened & my man is a Fade/Force mage touched by the Fade/a spirit so like that influx of emotion just becomes basically a beacon for demons & is a huge eruption of magic with him at the center & Silly, now basically a living relic of old Elvhenan magic & containing the fragment of a Elvhenan warrior (I was playing DAO like ‘my gal totally is gonna embody Mythal cause I love that Moon Goddess shit & goddess of justice lets go!!’ Now I’m like ‘she’s the embodiment of the Dalish!Mythal ideaology cause I’m conflicted’) is able to magically create a force to contain his outburst & is able to connect with him & calm Bel down enough that the Inquisition can take the fortress (much to Silly’s criticisms cause ‘hey, give me the fucker who came after my clan! This is warden business!’) & it’s a weird sort of reunion cause Silly is now entirely different, no longer the same feral scared wildling that he knew from the circle but a known warden (literally she is THE warden) & spirit warrior who can legit phase betwixt the Fade & the real world at will & who has spent a decade studying the Blight & blood magic to basically almost control the blight itself (Hey Avernus, thanks for that shit it’s neat!) & who is much more stoic & reserved, but filled to the brim with compassion for all factions & people. Oh! & she legit rolls up with her own aravel with like 4 kids & you really think this nearly impossible woman wouldn’t be expecting another LOL

He gets to meet his daughter tho! Nas’revas Surana (she takes on Thorne because she didn’t want the wardens to know she was Silly’s daughter) & she’s vibrant & full of life & absolutely inquisitive about the Fade (which she seems awfully drawn to & is she talking to the air?? ) & she’s a 10 years old mage who loves to talk about how cool her mom is & how cool the wardens are & how she’s gonna bring the griffons back & she’ll learn how to shift into one cause her mom can be a dragon so why can’t she be a griffon?? & Bel is in tears all the time cause she is perfect & Silly has been raising her alone since Amaranthine & “What do you mean you have maternity armour & that you met a talking dark spawn that called itself the Architect??” & I need to replay Inquisition for more fun & to remember shit cause after Silly definitely hangs around & Bel finds a close friend in Solas but Silly clocks that fucker out right & does not let him get any wiggle room in when he talks shit about the Dalish & how the old Elvhenan was better cause “Good for them. We are not Elvhenan, we are Dalish. We are not them.” & Bel definitely would probably lean into Solas’ nonsense because he understands & after the shit he went through/saw happen to the elves he agrees they need help & wants to help & so when Solas throws duces Bel & Silly are on opposite sides because he wants to talk Solas down & she’s like “I’m not letting some wandering hobo with a guilt god complex fuck over my people in some attempt to make himself feel better” so they split & he disbands the Inquisition & she keeps studying the Blight.

Nas’revas ends up absconds to join the wardens to be like her mom because she’s the only one of the kids to not been born Blighted & she wants to be a hero like her mom & obvs her & Davrin totally knew each other before the events of the game cause he grew up in Arlathan too before becoming a warden & when Varric finds her, he sends word to Silly & Bel like “She’s with me & we’re hunting down Solas” & basically Nasi spends most of the game trying to be like her mom & coming to realize that she doesn’t know who she truly & what kind of hero she wants to be & wow it’s so fucking hard being a hero & it’s nothing like moms stories & oh fuck Minrathous fell & shit fuck damn dragons were way cooler when I was a kid & didn’t have to fight them all the time! & I have been waiting forEVER to get to play as Nas’revas!🖤🖤

[dyrwoodan]

*paints my fave* *paints my fave* *paints my fave* *paints my fave* *paints my fave* *paints my fave* *paints my f

[kukuandkookie]

My sleep schedule is broken and it’s 9:00 am but I was just wondering why I don’t visit the SVSSS tags on Tumblr more often.

