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My latest completed commission may have been a bit ambitious... because I went wild with it. But I certainly relished in doing so :') Combining my favorite ship with my favorite-ever Disney movie is, uh... a dangerous concoction :'D
The commissioner specifically requested for Azula as Mulan, Sokka as Shang, and Xin Long (my OC dragon from Gladiator) as Mushu. The rest of the cast was up to me to choose, and I pretty much went wild rewatching this movie and picking out some of my favorite moments to recreate them in my style, with these characters. I came up with a lot of correlating characters between both ATLA and 1998's Mulan, but I couldn't hope to draw EVERYTHING, unfortunately. Still, if you want my reasoning for the cast correlation... check out the Read More! Beyond that, feel free to reach out to me if you'd like to commission me, or if you want to join my Patreon!
The Herbalist as Mulan's grandmother might feel arbitrary but she honestly felt like the ATLA elderly lady with the most similar personality to Grandma Fa. Fickle, with a unique connection with a seemingly perfectly ordinary animal, old and sassy? Figured it fit! So for once, the Herbalist is Azula's grandma! xD strange notion, I know, Azulon/Herbalist is not a ship I ever thought I'd accidentally put out in the world but there have been wilder ships than that in this fandom...
Momo became Cri-Kee, I wasn't 100% sold on it but when I considered that Avatar features soooo many hybrid animals... I figured he could be a hybrid cricket-lemur. Weird, I know, but eh? Better than nothing xD
Aang as Chien-Po was a no-brainer. He's the only character I settled on instantly, never even considered anyone else for the role. Their personalities line up really well, and Chien-Po's tendency to be OP and resolve things that are outside of other people's reach sounded like he was prime Avatar material! So, while their dietary preferences are an obvious difference between them, I decided to go for it nonetheless considering all their other similarities!
Kino (another Gladiator OC) is Ling, and he actually did give me a ton of trouble to choose. I considered many characters for the role right up until I realized that Kino's personality actually lines up fairly well with Ling's, down to being a class clown type (who ABSOLUTELY would have cut gym class!) and breaking out in song about the hypothetical woman he'd like to fight for? Yeeeeah that's right up his alley xD but there's another reason why I picked Kino...
... And that is my likely unexpected choice for Yao:
ZUKO.
ZUKO IS YAO.
YES.
I'M NOT EVEN SORRY.
(For the uninitiated, Aang, Zuko and Kino are best friends in Gladiator, very often together, and they make a really good team, so that's the extra reason why Kino became the obvious choice for Ling aside from having really similar personalities, definitely closer personalities than, say, Jet, for instance.)
People have likened Zuko to Shang a LOT since ATLA aired. This is the main reason why I'm even making this huge note! I suspect it's primarily because of the aesthetic, let's be real here, and because he becomes Aang's teacher, but people have exaggerated Zuko's alleged similarities with Shang, or taken them out of proportion, in many ways. I actually remember an AMV ages ago with "Be a Man" and it was Zuko "training the Gaang"?? It... didn't feel right to me. Obviously, someone might rebuff with "well, how does Sokka make MORE sense than that, though?" And believe it or not, I have arguments for that... (when do I not...?)
Not only is this what the commissioner specifically requested (and it obviously lines up with the ship we love!), but let's examine the actual reasons why Sokka as Shang adds up:
Sokka actually had to train a bunch of toddlers who weren't paying any attention to him. You know. Kind of how Shang had to train the unruly soldiers who weren't getting anything right. Sokka has a positive relationship with his dad (Zuko, ofc, does not). Shang also has a positive relationship with his dad! And not only this, but there's a military component to both relationships, specifically with Shang wanting to follow on his father's footsteps and aid him in the war... so much like someone else I know, who jumped at every opportunity to rejoin his father in the war, even wishing to join him as a child until Hakoda tasked him with protecting their Tribe instead (kinda like Shang is tasked with training soldiers rather than joining a battlefield).
