#currently all i want to do is watch obscure movies and anime

[completebest]

just finished watching platonic chain. i am now a huge platonic chain truther. everyone go watch it right now its free with subs on youtube less than 2 hours you have no excuse!!

[radiumrascal]

(｡•ㅅ•｡) Intro! 

Hi! Welcome to my studyblr/ misc/ shitposting blog (since I cannot stick to one thing :3) 

𓂃𓏲࣪  ʚɞ Personal Info ♡. 。°˖

You can call me Ina :) 

Im 17 so no creepy stuff pls 

I’m currently a dropper, studying for JEE and NEET (╥﹏╥)

My personality type is INTP-T 7w8

I love love LOVE science and want to pursue a career in academia/ research

I got diagnosed with ADHD last year so I try my best to manage that while studying

You will always find me with a book on my person (im a total literature slut) 

I have more hobbies than I can manage (ㆆ_ㆆ)

𓂃𓏲࣪  ʚɞ Hobbies ♡. 。°˖

Reading anything and everything I can get my hands on, but I particularly love philosophical texts and classics 

Discussing politics and feminism 

Clicking pictures 

Learning about history, philosophy, psychology, morality and ethics, etc 

Writing obscure poems and monologues 

Spending an unhealthy amount of time on pinterest 

Listening to music (mostly classic and alt rock), I’m currently trying to learn how to play the guitar 

Watching a loooot of movies and consuming all forms of media 

𓂃𓏲࣪  ʚɞ Things I love  ♡. 。°˖

Volunteer work. It’s so important for us, especially as teenagers and young adults to be volunteering and helping people and animals in need 

Working out

Making my room match my personality (aka my violent need to express myself through consumerism) 

Getting dressed and doing makeup 

STAR WARS STAR WARS STAR WARS 

coffee (or any other form of caffeine, if possible would probably inject it in my veins)

idk man all of jeff buckley’s music 

trying anything and everything (but never sticking to it LMAO)

oversharing (aka my second violent need to be accepted)  

I suppose that’s it for now since I can't really think of much else and also don't know how to make myself sound interesting :P 

[yuribracket]

WELCOME TO THE ULTIMATE YURI-OFF

This is a tumblr poll competition inspired by the yaoi and femslash polls run by sapphicshowdown on twitter last year and the character swag polls currently being run by tumblr blogs like @nonbiney-swag-competition @autismswagsummit @transgenderswagcompetition and @lesbianswagcompetition. Its goal? To determine which yuri pairing shall rise above all the rest...

I am planning on including 32 pairings, 12 of which have already been decided. You can see the list of pairings currently slated for inclusion here. These are subject to change if other yuri gets overwhelmingly nominated, but these are ones you don't need to submit as I am already all over it.

The rest of the pairings to be included will be open for submission, using a similar method to the other tumblrs listed above!

SUBMIT PAIRINGS FOR INCLUSION HERE

Edit: The form will close at 10 PM PST on February 11!

However, please note that the pairings on the bracket will be decided by my discretion rather than a straightforward count of votes. Popularity will factor, but I want to include particularly culturally significant yuri, as well as yuri from a variety of sources.

If you want to get your obscure but beloved pairing on my radar, please submit - their chances may be better than you think! Additionally, this means that a good argument for inclusion in the relevant section of the form may be important.

Detailed submission rules and more information can be found under the cut.

SUBMISSION RULES

I am not a proshipper and will not include particularly problematic or controversial pairings. I am more open to enjoying a good toxic lesbian relationship than some, but mostly I just want to avoid arguments springing up around the blog.

Pairings do not have to be canon. Canonicity or heavy implication or baiting may improve their chances of getting in, but non-canon pairings are also welcome for submission.

Anything can be yuri. Expand your mind. Your submission can be from any (fictional) source, from anime to indie comics to 16th century drama.

As per the above, submissions of real people will not be accepted.

I encourage you to submit couples over polyamorous relationships. Polyam relationships may end up being included if there is a lot of overlap in who people ship out of a trio or group of characters, but I would prefer to determine which of those combinations is most popular myself.

There is no limit to how many pairings you can submit. I would ask that you not submit the same pairing multiple times, but as submissions are anonymous there's not really anything I can do about that.

Additional info:

My selections may bias towards anime/cartoons/video games/books/comics, just because I do not watch a lot of live action shows and movies and my knowledge of the fan cultures surrounding those formats is limited. This means that number of votes will probably weigh more heavily for live action pairings, as I don't necessarily have a great view of their cultural significance otherwise.

I'm likely to only include one relationship from a given media franchise.

I use it/its pronouns if you care

[sugutoad]

hi! i was wondering if i could get matchup for demon slayer?

i'm 6'0 and have amber eyes, long gold blond curly hair and hourglass figure

i'm positive and upbeat person, i try to see the bright side in most situations

i'm friendly, energetic, confident, responsible, maybe a bit chaotic, cheerful and bubbly

i care about my friends and family a lot, and go out of my way to show it

i enjoy having fun and living life to the fullest

i really like puzzles, riddles and crosswords

i love making people smile

i have morbid, dark sense of humor

sometimes i randomly say a weird obscure fact in the middle of conversation

i can play on violin, cello, piano, guitar, saxophone, harp and drums, i'm currently learning how to play on trumpet

i like poetry and sometimes i write a poem or two, also i'm writing my book

i'm ballet dancer since i was a kid and i love performing

i'm working on my own cartoon

i never quite grew out of the fantasy phase, and i'm still enamored with tales of changelings and witches

i work as illustrator for fantasy books and books for kids

i'm kinda struggling with taking rest, doing nothing, because there is always something to do, something new to learn, etc.

i'm afraid of stagnation

i overuse this kind of emojis→(⁠ㆁ⁠ω⁠ㆁ⁠)

i love: sunflowers, collecting things, colors yellow, maroon, blue and green, astronomy, tea, making and watching movies, photography, forests, making jewelry, cooking, baking, d&d, fantasy books, horrors, playing chess, animals, plants, dollmaking, dancing, gardening, traveling, drawing, painting, knitting, art, history, world mythologies, spirits, fantasy creatures, eldrich beings, folklore, sculpting, works of J.R.R Tolkien, linguistics, death, burial, beliefs about afterlife, learning new things, embroidery, cartoons, music, psychology, writing

sorry if it's too chaotic (⁠꒪⁠꒳⁠꒪⁠)

thank you so much for even reading this! (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠)

i hope you have a fantastic day (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)

Matchup for @pinezki

╰┈➤ Thank you for doing Matchups at Sugutoad

╰┈➤ Muichiro Tokito ‘Even if I die, I won't let you get away with this!’

