#cyber dating abuse

[coochiequeens]

Just in time for May 3 being World Press Freedom Day a story about the Australian government warning women for correctly sexing a man

An Australian woman was reported to police after making posts on social media about a male who identifies as transgender participating in the women’s football league. Kirralie Smith was visited by New South Wales Police after speaking to media about Riley Dennis, a trans activist who had been the subject of mass complaint last month after reportedly injuring female players. 

Police visited Smith on March 30 and handed her an Apprehended Violence Order (AVO) requiring that she does not discuss or approach Dennis – despite the fact that Smith lives over 200 miles from Dennis. The AVO acts as an interim order that will stand until a hearing later this month, at which point the court will decide whether it is justified. 

Smith, a spokeswoman with an organization established to combat gender ideology, has been a vocal critic regarding gender self-identification in sports. Earlier this year, Smith mobilized supporters to participate in an email campaign that resulted in a total of over 12,000 complaints being submitted to authorities at Football New South Wales (FNSW). The complaints were largely related to Dennis, who is alleged to have injured female players at a match in March.

Speaking with Reduxx, Smith explained that she believed the AVO was carried out in response to social media posts she had made specifically highlighting Dennis’ participation in women’s competitions.

Included among the stipulations of the AVO lodged against Smith by Dennis are prohibitions against electronic harassment. As a result, her statements on social media have come under legal scrutiny and, in some cases, have been censored by an arm of the Australian government dedicated to combatting “cyber abuse.”

On February 20, Smith’s public Facebook page was removed at the request of Australia’s eSafety Commissioner, Julie Inman Grant. Smith had set up the page in 2016 and used the platform to advocate for the rights of women and girls being harmed by gender identity policies. At the time of its deletion, Smith’s page had over 47,000 followers.

Smith expressed her shock and incredulity at the situation. If the court decides that the AVO is justified and that she has taken actions which breach the order, Smith could potentially have criminal charges leveled against her. However, she emphasized that she has received an outpouring of support. “One good thing to come out of these difficulties is the way it draws women together. It isn’t about left or right, ethnicity or anything else. We are women and I now get to call some friends that I otherwise wouldn’t. Beauty from ashes,” Smith says.

The actions taken against Smith by eSafety Commissioner Grant are not the first instances of a government-endorsed push to digitally protect Dennis.

Last week, Reduxx was contacted by the eSafety Commissioner and advised to censor or delete an article naming Dennis as having been the subject of complaint after he was alleged to have injured female players during a match in March.

In the article targeted by the eSafety Commissioner, Reduxx had revealed that Dennis was one of as many as five trans-identified male players currently competing against women in Football New South Wales competitions. An initial report from The Daily Mail Australia had chosen not to identify him when reporting on the injuries he was alleged to have caused, censoring images of him and declining to provide his name. However, Reduxx confirmed the player’s identity using the censored images from The Daily Mail Australia report and cross-referencing them to Dennis’ social media.

Dennis was a popular trans activist YouTuber who amassed 113,000 subscribers on the platform. He has since stopped creating content but, during the height of his internet career, he received backlash for a controversial video in which he called “genital preferences” transphobic.

The video, titled Your Dating ‘Preferences’ Might Be Discriminatory and released in 2017, prompted outrage from lesbians who felt Dennis was attempting to guilt them into having sexual relationships with males.

In the video, Dennis, who identifies as a “transgender lesbian,” implied that sexual orientation is caused by societal prejudices and that it is discriminatory to exclude members of the opposite sex from your dating preferences if you are homosexual. Dennis deleted the video following widespread criticism.

In addition to Smith and Reduxx, pro-woman Reddit alternative Ovarit also received a censorship notice from the eSafety Commissioner.

Ovarit posted the full contents of the email they had received to their platform. Amongst the grievances the eSafety Commissioner listed, Ovarit was warned because its users had “referred to Riley Dennis’ first name as ‘Rapey’ instead of “Riley” and have referred to her surname as ‘Penis’ instead of ‘Dennis.'”

The eSafety Commissioner targeted individual Ovarit users in its email to the platform, and appears to be demanding the users either have their comments deleted or be suspended. The email ends: “Notwithstanding this request for removal, eSafety reserves the option of exercising our regulatory options under the Online Safety Act 2021 (Cth).”

In addition to the censorship experienced by Smith, Reduxx, and Ovarit, concerned citizens and parents who have been participating in online discussions of Football New South Wales’ (FNSW) gender self-identification policy have been sent threatening “notices” urging them to remove social media posts.

A community that opposes the admission of males into female sports categories has congregated at the Facebook-based NSW NPL Banter Page. 

A representative for the page spoke anonymously with Reduxx to confirm that there had been multiple reports from concerned individuals that the sporting authority had been warning critics that they may be “sanctioned” for their comments and posts on social media.

The NSW NPL Banter administrator was also sent an email notification of an “investigation” that FNSW claims to have opened into posts and comments made on the page. It stated that, according to 2023 FNSW’s Social Media Policy, a member of the organization “must not make public or media comment (including via social media) which is detrimental to Football New South Wales, Football Australia, their commercial partners or to the interests of the game.”

The message specified two posts which depicted “a participant with a phallus photoshopped onto their body” alongside the word “unacceptable” as evidence to support the investigation. It was further stated that comments considered subject to removal include those which “criticize” Football NSW, members or participants, or its policies.

The page’s creator also told Reduxx that, despite several attempts to share the article naming Dennis as a man playing on a women’s team, such posts were repeatedly deleted. 

“We had put the article up on our Facebook page and it was deleted three times – after we had successfully challenged its removal two times previously,” the administrator said.

In the past few months, the page has published several posts critical of FNSW’s policy allowing men to compete against women. Though some have remained, many have been removed.

“Biological adult males and it’s not just one, it is several, are playing in NSW women’s state league competitions, which contain teenage girls and young women. Shame on those clubs, who have discarded any morals they might have had, just to sign these things, so as to be able to win, where’s the dignity? You put winning above respect for the competition,” the NSW NPL Banter Page wrote in a now-deleted post last month.

Responses to posts made on the page are overwhelmingly sympathetic to women and girls being forced to compete against men.

“I feel sorry for our young women who are at increased risk of injury and losing opportunities,” read one comment.

Referring specifically to Dennis, another concerned respondent said: “He put two girls in hospital and has scored 9 goals. What a joke.”

“The women who play this sport deserve better than playing with full grown adult men who have transitioned into women… This is cheating at the highest level and it angers me to my core,” said another commenter.

