#cries in asian

[xiaobaosnoona]

fang xiabaos first sword, and li lianhuas last

mlc things I think about while lying on the floor 1/?

@asiandramanet creator bingo - paralells

[mrinafria]

The person who saved my life, and the person who made me want to live again, were all you.

Writing this to echo what @thedeathdeelers said in her post. I'm a Seon Jae softie through and through, and yet, when anyone questions Im Sol's choices or calls her names, I want to flip a table pretty much because have you seen the effects her choices have had on people?

Because of Im Sol's choices her mom doesn't have a burn injury on her hand.

Because of Im Sol's choices their house didn't completely burn down.

Because of Im Sol's choices Hyun Joo finally has the best of both worlds, with no regrets about letting go of something for the other. Her brother who was struggling with no motivation or luck whatsoever is definitely better off now.

Because of Im Sol's choices we even have a Tae Sung in the story, otherwise all we knew at the beginning, in episode 1, was he was some guy who dropped out of school after getting into a fight over something. Not the best first introduction to a character (who goes on to become the best second ML ever). I am the most proud about Tae Sung's transformation, because you can see that even in high school, underneath the 'bad boy' facade, he craved some genuine care and attention and guidance, which Im Sol the haelmoni, the yeppo noona provided.

Im Sol's choices allowed Seon Jae in Alt 2023 to live guilt-free for 14 years (where they confess), instead of him suffering that mental anguish and longing for 15 years out of guilt which the OG Seon Jae had to go through. And we all know what my feelings are about that version of him.

Because of Im Sol's choices, Sonagi exists (/-ed). Because if the 19yo Im Sol had not held the umbrella over him, giving him that dazzling smile of hers that is sunburst and blinding and contagious, capable of stirring storms within the heart, our boy would not be smitten and a loser and a goner for life (well, lives). And now we all know what that means when she chooses not to do that.

If Im Sol's choices have made anyone's life harder, it's Im Sol herself. She carries around the memories of THREE++ timelines, with the love of her life dying/almost dying in EVERY one of them. She goes through life as if she really didn't live through all that trauma that is enough to drive someone insane. She knows her Seon Jae is gone, for good, and all she has are memories that don't even exist in this timeline, memories that not even a single person can corroborate. You know how utterly helpless and hopeless that sounds like? She has a person in this timeline that resembles her Seon Jae, but she has to constantly remind herself he is not her person, her Seon-Jae, he better not be if she wants to see him alive. Going around in the city and seeing his posters/ads with his face on it, or stumbling onto him and seeing him staring at her with no recognition whatsoever? It's not easy. Becoming a complete stranger to someone who was once your everything, who could've been your everything. Not easy.

And she decides to carry on with life still because deep down she knows that's what Seon Jae would want, that's what Seon Jae had taught her: to live for the people who are thankful to have her around, to live to see another day, rain or shine. She loves life, lives life, as a token of gratitude to Seon Jae. She lives because when she says You saved my life, and you made me live to him, those are not just words she is casually throwing around. She is thankful that he made her find reasons to live one more day, and she is going to pay him back by living a worthwhile life. Because Seon Jae truly wants/ed that. He literally died wanting that, putting her life before him, because he wanted her to live, and by living, I mean not just breathing and spending the remainder of her life with survivor's guilt. Going back to this epic confession scene, he says all that because he is afraid of how Im Sol would go on with her life if he's no more. Here, he wants her to know that she doesn't need to blame herself, or suffer, because it is his choice to save her, and it'll all be worth it to him if she gets to live the best life she possibly can.

Just like Seon Jae in any timeline never stopped living or appreciating the good things in life despite longing for Im Sol for more than a decade, she will live and keep her love for him alive through herself. Even if she comes back home at the end of the day to cry in secret, or breaks down in tears in public places.

If Im Sol didn't make the choices she did, we won't have a Seon Jae to begin with.

[crismakesstuff]

I’m really sick and tired of seeing people reduce nolan down to:

1. He’s actually hitler, he’s a racist and sexist and hates every minority + viltrum is magakkk /srs

2. He’s an UwU wife guy babygirl guys!! He said he misses his wife so this clears him of all bad he’s done !!

All of you are wrong and I’m taking him away from everyone until y’all learn how to do media literacy correctly, you people treat nolan the way you should fucking treat homelander the actual canon racist and sexist pig! some of you r even deluded enough to think they would be homeboys ! NO

[ramon-tikaram-love]

Ramon Tikaram in Kama Sutra: A Tale of Love

[rebtrovert-girl]

Why do I have to be your pride and joy? Can't I just be your daughter for once, no matter how pathetic or flawed I might be?

[heretherebedork]

And if I cried for him? For them? For the beach and the statue and the sand and the ocean and the love and the water and the freedom? If I cried for these boys and this moment?