Ok, so I haven’t been interacting with Demon Slayer lately so my memory is slightly fuzzy

Have you realised how bright a person you are? He has been so alone his whole life, trouble after trouble facing him. Then you come. So bright and happy, blonde curls bouncing up and those amber eyes, reflecting the sun, were an entrance to your beautiful soul that always seems to be making him smile 

Your demeanors go so well. His quiet, stoic and logical nature seems to be the exact opposite of your bubbly, upbeat and chaotic nature. He seems to be also making sure the two of you stay out of trouble at all times just to be sure that you don’t charge straight into battle. He knows you're capable of yourself but he always wants to make sure that everything is perfect and safe so neither of you die.

 He finds you so graceful. Your fighting style was almost mirroring Mitsuri in a way but the way you gently get rapidly run around and twist like a ballerina is enchanting. You make fighting look like a dance that even him , the youngest hashira, couldn’t achieve.

Whenever you are working on your illustrations and stressed out/ overworking yourself, he brings in a sunflower as a sweet reminder. You remind him of a sunflower in fact. A sunflower is a symbol of faith and devotion, and here you are, working so hard if something you are devoted to entirely. A sunflower also represents radiating brightness and positive energy. And when I tell you to make this boy so happy, you don’t understand. He always seems to be smiling at you, even when you crack a dark joke that he may not understand. 

He always makes sure you take rest in between your work periods. You come home from a mission and immediately start doing something? He will immediately drag you to bed and do it yourself. And don’t even try telling him that you are fine, he may be quiet but he is also observant.

You are so tall! He thinks he should be the taller one of the relationship due to being the male but he loves your height. Always telling people ‘that’s my girlfriend’ when they look at you. 

[rinwellisathing]

Get To Know People Better Tag Game

I was tagged by @graysparrowao3! thank you!

Three Ships:

So I assume this is like favorites? Okay, I'll try to do separate fandoms as well to keep it interesting and I'll try and make it less common ships, not exactly rare ships per se because like... I am very shy and anxiety prone so truthfully iunno what's rare and not because I don't engage a lot.

Thunderweave (Gale/Rolan) : I really like this one, even more since my fiancee and I RPed it with the idea of transmasc Rolan. It's really kind of interesting and also Rolan deserves a better fellow wizard than Lorroakan and I think Gale is a great fellow wizard being both talented, secure in his abilities, but also willing to see the potential and power in another person. Also I super identify with Rolan and my fiancee does a really good really convincing Gale for RP and cosplay. Kabru/Mithrun: I initially preferred Kabru/Laios, which I still really like honestly, but I read a longer post about Mithrun's disabilities and his trauma and how Kabru treats him like a person when most people don't and like as a heavily traumatized person who became suddenly and severely disabled as a result, I really really relate and hope that my partners will show me that same level of care when they are able (distance has been the main reason why not, my mom has mainly been the one taking care of me since I became disabled so I don't really know what my partners will do in person because one lives far away and one has been called away on family issues since before this became a major issue) Thraina (Thrall/Jaina) : This is the only hetero ship I consistently come back to. I usually prefer Sylvanas/Jaina, but realistically I don't want to put that one here for only one reason. Sylvanas/Jaina has a lot of basis in what it could be (No one at Blizzard who has been there consistently through their entire development is talented enough to have made it work so it's all theoretical and based on what much better unpaid fanfiction writers decide). Thraina, meanwhile was unintentionally somehow written as one of the most equitable, healtyh, equal, and level relationships in all of WoW and it wasn't even canon...mainly because Metzen is a weird creepy misogynist (one of the main reasons I actually mainly write Aggra/Jaina as a ship actually, because both deserve better and are, in theory, better than that bag of derivative Marvel obsessed dicks allows them to be) but anyway, it's just fascinating to me how the healthiest ship in WoW was axed, shut down, and denied despite how genuinely good it was. I could write essays on this, I *HAVE* written essays on this, but I'll spare you. First ship: Domon Kasshu/Chibodee Crockett (G Gundam) but also Meg Giry and Christine Daae (Phantom of the Opera) these were simultaneous, so honestly I had to put both.

Last Song: Where You Are (Moana Soundtrack)

Last Movie: it was this obscure random horror movie I found on Peacock called 'Wait Till Helen Comes' about a child ghost. I tend to since I've been unable to work stay up late making costume pieces and writing and pick random horror movies for background. It wasn't bad, honestly.

Currently reading: Humblewood campaign setting book for an actual play I want to do Faerun 3.5 Player's Guide for flavor bits for my BG3 fanfics and location lore for my BG 3 sequel campaign Cinderwich by Cherie Priest

Currently watching:

Interview With a Vampire Crispy's Tavern Currently Eating: Opera Cake Currently craving: The nastiest, filthiest Durgetash ERP, preferably with my fiancee as Gortash. Favorite color: Purple

Current Obsession: BG 3 Prehistoric ocean animals Junji Ito Sharks in general Costuming Fatal Frame Last thing I googled: Sophia Loren Favorite Season: WInter

Skill I'd like to learn: Shoe making Metalurgy Best advice: You're never done learning until you're dead...even then, let's assume we get reincarnated and then rinse, repeat, start learning again. I'm tagging @iron-bullogna @vialae @vestigialpersonality @dm-dragonpuff

[robboybot]

Nine people you’d like to get to know better

I got tagged in this and it makes me think of my deviantart journal days so I'm just doing this for fun without tagging anyone lmao

tagged by @egg-exe the funky protein packet in a calcium shell

Last Song: kaisarion by ghost in my car while driving home from class :) blasting it at extreme volume while driving fast is how it's MEANT to be listened to trust me

Favorite color: red :) I like bright typical red and also dark crimson

Currently watching: "Monster" with my pal corrupt, it's some old obscure anime set in Germany about a Japanese doctor having a really bad time LOL. It's odd but fascinating...

Last Movie: Across the spiderverse :) it was fun

Currently Reading: uhhhhhh. uhhh... well. nothing actually because my college classes are all studio arts at the moment lmfao. the last thing I read was a textbook in june-july for art history lol.

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: I have a massive sweet tooth lmao so sweet most of the time :) but i also LOVE umami/savory... depends on my mood!

