#cvbz

[sunwarmed-ash]

"I love when you ain't about me..."

"...love to test your boundaries..."

"...pushin you out..."

"...pullin you back in again..."

"...and you love when I play my bad cards..."

"...they say love ain't that hard..."

"...but they don't know us, and we aint like them...

"...cuz we just love a little louder..."

[virginpornstar]

Song of the Day: "Somebody To You" by CVBZ, Anna Clendening, & teamwork

[yourdadismycardio]

"I can feel your legs around my neck

While you're taking my breath out my chest

kill the ego..."

Watch "Neverender—CVBZ (full audio)" on YouTube

[honestlydarkprincess]

2, 3, 38! also love the theme <3

Show us a picture of your handwriting?

3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

answered here!

Fave song at the moment?

Probably Louder by CVBZ because it scratches my brain just right!

fun asks!

[randomshit657]

Songs I associate with various characters. No I will it elaborate.

Craig (Miracle Workers) - The Middle by Jimmy Eat World

Prince Chauncley (Miracle Workers) - The Green and The Town by AJR

Ezekiel Brown (Miracle Workers) - Brave as a Noun by AJJ

Sid (Miracle Workers) - Green Green Dress from Tick, Tick, Boom!

David (Camp Camp) - Get Back Up Again from Trolls

Eddie Diaz (911onabc) - The Drug In Me Is You by Falling in Reverse

Evan Buckley (911onabc) - Gold Rush Kid by George Ezra

Maddie Buckley (911onabc) - Montreal by Penelope Scott

TK Strand (911 Lone Star) - take me back to new york city by LukeTrepp

Carlos Reyes (911 Lone Star) - Tears Over Beers by Modern Baseball

Reggie (Julie and The Phantoms) - Don’t Throw Out My Legos by AJR

Luke (Julie and The Phantoms) - ESOEMOEHOED Leanna Firestone

Alex (Julie and The Phantoms) - Anxiety Song by Human Petting Zoo

Julie (Julie and The Phantoms) - birthday cake by Dylan Conrique

Willie (Julie and The Phantoms) - Be Glad I Love You (Go to Bed) by Bug Hunter

Carrie (Julie and The Phantoms) - Prom Queen by Molly Kate Kestner

Max Thunderman (The Thundermans) - IDK If I’m a Boy by Blue Foster

Spencer Reid (Criminal Minds) - Kind Love by Bears in Trees

Matt Murdock (Daredevil) - The Devil Wears a Suit and Tie by Colter Wall

Malcolm Bright (Prodigal Son) - Dead Girls by Penelope Scott

Ian Gallagher (Shameless) - Vicodin by CVBZ

Wilson (House MD) - A Sadness Runs Through Him by The Hoosiers

Abed (Community) - Scrawny by Wallows

Todd Anderson (Dead Poets Society) - Ramblings of A Lunatic by Bears In Trees

Neil Perry (Dead Poets Society) - Icarus by Bastille

Barney Stinson (How I Met Your Mother) - Casual Sex by My Darkest Days

Ted Mosby (How I Met Your Mother) - Haven’t Met You Yet by Michael Bublé

Chase Davenport (Lab Rats) - Oh No! By MARINA

[penroseparticle]

Penrose Song of the Day, Day 28: Vicodin by CVBZ

I've been bouncing off the walls. Haven't you?

There's something to be said for facing your vices but at a remove. The drugs can't get me from across the screen, and all that. I can't take them if they're metaphorical.

I miss the days when I just took pills off the ground, honestly. Which I have done! More than once! I think the most drugs I was on at one time was 4? Probably? I Envy the people that can be normal about drugs. Who can moderate or plan out a trip or a high or whatever. I... cannot do that.

Some parts of it were really, really great. Some parts I don't remember. Some parts were very very, bad. Some parts I'll never forget.

I miss so much of it. And I have this cosmic, tidal pull towards it. But I don't like who I am on them. I don't like what I do to get them. I don't like it. There's no Pride in this. So I don't do them now, or try not to. I just ache.

It can be soothing, at times, to worry at a toothache. To press on a bruise. To say I know I'm hurt, but I also know how far I can push it. What's uncomfortable but ultimately harmless. Self harm as boundary pushing (which is also harm), but in that clinical, detached way. Like I'm my own lab rat or something.

But I know too well that it can turn into an obsession. Nay, a compulsion. Sometimes the thought runs through my head unbidden, like a mantra. I've unlocked another layer of the universes but that layer is just the dark, ugly underside of consumption. Greed and Gluttony had a baby and they named it Addiction.

