#crk angst

[lohotine]

``At arms reach.``

Shadow Milk x GN! Reader.

CW: Angst, maybe self-destructive behaviors

They say that eyes are the window to the soul. But when you look into his eyes, you can't see anything of the sorts. They are simply eyes; the part of the body used to observe. There is no emotion, and certainly nothing like a soul.

Yet, when he says, "I love you,"

it sounds so full of life. And the phrase

echoes endlessly in your mind.

i love you

Oh, Shadow Milk Cookie...

You're such a liar.

If he truly loved you, why would he keep you here just at arms reach?

To toy with you; to entertain himself. There are so many reasons.

Yet, you allow it

Simply because it is the closest you'll ever be with him.

He doesn't truly love you, but he'll lie and say he does. After all, the beast's heart could never open for someone like you; even if your own heart is being held in his hands.

Wholly, alive and beating.

For him to care for or crush; the decision is fully his own.

As long as he allows you to live in this delusion for a little while longer.

To let you pretend.

To let you believe.

As long as he allows this, then you're fine being at arms reach.

Never quite far, yet never quite close.

Shadow Milk observes you, as you gaze into the eyes that are his own.

You never tell him what you're thinking, even when it's so obvious that you want to know what he himself is thinking.

You must think of him as a liar, which he doesn't deny.

But when he says

i love you

It's true

Whether you believe it or not.

Yet, he still cannot give you his heart like you give him yours.

To lay his heart on a platter; bear and exposed. To be so vulnerable, and to experience the risk that comes with it.

The thought of not having power over a situation is something that strikes fear in him.

Fear

It's such a foreign word when used to describe him.

A beast that petrifies mortals with fear, feeling scared?

It simply can't be true.

Yet when it comes to you, it is.

And he hates it

He loves you.

It's just unfortunate that he hates it more than he loves you.

And as he looks down to see your hand in his, fingers intertwined, he feels sorry for you.

You are a saint.

To have you be any closer to him would be like corruption.

Which is why he keeps you at arms reach.

He's too scared to give his heart to you, yet too selfish to push you away.

So he opts to keep you here; where he can still admire you. Still have your souls touch, if only slightly.

Here, where the both of you are safe.

You from him, and him from you.

Here, where you can still love him and where he can still love you.

Not fully, but for the both of you, it is enough.

Here,

at arms reach.

[coffee-obsessed-freak]

Okay, can we talk for a min about the fact that gingerbrave technically knows explicitly WHAT happens to cookies baked in the oven by the witches? Like his whole introduction in the game cookie run: ovenbreak is that he woke up one day, surrounded by non-animated cookie versions of himself, understood that the witches were planning to eat him, and RAN to save his life. And if we’re going off the idea that Gingerbrave happened upon the land of Crispia during his venture to run away from the witches, then are they just — keeping the information about the witches on the down low from them? Because they know for certain that cookies from Crispia downright revere the witches as like, their Gods, right?

Do you think when Gingerbrave found out that what White Lily Cookie saw “that night” were the witches eating non-sentient cookies, that he felt sympathetic to her PTSD? That, yeah, he was there too — it happened to him upon his birth, and he’s been running from it ever since? But why did he never say anything? Do you think he felt compelled to keep it hush-hush because the cookies of Crispia would think of it as heresy? Or do you think it’s because it’s more merciful to keep his silence — that cookies were born to be eaten?

Like can u imagine that the God you revere and pray to, that you send well-wishes to and celebrate, actually made you to sate their hunger? That your flesh is not made your own, that you were never meant to actually be alive? You were not meant to BE? You were just made to be consumed?

Maybe this is my religious trauma speaking to me and my ever-rampant need to project on my fave characters, but God, that is so fucked up. And White Lily can’t even know about — she feels all alone about what she had to witness, about what happened, like she would be labelled insane for even mentioning what she saw — but there are literal COOKIES in her presence, YOUNGER than her, that have witnessed, lived, and RAN from said witches all their lives.