Relationship Status: Single 🥺😭😭😭💀💔 (WHERE'S MY ROBOT BF)

Current Obsession: Ghost the band LMFAO. Also my OCs, but yeah Ghost the band. i mean. if you look at my icon and recent art. well. OH also i have a revived secular fascination with Christian artistic themes and styles, my art history class did that lol.

Last Thing I Googled: Pokemon from my search history to find the websites i've been using to play scarlet lol. it's a 'order guide' for what to face at what level as well as the weaknesses chart...

Currently Working On: A fancy art piece of my OC and projects for college lmao

Tagging: anyone who wants to :) I'm just doing this for fun

[mydreambatfam]

Batfamily Action Style: Girls with Guns

While the likes of Captain Marvel and Wonder Woman are great for female empowerment and the fun spectacle of Harley Quinn and Black Widow are fun I have found myself disappointed with how the action is lackluster compared to their male counterparts. Even the more street level heros like Colleen Wing and Elektra have rather average fight scenes even though they are part of the supporting cast of the best Martial Artists in the MCU. While their fights are good they can be better. With the Batfamily finally coming to live action what can be improved?

So what source of media can the female members of the Batfamily be inspired by?

An old genre from the golden age of Hong Kong Action Cinema is the key to really capture what they can do. The Girls with Guns subgenre. Yes Madam is a 1985 martial arts film starring Karate Champion Cynthia Rothrock and current mega star Michelle Yeoh. It is considered the first movie of this kind and kicked off this type of story. Female action stars kicking ass and taking names just as well as any of the well known male actors.

If you want to see what a Cassandra Cain/Stephanie Brown scene would look like in a fight watch this movie.

But these were not the only women defining this subgenre. Moon Lee, Cynthia Khan, Yukari Oshima and more were stars as well.

Sadly though by the 90s the subgenre died out along with the golden era of Hong Kong Cinema. A mixture of corruption due to the Triads being involved in the Hong Kong film industry, the rise of mainland Chinese movies, and the slow reunification of Hong Kong back into the Chinese government from British ownership were 3 major reasons this era died out. Combine this with the Hong Kong financial crisis due to the reunification, other competition from different Asian countries, and major American movies like Jurassic Park coming out led to the death Hong Kong 80s cinema. While luckily it recovered and made a resurgence through reimagining and artistic direction it was never the same again.

Essentially too many hands and factors controlling the industry.

The Girls with Guns subgenre sadly fell to obscurity in western audiences eyes. Never really making a splash in pop culture compared to other kung fu movies. However echos of their works can be felt since its fall in the mids 1990s. In Japan Anime was echoing the style of action. The best shows you may know is Black Lagoon and Ghost in the Shell .

While there is no correlation with the subgenre effecting other action movies in other Asia countries they have grown similar waves a female lead martial arts action. In 2008 ,Thailand had a short lived action star of Jeeja Yanin from her internationally acclaimed movie Chocolate. In 2013 in Indonesia the Raid 2 had amazing action scenes for their mute villian Hammer Girl played by Julie Estelle. Vietnam in 2019 gained similar fame for their movie Furie. It even got its own prequel directed by the first movie's main star Veronica Ngo. Finally in South Korea, while it was having its Renaissance in its film industry along came the film The Villianess. While more action oriented it was so good that John Wick 3 had to steal a scene from it.

With characters like Cassandra Cain, Lady Shiva , Black Canary and more street level heros possibly making an appearence in live action, Hollywood might as well pull out all the stops for these badass women. If they do,they might want to look outward for inspiration.

[salsakiyoomi]

hi! i was wondering if i could get event matchup for spiderverse?

i'm new follower but i already love your blog! your theme is so pretty and your writing brings me sooo much joy!

i'm 20 y.o woman, my pronouns are she/her

i'm demisexual panromantic

i'm enfp 7w8, leo

i'm 6'0 and have amber eyes, long gold blond curly hair and hourglass figure

i'm positive and upbeat person, i try to see the bright side in most situations

i'm friendly, energetic, confident, sarcastic, responsible, maybe a bit chaotic, cheerful and bubbly

i care about my friends and family a lot, and go out of my way to show it

i enjoy having fun and living life to the fullest

i'm very competitive and passionate person

i really like puzzles, riddles and crosswords

i love making people smile

i have morbid, dark sense of humor

sometimes i randomly say a weird obscure fact in the middle of conversation

i can play on violin, cello, piano, guitar, saxophone, harp and drums, i'm currently learning how to play on trumpet

i like poetry and sometimes i write a poem or two, also i'm writing my book

i'm ballet dancer since i was a kid and i love performing

i'm working on my own cartoon

i never quite grew out of the fantasy phase, and i'm still enamored with tales of changelings and witches

i work as illustrator for fantasy books and books for kids

i'm kinda struggling with taking rest, doing nothing, because there is always something to do, something new to learn, etc.

i'm afraid of stagnation

i overuse this kind of emojis→(⁠ㆁ⁠ω⁠ㆁ⁠)

my style is something between whimsigothic and cryptidcore

i love: found family trope, summer, sunflowers, collecting things, colors yellow, maroon, blue and green, astronomy, tea, making and watching movies, forests, making jewelry, cooking, baking, d&d, horrors, animals, plants, gardening, traveling, art, history, world mythologies, works of J.R.R Tolkien, learning new things, psychology, handicraft

ideal type: someone who truly understands me. someone who i can go on and have deep talks with them. i want this magical ✨connection✨

sorry if it's too chaotic

i hope you have a fantastic day (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)

HONEYMOON MATCHUP WITH : MILES MORALES

— honeymoon

— miles is not exactly sure how the two of you met — the one thing he vividly remembers about the first time he had seen your face though was the one time he bumped into you in the school hallway— you were carrying a stack of papers and he tripped over his own feet and the two of you fell to the ground — he apologized profusely while helping you gather your papers — he was a mess, blushing and stumbling over his own words and you laughed and he paused — the sound was like music to his ears. you'd smiled at him and told him that it was okay and he shouldn't worry about it — he might've said something along the lines of "uh, uhuh, yeah, i'm so sorry." because he truly couldn't manage anything else out, too awe-struck by you — you could say he literally fell for you.

