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we can FINALLY post our pieces for the @tohgrimoire zine!!! i wrote a fic about luz and her family visiting her father's grave. it's a tragic but healing time for all of them.
thank you so much to @astrolavas for drawing the devastating spot art and the zine's writing mod @taruchinator for helping with beta reading!!! all the zine contributors and mods were so sweet and encouraging. i'm so grateful that i got to be a part of this project! thank you to everyone for all the support!!!!!! 🦉💕
🔗 https://archiveofourown.org/works/58919038
#the owl house#toh#luz noceda#camila noceda#vee noceda#hunter noceda#vee toh#hunter toh#manny noceda#the owl house fanfic#toh fanfic#other people's art#my writing#zine#i wrote this SOOOOOOOOOO long ago...i'm so glad i can finally share it!!!!#i wrote this before stringbean was a thing...i wish i could've included her in this 😭#she's there in my heart...........#god sorry i haven't posted anything on ao3 in ages#i've barely been writing OR drawing this year. i need to get my shit together.#I'M TRYING MY BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL BE BACK TO PRODUCTIVITY SOMEDAY!!!
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Richarlyson: You're skinny sir, are you eating well these days?
Pac: Not really. To tell you the truth, I've been eating... I stole, together with my son, we stole some cupcakes from the Federation. I ate some, but I know chocolate isn't the best thing to eat, right?
Richarlyson: 12 kilos D:
Pac: 12 kilos?!? No– what? My god. My god... Am I malnourished, Doctovo? Am I- Am I malnourished?
Richarlyson: You weigh less than a pitbull, sir.
Pac: Less than the singer? Damn... [Laughs]
Richarlyson: [Hits Pac]
#Pactw#Richarlyson#Pac#QSMP#November 29 2023#Thanks again to sebbs for checking my translation!#Been meaning to post this clip for months#I think about it a LOT#Pac's got a very interesting relationship with food I'll say that much#The fact that Fit's gift to him – out of everything he could've given him – wound up being an infinite chocolate bar speaks volumes too#especially when you take this (and other moments) into consideration#The nature of hunger and food in q!Pac's story is very interesting#anyways if you've read this far in the tags#There is a fic on Ao3 that talks about this very premise :)#Doctovo#BTW 12 kilos is a little over 26 lbs#I like to interpret this as Pac being 26 lbs underweight rather than him literally being 26 lbs#both aren't super realistic but that's more realistic than weighing 26 lbs lol#Anyways please let me know if this needs any TWs
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SquidgeWorld refusing to even talk about Palestine and other genocides happening because "this a fandom space" is wild and severely disappointing
#squidgeworld#// rant#'death threats' are not an excuse to stay silent!!!!#yeah they're not cool but you made it clear you wouldn't say anything either#stop allowing to look away by giving them a space where they can#what about palestinians or sudanis or congolese folk who are being genocided-#-who want the privilege to read fics on your site?? they don't matter??#'you wouldn't ask google 'what's your stance on x' you are not google!!! you are *one* person!!!!#'fandom spaces are sacred' sacred enough to turn a blind eye to genocide?? the fuck???#fuck your 'escapism' you are encouraging people to look away#that's not escapism that's ignoring the world in favor of your happiness#the LEAST you COULD'VE done was making a post saying you want a free palestine/sudan/dr congo/etc. or express SOME form of solidarity#'yes the world is unjust' then speak up bitch!!!!#so ao3 are zionists and squidgeworld is refusing say anything#maybe it's better for nobody to use your site 🤷🏾♀️#if you can't even stand in solidarity with people of color then you don't actually care about fandom#because the people being genocided that you don't care about are the same people in these 'fandom spaces' you claim to care about!!#honestly feel like a damn fool for even suggesting people migrate there from ao3#people who look away are not allies. they're cowards who don't want to lose support for being on the right side of history#anyways free palestine/sudan/dr congo/haiti/hawaii/tigray and other countries and nations experiencing genocide!!!#by refusing to speak up you have chosen the side of the oppressor.#long post
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THE FANFICTION HOTEL
idk, i thought this was a fun idea ♡
#artists on tumblr#illustration#digital art#fanfiction#fanfic#ao3#otp#tropes#wattpad#ao3 writer#otp prompts#writing prompts#drawing#doodle#artwork#my art#sketches#ibis paint x#the idea behind the windows is that each fanfic is kinda its own world in a way?#ngl it could've gone much worse#im not unhappy with it ♡#lmk which window y'all like the best#based off of that one tumblr post yk?