And the final cherry-on-top that I'd loooove to hear Zuko fans try to argue against... is sexism :') didn't Sokka get characterized as a sexist guy for four episodes, which made people decide that this was his main character trait even if it went away that quickly? Um, yes, that happened. Shang literally sings the memorable song that's a crazy ode to masculinity, including the rather sexist line of "did they send me daughters when I asked for sons". Shang outright abandons Mulan once they discover that she was a woman all along (while, admittedly, choosing to abandon her rather than KILL HER, which as we saw from Chi-Fu, he was NOT supposed to spare her!)...
So, is this REALLY what Zuko fans, who willfully believe their boy is a feminist king (... why? beats me...) are trying to compare their unproblematic blorbo to? :'D Me? I have no problem linking Sokka with Shang due to Sokka's beginnings and due to the fact that both Shang and Sokka have similar growth when it comes to accepting femininity is as valid as masculinity, and as they both learn to respect women as fighters and potential heroes! (I simply do not believe Sokka's ENTIRE tenure in ATLA was about that, though, and that's what I continue to clash with the fandom over...) So... all this is why I've reasoned that Sokka is a VERY solid choice for Shang, in fact, better than Zuko could hope to be.
... but this isn't all.
Maybe some might accept my arguments for Sokka-Shang. And then, they might ask:
WHY ZUKO AS YAO, THO??
... And the truth is it took me long to see it, myself, but HOLY SHIT, DOES IT FIT!
What is the primary thing we remember about Yao in Mulan? This guy is constantly itching for a fight, to prove himself, surely riddled with insecurities that he exteriorizes through overcompensation of masculinity. He's funny as fuck, but he's taking himself 100% seriously as a manly man all the time, and he's always ready for violence. But there's one more thing...
He treats Mulan as his RIVAL.
And more often than not? SHE SCREWS HIM OVER. Intentionally or not.
What does that sound like? Why, yes, it sounds a LOT like Azula and Zuko's sibling relationship!
The fact that Yao is a temperamental dude who lashes out easily at things (oh, something he has in common with Zuko!), that he specifically resents Mulan (in this case, Azula, just as Zuko does!) and is either constantly looking to defeat her and prove his superiority over her (... wait, just as Zuko with Azula??), that he has a black eye perpetually across the movie, and it's his LEFT EYE (just as Zuko's scar is on his left eye! :'D), that he's friends with a pacifist he has basically nothing in common with, personality-wise (just like Zuko and Aang!), and that he pretty much has a REDEMPTION ARC in which he goes from a bitter, asshole rival to Mulan to treating her as a friend and ally, to the point where he was disappointed to leave her behind and THEN joined her at once when she says she has a plan? :') I have always been critical of Zuko's redemption arc, goes without saying. But if ANY of these characters redeemed himself in any significant way, it certainly seems to be Yao to me, and with people gushing NON-STOP about Zuko's redemption? Why, he ought to be the character who goes from bitter rival to loyal friend, right?
So. I'm not even sorry. Zuko is Yao. And I'd dare say that he should be flattered by the comparison, even, because Yao ends up being cool as FUCK!
I don't really talk about this much nowadays, but Mulan was my favorite Disney movie growing up, it ABSOLUTELY had a formative influence on me as a little girl, and Mulan was my favorite female character for a looooong time. Thus, any excuse to rewatch this movie makes me happy as heck. With the wisdom of age I know, of course, that it's not perfect, it's not what China wants, it's not the most thoughtful depiction of Chinese culture or the most faithful adaptation of Mulan's poem (... but I'd also dare bring up that the 2009 Chinese adaptation ISN'T all that faithful either...), but it has a kind of magic in it, a solid storytelling flow, so many memorable moments one after the next, that I could hardly choose which scenes to depict... Disney has never again seen the storytelling heights it reached with Mulan in 1998. I don't even care if that's a controversial opinion in any way... this is their best animated feature for me, and nobody can change my mind.