The issue of locker rooms was also brought up, as one woman replied, “What happens to a minor age female who is in the change room with a biologically born male in a senior team? Who is responsible for the duty of care toward those girls both on and off the field?”

On March 31, in response to demands from parents to ban trans-identified males from women’s matches for FNSW, Football Australia doubled down by announcing it would be developing a “transgender and gender-diverse high performance inclusion policy.”

The policy states that Football Australia intends to “deliver LGBTQI+ training and support resources to the football community” by way of a partnership with activist group Pride in Sport. “The aim of this training will be to provide the Australian Football community with a greater understanding of the lived experience of LGBTQI+ communities and their participation in sport,” the statement read.

On April 6, an individual who identifies himself as a referee stated in a forum dedicated to discussing Youth Football matches in the region that members of Football NSW were sent an email announcing an LGBTQ+ Online Training Session to be held the following week.

By Genevieve Gluck

Genevieve is the Co-Founder of Reduxx, and the outlet's Chief Investigative Journalist with a focused interest in pornography, sexual predators, and fetish subcultures. She is the creator of the podcast Women's Voices, which features news commentary and interviews regarding women's rights.

[i-cant-sing]

What are your thoughts on the yandere haikyuu teams x their manager?

Boring. I need some spice in it. How about-

Yandere Daichi as a cop and his darling is a civilian and now he's so obsessed with her that he murders her husband, frames him as a criminal and will literally stop at nothing to get darling in his arms because again... who will suspect good old, everybody's best bud COP Daichi to be able to do heinous crimes???

Yandere Sugawara as a psychiatrist because come on- he gives major "master manipulator" vibes and now he's obsessed with his darling patient and will continue to do malpractice and gaslight her and prescribe her all the wrong meds until she loses it and he gets to admit it her under his "special care" and now he can play with her mind all day long🤍

Yandere Oikawa is now a pro volleyball athlete and he just saw Ushijima's little sis, the same one he used to bully and even rejected (and ofc, HUMILIATED) when she confessed to him back in highschool. But now Oikawa's obsessed with her and also still hates his nemesis Ushijima, so what's better than killing two birds with one stone??? And Oikawa still has a very devoted fanclub, only now it's larger and more powerful than ever so now he uses them and his socials to peer pressure you into dating him and eventually, marrying him because he ain't getting any younger honey and he needs some cute babies out of you ASAP.

Yandere Kuroo who is the smart IT tech guy at your office but in reality, he has his own cyber security company that he uses to spy on you, controls your entire life through your socials and don't even get me started on your online banking shit. If its any consolation, he's very rich so... yeah. He may not look like a million bucks, but he does have them. In several offshore accounts.

Yandere Kita who somehow ended up as a mafia leader, probably inherited it as family business and he has like severe OCD so he wants everything done to perfection or so help you, you will 1000% end up 6 feet under. Mafia Kita who has this vision of you being the perfect wife, solely based om the one time you offered him your handkerchiefs because he had a nosebleed from stressing too much and now Kita thinks you're an absolute angel and he wont let you destroy that fantasy of his. Seriously. He will pick out your outfits, tell you how to act and all, punish you if he must, but he does love you.

Yandere Ushijima who is a farmer and has decided that the reader whose car broke down and came to his door asking for help, will now be his wife and be a countryside mom to many kids (u can't say no, okay? He wants a big family) and animals! But hey, he's a very caring husband and will massage your feet, give you baths and feed you his homegrown veggies and meals daily once you are round with his babies🥺

Yandere Bokuto who is now a popular politician and he needs an obedient wife to keep up appearances and play the "family man" image up. So he decides to threaten reader who had a one night stand with him, and Bokuto somehow has very intimate images and videos of you and he uses them to get you to marry him. And now he controls every aspect of your life and tells you to do exactly as he says, and he abuses this privilege more as he gets more powerful and you could only imagine the horrors he would inflict on you if he does actually win elections, but you can't run away because again- he has eyes and contacts everywhere.

[katthekatt]

Some more of my Mass Effect headcannons, Drinking edition:

> in ME2 when Shepard gets poisoned in lower Afterlife its because of their cyber parts after being resurrected that they survive the poison, Miranda more or less made Shepard even harder to kill.

> speaking of drinking in ME2, Shepard has an episode of alcoholism during the events prior to the Suicide Mission, which is why we can drink at every location. During this, the new companions don't really see it as something that bad. They just think Shepard is just an alcoholic by habit and don't mess with their life. However, our Garrus and Tali know better, and by the time of the Suicide Mission, presuade Shepard to give up drinking for a while. Mordin, too, had called out Shepard on their drinking but with little success in actually preventing them from doing it.

> Earthborn Shepard has a history of drinking from an early age because of being in a gang, due to this, they have a higher tolerance towards it. And abuse this when companions challenge them, in particular James, Jack, Zaeed, and Grunt. If Kaidan or Ashley try to do it, Shepard passes on the offer.

> Earthborn Shepard, again, I think wouldn't mind if Grunt wanted to drink. Although I don't see Grunt doing it offen he does it to show dominance in bars. Colonist Shepard wouldn't encourage it like Earthborn Shep, but still would think it's not that bad and that it grows character if you are exposed to it young. Meanwhile, Spacer Shepard would definitely disapprove become of their strict upbringing.

> Zaeed and Jack share drinks once in a while and talk. Jack doesn't trust Zaeed much at first and thinks of him as just someone she can have a drink with that isn't Cerberus and knows how hard life is. With time, they grow a friendship, and Jack looks up to Zaeed, calling him a badass.

> While EDI and Legion are AI and can't get tipsy or drunk, the conventional way by the time of ME3 EDI has created a virus that works in the same way with its effects that takes about an hour to fight off. She hasn't used it and doesn't plan on doing so because it's counterproductive considering she is the Normandy. The virus was created only for the sole purpose of throwing it in Joker's face after he insisted EDI couldn't do it.

> Wrex and Garrus both don't drink much at all. Garrus drinks only for dates, and Wrex thinks that drinking is for people without courage and need to get it some other way. He has whoever shared a drink with Shepard after they had insisted on commemorating the Genophage cure.

>Thane and Samara don't drink, period, each with their own reasons.

>Miranda, for all her talk of being made perfect, actually has a low tolerance to alcohol. After Shepard learns that they don't leave her alone about it when she brings up being created flawless. Or in reverse, Miranda can't get drunk at all and is a neat party trick she prides herself on.

[digimontamerlayne]

I'm playing Cyber Sleuth for the first time because I got it on sale, and I am now angrily glaring at past me for not looking for it on deals sooner cause I love it. So here's my over excited rant of my general experience. I actually cut this short remarkably.