— you became close friends quickly after miles found out the two of you share art class — by heart, he was an artist, so it was no surprise when you found sketches of yourself in his sketchbook and teased him about it, it was all good fun with the two of you laughing and then comfortable silence fell over the two of you after, and almost as if on instinct, miles leaned in, pressing his lips to yours in a soft peck — it was like he was drawn to your lips ( actually, he always has been ) and he pulled himself towards the attraction instead of resisting it, it was only to his surprise when you kissed him back.

— and then, when it was summertime and you were sitting atop a roof and miles swung right besides you — laughing at how you yelped in surprise before taking off his spider-man mask and handing you a bouquet of sunflowers he had handpicked for you himself, grinning at how happy you looked, you were laughing as you inhaled in the scent of the flowers, before hugging him tightly and thanking him, he laughed — his heart skipping beats in his chest as he leaned in to kiss you, to savor your sweet taste that matched the sweet words you always spoke to him, and he couldn't help but think about just how lucky he was.

— what's on the radio : stop the world cause i wanna get off with you, the arctic monkeys

a/n : this man is literally so dhuwhjdsh i love him so much, ty for the request <33

[ardent-fox]

✨️ Interview Tag Game ✨️

Got tagged by the wonderful @creepkinginc and @look-i-love-u to do this interview game, thank you, my darlings! 🥰

What are some movie/tv quotes that you quote often?

"It's all happening!" Almost Famous

"Behind the rabbit?" Monty Python and the Holy Grail

Every iconic line from RuPaul's Drag Race

What is your favorite flower?

Tulips 🌷

If you were in Avatar the Last Airbender what element would you want to bend? Earth, fire, water or air?

I'm not really familiar with it, but I'm going to say water.

What was your first job?

Selling tickets for kids to ride these stuffed animals at the mall (they hop on the saddle and then the springs inside the legs make them go forward).

What is your favorite breakfast?

I rarely eat breakfast, but when I do it's usually chocolate granola with blueberries/bananas and almond milk. Or toast topped with whatever since I'm basically addicted to it, otherwise it's usually just lots of green tea 🍵

What's a meal from childhood that you love?

When I was little, my dad and grandpa would go fishing and bring back various itty bitty ones that my mom and grandma would fry up. They would be crunchy and salty and my mom would put pieces on the softest bread and interchange feeding my brother and I, those were the days.

What's your favorite joke to tell?

I love telling long, elaborate, filthy af jokes in my native language, most of them supplied to me by my dad, but I don't think they'd translate well to English.

What's your favorite animal to see at the zoo?

Otters 🦦💙 They're my favorite animal, I could watch them play for hours.

What's your go to quick meal to cook/make at home?

Fry up some eggs and add whatever I have around, I love breakfast food.

What's your go to meal to cook someone to impress them?

I'm not much of a cook and prefer to bake, so... some yummy chocolate chip muffins?

What's something you want to do better?

Manage my time.

If you're working do you like your job?

I am currently unemployed, hoping my next job will bring me my first truly affirmative answer to this question.

Do you collect anything? What?

Stationery and books. Also gonna say teapots, since I have six already 🫖

If you were trapped in a kids tv show, what show would you be okay with being trapped in?

I can't remember a single kids tv show I've ever been interested in? Except The Tribe, but my parents would be dead then, so I don't think that's a good choice.

An adults tv show?

I was just telling my husband how much I love the bar and the community in Smiley today, so I'm going to go with that one.

What kind of job did you want as a child?

Teacher, singer/songwriter or writer. Got to do the first one for a while and I've kept the others as hobbies, so not bad.

Do you follow any sports? What team do you root for?

I used to follow my local basketball team cause it's the biggest sport in my city, now I transform into a soccer fan every four years for FIFA (mostly for the social aspect of tipsy game-watching and celebrating) and then go back to being clueless about everything.

If you could be any animal what would you be and why?

My bunny. Eating and sleeping all day while others pet me and tell me how cute I am? Sign me up 🐇

If you could be any mythological creature what would you be and why?

A fairy/pixie. I'd love to be able to fly and explore every nook if I'm tiny, the aesthetic is an added bonus.

What's the most obscure thing you've had to google for a fanfic you were writing/reading?

Scaffolding and all its formations when I wrote about Mickey holding onto an overhead beam while he and Ian fucked in public 😅

What Milkovich do you identify with most?

Sandy. I feel like we have a similar energy.

Which one are you actually like the most?

I'd honestly say her again, don't think I'm like Mickey or Mandy that much and don't know the rest of them well enough to have an opinion.

What Gallagher do you identify with most?

Ian, through and through.

Which one are you actually like the most?

I'd say I'm a combo of Ian and Lip, since I experienced his pressure to go to college and I also have a tendency to be stubborn/self-destructive at times 🙃

Tagging @shinygalaxyperson, @sickness-health-all-that-shit, @vintagelacerosette, @metalheadmickey, @whatwouldmickeydo, @lalazeewrites, @shameless-notashamed, @heymrspatel, @gallawitchxx, @crossmydna, @lizelandre and anyone who sees this and would like to play! 💙✨️

[transsexualhamlet]

ok girl this is for the thang. I know you haven't read yuumori in over a year but do liam for 13 & 23, hannibal for 20 & 27 n atsushi for 3 & 24 have fun!

answering this because i now have reblogged the ask game a second time... i forgor

ask game

Liam:

13. Your favorite friendship they have

Can I say him and Bond because I know they have barely spoken to each other in canon but in my mind they are besties and Bond tells Liam to "slay" and he gets all teary eyed and looks at his sword and bond is like IM SORRY

23. Future headcanon

Yeah the thing about this is that I'm not super caught up on the manga and the last chapter I read had barely started the current arc. So I'm not sure what's going on or what the situation even is but I sure do know the faggots live together. I think they just kind of safely fade into obscurity exactly how they want to except for when sherlock is a fucking attention whore but well, if they've made up their minds to live in fuckin america (sigh) when they're middle aged and prohibition is going on and there's a whole gay scene and everything I think they do VERY well for themselves. Liam will be just a well behaved little guy at the underground gay bar and sherlock will just drop "oh yeah liam used to kill people way back when it was pretty hot. you know how it is with [insert zodiac sign]" and twenty people and the drag king singing will go WHAT

Hannibal:

20. A weird headcanon

I think Hannibal gets invited to the Met Gala. Once. They do not appreciate his dedication to the craft and the theme by sewing a "flower suit" exclusively out of 1600s silks gotten by bribing museums and ethically sourced human skin from hospitals which is actively growing, you have to admit, really stunning flowers. They do not invite him again yet somehow this garners absolutely no suspicion