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I can't believe I just had to explain my last Zolusan (more Lusan/Sanlu than anything but yeah) fic to somebody because they said it was normalizing unhealthy behavior when it comes to starting poly relationships. As if the monster trio would talk things out like normal people. Seriously.
Please NEVER leave a comment like this on a fanfic. If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it. I am not here to educate people!! I am not your parents!! This is a fanfic site!! Don't expect me to write a manual on how to have a poly relationship, especially when it would be out of character for the main couple.
I'm gonna leave the link to the fic here and what I told them about it because now I am extremely anxious other people won't get what I want to express with this fic and I feel the need to share my thoughts:
#but also?? i've been in poly relationships before#and i am projecting on sanji the whole thing is venting#and people should NOT come to ao3 to learn how to love#and you should also not leave negative comments on fics??? like it's just that obvious???#going insane honestly i think it's just so dumb but i needed to post this#i could've just ignored their comment but i am extremely stubborn#and i'm gonna be honest with all of you i think the fic doesn't have any harmful behavior ???#the thing i can understand is sanji being vulnerable but they're not establishing a serious relationship at all#and sanji is aware of what's going on all the time he's vulnerable bc he's overwhelmed but he calmed down in like the middle of the fic#aghhhhhh i hate having to explain things to people it gets on my nerves#one piece#zosanlu#zolusan#i still don't know what tag to use exactly ngl#lusan#sanlu#bc it technically is more of a fic about them ngl so i'm just gonna tag these two ships
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"you have nice long piano fingers"
thanks, i use them to type out my fanfics <33
#making great use of my long fingers but in a different way#i could've taken after my sisters and signed up for piano at 6 years old#i could've ended up going to a performing arts school like my sister#but no#instead i've been typing out my silly little stories that i'll probably never finish#love that for me#my posts#ao3#fanfiction
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Another fic?? You bet! I almost finished this about 4 weeks ago, when I got sidetracked by the Dorothy gets dipped fic, so I finally managed to add the finishing touches here :) it's been in the works for about 3 months (off and on; many different projects got in the way) so I'm happy to finally be able to say it's done! (after that final edit at 3 am I posted about last night lol)
Summary
When Blanche announces that she thinks she's pregnant, each of the girls deals with it in her own way. (They find each other in Rose's bedroom in the end, for one reason or another.) // an exploration of S02E01: end of the curse, and what happens in between
#started this the same day i got the news that my friend became a grandma & i was having Feelings about babies <3#it kind of got out of hand after that haha but it was initially supposed to just be a sweet little scene between rose & dorothy!#(but a couple of months passed and of course that means it kept expanding until. uh. i was left with whatever this is)#it could've probably used another final editing round that wasn't at 3 am but hey! it feels okay so i'm putting it out there#i put enough time into it as it is lol#at some point i just get an itch and i *have to* put it out there you know??#like there's some sort of urgency all of a sudden#it's been sitting in my drafts for nearly 3 months but waiting one more day now??? impossible#the words yearn for freedom#(or i yearn for freedom from the words)#(that being said i was actually going to wait & post this tomorrow but i accidentally hit 'post' instead of 'save draft' in ao3 sjkfd)#the golden girls#blanche devereaux#rose nylund#dorothy zbornak#sophia petrillo#golden wives#(ish? you could go for either platonic or romantic with this tbh)#my writing
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i don't have any particular gender headcanon about atsushi but it is a known fact that shapeshifter characters are transgender. those are the rules
#this is to say he can be anything to me💖 estrogen or testosterone could've saved her. double dose in fact#this post goes out to the transfem atsushi mutuals and also to ao3 user lizandre and their transmasc atsushi fic#every direction. good for them#bsd#atsushi nakajima#diversity win this tiger is trans.#ugh I love atsushi so much🫶🫶🫶
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ARAGHGS..... art block hit recently but i still wanna post so here's like. three doodles😭😭 the one with Twitter and tumblr arguing is from a scrapped joke comic thing i made wayyy before cloutchase proper released LMAO the drawings are unrelated lmao
#Socialstuck cloutchase#Cloutchase Usersona#Technically. One doodle of her:]#twitter cloutchase#Tumblr cloutchase#I could've posted this without the usersona doodle but i Did Not Want to. y'all WILL look at him!!!#also i had an AO3 comic sketch I could've put here but I decided not to cause I may actually do something with it LMAO#not much to say!!!