I am only on Chapter 4, so my info only goes to after defeating the Eater in the Subway.

At the start I felt pressed on the whole Pokemon Starter-esque way you gotta choose between Terriermon, Palmon, and Hagurumon. But you can still get them all later which is nice. The need to choose just put me on the spot.

Normally, I'd have jumped at getting Terriermon (I prefer Lopmon but you can't go wrong with Terriermon), but I wound up doing "wheel of fate" and got Hagurumon.

And now I'm attatched to it. I digivolved it to Clockmon cause I knew one digivolution was Guardromon, so I was curious about the others' possibilities. I could tell one was Scumon, though, and that was not happening. Thank you.

My current team set up is Clockmon, Gabumon BLK (I got attatched to him too), Fanbeemon originally but it has been switched for Lopmon for now, and Impmon in my reserve because the moment I found out Kuramon and then Pagumon digivolve to Impmon that felt mandatory to do.

Story thus far is pretty cool. Interesting characters. Kyoko Kuremi is pretty and rather interesting, but she needs to have her coffee pot removed from her office immediately. Anyways, she and Nokia feel a bit on the nose to pull in specific audience through use of "attractive allure" (*eye roll*), but I was told for Nokia it's part of her character of how she likes presenting herself and I know people who do the same and especially when they were 17 like she is, so she does make sense to me. But half the time that outfit of her's does not. It defies logic, I swear. Pretty or not. But Nokia's connection and partnering up with Agumon and Gabumon is pretty freaking cute and feels like a hint at her true colors underneath the choice of flashy-ness.

Arata felt pretty enigmatic, though less than Yuugo because Arata had just enough "I'm deliberately acting too cool" and was just enough of a smirking "jerk" to counter most of the enigmaticness. And then he gushed about the Cyber Sleuth thing after trying to brush off his interest. He revealed his true colors: he's a geek like the rest of us. I will hold that and the fact he ditched me to escape Crazy Detective Date on my own over his head whenever I talk about him. But the rest of him still feels "mystery" enough.

I'll talk more about other characters some other time when I feel more connected or understand them better. Right now, I only really got connected to Nokia (plus Agumon + Gabumon) and now Arata enough to give opinionable interest. Except one, dude. I'm gonna gripe about Jimiken here in a minute for a reason.

But anyway, I love a lot of the side stuff going on too.

Example: Mirei sending me to make hackers abusing Digimon repent is nice. But in the second round, the Three Scammers Siblings you go after, I was not ready for that! The oldest sibling as a nonbinary character with motives linking towards their identity and how pressed they felt having to "choose", and how their scams (which were mostly just catfishing compared to their brother's scams) link back to their harsh emotions towards that. Not justified (especially if you look at the "forcing their digimon to do the work" part which is why you're confronting them) for what they wound up doing to others, but clear in what motivated them. I was neither expecting nor ready for that, and I love it. And the fact we get to give them a pep talk about how they were strong and are a great sibling to their brothers to cheer them up was awesome. I am sorta sad that the dialog where they ask for our digiline wasn't actually interactable. C'mon, in Pokemon Soul Silver and Heart Gold, you get more numbers than you can keep up with. Why not with this?

So, I'm having the time of my life with this game.

Although I found out the hard way about the Game Overs when you lose a battle. I loath Jimiken and the chapter and a half BACK he sent me. What I felt on par with "not saving in Pokemon and your device dying" level of despair. I had to redo chapter 2 and then my progress through chapter 3 back to that stupid fight, saving every few minutes out of sheer paranoia! It undid digimon I had converted and digivolutions I had done!

I was cussing out his Devimon and Meramon while fighting it. I was having flashbacks to Adventure Devimon, just channeling 12 year old me's emotions to relive that hatred of Devimon for this fight... But that died the moment Jimiken blamed his Digimon for losing. I became this specific Devimon's number 1 advocate cause screw this Paul Stanley wannabe. It is not this Devimon's fault you suck. This Devimon was Hella strong and made me scream cause it took me from just under half health to no health on my reserve digimon when he himself had just one last hit point before I beat him (can you tell I'm still a little sore on that?).

This was an amazing moment for me. I hated Jimiken so much it somehow bulldozed right over the loathing I had for Devimon in general that my introduction to Digimon drilled into me in a matter of moments. This is a bizarre development for me I'm still getting used to.

Also, WHAT IS CRAZY DETECTIVE LADY DATE!? What is her problem? It's funny but she is unsettling with her yelling.

Alright, I'm cutting this rant short here before I keep going over board.

I got carried away in the tags, so there's a rant in there, too.

[thisbelongsto-nohbodys]

Do the trio have any crazy exes? Someone who was seriously obsessed with tryna get back together or even abusive? I can see the girls going mad protective

Almost everyone has a crazy ex, tho’ for the Trio, while Sasha is likely to have the most exes between them, imma say that Marcy would’ve had the more crazy ex. Someone that she was friendly with but didn’t like that way, they however did and was also a fan of her webcomic and so a double fan, believed they were dating Marcy and got crazy on anyone else who tried to compliment or insult or either online or offline. Eventually Marcy noticed and told that person off and laid out the truth. They still cyber stalk Marcy and hated when she revealed that she was dating Anne and Sasha and then later got engaged and married and had kids with them. Idk how long they’d persist but Anne and Sasha know about this person and have even confronted them at a con

[asocialangel]

What Could Be

↬fake dating Shidou

After you made up inexistant rumors that the whole world thinks Shidou is gay, he might want to ask for your help to prove 'em he isn't.

Shidou x fem!manager!reader. Fake dating. 700w. Continuing the series –my first series– a little tame advancement to the story. I hope i'll manage to close it within 8 chapters ! Idk, Shidou gives me number 8 vibes.

Chapter 2, A Princesse's Rules

[no warnings]

The day continues as it should. Give Ego his daily mail, talk to Anri about a BLTV technical issue, wash and hang to dry towels… Normal up until you came to close the cafeteria at 9:30 pm, the usual hour. As every other other day, you had to hurry quite some boys to leave, including “maid-vivi” Shidou. But he did not rush like others did. Instead he quietly waited for others to leave until it was just you and him, alone. He leaned against the doorframe as he started talking to you, preventing you from closing the door. “Are there cameras here ? You should know right ?”. The news about BLTV had been broken to them. “Not on this angle, because this is a DOOR and you must let me CLOSE IT”. You replied full of sass. You had been thinking about what Shidou would do, and at first you laughed at his demise until it hit. He would most likely be asking you for a favor right now, one that would not be any beneficial to you, nor appreciable. 