27. If they could meet a character from another show/movie/etc, who would be the most fun for them to meet?

I forgot this was for hannibal and was about to answer I would love to see liam meet light yagami because it would be HORRIBLE however this is in fact hannibal and I can actually be serious. god hmm. I honestly think I need to see him meet Melkor? It would be. A very interesting experience. I am imagining him smiling sitting cross legged at a fancy table inside of a comically large cage as Melkor studies him like a bug and watches as the bloodied and beaten corpses he shoves in get magically transformed into five course meals. Needless to say I think they would hit it off disgustingly well. And even if it didn't, Hannibal is just too hard to torture because he'll just be into it. Good situation for Hannibal no matter what like? Get to have a thoughtful correspondence with a spiteful, gory eldritch mass of a god for the low low price of Mairon poking at you like a dead animal a little bit

Atsushi:

3. A song that reminds me of them

Pinkish by Gerard Way and Sorry About Your Parents by Icon For Hire. The former because god. I really don't know how to explain it I have emotions. It's kind of about him and Akutagawa and it's kind of just about him and himself. And Sorry About Your Parents is just yeah that ones about Akutagawa lmao.

24. What do you think is a secret they have that they never told anyone?

Atsushi once accidentally witnessed Dazai sucking Fyodor off and well. Couldn't bring himself to bring it to the attention of the ADA because well how fucking could you . How would you bring that up. He's decided he just needs to stay silent forever

[kin-n-n]

Look who's crawling out of their blanket cave of misery! Thanks for the tag @busymagpie, let it be stated that I rarely do any of these because I rarely get any and if I do I start but don't finish them and they end up rotting away in my drafts...so congrats, I guess?

3 Ships:

Oh man this is so hard for a multifandom enjoyer of any kind of ships there are too many, how dare you make me try and cram the multitude of joy bringing character dynamics I have into just three single ships!? What I can say is I'm in my gen ship era so predominantly batfam (especially Dick and Jason, Tim and Jason and just Bruce being a good Dad) Then there's the qpr of the core4 teen titan members because they make me melt into a happy puddle of warmth.

I also got dragged into the Hell that is the Call Of Duty fandom because my brain decided that was a good idea?! And I have an especially soft spot for Rudy/Alejandro

First Ship:

Okay, so this is going to be a very obscure one that no one knows and I'm not sure if I was actually actively shipping them because this was the first Anime I watched way back when and I just thought they were neat but it's the big brother character and his roommate I believe(it's been so long even I can't really remember) from Cheeky Vampire.

Last Song:

Waltz No. 1, Collapse – Hikaru Shirosu

I'm sick and alone at home so I needed something soothing to accompany this dreary winter day.

Last Movie:

I met up with a friend I hadn't seen in a while some time ago and we spontaneously decided to go watch Black Adam because I had been really hyped for it and it was airing and she couldn't resist my puppy dog eyes ehehe It was a real fun watch

Currently Reading:

Err...Technically...The Silmarilion but I somehow just can't find my way into it no matter how much I want to. Probably should've started with LotR instead...but aside from that the Jason Todd Zine I ordered came in the mail and I've been enjoying all the wonderful fanfic, if that counts?

Currently Watching:

Hmmm, nothing really. I started a re watch of Mob Psycho 100 recently but didn’t finish it. There is a Anime I'm waiting on that's going to air in late January I wanna watch it's about two detective/assassin type characters that find a child and have to take care of her and the found family feels is exactly my vibes ><

Also, I am determined to watch The Untamed for real this time, as soon as I'm better and not so swamped with uni work!

Currently Consuming:

Leftover crepes from yesterday's breakfast

Currently Craving:

Health, because I've almost chocked/suffocated to death way too much over the last week and maybe after I'm better a bit more motivation so I can finish important uni projects that are overdue and also start doodling a bit on the side again

No pressure tagging @swanfloatieknight and @ed-teach

[federthenotsogreat]

Hmm... Just needing to write down my thoughts cause they're eating me up? Not even negative ones! Idk my mind is just going places...

Excuse me not writing in orange. I'm lazyyy

Just watched Ratatouille with my Dad and it made me think of Fawful! I would love to show him that movie! He doesn't even like animated stuff, I just think it would be silly because it's about a cooking rat! I think we'd have a good time

But well, that man has been dead for... Three years now! And thinking about all the things we didn't do makes me sad.

How lovely would it have been to watch a horror movie together? Any movie actually! Just me, him and Cackletta. I'm a multi-eye. I can tell you exactly how it would go. I could tell you their reactions to every scene of every movie ever made. You may think that I would be bored in that scenario. But no, I was never bored. I could predict all of their words seconds before they came out, yes, but I still loved those late night conversations, just as much as I would've loved a movie night together!

How much I would've loved introducing my friends Stormy and Frosty to the two as well! But even if I would've met Frosty and Stormy before Fawful died, I still couldn't have introduced them. Frosty and Stormy, just like anyone esle, would never believe me. Maybe they'd play along, but to them, it would never be a reality.

And that makes me sad... The adventures we could've had together! But alas, it wasn't meant to be.

I feel torn apart between two sides of me. Two different lifes. One travels through universes, telepathically communicates with another multi-eye through different dimensions, sees the joy, as well as the suffering nobody esle seems to see. The other is just a teenager with silly obscure interests who just wants to draw their favorite characters and play their favorite games.

Why can't I have both of that.

Well, maybe... Maybe I can.

I don't want to be alone anymore. I want to talk about all of this with someone. I've been thinking. Even if they would think of me as delusional, wouldn't I still be free, now that I don't have to hide my true self anymore?

Or would it just ruin my life? Ruin my friendships?

I feel like it would be an odd mix between the two.

Honestly, I'm not really sure why I'm even writing this. I guess I just need someone to talk to, but I don't have anyone who would understand- Please don't dm me about this either, I know one specific individual out there is currently thinking about it, but like I said, there's nothing to really talk about with anyone who isn't also a multi-eye

I wanna tell my therapist. It will be so very scary. But I want to do it. I want to be free, and I want to... Confess.

I've never been able to truly speak about my mistakes and show my guilt. I just want to break down, I want to sob until I can barley breathe anymore. Because that's how I feel inside. I'm so very sorry.

And who knows, maybe I'll be able to do just that in a few days in therapy! Maybe I won't! Maybe I'm just high on dopamine right now because I ran in circles while listening to music!