I can't always tell when a song about drugs will bother me and when it won't. Paradoxically, the more explicitly a song refers to it, the less it bothers me. Bump This, Meth and Mary, Adderall, Vicodin. All songs I love and can (usually) listen to without any issues. Semi-Charmed Kind of Life.

Usually it's songs that just remind me of a time that I can't do anymore. I like Burning Legend by French 79 but I absolutely, categorically can't listen to it anymore.

I miss that too, actually.

I've had drugs on the mind this week more than usual and I'm doing the extremely unfun work of "saying it out loud to people in my life" rather than struggle in silence and relapse. So here's me saying I'm craving a bowl so badly I dreamed I ate the glass pipe like a lollipop. Crunched on that glass bulb and chewed it up like it wasn't slicing my mouth to pieces. Just for a taste. for the last morsel on the glass. I can tell my brain isn't being subtle at all.

Vicodin is a song I actually kind of like. I have to say that the song does NOT describe taking Vicodin, unless you know a painkiller that keeps you awake for days. It's my understanding that Opiates just fuck your REM sleep. You sleep but you're still tired. Sloth incarnate. No this song sounds like my kind of drug honestly. Slow down for us, but I can't control my pace. "I haven't slept in days." You know what that sounds like.

I do, at least.

CVBZ (pronounced "cubs" because of course it is) couldn't possibly have made a more me song if he tried. Even the fact that the artist is called "Cubs" and the song is about drugs, but is vague enough to plausibly hide which one.

The song has a really simple background synth with odd placements to it- feels like, ironically, a song I would really enjoy listening to high. The claps are a grounding presence when the backing track falls back during the chorus. The song is a little spare. A little empty. Honestly I kind of welcome it, there are a LOT of songs that pack it in and I think the space given to this song makes it work a little bit better.

The lyrics are sufficient, the melody is simple and easy to sing. I could probably manage it high as a kite, honestly, which sorta adds to it.

I don't have a fun writeup today, I just have a craving. You could be dead right now. I almost was. Sorry for messing with the signoff. Let me try again. You could be dead right now. Go listen to something you love.

[sunwarmed-ash]

The Eden Club-The Playlist

Idk I wanted to make this so I did :3 I love how this fic is turning out!

Chapter 1: My Name is Human

Chapter 2: Guilty Conscience

Chapter 3: I was sitting here, waiting on Karma

Chapter 4: ^soFtWArE inStABiLity^

Chapter 5: Closing Time

Chapter 6: You'll look for me in someone forever

Chapter 7: Truth? You can't handle the truth.

Chapter 8: that aint a text, no that's a love letter

Chapter 9: Switchblades and infidelity

Chapter 10: they say love's a chemical, and now we're both starting to feel it

Chapter 11: What you do on your own time's just fine, my imagination's much worse...

Chapter 12: Calm before the storm

Chapter 13: The Patron Saint of Liars and Fakes

Chapter 14: The space between

Chapter 15: The Truth hurts worse than anything I can bring myself to do to you

Chapter 16: Take this to your grave, and I'll take it to mine

*Also the patron saint of liars and fakes by Fall out boy but 10s the limit and it would be weird adding it out of order

[mtreebeardiles]

Music! Ah! Tagged by @mynerdylordship — many thanks! Let’s see… shuffle on the On Repeat playlist eh? First ten hits are:

1. Running up that Hill - Scott Bradlee’s Postmodern Jukebox w/Sweet Meg

2. What a Time to Be Alive - Fallout Boy

3. So Tied Up - Coldwar Kids ft Bishop Briggs

4. Fire - Diskopunk

5. Knock Me Down - Youngblood Hawke

6. Hold Me Like a Grudge - Fallout Boy

7. In My Room - Young Rising Sons ft Sizzy Rocket

8. This Time is Right - CVBZ ft American Authors & N3wport

9. Heartbreak Feels So Good - Fallout Boy

10. So Good Right Now - Fallout Boy

Gee I wonder what album I’ve been listening to on repeat lately 😂

Tagging let’s see @tankbredgrunt @theoriginalladya @bluerose5 and anyone else who wants to participate! No pressure as always 😌

[coago]

Músicas de Outras Viagens #009

"Why you wanna run from me now, love? Why you calling all the shots, oh, Someday I'm gonna be somebody. You'll see, you'll see."

[youngyang-world]

The best Electric Dance Music "It Feels Great" by Young Yang & Dianna most of alternative records of Cold Fusion Records®,it was recorded in 2012.This music complexity 2012-2015 progressive binary strings soundtrack.This soundtrack revision by Fetty Wap,Cheat Codes & CVBZ in 2017.

Out Now💯👍