[batwynn]

All the advertising I saw for Elemental:

Check out this wacky adventure between a fire person and a water person! A Tree Child Flirts with her! LOL! HEY LOOK CLOUD PEOPLE! *cartoon spring and honking noises*

Me: I don’t… want to watch that. Oh well, that’s fine.

Me actually watching it:

Oh wait, it’s a story of an immigrant family who come with nothing and build a community for themselves and their people and the weight of debt you feel to your parents who sacrificed for you to succeed but the way that that success sometimes isn’t what you want and how parental love can feel conditional when there’s a lack of clear communication and—

Me getting to the end: SHE BOWED AND HE BOWED BACK 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💦💧💦💧💦💧💦💧💦🌊🌊🌊🌊🚿🚿🚿

[xiexielians]

"Lin Cheng-hsin. If you already listened to the whole tape, just look up at the sky. Then, I will know I'm looking at the same starry sky as the girl I like. Aquí te amo."

@tolerateit march prompt: favourites (movies) get to know me: movies [1/5] Our Times 我的少女時代 (2015) Dr. Frankie Chen [x]

[thetwilightroadtonightfall]

watched Elemental today <- is asian

[milfhandholder]

good morning :)

[bnprm]

hidden agenda was made for the queer asian kids with emotionally distant parents: an essay

one of the reasons i watch asian bl is bc as an asian queer person, is rare to see stories like mine shown in media out here in the west. but shows like hidden agenda are the reason that i feel a little less alone in my experience.

in the last few episodes, we got to see zo’s need to make his mom proud. this need stemmed from her background in education but also with how disappointed she was when she found out he is gay. the scene in the car was such a, familiar experience for queer asian kids, who vow to never make their parent feel inadequate again. asian parents put so much pressure on their kids to “make them proud” but rarely ever say when they are.

but i really want to talk about joke. bc throughout this whole show, we hardly got to see joke’s story. he was always the solid rock that zo could count on to be there when he needed him. he gave zo advice when zo was questioning if his mom was proud of him. so for it to be revealed in the final episode, that he was struggling with the same need to “make his dad proud” was just.. so heartbreaking.

i took some screen caps to fully demonstrate how much i relate to the scene in part 3/4 where joke goes home to his family…

this. his dad hadn’t seen him in a while, and he had just mentioned the debate win. and he has to bring up how he is /finally/ not a disappointment. which has the undertone of “let’s see how long this lasts”. and this is something me and my brother have heard from our dad time and time again. even after all the things i’ve accomplished, it still feels.. temporary.

once again, his dad thinks he knows joke. but he clearly doesn’t. but to constantly be told that you’re “up to no good” is so.. tiring. it’s like being punished for smth that u didn’t even do.

and then the “L word”. love. asian parents have an especially difficult time saying they love their kids. maybe it’s a generational thing, maybe it’s bc they just don’t know how, but they usually show it in other ways. but the kid shouldn’t have to be okay with that. us kids just want to be told we are loved.

joke didn’t even give his dad a chance to think about what zo told him, because he’s used to being ignored. and this broke my heart. but i also saw myself. because i also know my dad is stubborn, and won’t change how he thinks.

but then, it’s when his own mom speaks up, he finally realizes what joke wants.

and then we have this admission. just like zo, all he wanted was to make his dad proud. (this is where i started crying like a little baby) asian kids live their whole lives for their parents. it’s how we are raised.

and then. his dad finally says the words that every asian kid wants to hear. (many of us go our whole lives never hearing them) — side note: joong’s performance here was crazy

[tariah23]

Now ppl are reblogging the yasuke post acting like I don’t know Asians are just as racist towards black ppl as white folks *falling to my knees* (all whites and nbs in general. Most of them jump up and down for white approval, willingly accepting any crumbs they can get so-)

[cowboy-robooty]

i cant do this anymore. i started going on twitter to read collin and bilatinman kios posts because i admire them. but omfg i dont even scroll the dashboard yet every time i get a glance at it it is the most repugnant, foul thing i have ever come across. Twitter is trying to make me hate white people and i wont let them win #mayofever for life papas burgeria condiment ninja style

[alejunsu]

Time EP1

[istherewifiinhell]

Actually. One last thing. The copangda tf show also has. I feel like its FAIR TO SAY. A real. Slap some japanese aesthetics on these characters problem. [Two of them are from comics and. You know. American comics] and i wanna be able to say hey. This feels. Bad? The harsh samurai dude teacher gimmick. And. Hey maybe the woman looking like that. And her swords. AND being. [Child show] sex pested by the annoying dude. But like shes so cool and confident good humour rebuffing him. Is like. Also bad?

But also cause i dont know know where tf critical talk happened and u cant look it up cause all you get is movie stuff [for the dude. They did robot yellow face. Btw. In those movies] or comic fans who arent Misogynists fighting for their lives [cause. You know. 2013. Woman in comics] and its like yes. Okay. But i have this other concern?

[anchoeritic]

eeaao deserves every fucking award on planet earth