Which one do you think is more fucked up; that one can’t share the horrors she witnessed because everyone else would label her a heretic, or that one can’t confide in the fact that all their life, it has been the ONLY thing they have ever known — and has been the only thing that has kept them alive?

[annawho3sblog]

HEYYY!!!! hru Anna?? I just saw ur account and I’m very curious so as your (probably) first request, could you do an angsty golden cheese x reader?? I just like angsty stories 😔 TYYY

𝘖𝘔𝘎 𝘔𝘠 𝘍𝘐𝘙𝘚𝘛 𝘌𝘝𝘌𝘙 𝘙𝘌𝘘𝘜𝘌𝘚𝘛 𝘈𝘠𝘎𝘞𝘎𝘚𝘜𝘈𝘉𝘈 𝘐'𝘔 𝘗𝘈𝘕𝘐𝘊𝘒𝘐𝘕𝘎 𝘙𝘕 𝘎𝘌𝘕𝘜𝘐𝘕𝘌𝘓𝘠 𝘛𝘞𝘌𝘈𝘒𝘐𝘕𝘎 😭

The real-world Golden Cheese Kingdom is a land of naught. Its empty palace halls sit in silence, the citizens all being killed off in the Dark Flour War.All that remains are the souls of those killed kept safe in sarcophagi and the Cheesebirds working away in the adjacent mines.

“𝙍𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙢𝙗𝙚𝙧 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙚 𝙊𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙖𝙮 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙨𝙡𝙞𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙙 𝙖𝙬𝙖𝙮 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙜𝙧𝙖𝙞𝙣𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙨𝙖𝙣𝙙...”

Golden cheese cookie fell to her knees looking at her crumbled kingdom tears threatening to drop “𝙄𝙩 𝙘𝙖𝙣'𝙩 𝙗𝙚...” her voice cracked.

𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦. 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶...

“𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙖𝙧 𝙞𝙨 𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧...𝙙𝙖𝙧𝙠 𝙀𝙣𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙘𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙞𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙣𝙤 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚...” she said tears slowly dropping.“𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙨𝙤 𝙞𝙨 𝙢𝙮 𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙙𝙤𝙢...”the thought of you being gone made the sorrow grow “𝙈𝙮 𝙩𝙚𝙢𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙨,𝙢𝙮 𝙜𝙤𝙡𝙙,𝙢𝙮 𝙩𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙪𝙧𝙚𝙨...𝙢𝙮 𝙘𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙞𝙚𝙨,𝘼𝙡𝙡 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢!” and 𝘠𝘰𝘶,her most precious treasure “𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜” she remembers the day before the Dark Flour War.

“𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘯 𝘎𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴" 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘢𝘪𝘥, 𝘦𝘹𝘤𝘪𝘵𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘦, 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘨𝘳𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶.

“𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘴𝘩 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘮𝘰𝘯 𝘤𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩” 𝘎𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘊𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘥𝘦, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘶𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘳𝘢𝘨 𝘨𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘴𝘦.𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘣𝘪𝘵 𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘴𝘬 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘧𝘧“—𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴~” 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘳, 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘥 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯.

𝘖𝘩 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘴,𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘴𝘩𝘦 ��𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴. 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘩𝘶𝘧𝘧𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘰𝘰𝘮 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘳𝘶𝘯𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘢 𝘴𝘮𝘢𝘭𝘭 ‘𝘈𝘩-𝘶𝘩!’.

𝘚𝘰𝘰𝘯 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘬.“𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮...” 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘭𝘺 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘬 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘸 𝘢 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘬𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘳.

“𝘴𝘰𝘰𝘰 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬?” 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘴𝘬 𝘨𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘣𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘵.

“𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘭𝘺...”

Her hand warped around the necklace tightly tears dropping down..

This bad but here we are hope you like it and thanks for the request hope have a good night/day <3

[azlrse]

Hi azalea! I see that u still do crk requests, im so excited to request smth!!!(it’s my first time btw)

May I request a golden cheese cookie x reader cookie dating fanfic? (Im fangirling her too much welp;-;)

It would be really nice if u take this request, love your works so much!!!🩷🩷✨✨✨

-anon💘💘

➳ anguish (a golden cheese cookie x gn!cookie!reader oneshot)

cw: pure angst, chapter 17 spoilers, major character death & spousal loss

a/n: I heed into 💘 anon's request but make it painful and a bit of angst here and there ;))

There is a time where the kingdom of gold itself isn't in a land of misery and emptiness. Streets bussing into pleasantries from other cookies to the screams of happiness from the little cookies who played within the kingdoms streets. To some, it's a nuisance to have such noise as early in the early rays of sunlight spreading through the parmesan dessert. But to some, like you and your wife, it's like a melody ringing through your heads as you both watched it's streets from the above.