So... depicting Azula, my beloved, in all these scenarios as this character I adored and idolized as a child, was so damn fulfilling for me. While some might think that, personality-wise, these two ladies don't have much in common, the fact that Mulan is sent to a matchmaker who basically tells her she looks good but is going to be the worst wife ever...? Our girl Azula, with all those insecurities about being unloveable and a monster, probably would relate big time to that.
Mulan is also an INTELLIGENT soldier rather than a brawny one, which is how she starts to make progress in the army, it's how she manages to overcome the huns with that avalanche... and Azula's primary difference with most other antagonists in ATLA is that she's smart as fuck. She is very strong, no doubt, but a LOT of that strength comes from her intelligence, from assessing situations in unique ways, from planning and strategizing. The way Mulan finds the most unexpected solutions that still pay off reminds me a lot of how Azula achieves unexpected feats through rather unorthodox means, capable of taking over a city with basically no bloodshed while her nation has spent 100 years trying and failing to do so through major army incursions and who knows how much senseless violence. Obviously, I'm not saying what Azula did is GOOD and it's kind of dumb that we always have to point that out... I'm merely comparing the magnitude of the feats, and the fact that they both come from ladies who use strategy and intelligence to achieve their goals rather than muscle and physical power.
And while anyone would rage at me for the comparison between Fa Zhou (her dad) and Ozai, the truth is the dynamic between them CAN be compared, if loosely: Mulan literally goes to war to keep her father safe. Azula goes to war under her father's orders. Hell, she makes herself BAIT in the Eclipse to make sure the Gaang won't get to her dad?? While it's very much possible to say that both characters have different personalities and attitudes in life... I'd also bring up that their contexts are evidently completely different. I wouldn't say for certain that Azula, had she been raised outside a Royal Family, would be EXACTLY like Mulan... but they might have more similar traits than one might expect. Ultimately, though... I love them both. And this opportunity to swap their places was pretty much a dream come true!
Alright, that was plenty of rambling xD ultimately, I had a blast doing this commission, as I'm sure is obvious by now. So! If anyone wants to commission me, feel free to check out my prices right here and hit me up if you're interested!
#sokkla#sokka#azula#mulan au#xin long#zuko#aang#kino#the herbalist#momo#if you squint he's there okay he is just too damn complicated as a hybrid cricket-lemur alright#Xin Long is scale-less because he was too small and it was gonna look weird so for once he was a little less tricky :'D#I wish I could've had MORE epic scenes really this movie is a goddamn GEM#goldmine of glorious moments#it's just wonderful#I usually get sick of things as I work too much with them...#... Sokkla and Mulan are clearly a glorious exception to that rule#I wish I could've put in scenes with other correlating characters#Combustion Man was gonna be Shan-Yu#Chi-Fu was gonna be Long Feng#I can't remember who I had in mind for the emperor anymore#wasn't Kuei because he had to be old but welp#and yes it's too bad it's too sad there are not enough female characters here for the rest of the ATLA female cast...#but while I BRIEFLY considered making Toph one of the trio (Yao ofc)#the naked scene convinced me of the opposite quickly#... Toph would not succeed at convincing anyone that she was born a man she would straight up not even try#she'd just beat everyone up and scare them into shutting up#and while I'd LOVE to see that... it absolutely takes out the stakes from Azula being discovered as a woman pretending to be a man :'D#how tf would you kick one girl out while keeping the other one in the army#when the other one should be bold enough to stand on a rock in her birthday suit showing herself off in front of everyone
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I want more Insecure Thor in fics btw. I want more people to pick apart his envy about the fact his brother can do magic and he can't (which obviously means that in almost any sparring match Loki has let Thor win and so beating him is no real victory). I want people to run with the 'Loki's a clever bookworm' fanon and bring it round to 'Thor's aware that he is not seen as the smarter of the siblings and that nobody ever says he could probably power-behind-the-throne his brother's kingdom without much effort.'