“Vivi,” “Oh so it’s not maid-vivi today ? You want to get on my good side now ?”. He grunted. “So you know what I’m about to ask you, is that it ?” “I have a pretty solid guess”. You wouldn't admit it but you were so pouty. The consequences of your own actions… “Please, help me out here, Vivi. I would do anyth– uh, a lot for you to say yes”. 

You thought it through. What could you gain from this ? Ego being pissed that the cameras turned to you instead of the future stars ? Shidou’s fandom hating you and cyber-bullying you ? The boys taunting you ? Your parents being even more mad ? … Wait… About your parents… Maybe they would actually like it, like you being in a relationship. They wouldn't stop complaining about you being ‘not social enough’ and ‘not thinking about your future’ cause ‘a girl must be provident when considering settling with a respectable man’ or whatever that bullshit was. So this will free you up of some more pressure they were putting on you. (They had not stopped texting ever since you started working here, saying you were too involved with a TV show, they didn't understand anything). You would win that at least. And maybe, just maybe, if he was in a great mood that day, Ego would praise you and not scold you. Ka-ching, you heard the sound of bills bills bills overfilling your pockets with that thought. You still had to pull up the stunt though. 

And it also meant putting up with the hassle that Shidou was. “C’mon, answer me. It couldn't be that bad, I’m sure you have no experience with boys vivi, and a pretty boy like me being your first would be an honor–” “Yeah but YOU have experience with boys according to netizens don't you ? Stay in your lane if you want me to at least consider it”. he scoffed cause you were right. 

“Okay Shidou, I’ll do it. But I’ll be the one to set the rules up. And if you cross them, I'll happily reveal this whole masquerade to your dear public. So be a good puppy, understand ?” Now that you somehow had the power, you availed to treat him like you had always dreamt. And his irritated expression was definitely worth it. He took a long pause. “Okay, Vivi. I’ll stay obedient, just don’t abuse it ‘kay ?” “Sure. My first rule is: if you want to say yes, ask me properly”. This was not necessary at all, but Shidou did not lie, he was your first and you shamefully wanted it to be special. When you’ve never been in a relationship, you idealize everything, so you wanted your first, though it was a fake, to be perfect. This was kinda like a “preparation” at the real thing, at a first real relationship, and even though you wouldn't admit it to yourself, you wanted it to be while worthy and butterfly inducing.

He sighted. “Vivi, will you be my girlfriend ?”. He was so cute when pissed off. You grinned to yourself and looked him in the eyes. “Sure !”. He finally exited the door frame and you closed the cafeteria. “So, princess, what are the rules ?”

A/N: ahh i feel like this is too little advancement... I'll try to be more concise. Also currently tidying my m.list and ugh it's complicated

[britts-galaxy-brain]

Sunny stole his story from ginger . You are awful for standing by someone THIS heinous. Do you just not care, Britt? That it? I mean you already abused your ex and are now helping Courtney coach a teenager just because “trans girl bad”.

You’re pathetic. Go drink bleach. Tell sunny he can too because he doesn’t deserve a shred of compassion after he’s lying about grooming.

Get the fuck out of my inbox, Lily. And get better suicide bait. It's obvious when it's you.

For whoever else who may be reading this, I've spoken about ONE of my exes publicly. The one who financially, emotionally, and mentally abused me for two years after I left my parents' house. The one who almost ran my mother over with her car after blowing up at me because I refused to pay her $100 after she stole $300 from me over the course of three months.

Your accusation makes no goddamn sense. Sunny didn't steal shit, he had his own experiences that happen to be similar to Ginger's. Because Lily treats everyone in her life pretty much the same. She gets way too close to minors, allows them to interact with her sexually under the guise of plausible deniability, posts sexually charged and outright explicit shit around minors to normalize it, then swoops in and dates them as soon as they're old enough for her to get away with it.

The feelings Sunny has described line up perfectly to what a grooming victim would feel. And given things he's talked about concerning his past, he'd be susceptible to someone like Lily's predatory ass.

Go read my fucking chat logs. She's admitted to being attracted to minors. She's made up stories about raping a high school girl out of "nothing but pure malice". Her porn accounts are filled with depictions of children. She sexually abused ME the entire time I fucking knew her because she wouldn't take "I'm uncomfortable" for an answer. Went as far as to create a FAKE ACCOUNT to steal compromising photos of me and try to coerce me into cybering with her. Get FUCKED.

If anyone deserves to be drinking bleach in a ditch, it's you.

[pop-punklouis]

god the witchhunt on joe is just ???? like, he's obviously a private person who has never once spoken up about why his relationship with taylor ended and somehow swifties have managed to construct this narrative of him being an isolating, abusive, cheating nobody?? (not saying he's perfect, far from it, he's a bland english white boy with too much privilege, but we're clearly only seeing one side of the coin?) also the way they all went from "aww he's so protective of her privacy and their private relationship to the point they're barely seen together it must be so nice for her to have some semblance of normalcy" to whatever the fuck they think he did now in the time between the break-up announcement and her being obnoxious about matty healy (whatever tf that whole spiel was)??

i could talk all of your guys' heads off about this, but it should be sobering to everyone who took part in the weird, cyberbully train against joe alwyn all because he and your fav broke up to listen to this album. because not only did such a large portion of her fanbase try and build a narrative around him that was more or less not true, but she, herself, fed into this narrative with certain songs she performed as surprise songs and how she crafted her words and actions after him.

when in reality, this abusive, isolating, cheating version they built up in their head only fizzled out to a man who was depressed, struggled with dating someone at her level and maintaining privacy for both of them, and wasn't ready for marriage. this comes from her own mouth in the few songs that are about joe on this record. yet, she let her fans lick the flames that she fanned but did not put out for over a year about their relationship and his character.

then, she turns around and gets severely cyber-bullied by her own fans to the point that she feels like she has to dump matty healy who apparently cheated on her (or whatever that fever dream was) so i suppose it all comes full circle in this strange taylor!verse we've been living in since 2023

[fictional-love-is-my-life]

May I get how bay hotrod, Optimus, and bee would react to their neutral cyber s/o telling them that they used to be in a sort of forbidden relationship with a Decepticon during the war, but then decided to leave them when they decided they had enough, and that they weren't good for them anymore because of their verbal abuse and domineering personality. Then, later after they met them, they saw a huge difference with dating an autobot, then a Decepticon. The con told them that autobots are dumb, pathetic, and weak. But when the neutral gets in a relationship, they say Autobots are more kind, caring, handsome, and suave 😎

Hot Rod:

He's very glad to hear they are so fond of him and think so highly of him now. He's glad that he was able to prove to them that Autobots are the good guys and have much better qualities.