In the end, it doesn't matter! Nothing really matters in the grand scheme of things and that's really comforting-

I don't know how to end this post

Demonsoul OUT

or something

Thanks for listening

[shadowfae]

Right so... #WolfGetsReal, huh?

I mean, none of this has really sat well to me. I'm not a therianthrope myself, but theriomythic arguably applies to me, and I am more animalistic than I let on. Species dysphoria is the one thing that affects me directly, and very little of it is social: without physical transition, which is scientifically impossible, there is no treatment nor cure for the symptoms I have.

I haven't watched Wolf (2021), owing largely to my general disinterest in movies. It's rare I do watch films, and I'm certainly not going to waste two hours of my time watching a movie I'm guaranteed not to like. Everything I've heard about it so far says that it sucks, it's a shitty B-list movie, and has pretty well no artistic value.

Alt+H decided to call a community initiative to drown the movie's tags talking about actual species dysphoria, owing to an interview with the director where she admitted she went out of her way not to do any research.

Now, I'm not defending the director here, because that's a stupid move in general. But I am gonna come outright and say that I don't think this community initiative is a good idea. Actually, let me make that slightly plainer: I think it's a stupid, ill-thought-out idea at best, and an actively dangerous one at worst.

This is a B-list movie, with zero famous actors, that very few people are going to watch. Of those few people, most if not all of them are going to either a) think it's a werewolf movie spliced with an ableist mental facility movie, or b) think it's a bad allegory for queer struggles.

Literally nobody but us is going to go "hm let's be ableist towards the delusional with ~species dysphoria~ :)" because we're not in the spotlight outside of when we're brought up linked to transphobia. We are very occasionally that weird guy in an internet story you heard about once, and that's only if you're on the internet a lot.

Now, I know where this idea came from: back earlier this year when Grimes put 'otherkin' in her twitter bio and changed her birthdate to that of a nuclear bomb, the otherkin community flooded the twitter tags with introductions and 101s and threads on how cool the community is. It worked quite well, I think, and it's clear this is more of that.

We were forced into the spotlight, so we forced the spotlight to be about us, and not the misinformation. Grimes has a depressingly large following, we didn't have a choice.

This... isn't that. The only reason anyone would watch this movie is if they're bored of Sundance films. Hells, it's even released right around two very anticipated Spiderman trailers. It's a movie destined to be overlooked, a box office flop, and forgotten.

So tell me: if we don't actually have a spotlight, why the hell are we making one? In the twitter tag of #WolfGetsReal, I've seen not one but two bestialist / animal abusers trying to overtake the narrative and link therianthropy to bestiality. Right now, the therianthrope community is having a nightmare time trying to kick them out.

You're telling me we should go viral with zero cohesiveness, focusing on therianthropy, and give them the chance to irreparably link therianthropy to bestiality? Because of a shitty B-list movie that otherwise would fade into obscurity?

No. No, this is a bad idea. If we want to go viral, this is a terrible way to do it. Don't get me wrong here, talking about species dysphoria and writing up posts and essays and 101s is great. But doing it specifically to go viral, when we have some major predators already frothing at the mouth to steal the mic for their malicious and substantially evil purposes?

It's ill-thought-out at best, and I cannot approve. There's literally no upside to this. The director wouldn't listen to us at best (if that were possible, it would have been done already), we do not have any power we can actually use, any spotlight we make right now on this issue will be immediately hijacked (and we have currently zero plan to mitigate that major issue), and making a spotlight of us being made fun of isn't something we can turn around.

There's no upside to doing this. If we want to talk about species dysphoria, let's focus on that, not bring emphasis to a movie that should fade forgotten into obscurity.

I know Alt+H also noted that between this and Wild Mountain Thyme, it seems the beginning of a trend. But WMT was taken almost universally by people who aren't us as a metaphor, and had a total of zero impact on the community. If we let this pass us by the same way, it will also have zero impact. And right now, I'll take no attention over almost-guaranteed-to-be-bad attention.

So that's my thoughts on that.

[growup-gloup]

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515 posts reblogged (81%)

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

What are some ways to enjoy my own time without feeling like I need a S/O?

12 ways you can productively pass time and not be bored*

*that don't involve binge-watching on netflix or youtube

Learn a new skill

Start playing a new instrument

Learn a new language

Get a new hobby

Attend a course in an obscure niche topic

If you can’t pay for classes, then YouTube and Google are your best friends.

Play with your style and upgrade your wardrobe/hair

Spend time with friends and family. If that is not an option, then join different Facebook, Tumblr, or Discord groups for people in your area, or with interests similar to yours.

Follow your local bloggers and accounts; some of them are promoting free or cheap events around town, which is a great way to make new friends

Get a cookbook, and cook your way through it, one meal a day/week based on your schedule

Watch documentaries and listen to podcasts or audiobooks

Read, both fiction and non-fiction, especially in genres you don’t usually go for

Start a blog about a topic you’re really interested in. Not only will it keep you busy, but the research, the networking, and the travelling you may have to do for it can be an enriching experience

Basically, the best way to keep yourself busy and not feel lonely are things that only only feel good at the time, but enrich you enough that you feel good afterwards, and something productive came out of it. It doesn't mean watching Netflix or YouTube is the root of all evil. I love both of them, but the best things come in moderation. So yes, do that, and then try the aforementioned activities as well.

💋

Ko-Fi

198 notes • Posted 2021-05-27 04:59:36 GMT

#4

How do I become more social if I don’t have much to say to anyone I feel like I’m boring what could I do ?

How to make yourself more interesting?

Read more books. Start with fiction and non-fiction in topics that interest you, and once you've got the hang of reading regularly, you can move onto other genres and topics that you may not be familiar with. If reading is too much, start with audiobooks. You can find a bunch on YouTube to start with.

Watch documentaries. Marathoning shows and movies are fun and can be great conversation topics, but watching documentaries on a variety of topics can help expand your worldview and knowledge. Watch documentaries on different cultures, points in history, animals, and even space. There is always something to learn and there are so many well-filmed documentaries that captivate you as well as any movie.

Listen to different music. People love to talk about their music preferences, and someone knowing your favorite songs is a love language of its own. Check out different genres. Every genre has the top artists that everyone knows and famous songs. Start with those, and if you're starting to enjoy the music, you can expand from there.

Stay up to date with current events. This applies universally but is especially important these days, as there is always something new happening and there everyone has an opinion on the situation. But tread this carefully. Not everyone wants to be constantly bombarded with horror stories on the news, and it's best to steer clear of politics. These conversations come up naturally, but it helps to know what's going on.