All Thor has are his muscles and his long flaxen hair. He's blond but they live in fucking Space Norway so that's not even unusual and exotic. If he stops working out for one day he will become a weak and powerless baby, unable to defend those he loves or to impress hot young people of his preferred gender or genders. He's getting the best job on the planet but only because he's his dad's oldest child [citation needed]. If he did want to do something else then he's a terrible ungrateful burden on his family, having lost the only appeal he could hold for them by abandoning the destiny they've decided he deserves.
His brother hates him now and Thor was on another fucking planet when he did whatever he did which means he causes problems even when dad's banished him for causing problems. Why was he not there with his massive biceps when their mum was getting killed in a fight? Why didn't he pop in to check if dad was still dad or being impersonated by the aforementioned angry brother? Or look up that citation on being the oldest child? Why did he not check if Loki had brought that fucking glowy cube with him? Why did he not just kill Thanos when he had the chance?
Bad Thor! Stupid Thor! Useless, ungrateful Thor, made of nothing but muscle and smile and flowing hair that covers an empty head 😭
#shut up he *wants* me to make him suffer he knows he deserves it for being such a gullible idiot who can't even do magic.#mcu tag#thor odinson#(insecure edition)#LET THE HOT MAN CRY DAMN IT >:(#i'm a bit bored and tumblr's already got ninety million posts about Sad Loki so i threw this together do you like it
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experiencing the horrors . save me lil guy from comic book. lil guy from comic book PLEASE
#rimi talks#genuinely kind of sad/upset i wont be able to do more than 1 MAYBE 2 fics for superfam week#bc this whole week and last week have been taken up by health bullshit and all i want ot do is sleep#i had plans. i had outlines. unfortunately i also had my stupid body betray me and now here we are :(#i had a doctors appt yesterday. and the day before. and i have one monday and one more that i haven't scheduled yet#i am. so tired y'all#and im extra tired of being in pain all the time. i have been in constant pain since wednesday at noon#it's a little funny i was texting my friend abt steel '94 and there is a timestamp visible for when i stopped responding#bc i was suddenly in too much pain to put words in order or even sit up straight at my laptop lmao#and luckily it HAS gone down like im not in so much pain i genuinely can't breathe anymore. no longer feel like im in danger of passing out#but i do still feel pretty damn bad and im so tired of it aouhghuhgghghhhhhhhhhh#comic book man save me (he can't bc i can't even fuckign write?? what's the POINT)
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who the FUCK made the executive decision to not give Elita fucking 1 a proper transformable toy; in the movie, WHERE SHE'S A MAIN CHARACTER.
#yeah I get that there's the ss soon BUT FUCKING MIRAGE HAS ONE AND HE'S NOT EVEN IN THE DAMN MOVIE#I am going off the fucking rails mad I am LIVID#She only has that stupid fucking battle thing#and the rest are model figures#I was looking at the feet/wheels of my yolopark and like. genuinely trying to figure out her transformation#is that why she doesn't have one?? Is her design too fucking hard for you to make hasbro? too fucking hard to the point#that the only non one step changer toy she has releases IN A YEAR#yall I'm fucking pissed#😭#I will defend her with my life#WHY#that's all I want to know 😭 just. why :/#she has one playline toy. The rest are for collectors#Please#Do you know how hard it is to look at the transformers one section in a store and seeing all these transformable toys#and then only seeing one of you're favourite#I haven't even seen her in store. :/#It's not even just for me I'm saying this for 😭 what about the little kids who's favourite is Elita. They can't get one. They'd want to#play with a figure that can transform. You definitely can't do that with her yoloparks and you just about can with that battle changer#sad times#Do you know how devastated I'd be if I was a little kid looking for a tfone elita toy after seeing the movie#only to realise there's only 1 that can be played with properly#Like I'm inconsolable about this I could start crying rn that how much I feel about the lack 😭#this might be my biggest tag section ever omg 😭#elita one#transformers#elita 1#transformers one#tf one#elita-1
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io character sheet!