Especially since I’m constantly visiting the tags of my other brain rots. Like I go into the Word of Honor and Qian Qiu tags quite often these days, since those are some of what I’m currently obsessed with. Plus I literally used to scroll through tags like Mo Dao Zu Shi every single day back when I was super fixated on the series. I have fond memories of eating lunch in between uni classes just browsing the Mo Dao Zu Shi Tumblr tag and enjoying all the content. 😆

Despite this blog’s origin as an art blog, I have a tendency to just reblog whatever I like, and that often means fandom stuff. So I was wondering why I don’t reblog a bunch of SV posts at once more often—since I do it for other series I like, and I have done it for SV a few times, but not too often.

At first I thought maybe it’s because I brain rot over SV on Twitter so much (my account basically paints me as an SV “main” at this point 😂) and my lovely amazing SV friends who are all such talented artists and writers provide me with so much good food on Twitter already...

So I went into the SVSSS tag on Tumblr to see for myself and well.

I now realize why I don’t visit that often GKSKFDJDJ.

It’s true SV has seen more love lately (I think? At least I see more fans being active on Twitter and the MXTX Discord server I’m part of), but it’s definitely still the most “underrated/unloved” out of MXTX’s works. Like a lot of the top trending posts in SV are crossover posts with TGCF and MDZS—content which is totally perfect btw!—but also serves as a sign that SV occasionally gets swept over in spotlight.

Plus it’s true people can be hypercritical of the “unhealthier” aspects of Bingqiu, and I still see critiques in the tags. Like that time I just finished SV and I was really excited and I went into the tag and was immediately hit with piles of anti-Bingqiu posts talking about how “nasty/gross” the novel is.

Anyway, this is just some late night (early morning? Oops it’s 9:30 am lol) fandom musings. Don’t mind me~

I’ll finish off with saying I saw some art of LBH and SQQ I’ve already seen and yet still makes me very happy, and just say again that I adore them so much. 🥺

I was literally writing about them on Twitter a couple days ago—about how I love them because they’re both idiots—loveable idiots, but idiots nonetheless. Out of all of MXTX’s couples, they’re arguably the biggest disasters—and also I love how their outer personality contrasts with their inner personalities and how SV turns famous tropes on its head.

Anyway I’m starting to get into a whole different thing from the original intention of this post lol. I should probably get some more sleep. 😅

[dangermousie]

I got to give points to Lu Xiao even after all of this asking QYT point blank why he attempted to kill him and take him magic. Alas, QYT has no memories of this event and he can’t really say that because he knows it would sound absurd so he just says something like he must have snapped.

Ummm. Not good.

And after that Lu Xiao really loses it and when you add in that it would have been one thing if QYT had a good reason or even if he didn’t but he was so obsessed with the Dao that nothing else mattered but to LX it looks like he is able to put aside the pursuit of the Dao for his fellow brothers and his other disciple (he doesn’t know QYT doesn’t have other disciples, long story, but it’s reasonable for him to believe he does) and sacrifice himself but for him, LX, there was no consideration or even mercy.

AND HE SNAPS.

Great.

QYT tells him he can take his core or even his sword (and he loves his sword like a child) in recompense and Lu Xiao is all “ummm I want your body instead” and god bless QYT who is genuinely “how fun can it be to do it just to humiliate me, you must have dozens of lady concubines!”

UMMMM

Then LX pounces on him and QYT is appalled and fights back until he sees Lu Xiao’s horrible chest scar and so decides “hell, I tried to kill him for no good reason, if he wants to get repayment by humiliating me, fair enough” and stops fighting to Lu Xiao’s shock.

OMG, Qiu Yutong is so freaking !!!!! omg and I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE LU XIAO’S REACTION WHEN HE FINDS OUT THE TRUTH, HE IS GOING TO DIEEEEEE!

Poor QYT changes his mind later but yeah, hello noncon Lu Xiao doesn’t care. I mean congrats on being a unicorn who uses lube I suppose (and it’s hilarious that demon dragon psycho who is forcing someone in revenge still apparenly knows more than 90% of MLs about this sort of thing) but it’s still written as freaking super painful, so what is WRONG WITH YOUUUUUUU. I hope someone stabs you in your demon face, Lu Xiao. You suffered poor thing? Too bad SUFFER SOME MORE SUFFER SUFFER SUFFER!!!