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Loathe that this is a thing
#ao3#the 'authors' in comments being all well I tagged it whats the problem#you could've ya know chosen not to insult the authors you claim to admire by posting
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I know it's going to be a while for me to jump back to the Nexomon tag when the next chapter for my fic drops (and believe me, that's going to take a while), there's been a semi-crazy theory I've been going over since I was thinking of weaseling it into the fic (especially during the NexoLords Frozen Tundra arc) since it's something that doesn't seem to make sense in hindsight.
Namely with the NexoLords' attempt of reviving Omnicron, and even the earlier run-in with the goons holding a bunch of bomb-experts hostage and possibly planning to use the dynamite for their own plan...What if before the Guild stopped them in their tracks, what if they had a previous attempt to revive Omnicron, failed, and were trying to cover their tracks is the second time went bust? What if the NexoLords accidentally created a Tyrant that was nothing like the great King of Monsters but the heir of Omnicron's heir the first time around?
(Minor spoilers for Micromon, major spoilers for Nexomon 1, post-N1, Nexomon Extinction, and a bunch of rambling/theory crafting below)
TL;DR: Reverse doomsday cult in Frozen Tundra "accidentally" create a monster beyond their comprehension, abandoned it at Palmaya and perpetuate the cycle of neglect Omnicron started with his "weakest child" Metta, the one true heir to the King of Monsters...Then both their plans gets ruined by a blue-haired kid.
Like I made as a joke but already plausible theory, Omnicron's youngest kid Metta (the glass pinata with a titanium ego) would've been considered the king's heir due to his moveset following every bit of his power over all elements at once. But given Metta's (gestures wildly at everything) and not immediately putting the fear of Nexo-God onto humanity, he was ignored and cast aside as the lesser of Omnicron's children...Of course, until everything that happens before and after Nexomon 1. Apart from Metta being murked from Extinction's story due to the dev not wanting to develop his character further (or also from how congested the story is already with all the protags/antagonists); there are plenty of little easter eggs that still show Metta's influence on the world long into the Tyrant War and up until N:E's story. Like him previously making a resurrection machine to revive Omnicron and his siblings and his teacher/unofficial father-figure Malk having a database in a variety of "Nexomon" similar but unknown to the public (Micromon/Pixekai Project); ultimately leading to the NexoLords (and Lobo the ex-Guild Grandmaster) finding the machine's blueprint and Amelie and Logan finding the database and extracting the info to create a anti-Tyrant weapon to topple the war in their favor and end the mindless violence once and for all. And all of this was in the Frozen Tundra, mind you, and most likely in Metta's old home or in Omnicron's Tower/Tomb; though I'm all on the former being the case :).
Circling back to the NexoLords, obviously assuming they had a chance to revive Omnicron and "restore the world's order" with their new blueprints, jumped straight into building/testing out the machine in the tower where Omnicron was once slain long long ago. Maybe they used a Nexomon egg as the catalyst, maybe gathered some residual energy in the ancient site no sane person dared to venture to; but the Nexomon they got was nothing any of them had expected. It was something human-like but not, a Tyrant but not, and a Nexomon with stars in their eyes and a bright smile against the harsh and destructive world around them...
-That's right, this was a Byeol theory rant all along! And there's nothing you can do to stop me now!! >:D To try and make a more long story short, it makes some sense to me if the NexoLords (and by extension Lobo) made Byeol in their first and only known attempt to revive the doggo dad himself (going heavy in the copium since Omnicron's soul was completely destroyed after N1), so they had to work with what they had even if they had no idea what kind of ancient/primordial Tyrant they're channeling to achieve "world peace". Besides, even if Lobo was the ex-Guild leader and had every chance to read up on Omnicron's history, who wants to bet he had no idea that Metta existed if he was never considered a threat in the first place in the past? After all, Omnicron was a Normal-type and had power over all the elements, so why would he have a Normal-type kid as well? All of his children were killed off by Ulzar, so they had to go for the source of all Nexomon, the Normal-type monster, that's the most obvious choice! (/s) If that then applies to Lobo accidentally making Metta's Tyrant, then why is Byeol found in Palmaya and not Omnicron's Tower and/or the Frozen Tundra? Simple, the NexoLords really didn't want their token Tyrant being a baby cherub bird-thing and totally not Omnicron, so they dumped him at the one place that's "Tyrant-free" and getting the little guy as far away from their base of operation as possible.