He doesn't judge them for dating a Decepticon, they all have their pasts. However he hated hearing about how the con used to treat them, if he met that con he would make sure to punch them in the face for being a jerk. He just focuses on the present and their future. He wants to make sure he keeps showering them with love and adoration, so they constantly feel like they made the right choice in dating him.

Optimus:

He makes no comments or remarks on their previous relationship. It was something they did when he didn't know them, and it was their experience to go through. Now they are out of it and in a much better relationship with him, that is all he focuses on.

It does upset them that they had to go through a horrible time with the con. Optimus makes sure to show them true love, something they deserve, and promises to be caring and loving and all good things. However, he doesn't really need to promise because he would always treat them right anyway.

Bumblebee:

He feels like they should have known not to date a Decepticon, especially since it was during the war and it was established they were bad. But it was something they went through, and it was in the past. He can't change that, and saying something negative to them about it would only hurt them.

Instead, he consoles them for what they had to go through, he hates the idea that they had to endure such verbal abuse. He would kick the cons aft if he ever met him. Bee cuddles them and kisses them, constantly praising them for being a wonderful S/O, saying he is so glad that they are now together.

[thesorcerersapprentice]

Thank you to the fabulous @that-cyber-writer for tagging me in this Writing Questions Tag Game! D.M. Foyle, as @that-cyber-writer is also known, is working on a nail-biting crime thriller entitled Tangled Wires starring Raz, a brilliant hacker on the run from the Russian mob. Interested? Go check out Tangled Wires and all of Foyle's projects here! I'm tagging (no pressure!): @inkovert @outpost51 @aquadestinyswriting @merlina87 @sarah-sandwich @lucianinsanity @winterandwords @threeking @avrablake @the-finch-address @thawinoakenshield @the-down-upside-finch @lunarmoment @sodaliteskull @kingkendrick7 @harps-for-days @cee-grice @tate-lin @rubywrite @poppy-in-the-woods @hippiewrites @the-down-upside-finch @lexiklecksi @linaket and anyone else who'd like to participate!

✦ What is your absolute all-time favourite idea you’ve ever had?

The one that inspired the novel I'm writing right now, The Sorcerer's Apprentice! Initially, I just wanted to explore the relationship between two individuals at completely polar opposite moments in life: one, an elderly character, preparing to die and looking back; and the other, a youthful character, just beginning to come into their own, in early adulthood, still figuring out who they are and what they believe in, facing forward. It would be a lie to say that the novel isn't still very much built around this dynamic, between the elderly sorcerer Valeriano and his young apprentice, Altaluna. But it's grown from the original idea to incorporate issues and topics I hadn't expected; climate change, environmental disaster, colonialism and neocolonialism, the body as a machine, contemporary theories of perception, abusive family dynamics, and more. These topics and their associated plot/world ideas are likewise what makes The Sorcerer's Apprentice my favourite written piece to date. It's like the more I dig, the more I enjoy what I'm doing. If the first idea was compelling but lukewarm, the accumulation of ideas that has ensued as I attempt to do the initial idea justice has taken it to the next level.

✦ Is there a question you’ve been asked that really stands out to you and that you still think about sometimes?

Not that I can think of off the top of my head! Sorry :S I wish I did.

✦ What is your favourite part of being a writer? What parts could you take or leave?

The trouble is, you can't have any of it without all of it, so this is a bit of a trick question, to which I don't really have a clear answer. I love it all. I hate it all. I struggle every step of the way. And I have the time of my life, always.

✦ What is your greatest motivation to write/create?

It's changed over the years! As a child, I just liked exercising my imagination. In my teens and early twenties, I wrote to escape or to envision the life I wanted, the person I wanted to be, and how I wanted to be perceived by others. Now, my greatest motivation is rage. I am one very pissed-off adult lol I suppose the difference is also that now I actually have something to say, something I feel is worth saying. And I feel that very strongly, which helps me get over the bad days at the desk where no words are coming or where I doubt my capacity to write at all. Because it doesn't matter. This -the message of my novel- has value to me. It's more important than my small personal feelings of insecurity or ups and downs. So I'll find a way. That's my motivation. It's not really that I want to write, it's that I have to. It's that I can't live in a world where this isn't said ~ and where it isn't said the way I'd like to say it.

✦ What is the best piece of advice you’ve ever read or been given as a writer?

The best advice I ever received was from a world-renowned author in his 90s who told me that it (writing) never gets any easier, so basically, your choices are either quit or keep going with the knowledge that it's never going to magically turn into a picnic, no matter how much experience/talent you have. I also got some lovely advice a couple years ago from (I think?) Anne Lamott in her writer's memoir Bird By Bird. In one of the chapters, she mentions that if you lack inspiration, you can always write to get your own back, aka. you can always write as a way to avenge yourself. And that just flipped a switch in my brain. I don't think I'd be writing The Sorcerer's Apprentice without that little seed she planted.

✦ What do you wish you knew when you were first starting out writing?

Nobody knows what they're doing. You'll never be more prepared than you are right this minute. But also, you have to live a little before you can know what you want to say ~ the same way you have to live a little to figure out who you are. Writing is organic. It grows with you. You have to let yourself grow, so the writing can follow.

✦ What is your favourite story you’ve written to completion? Link it if you’d like and can!

I don't have a favourite completed story to share, so I'm sharing a link to my current WIP, The Sorcerer's Apprentice, a fantasy novel exploring the interplay between colonialism, capitalism, and environmental catastrophe through the fraught relationship between a mysterious sorcerer and his protogé.

✦ Which of your characters would you say has the most controversial mindset? Why do you say so, and how do you personally feel about their ideals?

Valeriano, the antagonist of The Sorcerer's Apprentice, is the only character I've ever written whose views are absolutely despicable in almost every way. I'd be very concerned if my readers don't find his mindset controversial. The man is sexist, racist, and classist; he discriminates against any LGBTQ+ classification that isn't his own (biphobia, anti-lesbian, etc.), he's morally perverse, and he bristles with a sense of in-born superiority. In short, he represents the polar opposite of my own personal views and ideals.

✦ If you, when you first started writing, met you now, what would younger you think?