#io laithe#i have been working on this for TOO damn long#but i'm really pleased with the result even if it's a lil 'graphic design is my passion'#i think it's fun :>#already itching to make them for abeni and emegen#i'm down to make a simplified version for friends if that's of interest. like a close up; one/two outfits; a weapon or item detail + title#so sad i can't use that braid for dt too T^T but it's fine. bold and braid will hold me down#ffxiv
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whatever terry jr did that got him put in hell, no he didn't
#dndads#dndads spoilers#dndads episode 41#terry jr#dungeons & daddies spoilers#i'm a wreck over this episode#nothing sad even technically happened#i missed ron so much im so happy he's back#i literally can't wait for the next episode#i was shocked when the episode ended too it felt so short#stimming is not enough i need to explode#i need to scream my lungs out over all of these damn characters actually#im thinking that terry might not actually be in hell#all he's ever done in his life is try to be good
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Tomorrow's outfit was literally a group project lol.
#friend 1 gave me corset and gloves#friend 2 gave me the dress#friend 3 gave me shoes and stockings#hey underwear and jewels are mine tho... 😭💀#oh and the jacket lol#sad it's not a costume party and i can't bring my Skywarp wings there because they would have been awesome#steel rambles#btw it's not like i don't have nice dresses#but i had an idea and they have better materials than me#also i rarely dress fem so i don't own many dresses in general#btw it also makes me think about how far I've come with this stuff???#like years ago I wouldn't even dream of asking for a spare pencil and now i have friends to share dresses and stuff with... guilt free???#damn like okay that's cool when did the character development happen????
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no first character out of CC will ever survive the gauntlet of Actual Gameplay as we all know (especially if the game is determined to give you One Character Archetype to work with. deep sigh.) so—attempt two: twink necromancer (twinkromancer. necrotwinker...?)
#breaking the all girls worldstate for one (1) they/them magic boy#listen i'm trying to give myself the best chance to actually enjoy this damn video game#and if i'm not allowed to have a sadmelancholy quiet character (sigh)#(not even internal fanfictioning will help the way Rook is written)#i will conjure up a kid who grew up in a basement SO hard#i'm actually quite invested in them..... which can't be said for wardenmage. sad#but behold. twinkery#Rionn Ingellvar#imagine if you will a miles vorkosigan (if that reference means anything to you i owe you a forehead kiss)#but gayer#this game i swear..........#but we stay silly#for the standout moments (all 3 of them)#dav spoilers#dav#my ocs#rook
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Playing Elnea kingdom as if Knights and Scholars are sort of like nobility, and trying to figure out arranged marriages between them (and also my character) on first gen to get the best talent odds on future generations is a NIGHTMARE
#that's it that's the post#I'm currently playing The Bachelor but make it medieval fantasy#I was originally going to marry him with Katie Keown but turns out u can't marry royals EVEN IF THEY HAVE NO CHANCE TO INHERIT#like I'd have to keep Lavinia alone (easy. everybody does that)#then prevent Dominic from having any more children#and then keep Ronald (Dominic's son) alone forever#FOR THERE TO BE A CHANCE THAT MY FUTURE OFFSPRING INHERITS#I AIN'T GOING THROUGH THAT TROUBLE HELL NO#and also. I ain't allowed to date Katie to begin with so#my character has Akade and Fertas talent factors#and the bachelorettes are:#Lucianna Mosto. a year older. daughter of a scholar and a farmer. only one I know for certain has Akade factor (dad has strength of Akade)#She isn't very pretty nor interesting to me. but factorrr (I'm more interested on Fertas tho so like)#Greta Rodriguez. same age. dad n mom are citizens but they live in old district so. met her naturally. great dna. no idea her factors.#oh right. she's rich. forgot that#Martina Dixon. a year younger. met her naturally. neither rich nor “noble” family but I just like her Idk was my first friend#she's pretty but her family is ehhh at best#Jessica Diego. 3 years older. met naturally. again not noble but lives in old town so. dunno her factors. literal goddess and her family too#Marianne Edington. same age. both parents are nobles. she looks sad :(. dunno factors. genetics are pretty ok#ok after reading my own tags I just know I'll end up going for Jessica LMAO#or Martina#that age gap tho#almost ten years in our world damn#elnea kingdom#world neverland
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bro what the FUCK Agatha All Along HAS to stop putting sad old ladies on my screen!!! Fuck off!!! This hurts my feelings!!!!