Travel more. Even if you don't have the budget to leave your city, there is still so much you can do within 20 km of where you live. There are new restaurants and hangout spots to try. Many public places are either free or have discounts on certain events. That's a great way to experience something and also an idea for a spontaneous hangout with friends.

All these things help expand your worldview and give you more to talk about when you are with a person. The more you've seen and experienced, the more you can talk about it, even if it is to say that you didn't enjoy it.

Once you get talking, you'll also get recommendations, or learn new things from the people you talk to. Take note of that too. Look into the things they recommend. Who doesn't love hearing "Hey, I checked out that book/show/song/place you were telling me about"? Either you enjoyed a new experience, or you have another topic to talk about next time.

If you're not comfortable talking about yourself, that's totally fine. You shouldn't be telling everyone you meet everything anyways. A little mystery is good. People love talking about themselves and their interests, so even if you don't know much about what they're talking about, asking good follow-up questions can keep them engaged in conversation and help you learn something new.

💋

211 notes • Posted 2021-08-27 06:18:05 GMT

#3

Relationships 101

One of the most common questions I get asked about is relationships, and how to approach them. This is about to be one of the longest posts I have ever written, but trust me, you will be glad that you read it.

One of the first things you should do is do a little bit of self-evaluation. Be honest, but don’t be too critical. You are not as bad as you think you are, but at the same time, there is more you can do to take control of the situation than you think. Ask yourself the following questions:

What do you want from yourself? What does your ideal self and life look like? Where do you see yourself in five years? What can you do to get the life you want?

What makes you feel confident? Beautiful? Sensual? It doesn’t have to be the stereotypical ideas of beauty. This is about what YOU do and how it makes YOU feel. It’s personal and everyone will feel good in different ways. You need to know what makes YOU feel that way before you take in other people’s opinions about it.

How do you define love? How do you differentiate romantic love from platonic love? It’s okay if they are very similar. Many people cannot date someone they don’t consider a good friend. Others cannot imagine dating friends.

What makes you feel loved? Words of affirmation? Physical touch (not to be confused with sex)? When someone gives you gifts (not to be confused with pure materialism)? When you spend time with someone doing your own thing but in their company? When someone goes out of their way to do something for you?

What do you often do to show your love for others? Consider the same love languages mentioned above.

What does your ideal partner look like? What do they like to do? What are they like? This is helpful because if you know what you want, you won’t settle for less. It’s not foolproof and the first person you date after this won’t necessarily be your soulmate, but it can help you avoid settling for less than what you deserve and have fewer heartbreaks.

And possibly the most important one:

Are you mentally, physically, socially, and economically in the right place to be a good partner?

The immediate answer is yes for more people but just think about this first. I know our generation is very introverted, but if this pandemic taught us anything, it’s that we NEED love, be it familial, romantic, or platonic. That being said, just because you want a significant other really bad right now, doesn’t mean that it is the best thing for you at the moment. You should know your worth before you seek validation from anyone else.  

A relationship is a two-way street. You may want the intimacy and someone who is there for you, but can you genuinely offer the same? Even in my own case, I want to be a good supportive partner, but right now, I need to focus on myself, and if I pursue a relationship right now, I would be balancing the two of us, and it wouldn’t be fair to either of us. That could be one of the reasons people choose to be in a polyamorous relationship, but that is just going off on a different tangent.

Sometimes, your partner’s goals and lifestyle may not align with yours. And that isn’t a bad thing. There is so much you can learn from your significant others that you never even would have thought of otherwise. But what you have to keep in mind is that there will be times that these differences may clash. You need to have some common ground. You both need to be willing to explore each other’s interests that have nothing to do with you. You both also need to accept that sometimes, the other person won’t be as into it as much as you are, but you both should respect each other’s interests regardless.

Another thing to keep in mind is that a good partner makes you want to be the best version of you that you can possibly be. They encourage you to try new things that will benefit you and they take joy in your success. They do not try to change you into their own idea of what a good partner should look like. They will not hold you back from achieving your dreams, and yes, sometimes those dreams can mean that your relationship is not the #1 priority. If your dream school is across the country, and they try to stop you from attending because that means you won’t be able to see each other every day, then that is a problem. A good partner would be willing to try long-distance, or if it isn’t possible, accept that this relationship has come to its natural end, which is fine, and you can part on good terms. Many people say that you can’t be friends with your exes, but it really depends on how much you respected each other during the relationship and after.

Once you consider all these factors, and if you think you are ready to be in a relationship, then you can start looking. Remember earlier on when we talked about knowing what you want? This is the time to apply it. You will likely receive dick messages and people who talk about sex in the first conversation. If sex isn’t the main thing you are looking for, then don’t respond. You are not obligated to respond to people who don’t give you basic respect. The same goes for any other boundary that they keep pushing after you have said that you aren’t comfortable.

With this pandemic, online dating might be the safest bet until everyone is vaccinated. Even if you meet someone in person, try to keep your interactions online so that both of you and your loved ones are safe. If you aren’t ready for dating apps, try online forums of communities you are genuinely interested in.

Depending on what kind of person you are looking for, you can go to certain places to attract them. If you want someone who is really into reading, your best bet would be to join a book club. If you are into sports, maybe attending games might get you talking with someone.

Make sure you are taking care of yourself. You don’t have to look like an Instagram model. In fact, that is an unrealistic standard and you definitely should not look like one. Even Instagram models don’t look like that 24/7. You don’t even have to wear makeup if you don’t want to. But you should be showering daily and brushing your teeth and make sure your hair, nails, and skin are taken care of.

You should also remember not to lose yourself in your relationship. Stay mindful of your goals and ambitions and keep working on them.

One last thing to remember is that growth is not linear, and other people’s milestones do not define you. Some people date a lot in their teens and then remain single in their twenties. Some people don’t date until their late twenties by then, they’ve got a better sense of self, and when they do date, they last pretty long. Some people choose not to date at all and are happiest while other people date casually all the time and are happiest. There is no one-size-fits-all, and there is no right age for a relationship.

💋

Ko-Fi

298 notes • Posted 2021-01-27 08:41:24 GMT

#2

hello!! what are some skills i could develop to gain more independence? i don’t know like sewing and such, something useful (btw i love your blog <3)

10 Skills for Independence

Learning to sew, yes, because that definitely can help you in a pinch and can help you look better while saving money.