A younger me would definitely not recognise me, let alone understand why I'm writing what I'm writing. And that's how it should be! I'm glad little me enjoyed a time when all that mattered were unicorns and fairies, and the world was bright, open, and good. I wouldn't take that away from little me for all the world, not for anything. Plus, I have the lingering feeling that little me would be proud of me anyway. Even if she doesn't quite get it. She'd trust me and my choices. We'd be different, but we'd be cool, you know?

© 2024 The Sorcerer’s Apprentice. All rights reserved.

[yanderelmk]

A/N: Sure, but in the future send your asks through the ask-box :D ----------------------------------- MK had finally been able to convince Red Son to join him, Pigsy, and Tang in going out for some ice cream, but instead of a relaxing time, Red Son was angrily swiping away at his phone and grumbling under his breath. After a while, Tang reached over and carefully put his hand over the phone, making Red Son look up and scowl. "What?"

Tang raised his eyebrow. "You've been staring at that thing ever since we sat down and sounding like a grumpy cat. MK has his attention span issues but you don't see him on his phone, do you?" "YEAAAH, HIGH SCORE!" Tang and Red Son turned to see MK playing a game on his phone. Tang sighed. "I stand corrected, but my point still stands." Red Son looked the scholar up and down, and after some internal debating slid over his phone. "Look." Tang leaned over to look at the screen. What he saw was a picture taken of Y/N and two people he never met before having fun at a roller rink. "So?"

Red Son scrolled down, showing more pictures of Y/N and the same two people. Then he looked at Tang expectantly. Tang just shrugged, making Red Son sigh and roll his eyes. "Does it not seem suspicious to you that Y/N consistently and constantly hangs out with those two?" Tang tried to keep Red Son calm before he began sparking up. "It's not so weird. MK hangs out with us all the time, and now you're hanging out with us. People have friends, Red Son." For a moment the scholar was worried. Did...Red Son not have any friends before he met the Monkie Crew? Tang read Journey to the West, he knew how Red Son's parents weren't the best (to put it lightly). Had he been isolated on top of everything else? "That is different. Look." Red Son began pointing out the captions. "Notice the excessive use of hearts of varying type? How is THAT platonic?"

"Some people just use hearts casually." Although Tang had his misgivings. When messaging with Y/N he hadn't received any hearts...but maybe they just weren't that close yet? Even still, he couldn't shake the uneasy feeling. At this point Pigsy joined the trio at the outside table, bringing the iced treats. Tang decided to ask him, "Hey, Pigsy? When Y/N messages you, do they ever send hearts?" "Hearts? No, why? MK put the phone down, dessert's here." Pigsy distributed the sweet treats. "Red Son's worried that Y/N's dating two people and hasn't told us yet." MK looked up from his phone. "Y/N's dating someone? Why didn't they tell us?"

Red Son huffed. "That's what I am wondering." "Okay..." Tang took Red Son's phone and turned it off. "You can have this back once you finish your ice cream. We're here to have fun and to relax, not to cyber-stalk Y/N. If they're dating someone, I'm sure they would have told us." Here Pigsy chimed in, "Addin' on to that, it ain't really our business. Now eat up before the ice cream melts." Red Son exhaled through his nose, but began eating his cone of Hot Scream. Silence reigned for a few seconds while Tang thought to himself, "Of course, it couldn't hurt to check to see if Y/N didn't hide the relationship because it's an abusive one...just in case...it's what friends are for, right? Maybe we can do SOME poking around. Just a little bit."

[otome-mondays]

Amnesia Memories Review 💭

So going into playing this game I was very excited. I have heard this game’s praises being sung for years, so I was so excited to play what seems like a classic to the community. As always, trigger warnings first. Please look up the full list for any I might have missed. Amnesia, hospitals, manipulation, abusive behaviors, murder, blood, cyber-stalking, kidnapping, and bullying.

Amnesia’s prologue is very short. Probably the shortest to any otome I’ve played so far. We start with this little guy named Orion being like oh my god I’m so sorry but I somehow crashed into you and am accidentally causing you amnesia. Unfortunately, he is attached to us and can’t leave until we regain our memories. Our player character here doesn’t have a default name which I am not a fan of, so I’m going to be referring to her as MC or main character, or I will be using we/us/etc. Our big issue with Orion being stuck to us and having no memories is that there are multiple world or universes and we don’t know which one we’re from. Now we have to take a guess, which leads us to the route split. Yeah very short common route. As always, I’m listing the love interests out in route order.

Spoilers Ahead

Shin ♥️

Well this was a rough start. Shin’s route drops us off in a world where we’re already in a hospital. Well that’s just great. At least we’re discharged pretty quickly and can start pretending like we don’t have amnesia because how are you gonna explain having a dude in your head causing amnesia without getting concerned responses. I’m going to be honest, I had good hopes for this game and Shin’s route. Unlike last week’s game, I was unfortunately disappointed. Shin is very harsh and abrasive, and while I enjoyed Sasazuka for some reason I hated Shin. I think it might have been the execution of this game, but I honestly am not sure as it’s been so long since I played his route. Shin’s route is solving a mystery about how the MC was injured, which makes everybody think she got amnesia from the incident. I only really remember the good ending for the route where the conflict was resolved, and then a weird bad end partway through the route. After this route, I was worried for the rest of the game. This is because I had only really been close to this level of disappointment with Henri’s route, who is still admittedly worse to me. 3/10.

Ikki ♠️

Spoiler alert, this route was not much better. Ok so this is where I discovered that each route is a fully separated universe. Ikki’s route was a weird one. Ikki here is some random dude that is apparently so attractive he has a crazy fanclub. He’s already dating the MC by the time she gets amnesia, meaning she’s really gotta sell the fact she doesn’t have amnesia. This route explores why Ikki has a fanclub that’s so aggressive. I genuinely only remember the good ending, which they obviously end up together. I started joking about the game being torturous to play at this point. 3.5/10.

Kent ♣️

I was running out of hope and hating this game by the time I got to Kent’s route, so I was just dragging my feet about completing it. I was so uninterested I didn’t pick this game up for over 6 months. That is the only thing I regret about this game. Kent and the MC are also already dating, but they have a very rocky relationship. His route is about trying to understand why they’re dating in the first place and why he is the way he is. Honestly, this was the only enjoyable route in this game for me. I genuinely enjoyed Kent and his route. He’s the best character. 7.5/10.