ETA: And the morning after, Lu Xiao has the insane temerity to be pissed and shocked that QYT says “I compensated you, now I want to leave.” LIKE THE FUCK WHAT A SHOCKER THAT SOMEONE YOU RAPED AND WHO’S IN EXCRUCIATING PHYSICAL PAIN FROM IT TO BOOT DOESN’T VIEW YOU AS PRINCE CHARMING?! You need to FUCKING die! On the plus side, rage makes me read quicker. I forgot how fun it is to rage at a story.

ETA2 it would have always been highly unpleasant but I wonder if it’s extra bad because his body is made of snow so dual cultivating with a dragon is the last thing he should be doing.

ETA3 his senior brother is shady as fuck and the worst - he totally traded him for the alliance chief token. My happy ending is QYT palling around with his sword and letting the rest of all these awful people fucking rot.

ETA4: why are 99% of web novel authors so terrible at doing sex scenes. If you parse through the way it’s written, it’s possible that we are supposed to believe that at some point during the night it switched from noncon and painful at that, to QYT at least getting pleasure out of it but the way it’s written, you really have to parse and guess because the only thing they mention is the painful bits. Like wtf. Makes me think of Minglan where clearly you are supposed to parse and get she ultimately likes it but it’s written so terribly you have to be a kabbalist to figure it out.

ETA5: The fact that the lube is in QYT’s favorite osmanthus flavor is somehow super hilarious to me because it sums up Lu Xiao’s unique combination of considerate and demented. Like - forget a few fries short of a happy meal. The only part of the happy meal he has is the ketchup packets.

ETA6: Their new detente is the most insane yet in character thing ever. LX built him a beautiful lake house and keeps making him pastry and they agree to not repeat things and QYT is all “well, that was WTF and unpleasant but I guess I tried to kill him, so we are even now and whatever, he’s still my disciple who now keeps hands to himself also PASTRY PASTRY PASTRY!!!!” QYT’s brain is not like a normal person’s but then he’s not really human and his attitude to sex is not really human attitude either. But seriously, he is so odd. And Lu Xiao seems to have recovered from his psychotic episode and reverted to disciple and is all “can I sleep outside your room pls?” God all these people (?) need therapy.

[yi-dashi-a]

30 :)

Send me a number and I’ll write a drabble about my muse’s past – Someone dies

On the day Yi Hui died, he died ensuring his death was justified.

Around him the smouldering ruins of everything he once known lay. He knelt in the middle of destruction and gore, thankful that some had been culled from the world so instantly by artillery explosion. But some had not. Many had not. As Hui’s gaze fell to the ashen ground he heard the mad tittering of someone, somewhere. When he had first arrived he had thought it to be the shifting of splintered wood, or the crackle of angry embers.

His throat was dry. Destroyed by screaming that still rattled about his skull, but despite it all Hui’s internal dialogue was clear. Thoughts came in rapid succession, but they were all so very rational. He catalogued them. He justified them. When they were all so neatly collated, Hui didn’t even see the blood on his hands any more.

All Hui saw was mercy. All Hui saw was what must be done.

He stumbled to his feet, tracking the noises of anything that sounded vaguely human. Bloodied souls from in their quaint huts presented themselves at some point in his wanderings, and Hui did not questioned their state of affliction as he whipped a sword from his boot and divided them longways. They cackled as they fell, and that was he needed to hear.

You can’t cure rot on the brain. You can’t cure Zaunite rot.

Though hot tears had begun to form rashes down his face, he was meticulous like a predator as he combed the village for once people. He stalked all who babbled in tongues, and although he was efficient in his search he was not so in how he dispatched his targets. With every passing person his precision began to fail. With every passing person Hui painted a monster. But was it truly so monstrous, in comparison to the things that had befallen in this place? Was murder for mercy justifiable? He pondered all these things somewhere as he hacked and slashed at twisted minds, ensuring none would suffer on that day.

But what of Hui? Had Hui not suffered too?

