#curing depression for the bit

[takealookintheback]

Wiktor Król in "Schweine" (2024)

[fareehaandspaniards]

ps. girl in a white dress with flower on her head is my husband. I love that he plays as the female

[the-pea-and-the-sun]

im going crazy again

[there-will-be-a-way]

I have a date for top surgery! The 6th of September! Not even four months from now. I'm starting to believe this really is happening! My last four months in my life that I will spend with boobies and a womb. It's the only hospital in my country that removes both in one surgery. I'm so excited y'all. When I heard the news, I started shaking so badly I could barely hold my phone 😂

[rasazys-ramblings]

A normal song goes OOOOooooOOOOOOOOooooouh oooowooooooOOOOohwoh awhooooOOOOoh and I say it's ass but Vivid BAD SQUAD does the same thing and I go THIS ONE RIGHT HERE THIS IS MY FAVORITE SONG THIS IS THE SONG THE ONLY SONG THAT HAS EVER SUCCESSFULLY WOKE ME UP IN THE MORNINGS WITHOUT ME COMPLAINING AND TIRED AS FUCK THIS IS THE SONG THAT MAKES ME WAKE UP REFRESHED AND READY FOR THE DAY THIS IS THE SONG THAT MOTIVATES ME THIS IS IT RIGHT HERE

[subbyp]

read in a fanfic somewhere that “Hizashi” means “sunshine” and like???? is that true?? because??????

[owlfrommars]

My random summer pics 🌾

[spotsupstuff]

Is Spore very lonely?

lord in heaven amen tma -draws cross over chest- Yeah capital Y required

she is Incredibly fucked up from isolation- so this poor woman starts off as a medical professional. you know. a person who's supposed to help people no matter what, save their lives? so she was bound to be Extremely close with her citizens. she cured them, nursed the kids from the egg stage all the way to adulthood- ALL of that

and then one day they leave her. because the fungi become dangerous to them, but just how is she supposed to deal with that either way? yes, she agreed that her facilities have to be evacuated because medical professional and their health was her number one priority, but it still *hurt*

at least she still had her communication arrays

then came the Polar War and she got to be with people again, even if only with her overseers. she treated soldiers, guided other medical personal on-site, gave the final word on when someone had to be killed either because they weren't curable with current supplies or, horrifyingly enough, when the medical tents were too full and there was no other choice

but with the Polar War also came the horror that was the prisoner situation within the Eo group. almost all Frost's Promise soldiers were taken to the Mildew Perimeter, into the old abandoned villages, to be experimented on in the name of the war effort. it was happening Right under her nose and it was almost as torturous for her as it was for the poor prisoners. so one day she made a deal with Eo rebellion groups to help a portion of the Frost's Promise army to sneak into her facilities and free the prisoners and just take them home and keep them safe from all these horrors

the War ended. the Eo group won, but the Aeolus Council was still furious about the escape of the prisoners from the Mildew Perimeter. so they put in the effort to find out what happened. they figure it was Spore's fault, Orion (Spore's closest friend) gets angry at her too because he was there on the front lines doing his damnest to keep the Eo armies safe and get as many prisoners as possible (since wars/battles in RW are more about capture than killing because of the respawn system). but he didn't know about the experiments and was too angry with her to listen to her trying to explain herself. as far as HE knows, she caused the war to stretch on for longer than it had to

the Aeolus Council decides on punishment. they cut off her communication systems, enter her systems and disable all her overseers. she's blind, she's deaf and she's so damnably alone. nobody at all tries to contact her. nobody really cared outside of Ori and Ori is too angry

her punishment lifts years later and she's broken beyond reason. she can't speak right anymore, the mushrooms got into her life important systems (she let them. they are friends. they tell her nice, comforting things in her head while they eat away at her consciousness. that's okay, that at least means they'll never leave). she broke her Individuality apart JUST so she can find companionship within her own Hivemind

Orion tries to apologize, having figured out that he was in the wrong, what really happened in the Mildew Perimeter during the Polar War. she's too scared and hurt to listen to him- but she needs *someone*

Sordid Expiation gets into contact with her first. and she genuinely wants to help! so she extends her olive branch, accepts this lost elder of the Eo group as her close friend, as someone to look after. but of course, Expiation is already a good friend with Gem. naturally, Spore is reintroduced to the local Witch Lady. she's too desparate to say no, too broken to resist manipulation

and so Spore gets fucked over by her crippling loneliness Twice. with the shrooms and with the manipulative bitch that is Gem. she is lonely enough that she chooses to die twice

[gracieblood]

i have never cried because of a song but when this shit starts playing i come pretty fucking close to bawling my eyes out

[dayydreams-s]

everyone on djats is messy as fuck and i’m loving my life

[anaalnathrakhs]

btw my mom said it. she said it to me looking me in the eyes. i told her about how difficult it was for me to get through those family reunions, and she admitted it was very important to her, important enough that she was just going to do it anyway.

[dogearedheart]

8i've been thinking about the last asks i got today. and i think it's better for me to take a step back from this account. i know the anon didn't mean anything by it, but i still feel like i am being a negative presence on here and weirding people out with who i am is nothing i want. so, i am not deleting or anything. i am just gonna be less present with sharing personal things or leaving tags. I'll probably be more active on my second account where i don't have that many followers :)

[funnymanoopsy]

i Kurukero posting

[multi-lefaiye]

actually yeah i'm just gonna go ahead and state this boundary real quick. i'm not saying this as an attack on anyone, but i figure i should say something b/c this does make me extremely uncomfortable.

anyway random people coming onto my silly posts to be self-deprecating annoy me and i'm at the point where i just block on sight.

genuinely if you blorbo tag a post... unless i say otherwise, go for it. that's fine. i love seeing those.

if you're coming onto my post where i jokingly self-aggrandize about how cool i am and how much people love me just to say that you wish that applied to you and no one loves you! i'm probably gonna dip! i'm sorry if that sounds mean and i genuinely wish you the best, but that's not what we're about my guy and i do not really want that on my post

[maybege]

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[patchworkgargoyle]

Monkey Man was Rad as Hell