Toma ♦️

With how good Kent’s route went, I was actually starting to have hope for Toma’s route! I wish I could warn past me. Ok before I get too negative, let me start by saying I was already the most interested in his route because of how much I liked him as a side character. He was a bit sketchy in Shin’s route, but besides that I was excited. That was once again wrong and Toma’s route is awful, I hate it. The MC is the target of severe and intense bullying at the start of this route, and we’re exploring why during this route. Toma, our MC’s best friend, is trying his best to protect her from it. Quick spoiler, there are 2 parameters in each route. Except for Toma’s. Toma has an extra third one as the protagonist’s doubt. Clearly, red flags and I was scared! I’m not going to get into details about how wild this route gets, but it is wildly messed up. I hated this route fully. He made it lower than Henri. 0/10.

Ukyo 🃏

So Ukyo unfortunately had a rough start with me personally because I was already putting him on my “dude what is wrong with you list” right next to Henri and Toma. That’s not where you want to be by the end of a playthrough, and definitely not where you want to be at the start of one! Ukyo’s route is where we try and understand why Ukyo is so weird. And I would go into more detail, but it’s lots of spoilers. Another absolutely disgusting route. The endings are wild. I hate it too. Still not as bad as Toma’s. 0.5/10.

Overall Thoughts 💭

Oh my god it’s finally over. If you’re unsure whether you should buy this game or not, don’t. I got it for like $2 on steam before it was even announced to get and English switch release. Still not worth it. Save your money. As for route order, this one doesn’t really matter. Go for whoever you want whenever. Ukyo is only unlocked after all the other routes have been played. 2/10

Time for rankings, this one is hard for the opposite reasons as some other games because I hated the majority of it! But thankfully by the time I made this review, my mind has been set on who I hate the most.

Route: Kent > Ikki > Shin > Ukyo > Toma

LI: Kent > Ikki > Shin > Ukyo > Toma

Resources 📝

I used Otome Kitten’s walkthroughs to help me get through this game.

[a-otter-appears]

What Your Favorite Deltarune Chapter 2 Song Says About You!

(Thank you for all the love on the Undertale and chapter 1 parts. :) the last part - until next time)

Faint Glow: Is there truly any courage in your soul when you can barely kill that spider? But really, you're pretty chill. (Also see: Don't Forget)

Girl Next Door: Like a sugar cookie, you're sweet on the inside and outside. Everyone thinks you have it all together, but you don't. You easily burn out, and crumble under pressure. You can't please everyone even if you could. (Also see: Lost Girl, Ferris Wheel)

My Castle Town: You hang on heavily to the found family trope. You want to have a life where you can live and enjoy everything with those dearest to you. You also love the rain. :) (Also see: The Legend)

Queen: Unpredictable, you're the wine aunt and somehow ALSO the child of the friend group. Sane people fear you. (Also see: Berdly, Pandora Palace, Attack of the Killer Queen, Giga Size, Knock you Down !!)

A CYBER'S WORLD: You're like original Sprite. You generally keep up to date on current events and dramas. You're like the cool popular kid that's nice to everyone. :) (Also see: WELCOME TO THE CITY)

Cyber Battle (Solo) / When I get Happy I Dance Like This: You love going out and looking for an amazing time! You have fun going head to head in competitions, and no matter if you win or lose, you're just glad you get to play.

Sound Studio / Mini Studio: The older sibling of Cyber Battle. You don't actually like being in competitions, so you watch from the sidelines and cheer on your friends and favorites.

Berdly/Smart Race: You have so much brain power yet use it on the dumbest things. You give off the energy of Game Theory FNAF videos. (Also see: The Legend, Queen, Bluebird of Misfortune, Attack of the Killer Queen)

Faint Courage: You say to everyone you won't cry when someone dies in a movie/TV show, but instantly break the moment it happens.

WELCOME TO THE CITY: Quite a busy bee! You've got no time to chat and lots to do! Yet somehow you almost spend more time online than on your actual work... (Also see: A CYBER'S WORLD)

Spamton/NOW'S YOUR CHANCE TO BE A: You are a danger to yourself, society and the world. /hj You can chat someone's ears off the moment they're in ear shot, and when you want something, you WILL get it. You're great at figuring out where to hit people in the heartstrings. (Also see: BIG SHOT)

Elegant Entrance: 30 step self care routine. (Also see: Queen)

Bluebird of Misfortune: I'm glad you've finally matured more. (Also see: Berdly)

Pandora Palace: You would be SO willing to get into a heist. You love the thrill of the hunt and getting into where you shouldn't be. Rules don't apply to you. (Also see: Queen)

Acid Tunnel of Love: Single. (Also see: The Legend, Lancer)

It's Pronounced "Rules" : Listen, I am amazed at how many times you lose yet still manage to get back up. Even if you know you won't win, you still curse and swear about it. You're pretty much a sore loser. You really did get handed the worst luck ever. (Also see: Lancer)

Lost Girl: You constantly look back and wonder where everything went wrong. You want your happy life back and to not have everything so complicated. (Also see: Ferris Wheel, Girl Next Door)

Ferris Wheel: You still hold onto your sense of child wonder. I bet you enjoy looking through store displays, or the warmth a hot drink gives you on a cold day. You don't want to take any moment, big or small, for granted. (Also see: Girl Next Door)

Attack of the Killer Queen: You are calculated and precise. It would be a horrible time if someone played against you in a competition. You still hang onto a playful and silly side, and those closest to you know it very well. (Also see: Queen, Berdly)

Giga Size: You scare me! If you're ever in the position of a leader you would either abuse your power, or do something fabulously weird and/or worst. I also have a strong sense you had a weird history phrase like ancient Greece, ancient Egypt, the cold war... (Also see: Queen)

Knock You Down !!: I just know you have a natural cool energy about you. People look at you in awe and wonder. You probably have some pretty sweet talents! (Also see: Queen, Pandora Palace)

The Dark Truth: Why are you so good at deceiving people and why do you do it so often!?! (Also see: Don't Forget)

BIG SHOT: Sly and charming, like if Halloween was a person. You love toying around with people, showing them the weird noises/things you can do with your body. You have so much stored up energy that make you seem crazy to some. You could probably be very good at manipulation if you wanted to be. You're going to be either a science or liberal art major. (Also see: Spamton, THE WORLD REVOLVING, Battle Against a True Hero, Dummy!)

Dialtone: Cold and lonely, you want someone, anyone, to actually care about you. (Also see: The Legend, THE WORLD REVOLVING)

sans. : (Also see: sans.)

Until Next Time: Studying perhaps? You have a strong urge that there's still much more to where life is going to take you. Embrace it. (Also see: Don't Forget)

[chounaifu]

not counting possibly abusive and toxic situations, what's the worst experience you had while roleplaying? something annoying, something petty, something that in hindsight can be considered an inside joke. go nuts. be salty

War. . . .

