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[sunwarmed-ash]

🔥Sinful Sunday🔥[1st SS of 2025!]

Chapter 7: I want to know what's on your mind, you're all I've got on mine

Fandom: Stranger Things 1-4 Ships: Previous Harringrove->Metalsanwich Trigger Warning:Suicidal Thoughts/Ideation, Period-Typical Homophobia/Homophobic Language, Abusive Neil Hargrove Tags: Billy Hargrove Redemption, Hurt/Comfort, Slow Burn, Angst with a Happy Ending, Post-Season/Series 03, Everyone lives but at what cost, Eventual Polyamory, Billy and Steve are tragic exes working through their shit, Eddie is helping a lot, healing through trauma Preview:

He should have known he couldn’t avoid Steve forever. He just hoped the inevitable accidental bump-in would happen anywhere but his place of work. 

Someone must have told him because there's no way in hell it's a coincidence the entire party is here. They came inside looking for Billy. 

As soon as his eyes meet the metalheads, his guilty eyes shoot to the floor. Billy grinds his teeth. He’s gonna kill Eddie.

“DEB,” Billy shouts from the kitchen, “I’m going on a break!”

“The fuck you are,” she shouts back, but in her usual motherly/scolding way, “I know you’re eyes are better than mine, so I know you saw that 8 top just walk in.”

“They can wait,” Billy grumps, grabbing his cigarettes and storming out the back door without another word. 

Deb looks at her newest employee and shakes her head knowingly before looking over the ragtag group of teenagers.  

“So I’m guessing you know Sunshine huh,” Debbie asks the party plus Steve and Eddie. 8 sets of eyes blow wide at the nickname. 

“S-Sunshine,” Dustin asks, and Deb’s face transforms from customer service polite to protective Mama bear in a flash. 

“That's what I call him. You got a problem with that kid?”

“H-He’s my brother,” Max interjects, taking the heat off Dustin. Dustin shoots her an immediate look of gratitude. 

“Ahhh,” Debbie chuckles, before pointing to the largest booth with the tip of her pen. “In that case, take your time, look at the menu, and lemon bars are on me. Excuse me, I have an ass to chew.”

[virginpornstar]

Song of the Day: "Somebody To You" by CVBZ, Anna Clendening, & teamwork

[yourdadismycardio]

"I can feel your legs around my neck

While you're taking my breath out my chest

kill the ego..."

Watch "Neverender—CVBZ (full audio)" on YouTube

[honestlydarkprincess]

2, 3, 38! also love the theme <3

Show us a picture of your handwriting?

3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

answered here!

Fave song at the moment?

Probably Louder by CVBZ because it scratches my brain just right!

fun asks!

[randomshit657]

Songs I associate with various characters. No I will it elaborate.

Craig (Miracle Workers) - The Middle by Jimmy Eat World

Prince Chauncley (Miracle Workers) - The Green and The Town by AJR

Ezekiel Brown (Miracle Workers) - Brave as a Noun by AJJ

Sid (Miracle Workers) - Green Green Dress from Tick, Tick, Boom!

David (Camp Camp) - Get Back Up Again from Trolls

Eddie Diaz (911onabc) - The Drug In Me Is You by Falling in Reverse

Evan Buckley (911onabc) - Gold Rush Kid by George Ezra

Maddie Buckley (911onabc) - Montreal by Penelope Scott

TK Strand (911 Lone Star) - take me back to new york city by LukeTrepp

Carlos Reyes (911 Lone Star) - Tears Over Beers by Modern Baseball

Reggie (Julie and The Phantoms) - Don’t Throw Out My Legos by AJR

Luke (Julie and The Phantoms) - ESOEMOEHOED Leanna Firestone

Alex (Julie and The Phantoms) - Anxiety Song by Human Petting Zoo

Julie (Julie and The Phantoms) - birthday cake by Dylan Conrique

Willie (Julie and The Phantoms) - Be Glad I Love You (Go to Bed) by Bug Hunter

Carrie (Julie and The Phantoms) - Prom Queen by Molly Kate Kestner

Max Thunderman (The Thundermans) - IDK If I’m a Boy by Blue Foster

Spencer Reid (Criminal Minds) - Kind Love by Bears in Trees

Matt Murdock (Daredevil) - The Devil Wears a Suit and Tie by Colter Wall

Malcolm Bright (Prodigal Son) - Dead Girls by Penelope Scott

Ian Gallagher (Shameless) - Vicodin by CVBZ

Wilson (House MD) - A Sadness Runs Through Him by The Hoosiers

Abed (Community) - Scrawny by Wallows

Todd Anderson (Dead Poets Society) - Ramblings of A Lunatic by Bears In Trees

Neil Perry (Dead Poets Society) - Icarus by Bastille

Barney Stinson (How I Met Your Mother) - Casual Sex by My Darkest Days

Ted Mosby (How I Met Your Mother) - Haven’t Met You Yet by Michael Bublé

Chase Davenport (Lab Rats) - Oh No! By MARINA

[penroseparticle]

Penrose Song of the Day, Day 28: Vicodin by CVBZ

I've been bouncing off the walls. Haven't you?

There's something to be said for facing your vices but at a remove. The drugs can't get me from across the screen, and all that. I can't take them if they're metaphorical.