Before you became Golden Cheese's spouse, you deeply admired her, not only as a ruler but also a model towards the younger cookies of her kingdom; her leadership, her strong sense of responsibility towards her people, her stubbornness and the definite model for beauty and brains. Out of all of her features, her wings are the most beautiful feature she has; a symbol of her high status and the highest form of being within her kingdom.

She loved it when you always compliment her wings, pride swelling off her chest. In fact, you still remembered the time when she carries you into the skies on your wedding night.

Many would say that the marriage is arranged, yes. Considering that you are just a mere guard who protected the young cheesebirds who are still in the process into becoming stronger like their kind but to the both of you, it's a marriage filled with so much love and happiness. A marriage that you wished for every single cookie of your wife's kingdom would flourish as many young lovers partake of your words of wisdom and guidance (about how to achieve the kind of love your wife has for you).

Life is a bliss within the Golden Cheese Kingdom....

Until the war broke out which sent your people into a state of panic. Fear and Scarcity aroses as many cookie tend to store previous goods in their homes. Children are crying, clinging into their parents and loved ones as they reassured the little ones that their warrior queen will protect them all. This is the time Golden Cheese sensed that both you and her precious cookies are in dire need of protection from Dark Enchantress's forces of evil.

The solution?

She needs to leave the kingdom's walls and fight alongside with the other rulers of various kingdoms on EarthBread.

You became scared for your wife. You pleaded, begged for her to not leave you and even offered to join her in her battle. She declined the offer, saying that she could not bare the thought of you getting injured within the hands of Dark Enchantress Cookie or worse.

"I need someone to watch over the kingdom while I am gone, my jewel. The cookies need you more than ever." She spoke, wiping your tears from your now reddened face. "I am just scared, Golden Cheese." This made the queen's heart break but by bit as she heard your fading voice that is laced with sadness and worry. "Scared of what, Reader Cookie?" You looked into her eyes, calming down for a bit upon seeing the soft look on her face. "I am scared for the cookies, the kingdom, the gold and for you. I am scared for you, my queen." You cried, gripping into her hand. "What if you don't come back? What if you became nothing but bits of crumbs left from your body? What if-" Words are cut off as soon as she hugged you tightly as possible, knowing that time is limited when such crisis is coming.

"You do not need to fear for my wellbeing, darling. For I will return victorious and we'll from this battle." She continues. "Rest assured that we'll have a picnic as a way to celebrate our anniversary when I arrive back home." Golden Cheese reassures you as her arms are still around you, kissing your head and felt the love that radiated from her spouse.

"Stay strong for me, my jewel. Promise?"

"I promise, love."

That is a bittersweet memory she kept with her mind as she returned back from the war, eager to meet and kiss you again like she use to and seeing the shimmering gold treasures and the cookies of her kingdom.

Until she saw the wasteland of what little remains of her kingdom was left.

It was silent and gray. Golden Cheese stood still as a rock, processing on what is happening and whether it's only a nightmare that projects her worse fear.

It's not sadly, this is reality and it struck her hard like a bar of gold into her head. She lost everything that her heart desires the most; her gold, her palace, her cookies-

Wait...

Where are you? Where is the cookie that is considered as the love of Golden Cheese Cookie?

She searched for you desperately, despite there is nothing but crumbs and ash left within it's grounds. Until she saw your tiara and your dough crumbs underneath the palace's remains. She cried in anger, cried in anguish as she screamed for your painful death.