But that's still a bit ironic, you know? Metta, abandoned by his father and siblings for not putting humanity under his thumb, eventually becomes the strongest Nexomon tamer in the world (aka the Nexolord) and putting together a plan to revive his dad to destroy humanity once and for all (and finally be his dad's special little boy :). Then there's Byeol, abandoned by a man with an Omnicron mask and his Children of Omnicron-styled lackeys for not being the true King of Monsters and ending the Tyrant War without anymore bloodshed; (fic-wise) becoming a beacon of hope in Palmaya and exploring the world helping those in need and avoiding Tyrant conflicts at all cost. Cause in Byeol's strangely starry eyes, his idea of world peace is for everyone to be nice and get along, human and Nexomon, simple as that.
Whether or not it if the NexoLords knew their "Tyrant" was being raised to be a goody-two-shoes is up to debate; but I really wanted to figure out someway to explain Byeol's existence other than "he's just a post-story legendary just because" or following the series' gimmick of using post-story 'mon for the next game, but the thought itself is pretty funny to me.
#nexomon#nexomon spoilers#nexomon extinction#nexomon extinction spoilers#nexomon metta#nexomon byeol#ao3 fanfic#text post#theory post#long tags#Me w. the theory: Hm...Lobo's also called a Renegade but all he's ever done is make a pro-Omnicron cult that went...you know#and Renegades are mainly defined by them having a Tyrant...So what if he technically had a one and just...didn't use it?#also me w. the Omni fam parallels: >:D#To be fair if even *Ulzar* didn't consider Metta as a threat the first time around (even when he went MIA after doggo dad's death)#then the same thing absolutely applies to Lobo too...Untold history repeating itself and all that#and not wanting to push in another paragraph to the main rant but I also think Byeol didn't have the giant ring at first#like the wings could've been attached to his puffy collar-thing or like the N1 Angalo-Seraforona-Angelique line#the ring/“chariot” was a surprise tool that came in later :)#Loud ambitious cult leader having loud ambitious angel-parrot (a “holy messenger”) works for a AU too for the full Renegade roster :D
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could've followed my fears all the way down
please do enjoy this sunday offering of angst : ). i've played with this one a bit since i originally wrote it and personally i think it has a lot of great lines. let me know what you think!
Chapter 21
Chapters: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 22
Harriet falls to her knees at the edge of the ditch, the shock of the impact zinging through her body and pulling something in her lungs taut. She has to force herself to close her eyes so that she can take a breath.
He’s on his side, wood tied to his chest.
He’s even still got his bag; if she didn’t know what she was looking for, she wouldn’t have been able to find it.
He—the body—he’s covered in mud, and dirt, and she can’t tell what’s wrong with him. She needs to get someone, needs to move, but she can’t make herself stand up,
One of his arms—oh, that looks bad. His legs look okay, just positioned oddly. He doesn’t have shoes on. How could he have lost them? What happened? Did they wear out that quickly? His feet will be a mess of cuts, for sure. And if they’re infected… what if they have to remove them? Maybe Gally will be able to build him something…
Harriet shakes herself. She can’t afford to get distracted now. She doesn’t even know… she can’t tell, not while she’s still so far away.
She can’t tell if he’s alive, or if she’s just found his body.
How long has he been here? How close were they to finding him?
If they’d spent just one more day looking, would have they found him in time?
His eyes are open, just halfway, and Harriet unfreezes. She moves as quickly as she can down the side of the ditch without tripping herself, and taps his face lightly.
It’s red, swollen; his lips are dry and cracking.
She doesn’t know what that means. Dehydration, but that’s a given. She’d be more surprised if he wasn’t dehydrated. She has to find a way to get her fingers under the wood on his chest to get to his neck.
She can’t tell if he’s dead or not. Her heart is racing in her ears, all the way down to her fingertips; she can’t get a pulse.
“Thomas, can you look at me? Can you hear me? Thomas, it’s okay, you’re going to be okay. I promise. I’ll get you back.”
Harriet’s strong, but she doesn’t think she should be able to carry Thomas.
He’s lost weight, again, that much is obvious—he’s been out here for a while without food. She doesn’t let herself think about how long it’s been. Too long, probably.
And he was right here… he was so close.