Not even sure if he had brought peace to all those afflicted by the chemicals, Hui found himself on his knees once more. His arms spasmed near uncontrollably as he tried, for but a moment, to turn his sword upon his own throat. He had breathed these poisons too, right? They had settled in his own mind, right? Surely then he was allowed rest after all he had seen and done? This was the way it was meant to end. They had slain Hui in his entirety; in spirit and body.

Serenity came soon after. Abruptly and staggeringly. As he kneeled in a seizing mess of war shaped skin and muscle, he suddenly felt his heart pound against his ribs. All of a sudden it was as if feeling came back to his form, and he was hyper aware when he felt the edge of his sword barely nick the skin of his neck. That’s all the man wanted to feel as his fingers relaxed and his weapon clattered to the floor of a dilapidated home. At that moment Yi Hui passed on, his anguish too much for him to take after he had committed a necessary atrocity.

And with that the vengeful spirit known as Master Yi had already slain his first great evil. He had already learned that it was time to be done with tears, and instead he relished the feel of his gritted teeth. He drunk in a new found resolve that came with anger too. How dare anyone harm his people.

“|How dare…|”

But there were more monsters such as Hui in this world. There were others who had to pay for their defiling of a peaceful people. So from the ashes Master Yi rose, striding confidently through the chaos to go and beg a corpse for his jade dao so that he might go on to avenge them all. It would be perfect, calculated revenge.

… And it would leave no one to mourn the death of Yi Hui.

[pristinepastel]

Dragon Age Origins Appreciation Week Day Five!

i... am having trouble keeping up... Questions of the Day: What did your Warden name their pet Mabari? I refer to him as barkspawn, but since technically there are two mabari (one in the kennels at ostagar, the other belonging to the couslands) it's only fitting they have actual names. So- Abeera and Aahils dog is named Isra. The kennel dog, who is quickly adopted by Elena is named Gordito. What did your Warden do concerning Eamon, Connor, and Isolde? Cheyenne is the one who mentions going to the circle. She's done so much research on so many different spells, and rituals of that scale tend to stick in her brain. After the whole debacle of saving the circle, Shiloh is brought into the fold, as well as Cullen temporarily. After freeing Connor from possession and healing Eamon with the ashes, they continue forward. After the blight ends, Cheyenne returns to take Connor under her wing and teach him alongside Shiloh. Prompts of the Day: A Warden’s best friend, the Mabari. How much does your Warden value their furry friend? Does their Mabari stay with them after DAO/Awakenings/Witch Hunt? What happens to the Mabari if they die from the Archdemon? OK first off no one does in my canons. So hot that down lollo. Anyway, the dogs are the most popular members of the group- most of my wardens love animals and the rest don't really care either way. Elena loves them especially, as do the Cousland siblings. When Aahil follows Morrigan through the eluvian, Isra follows suit, and when Elena comes to Amaranthine, Gordito is with her. Your Warden and Redcliffe, how did they deal with Redcliffe? Dealing with the zombies was... interesting to say the least. While Nascha does respect the spirits in the world, as her parents and peers taught her, she is still... really fucking terrified of them lollo. Elena doesn't like ichor and rotting smells, but she can tolerate the skeletons, and she doesn't really notice that sort of thing in the heat of battle anyway. Abeera feels a little nauseous due to the smell, but as an archer she's far enough away that it doesn't bother her too badly. Now, Aahil and the Aeducans- they're ecstatic. They love horror stories and the like, so they're having so much fun. Alex doesn't really care- they're skeletons. They've seen worse in the alleys back in Dust Town. Shiloh is still in the circle at this point. How did they deal with Haven and the Sacred Ashes? Did they kill the Dragon or no? After dealing with the cultists and being sufficiently horrified and disgusted, they accidentally wake up the dragon. By accidentally i mean Borghild tripped backwards and the war hammer on her back struck the gong. So after killing the dragon, they retrieve the ashes. They made sure to clean their hands first, thankfully.

[kukuandkookie]

Hey, remember when I said this?

So things are still crazy, but they’re slowing down a tad at long last!