Change a car tire. Basically, everything on this channel, and this channel, while we’re at it.

Basic Budgeting and Personal Finance.

Cooking and Baking basics. I recommend Julia Child’s Mastering the Art of French Cooking and Kitchen Wisdom as cookbooks to start with.

Microsoft Office, which includes Excel, Outlook, and Access.

Public Speaking and Conversational Skills. Believe it or not, you can work on that even during lockdown when you aren’t speaking to as many people.

Hobby/Side Income Skill. This can be an art form, like drawing or music, or it could be something practical, like writing. Not only is this good for winding down, but you can also use it as a side hustle if you play your cards right.

Makeup Techniques, if you’re into makeup. Also other self-grooming activities like skincare and hair care.

A New Language. Obscure and ancient languages are cool for impressing people but common languages, like French, Spanish, Mandarin, Hindi, and so on are great for jobs as well. Bonus points if it’s sign language.

Driving, if you don’t have your license yet. If you do, you could always improve your skills, or pick up a new vehicle, like a stick shift or motorcycles.

This is, of course, a nonconclusive list. But it's a good place to start. Maybe one day, I can add a part 2 to this list.

💋

Ko-Fi

417 notes • Posted 2021-05-21 15:51:26 GMT

#1

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For all my black friends and their mothers, daughters, and sisters. Therapyforblackgirls.com has licensed black women providing therapy for black girls.

It has been a year since the #BlackLivesMatter protests really took charge all around the world. Since then, much has changed, but there is still a lot to fight for.

And black women, particularly black trans women, need more support. This is a great initiative both for black therapists psychologists but also for the countless of black women who need someone who understands their daily struggles before the trauma conversation even begins.

2990 notes • Posted 2021-06-03 16:22:57 GMT

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[inquisitorius-sin-bin]

Cider, bonfire, jack o lantern

Thanks for the ask!

cider— do you dress up for halloween? if not, what do you do on halloween instead?

Usually work 😭😭😭 being an adult sucks

My work doesn't exactly lend itself to wearing a costume, sadly, so I just don't. But since our wedding anniversary is 10/30, we usually celebrate the weekend in style, spending time outdoors, lavish meals, watching horror movies, attending fall festivals, etc.

bonfire— what is your favorite autumn activity? e.g.) pumpkin carving, festivals, ect.

Spooktober movie marathon! We catch up on many of the horror movies we've wanted to see all year but haven't gotten around to and some old favorites! We're also about halfway through a virtual "horror movie road trip" where you watch a horror movie set in each state of the US. It makes us watch some more obscure stuff that we probably wouldn't have picked up otherwise. We are currently stuck in Montana and about to settle on The Revenant, unless anyone else has any suggestions.

jack-o-lantern— do you get scared easily? why or why not?

Not really. I guess most of the "common fears" are things I kind of have to deal with on a regular basis? Like insects, arachnids, sharks, snakes, etc? Those are just animals. They behave like animals. Nothing mystic or scary about that. Gore? Used to work wildlife rehab, took pre-veterinary classes involving live animals, still have to assist in veterinary surgeries on a fairly regular basis. Supernatural? Don't believe in it. Jump scares? I love horror movies, that just never bothered me.

The things I do fear: losing loved ones, catastrophic weather events, disease/illness

[tellywoodtrash]

Hi TT. I'm a mess. Forcing myself to study for an exam I dont want to give. I just want to get married and sit at home🙂🙃(terrible example for feminism ik). But middle class family se hu tho job ke bina koi shaadi nahi karega. I don't want to study, don't want to compromise either,my mind is a jumbled mess rn and I don't have a single clue on what I'm doing. I feel like I've failed my mom who's a single parent who's working so hard to give this life to me. Sorry for the trauma dump lol.

Hi friend,

God I wanna give you a huge hug. Coz I've been there. Trust me, a lot of us, even the most rabid of feminists have felt the "ughhhhh what's the point, I should just get married" thing. And it's not a wrong thought; it's just a symptom of the larger issue at hand. That you feel powerless currently, pressured into something you don't want, so why not just go for the most extreme nuclear option on that path. You're free to want to be a housewife (feminism is about choice), but don't think that it's some easy way out of what you're feeling now just because you don't have to do a "job". It's just as backbreaking work (more, I'd argue) as you'll do in a workplace, but with no pay/progress; and sadly, very undervalued in today's patriarchal capitalist society.

I think the biggest problem rn is that you aren't interested in the field you're being pushed into. Of course you won't feel like succeeding at something you don't care for. If you assess the success of a fish by how it flies, it obviously will fail. You need to figure out what your strengths and interests are, and move towards a career in those. And trust me, don't think it's "too late" now (you sound like you're in your early twenties perhaps?) I got two wholeass degrees specialising in marketing before I realised how much I hate capitalism and consumerism and tricking people into spending money by selling lies, and couldn't fucking do it without having a breakdown every single day. I quit my job and moved to a whole other country with no clue, only to take up a random poles-apart-from-my-field job that pays not even half of what I used to earn (but gives me sososososososoooo much more mental peace.) That too all this at the age of 30. It's never too late to try a different path, if you choose so.

If by chance you don't feel safe to do that, and that's perfectly understandable; there's considerable risk to be taken and you need proper financial and emotional support as you're figuring things out (which I was vvvv privileged to have), you'll have to stay in this field for the near foreseeable future. It's fine, you can just cultivate an attitude that yeah this field sucks, but it's just something you do to make money. In today's world, people are often defined by the job title they hold, and often make it their whole personality, but it's all bullshit. Not everyone has to be "passionate" about their career. A job is just a tiny tiny part of us; we provide a service for a set number of hours a day so that we can fund the rest of our life, the parts that we actually love. Like acquiring and taking care of animals, and buying art supplies or books or tickets to a concert/movie/country we wanna see, subscriptions to streaming services to watch all the obscure media you fancy etc. Just see it that way and turn off any emotional attachments to work. It's just something you do to make money and that's it. And when you figure what really makes you tick and how you can earn the money you need without being so goddamn miserable for 10 hours a day, start making your move to a job that's more aligned to your interests and values.

I know this is a lot and it feels very overwhelming right now, but please know that this whole mess is temporary. You will eventually figure something out. I would suggest you talk to your support group about how you're feeling and ask them suggestions on how to proceed. Please know I'm always rooting for you no matter what you choose, and hope you find your peace soon! 💗💗💗