His arm is definitely broken. There’s not a lot she can do out here, but she makes a sling out of her shirt to keep it from getting worse while she carries him.
She’s not sure it even matters, but it makes her feel better, at least. If he is still alive, somehow, she’s helped. She’s helping.
So she keeps talking to him, narrating what she’s doing like it matters. Like he can hear her.
“Thomas, I’m going to carry you, okay? We’re not far, you almost made it by yourself.” It’s easier if she pretends he can. Anya can tell her later, but for now, she’s pretending. Pretending that it’s possible for him to be alive, and here, and that she’s just saved him.
“We’ll take care of it, Thomas, I promise. It won’t hurt like this for much longer.” Carrying him is awkward, but she manages to keep his broken arm against his chest.
He’s just too tall for her to be able to support his head at this angle, but she can’t worry about that too much right now.
Anya will know what to do.
She has to know what to do.
They can’t lose Thomas twice.
They can’t.
And if Anya tells her that she’s just found his body, at least she’s brought him back.
They won’t have to leave another friend unburied, with no idea where the body ended up. He won’t be eaten and picked apart by scavengers until only his bones are left.
Harriet can’t do much else now, not if he’s really gone, but she can run, and she can hope.
It’s that hope, faint as it is, that keeps her legs from giving out under her as she tears back out of the woods, directly to the medical cabin.
finish on ao3 or continue reading
Sonya knows something’s up when Harriet doesn’t visit the greenhouse after her morning run. It’s become part of their routine. Harriet runs in the woods, and Sonya pretends she’s working instead of just wishing that she could have another dirt fight with Thomas or something similarly unproductive.
Maybe Harriet tripped on a root or something, and had to go wrap her ankle. Or she could have decided to go on a longer run today. The change in routine itches at her a little; not as much as it would have back in the Glen, she’s more used to changes happening day-to-day now, but it still doesn’t feel right.
Sonya makes herself wait a while before she goes down to the medical cabin, to make sure that Harriet’s really not coming.
Then she can’t get into the medical cabin, and she knows something is really wrong. Had Harriet broken a bone? Someone should have come to get her. Unless there was no one to come and get her.
She’d be allowed in, though. She would be allowed in if it was just a broken bone, as long as it wasn’t, like, poking through the skin.
Why else would Harriet and Anya be locked in the medical cabin for? The kitchens and the greenhouse are the most injury-prone spots, and she already knows that no one in the greenhouse got hurt.
Had Harriet found—
No. She couldn’t have. There’s no way.
Sonya doesn’t let herself think about it. It’s not possible.
Minho’s by Thomas’s tree. Gally’s in the kitchen with Frypan, and Aris, Rosa, and Frankie are working somewhere. Even Jorge is out working this morning.
From what she can see, everyone is where they’re supposed to be. She can’t see everything, not as easily as she could have in the Glen, but she can see enough.
Everyone is working—or playing, in the case of some of the kids—and no one is hurt. They’re all where they’re supposed to be.
Everyone but Harriet and Anya. Well, and herself, since she’s not in the greenhouse.
Harriet might have gotten hurt, or found an injured animal. She didn’t find— she couldn’t have found him.
Thomas can’t have been that close all this time.
His body can’t have been that close the entire time.
Because that means they almost found him. It means that if they had just looked a little harder, they would have been able to save him.
Feeling lost, she sinks down next to Minho and lets him tell her facts about spruce trees.
She’s heard them all from Thomas before, but she thinks she could stand to hear them a few more times.
Minho doesn’t watch as Harriet carries Thomas’s a body into the medical cabin. He can’t.
Gally doesn’t know yet. He’d be rushing over here if he did. Shuck, not even Minho knows yet, not really. He just knows that Harriet was carrying something and rushing. It doesn’t mean she’s found a body. It could be an injured animal.
It’s probably an injured animal.
If it’s Thomas, then Minho’s not going to be the one to tell Gally. Minho hadn’t even been able to tell him the first time around, that they hadn’t found him.
When Sonya sits next to him, he tells her the facts he can remember, the ones he’s been repeating to himself for days like they’ll bring Thomas back.
Nothing will bring Thomas back, not even his body.
Maybe they’ll bury him under this tree, and then Minho can recite Thomas’s spruce facts back to him, over and over again until the roots and trunk have grown their way around him.
Sonya listens, but she’s watching the door.