Holding that was once left of you, her knees dropped to the ground and cried as if the witches heard her pleas to bring everything back; not only her kingdom, her treasures, her cookies, her friends but also her most important and precious treasure of all, her beloved Reader Cookie. Golden Cheese Cookie promises herself that she will build a new kingdom where time stands still and no cookie shall experience the loss and hardships this war caused.

Until then, she will take ahold of your tiara as a promise that she will never replace you with anyone. She would pray that when she passed on, she will be with you in the hands of the afterlife and reunite with the cookie she loves the most.

But there is a report from another cookie claiming that there is a cookie residing within a local village who looks exactly the same with the ancient's spouse....

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[k1ttygam3r]

Those eyes…

[theandroiddollie]

Now that I think about it........ I haven't done any lore dump on Hollow Flora Cookie yet....

So anyways-

This is gonna be an angst lore dump to cuz I need it after @m00r3-cha0s finally caved to writing angst

@pinkvaquita

@the-buttery-baker

.....

So...... I've stated before that when the 5 Beasts got corrupted, they had 'placed' Hollow Flora Cookie (who still went by Melodic Berry Cookie at the time) in a house they built in order to 'protect' him......

But what I didn't share was around a week or so, they would send..... Maybe 1 or 2, but never a lot..... Of Cookies to be with HF/MB so that he wouldn't be lonely

But whenever the topic of escaping came to the conversation between those Cookies and HF/MB...... The Beasts would often crumble the Cookies they sent, thinking that they were trying to poison their beloved Attendant's mind with thoughts of leaving them

....... This actually resulted in HF/MB being very reclusive, very pessimistic in forming connection with others, often leaving him to always having his guard up when he finally woke up again years after being in a comatose state....... This all roots back to his fear that if he gets too close to someone, his former Masters would crumble them..... It wasn't until he took the 5 Ancients under his mentorship that he allowed this trauma to somewhat heal......

Which led to him having a warmer and more compassionate approach towards meeting other Cookies.....

Though.... There are still times that he goes back to being the reclusive and pessimistic Cookie who often has his guard up towards others...... But, hey..... At least he was improving in this aspect of him

...... Okay, Ima head back to relearning to draw people in order to draw my CRK Oc

[alex-finechi-is-back]

Kills me that PV had a garden in his castle full of white lilies that he probably tended to wondering if she would ever come back to visit

Makes me wonder if he planted each one with the thought that maybe one day he would be able to show it to her and show her ‘every flower here is a time in which I’ve thought of you’. If he planted all of them in the idea that if she were to ever come back he could finally prove to her that he isn’t lying about not minding her scent.

[cryptidmickle]

so what if. and hear me out. i made my own au for shadowvanilla purposes-

au details below

HELLO SO I PRESENT AMNESIAC AU

so you see, i was minding my business, drawing and looking at cookies and how everyone has their own cool aus with awesome designs and i went "well im not very good at designing but i Love putting characters in Situations"

this au is mostly focused on shadowvanilla so dont be too hopeful I'll get into the other cookies besides their little circle, im ill for gay yaoi only okay

So! motions to comic above, amnesia smilk time! let me elaborate

Pure vanilla fucked up BIG TIME, in that he maybe ventured out to beast yeast alone to try and find out more about the beasts and a way to stop them, as people with a savior complex have a habit of doing. Maybe, perhaps, also at the same time, smilk was getting the workings of his new dough body done and sensing pv was nearby decided to take the opportunity to torment him a little, yknow he cant help himself! he needs to see him

a nasty little fight and confrontation in some old structures of smilk (or at the spire) result in pv using a strange spell he spotted in the surrounding papers and documents, and .... accidentally cracks smilk's soul jam! hehe, oops!

and also sealing his memories. double oops. damn, what are you gonna do now pv?

well he cant leave confused smilk alone here, and itd honestly be best the other beasts and dark enchantress dont drag him back there in this state, so he offers a hand.