#my favorite characters are literally the two elderly women who deserve the world don't @me#like yes yes I'm here for agathario as much as the next lesbian but oh my god??? these grandmas need my eternal devotion???#I'm not joking when i say that sad elderly people in media get me to my knees every damn time#i don't even have a trauma reason for that or anything i just can't handle it lmao
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Okay so after reading a bunch of theories on Deep Cover and rewatching the MV about 30 times, my only coherrant thought is that I want Kotoko Yuzuriha to be fucking okay
#{ ⚖️ after knowing all I wonder. can you really forgive them? 👁️}#She really do be thinking that there is no going back huh#that killing that serial killer cursed the rest of her life and that she can only be this huh#I was excited for her in Trial 3 but now I'm just afraid#I know that none of these guys are going to get a happy ending. At best they'll get a bittersweet one#But there is zero happy ending in sight for Kotoko because she literally refuses to let herself have one#And that makes me so??? damn sad???#Honestly the only hope I have now is that she doesn't die but I honestly can't even feel safe believing that#In fact from a narrative perspective I think she is the character that would make the most sense to die at the end of all of this#And that scares me !!! Jesus Christ !!#milgram project#milgram#kotoko yuzuriha#yuzuriha kotoko#milgram kotoko
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Cats
What's not to love about these lovely creatures? Honestly, growing up I was always a dog person (even despite the fact that I was attacked by one when I was young). But then I realized I wouldn't be able to take care of a dog for, well, a buncha reasons, thought about how it would be to have a cat, and thought, yeah, it would be nice to have one. For so many reasons. The eternally lethargic me could never take care of a dog properly. A cat, though? I probably could.
#the void asks back#I physically still can't bring myself not to freeze up or get away when a dog is nearby#despite the fact that I still love them#my first thought when one is nearby is always “what if it decides to attack me?”#obviously the answer is that it won't but childhood trauma does shit to you lol#that's the first time I've ever called it trauma but now that I mention it it really is huh#still remember sobbing afterwards about the wounds on my back#shame I never got any scars#the least I could get for going through that#fun fact: The next house we moved to after that incident had a dog that was chained that I played with#one of my strongest memories with the dog was of accidentally hurting it because of how sad and guilty it made me#like damn I really liked that dog#despite the fact that I still couldn't get too close given the whole recently formed trauma thing#I do also remember getting chased by a crocodile with my aunt back in the same home the dog attack took place in#or was it an alligator#but honestly I have trouble believing that memory wasn't a dream#even though that's the only memory of that time I'm unsure is a dream or not#one day I should ask my aunt if it was a dream#also we were in the house's compound so we were able to run inside and be fine#but somehow I doubt that that really happened#oops there I go rambling in the tags again
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Success, my dad told me today that he listened to Flood at work, and TWICE at that. Could it be that the TMBG propaganda is also working at last
#he says he likes istanbul and dead or rather the backup vocals on it more specifically#and that it's pretty funny but also varied and fun#i was starting to think that everyone around me would just find them too 'weird' you know. so this is a pleasant surprise#meanwhile my brother who's actually supposed to be going to the show with me still hasn't listened to them!!!#at this rate he's going to be the only person standing close to the stage who doesn't know a single lyric#while everyone else sings along. kind of a sad vision#but anyway i told my dad to listen to john henry next and i hope he likes it. he likes 'harder' stuff like hard rock and metal#so this should be right up his alley#it being an undeniably more rocking album than most of tmbg's other stuff#omg lol just as i'm finishing writing this i got a very exciting email that i can't really talk about publicly. concerning some other band#and some sort of delivery??? maybe???#damn today has been a fine day and tomorrow might be even better (i might be posting something regarding that when the time arrive#s)#goosepost
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SVT coming to Europe for the first time ever in 9 years (not counting Gastonbury, cause that was sold out a year before they were announced, so carats didn't get a chance to go) and it's not even going to be ot13 should be a crime.. AND IT'S BECAUSE OF A SCHEDULE?!