“Harriet’s okay.” He tells her, realizing she didn’t see what Harriet had been carrying. “She found Thomas’s body.” He hadn’t meant to say that. He doesn’t know that Harriet found Thomas’s body. She found something, but that doesn’t mean it’s Thomas.
“No, she couldn’t have— she doesn’t go that far, he can’t have been that close for all this time. Why didn’t we find him?”
“I don’t know.” If he were less numb, Minho knows he’d be freaking out the way she is.
But he hasn’t felt much of anything since he realized they were never going to find Thomas alive.
“I just want him back.” He whispers, interrupting her. “The tree facts, they’re all from Thomas, and I don’t even remember most of them. I just— I want him back. I want him to tell us this is a stupid place for a tree, especially one that will get as big as a spruce. I want to watch his face when he’s thinking and try to figure it out. I want him to know how much I love him. He didn’t know, Sonya. I never got that chance.”
“Minho, I don’t think he’s dead.” Sonya’s still watching the door. “I don’t think she found a body.”
“What else could she have found, Sonya? He’s dead. It’s…” There are countless reasons.
It’s been too long. He would have run out of food days ago. Probably before they even started looking for him, from what Sonya and Aris have said about how much food he had. The wind storm could have caused him any number of injuries, he might have been crushed by a tree and actually died under it, because Minho wasn’t fast enough to save him.
He wasn’t fast enough to find him in time. He should have gone ahead sooner, and maybe then he would have found Thomas before the worst could happen. If they ever find him now, it will only be his body.
Minho doesn’t know if he’d rather never see Thomas’s face ever again, or be able to bury him properly.
“I think she found Thomas.” Sonya’s still insisting, but Minho can’t let himself believe it. He can’t think he has Thomas back again, only to find out he’s wrong.
He’s the one who wasn’t there in time. Thomas had always been there to save him, to make sure he was safe.
But Minho hadn’t been… he just…
He wasn’t good enough. Not this time. Not when it mattered.
Is this how Thomas felt all the time? That he wasn’t enough?
Minho should have told him earlier.
Should have said something one of those nights where they curled into each other to chase away nightmares, told him ‘I love you.’ and asked if he could kiss him.
He’ll never know what that’s like, now.
He and Gally have moved in together, but it’s not the same. They don’t love each other the way they love Thomas, not yet. They’ve been too distant for that.
He wants to.
He wants to have them both, but Thomas is dead, and now he won’t have either of them.
“No, Minho, why would they still be in there if Thomas is dead?” Sonya insists. He tunes her out.
Thomas is dead. He’s accepted that.
(He hasn’t.)
So why is he hoping for more now?
Making this applesauce, something Thomas would have loved— once he’d made the strawberry jam, it’d been his favorite food to eat. He hadn’t shut up about it.
So why now? Why would Frypan have him make this now?
He can barely see Thomas’s tree from this angle; he knows Minho’s sitting under it.
He hardly goes anywhere else these days.
Sometimes, Gally wants to join him.
Usually, he’s too afraid he’ll say or do something he’ll regret. Things have been weird between them.
Worse than before, even though he moved into Minho’s cabin because it’s closer and easier to manage with his leg.
They don’t have Thomas tying them together now, not in the same way he was before. Gally’s not quite sure what to do with that.
So he draws on his anger the way he always used to in the Glade, because it’s easier than having to deal with the sadness and the worry and the numbness that threatens to creep in and weave ivy walls over his heart and mind.
“Fry, what are we going to do with this? How long will it keep for?” Smashing the strawberries up has been vaguely therapeutic, and as much as he hates the thought of making something Thomas would love that he can’t eat, it’s still been… kind of fun.
“Well, it’s only one batch, so it should go pretty quickly.” Frypan seems tense. Like something’s wrong.
Gally can’t see anything wrong, but he knows Thomas was put at this station because it’s pretty hard to see everything.
What does Frypan know?
Why is he not saying anything about it?
Or maybe it’s just that he’s remembering Thomas, too. Whenever they lost someone, Frypan would do this. He’d be tense for a few days, throw himself into cooking and baking almost aggressively, and it’s nothing new.
But Gally desperately wants for there to be another reason for Fry to be tense.
“What’s going on, Fry?” He can’t leave the applesauce, it’ll burn, but he wants to know.
“I don’t know, Gally. I just saw Harriet running back, is all. I don’t know what’s going on.”
Running back…
Running back from the woods.
Fuck.
She’s found Thomas’s body.
