#daniels: thread.

[requitals-arc]

@jupiter3 ( kitsey. )

she toys with the sleeves of her jacket a little. can barely look up. she keeps trying to exile this part of herself, the one that says horror is her holy scripture, jennifer-not-jade, all of it. it’s been more than four years now—and still, the words spill out.

“you were good. in lilac, i mean. i’m usually more of a giallo kind of person, but.”

(but. she gets all of it. sometimes you’ve got to show everything, so people stop talking about proofrock and the lake and the everything, the dirty everything about it.)

[amid-fandoms]

phantasy land ☾ ⋆*･ﾟ:⋆

[tatretot]

hellooo danandphilgames buddies!! happy belated 10 year (more like 5 but shhh) anniversary :-)

[metamorphesque]

“But when the strong were too weak to hurt the weak, the weak had to be strong enough to leave.” (phantom thread, dir. paul thomas anderson (source) / the unbearable lightness of being, milan kundera)

[saintundying]

Interview with the Vampire (2022) / Phantom Thread (2017)

[operakings]

armand was daniel's single oracle, his merciless and all-loving demonic god

[kieselguhrkid]

And I can stand endlessly. No one can stand as long as I can.

[elssbethtascioni]

FILMS WATCHED IN 2024 Phantom Thread (2017) dir. Paul Thomas Anderson

[filmreveries]

“I have given him what he desires most in return… Every piece of me.”

Phantom Thread (2017) dir. Paul Thomas Anderson

[wulfhalls]

Sometimes I jump ahead in our life together, and I see a time near the end. I can predict the future, and everything is settled. And all our lovers and children and friends come back and are welcome. And we have large gatherings where everyone’s laughing and playing games. I am older and I see things differently, and I finally understand you. And I take care of your dresses, keeping them from dust and ghosts and time.

Phantom Thread (2017) dir. Paul Thomas Anderson

[haveyouseenthismovie-poll]

[theinsatiables]

Phantom Thread (2017) : Paul Thomas Anderson

[vaperarmand]

[the-amber-raven]

I would never delete my fics

I got linked to a reddit thread today where people were being advised to download my mortifying ordeals/Buddie fics, since apparently "now that I'm a BuckTommy shipper", I might be "petty" and delete all my Buddie fics.

So. I'll move past the complicated feelings it gives me to have people hoarding my fics while actively shitting on me as a person (and seemingly not even telling me that they enjoyed my work, although in fairness that could just be a difference in usernames.) That's the nature of fanfic, fandom, and putting things out there on the internet and I accept that.

But I do want to reassure people that I would never delete my fics. I still have the cringy-as-fuck Harry Potter fics I wrote in high school up; believe me those would be first on the chopping block if I was inclined to delete my work. And all of my 9-1-1 fics hold a special place in my heart, but none more than the mortifying ordeals series, which consumed basically a full year of my life and reminded me why I love writing. Hell, I got engaged while writing the final chapters of I once was lost. That fic is indelibly tied to my life now.

And look... I don't think it really matters, nor should I have to explain and justify what I do and don't enjoy about a show or fandom, but this whole experience has upset me more than it probably should have and I can't help but want to get it off my chest anyway.

My favourite thing about this show is the found family feels. I either love or am at least intrigued by every single character that has appeared. You'll notice that family is the central theme of every story I write, whether the story is Gen, Buddie, or BuckTommy.

Because yes, the idea of BuckTommy and how that plays into the family themes of the show has intrigued me and captured my muse.

I've also said before that I didn't think Season 7 left Buddie in a great place in terms of romantic relationship potential - in my opinion, the ghost of Shannon would be an absolutely massive barrier to them getting together right now. The post season 7 Buddie fics have also heavily featured character bashing, which isn't something I generally enjoy seeing, and infidelity, which I really don't like seeing romanticised especially since I've had a partner cheat on me.

So yes, I've distanced myself from the post-S7 Buddie fandom because I just don't enjoy the pervasive negativity I've seen and the way that cheating and violence is suddenly celebrated by a significant subset of the fandom.

That does not mean I've given up on Buddie altogether. I still have a whole list of pre-S7 buddie fics in my to-be-read list that I've been making my way through and 2 out of my 5 WIPs are Buddie fics (both in the mortifying ordeals 'verse, just to make it even clearer that I'm not at all interested in deleting that series.)

But two of those 5 are BuckTommy, because as I said above, their relationship was intriguing to me and it captured my muse.

I don't think those opinions make me some kind of betrayer, or that they inherently make me a "petty" person but I guess I just didn't realise that not-exclusively-shipping-Buddie was such a High Crime in this fandom.

[screenshotingmonstercinema]

[captainsavre]

Maya and Carina || Station 19 - Season 7 ↳ 7.05 ‘My Way’