War never changes.

The multiple times, when I was writing Lucy from Elfen Lied, across multiple platforms, where my icons were stolen, my headcanons were lifted, and my formatting was copied.

The multiple times when "child of my character" OCs were thrown at my muses without anybody even asking me if I wanted to interact with these lost, sassy children.

The 2007-2009 Naruto RP era of 5000 Uchiha OCs, 5000 Akatsuki OCs, and 5000 fan villages. This was the same era where people started to get annoyed with OC and canon interaction, and I'm forever bitter that immature behavior attached to these rp stereotypes forever changed the way we perceive OC (especially FEMALE OC) writers.

That one time somebody who wrote a 5 year old muse kept commenting IC on my smut asks. (It was so fucking weird.)

The 2009-2011 era of Hetalia RPers who reacted to world tragedies by turning it into lore for their Hetalia muses. (Long suffering on Gaia Online.)

Speaking of Gaia Online, the era of trying to RP in Towns and either 1. Missing the response because you walked away to grab a drink, and the comment bubble already disappeared. And 2. Random nude avatars walking up to you and asking to cyber.

The 2010-2011 era of Pokémon roleplay on Facebook and Gaia Online forums where shipping adult characters with the protag characters was RAMPANT. God I had some annoying Lyras trying to jump my Proton constantly.

That one time I was RPing Cassidy on Facebook and someone's non-rp profile kept trying to talk to me and date Cassidy LMAO.

The word Sinday. I hate the word Sinday.

"THIS CHARACTER IS MY HUSBAND BACK OFF XDDD"

People trying to force redemption arcs on my villain muses.

"I'm 16 I'm considered legal in my country so I should be allowed to write smut with you." <- actual quote from actual rper @ actual adult me like 6 years ago.

The era of gender bend muses where the character was completely changed in personality just because the gender was swapped.

*Glomp.* Hi Itachi senpai XD

MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF UNPROMPTED SMUT RP THAT ALWAYS SEEMED TO SPAWN WHEN THE PLOT WAS GOING NOWHERE.

[papirouge]

something I’ll never understand from males is how they’ll ALWAYS screech at us that we expire at “30/35/40” because of fertility but none of them show an once of paternal energy or fatherly warmth. They don’t even like to be reminded that their fertility is also on a clock no matter what. There’s a very good reason why the best fertility clinics in the world reject sperm after 34. They consistently demand for “feminine motherly women” but they act like distant neglectful fathers who thinks being a present father is just paying the bills for whatever mediocre life they think we should live. They want to work, come home, drink their alcoholic poison on the couch and demand their wife to do everything else. 🥴

In fact! The TRUE men who do exhibit that fatherly warm and energy to the women in their lives and families are always called simps and cucks from these same “red pill” men who want what they have. But they don’t want to shown any kindness to women

I have gen z cousins who are barely in their 20s/late teens and they’re not interested in dating/marriage/having kids at all. Their friends are all the same. I don’t blame them. I don’t think dating apps will last longer in the near future as women continue to leave it behind. Granted I’m seeing this from a western view and I’m sure there are plenty of other girls willing to date these guys but I think the west will see a rise of AI in general being used to keep men on dating sites while the rates of real girls using them drop to near 0. 💀

In the end of the day, I want men wanting feminine/motherly/trad women to pick the very same women embracing those qualities and stop bothering the women who are not any of this alone.

I already made a post talking about why tradmen didn't pick the tradfem pickmes (=they revel in taming women). That's also why I don't think AI will stop them being interested in real women, because the thrill of abusing real women will never be reproducible with robots. There's a reason why cyber sex with robots never really took off. For the same reason, a man with a sex doll will be perceived as a bigger weirdo than a man seeing prostitutes....

Trad pickme are coping bc the very same men they're pandering to ain't really checking for them. The only brand of pickme who are winning rn are those from across the pond & southern hemisphere, but not every scrote can afford or is dedicated enough to become a passport bro.

I don't mind men like your cousins not interested in dating ; that's what MGTOW could be if they did shut up about being victims of women (when 95% of what they pretend to be victim of is not because of women). It's like men couldn't embrace the celibate lifestyle without painting themselves as victims of whatever (because deep down they feel entitled to sex - they remind me racist/Conservatives seething about the entertainment industry giving a lot of visibility to non White/non straight actors or characters because they feel entitled to an industry dominated by White people...for whatever reason). It's pathetic and weak.

[vizthedatum]

You know what pisses me off about the ex-friend who introduced me to my current partner?

The fucking fake empathy that masks their selfishness of being entitled to my time and energy without building trust or getting to know me.

And what’s more, I’m still upset at my other ex-friend who I dated last fall/winter for several reasons already discussed: the worst part about them is if they truly don’t understand how they’re a selfish two-faced people pleaser, then they’re ignorantly going around being stuck in dissociation and causing emotional damage. They’re not practicing ENM, and I’m worried about their partner (something I’ve talked about in therapy). I’m incredibly certain they also exhibit fake empathy and have probably made “excuses” for my behavior (like how I might be a sex addict, or how I’m not fun to be around because of my trauma) while they do fucked up shit like be social media friends with my ex-spouse well after me filing the PFA while dating me, putting me in considerable risk. And then justifying that they did it so my ex wouldn’t be alarmed they were losing friends. Meanwhile trying to get me to teach them how to fuck my AFAB body that they didn’t get sexually aroused by. Meanwhile straight up not practicing any form of emotionally responsible conversation with our weirdass poly situationship while ignoring how disrespected they felt by that person. And like not telling me that they found my info dumping overwhelming despite knowing I’m autistic and I need clear communication (which is worse when you realize that they’re also auDHD with trauma like me… and they’ve definitely encouraged paragraph texting explicitly with not just me but on dating apps, as something they like doing). They focus on keeping up appearances while one of their closest friends is literally losing their mind due to horrible cyber and in real life stalking - and barely any progress has been made on that front. It’s ok to focus on one’s self but I don’t want people in my life who don’t have the emotional intelligence or empathy to actually look out for friends, lovers, and partners.

Fuck it all.

I made the decision this week that I’m just going to really do this life by myself, with the help of my trusted partners and friends. I may never have a nesting partner or coparent, but I have me.

Let people think I’m crazy. Let them make fun of me or belittle me with their limited perceptions of the world. Let my ex-spouse be an ableist transphobic monster who threw away the person who would have been there for them no matter what (except abuse, I guess).

Fuck toxicity. I’m working on mine. Don’t gaslight me and not work on yours.