“I want to see him.” He says, moving faster than he thought he could.
“Gally, don’t— ” Frypan takes his spoon and tosses it to one of the other cooks. “If you’re going, you can’t go alone. Your leg is still bad.”
“Mina, you’re in charge. Please make sure nothing burns.”
“Got it, boss.” Frypan takes one of Gally’s arms around his shoulders— it’s faster than the crutches he hasn’t quite gotten the hang of yet.
He can use them fine in the cabin, but he still has a difficult time on the grass.
They go to Thomas’s tree. Sonya, who usually avoids it, is sitting pressed shoulder-to-shoulder with Minho.
Gally sits on Minho’s other side, but not quite as close.
“Do you know what’s going on?” Frypan asks. “I saw Harriet run by, but I wasn’t sure.”
“That’s why you wanted me to make strawberry applesauce. You thought— ” Gally cuts himself off.
Does Frypan think Thomas is alive?
“Would they have been in there this long if he wasn’t?” Sonya counters, softly. She sounds tired. Like they’ve been doing this over and over.
They probably have.
“He’s dead, Sonya. It’s been too long.” Minho sounds tired, like he doesn’t want to hold onto any hope that Thomas is alive, that Harriet found him after all this time.
It’s only been a week and a half since they planted the tree, but it feels like a lot longer.
Most things feel like that. Gally feels like it’s been ten years and also no time at all since they escaped the Glade, since he joined the Right Arm, since they got here.
“She wouldn’t have been running like that if he were dead.” Frypan says. “She was moving pretty quickly. Why would she do that if there was no hope?”
“To keep us from seeing? Because it wasn’t him?”
“No one else has gone missing.”
“Could be an animal.” Gally hears himself say.
He wants to believe it’s Thomas, but— he can’t. He can’t do that to himself. Because if he believes it’s Thomas, lets himself have that, and then it’s not Thomas, it will shatter him.
Minho’s doing the same thing, he realizes.
To protect himself.
Sonya and Frypan were his close friends, but they didn’t know Thomas the way Gally and Minho did.
They weren’t in love with him.
If it is Thomas, Gally’s never letting him go anywhere alone again.
Not in the near future, anyway. And by near future, he means in the next ten years.
(He’s still clinging to the faintest thread of hope that it is Thomas, that he’s alive, that he’s safe.
That he’s here.
Somehow.
He knows the truth is probably that Harriet was moving quickly to conceal the body from them, at least until she and Anya could clean it up a little, but Gally can’t force himself to squash that little bit of hope.
It’s going to be what destroys him, in the end.)
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#thomas#minho#gally#tmr#thominho#thomally#sonya#harriet#sonyarriet#thominally#frypan#tmr frypan#tmr fic#maze runner fic#tmr thomas#tmr minho#tmr gally#hurt thomas#thominho fic#thomally fic#thominally fic#hurt gally#whump#whump fic#could've followed my fears all the way down#nix writes#ao3#ao3 fic#maze runner#post canon
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y'all are so lucky I didn't post any of the shit I wrote a couple years ago to Ao3 wanna know why? because this would've been one of the author's notes: "so hey guys, sorry this chapter was late, but I just got diagnosed with cancer--so that sucks" ignoring the fact I made an announcement like that on Wattpad before I unpublished all my works, but yknow, it's not the same
#I literally just realized what a missed opportunity that was#I could've been in the Ao3 hall of fame of “batshit insane author's notes”#but no#I had to post my shit to wattpad#smh I need a time machine#ao3#ao3 fanfic#there also would've been a follow up note about me being paralyzed for a week#and then getting a rare pneumonia that put me in the ICU#and then I almost drowned#my life has been very interesting
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currently cooking....................
currently cooking.
#idk what this is but it'll be posted on ao3 within the next hours (two hours at a push) lmaooooooooooo#just thinking abt how the fma pt 3 live action royai could've been soooooooooooooooooooooooo sexy w all the almost dying and everything#bb discord iykyk#so decided to dive in head first and think up some Thots (:#royai#emma talks#emma writes
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To all wanting an update: I am hoping to get chapter 29 of Carve My Name Into Your Skin out next month. I was really hoping to make it for January but I just haven't had the time.
To those who are unaware, I began my Masters Program at the start of Jan and that is literally all I've been doing. It doesn't leave my mind with much clarity afterward, so the writing has been incredibly slow.