I miss the days when I just took pills off the ground, honestly. Which I have done! More than once! I think the most drugs I was on at one time was 4? Probably? I Envy the people that can be normal about drugs. Who can moderate or plan out a trip or a high or whatever. I... cannot do that.

Some parts of it were really, really great. Some parts I don't remember. Some parts were very very, bad. Some parts I'll never forget.

I miss so much of it. And I have this cosmic, tidal pull towards it. But I don't like who I am on them. I don't like what I do to get them. I don't like it. There's no Pride in this. So I don't do them now, or try not to. I just ache.

It can be soothing, at times, to worry at a toothache. To press on a bruise. To say I know I'm hurt, but I also know how far I can push it. What's uncomfortable but ultimately harmless. Self harm as boundary pushing (which is also harm), but in that clinical, detached way. Like I'm my own lab rat or something.

But I know too well that it can turn into an obsession. Nay, a compulsion. Sometimes the thought runs through my head unbidden, like a mantra. I've unlocked another layer of the universes but that layer is just the dark, ugly underside of consumption. Greed and Gluttony had a baby and they named it Addiction.

I can't always tell when a song about drugs will bother me and when it won't. Paradoxically, the more explicitly a song refers to it, the less it bothers me. Bump This, Meth and Mary, Adderall, Vicodin. All songs I love and can (usually) listen to without any issues. Semi-Charmed Kind of Life.

Usually it's songs that just remind me of a time that I can't do anymore. I like Burning Legend by French 79 but I absolutely, categorically can't listen to it anymore.

I miss that too, actually.

I've had drugs on the mind this week more than usual and I'm doing the extremely unfun work of "saying it out loud to people in my life" rather than struggle in silence and relapse. So here's me saying I'm craving a bowl so badly I dreamed I ate the glass pipe like a lollipop. Crunched on that glass bulb and chewed it up like it wasn't slicing my mouth to pieces. Just for a taste. for the last morsel on the glass. I can tell my brain isn't being subtle at all.

Vicodin is a song I actually kind of like. I have to say that the song does NOT describe taking Vicodin, unless you know a painkiller that keeps you awake for days. It's my understanding that Opiates just fuck your REM sleep. You sleep but you're still tired. Sloth incarnate. No this song sounds like my kind of drug honestly. Slow down for us, but I can't control my pace. "I haven't slept in days." You know what that sounds like.

I do, at least.

CVBZ (pronounced "cubs" because of course it is) couldn't possibly have made a more me song if he tried. Even the fact that the artist is called "Cubs" and the song is about drugs, but is vague enough to plausibly hide which one.

The song has a really simple background synth with odd placements to it- feels like, ironically, a song I would really enjoy listening to high. The claps are a grounding presence when the backing track falls back during the chorus. The song is a little spare. A little empty. Honestly I kind of welcome it, there are a LOT of songs that pack it in and I think the space given to this song makes it work a little bit better.

The lyrics are sufficient, the melody is simple and easy to sing. I could probably manage it high as a kite, honestly, which sorta adds to it.

I don't have a fun writeup today, I just have a craving. You could be dead right now. I almost was. Sorry for messing with the signoff. Let me try again. You could be dead right now. Go listen to something you love.

[sunwarmed-ash]

🔥Sinful Sunday🔥

Chapter 6: You're all I'm looking for, all I hope to find…

Fandom: Stranger Things Ship: Previous Harringrove -> Metalsandwich Trigger Warnings: Suicidal Ideation, homophobic language Tags: Post-Season 03: Everyone lives but at what cost, Billy and Steve are tragic exes -> eventual metalsandwich polyamory, Billy Hargrove Redemption, Abusive Neil Hargrove, Hurt/Comfort, Slow Burn, Angst with a Happy Ending Preview:

“Maybe,” Eddie reaches his hand out, intertwining his fingers with Billy’s, “we take it one step at a time. Maybe,” he says, pulling Billy’s lips back to his own, “we can continue this.”  Billy allows Eddie to kiss him once before he’s pulling away.  “Hang on, wait. I’m- confused, do you want me, or are you trying to get me back with Steve?” Eddie shrugs easily.  “Is it so crazy to want both?” Billy looks at him like he grew a second head. “So you- want to share?” “Yeah, is that so weird?” Billy scoffs. “Spoken like a true nomad.” Eddie shrugs.  “That’s honestly alot nicer than what people usually call me.” “I know… I was one of them. …’M sorry.” Eddie smiles.  “It’s all good man. But thanks, it means a lot.” A tense beat passes, and then,  “He won't go for it.” “How do you know,” Eddie challenges, “You're not the only person who’s changed.”

ao3 kofi

[coago]

Músicas de Outras Viagens #009

"Why you wanna run from me now, love? Why you calling all the shots, oh, Someday I'm gonna be somebody. You'll see, you'll see."

[youngyang-world]

The best Electric Dance Music "It Feels Great" by Young Yang & Dianna most of alternative records of Cold Fusion Records®,it was recorded in 2012.This music complexity 2012-2015 progressive binary strings soundtrack.This soundtrack revision by Fetty Wap,Cheat Codes & CVBZ in 2017.

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[honestlydarkprincess]

when you get this, list 5 songs you really enjoy and then, send this to 10 of your favourite followers!!

MWAH!

Sip - Jessie Murph

PASSENGER PRINCESS - Nessa Barrett

Granite - Sleep Token

Cigarette - Shaya Zamora

Louder - CVBZ