Of course the future is still murky and in reality when I think of it I’m still anxious, but it is nice that overall tasks are starting to finish with the semester ending. There’s still a lot of immediate future things that I’m uncertain about, but I’ll get to those when I get to those. 😭

I’m still having a lot of stress and anxiety and my sleep schedule got messed up again due to another school project and exhaustion, but I’m doing better than when I collapsed a bunch and hit my head on the heater/toilet in the washroom.

I’ve also started reaching out to people again, and the people I have been communicating with have been very, very sweet. 🥺

For example, when I told a strict prof I have about my fall, which is why I missed a quiz, she was very reassuring and was just concerned about my health. I have had her before, and a classmate noted to me that my prof seems to like me a lot (according to them, her eyes apparently light up when I speak haha). She even asked for us to stay in touch, since I won’t have any more classes with her. But what’s more, she actually recently emailed me to check in on me!

The fall also caused me to miss a 7:30 am tutorial (10:30 am their time), and I emailed my TA about it, and she said it was alright as well. She even said “you deserve all the best,” and idk words like that can just be really touching...

Getting those emails, I practically cried agkdlfjksdj. My friends on Discord have also been very sweet and supportive, even as I started retreating in another group because my brain cells can only handle being active in 1-2 groups at once.

Anyway, I have one more project due, one more exam, my thesis, some more art and writing tasks, and the issue of moving out, and potentially going back to China for family/health issues, and then I can finally relax.

A bunch of my friends want to do art collabs with me, and I’m so...touched? It’s been a while since I’ve been in such an active, intimate friend group of artists, so it’s really lovely.

My Bingqiu fanfics have also been doing really well and it’s so cool being in a fan community that I’m actually super brain rotting over and inspired by! Like I did create a lot for Steven Universe and SVtFoE back in the day, but I wasn’t as obsessed with those shows as I could’ve been. In contrast, I was obsessed with Mo Dao Zu Shi and various donghua, but didn’t have the time/inspiration to create stuff for them. With SVSSS, it’s been really nice that I feel both!!

Hopefully I’ll figure out the China/family stuff and get a solid schedule sorted out for collabs and other art/writing tasks! For example, I want to tackle a MXTX Big Bang and another Chinese fandom Big Bang with two of my friends! ♥️

Like a while back, I had a bit of a reality check in terms of another friendship of mine, and with my growing anxiety that causes me to ghost even my bestest friends and family, I just withdrew even more. Quarantine has been interesting in that I have both withdrawn and come out of my shell, and it can sometimes feel like I’m scuttling back and forth ahaha.

The people who are in my life are all positively lovely though. My Discord friends keep sending me supportive messages and calling me cute and sweet and reassuring me I am working hard even when I feel like I’m not, and I’m so glad they’re so supportive. I hope if they ever meet me irl, they’ll still like me—it’s easy to feel like you’re unlikeable the more someone gets to know you, or in comparison to how they treat other people. I’m always surprised when it seems like other people actually care about me and what I have to say and want to be around me.

And despite all the family drama, I did recently reach out to my cousin, who’s just such an absolute sweetheart. She even agreed to buy me some SVSSS and Nezha merch from Taobao to store with her because it’s cheaper that way. She sees me as a little sister and it makes me go 🥺 all the time.

But yeah, it’s rare I delve into my personal life on Tumblr, but right now I’m actually glad my Tumblr is so removed from my personal life. These are just some thoughts I want to express that I don’t necessarily mind my friends seeing, but I also don’t want to worry them and it is a little embarrassing admitting how much things affect me, both positively and negatively.

I tend to keep my personal life off Tumblr (anything whiny about school that I don’t have the impulse control not to stop myself from posting goes on Twitter)—but I have too many friends following me on Twitter who may perceive me, and I don’t wish to worry them.

I just needed a place to say that I’m really close to falling apart and having a breakdown because I’m so overwhelmed and confused and lost and terrified. Things keep happening and piling up and up and up and I’m not communicating with certain people again because I’m so overwhelmed and anxious I’m at a loss as to what I could even say.

I’m just having a rough time.