Ironically the chapter is getting long despite this as I've been working on it when I can. I was hoping there would be a place to break it off, as I've done with the last few chapters concerning the scene with Thorfinn and Bjorn. Make it a 4 part, instead of my planned 3 part. But there has been no good spot to end the chapter, unless I did it mid-dialogue which isn't something I want to do.
Currently the chapter is sitting at 18k, very close to 19k honestly. I have a possible place I could break it off a bit further from where I am and end the chapter early since the conversation will be switching but . . . we shall see. That would be great.
Either way, thought I'd let you all know! Wishing you all a fantastic rest of your weekend and a good luck to the start of your week. You got this~
#thought I'd give you all an update. I believe some who follow me are here from ao3 specifically#and I wanted you all to know that I am still working on the story.#ugh I wish I could've updated this month but it wasn't in the cards.#i knew it would drop severely given they slam you with the easiest class and the hardest class your first semester#and both have a shit ton of reading regardless so it leaves you kinda dead thought-wise lol#can't wait to get the next update out though. hoping you guys will like it#writing#personal#a little bout me#fanfiction#ao3#writing update#Carve My Name Into Your Skin update#i would add the ship names but I know Tumblr won't put this on the tag unless I mess with this post over and over again#and I'm just to tired to do that tonight#so no askefinn or askefinnbjorn aside from this#hope you're all well regardless
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Ok I'm gonna tell you all a story of my early fanfiction days.
Kiddie me was like, religious, and first discovered fanfiction at like age 10 or 11, and one result of this was that I would read fics in which characters swore but I wouldn't bookmark them.
And like, if I enjoyed the fic I would go back and reread it whenever, give kudos or whatever the site equivalent was, I would give it a review/comment and never once mention the inclusion of profanity, in all other ways treat it like any other piece of fanfiction but somehow I thought that if I bookmarked any fic, no matter how good, with a single f-bomb or even the word "damn" or "shit" then God would disapprove and I'd go to Hell.
Hilarious, right? No logic whatsoever. Just beliefs from my upbringing I was either not neurologically developed enough or not exposed to the world outside our hyperreligious bubble enough to question yet mixing with a world my parents, pastors, and peers didn't know existed with results that could only make sense to a child.
But. Here's a weird one.
Around 18/19/20 I'd long since shed so much of that, swore normally myself, and figured if any god worth worshipping existed it had much more important things to intervene in on earth than whether people said "fuck" but I did think a/b/o fiction was inherently anti-feminist and promoted homophobic stereotypes etc. And I knew the difference between fiction that portrayed a society that was unfair to omegas and one that actually vilified the associated traits but I thought being willing to engage with the concept of any biochemical basis for sexual or social roles at all was still patriarchal and therefore harmful.
So what did I do whenever I encountered a fic I liked that used a/b/o worldbuilding? Well, read and kudos as normal but never ever bookmark it, of course. And let me be clear that I'm not only referring to like ao3 bookmarks, I wouldn't even bookmark the page in my browser or download the fic or subscribe by email or anything. I'd even keep coming back for regular updates to see how plots I was engaged in ended as long as I didn't do anything to make it more convenient for myself!
I didn't think I'd go to hell if I broke this rule, because I no longer believed in the Christian cosmology, but I did think I'd somehow cause myself to relearn some level of the societal shit I'd had very good reason to unlearn and possibly even risk being brainwashed back to the religion I'd worked so hard to extricate myself from. Or at the very least that I was somehow encouraging other people to be misogynistic and homophobic by... requiring fewer clicks from myself to read their work?
And that is a story of how similar uncritical (or insufficiently critical) self-monitoring for the sake of not being problematic is to an overly religious preteen thinking God gives a shit about swearing.
Coincidentally (read: not at all coincidentally) that 18-20ish phase was right around where I'd definitely realized I was not content simply living as a tomboy or a butch woman, but wouldn't dare think of being trans because at the time I saw trans manhood as somehow betraying everyone else who was subjected to misogyny and furthering traditional gender roles and so on. You know, TERF logic. In case you ever thought it was primarily trans and nob-binary people or third wave feminists etc behind this progressive puritan shit, let me assure you there were (and still are) plenty of second wavers, LGB cis women and trans-exclusive feminists of all sorts involved.
#fanfiction#censorship#ao3#feminism#critical thinking#also yes i could've been just like the 'which one of you meaners told' post if i'd been the type to edit reblogs when i had my 1st tumblr
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