#curating my emotions if you will

[soullessjack]

i love gens maria so much actually. homegirl’s like 12 with a chronic illness and

1) gets stuck in a time travel thingamafuck that’s currently being controlled by a cosmic horror demon and his army of little demon alien freaks

2) sees her best friend/little brother beat the absolute shit out of said demon aliens when they try to attack her and just says “waow where’d you learn to fight like that :0”

3) sees that her lil bro is actively mutating so he now has fully functional aerodynamic wings and the ability to become a squid at will (among other things but those are the coolest) and doesn’t even comment on it. just wants him to be happy and stay in the light <3

4) learns from her grandfather that he was created with the DNA of that cosmic horror entity for the express purpose of being the leading in a warrior mass scale invasion/destruction, and the sudden mutations a process of “perfecting” him for said purpose

5) meets said cosmic horror entity almost face to face and YELLS AT HIM that his “perfect creation” will never serve him or be like him. literally yelling at The Devil From The Bible to fuck off because his little antichrist spawn is a Good Guy and will kick his ass

she’s so good man. she’s so so good. this post alone cannot contain the autism i have for her

[hellsite-hall-of-fame]

Cream into the void

SHAME. I AM SHAMING YOU ANON

also i now need to report a crime against the void :(

[fisheito]

hello... please consider... yakumo in:

the classic traditional style qipaos

the modernised and modified ones

bonus: modified hanfu

he would look wonderful wouldn't he? all the more delectable and sashimiable?

ahaha...ahah...AHAHHAH.AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

[corviddrawsstuff]

people are hating on the new wild card?? personally this has been my favourite session yet. I think the haters are a loud minority and at least for me, even if im not a fan of a gimmick or season theres still enjoyment to be found. remember nobody owes you anything and the life series is a group of friends having fun <3

[trashcanwithsprinkles]

Its actlly so nice to hear a normal perspective on this topic. Usually, its just my own(an example of thoughts I get on the daily:how do you know the water you drink is not poisonous? Sure, nothing happened yet, but what if it will??Every. Single. Time. I. Drink. Water.). Also, the only things I did see was twitter discourse. I think I depended emotionally on my fav chrctrs and projected my insecurities. And I felt I had to stay hypervigilant because theres no neutral ship name. Btw, I didnt expect you to answer the two following asks. And yeah, sorry bringing you into this, theres a reason why being a therapist is a job and I also don't want to spam your blog w/ my mental illness taht was not my intention, its for fun and discussing the two sillies in love. If u wanna answr this then so be it, but like, you can just ignore it

no anon this is kinda fascinating to me so dw, also it takes me like two min to write out a reply so this is hardly taking time off my day LMAO

absolutely not surprised you were deep into twitter discourse. that makes so much sense. hope you've left that behind by now, and if you havent, either consider leaving or learn to curate your feed to avoid the absolute batshit insane things that go down there

[ccaptain]

Scratches chin.

While I have already spoilered the Liminal Laboratories plotline, I couldn't completely justify H:SR Kaeya's haunting of Dr. Wuchlock even after he got revenge on him. By this point, the man has been reduced to an husk of himself, and will never harm anyone ''for the betterment of humankind'', as he used to say, ever again. It felt like by robbing him of alcohol and coming to poke at him once a month, for some as level-headed as Kaeya, was a bit too extreme and petty even for him, and I was pondering if to keep this facet of him in the portrayal. But then I thought about the concept of beings of the Enigmata a bit more, and I had the most fucking coming-to-Jesus moment ever. On my own fucking lore for my own fucking verse.

Zoom real fucking close to this post. Put it on 200%, we're going places and you're coming with me liking it or not.

Beings of the Enigmata predominantly act robotic-like and on logic-based courses of actions, and this is essentially what can give an ''off'' feeling that makes normal people question these impostors. Emotions are mimicked, rather than felt, until one starts being more in tune with their human-ification process, like Kaeya does with specific partners of his. A being is going to want to study what emotions are as much as possible in order to pass off as human, but most of the time they feel less of what an human would. Their act is to appear normal, and this has been enstabilished by now in this verse. With this, I imagine that an extreme situation would bring out a extreme emotion- and beings aren't equipped to sustain a large surge of this due to their predominantly logical nature and their unattunement to natural emotions.

And here's my fucking HOLY-FUCKING-SHIT moment, keep following me here: Kaeya acts on logic, as a being of the Enigmata. With this logic, he thought that if he offered himself to the facility's experiments, due to being an Emanator with much more power and features than Hannah, Wuchlock would have accepted and let her go in order to start experimenting on him. It would have given them better results in perhaps a much shorter time, and Hannah could have been let go and returned to wherever her home was with her son. This was Kaeya's course of thinking, and a naive one at that in the simple way beings tend to try and resolve conflict.

And, by refusing this course of actions, Wuchlock did not only did a stupid thing: in a moment of extremely high emotions, he caused an ''injury'' in the very core of how a being works. He refused the perfectly woven logic for a reason Kaeya could not comprehend, and confusion turned to anger as he kept trying to plead with the man who was refusing his solution citing how they were ''at an incredibly advanced point'' in their studies with the being they had captured to start anew.