"Come with me. We can help you, I'll make sure you're okay."

a memory-less smilk is confused by this but... he's already grabbing the other cookie's hand before he realizes it. It'll probably be fine, something about this cookie... makes something in him feel okay.

taps forehead, im still working everything out of course, and i WILL be cursing all of you with sketchy stuff about it when I'm able, i need more time to figure out smilk's behaviors without the soul jam and corruption

of course I'm always of the mind that pre-corruption smilk was kind of a rat and rude but how exactly is the real question!! how bad was it before the corruption exacerbated the negative qualities of knowledge and his personality

anyways,,, feel free to ask questions!! it could help me figure this all out, if yall are interested of course,,,,,,,my,,,, handful of crk followers SNRRKS

[shandzii]

hey so i see you like capsaicin cookie yeah cool so do you have any thoughts on uhhh burning spice being his da(i spontaneously combust before i can finish my sentence /silly)

it's the coolest and funniest hc ever they should make it real imo

[myradicora]

I can't believe that Shadow Milk Cookie x Bill Cipher yaoi is what got me to 10.6k followers on Twitter

In the Theraprism....

Anyways here's a serious moment with Shadow Milk there during therapy✌️

@0zmodeus gives me the ideas and I draw them ⬇️

Hope you enjoyed the angst :p

[rawazoir]

°<{× sweet dreams ×}>°

Idk this is my third time trying to set up an account on trumblr, for some reason I either don't get notifications or my account doesn't register

Probably something with my email ig, well hopefully it won't happen again,

And here is an art piece i did for the Beast Yeast (Withe Lily had the best one/j) Pure Vanilla devastated his situationship girl once again died(somewhat alive limbo yk?) pfff

Live laugh cry PureLily

Love them sillies

[lohotine]

``Truth.``

Pure Vanilla x GN! Reader

(!) Angst, not proofread (!)

Burden:

"A load, typically a heavy one."

Yet, he is forced to bear it regardless.

Pure Vanilla thinks; if he is to represent truth, shouldn't he tell you how he feels?

Shouldn't he tell you how his heart beats for you and only you?

How his very being exists to love you?

Wouldn't that be the truth?

Every day, he is reminded of how loving you has made him feel like you've made flowers grow in his lungs.

And though they are beautiful,

He cannot breathe anymore.

So he often asks himself,

"Why must I remain silent?"

And when he turns to face you, and sees how your face lights up when you see that other person,

He understands fully.

It is the truth.

It's the truth how, at every moment of every day, his thoughts are plagued by you.

It's the truth how, whenever he enters a crowd, the one person he hopes to find is you.

It's the truth how, whenever he sees a beautiful flower in his garden, his first thought is to give it to you.

All of this is the truth:

But it simply isn't your truth to bear.

You are everything that he could ever want!

Yet, nothing that he could ever have.

Pure Vanilla is aware how telling you how he feels would destroy you.

You care about him so much, and it would place a great burden on your shoulder to know you cannot return it.

Simply because your heart already beats for another person.

And he loves you too much to place you in that much distress.

It's not like it's your fault that you don't love him back.

If anything, it's his fault for falling in love in the first place.

So instead, he'll simply say nothing at all.

He will stay silent.

Even if it ruins him.

After all, it isn't a lie if he doesn't tell, right?

In the end, it's still the truth.

It's just...

His truth.

Not yours.

He thinks;

I will still love you

Even from a distance

Even in the arms of another.

[clanwarrior-tumbly]

Hi! Could I request a Shadow Milk Cookie x gender neutral reader x Pure Vanilla Cookie?

Poly relationship please? Fluff hcs!

So this started out a little angsty,,, but there's more fluff towards the end!

.....

At the time of your adventure to the Spire of Knowledge Deceit, you and Pure Vanilla were already together.

Despite the Dark Flour War separating you two for many years, you somehow found your way back to each other, vowing to make up for the lost time...

Now your love was being put through another rigorous test within Shadow Milk's domain.

His games, his trials, and all his attempts to sway Pure Vanilla to his side ended up revealing how lonely the Beast truly felt deep down, and seeing you both persevere hand-in-hand didn't help matters.

Of course, being sealed away in a tree for eons would do that to any normal cookie.

So you had a little bit of sympathy for him...even though you initially hated him for turning your beloved into Truthless Recluse and tormenting you and your friends like this.