#maja talks#i'm so upset for real#like i'm happy for jun and all but really?#you announced lollapalooza long ago and now suddenly he's got something else?#i'm not even going but got fuck you hybe i hate you so so so much#i will never not be angry about hybe ruining my chances to see svt live#like fuck you so much#(but maja covid was the reason for the 2020 cancelations yeah but hybe is the reason they never got rescheduled!!!)#i saw one of my mutuals from like 2015 make a post a couple of years ago about how she got to see svt as 13 four times in one year#and here i am as a european being shit on for 9 years straight#i hate it here so much and i'm so upset and i probably shouldn't be this upset but i am#fuck hybe and fuck bang shihyuk and fuck everyone that made that fuckass company so powerful#i hate it so much#i knew they were never going to take coming to europe seriously after joining that fuckass company#and yet i can't help but be so damn disappointed#it's been 9 years...#i remember where i was when the 2020 europe dates were announced#i was sitting in a train and i was so happy i was shaking so hard#i got a ticket with a great seat for the Berlin concert and i was so happy#i've never been so excited and happy#and then covid happened and everything got cancelled and they never even addressed it#they only ever said “we were sad the tour ended earlier than expected” in their yt documentary and that was the only mention of it#then the japan dome tour had to be pushed forward (not even really cancelled if i remember correctly) and they made wholeass apology videos#saying how sad they were and blah blah blah still no mention of europe at all#then like the day after europe got cancelled they uploaded a video of hoshi dancing with fans at one of the us stops#and it really just felt like they stepped on my heart and threw it in a trashcan lol#then they joined hybe and hybe got obsessed with dynamic pricing and ruined everything#ruined all chance of us seeing them as ot13#(maybe they'll finally acknowledge us for real when they get back from enlistment in maybe 6 years but who knows)#i for real shouldn't be this affected
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It's £30 for 6 hours of work and you still don't want to pay because 'on Fiver you could have gotten it way cheaper?'
All right. Pretend I'm your new boss at the office. I'm only going to pay you £5 an hour because that's what your time and effort is worth to me, okay? You should be grateful, I know people who would do this sort of work for much less than what you're asking for.
Keep your damn money, but I'm not giving you the art.
#vent post#A friend in real life would you believe?#Well#Ex colleague#I'm only salty because I'd have gone to great lengths for him and I'm only just realising the friendship isn't mutual#Even if I hated a piece I commissioned#If I agreed to pay £30 from the start#I'd damn well pay it#You make exceptions for friends because you'd like to think they won't snake you but#It's sad that now when other friends ask me to do art for them I think I'll have to ask them to pay me upfront which I hate to do because#they think I can't trust them#'Wow I should have gone with Fiver'#Then go with Fiver you loathsome creature
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Thinking about Kim meeting Chay. Kim, who hasn't known affection, who hasn't been touched (aside from stylists and hairdressers and makeup artists) without violence or ulterior motives since the day his mother died, meeting a boy who touches him without any other reason than the fact that he wants to.
#crying in the club (my bed. into my pillow. it's 4am and i should be sleeping)#god kim makes me emotional#he's just. my heart physically hurts when i think about him#i just want to see kimchay actually make up and start dating again and i want to see them being domestic#and i want to see kim be happy#i want him to unlearn that touch = violence#god that boy (because he IS a boy. he's so damn young even if he doesn't act like it) must be so touch starved#sobbing about this right now#anyways goodnight i'm too emotional for this#kimchay#kim theerapanyakul#kimhan theerapanyakul#kimhan theerapanyakul my beloved#kinnporsche#tea's ramblings#this is what i get for watching kimchay edits before bed#most of them are so fucking sad i can't do this
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