During his rampage of justice through the facility to free Hannah and her son Joakim and bring down the entire thing, I write him as robotic as possible: during that time he doesn't think with complex feelings, simply hacks down everyone that attacks him or tries to harm his companions, lets those who surrended go, acts ''revenge'' upon Wuchlock, and with bringing Hannah and her son away from the planet, his task is complete. During this time, being gunned down equaled to killing the threat before the armed soldiers of the facility could get to his companions, someone surrendering and begging him to spare them meant that they no longer had any fight in them and could be safely let go due to their ''fear'' perceived as emotion, and leaving the facility meant that they could no longer be captured and harmed. Logical and simple thoughts/actions move Kaeya to the end of this plotline.

After the entire affair is over, it took Kaeya a long while to learn how to get back in tune with the emotions he has explored during his human-ification. It was an huge set back for him, and he doesn't like to talk about these times.

And here we are with the truth of what happened: the anger that Kaeya felt in a moment of extreme emotional distress, due to not being able to understand human logic and having his rejected, was so powerful, so consuming, that it ''burned'' part of him away, as if he was undergoing the being-ification again. In a much simpler word, a failsafe mechanism sprung to life within him. Beings are not supposed to feel this kind of intense emotions, and something that's causing the strong emotional pain must be sacrificed in order to restore and stabilize their status as logical beings, per how they were created to be and continue functioning over the human Fictionologists.

Part of Kaeya, along with his trust in humankind and how they handled things, was burned that day in order to keep him functioning. Part of his emotive growth shut down in order to bring back the ''being'' that he was before ''Kaeya Alberich''.

This explains a lot of things, down to his actions becoming overly-logical and straightforwardly simple after his confrontation with the biologist, to Hannah being so apprehensive about him as soon as she sees him after being freed: the anger burning away at Kaeya should not have happened. It's an alarming thing for beings to experience extreme emotions under extremely stressful conditions.

As for him tormenting Wuchlock: I imagine that beings of the Enigmata stick close to the people who have evoked such strong emotions in them to fundamentally change them. Be it anger, hate, amusement and fun, intense melancholy etc., because it's a foreign thing for them to feel so much, they stick close to the ones summoming surges of emotions out of them, consciously or not. This choice of Kaeya is conscious, and it's as much of a form of revenge as it's the instinct to study what emotions the old scientist with granitic determination that has turned into a frail old man summons within him.

tl;dr: Beings of the Enigmata can feel extremely intense emotion(s) in stressful situations; in these cases, a ''failsafe'' mechanism activates within them, ''burning'' away part of them in order to restore the logic-based individual that they are and keep them going. This is what happened to Kaeya in the LL plotline.

[wren-of-the-woods]

Just realized I never shared my playlist for Witch King by Martha Wells so I thought I'd drop it here in case anyone's interested :D

[partiallystar]

i was gonna reblog this because i thought the tweet was funny and then i went hm. hang on what do u mean by that. and sure enough

yeah these people should kill themselves

[ghostmaggie]

the lightning thief musical might just be perfect media

[digitaldonnell]

Realism, emotional

See our entire selection

[hellsite-hall-of-fame]

Do you sleep with socks on

this is such a random ask that I feel like i’m morally required to answer it lol

and the answer is- this ✨mysterious✨ museum curator obviously never sleeps soooo that answers your question :)

[spotsupstuff]

ur grading people and if they get an f theyre blocked? my main you aint a kindergarten teacher this is a microblogging platform

yeah, that's why there's that function called blocking! :) cuz this is a microblogging site! that's what microblogging platforms have! :) so you don't have to put up with people's shit! :) interesting that kindergarten teachers where you live are capable of blocking people in real life, hope you had fun with that

[hershelwidget]

[KEEP WATCHING?]

“Together we are Fandemonium!”

I’ve been feeling overwhelmingly nostalgic when it comes to MSM, which I believe is partly why I’ve been a bit “hostile” in my mentions of it, more specifically towards the fandom. I’m trying to get used to the changes, I really am, but it’s hard. To make it a bit easier on myself, I’ve decided to bundle my thoughts about it with my Other Favourite Mobile Game, Sky.

The logic here is: If they’re together, my love for both of them will be enough to cancel out my hatred. So far it seems to be working alright, so I’ll continue doing that.

In less heavy words: The Fandemonium hosts as Skykids!

A bonus earlier doodle...

If you want to, you can suggest a Monster species that you’d like to see as a Skykid.

[artemistorm]

While in an RSD-driven meltdown like a week ago I deleted a bunch of posts and unfollowed a bunch of people so if I suddenly refollow you, that’s why.

[starrybouquet]

how many things would I accidentally block if I just filtered the words "ba'al" and "dc" and "washington"

[edgarallanpoestan]

u know when someone makes u a playlist and suddenly u know what love means. yeah