But you couldn't forget Pure Vanilla's words when he sensed that droplet of darkness in his other half, his desires to have someone to relate to, and the aching loneliness inside...

The next time you saw him, it was actually you who convinced him to join the Cookie Kingdom.

Of course he was against it, thinking it's another trick, until he comes to realize some painfully obvious truths:

His spire was in ruins, he's got nowhere else to run, his minions were acting insufferable, and he still couldn't get the two of you stupid Cookies out of his goddamn head...

So he agrees, but claims it's only to satiate his boredom until his powers return.

Pure Vanilla sees that he finally reconsidered that offer of friendship he previously denied, and that's good progress.

It's not a simple transition, of course, as during the first week or so, Shadow Milk behaves like a stray dog. One that only knew pain and felt like he'd be judged (especially if the other Beasts were already there).

He snaps at you both if you catch him showing vulnerability, vowing to spread devastating rumors and lies throughout the kingdom....

But neither of you are perturbed, and slowly that wall comes down with enough time and patience.

His yearning for companionship starts to show itself more and more, in the form of little puppet shows he does depicting you three.

For the Cookie Kids, it's silly and entertaining, but you and Pure Vanilla know their real meaning.

Eventually, after having a talk with your healer bf, you two approach Shadow Milk with an offer for him to join your relationship.

At first his face is deadpan, before he howls with laughter and asks what the punchline is....only to find out you're serious.

He didn't like the idea of sharing a partner, much less with the one who has his soul jam, but once you begin showering him with attention and affection...he finds himself warming up to you surprisingly fast.

It just clicks that he didn't have to put on a show or make up lies about himself so you'd like him---he could just be, well, himself, and that was enough.

And he finally gets to be with Pure Vanilla, the only one who actually did understand him.

He still thinks you two are foolish to forgive him, considering he tried tearing apart your relationship, but you assure him that's all in the past.

He might not be entirely good, but he can always be better. And he's shown that he wants that.

Once the relationship becomes more established, you begin seeing the stark contrasts in how they each spend quality time with you alone.

You've known Pure Vanilla as a gentle soul who'd take walks through the gardens with you, have deep discussions about life and how much the kingdom has grown since you both had your memories and powers restored, care for the cream sheep and all animals who reside on the kingdom grounds...

And now you've come to know Shadow Milk as a clingy jester who drags you into (harmless) games of chess, cards, etc., convinces you to assist him in pranks, and leaves gifts from the other-realm by your nightstand (mainly plushies and other trinkets resembling himself).

While it was unusual for Black Sapphire and Candy Apple to see their master act this way...he's come to accept it quicker, seeing that his happiness is genuine, while she pouts from time to time about no longer being the "favorite", always giving you the side-eye, but you won her favor after insisting that Shadow Milk paid attention to her at least once in a while.

Eventually, you come to learn of his touch-starved nature, as he frequently shapeshifts into some fluffy animal to cuddle with you and/or Pure Vanilla (and you both know it's him 100% of the time).

He doesn't know how to ask for a hug without sounding pathetic. But you get tired of waiting.

So one day, you just drag him onto the bed for cuddles, giving him no time to disguise himself, and at first he gets upset, especially when the healer walks in and asks why he felt the need to always do that...

Until he realizes how warm and comfortable your embrace is; and with Pure Vanilla on the other side of him, his dough nearly turns to putty, and before you could let go, he clings to you both tighter.

Does he cry into your arms? Yeah. But he won't admit he's crying even if there's tearstains on your clothes and makeup running down his face.

Still, you and Pure Vanilla won't say anything about it and just let him hold you for as long as he needed, happy that he's finally willing to accept this one simple truth into his heart:

The truth that he belonged here and was meant to be with you both.

[guwororo]

ShadowVanilla angst please 🥹

This shit is so ass💔

[cooloperalawyerskeleton]

This is how it will be trust me!

[allimili]

Finale.

"You did good, Pure Vanilla cookie.."

extra

and also TW for those with a weak heart. I crode

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"I'm sorry for what...me and my friends had done. Also, please keep them safe..."